i wasnt sure if i should wait to post all of my absolute zero chibs as a batch or post them as i go... but i’m too impatient to wait so here are two little hawk party guys!!

happy cat day🎉

One of my favourite stories in greek mythology is that of Persephone and Hades.

Ok ok let me explain because this is probably one of the most well known myths. There are mainly two translations, or two versions of the story that are told and they are quite different.

The first one (and probably the most true to the original texts) is that basically Hades thought Kore (Persephone) was a beautiful young goddess and he wanted her to be his wife (it's often said he did in fact fall in love with her) so he kidnapped her (basically) and she was forced to live in the underworld for half of every year tied to the place by being tricked into eating the pomegranate (it was magical hehe) allowing her only to go to earth and her mother in spring (which is how the ancient Greeks explained the seasons). And basically she lives a miserable life with a manipulative husband that is supposedly in love with her. (In some interpretation she falls in love with him after a while).

Anyway..... there is a much newer and personally my favourite version of the myth written about by many modern authors and it goes kind of like this: a misunderstood, rough, dark and mysterious king of the underworld (Hades) meets a young maiden while he's on earth. She is sweet and kind and beautiful (but also terrifying and soon gains the name Persephone which is much less innocent than Kore). They meet and Persephone finds this softness underneath all the king of the dead stuff and they slowly fall in love (a love which Persephone's mother (Demeter) is furious about). In an attempt to be able to love each other for eternity Hades poses a solution: eat the (magical) pomegranate and be basically tied to the underworld for the better part of the year (still explaining the seasons). She is torn between her love and her mother but decides to stay in the underworld with Hades. Here, somehow, the goddess of spring flourishes and transforms the underworld and its king into a much less melancholy place.

Personally I'm obsessed with both stories (the latter being my favourite still haha). I just think it is such a beautiful myth that explains sacrifice and desire and death and earth and anger and hard choices but it also demonstrates the deepness of people and the complexity of love.

Anyway I was just thinking about it and how much I loved it so I had to share.

Find someone slightly annoying but in really small harmless ways so I decide none of the behaviours are worth bringing up with them → realizing: hey, Im also annoying! solidarity! → realizing we have a lot in common and starting to bond → finding out other people find this person annoying and are vocal about it behind their back → finding out this person has ADHD like me that's (at least one reason) why we have all these traits in common → fear.

hey girlie it’s me, sam winchesters gay lover, your mootie 🥰🥰🥰 i just wanted to let you know, that your tags on the post about that wincest video are based and i agree with every word, hashtag slay couldn’t agree more i loved reading your essay in those tags heart ❤️

omg thank you!!! i'm basically only capable of talking in essays whether people want me to or not, unfortunately

i just have a lot of feelings on this topic and the whole "canon or not canon" argument is weird to me; the themes are pretty darn clear in supernatural (it is NOT known for its subtlety) so idk man. they don't have to kiss to be canon. and they don't have to have a romantic relationship to be canon either. how many times do they get into relationships with other people only for it to be treated as cheating/betrayal/abandonment, only for them have to give up that relationship in order to reaffirm their devotion to their brother

that's just what the text says. i'm not under any kind of delusion that they have some secret sexual or romantic relationship, but that doesn't change that sam and dean are each other's most important person regardless of that. which is really awesome imo, that romance isn't treated as more important than whatever horrible thing they have with each other, and that they don't have to consummate their relationship with romance/sex in order for it to be the most important one they have

(and of course there's romantic/sexual subtext, like parallels and metaphors and misunderstandings and jokes, but to me that just provides a solid foundation for presenting this relationship between them as the most important even though it's not romantic or sexual—because this language of romance is the only one we know, really, when it comes to writing important relationships between characters. it's the only one we know in our own personal lives, to a large extent. so you use the romance/sexuality to symbolize the actual bond they have. which is so much worse lmao)

anyway i think spn is fairly unique in this way because of how no other relationships can really ever stand parallel to the one they share; even in other shows that center male friendship, romance is allowed to coexist with brotherhood. for sam and dean, it's not, and that becomes a point of tension and conflict and resolution many, many times over the course of the show. so like yeah!!! just because it's not romantic or sexual doesn't mean it's not canon, in the sense that their relationship is the point of the show, and it is the most important relationship they have. they chose each other above all else, every single time. yknow, it's "the epic love story of sam and dean" and all that

totk really is one of those games that make me go "ok thanks for the characters, setting, and general plot, but ill take it from here <3" because the entire historical timeline had so much potential for interesting and nuanced story telling but they just went with the old zelda story formula and YES thats how theyve always done it but botw was such a reset in terms of gameplay that they couldve overhauled how they handle story in totk. but they didnt

how unfortunate that i have two hyperfixations, several side interests, and a load of homework all clamoring at the same time for priority in my brain

how to write vent post title that does not come off as self-pitying and or accusatory (because it's NOT !)

Holy cow.

TIL the word for how a word or a name is pronounced is written as "pronunciation". I really thought it was "pronounciation".

Pro-Nun. Well I love Arknights Specter.

That reminds me some years ago I was absolutely bamboozled by "similar" & "available", I thought those were written as "similiar" & "avaible" .

My life is a lie.. all this from being curious on how to pronounce "Berrien County Jail".

𝐎𝐎𝐂; I apparently only posted this when it was a WIP couple of years ago but never posted the 'finished' greyscale piece so I am posting here now just to share... Vaedar and his winged baby, Azaes.

no one asked bUT imma go off (affectionate) anyways. ahem:

edse (practicum): portfolio is completed, did portfolio presentation this morning, blog is updated, have all the rubrics... DONE

347: major identity essay? done. final “essay”? done. just gotta go to class tomorrow so we can meet for the final exam time slot and we are going to. talk about books. no more assignments, yay!

395: edtpa? DONE. reflection? DONE. self-evaluation for edtpa? DONE. now, all i have to do is edit edtpa and then submit it for like Official grading and not class grading

405: presentation? made and presented. revision portfolio and reflection? DONE (finished it like fifteen minutes ago lol)

444: giant research paper? DONE. reflection? done. presentation? DONE. just gotta go to the final exam period thursday to watch the rest of the presentations, but no more work for meeeeeeee

and then finally... 305... the only final i actually have left...

Armas and Orin relationship

aka. I am going to ramble about Armas and Orin

I think if only Armas and Orin would have met earlier and if only they were not stuck in their respective roles, they would have gotten along so splendidly.

Armas has very similar skills to Orin - being a rogue and a bard - that they would have so much to bond over. They both have this theatric poetry way of speaking and Armas enjoy a artful skill with death, despite what canon says. Orin skills with being able to change her appearence would have been something that Armas would have truly admired and not afraid to show it. They would have liked Orin's cruelty and sense of humor and would have - happily - gone along with Orin's schemes.

But they did not met early in their lives and so they are stuck in their roles. So, Orin and Armas are already adults when they meet and it's that kind of situation, where two formed abused kids from a same dad but different mom meet. There is a lot of resentment and a lot of 'I-have-suffered-more-than-you-and-I-understand-what-Father-wants,' thing going on.

Orin feel like Armas is taking away the only life she's known, by changing the temple and how it works. She sees their abilities and views them as cheap imitation of her abilities. She's very fearful of Bhaal not needing her anymore, fearful of not being enough and loosing her position in the temple, since even Sarevok believes Armas's being the Chosen of Bhaal. And that fear shows up by lashing out.

Armas on the other hand is selfish and self-centered, because of the lived they lived and these traits only get worse, when they are situation they don't want to be - namely leading a cult of murder - and living in fear of their Father. All the things I previously I wrote Armas would have liked about Orin are now viewed in a very negative light. They, rightfully, think Orin is lashing out of fear but rather than symphatizing with this, they find her childish and thinking Orin's is getting off easy. They think Orin is trying to imitate them, her sense of humor is annoying, her kills take too much time, she doesn't show proper respect etc. Lot of unspoken anger that only comes out, when they get into a proper fight.

Anyway yeah I think that pretty much their dynamic in the beginning. I think as the time goes on they kinda settle into a... uneasy alliance? Armas can count Orin to do cult papery stuff, since they don't have patience for it and Orin can trust Armas to lead their cult, since they do have skills for it. Neither would acknowledge it and they would just add it to a another reason for hating the other person.

The problem with my brain having been obsessed with knowing what fictional characters' singing voices sound like since I was a little kid, and especially now that I'm a vocalist as an adult, is that I can't listen to hardly anything without that voice in the back of my head being like "oh this sound. This specific moment in this specific verse or chorus or whatever. That's specifically what xyz character(s) would sound like!" And I hyperfixate on that for the rest of my life and I craft so many headcanons 😭

That being said, when he's singing seriously Atticus has an incredible voice argue with the wall. Atty has a very wide range but his voice really lives and thrives in the mid range. But he likes to sing higher pitches whenever he gets the chance and is very good at harmonizing. When he gets Chazz to sing with him he always let's Chazz take the melody as often as possible and harmonizes over him. He also plays like every fuckin stringed instrument and hosts weekly campfire jams for the J-Squad to unwind and hang out and de-stress ☺ he always schedules them around his and Chazz's Saturday night sleepovers so they never miss one 😌

Chazz can also sing but doesn't discover it until Atticus gets him to sing with him during like a campfire jam session or one of their regular hangouts. His voice is best suited for more mellow, slower songs like me wow wonder why I headcanon that 🙄. and everyone is very impressed by his vocals, but he gets huffy and embarrassed whenever anyone compliments his voice. In my head his vocal range is on the lower to mid range side and has a very nice rasp to it, especially on the lower pitches where it's a little more prevalent and compliments Atty's voice so they blend very well.

Jaden has the perfect pop punk voice. Just the perfect tone and range, perfectly unrefined sound for it too. But if anyone asked he would shrug and say he couldn't sing. Of course he can, but he doesn't particularly think he's all that good and doesn't really care if he can or not, it's not that important to him like card games are so he'd rather not call attention to it askskskks. His ego is reserved for card games and card games alone 🤭. But he always hypes up the others during Atty's campfire jams and he participates fairly often because he thinks it's fun and everyone else seems to enjoy it when he does so he's down for it. He also lives in the mid range but has a pretty strong upper register for belting out those pop punk classics 😌 Dear Maria is his now Alex

Alexis is an alto, she lives in the mid to lower register, she does have a little bit of an upper register too but she lives on the lower side. Her voice is very warm and soothing and mature and just nice af. But she's self conscious about it so she doesn't sing very much and almost never around other people. Leading to the theory that when the subject could come up she, like Jay, would says she couldn't sing but unlike Jay, she just isn't confident in her voice even though it's very good. Atty likes to nudge her to try and get her to sing with him at his campfire jams, but she always declines. He keeps trying though 🤭

Hassleberry has a surprisingly good voice, very warm like Alexis's and lives in the mid to lower register like her. If she sang, they would blend very well I think. He's private about his voice too, but he'd be fine if the crew find out about it. His southern drawl is still quite prevalent when he sings and it really elevates the gentle warmth of his voice. His vocals are unrefined and amateurish but they're still very strong. He prefers songs with simpler melodies and really thrives in softer, more melodious country/bluegrass music which isn't a surprise to anyone but the fact that his voice is so warm and gentle despite his rough exterior makes people view him in a different light. But in a good way 🙂 he's embarrassed at first when the J-Squad finds out he can sing, but he comes around quickly and has participated in a couple campfire jams himself every once in a while.

Syrus's isn't very different from his regular speaking voice at all I don't think. He has a very young sounding voice and he hates it. It's not bad by any means, he just feels self conscious about it like Alexis but also like he's self conscious about literally everything. Same my guy. That being said, he's a tenor. He has almost no lower register but he has enough of one 👍. His voice is very light, which he's also self conscious about. And he tends to stick to humming, he feels less embarrassed and self conscious that way and wouldn't die on the spot if anyone heard him. Also like me, if he is actually singing along to a song and it gets too low or he just feels like it's too low, he sings it up the octave.

And unsurprisingly at least to me, I feel like Bastion has the most old fashioned type of voice. His range is also very wide like Atty's is. He knows he can sing and is confident about it around strangers, but if anyone he knew heard him or complimented his voice he'd blush and get very embarrassed in an adorable way. Honestly he enjoys the compliments but he doesn't really know how to handle getting them for something not having to do with how smart he is, so he gets flustered when people compliment his voice, to varying degrees depending on how well he knows the person complimenting him or not. That being said, if you want anyone singing the old school classics at the Christmas party or some golden age musicals, you want Bastion.

ok i don't know WHAT kind of brain fart I had but I've been thinking today marks 6 months since I started shipping with Bob... IT'S NOT SIX DLSKJFKSF IT'S EIGHT 😳😳😳 8 MONTHS!!!

so today i learned i don't know how to count but idec bc it's my 8 month bobiversarry lol ❤️

goose I hope ur blorbo wins in the poll actually 👍 I vote glenn 4 the bit and also because I'm more into dndads than wtnv rn but !!! carlos my bbg ily

Thank yough... ALSO THAT'S COMPLETELY FAIR DW FJDJJWJF

He's actually going surprisingly strong rn, Carlos as been stuck between 53 and 54% for a few days, Glenn fans are fighting HARD, mad respect for y'all HRHDHE

today at work a man with his family asked if we had any eggs (the egg fridge was empty). and i said well to be honest we have one packet in the back that is missing two eggs and 10 days out of date. and he said well we'll take anything. and so i give him these eggs and i go to the back and what is arriving but the egg delivery. and so i grab 2 dozen eggs and race out to find him and his whole party gasped. the level of excitement and joy on their faces youd think i brought them God or a magic trick. and the small child with them reached up to me to grab these eggs and carried them with the gingerness of someone carrying a small wounded animal or a fresh souflee. and they all thanked me very much and left on their way and i like to imagine they were making a big breakfast for them and all their family over to visit. and theyd eat them with toast and bacon and coffee and orange juice and feel very lucky