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sxltburn · 2 years

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mickey milkovich + smiles

#For The Birthday Boyyyy #cos he deserves all the happiness in the world #with all the horrible shit he went through its so good to see him happy #shameless #shamelessedit #mickey milkovich #gallavich #myedits #shamelessnet #celestialmacy #gardenermel #userita #userlizliz #userdebs #heyjulissa #bricomesee #usermai

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cult-of-the-eye · 6 months

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Obligatory tma halloween headcanons post:

tim and sasha are OBVIOUSLY barbie and ken from the barbie movie (other people have said it before and i'll gladly support it)

martin is some horribly obscure costume from a book or a poem no one really knows about and he gets a bit sad that no one knows who he is but then sasha does a quick google and subtly drops hints to everyone to go be like "heyyyy martin, amazing x costume" and then he cheers up

jon just refuses to dress up and everyone (especially Tim) bullies him like "oh amazing socially inept man who's desperately trying to seem good at his job costume!! you've got it spot on!!" and he's so furious that he puts on a costume

and in every iteration of these headcanons, martin is FLOORED at whatever he eventually dresses up as and i am all for that i will eat that shit up

he's so starved for interactions with his crush that he goes feral over jon in non-office clothes

favourite jon costumes include: normal clothes plus cat ears, normal clothes and everyone thinks he's come as a vampire, normal clothes in the later seasons and sasha would be like "jon its not ok for you to dress up as a homeless person" with a shit eating grin and jon's like ...what

bonus - jon doesn't need to dress up cause he's already got his costume - it's someone who's good at their job!!

elias LOVES halloween i bet that man is like fuck yeah i can freak out my archival workers in a whole host of new ways - plastic spiders around the office for jon, little clown dolls for tim, eyes EVERYWHERE and its so gaudy and terrible and everyone despises him

also he really doubles down on calling jon the archivist

i feel like tim secretly hates halloween now but in like early working at the institute, he went along with it cause martin put out a little pumpkin on his desk and sasha smiled at it

melanie fucking loves halloween, she's a legitimately terrifying costume, let's go through the haunted house kinda gal and i love that for her. she's a lets watch all three human centipedes in one night and see what happens kinda gal

daisy and basira despise it cause of all the weird shit that people pull on halloween (and they're on edge that they'll be called for some section 31 shit for all of it)

jon also hates halloween for a similar reason - the increase of joke statements and general taking the piss about the magnus institute

yeah that's all i got. HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!

#tma #the magnus archives #jonathan sims #martin k blackwood #jmart #tim stoker #sasha james #elias bouchard #alice daisy tonner #basira hussain #section 31 #halloween headcanons #melanie king #jonmartin #please add your own

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generalllimaginesss · 5 months

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"If the entire human population was in front of me, I'd still choose you” with Jack.

I can only imagine what it would be like to have fans attack you if you were publicly dating him. I feel like Jack is so conscious of this. And he’s just soft boyfriend Jack trying to block out the unnecessary noise.

Maybe they just went public and she’s getting a lot of hate and it’s making her insecure. And Jack reminds her that it’s just them against the world and the only people whose opinions matter are their family and friends who love her.

Warnings: self depreciation, insecurities, self image issues, etc. Please don't read if you're not in a good headspace!!!

This is probably my favorite thing that I’ve written. I hope you like it as much as I enjoyed writing it!!

plus size! reader x Jack Hughes

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You knew that dating somebody in the limelight would have its challenges. Hell, dating an average person was hard. But nothing could have prepared you for the magnitude of hate that hit as soon as Jack went public with your relationship.

It wasn't like the relationship was new. The two of you had been dating for almost a year before he decided to post you on his Instagram. You let Jack set the pace since he was used to the attention. He could let things go in one ear and out the other a lot easier than you could. He was almost conditioned to be able to do that. You, on the other hand, took everything very personally. Every comment about your weight, about what you wore, about how Jack looked miserable with you, they all hit you like a ton of bricks.

You didn't understand why all of these people were coming at you saying so many horrible things, but Jack tried his best to ease your mind and remind you that at the end of the day it was you and him.

He did a really good job at this normally, but he was away on a roadie for a few days and things began to get really bad. This started when you saw a fan account for Jack post something about how Jack downgraded from Sienna to you and all of the comments agreeing.

It was like a rabbit hole...once you clicked on that post it led you to many others. They all made you feel like shit, but when people started commenting on your body, saying that they "didn't know Jack dated plus size girls," it hurt. Your body was yours. It wasn't like you could just zip it off and find a new one, but if you could you would, just to shut the comments up.

You spent the 3 days Jack was gone in a really dark depression. No laundry was done, you hadn't showered, and you barely could make yourself get out of bed to brush your teeth. Dishes piled in the sink, but you couldn't make yourself do them. You knew the signs of your depression, but you welcomed them in a way, almost like a coping mechanism. Not allowing people to see you was the only way the haters couldn't get new material. Was it a healthy way to cope? Obviously not, but it was what worked in the moment.

As soon as Jack walked through the front door, returning from the games, he could tell something wasn't right. You always kept up with the chores when he was away, normally making the house spotless before he got back. So when he saw the state of the kitchen and eventually the rest of the house, he knew something was off.

When he walked into the bedroom and saw that you were pretty much in the same spot he left you in he immediately dropped his bags and climbed into the bed with you, forcing you to look at him.

He gently shifted your body to face him, cupping your cheek gently with his hand.

"Baby, what happened," He made note of the streaks that stained your face, probably from countless hours of crying. He wanted to make them disappear immediately. You were his happy-go-lucky, carefree girl. You danced around the house all the time, singing whatever song was playing. This side of you was uncharted territory that he wanted to take away so bad.

"I just need you to hold me," You began to hyperventilate, worried that if he didn't hold you that he would leave you. Even though that would never in a million years cross his mind. But he did as you asked, and whether it was for 5 minutes or 30 minutes, he didn't know. He held you until you pulled away.

"Can we talk about it?" Jack asked, pulling the hair that crusted on your cheek from the tears out of your face. He treated you like you were fragile, and you hated that he felt that way.

"It's just the comments, Jack. I'm already insecure sometimes and these people come at me in so many horrible ways," You began to explain, loose tears streaming down your face, but you were composed otherwise.

"They compare me to Sienna, and God, I know I'm not as pretty as her. They tell me I'm fat and that they didn't know you dated "fat" girls. It's just insane. Do they not realize that I actually am a real person with real emotions? Do they know that I've believed, at some point in time, the things they are saying? I've worked so hard to get to this place where I'm at, to love who I am, and within the span of 3 days they just tear it all down," You let the words just flow from your mouth, whatever thought that comes to mind is voiced to Jack.

"Baby, they don't care. They don't care because they're jealous," He tries to soothe you, but it almost made you mad. Not at Jack, but at the whole situation.

"What the fuck are they jealous of? My thighs that I cover with leggings and pants so that I won't have to go through the pain of them chafing? Are they jealous of the fucking stretch marks that go up my stomach, so I refuse to wear regular bikini bottoms? I mean what the fuck, do they want my anxiety and depression? I will gladly give them that..." The tears were beginning to pick up, but Jack continued to rub your back, waiting to get the chance to speak again.

"I know you could have any girl you wanted. It makes me sick when I see some blonde walk past that looks like she stepped out of a magazine because I know that's what you deserve. You don't deserve this. You're Jack fucking Hughes," You looked at him, your lip quivering. You were going to say something else, but Jack put his finger on your lips, gently stopping you from continuing.

"You gotta stop that. I can't let you keep putting yourself down like this, not when I love you with my whole fucking heart," He began.

"First off, I had that. I had whatever you consider a girl walking out of a magazine is. Look how that turned out. It didn't, did it? You don't look like Sienna, and I'm so fucking glad because I don't want her kind of beautiful. I want your kind. I want to see all of the things on your body that show me that you lived. I don't want some manufactured cookie-cutter girlfriend. I want somebody that nobody else has," He pulled you in for a hug, continuing to talk while placing kisses ever so gently on your cheek and neck, looking out the window at the busyness that was the outside world. All he could think about was how you didn't see what he saw. Why couldn't you see it?

"Baby, I want you to realize something. If the entire human population was in front of me, I'd still choose you. Without a second thought, with no regrets. Every. Single. Time. You have such a special relationship with my brothers and that means the absolute world to me. They love you so much. My parents tell me I should marry you anytime that you come up in the conversation. The entire team has commented on how much happier I am with you. And if I'm being completely honest, at the end of the day I don't give a damn what anybody else has to say because it's me and you until the end. Do you understand me?" He broke the hug, cupping your face with both hands and wiping at the tears with his thumbs.

"I love you," You whisper, your voice long gone by now.

Jack pulls your forehead toward his lips, kissing it for a few seconds before letting your head go.

"I love you, too. More than you, or anybody else, will ever know. Now, I think we could go for some cleaning karaoke, yeah? I'll wash the dishes if you'll dry them," He poked at your side, trying, and succeeding, in forcing a grin on your face.

"Only if we can get a shower together afterwards," You bargained, taking in the beautiful boy.

"Deal," He says and drags you off to the kitchen, connecting his phone the the speaker and blaring Dierks Bentley's new song "Beer at My Funeral," occasionally twirling you in a circle.

The water may or may not have gotten everywhere since Jack decided it was a good idea to spray you with the hose that connected to the sink, but he enjoyed every second that he got chased by you around the island.

Once the dishes were put up and the shower washed away the remaining bit of your depression, Jack couldn't help but to just admire you. He promised himself then that he would remind you so often of how beautiful you were so that would be the only words ringing through your head, taking up any space that the hate may have. Because it was true. You were the most beautiful and precious thing that had ever walked into his life, and he'd be damned if anyone made you feel otherwise.

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#nhl imagine #nhl fic #jack hughes #nhl fanfiction #quinn hughes #trevor zegras #alex turcotte #cole caufield #jack hughes imagines #nico hischier #jack hughes imagine #jack hughes x reader #jh86

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lilmashae · 5 months

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Ok, so imagine Jay as your manager, always ordering you around and treating you horrible. You hate him, but what you don't know is that he has a massive crush on you.

So, one night, you forget something at the office (like a coat or something), and when you come back, you catch him jerking off to your piece of clothing, I'll leave the rest to you.

Love ya 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

i could kiss you right now, this is a beautiful idea 😭 thank you 'nonnie, love you too mama 🫶🏽 !

6 : 00 PM — finally, you were off.

work was exhausting — it always is with the way your manager is always scolding you. everything you do is wrong.

those files you went through? go through them again, rewrite that report. that presentation? awful, try again. you were (barely) late coming back from lunch? work harder, be on time! you would never hear the end of it.

jay's picky, ordering you around — treating you horribly, you wouldn't even trust him with your coffee. he's an asshole. so yes, you're more than happy to be off — free from jay's nagging for a whole weekend.

or so you thought.

it wasn't until you were halfway to your car, keys in hand, purse in the other — the cool autumn air kissed your skin and yet, something was missing.

keys, purse... coat — you'd forgotten your coat.

"dammit..." pinching the bridge of your nose you turned around, waltzing back up into the office building. the first place you checked was your desk. nothing. where else could it be?

you paced back and forth — lost in thought before you were interrupted by shuffling and what (at the time) sounded like an eerie whining.

you were prepared for anything — a vengeful ghost or just a creaky door, left open and swinging on its hinges. what you weren't prepared for, was seeing your big, mean manager stroking his cock in the meeting room.

fuck! it's fine, all you have to do is get your coat and leave — you could go home and pretend you never saw jay with his long, thick dick snug in his fist, his head thrown back — whining.

what shocked you more, though? tough, grumpy jay's whimpers and cries — his soft choked out moans and... your name?

"f-fuck... y/n." jay's fingers pumped his shaft, thumb tracing his tip — a dusty pink. angry and blushed. "such a good fucking girl... always— sh..shit! doing whatever i tell her to." you watched as he continuously tugged his cock, the head leaking sticky precum that spilt onto his fingers. jay's cock was pretty — so pretty, with veins adorning the slight curve of his length. jay held his bottom lip between his teeth. he seethed curses and heavy huffs of air.

you'd be lying if you said jay wasn't attractive — you'd also be lying if you said you weren't wet.

arousal pooled in between your legs, and suddenly your tights were extremely uncomfortable. your thighs rubbed together as you watched him get closer and closer to cumming. the fuzzy-like feeling in your stomach only grew, spreading to your body.

lost in the sight before you, you almost didn't notice where his eyes fell:

your coat.

guidelines and disclaimers!

i've got to end it here 😭 i don't want this ask to rot away in my drafts, so here and maybe i'll work on a part two 😋

#lil-ma-shae #enhypen smut #jay smut #jay park smut #enhypen x reader #enha smut #enha hard hours #enha hyung line

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bonefall · 26 days

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PLEASE make Whitewater be the one who kills Weaselkit. It would be so (tragically) cool, like just thinking about it reminds me of other amazing BB scenes like the Elderberry and Ferncloud scene but on a smaller, background character scale. It would also be a cool parallel type thing to Spiderleg who attempts to kill his son during the same battle. Obviously Spiderleg and Toadstep don’t personally care about the death of a non-Thunderclan kit, so it’s not like they would be aware of the other family murder happening, but WE would know. And we would be shitting our pants. (I’m a sucker for generational trauma and parents failing to protect their children in fiction please mister bonefall)

I HAVE to do it. It fits too well. It's absolutely shockingly tragic and horrrible. Hell opened up and Owlclaw's worst nightmare came lunging out. I have so many thoughts.

Owlclaw has had a whole life dealing with the neglect and abuse he went through, taking it out on others as a bully, and it's only now seeming to get any better

Mentor Oakfur being even more of a parent to him than any other apprentice he's had, knowing Owlpaw needed it.

Whitewater had FINALLY died. It hurt like nothing else, because in spite of everything he loved his mother... but he was FREE

And maybe she was, too. Maybe in StarClan she could watch over him, perhaps now with distance her memory can be something positive.

There was a time he might have wished suffering on her. But he's going to be a dad, now. He's learned that holding onto grudges never seems to do anything constructive.

He started his new life with Pinenose, still in their honeymoon phase. They're a young couple and everything is moving fast, they're welcoming two little twins.

Weaselkit and... Happykit. He still thinks it's silly, but he said it as a sardonic joke because he couldn't think of a good name and Pinenose beamed. How could he burst her bubble?

He has NO idea that his mother didn't ascend to StarClan. Shes doonstairs. He's daring to assume the best, and she's embracing the worst.

She doesn't need long to be completely onboard with Tigerstar's scheme. She didn't even need a discussion with Hawkfrost. The only reason StarClan would throw her down here is because there's a problem.

So, she'll put it right.

The IMMEDIATE validation she feels seeing Harespring training in the Dark Forest is intoxicating. They ARE cursed!! One of them already found its way here!

(AND the spawn of that damn TRAITOR, Crowfeather. The bastard who betrayed Mudclaw's coup.)

Harespring started training here out of curiosity, and a speck of heresy to be totally honest. He wanted to know his biofather, Mudclaw, and StarClan couldn't be all that wonderful if it would allow his brother Kestrelflight to be forced into the Cleric's den so young.

But NOW, having met Mudclaw and hearing his side of the story, and now WHITEWATER landing here as well...

...he has never had stronger faith in StarClan before. Mudclaw was horrible enough. Whitewater is unhinged.

There is no doubt in his mind that these two belong here. The sad stories are outweighed by cases like these, so in his opinion, there SURELY must be things he doesn't know about innocuous cats like Houndleap and Featherwhisker.

He hates coming here, every moment he's trapped with one of his bioparents is a moment he wishes he was spending with papa Torear.

Harespring betrays the Dark Forest the minute he has a chance to. But it doesn't stop Whitewater.

Weaselkit's death happened so fast and they were so young that Happykit can barely remember it. Was it after Dustpelt crunched? ...he thinks it was during.

I can't imagine Happykit will be told about Whitewater until he's much older, but... he knows Weaselkit's death is what drives the wedge between his parents

(Of course that's too simple to be correct. Happy's smart in the way that you get when you have to grow up quick, but still a kid at the end of the day. Owlclaw backslid into old, destructive ways. Pinenose can't handle him and their child and her grief at the same time. They were a young couple to begin with. It shattered like glass.)

I'm not sure who dealt with Whitewater during the Battle of the True Eclipse, but she is definitely double dead. Part of me wants to make it Spikefur, Pinenose's next mate. But Owlclaw dealing with his mother a minute too late, after FINALLY finding peace with it all, is also gut-wrenching.

#BB!Whitewater #BB!Pinenose #BB!Happyface #BB!Owlclaw #Better bones au #Battle of the true eclipse #Botte #BB!OOTS

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homkamiro · 3 months

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I LOVE THE TF2 MLP AU SM. it gives me sm nostalgia to when i was a kid and i and everyone in the fandom made pony aus of franchises we liked- im so happy cringe is dead and tradition is alive 🥹

ALSO THE INFECTION AU POST. GOOD SHIT;!;!!!!!!!!!! gore and body horror are inseparable from (hopefully only the mature part of) the mlp fandom and i felt so giddy jumping for joy kicking my feet up seeing that it had a resurgence!! Your post of this au with your tf2 ponies was my introduction to it!!! Nature is healinggggg

That post is BOMB. WE GOT: 1) HEAVYMEDIC ANGST. 2) PYRO & ENGIE ANGST. 3) BOOTS & BOMBS ANGST. 4) DADSPY ANGST. 5) SNIPER ANGST. ITS GIVING💅🏽💅🏽💅🏽 and the way the disease spreads differently for all of them is so creative!!!!!! Engie wants to sever the infected body part but cant cus its on his back and he needs medics help for that (and med is way too far gone to do any operation), and scout doesn't want his wings severed even tho that would save him cus he still wants to fly!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

also soldier misinterpreting the request is so good. And pyro wanting to help but not being allowed to cus they'd try to burn engie. Demo drinking himself to death cus he cant handle seeing his friend in the state that he's in. Sniper disappearing cus he wants to be with his parents during this horrible time even tho they have a strained relationship. Spy wanting his son to live through this so much that he's planning to sever his wings himself. And heavyyyyyy. Heavy breaking his heart everyday still taking care of medic knowing he's going to have to kill the love of his life soon. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Anyways sorry for fuckin. Screaming in your asks and basically just repeating what you wrote sgjdjd. I just really love this au (and especially that comic with scout, medic and engie!!!) and the infection au post made me so nostalgic to the early days of the mlp fandom that the adhd went mental and i had to shout about it lol- feel free to not respond to this! Youre awesome! Keep doing you!!!!!!

(also youre really good at drawing gore????? Hello teach me pls)

WHAT A BIG FEEDBACK OHMYGODヽ⁠(⁠(⁠◎⁠д⁠◎⁠)⁠)⁠ゝ

Anyway I'm really super puper glad you liked my au!! I was a little hesitant to post it, since AU in AU sounds weird but I'm glad I thought otherwise - cringe culture should be dead!! Mix your hyperfixations it's good for your health!!!

AND AHHHHGGGGGH You noticed so many details thankyouuu🥺💗💗💗The best thing about this AU is that every ship and brotp can work so well in this story. Engie first helping Medic but then ending up being also infected??? Spy checking up on Engie and making him eat since he's too stressed to take a break??? Demo, Heavy and Pyro comforting each other after loosing their friends??? Spy and Scout both raging on Sniper for leaving like a coward??? Or maybe Heavy, as an earth pony, comforts Scout after he just got his wings amputated??? So many possibilities!!

Don't worry, I love when people are noticing all the details and just get,, really invested into my stuff, it really brings me joy and you made my day so much better!!🥺🥺I feel honestly a little insecure, since my pony designs and thoughts may not be the best, but I'm glad that so many people still like my mlp×tf2 stuff!! It's really endearing to know that finally something I like making is also likable to you!

About gore -- I have no idea😭I love gore but it's a pain to draw properly and scary, you'd need practice and references (I mostly use art references since yknow,,,real photos can make me sick)

#homa rambles #tf2 mlp au #okay so I actually think about making some infection au comics and stuff

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crabonfire · 1 year

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unsure if it’s been done before, or if you’re comfortable with it, but mercs as parents ? :]

the way I gasped when I saw this bcs omg yes!!!! mercs as parents babeyyy B)

Mercs as parents!

characters: all mercs!!

warning: none!! some are a tiny bit sad but still hapy

NOTE!!! sorry this is very...long overdue. when exams came out I just got writers block, I had to focus on exams...thank god they are ending in a couple days GAHSHHDHDHFHF

also some are shorter than others...m very sorry bbg :(

♡Scout♡

• aw

• I don't know this is honestly really cute

• he has some... Doubts. Like any parents do, but seeing the happiness on your face and your child(ren) s face whenever you talk to him? that makes all the worry go away baby.

• such a good dad. he smothers them with love and affection, definitely pretends to be santa claus on Christmas (if you celebrate it) and teaches those kids to be tough.

• DEFINITELY takes them out to play baseball. your kids are baseball fans take it or leave it.

• I really don't have much to say other than the fact he'd be a great dad, I think this will teach him a lot about himself and make him a better person, I love dad scout.

♡Soldier♡

• I feel like he'd be a bit too aggressive on the child(ren) at first, not understanding how fragile they can be until he really sees them.

• he's much more gentle and quiet around them, trying his best not to scare them.

• I think he has some gender role problems to deal with, so talk through it with him.

• but anyways, he's a great dad honestly. he cradles them and plays with them everyday, making sure that they are always happy.

• he may not understand much of a child's need or their limits, and you two may fight about that. But understand that he will definitely learn, give him time, he is trying his best.

• he's not good at comforting, but he's great at pep talks and hyping his kids up!!!

• he teaches them to be brave and strong, telling them stories from when he was in war. Its all fake, but who cares honestly.

• overall decent dad, just needs to change some of his habits.

♡Pyro♡

• WOAHHH

• Super understanding parent.

• I feel like he went through a ton as a child, explaining why he acts childish sometimes, so I think he's be a very understanding parent when it comes to his kids.

• very patient, and fun!!

• I bet for a fact that the kids love him, spoils them a shit ton.

• he loves to draw with them, putting their drawings up in your shared bedroom so he can admire them when he wakes up.

• he's a bit doubtful of his ability to parent, he thinks he's a bit too unprepared. But as long as your here, he's not too worried.

gosh I love pyro

♡Demo♡

• this guy was SO PUMPED when you two decided to have kids

• but oh boy is he anxious.

• he will not drink ever around them.

• he's quite sweet to his kids, calling them lad or lassie, along with cute ass nicknames because he just loves them so much.

• loves to hug them and carry them whenever you go out, piggy back rides, princess carry, whatever it is, he loves it.

• he likes to mess around with them a lot, and probably the type of dad to go with their kids dumb ideas even though they might go horribly wrong or are just stupid.

• he loves his family. does he think he's a bad parent sometimes? Yeah, but every parent does. You just give him a hug and he'll forget all about it.

my man fr!

♡Heavy♡

• i love misha :( my big mercenary man misha:((( I love him sm....

• gosh I'm smiling as I'm typing this ok

• he's the best dad ever.

• he's strict, of course he is. but you've seen this man in the comics, he knows when to let loose.

• he cooks for them everyday, making them school lunches, teaches them Russian, and teaches them to defend themselves if it needed to be done.

• he's also so sweet, and he tells you and his kids he loves them everyday. Heavy is not embarrassed, why should there be a need to be embarrassed? He loves you guys.

• he loves to read them stories before bed, and he loves to give them bear hugs and carry them.

• when the kid(s) saw him, he was scared that the kid(s) would be scared of him. But when they hugged him and gave him a bright smile, he melted into a puddle and chuckled, giving them a forehead kiss.

is the reason I love heavy because my dad left me for 7 years of my life and even as he came back he still didn't give me affection till this very day? maybe. but we'll never truly know.

♡Engie♡

• Hshdhdhjfjfjfj men. I LOVE. MEN.

• ueeuueue....ue...:(...ueue,,,uee!!! ;(((

• so...so sweet. MAN.

• calls them all sorts of nicknames.

• this man has never had any doubt in his life.

• he will kiss, hug, carry, cradle, comfort, just smother them with so so much love.

• makes inventions for them, and if any of them are ever interested in engineering his heart will explode due to happiness.

• he spoils those mfs so much you gotta tell him off sometimes. He's honestly so sweet it hurts.

• he will take so many pictures, and have them on both a physical album, and one he keeps in a camera he made himself. So that incase one is lost, he still has the other.

• I...I don't know man. He's the perfect dad. I genuinely don't know what else to write.

engie..kiss me challenge? UM...sir why do you as a man have cute lips? for me to kiss them? whore

♡Medic♡

• hell nah.

• he probably just wants one kid, he thinks more than one is a mistake LMAOOOO

• he's not very affectionate, not that he doesn't want to be, but he's scared to overwhelm the child.

• overall tho, he's actually quite sweet.

• he'll leave the affection up to you, but of course he will spend time with the kid...its his kid too after all 💀

• he likes to call them nicknames too, and likes to ruffle their hair a lot.

• probably will only bond with their kid over scientific stuff or whatever the kids into, he has to tone down the insanity a bit, but they are sweet together. The kids a bit messed up like he is to be honest, and he finds that endearing.

"Papa look!! I drew an anatomically accurate heart! Do you like it?"

"Oh mein gott, zhis is quite beautiful! The detail... Amazing work mein schatz :) ruffles their hair "

• he doesn't understand or relate to children much, but he tries, he really does. He will spend days trying to find a solution to make your child feel better if they were ever sad. He's a good dad, and he will try to be the best if he can.

aww he's so baby girl

♡Sniper♡

• aw baby girl

• definitely has a lot of doubts, but he's happy.

• like medic, probably just wants one kid.

• if it was a girl he'd definitely call them "daddy's little girl"

• he's always smiling around them, they just make him so happy.

• he's honestly struggling every day, having to ask you for comfort or advice on if he's doing it right. Doing what right you ask? Parenting.

• but just be there with him through it all, he's a great dad just anxious.

• he talks to his kid about how to survive in the wild, showing them his collection of cool yet a bit weird stuff from his past work experiences. Some are a bit...too weird. Remind him to not show the kid the animal eyes he has in a jar from that one time he fought off a radioactive iguana.

• him and the kid get along pretty well, to be honest...he's starting to change his mind about only having one kid.

♡Spy♡

• sobs

• he doesn't want to...at first.

• well,,,he doesn't want to mess up like he did before. How he left scout, left his past behind, he doesn't want to do that to you because of his cowardness.

• but in the end, he loves you, and he loves the child, so he will try his best.

• he's a great father, have you seen him in that one Christmas comic?

• he will smother that child with love and gifts, and will train them to be kind at a young age.

• he's still extremely doubtful of his ability, but just comfort him. he's doing great, he just can't seem to understand that right now.

• but he's sweet, he loves them, and you, and isn't embarrassed to admit it (like misha!!!)

• he's a bit distant from the child at first, but as time goes by it'll all be fine. he doesn't want to hurt his child, not again.

sobs. Great dad, major issues.

done!!!

YAY!! sorry I haven't written in months,,exams.

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RED RISING BOOK 1 CHARACTER TIER LIST + FULL THOUGHTS! >:D

Below is my review of book 1, I'll go into spoilers. After this, I'm either gonna move onto a different book or try to find golden son. Not sure which one will happen.

But yeah, great book, 4 stars, or 8/10! Definitely just set up for things to come in the trilogy, but also a really good setup & story.

PREFACE: This is from the perspective from somebody who DOESN'T read books for fun too often. Red Rising was the first book in a long while I chose to read for fun since Harry Potter in 1st year high school (I didn't even finish the series, I stopped at the start of Half Blood Prince). So you're dealing with one of the most casual guys who went into the series. Another thing: I came into the series thinking it would be similar to Nimona (2023) or Sylas's story from League, since I brought up these two things when I first asked for book recs, so my expectations were HORRIBLY wrong (kind of, sylas's lore is pretty similar and the only difference is that sylas gets STRAIGHT into action but also his characterization sucks). So my perspective is strange, is what I'm saying, and I am far from the most valid person to be seriously reviewing this book. I'm just sharing this for fun lmao :P

I'm just writing the first few things that come to my mind, so stick with me people! These are messy, unfiltered thoughts.

This book is rough, really whumpy at the start of the book, but it's good whump. It's just setting up and establishing what's to come and to make all the payoffs feel better by showing us the insane suffering Darrow goes through. But also? Damn. That was rough. it felt like grimdark (this is coming from the perspective of a guy who actively avoids all things grimdark - with the exception of whump fanfics on ao3).

And then we get into the institution, and I just went, "oh. This is hunger games harry potter." I was a bit disappointed to be honest, I know the book is called "red rising" and it literally means "the slow rise of a red" so he still needs to prepare himself for what's to come, but also... eh?????? Someone in Reddit called this segment "pierce brown kidnapping fans of the hunger games when it was at the peak of its popularity", which ✨️iconic behavior✨️ but I was a bit confused as we took this academy stuff seriously. But slowly, I grew into it when the characters started interacting. I liked it when Darrow was interacting with others since the first half of the book felt so isolating. I liked every single scene Sevro shows up since he brings so much chaos and fun to a story that had so much downtrodden underlying sadness. The chapter 9 reveal is still hitting me, like "damn FUCK THESE GUYS BRO, WHAT DO YOU MEAN THIS PLANET HAS ALREADY BEEN TERRAFORMED???" Also because sevro's fucking awesome, but that's besides the point. The same goes for Darrow's scenes with Virginia and pre-sword fight Cassius, but they aren't as iconic as Sevro.

Darrow is a super compelling protagonist for the story he's in. Making him this power fantasy fulfillment guy makes things feel all the more liberating when he beats the shit out of a guy, it's sort of like a shonen anime protagonist, I guess (i don't watch anime btw). Bro talks about Eo a bit too much though 💀 it got to the point where it got a bit funny, but some moments do hit... before virginia came into the picture as the better love interest since she's girlboss and eo is seraphine from league of legends.

Most of the characters are well written or awesome! The proctors are real loveably hateable pieces of shit I wanted 200 feet below the dirt, and I loved seeing them get beat up. Except you Fitchner, you are iconic, and you gave us Sevro. I love you. Antonia, Cassius & Jackal are just set up here, and it's mildly disappointing? I am super happy the finale ended up being "FUCK THE PROCTORS" but also that stole time away from finishing off the inter-student conflicts. Yeah those will 100% be explored in the rest of the books with more time to do so, but damn :/ the last time we see Antonia, I think she just stands there at a castle to remind us she exists??? Whatever, watching the proctors get shit on was exactly what I needed to want to see more out of this series.

I was a bit disappointed when Darrow ended up being the only red we explore in this book. I was kind of disappointed when Darrow just speaks with a gold accent the entire time, I hope later in the series he speaks like a red again because I have a red bias and hate fancy ass shit. From a book called "red rising", there aren't too many reds after part 2 which I found odd for a revolution story about a red taking control over the system. Titus? Ohoh! FUCK HIM! why did they write him to be this rapist guy, and he just exists to let darrow know he isn't the only fake gold at the institute. I was mildly hoping we would get to see another red-turned-gold team up with darrow as a 100% trustworthy ally since I felt like we needed it after all the loneliness Darrow goes through, but sadly no :(

OH AND THE ACTION SCENES HELL YEAH!!! Reddit wasn't kidding when they talked about how bloodydamn GOOD the fight scenes are. I got spoiled that "Clang! Clang! Clang! Confess!" means something, and I don't even know who is fighting who, but I want to read the whole series just to get to that point because it sounds badass.

But uhhh this series came to me at a rough point in my life. It was hard to read some parts of it and I took a few breaks. Yeah, I read the whole thing in 2 weeks, but also just to fill myself with some sort of closure when I felt sad. I felt good coming out of it, but during? UHHHHHH-

These disorganized thoughts are getting messy, if you have any questions about specific things, comment them for me to answer. I might. 🥰

Story: 7/10, just set up but good set up

Characters: 9/10, bloodydamn good, almost all of them. I can tell, despite my initial disappointment for some of them since I know this is a book SERIES, so we will be seeing more of them soon.

Personal Enjoyment: ????/10, felt too sad at some points, absolutely adored this book in others.

Quality: 9/10, amazing writing, I want to buy all the books JUST to support Pierce Brown, I'm not even sure if I will be reading them, I just feel like throwing money at him.

Overall Score: 8/10, scared to continue, but damn I want to continue.

#red rising #tier list #sam flynn reads red rising #review #red rising book 1 #sam flynn reads

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h0n3yk1tt3n · 2 years

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Why I Won't Say I'm In Love is a Jeremy song: the essay, as requested by one (1) person

Hope you're happy @peanut-butter-and-theatre /lh

In the past I've seen cosplay vids of Michael singing IWSIIL about - you guessed it - Jeremy. But when you look at Meg's backstory in mythology, which is touched on briefly in the movie, Meg's lover before Herc died and she sold her soul to Hades to bring him back. Shortly after he came back, he left her for another woman. With her heart thoroughly shattered, she completely abandons her love of romance and denies any feelings she has for Hercules in an almost three minute song and sings about how shes not going to put herself through that again.

Hmm, where have we heard this before?

Jeremy Heere, a hopeless romantic desperate to get his crush to notice him, sells his free will to a megalomaniacal supercomputer that promises to give him everything he wants and more. When this all starts to blow up in his face (through some fault of his own), he gets rejected by Christine on Halloween and, though she agrees to go to lunch with him at the end of the show, depending on which version you're going off of (I'm going off of two river), it's left open ended as to whether he Gets The Girl or not.

But. For the purposes of IWSIIL, let's say things fall through between them in some form or another.

Without even making some headcanon as to how much of a romantic Jeremy really is or how many unrequited crushes he's had, he clearly has anxiety. And if you go through a Metric Shitload of trouble for a crush only for it all to end up meaning nothing, that's gonna deter you from ever trying again. Ffs Meg brought her boyfriend back from the dead and he just ran off with another chick. It was ancient Greece so everyone was slutty as fuck but the point stands, Meg was rightfully devastated.

ANYWAY if Jeremy starts to realize he's crushing on - oh ya know for the sake of example - Michael, he's gonna slam on the breaks SO FUCKING HARD and say "nope. I'm not doing this shit again. There's too much that can go wrong, too much to lose."

And,, you can make the argument that Michael would have those same thoughts and the song still works for him, but we don't have the same canon knowledge of his experience in relationships. We don't Know if he's had any relationships fall through. We don't even know if he's dated anyone.

The one way I could see you finagle it to make it work would be to say that he's trying not to fall for jer all over again because he's cautious abt messing with their friendship after everything with the squip is all said and done. But simply looking at the history of who IWSIIL was originally written for and seeing how Jeremy's story unfolded, the parallels between Meg and Jeremy fit SO much better.

And just because I'm extra and it's 11pm and I have work tomorrow, heeres some more lyrical comparison yOURE WELCOME.

"If there's a prize for rotten judgement, I guess I've already won that"

Jeremy's full willingness to trust the squip being horribly and embarrassingly wrong in hindsight, leading him to spiral into wishing he'd known better at the time.

"No[body's] worth the aggravation. That's ancient history. Been there, fuck done that"

He doesn't even want to try to date anyone again because things went so Balls To The Wall Batshit that he doesn't wanna risk going through so much trouble just to get his heart broken again.

(Insert the squad as the muses with the "who you think you're kidding? He's the earth and heaven to you, try to keep it hidden. Honey we can see right through you. [Jer] you can't conceal it. We know how you feel and who you're thinking of" and "you swoon, you sigh, why deny it" because the trope of the squad knowing how gay Michael and Jeremy are for each other while they're both neck deep in denial is Too Good)

"It's too cliche, I won't say I'm in love"

Pretty self explanatory. How cliche is friends to lovers??

"I thought my heart had learned its lesson, it feels so good when you start out. My head is screaming 'get a grip, [Jer,] unless you're dying to cry your heart out"

Jeremy would think that after royally screwing up trying to get Christine, he wouldn't be so quick to fall for someone again but lol heere he is, and he's trying so hard to not let his emotions get the better of him when he thinks things can only ever end badly for him.

("You can't deny it, who you are and how you're feeling. [Jeremy], we're not buying. Hon, we saw you hit the ceiling. Face it like a grown-up, when ya gonna own up that you got got got it bad" and "give up or give in, check the grin, you're in love" and "YOURE DOIN FLIPS. READ OUR LIPS. YOURE IN LOVE")

And all. Of Jeremy's. Doubling down.

"No chance. No way. I won't say it. No no"

"This scene won't play, I won't say I'm in love"

"You're way off base, I won't say it"

"Get off my case, I won't say it"

He's trying so hard to deny it. So hard to make the feelings go away because he doesn't wanna put himself through that pain again. Until of course...

"At least out loud, I won't say I'm in love"

He knows his feelings. He knows how much Michael means to him. And just because he doesn't think he can ever admit that to Michael doesn't mean that he can't admit it to himself.

So yeah thank you for coming to my tedtalk go watch the tiktoks I made of Jeremy singing I Won't Say I'm In Love

#be more chill #jeremy heere #michael mell #boyf riends #i wont say im in love #bmc #bmc musical #be more chill musical #bmc jeremy #bmc michael

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i just watched a compilation of stans childhood with his dad and like i just feel really bad for stan, mustve been rough growing up like that :c

oh my goodness i just watched it too. when little Stan is sad i just want to give him a hug. Stan went through so much in his childhood. its so interesting to watch his life unfold in the show. honestly they really do get pretty detailed when it comes to his childhood trauma and the way it affected him as an adult. the writers do an awesome job at conveying how Stan copes with his trauma

for example, in the scene where Steve turns Stan’s nostalgia filter down to 0%, Stan still revisits his horribly traumatic childhood with fondness. its not uncommon for adults who were abused/neglected as children to be unable to see their childhood for what it actually was, because in doing so it could be too much for them to handle. and in turn, Stan tends to idolize his father to the point of acting like him and treating his children —namely Steve— in a way that mirrors Jack. this is evident more so in the earlier seasons where Stan was consistently shitting on Steve’s unconventional interests and rejecting Hayley’s nonconformity. he cannot accept his children’s self expression during this time, because he was never allowed to do so when he was their age. he wasn’t treated like a human, but rather an extension of his parents

thank goodness for Francine. she definitely was encouraged to express herself in her youth and she never really shit on her kid’s interests like Stan did. i think that her free spirited nature makes up for Stan being so stuck up.

not to mention how fucking terrible Betty was too! she parentified Stan the moment Jack left them. Stan never got to have a proper childhood not only because his father was a neglectful, emotionally abusive alcoholic, but his mother also never allowed him a proper childhood after his father was out of the picture. she relied on Stan for emotional support, and Stan didn’t know any better. he had no baseline for what a healthy parent-child relationship should look like. and even as an established adult, Stan still is at the hands of his mother from time to time. it takes Francine to point it out for Stan to realize how unhealthy his relationship with his mother is. maybe its hard for him to let go of that because she is the only parent he has left.

it really makes me happy that Stan’s personality shifted as the show went on. in the future, i’d like to gather more information about when this shift actually happened for him, but i really see it as him healing from his trauma, or at least moving on from it. Stan has a wonderful support system in the rest of his family. they all love him and respect him as the father figure/“patriarch” of the Smiths. i know that there is a lot more for Stan to unpack, but it really is wonderful seeing him turn out to be the father that he needed to his own children. the husband that cares about his wife and cherishes their relationship. and the person that everyone in the Smith family can go to when they need help.

#ask #anon #american dad #stan smith #jack smith #betty smith #i. love. this. family.#can u guess what im majoring in based on this post #stan #jack #betty #stan trauma #when i answer asks its either a fun little quip or a full on psychoanalysis of the characters lol

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parts 2 of my previous homestuck post, now on to the things i find silly!

-yaoi tournament will live free forever in my head. so as the horse cock. this is the worst thing hussie has ever done. i legit did not know it was an actual horse cock like i think it was just a giant blue dildo 😭😭😭😭

-the dancestors are really lame people like oh my god. beforus kids are giant dorks i cant believe their alternia counterparts are so badass like, take aranea and mindfang. just look at the contrast. first one is a nerd who would pay people for attention and the other is a girlboss who doesnt give a shit.

-one thing i do like from kankri is that he gave us plenty if funny karkat suffers joke. i love how this loser makes karkat do the walter white face lmaoooo he just cant get a break is he?

-and penis ouija!!! god why is he like that? everytime karkat is on screen i feel secondhand embarrassment like. i cant believe i shared classpects with this guy. why are you biting dave's cape are you in kindergarten? worst of all i think i've done something similarly embarrassing in school. thats it im changing my classpect im a knight of light from now on fuck off.

-still, thats not as horrible as rose's fuckup with her date. oh my god somebody gives her a chill pill she is going to lick herself bald like a stressed kitten. which is really funny because she and kanaya seems so... not nervous when talking to each other. you'd think their date would be a normal casual discussion between two awesome self assured girls. No its not. theyre both have gotten good at looking like theyre not close to exploding. but we all know none of them are Hinged.

-And oh, tavris they are doing you both dirty. like, its an improvement that vriska actually says something positive to him and that tavros did speak up against her at some points. but the narrative doesnt really want them to grow as a person. i think hussie has gotten too attached to vriska the unapologetic thief of light to the point that its reflecting badly on her and other's character development. okay fine i did say i wont take it seriously, but im a writer too. ofc i will notice the issues.

- this might be an unpopular opinion but i like the elevatorstuck music. gamzee is like, getting close to be my scrunkly like i know he does atrocities but he is really funny when doing it.

-the lands for the alpha kids are really fascinating. its less lively than the beta kids but im glad i actually get to experience the puzzles they have to solve on quests and its relations with the players' classpect. i want to see jane fulfilling her planets wish to be green and fertile. she gets too much shit talk from caliborn so i want to see her get a win yknow? and she's so goofy like her beta counterpart i want to see her happy and silly like egbert too.

-speaking of egbert, im kinda worried for him. can you believe it? he doesnt like con air anymore. i've been in his phase of starting to lose all joy in things i used to like and feeling lonely even with people around me and its not pretty. i know he went through a lot. i hope the experience with the dream bubble would make him happier even if just for a bit

-and another beta kids i want to be sad about: davesprite! he's so alone. all of his friends from the timeline is gone, he's not the main dave anymore and john keeps treating him like a replacement. its like he's relegated to a nobody who happens to have a recognizable face. poor guy.

-and to be sad again, i know i made fun of karkat a lot, but i have the biggest parental instinct for him. aside from terezi. he's the biggest crier out of the group. he's shouty and annoying but thats very much the kind of annoying shit that children do yknow? at first i dont like him because of his attitude to jade, but slowly i did warm up to him. he never really hated anybody and most of his tantrums are generally harmless to other people. in fact, he blames himself a lot about things that are out of his control. he's the one with the least body count from the rest of the trolls and he literally had to grew up hunted and unwanted by society. i want to give him a hug, i truly do.

-okay back to fanboying. roxy!!!! shit. man i adore that she has an aura that makes any surveillance camera blackout nearby. yes, girl, BECOME UNGOVERNABLE.

-and i cant believe im saying this, but i miss sollux. at first i was just joking about finding him interesting because he has my star sign and is good at coding but yeah. i do miss the guy. where is he really?

#homestuck #homestuck liveblog #homestuck liveread

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Love me Mercilessly Kakashi x f!Oc Chapter 34 It's been a long Season through... word count: 9k tw: mentions of anxiety/Ptsd [previous chapters on Ao3] A New Year means new beginnings. Akami, Kakashi and Sasuke struggle to see a future while they’re so consumed by their pasts. But maybe its enough to just be in the present...

So long as Kakashi was in the Village he’d spent 3 days out of each week with Akami and Sasuke. Usually twice during the work week and once on the weekend. They’d have dinner at their house or his place, Kakashi would meet them at the training ground or help spar in the backyard, and sometimes he would pick Akami up from Shushu-ya when she went out with Shikaku and Inoichi to walk her home. Every so often they’d only see him in the mornings, he’d bring coffee and taiyaki and walk them to school and work respectively.

Sasuke thought he would hate Kakashi being around so much, but to his surprise he didn’t mind. Kakashi used to be nervous around him; he wasn't much now unless Sasuke got him good. And though he wouldn’t admit it, he enjoyed their little back and forth. Before he’d say something rude and Kakashi would shut right up, but now that he was used to him Kakashi’d fire back.

For instance the other day Kakashi was draped across the couch reading his dirty old man books so Sasuke marched up to the arm rest, stuck his nose in the air and said, “If I didn’t see you hanging off of Kami-chan’s arm everyday I’d think that book was your only friend.”

Kakashi glanced over the top of the book in question to see Sasuke peel a prideful eye open and then returned his attention to his favorite characters to say “Well if I didn’t see you attend the academy everyday, I’d think you were really a miserable old man.” Sasuke didn’t have a comeback, so he harrumphed at Kakashi and stomped back into the kitchen to hide his small smile. He liked to see what Kakashi had to say.

He liked when Kakashi cooked and he liked when he played board games with them, three people was infinitely more fun than two. Sasuke didn’tlike watching Kakashi kiss or cuddle or hold hands with his Kami-chan, it’s not that they did it often but once was more than enough. However he did quite like seeing Kami-chan so happy. And what he liked most of all was that he got to be a part of her life, he was included and he didn’t feel like an outsider or a ‘third wheel’ like he had heard Tenzo say.

He did like that Kakashi had a ton of stories about Kami-chan, most of which he’d never heard before. Some about how cool she was, others more embarrassing. Like the time Kakashi had found a ‘love letter’ from her and Shisui.

Shisui and Akami were 13 at the time it was written—they had just started dating—so the letter was beyond embarrassing. Kakashi didn’t think it should have been called a letter given the horrible way it read, it was more like school children passing notes back and forth. And he didn’t doubt that was exactly what they had done—only in between missions instead of in a classroom. Though he had been 16 when he found it and already well versed in romance thanks to Jiraiya's novels, so his standards were a bit higher.

Kakashi had gone over to Kami’s to pick up the kunai pouch he left behind. She was on guard duty but she told him where she’d left it and said it was fine he let himself in to retrieve it. So Kakashi came in through her window and headed to the desk in her bedroom. There it was sitting beside her own, when he picked up his pouch he knocked over hers. It was empty save for a couple battered kunai, crumbs from a soldier pill or two and a folded piece of paper.

Naturally Kakashi unfolded it.

He waited on the front steps of her apartment building for when she and Tenzo would return from Guard duty. It seemed fate was on his side as well because Shisui and Itachi were strolling over to meet them.

Kakashi’s shit eating grin was barely contained by his mask.

Once they all were within ear shot he stood up straight, laid a hand to his chest and read as loudly and as eloquently as he could.

“-‘Dear Akami, Do you mean it when you say you love me? Because I do, I mean it down to my heart and soul. ~Love Shi’

-‘Dear Shi, Yes, I mean it, I wouldn’t say it if I didn’t. I love you. ~Love Kami’.”

Kakashi picked his head up from the note when he felt Akami’s eyes flash a vicious shade of yellow from across the street. He laughed to himself and read the next line, written with blue ink in Shisui’s steady hand.

“-‘But will you love me when I’m mad or sad? Are you ready to be there for me if I need to cry or something? I feel like I can do things with you that I can’t do in front of anyone else, I can be me’.”

Kakashi read trying to catch his breath. Akami started chasing him around the block. “Hatake! I will gut you! Give it back!” she screamed, as he looped back towards the others.

He laughed maniacally and continued,

“-‘Yes, I am ready to be there, I will always be there unless I’m eating chicken yakitori’.” “- ‘So chicken is more important than me?’.”

Kakashi ran around the tree in the front of the fire escape ready to utter the last line when Akami swung down from a tree branch and drove both her heels into his chest and sent him toppling over onto his stomach with a constricted grunt. But Kakashi was persistent and he scrambled in the dirt to grab the letter before she sat on him.

“- ‘Only chicken yakitori, and only when I’m hungry. But if not, you are the only thing that matters to me.’ Akami signed her last note with a heart.`` Kakashi added giggling with glee.

Akami destroyed the note and the others sat on the stoop and watched as she beat the crap out of him.

Sasuke had to hold in his laughter the entire time, it was extra funny to see how angry Akami got as Kakashi retold the story. He swore he could see a vein forming over her temple every time Kakashi’s eyes squinted in delight. But by the end of the story, when Kakashi said the black eye he had for over a week was well worth it Sauske couldn’t hold back and he erupted into a fit of giggles. Which was exacerbated when Akami reluctantly smiled and shoved his face with her hand pushing him back against the couch cushions. But those little giggles were contagious and when he bounced back off the couch and clutched his tummy to laugh even harder they both joined him.

continue reading on Ao3

#kakashi #kakashi hatake #kakashi x oc #hatake kakashi #naruto oc #kakaoc #naruto #sasuke #oc: akami #yuki clan #love me mercilessly #ao3 update #fic update #queued post

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Is there anything you've waiting for an excuse to rant/talk about but the opportunity hasnt presented itself?

so this is half a lie bc ive been talking this nonstop for 5 days or so- BUT not publicly.

the spk storyline.

yes- yes- i know- "but tamara youve been doing nothing but post drabbles and picrews and-" SHUSH. I HAVENT TALKED ABT THE FULL CONTEXT AND STORYLINE YET. SO NOW I WILL. SIT DOWN.

ok ok so the entire premise of the spk au i have w @whumpsday is that kane somehow gets taken from the hunters to seth. and meets pumpkin. and theyre both horribly horribly tortured right.

now. this au has a rescue arc. BECAUSE bellamy, that fine ass man swoops in and kills seth. that does not go over well w pumpkin who, while less and less by the second bc of kane's treatment, is madly in fucken love with that man. and of course seeing bellamy commit murder??? is scary??? so pumpkin is TERRIFIED.

now after the rescue pumpkin spends a while being skittish and hostile towards bel, while kane is trying to sort out his own trauma and also manage that, and bellamy is trying his best to be like... non-threatening- but how do u act non-threatening after killing someone yknow- AND on top of all that, pumpkin is going mad without their daily fix of dehumanization. enter anton de sang. whom pumpkin sees and thinks yes. that is the man.

SO BABY PUMPKIN RUNS THE FUCK OFF AFTER ANTON TO BE LIKE "sir? sir? can u step on me?" AND ANTON IS LIKE. GLADLY?? WHAT A FUCKEN WEIRDO. pumpkin gets WHUMPED. while kane and bellamy r freaking out bc they find pumpkin's note abt where they went and they Immediately go after them. theres some angst in here i dont wanna spoil but GOD its some good shit. pumpkin gets home safe tho :D

they all know this cant go on, this is very unhealthy, kane offers to act like pumpkin's new owner in exchange for them never running off again, and pumpkin turns it down bc they know it makes kane SO uncomfy. but bellamy has great acquantances..... and this is where ambrose comes into the picture. u guessed it, the man is a professional vamp dom. thats how he and el meet. oh yes, by the time that happens, pumpkin finally gets the courage to leave the petname behind and start using the name el! which is a shortened version of their birth name that sounds more gender neutral and they love the sound of!

am helps them work through their little traumas while the two of them also fall for each other like nobodys business. in the meantime kane also finally works up the courage w el's help to ask out bellamy, and those two gay little lovebirds also get together. but oh no! el is... el is human... so when they and am finally get married (bc of course they do) that "death do us part" bit is pretty sour. am knows he only has limited time w them.

BUT BC THIS IS AN AU AND WE ALL WANT THEM TO SPEND 3000 YEARS TOGETHER IN HAPPINESS WE DECIDED HEY, AM COULD FIND OUT ABT THE ORIGINAL RITUAL THAT CREATED VAMPIRES AND TURN EL!!!!! so he does :D and from there its all sunshine rainbows and fluff, they live happily ever after as a huge happy family. am's parents kind of adopt kane, which does mean that they rly are one big family since both el and bel marry into it. so they just all share the same last name. oh yes bc neither kane nor bellamy would want to keep their original last names anyway bc of their stupid shitty families. SO YES. thats what we've been discussing for days now and its so good and im so happy it sparks so much joy

and then we have the dark spk au where seth actually survives that night and later bel and am go over to his house when the four of them realize hes alive, and get revenge :) this is a tasty au

theres the bbe or bloodbag el au, where kane takes el instead of jim and anton takes seth. thats where anton's on again off again girlfriend ruby comes in and this au splits into two once more

in one version seth gets taken by ruby later! which is way better than anton but also fucken humiliating bc ruby treats him like a silly little puppy. anton takes graham after this, like in canon

in the other seth never gets out from anton :) poor him :) lucky lucky graham tho

honestly the bbe is the sweetest shit bc el loves being owned by kane. they eventually rly grow on kane.....

we briefly discussed a feisty kane au too, where kane gets taken by the hunters, but before hes properly broken he gets taken by seth. that au includes kane being rude as shit to pumpkin at first. but also seth gets to break him himself :)

anyway heres a demonstration of the difference between spk and bbe

and heres ruby

thank u for this ask it means a lot i rly hope i didnt share anything mill didnt want me to share-

#asks #spk

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justaredheadf1fan · 2 years

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And the boys are Bak-u! (don't kill me for this one)

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I had to make the obvious joke everyone has made in the last few days 😙 I wouldn't have been happy otherwise hehehe

Before getting into it, I wanted to share my absolute obsession after Barcelona, I've been searching for the cheapest race to go to besides Barcelona like a woman possessed; how much are tickets for Monaco and Bakú my beloveds, the Grand Stand tickets for Barcelona because we are a couple of ladies and have decided that next next we'll rock it better, and so on like I need something to quench my thirst, but with Formula 1. Does that even make sense at all? Who cares, because I clearly DON'T.

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Well, today started the first weekend I'll be missing F1 live, and I can't handle it. I was supposed to be free today so I was bound to watch FP1 and FP2 (since I'll have Fridays free every week, while I'll have to work through the weekends from now on), but had to cover for someone and leave my free day for a better time in July. While working, I could hear someone blasting FP1 across the street and I saw a couple of Ferrari fans on my way to work, so I was just craving the possibility of watching it properly, honestly.

I'm currently watching the press rounds where Lewis and Seb are on opposite sites of their group. Pity we don't get to see them together much these days 🥲 Good thing they still (obviously) keep serving cunt, which I love to see everytime. After Ben Sulayem's words a few days ago especially, I'm happy to see that they keep not giving a shit about the FIA's stupidity. Kings 👑

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I'm now starting with FP1 while I think about dinner (because why would I just have dinner when I can just do nothing?) and my poor Mick had to retire already because of a water leak apparently. My poor baby, at least now they can't be mad at him 😅

There's one thing I still can't wrap my head around, how the fuck is it possible that the porpoising hasn't been dealt with already? Drivers have been complaining about it since day 1 and it's still going on. FIA what the fuck! Do this people really care that little about this guys' lives? Jesus fucking Christ, it's crazy seeing them bouncing so horribly all the time, and this is already the 8th race. They need a solution, they're gonna have permanent damage otherwise, I'm afraid.

The only upside to this is seeing hilarious comments like the one Gasly made. Maybe it's just my dirty mind at work but I just couldn't hold my laughter at work when I read it. I love you Pierre, you're amazing 😂

For what I've always heard about Baku so far, taking into account I haven't seen a race in this track due to my F1 hiatus, this is looking pretty uneventful so far, right? At least in FP1, maybe FP2 changes my mind a bit but, besides the tremendous porpoising and Verstappen still having DRS problems, there's nothing interesting going on after 59 minutes. Or maybe that's because I was expecting absolute chaos 🤷🏻‍♀️ So, now preparing dinner sounds about right!

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I've started FP2 while I eat something and boy that plastic bag might just be the surprise I needed for this practice session after all 😂

I have to say that this track looks pretty awesome, it seems to have everything and appears to be very interesting on its own. Maybe the nicest street circuit on the calendar right now. It's a shame I'll have to watch the race right after I finish work on Sunday (the perks of not working remotely anymore 🤧)

Leclerc going off track is giving me whiplash at this rate, every Friday he goes off track or he spins somewhere at some point and I want to kill him 😂 And half the drivers have gone off track on the same corner by now, where most of them have had to back up before getting back on track, and I can't imagine how scary that must be with how big the cars are and how little they must see when doing it. It gave me a chance to see the Aston Martin more closely tho, when Stroll went bye-bye, and I still think the AM is the sexiest car this year. What a beauty.

Nothing eventful really for today. Which might be a good thing after last week. Tomorrow I'll watch FP3 and Quali much like today, just after I get back after work. I'll suffer through my 8 hours until I can launch myself onto my bed with the laptop in front of me.

Peace out until tomorrow!

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ramblingsfromthemoss · 1 month

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i feel like im gonna pop like a grape

as always check tags if you're gonna read, idgaf i just need this out of my brain and i won't see my therapist for a lil bit

its been a hard few months

I wont lie im super thankful that its finally spring and things are getting easier, im finally going back to school and life is looking up but shit man. my dog who ive had since i was four had to be put down this morning, i found my aunts' cat dead under the porch earlier this week, my grandfather called me ugly and ripped my appearance to shreds when i was calling him to share good news, and so much other shit. my horrible fucking ex is finally getting called out for all the gross behaviors he's displayed around minors but he keeps popping up in my feeds online bc of it and he's one of the top search results for a definition of therianthropy and i feel fucking sick knowing theres a chance i'll bump into him again. *fuck* dude i found out one of my closest friends is still close friends with him to the point of being upper staff in both his discord servers! that shit shattered me! they went through all that bullshit with me and now im scared i made everything up! i dont feel safe in a community that made me so happy, hell i dont feel safe in so many communities because of him. on top of all of this a friend i don't speak to anymore is still following me, and its freaking me the fuck out bc that friend had feelings for me and i know i flipped my shit and didnt handle it right and things ended badly all because of me lashing out like an idiot. i felt unsafe bc of my own trauma that i didnt address in time and it lead ot me getting super paranoid and feeling unsafe to try and get into a relationship after being taken advantage of by a guy i really wanted to date, which i dont want to blame them for but im also still super fucking angry and feel really scared that anyone felt entitled to my feelings so closely to what happened to me with the other guy. i cant stop myself from checking their blog and scrolling through, its like a form of catharsis or really effective emotional self harm. i feel so numbed out i just want ot cry but nothing's working, even though it all hurts like a motherfucker. im so scared and annoyed and just want my ex or my friend to rip the bandaid off and finally turn back up and get it over with and let this be over but im never going to get that. my guts hurt, if eel like a trapped animal. everything i say feels wrong and it feels like my head is being split into a million slices. i want to be free of all of this bullshit, i want to live happily again. i want to not feel tied down by all this fucking grief and loss. i dont want to live in fear of being hurt again and i want to be able to process the losses ive endured. i really hope i get to move forward as i get back into college and continue therapy. im exhausted and hurting and scared and i just want to be heard and validated.

#vent #sorry yall its been. a lot #animal death ment tw #/safe btw just need this out of my head #bleh

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winderlylandchime · 7 months

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And 3x10 is here 1/2: He walked in with a coffee at 10 pm btw and just went ‘This better start the same way the last one did. With Brian and Justin, I suffered through almost the whole season of *waves his hand and makes a face like he smelled something bad* that guy, i deserve to see them in every scene! HAHA SEE! ASK AND YOU SHALL RECEIVE! *pauses tv and crosses his fingers* Brian telling Justin he loves him.’ ‘Oh shit is everything closed? I MISSED FEISTY JUSTIN! See what trumpy wannabe is doing, Brian! HE IS BEING BLOWN BY THE POSTERS! NOW THAT IS FUN- JUSTIN! HE JUST SPIT AT THE OH MY GOD. I missed this little fucker *toasts his coffee* welcome back Blondie’ ‘for fucks sake Brian! The guy is closing down places and you’re just cool with that?! Oh Ted is losing his mind, oh this is sad. I feel so bad for Emmett *claps his hands enthusiastically* OH OH OH! Is this gonna be Ben’s redemption arc from boredom? He did drugs, ted is about to be an alcoholic? So they bond that way and Ben hel- VACATION? You suck benny.’ ‘Oh is Michael gonna be annoying about the baby? Of course he is, who am i kidding.’ He is now laughing hysterically over Brian’s comment about Princess Diana ‘new goal unlocked for new years: to be as funny as this fucker’ ‘its that kid! Is he gonna be Bens road to make him less boring? Please say yes, because the dude is avoiding every attempt i throw at him.’ ‘LOOK ITS BRIAN AND JUSTIN AGAIN! Where is Justin going? Project? I still have PTSD from the times he went to that fucker.’ ‘WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH MIKE? Who just stalks a woman at night?! I dont know where I was before i met Mike but fuck, do i wish I was still there’ THE SCENE WITH JUSTIN AND POSTERS IS UP!! ‘Ooo someone is feeling a certain type of way about trump- JUSTIN!! MY BLONDIE IS A VIGILANTE!!! *raises his coffee to toast* Sugar baby by day, vigilante by night. Respect! Brian for sure knows it was him. There is no way that he doesn’t recognize his art. He for sure knows!’ ‘Emmett has a heart of gold! If he doesn’t get a happy ending i will burn this whole place down to the ground!’ ‘AH LOOK ITS BRIAN AND JUSTIN AT WORK AGAIN! Ohhhhh he is taking Blondie on a date. I dont like the fact that Justin only says he’s busy. I mean if I am having war flashbacks to when he was sneaking around can you imagine my man Bri Bri? Oh fuck the trumpy bitch is here. Brian for sure knows it’s Justins work, come on! Hes not dumb, even though they for some reason wrote him dumb in this season’ ‘okay is your tv broken or did they on purpose make Teds scenes all gloomy and dark. Absolutely not. Ted, you have to go somewhere else! This guy has bad written all over him. If he thinks soda is pricey now, boy do i have some news for you about the future’ Brian now caught Justin printing posters ‘BLONDIE! He’s doing that at work? Oh thats bold, i see he took Brians advice and is showing that he has balls! SHIT BRIAN! I KNEW THAT HE KNEW! He knows his boys work! Come on Brian, listen to Blondie. What the fuck is going on, i mean i know he wants to go to New York, but there’s other ways im sure.’ ‘No Ted! NO! Go home! DUDE NO! *looks at his pills all sad* I don’t think ted and I are twinsies anymore. HE IS CHEATING ON EMMETT! NOOOOOOOOO’ Ben now told that Hunter has HIV ‘fucking hell. I mean he was offering without a condom but fucking hell, nobody is safe. Damn maybe there is some hope left for Ben’ ‘ted looks rough. EMMETT, he is on drugs! He cheated! I know its sad because addiction is horrible but i am mad at Ted because this will really hurt my boy, Em. WHY ARE THEY ALL PISSING ME OFF CONSTANTLY?’

Fiesty Justin! I call him Sassy Justin but yes, it’s so good to have him back.

Is Hunter Ben’s ticket to becoming less boring? For like half a minute and then he gets boring about Hunter.

PTSD about Justin working on projects! So relatable. And yes! Brian asks Justin on a date in this episode and Justin’s busy but the casualness of it? I love it. It feels like this isn’t the first time. That they just have been going to restaurants or whatever since getting back together.

He’s still so protective of Emmett. He’s so sweet! And yes, it’s so easy to be mad at Ted about this storyline. He’s no longer twinsies with Ted.

#ask winderlylandchime #dear sweet anon #queer as folk #a straight man watches qaf us 2000 in the year of our lord 2023

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