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houkagokappa · 1 month
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Guess who ended up crying at her thesis supervisor's office already. We were only talking about what I should pick as a topic, I guess I have a lot of baggage and concerns over it lmao
I feel pretty bad rn, although it was good that I was able to communicate with her how I'm putting myself under a lot of pressure over this, and I'm ambitious so now she'll help me make my thesis as good as possible :)
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Hand On You (Woso Prompt)
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22. I won't let anyone lay an hand on you with Laia Aleixandri.
This one is short, but enjoy :)
TW : Angst, Creepy guy.
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It’s only when the library supervisor asks you to leave that you realize what time it is. You are in full preparation for your exams and you haven't seen the hours passed, which is rather embarrassing since you are supposed to go home with public transport and you hate it, especially at night.
After you gather your things, you get your coat and find the fresh air of Manchester. The good news is that it wakes you up a little, after spending so much time locked up it feels good to breath some fresh air. Your apartment being far away, you have to take two different buses. Luckily the first one arrives quite quickly and you manage to find a free place at the bottom.
A few stops later, a man comes to sit next to you, which is not strange considering that it's public transport. What is a little more strange is that you feel his look on you and that he absolutely doesn't hide it.
When you apologize to him for letting you through so you can get down, his smile gives you chills. You swallow and hurry to reach the exit door of the bus, finding with relief the fresh air. But your relief doesn't last long since you realize while standing in front of the stop for your correspondence that it also came down.
He's looking everywhere, upset and evil. It doesn’t take you long to understand that what he’s looking for is you.
Luckily, he didn’t see you. And for it to continue this way, you move quickly to hide behind the bus shelter, hoping he will quickly drop the case. In your maneuver, you shoved a young woman a little too abruptly.
"I’m sorry" you mumble a low-pitched apology.
You don’t hear her answer though, preferring to look over your shoulder to see if you’ve been spotted. You feel the panic seizing you when you notice that the man has disappeared and you expect to see him reappear at any time at your side.
"Hello?" says the brunette you shoved earlier, drawing your attention back to her. "All right?"
"Yes, I-"
But you shut up suddenly, eyes wide open with terror. The face of the man is only ten meters away from you and he saw you. His predatory smile gives you shivers again. One of the two young women in the trio of people who are together follows your gaze.
"Do you know him?"
"No. I think he’s following me."
The three young people react quickly and it takes you out of your torpor. The brunette and the man, also with brown hair, turn in the direction of the man who is making his way towards you, while the blonde passes her arm around your shoulders to train you a little further.
"Everything will be fine" she assures you with an accent you can’t recognize. "My name is Laia, and the others are Leila and Moise"
Laia makes you sit on the bus shelter bench, glued against the ads, which makes you see nothing at the scene that takes place a few meters from you.
"Maybe I’m getting the wrong idea, but he was really weird"
You hope you’re not provoking a fight or argument for nothing. But the blonde is smiling nicely.
"If you didn’t feel safe, it’s enough to ask for help"
You look up at her and give her a little smile, grateful for her understanding. When she leans slightly to see beyond the bus shelter, you hurry to question her.
"Is everything alright?"
"Yes, don’t worry. I won't let anyone lay an hand on you."
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thornsnvultures · 1 year
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His face just says, "What's wrong, sweetheart?", to me 🥺🥺 like I want to climb in his lap and tell him all about my bad day so he can make me feel better 😩😖💞
au/no outbreak!Joel x reader, fluff, some implied nsft bits at the end
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"Everything okay in there?"
You can barely hear Joel from the other room through your pulse pounding in your ears. If you slammed the door open and shut a little too hard when you came home you didn't care, you were finally home and the day couldn't be mean to you any more.
Joel was waiting for you on the couch, already setting up the movie the two of you have been wanting to watch with a fresh, delicious smelling pizza sitting on the coffee table. But you were exhausted and couldn't imagine sitting through the loud action movie with your headache right now.
"Sorry, baby, I need to go lay down," you cut Joel off before he could speak.
Joel wasn't gonna let you go just like that, not with what looked like tears threatening to spill at the corners of your eyes.
"Hey, hey, whoa," he reached out and lightly grabbed your arm before you could rush past. "What's wrong, sweetheart?"
You couldn't look at him. You were standing there with your back to him, his hand insistent on your arm cause you knew if you did look you'd break down.
"Baby, please," his voice was firm but gentle, like he was afraid he'd spook you. He knew you wanted to bolt.
"It's nothing," your voice came out choked and wet which only made you more mad at yourself. You wanted to hide from him, from your feelings, from the whole damn day.
"It's not nothing. Not if it's making my babygirl feel this way. C'mon," he pats his thick, jean-clad thigh, "come sit and tell me what's got you all worked up."
You take one, big, sniffling breath and begrudgingly move onto his lap.
Joel huffs at you awkwardly sitting on one leg and pulls you all the way in so you're snuggled in close to his chest, your legs pulled up on the couch. (And your ass, quite distractingly, seated right on his crotch.)
"Talk to me," Joel rubs your cheek with a calloused thumb, sweeping up at a stray tear. You give in to the urge to rest your head on his shoulder. He smells sunwarmed and woodsy. He must've been on a jobsite today. And he still went through all this effort to make your day better. God, you wanted to cry even more.
Instead you told him everything. How your day started out so nice, so ready to be productive when you left the house today, only for your day to take a turn as soon as you got in and you realized the next 8 hours would be hell on earth. You were screamed at, called names, talked down to by your supervisor for a problem that was out of your control. Your dropped your lunch at work and hadn't had anything to eat for most of the day which only served to make you more miserable and give you a headache. And on the ride home you nearly got side-swiped by someone on their phone.
It was a mess. An all around bad day. And you felt silly for complaining about it at first, everyone had bad days and you hadn't even thought to ask how Joel's day went. But Joel sat and listened and stroked your cheek, your back, your thigh, anywhere he could reach really, and as you went on you felt the weight lifting, the heaviness of the day melting off of you as you melted into Joel.
"I'm sorry you had a rough day, sweetheart, I really am," Joel shakes his head and presses a kiss to your forehead. "Next time you call me so I can bring you something to eat, okay? We're a team, I'm here for you to lean on."
You nod, sighing as you toy with the buttons on his shirt. "I know. Thank you...for listening."
"Always. No matter what happens, don't run from me, baby. I wanna hear it all."
Joel leans forward, with you still in his arms, and grabs you a still warm slice of pizza. He grabs the knit throw off the back of the couch next, tucking it around you while you nibble on cheesy heaven.
"Better?"
You smile up at him and nod as you chew and a small smile pulls at his lips and crinkles the corners of his eyes.
"Good. Now finish up your pizza. You'll need your energy up when I take you to bed, babygirl."
Joel laughs when you take an even bigger bite, your bad day already forgotten.
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thank you for sending me this gif, bestie 💗💗 I needed to take my terrible day out on something lol
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Hello! I hope youre doing well, could I request a one-shot for Miles Morales.
-Miles just starts to attend Visions and Reader immediately takes him under their wing (bonus if reader is taller). And they like to fluster him and get him out of troubling situation, standing up for him when others that about him.
-eventually Miles asks why Reader was so nice from the beginning and without even hesitating their like "You're cute and akward, just my type" or something along those lines?
A/n: OOO I LOVE THIS IDEA!!! Reader is also depicted to be taller than Miles!! I literally changed the title like 3 times istg I have no clue what to name this so it has two titles
Protection / Confession
Miles Morales x gn!reader
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( summary: you'd taken a liking to the new kid, Miles, and decided to take him under your wing )
Warnings?: some light bullying, reader having mad w rizz
!-!more under the cut!-!
You were a very well known person in Visions Academy. Not only for your high IQ but also for your kind and charming personality. You were chill and not as stuck up as some people in Visions, you were a breath of fresh air. Specifically the breath Miles needed when he felt like he was drowning in stress and expectations. You had told him he shouldn’t worry about what others are thinking and that he should just do his own thing at his own pace and man did he need to hear that. You showed him around school and the dorms and even let him sit with you and your friends during lunch. You were technically his first friend in Vision and you made him think that staying wouldn’t be too bad. Obviously he immediately took a liking to you and luckily you seemed to do the same for him, though he isn’t really sure why. Hell, the first time you ever met Miles he was attempting to smooth talk a hall monitor so that he didn't get in trouble for dashing through the halls. He wasn't very convincing though and you had decided to step in to save the day, and it’s been history ever since.
Every now and then Miles would find himself in trouble and almost every time, you were there to pull him out of it. Like now, where Miles finds himself cornered in a hallway with two high schoolers that look like they shouldn’t be in high school anymore. He let out a nervous chuckle as he stared up at the two guys. “Hey, maybe we can just talk this one out?” He smiles nervously and one of the guys scoffed “Not a chance.” The guy reeled his fist back and Miles closed his eyes and braced for pain but instead he felt nothing. He peaked out of one eyes and saw you standing there with the guys fist in your hand. “Hey let’s not resort to violence guys, it’s not cool.” You raised your brow at them as they both hesitated on what to do next. “Or do you want me to go get a supervisor and tell them about what’s happening here?” You continued. Both guys glanced at each other and Miles couldn’t help but smirk at the situation. “I’m sure you’d get suspended for this, maybe even expelled,” you shook your head and tsked. “You guys should know Visions has no tolerance when it comes to violence.” Miles watched as the guy who was going to punch him ripped his hand from yours before glaring and storming away, his friend following right after him. You watched them both disappear down the hallways before turning your attention to Miles, who was crouched on the ground watching the guys walk away.
You cleared your throat and his eyes immediately shot to yours. A sheepish smile graced his face and your stoic expression turned into a smirk as you nose laughed and shook your head at him. You held out your hand for him to take, which he did, and you lifted him off the ground. "So, mind telling me what you did this time?" You asked, looking down at Miles who was scratching the side of his head and looking to the side. "Not really.." You hummed and placed your hand on his head, leaning down to his height. Realistically you weren't that much taller than Miles but you loved to act like he was so much shorter than you. "How many more times are you gonna pick a fight with guys two times your size." "I wasn't picking a fight!" His eyebrows furrowed, "and they weren't two times my size!" He removed your hand from his head but didn't let go of it afterwards.
He bit the inside of his lip and started messing with your fingers, his expression softening. "Sorry," he mumbled and you blinked for a moment as his words rendered in your brain. "For what?" He shrugged and smiled though there wasn't any emotion behind it. His eyes darted around for a second before he sighed. "I just- you're always getting me out of stuff like that." He chuckled and quickly let go of your hand as if he just realized he'd been holding it. "oh.." You thought for a moment before smiling.
"Miles." He looked up at you, "It's fine man, you don't have to apologize or anything." "But doesn't it get annoying?" You shook your head, "Miles, it's fine I swear I don't mind helping you and sticking up for you whenever people talk about you," You gestured with your head towards the direction the two guys went, "or when they try and get physical with you." Miles couldn't help but smile at your words. "You don't think I could handle them?" Miles raised an eyebrow with a smirk on his face and you laughed. "Even if I thought you could," You grabbed his chin, "I wouldn't be able to live with myself if your pretty face got all scratched up." You talked in a baby voice and chuckled as Miles' eyes widened. "Pretty?" He spoke loud and quick as if what he said just shot out of his mouth. You let go of his chin, "oh yeah why do you think I've been protecting you so much?" You stood up straight and stretched, "You were so cute when I first saw you, standing there all awkward like you are now." You rested your head on your arms and looked at him through the corner of your eye. "The first time I ever saw you my first thought was about how you looked like my type." You smirked and dropped your arms, turning fully towards him. "Then I saw you in the hallway that day trying to talk yourself out of a referral and I just had to help out." You stuck your hands in your pocket as you watched Miles process everything in his brain. He watched your every move with wide eyes and after a beat of silence you just sighed with a smile and started walking down the hallway. "Wait!" You heard Miles scurrying up to you. "So this- Are you- I'm-" He stopped talking and took a shaky breath. "Did you just confess to me? Was that a confession?" He asked and you shrugged. "Do you want it to be?" Another silence fell over the both of you. "..Yeah..." He said and your smile grew. "Then yes, it was a confession." He smiled at you, "I guess that this means it's my turn to confess now?" You nodded, "Yes, that would be ideal."
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yourmomxx · 2 years
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the birthmark on his cheek
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JJ Maybank x male!reader
Summary: One afternoon, you have an interesting encounter while sitting in detention.
Warnings: not really anything, reader is kinda shy I guess?
Word Count: 2.3k
ENGLISH IS NOT MY FIRST LANGUAGE
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Anyone who would hear you say the following words out loud, would probably automatically stamp you as an absolute weirdo. But it was true: you liked detention.
Well now, not exactly detention detention. That’s something you never really had to do. But you liked seating yourself into the half-empty classrooms after school ended, placing your laptop on the table and editing the pictures you took throughout the day, until you felt they were useable for the yearbook.
Doing this in school other than at home was somehow more comfortable to you, and it gave you the feeling of being amongst people, without having to actually actively talk to them.
Today was one of those days again. You entered the classroom and took your usual seat in the second to last row, and slowly began unpacking your stuff.
On the teacher’s desk, right in front of the chalkboard, sat Mr Ramos - English teacher and unwilling supervisor of 5pm detention.
He didn’t even look up when you came into the room, most teachers were used to your - quite unneeded - presence by now.
In your opinion Mr Ramos was a nice guy, but sometimes also seemed like the type of person to fantasize about killing his wife and starting a new life somewhere in the south of Europe.
Which was a very specific analysis.
When the clock showed 5pm sharp, Mr Ramos got up and took his attendance list and a pen with a sigh.
At this point, you were already extremely focused on the picture that was shown on your laptop, where you had caught Mitchell Gates mid-air, tossing a ball into the basket, scoring the last-minute winning point for your Highschool’s basketball team.
You vaguely noticed someone coming into the room and taking the seat directly next to you, though you couldn’t really be bothered to look up and check who it was.
You noticed that the classroom was pretty empty for a Wednesday, except for you, Harvey Davenport, and a girl with brown, curly hair and reading glasses. You didn’t know her name. She was one of those people everyone saw everywhere but no one ever really knew.
Maria. Or Martha. Something along those lines.
“Cooke, Amara,” Mr Ramos started listing up the attendee’s names. The girl with the glasses raised her hand.
Oh.
A heavy sigh then came from the teacher, as his eyes fell on the next name written on the list. He suddenly looked very worn out. “Maybank, JJ,” he read.
The person in next to you raised their hand. You felt your heart beating in your throat.
“Present, Sir,” JJ said, smiling cheerfully. As if he wasn’t sitting in detention right now.
Ramos ticked off his name and JJ lowered his arm again.
You managed to spare a side-glance at him sitting on your left. He was almost directly next to the window. His hair was caught under a cap which he was wearing — and he was fidgeting with a pen in his hand.
He was wearing a white tank top that showed off his flexing arm muscles every time he moved and seemed to slightly move his head to a music beat that was playing in his mind.
Quickly, you looked back at your computer screen again so he could not catch you staring at him, and slowly tapped the keyboard to get some work done.
Every once in a while you would let your eyes gaze over to JJ next to you, and every time you were just as fast to focus back on your pictures again.
But this time, when you angled your neck to steal another glance at him, you could feel your heart beat faster once more and the blood rushing into your ears.
Outside of the window that JJ was sitting next to, the sun was slowly setting above the Outer Banks, and the vanishing light threw an orange shade into the classroom.
JJ was sitting with his head laid back and closed eyes. His relaxed face as well as his hair, that had finally been released from under his hat, were angled just right for the light to catch them, and illuminated in smooth gold.
His arms were crossed in front of his torso and he had slumped further into his seat than before. Through the motion, somehow, his shirt must have risen up and you caught yourself staring at the exposed skin of his hipbone.
Carefully, you reached next to you on the table where your camera was placed, and picked up the expensive object to lift it to your eye.
You steadied and lowered your breathing, as if every move too loud or too fast, could wake the boy in front of your lens up and destroy this angelic moment of his relaxation and beauty.
You cautiously focused the lens and when you breathed out the breath of concentration you had been holding, you pressed on the shutter button.
The sound of the picture being taken seemed like thunder in your ears, but when you hurriedly put the camera down and sorted yourself to pretend nothing ever happened, you realized that JJ hadn’t moved a muscle.
You let out relieved sigh and connected the camera to your laptop with an USB cable.
When the picture finally loaded and showed up on your screen, your cheeks heated up and a small smile was forming on your lips.
Just like the model, the picture looked absolutely beautiful, and would look even better when you were finished with editing it.
Taking a closer look, you spotted a little brown dot on JJ’s jawline, just a bit under his ear. You frowned and looked at his real sleeping form, not even caring about being detected right now, and squinted to try and get a better look.
And indeed, on his jawline - an incredibly sharp jawline that was, by the way - he had a small birthmark, just a bit under his ear.
Satisfied, you turned back to your laptop again, and started working on JJ’s picture, your hands still shaking a bit from anxiety.
“Hey.”
You could hear a tapping noise. Or scratching. Or both.
“Hey.”
Again.
Slowly, you gazed over the display of your laptop into the mischievously glistening, blue eyes of JJ Maybank.
Sweet Lord.
You looked to the now empty seat at your left, then at JJ again, who was turned around, each leg on one side of the chair and his arms crossed on the backrest.
“Hey,” you managed to get out, closing the laptop just a little bit as to not seem impolite. And to get a better look at him.
“You’re the photographer guy, right?” He asked, still smirking and twirling the toothpick in his mouth around with his tongue while he spoke.
“I, uhm … yeah,” you answered. JJ hummed and focused his attention to the camera lying on the desk where you had placed it next to your computer after you had taken his picture.
Your eyes were flickering across the room, but no one seemed to mind or care what was happening between you and the blonde boy.
JJ reached for the black camera, and you hastily grabbed it out of his hands.
“Sorry but that’s like … really expensive,” you muttered when you carefully put the camera back to where it was before.
JJ raised his hands apologetically. “My bad.”
“So, you like taking pictures?” He was smirking again, just like before, and turning the damned toothpick again, just like before. And your heart was beating and skipping and doing god knows what things that it shouldn’t do, just like before.
“W-what?”
“You like taking pictures?” He leaned closer, maintaining eye contact, and your breath hitched in your throat. “Of me?”
You felt like dying. Right here and there. JJ sat back again, grin even wider than before and blue eyes sparkling with amusement.
“It’s just for, uhm … it’s just for yearbook,” you tried to explain. Jesus, hopefully he didn’t think you were some kind of stalking weirdo.
“I’m not some stalking weirdo who follows girls home and likes to take pictures of them naked or something,” you quickly added, but JJ just waved his hand.
“Calm down, man, didn’t even think of it like that. You’re not really a girl’s guy, are you?”
Whatdidhesay?
You sat there petrified, staring at him with wide eyes, dumbfounded, and JJ couldn’t help but laugh at that.
God, you were adorable.
God, was the sound of his laugh beautiful.
“Alright alright,” JJ finally said, still slightly out of breath from his laughter. He repositioned himself in his chair.
Your eyes flickered to the veins on his hand and the leather bracelets in his wrist. This boy was so attractive, it was eating you from the inside out.
“Can I see them?” JJ asked, startling you another time. You raised your eyebrows.
“You wanna see … my pictures?”
JJ shrugged. “If you think it’s worth photographing me then I would like to see the end result.” He started smirking again. “Unless there is footage on that computer you don’t want me to see?”
You felt your ears heat up and quickly shook your head, avoiding eye contact with him. You tried turning the display in his direction, but stopped mid movement.
“I, uhm …” you cleared your throat, “Maybe you should come over to my side. You’ll … see better then.”
Much to your surprise, JJ took his chair and sat down next to you without any comment.
You felt your entire body heat up at the realization of how close he was, and unsuccessfully attempted to calm your shaky hands when you operated the keyboard to show him the pictures.
Most were already well colored and edited, apart from a few exceptions which you still weren’t sure of if you wanted them printed anyways.
When you reached the picture of JJ half asleep in the chair with the light of the setting sun on his skin, you held your breath and gulped, unsure of how he would react.
Next to you, JJ remained silent for a bit. To you, it felt like three times of eternity. It was long enough to let an unsettling feeling sink in your stomach.
Finally, he spoke up. “This is …,” he breathed out, “wow. I mean -” He put his finger on the screen but pulled it away just as quickly when he realized that you probably didn’t like it when he did that.
Truth is, you hadn’t even properly realized it, and it would have been alright anyways because it was JJ Maybank after all.
“I mean, the camera quality, the lighting. I look so -” He paused. “I look so beautiful.” He whispered.
JJ looked at you with a soft expression. “I think this is the best photo someone has ever taken of me,” he admitted.
You felt your heart swell at the praise and your lips curled up in a smile. “Thank you,” you said.
“If you want to, I could print it out for you,” you offered. “Then you can, I don’t know, put it up or something.” You trailed off and shrugged. Suddenly your fingers were incredibly interesting.
You missed JJ’s fond smile as he first looked at the picture, then back to you again. “Yes, that’d be great. Thank you.”
“Really?” You almost shrieked. “I mean …” you cleared your throat. “Sure, sure. I’ll just…”
Mumbling to yourself, you pulled out a pen and wrote the words ‘JJ picture’ on the back of your hand. The blond boy followed your movements with his eyes.
You held up your hand for him to read. “See? Now I won’t forget.”
JJ chuckled and shook his head. “You’re cute, photographer guy.”
Your heart did that thing again. That stupid thing where it started beating faster and made your brain short circuit.
“Maybank, Y/L/N!” Mr Ramos’ voice suddenly rang through the classroom. All the other students also turned their heads to look at the two of you.
The teacher raised his pencil in a warning. “If you can’t stop distracting the students that are required to be here, Y/L/N, then I will have to ask you to leave in the future.”
Your eyes widened and you started stammering an apology when suddenly, JJ came to your aid.
“Understood, chief,” he said and saluted Mr Ramos. When the teacher turned away and everybody started minding their own business again, he added, now looking at you: “Seriously, stop distracting me, Y/L/N.”
You didn’t know if it was the way he emphasized your last name, or what he said entirely, but you felt the adrenaline pumping under your skin and a sudden need to scream. But in the good way, if that made sense somehow.
You didn’t notice how JJ moved his chair next to you, and when you came to your senses again he was already sitting on the table next to you again, twirling a pen in his hand and whipping his head to a song no one could hear, just as nothing had happened.
You felt the heavy feeling in your stomach again and just as you wanted to return back to your work too, the boy turned his head and threw a wink at you.
You smiled, and he smiled back, and you light-heartedly continued correcting your photographs.
When you laid in bed that night, you were thinking of tousled, golden hair in the setting evening sun, and toned arm muscles reaching out of a tank top, and a small birthmark right under an ear on a jawline.
That night, you fell asleep thinking of JJ Maybank.
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apocalypse-shuffle · 1 year
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HAL JORDAN | GREEN LANTERN (dcamu | generalized canon)
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“Montra” (Hal Jordan x Fem!Reader)
| Hal’s bored but you're really good at capturing his attention (and you’ve been dancing around one another for a while now so why stop now?)
| SFW, gala, infatuated!hal, planning a first date, mutual attraction, reader has short hair (kinda)
| Montra: Olea europaea 'Montra' or the olive in shrub form. (Pic source: Justice League: Throne Of Atlantis animated movie)
| This May be my New Years post (I’m trying) so if it is ✨Happy 2023!✨if I didn’t make it on time then ignore the new year thing (edit: I didn’t make it) I can say this is for Valentine’s Day tho!💚
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Hal is bored out of his mind. Which Bruce had clearly anticipated now that he thought about it. The man had left him alone with a very pointed ‘don’t break anything’ right before they entered the event as guests of honor. Hal had thought Spooky was being ridiculous, he was a grown man, but currently he wasn’t so sure.
Over the course of the night, as even John started to dryly tease him about how much of a brat he was being - and Hal left him alone because he was not going to be bullied - Hal heard Bruce’s words ring truer and truer.
Like a kid he was waiting for the perfect opportunity to mess something up enough that he could be released. As PR supervisor you’d probably get on him about it but he secretly loved when you chewed him out, it was the most attention he got from you and you were very sexy. Even if you did scare him sometimes.
Ultimately you’d put him in a side room until he could leave with the rest of the League and he was more than game for that. The event was for a good cause, don’t get him wrong, but there was only so much gawking one man not at all used to the spotlight while in a rented Armani suit instead of his uniform could handle.
He's tucked himself away by the bar and it’s worked fairly well to keep him out of sight. After all, the only thing that could indicate he wasn’t just some regular smuck was his lantern mask, and all he had to do was keep his head low to hide that. Problem was, that meant he couldn’t talk to anybody without garnering attention. He’s so damn bored he’s started stealing the olives from people’s drinks, snickering as they walk off without noticing.
Okay so he was a bit of a child.
It’s on his sixth go at snatching the olive from some guy's martini that you show up. One second he’s got his hands on a toothpick speared with the motherload of olives and the next his hand is being smacked.
The olives are almost lost to the air as he snatches his right hand away, but his left hand manages to catch it just in time.
“Ow!” he gives you a wide eyed look. “What was that for?”
His small exclamation makes you roll your own eyes, and he resents that a little, he does.
“Lantern, what are you doing?”
You lean against the bar and he can’t help the way his eyes catch on what you’re wearing. It complemented your figure quite nicely.
He clears his throat. “You reserve no right to ask me that question after you just hit me.”
“I reserve every right when you insist on acting like a right fool. What’re you even doing here? You should be on the floor mingling.”
Hal rolls his eyes as you flag down the bartender.
“I mingled for two whole hours, that tires a man out, so I did the responsible adult thing and hid.”
You order before turning back to him and his mind instantly wonders what you’d look like giving him that narrow eyed look in the bedroom. He goes a little pink. Jesus, that’s an image.
“Oh, you're the model of responsibility. Stealing olives is heightened sophistication.”
Hal winks at you, “I hear it’s all the rage with nobility.” and pops the three olives into his mouth.
“And if somebody saw and snapped a picture? There is no nobility here, Lantern.”
He realizes it’s kind of your job to care about how he looks to the public, you were made the PR representative for the Justice League after one too many smear campaigns led by Luther and you were damn good at your job, but he had a thing about being told what to do. He could admit that to himself very readily.
“So what? I get a slap on the wrist and a go get ‘em’ tiger.” He sighs dramatically, “Hardly seems fair.”
Your laugh comes out in a huff as you accept your martini. He points to it.
“Thought you didn’t like martinis?”
You scrunch up your nose; he thinks it’s adorable.
“I don’t, but I hate champagne even more and I need to look the part,” you raise the glass to him slightly. “So I’ll tough it out.”
You pluck the toothpick and olive out of your drink and hand it to him, taking the tiniest sip possible.
He accepts the olive quite happily and eats it. He ends up choking on the damn thing as you gag and he bursts into laughter however.
“Laugh it up, fly boy. You’re still going back on the floor.”
Hal shuts up real quick and you smile at him.
He can’t help but pout when you tug on his sleeve. Flopping off of the bar stool with a huff but allowing you to link your arm with his.
You pull him back into the crowd and Hal kind of wants to whine (just a bit) but you do smell nice, and the heat of your body pressed up against his side makes him flush a little.
Someone beckons you over, she’s a big investor he’s aware of that much, and he goes along with you because he’s got nothing better to do and if he tried to leave he was sure you’d just pull him back anyway. Plus he’s more than happy to bask in your presence.
He leans over, “Do I at least get something for being bossed around?”
You hum at his whisper and the woman finally takes notice of exactly who’s attached to your arm and waves to him excitedly. Hal smiles at her, but it dissipates quickly once her attention’s back on you.
“Like what?”
You hide your response, whispering more to his shoulder than anything, before immediately moving forward to shake the investor’s hand.
As you’re exchanging pleasantries back and forth Hal gladly lets himself fade into the background. Being at these galas always makes him feel moot; out of his element. It’s just that he’d much rather feel like he’s doing something: treaty negotiations, rebuilding efforts, saving people from falling debris and punching bad guys than smiling at people.
Shaking hands so that big decision makers remember to think about the League come elections.
Observing you it’s not hard to see that unlike him you are in your element like this. You’ve been soft spoken since the day he met you but you’ve always been able to capture someone’s attention when you needed to get a job done. It was admirable.
You went up against the League’s opposers almost everyday with nothing but dry wit and the smile you’re giving the investor right now. She asked about something to do with Calendars for Christ (whatever the fuck that was) and going off of your face you were clearly displeased by it so all you did was stonewall her.
Your hair is short so nothing moves at the top of your head except the ornate earrings you're wearing, green jewels bordered by diamonds that catch the light every time you move.
He kind of likes you in green. It dances off of the brown of your skin nicely. He wonders if you’d ever let him use the ring on you. Was the ring designed for shibari? No. But he was willing to make his constructs wrap around like that for you.
Would you be frightened by something so alien or would you jump at the chance to explore it?
Mm. He wants to find out.
The dress you’re wearing is a black gown with big flowing pleats on the bottom, your heels clack every time you shift your feet even though he can’t see them, and all your jewelry is a stark emerald that catches the eye. Simple, elegant, and with the unintended effect of making the two of you look together.
It hadn’t crossed his mind until someone else came over to crash your three person circle and made a comment that he picked up on. You don’t say anything but he’s sure you’ve heard it by the way your jaw clenches before you turn into him.
“Seems we’re garnering quite the buzz,” he says before you can.
You glare up at him. “Seems so. Now answer my earlier question.”
He thinks it over, eyes roving across your face as you stare him down. You weren’t a very physically intimidating woman but the power you held was certainly scary enough.
If he fucked up you could make his life a lot harder.
“How about you let me take you out and I do whatever you want for the rest of the night?” at your dubious look he rushes to keep talking. “Plus, I mean, you did say you needed someone to convince Senator Parker not to go through with Luther’s fake alien communication efforts.”
He raises his eyebrows up at you in invitation and you squint.
“And who better than the space police to delegitimize his cause, hmm? The wealthy love their law enforcement.” You slowly nod your head. “Alright you can take me out, but I don’t skate and I’m putting you to work for it.”
“Deal,” Hal smiles at you and holds his hand out for y’all to shake on it. “I will happily follow your lead.”
True to your word you put him to work right after that. Excusing yourselves from the group that formed around you and then dragging him off to sweet talk Parker right from under Lex’s arm.
He honestly revels in the nasty look Luther shoots your way as you ply the senator with promises of strengthening his image and sly pokes about making correct decisions.
“Do you really want to place the public's trust in you on a man that can’t seem to keep himself out of maximum security prison? What about his latest ploys before he bribed his way back out of confinement says you can trust his claims, Senator?”
You touch the man’s arm and Hal glares at the way it makes him lean into you.
“You were voted into office because of your care for the people, and today I need you to follow through. There are lives in your hands, Senator Parker, all I’m asking is that you think about them before you choose who to listen to.”
You point over to Hal and he can tell that’s his que. When he comes over he isn’t really thinking when he wraps his arm around your waist, effectively causing Parker to back away from you. You don’t move away from him though, and when he glances at you you only nod towards the senator.
He smiles and moves to shake the other’s hand.
“Hello, Senator Parker, I’m one of Earth's resident Green Lanterns and I can assure you that the inhabitants of other planets closest to us don't want some tacky space outreach center being built on their land.”
“Then what do they want Mr. Green Lantern?”
Hal starts to snicker, but you must feel him beginning to shake because there’s an elbow in his side soon after and he rushes to suck it back in.
“I can assure you it’s not humans flaunting our giant superiority complexes.”
He watches how Parker side eyes Luther before getting closer to him, and cheers in his head. His smile widens even more at the honest look that takes over the man’s face.
“Safe, effective and honest communication. That’s all they want. Impeding on their planets isn’t the way to accomplish that,” he chuckles. “And it’ll be waaay less money.”
“Thank you, Ms. L/n for knocking some sense into me. Luther can be very…persuasive but I won’t be making that mistake again,” he turns to nod at Hal. “I also greatly appreciate your input Lantern, I’ll keep your words in mind.”
The two of you stop at a small alcove after Hal exchanges emails with Senator Parker with the stipulation that he remembers Hal’s only earthside every so often and won’t be able to respond immediately.
“You’re really good at that,” Hal divulges.
You raise an eyebrow in question while going through your phone with hurried swipes. From his angle all Hal can make out is a calendar peppered with a sequence of bright colors. He elaborates with a shrug.
“I just didn’t expect the conversation with Captain Cowlick over there to be so…civil.”
The corner of your mouth upticks wryly and you slip your phone into your pocket while turning to him.
“Why, because I’m black? I was supposed to get angry? Start yelling, maybe?”
What?
Hal trips over the shiny unblemished marble floor.
“No! That’s not what I meant at all,” he waves his hands around to accentuate his point. “I only meant I expected Lex to stomp over and get all passive aggressive since, you know, he hates when people mess with his toys. He’s a giant asshole -and I trust your abilities completely…”
He glances at you, eyes wide and another string of apologies on the tip of his tongue, before he notices the twinkle in your eyes. He bites his lip.
“You’re messing with me aren’t you?”
You blink and instantly the mirth in your eyes dissipates, replaced with the stern yet benign look you dawned when confronting politicians and the press alike.
“Of course not Lantern. I was simply pointing out how your words could be misconstrued.”
Oh, you were definitely messing with him. He feels his lips tug up and shoves his thumbs in the loops of his pants. He leans a little in front of you as you both continue moving so you can see the dubious raise of his brows.
“And that’s the only reason?”
You give a derisive nod. “Mhm.”
Hal finds himself bouncing as he walks. If this was how you acted with him on the job he couldn’t wait to find out what you’d be like outside of work. If you were willing to joke around, even if it was at his expense, it pointed to you not just saying yes out of pity or self preservation. Which-
“You know you don’t have to go out with me just cause I’m the one who asked, right?”
“I’m well aware,” you chirp. “And besides, The Bat is my boss. Not you. If you tried to force my hand he’d slap your pasty ass with a suspension and put you on review real quick.”
Hal blinks, a little surprised at what you’d said, before deciding that -yeah- Spooky would totally do all that. Not that Hal would ever force yours or anyone’s hands for anything so paltry, but still.
“Good, I’m glad,” is what he settles on. “Just making sure.”
You make your way around in silence for a while after that. Hal finds himself going over his mental to-do list and squeezing you in. He was rarely earthside for long stretches of time so he always rushed to run errands during whatever “break” he did have.
He puts the date with you between two possible slots. The night after he checks his PO Box and restocks his food supply of nonperishables -he’d neglected the grocery store the last two times he was home and his kitchen now was depressingly barren- y’all could do dinner or he could do lunch with you in between his morning League meeting and scheduled training sessions.
The two of you find a small alcove cut off from everyone else to stop at and you lightly elbow Hal in his side before taking a step so you’re standing across from him.
“You were pretty good back there by the way,” you raise your eyebrows. “In another life you might’ve made a brilliant politician.”
“Oh god no,” Hal shakes his head with a guffaw as you titter at him; his plans could wait, that was disgusting.
“What? Too dishonest?”
“Too soulless. I like being a mediator, saving people is something I love. I wouldn’t give that and the feeling of flying up for anything.”
“That’s great Hal,” you look him in the eyes.
“We appreciate it.”
Hal smiles at you, leaning into your space.
“Yeah? That ‘we’ include you?”
You nod and get closer to him in tandem.
“Uh huh. You think I work for you guys because I don’t?”
Hal shakes his head.
“You don’t seem like the type of woman to waste your time like that.”
“Exactly. When I do something I do it in full.”
The tips of your noses touch as you breath in each other’s air. He can see your eyes dilate like this and the ring buzzes to alert him of his rising heart rate as he looks all over your face for what feels like the twentieth time tonight.
His throat clicks as he swallows. “Does that apply to us too?”
“It could.”
“Alright, that’s fair. How can I make that answer an absolute?”
He holds eye contact with you, smirk lighting up his face as he watches the way you stumble over your response then frown lightly. You school your expression into something more composed.
You get even closer afterward, lips ghosting over his own, as you reply.
“Let’s see how that date goes, first.”
At your whisper Hal starts to give in to your pull before he remembers something and moves back. Your face falls and he shakes his head.
“I just gotta-” he makes a jerking motion indicating both of you. “Are you feeling what I’m feeling?”
You grab him by the tie and pull him down. “Oh I’m feeling what you’re feeling alright.”
NOTES: Hope you enjoyed! This is not proofread because it’s fucking long and my attention span can only take so much so…✌🏾
(I am so unsure about my shit once I’m about to post it. Like I hate this now. Why do I do this to myself?)
Edit: Went back to edit some things and realized tumblr cut the end out so I had to add that. Just so y’all know. This app is really starting to piss me off.✌🏾
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The new hire pt. 2
Slipknot x Reader
TW: Alcohol
“Then you’ll really see the band in a different light~”
That circled through your head, over and over again until you knew that you should probably join them for the night out..The way Paul said it to you; it seemed to not be an offer but more of a demand for you to show up…
It’s barely even 10pm but it’s pitch black.. but you were told to meet back up at the green room, they had a change of plans and the supervisor of Slipknot asked them to just stay in the green room instead of going out and spending god knows how long out there. There was subtle music playing it wasn’t loud but you could hear it from outside
*Knocking*
The music was turned down a bit but you could still hear it… The green room door opens and your surprised by the tallest member, Jim there in the doorway with..no mask on..
“Y/N it’s so good to see you…”
He had no mask on, why did he have no mask on? Did everyone else have their mask on or was it off like Jim’s? Why would they show you their faces so early on..it’s barely even been more than ten hours since you met them in person…
“What’s the matter? Thought we would have our masks on?”
You looked at him, his eyes locking with yours..it was like that for what felt like hours..but you broke eye contact once he stepped inside and offered you his hand to lead you into the green room. Your question about if they were still wearing their masks was answered..the masks were off but you could still see to stage makeup they wear underneath the masks..it was all smudged and the makeup would follow their trails of sweat down their faces.
“Hey there~ Y/N”
You now were just trying to learn which one had you already met when they had a mask on…there’s no telling who is who besides Jim..he looks like a lamppost for crying out loud..in the mask and even outside of it..it’s funny how he looks so much more laid back without the mask. He could tell you were trying to find out who was who so he cleared his throat and clapped his hands together.
“Do you actually want to meet them? Y’know outside of the mask?”
You paused.
“Yeah, it would help a lot..”
Jim chuckled and looked at Paul.
Someone clear his throat and it sounded fairly familiar, but you can’t be for certain yet.. He stood up, then proceeded to stretch and walk over towards the cooler they had in front of the small tv in the room. He bent down and opened it and grabbed a beer then opened it for you and walked over to hand it to you…His presence was nice and comfortable..you think it’s Paul..
“Oh..thank you Paul..~”
You guessed correctly because he smiles and he says you’re welcome, his eyes are a lot prettier when they are outside of the mask..you took a sip of beer..then another one…You feel like something is missing so you look around and begin to count all of the bodies in the room and you count up to 8..someone is missing..but who..it doesn’t matter because Paul somehow reads your mind.
“Mick, doesn’t really join us when we drink..he just stays away when we do this”
You chuckled at the fact that you didn’t even ask the question yet but you got an answer..creepy you guess..you take a couple more sips until you end up finishing your beer..
“So, y’all just drink your asses off before traveling again?”
Paul chuckles at the fact that you finished your beer already and her goes over to the cooler again to get another beer for you, but you stop him and ask him if he has something more…y’know something alcoholic not just beers.
“Well, well, well~ you like harder stuff like the rest of us?”
You nod softly
“I’ll go shot for shot if someone is up for it”
The room goes silent for a sec until Sid stands up, it’s easier to tell who is who if you watch their body movements..Sid looks you up and down sizing you up to see how many shots he’ll have to take.
“You’ll be out in 13 shots~”
Sorry, if the formats are still wacky, I’m still deciding on the layout!! Xoxo
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Yesterday I finished chapter 16 and I'm really happy with how the story has progressed so far. Can you say that about your own story? I always try to stick to what the series dictates. Some things can be discussed. I also read a lot of nice scene summaries here. Those really help. And then I have my own thoughts.
Simple example of what I mean exactly: In 5x12 Lucy is clearly checking out Tim's upper body. I think that implies to some people that this is the first time she's seen him shirtless. But I don't believe that.
Why? On the one hand, there is the scene in which Lucy wires Tim. She also checks his upper body and has definitely seen him without a T-shirt, or rather with his T-shirt pulled up. And then I don't think they've been dating for weeks, he's changing jobs for her and she's never seen him shirtless. Nobody can tell me that they haven't made out by then. I think she generally likes checking him out. Who can blame her? And so in my story he definitely appears to be a shirtless Tim. Why this example comes to mind. Well, because that was simply a topic in the chapter I wrote yesterday :)
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But enough chatting now. Now for the sneak peak. This time from Chapter 12:
In the meantime, Tim is called to a few locations as supervisor, but never to one where Lucy is. Their lunch times don't coincide this time, so they don't see each other at the food trucks either. But that doesn't stop Tim from exchanging several messages with Lucy during lunch with Aaron. Which earns him one or more sideways glances from Aaron. Not that Aaron knows who he's texting with, but he can see that he's not just checking his results and statistics app. Because he types too much for that. At least Aaron knows when to keep quiet and doesn't ask any more questions.
The afternoon is pretty uneventful. Lucy is called out on several small calls, but these consist more of assistance than actual police work. Although assistance is also an important part of police work. And it's also one of the parts that she always particularly enjoys. But the afternoon is simply quiet. She texts Tim when she gets back to the station.
Lucy: Go and have a shower and then drive home. Is there still a chance of meeting you somewhere?
His reply comes almost immediately.
Tim: Just got back to the station. I've got some paperwork to do. Write to me when you're done. We can meet in the car park by your car.
Half an hour later she arrives at the car park, freshly showered, and sees Tim, still in uniform, leaning against her car. He pulls her round the corner and behind a small ledge that she didn't even know existed until now. And then he pushes her against the wall and kisses her until she gets dizzy. Tim seems to have some kind of weakness for pushing her against walls. Which suits her. Because she clearly has a weakness for being pushed against walls by Tim. They don't have much time because, after all, they are in the LAPD underground car park and someone could always come along, even if they are a bit hidden. And so, the few minutes they have consist of making out and whispering snippets of conversation so that nobody hears them if someone does come. And Lucy gets a little adrenaline rush from this secret meeting and realizes for the first time what it means to date in secret. And somehow it turns her on that this relationship thing is a secret between the two of them. Something that only belongs to the two of them.
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geminixevans-stan · 2 years
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Found Ch. 2
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Pairing: Lloyd Hansen x Female Reader
Words: 2.1k+
Summary: After finally finding out reader’s whereabouts, Lloyd comes to make up for lost time, by any means necessary 
Warnings: 18+ Minors DNI, mentions of past life, mentions of gun use, a smidge of violence, mentions of headshots, explicit language. 
A/N: I’m back to this unhinged man! I enjoyed writing this after my long stint of not writing and I hope you all love it!  Like, comment, & reblog! ♥
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I do not consent to my work being copied, plagiarized, or translated in any way >:P
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Flashback
You stare at the detailed brief, scanning over it twice… three times. The mission seemed like an easy feat, one that you felt needed no help on. But you were the newbie, a fresh face is what the director described. 
Graduating at the top of your class, excelling is every single test, you were deemed overly qualified for the Federal Bureau of Investigation. 
Your skills were one to envy, with perfect scores on all targets, there was no better shooter than you. Even on your worst day, the best agent couldn’t even get close to you. 
It took you a while to be seen by someone who actually respected your qualifications. But it was work unlike you had ever seen. 
It didn’t matter the target that you were assigned. If it had a pulse, it wouldn’t be once    Le silencieux came in and did what needed to be done. 
News of your abilities circled around until An Agency decided to take you in. Promising you bigger targets with bigger pay. You would kill anyone. Almost. 
Children were always off limits…
Something that the agency respected. Seeming as though they had other contractors that would do that side of the dirty work. 
You didn’t need anybody to help you. Which was why as you look at the brief one more time, there was a point of contact. A supervisor that would be accompanying you on said mission. 
Lloyd Hansen was a household name and when the agency needed effective work, he was the guy to call. That was up until you came along and he got wind of your talents. 
If it wasn’t your job in Berlin that alerted him of your prowess, it was definitely your last job or taking out one of the top-paid tycoons on the West Coast of America. 
Said to be the most untouchable mogul in the world, you decided to prove that theory otherwise. To the media, the cause of the death was natural causes. 
But Lloyd knew better. He looked over the autopsy reports over and over. You left everything pristine and even he would roll his eyes at having to do extra work. 
It didn’t take him much asking to be put to watch over you. With a record like yours, you didn’t need a babysitter. 
He just wanted to have a front-row seat to just how good you were…. 
Present Day
Your fingers hit the numbers on the keypad quicker than you’ve ever moved, hearing the access notification. With no time to waste, you motion for Lloyd to enter, smelling the same scent that you knew so well. 
As the door closes by your hand alone, silence fills the room. The tension was as loud as ever and you wanted nothing more than to quell the impending elephant in the room. 
“Nice office ya got here munchkin,” Lloyd’s voice comes into play as she looks around the modern study. 
Professional and well organized to the naked eye and you wanted to keep it that way. 
Pleasantries weren’t something that you really had time for. The reason for your disappearance stood before you, that smug smirk on his face as he set his eyes on you. 
It was maddening the way one look could annoy all the fibers in your being. He was the only one that could do that. 
And nothing had changed from then to now. 
Steel is held to your waist, not letting your finger slip from the trigger as you look over at Lloyd, the annoyance already rolling off you. 
“You’re not here to talk interior decorating and I don’t have time to talk nice,” you say curtly, your feet planted in the same spot, “Now… What do you want?”
“Isn’t it obvious?”
“Can never tell with you Lloyd. You’re not very good at context clues. Cut the shit.”
Lloyd stares into you, a soft smirk weighing on his lips as he pulls his gun from the holster, automatically making you draw yours. 
“Easy there sharp shooter… I come in peace for the moment,” a grin spreading across his face as she sits on the edge of your desk. 
You don’t trust him and he knows that by the way your gun is still pointing at him between the eyes. 
He sits there on the desk, watching you… studying you even, looking at the slight changes of your compared to years ago. 
Still as beautiful as he remembered but more… scared. 
Like you finally had something or someone to lose… 
If it was one thing you knew: Lloyd Hansen Never puts his gun down. For once, you decided to trust him. Whatever he wanted needed to be said now. No telling when exactly Lili would wake up. 
With reluctance, you place your guns in their holsters, making sure you had easy access in case he had any ideas. 
“Why are you here?”
“Colibri…”
“Don’t,” you say sharply, your voice not faltering, “You don’t get to call me that…”
A frown sets on his lips, the tick in his jaw evident as he clenches his fist, “You left… without a word. Care to explain that?” 
You smirk, deciding to play him at his own game, “Isn’t it obvious?”
“Cute… real cute cupcake,” the deep chuckle coming from his throat, his eyes boring into yours, “You know… I hate broken families,” He starts off, raising from his makeshift seat and walking over to you. 
His height towered over you but it didn’t matter. You were the only woman to ever to bring Lloyd Hansen to his knees. A feat that even the most notorious assassin couldn’t even do. 
You never budged as he stalked closer, his cologne just barely kissing the insides of your nostrils.
Still bold with a hint of sweetness, just like the scent you got for him, courtesy of your many stays in France. 
Lloyd bends just a little to meet your eye level, shamelessly breathing you in as he lets out a low groan, “Still as delicious as I remember… I would hate to have to slowly get my answer from you ma douce and you know I can take my time very well. Start talking.”
If an answer was all he wanted, then that’s what you would give. You had no problem hurting his feelings when he had his hands on Lili. That was his first and only strike. 
You let out a steady breath, keeping eye contact with him as you began to speak, “It’s not rocket science. I got pregnant and knew the second that it was real that my old life was done. There was no way that I was going to bring a baby into this mess. She didn’t deserve to have an unhinged father like you,”
Lloyd stayed quiet, waiting for your next words. He knew you were far from finished. 
“And I was right… Here you come and kill her nanny, break into her room, and demand answers. Dad of the freaking year.” 
“Only two of those are right ma douce..” 
He answers while holding up two fingers, his voice void of emotion. The desk becomes his seat again as she swings his leg over the front, staring at you once more. 
“I would never kill our daughter’s nanny. She does need looking over after all. Since you think you know what kind of father I am, you would have known that.”
Your eyes begin to soften a bit, bringing fixing them back to how they were, “Never thought I’d see the day that you would have a moral compass. I’m touched,” you say flatly. 
“I still don’t Colibri but, I’ll make an exception this time.”
A slow clap fills the room as you begin to mock him, “I should be honored huh? At least you care a little. I’ll give you that much. She’s still my daughter. The only thing you did was deposit a weak sample.”
“My ‘samples’ were what you used to crave at one point in time. You can play coy all you want but we both know the truth ma douce…”
No matter how wrong you wanted him to be, Lloyd was once all you cared about. All you yearned for. You knew deep down he could never love. 
You blink away for a second, setting your sights back on him, “You’re right, there was a strong one out of the bunch. Ya did some good in that retrospect.”
“What can I say ma douce, I never disappoint…”
“And yet you’re still here… I told you what you wanted to know. You got what you wanted,” you knew this wasn’t going to be easy. 
Lloyd was never easy… 
He gives you a knowing look, the tick in his jaw back again as he grew more annoyed. 
You needed him out of your house and far away from Liana… She didn’t need him and neither did you.
Without a second thought, you walk around him and sit in your rightful seat, blowing out a slow breath.
“I know you, Lloyd. The minute she would have been of age. You would have taken her and made her into your image. I’ve seen it before…”
There was no proof that Lloyd would have taken Lili down the same road as your father did. But, you weren’t going to take any chances. 
You were made into a weapon far before you were even a teenager. Target practice, day in and day out, combat practice when you turned eight. 
To say you had a sliver of a childhood would have been a lie. You never even wanted children for that sole purpose alone. 
But your surprise child softened you the minute you heard her heart beating. 
Loud snapping took you from your thoughts, Lloyd’s face almost touching yours. 
“Whatever daddy issues you may have has nothing to do with me. You took time away from me and I’m ready to collect on it.”
“You won’t go near her again”
“Watch me.”
“We both know how this will end, Lloyd. Do you really want to do this?”
Lloyd leans up from you, standing up from the desk, his lips pulled in a thin line, “I’ll give you two options sweets. The easy way or the hard way.” 
A chuckle erupts from your lips, stopping just as fast as it started. 
“You know I love the hard way Lloyd and if that means putting a bullet through your fucking head, then I will.”
A soft knock interrupts you both as you stand up, only for your face to meet the desk hard as Lloyd crossed over to slam you down.
The soft knocking continues as you begin to struggle, feel the tight grip Lloyd has on your arm. 
“Mommy?” a soft muffled voice comes from behind the door, causing your fight reaction to rise. But your strength is no match for the pressure Lloyd has on you. 
Cold steel meets your temple, Lloyd’s breath, coasting over your ear, “As I said before… I hate broken families. But I’ll splatter your brains on this desk and make our daughter half an orphan,” you struggle against his hold as he slams you down again, the knocking continuing to ensue. 
“Just a minute baby! Mommy’s coming,” your voice shakes, hot tears prickling the corners of your eyes. 
The knocking stops, knowing that she’s waiting, you lift your head up a bit to listen to the man keeping you from your baby. 
You relax a little eliciting a content sight from Lloyd, “That’s good… compliance is all I asked for. Now, you take your ass to that door so I can meet my daughter. You’ve wasted enough of my time so make it quick,” he spat, releasing you from his hold as you stood up and walk to the door. 
As you turn the knob, the fear that you had the day Liana was born came back to you. All the running that you did still wasn’t enough. It was now or never and weren’t going to leave Lili in the hands of just Lloyd. 
The door opens and her large stuffed rabbit meets your eyesight before she does. Her eyes are still low, sleep still apparent in her. 
“You okay sweetie?” bending down to check the warmth of her forehead, “Still not feeling good?”
Lili shakes her head, hugging her rabbit as she looks behind you, “Mommy? Who’s that?”
The question that you never wanted to answer. But it was staring you right in the face and the last thing that you wanted to do was to lie to her. 
The words were lost on your tongue as you know that this choice could make or break the only person in the world that truly loved you. 
Your creation wanted answers and you wouldn’t make her wait and let her lose more sleep. 
But it wasn’t you that answered the question. You didn’t even know that Lloyd was behind you until you heard a tone that was only ever meant for you. 
Softness…
“Hi there Princess Liana… I think it’s time we formally met…”
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wetcatspellcaster · 2 months
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While I love hearing about your fic writing, that last WIP Wendy has me curious. What is your thesis about??? How are you feeling so close to your submission deadline? What has teaching been like?
(I finished grad school 2 years ago, and remember the weight of academia acutely)
hey anon, thank you for asking (and condolences on the typo ;) )
i'm a PhD student based in a literature department, but my topic is actually... *fanfare* D&D! that's right, she's that one note, everybody!
anyway, my thesis examines D&D gameplay as reader response to fantasy literature - arguing that often, the ways people play reflects the things they wish was different in the books/media they consume. E.g. people who play/write drow or orc characters no longer tend to perpetuate the racism of the Forgotten Realms, implying they don't appreciate racism in fantasy, or people often queer their favourite characters from media and turn them into something new, etc. It basically takes theories from fan studies and fantasy literature academia, and applies them to D&D as a way of showing that D&D has always had a large role in shaping fantasy literature and what people expect from fantasy :)
as to how i feel finishing - my final deadline, due to my sick leave, is June 28th. I'm currently completing a full draft by the end of the month for my supervisors to read through and offer corrections on. Mostly... just tired? And scared, tbh. I've been funded and thus not really participating in capitalism for 3 and a half years, so I'm not exactly relishing unemployment and job hunting, and academic jobs in the UK are a depressing prospect as there's not many of them. It's also too early for me to do anything about it - the most useful thing for me to do right now is simply finish the thesis, so I don't outstay my welcome and my funding. I know I'll be fine eventually, but it's just going to suck.
Teaching is genuinely wonderful! I teach first year English Lit (basically Novel 101), which is like karma, as it's many books I didn't enjoy in my undergrad, but they are much easier to read now I'm at the skill level I'm at! If a class is chatty and invested, it's genuinely so much fun - it doesn't feel like work. But even the quiet hungover early morning classes are rewarding, bc often people get better grades in their finals than their midterms. Even if I have nothing to do with that, and they've just gotten better on their own, it's nice to see people improve and succeed :) (and know you didn't accidentally fuck em up along the way)
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popcornforone · 2 months
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FEBRUARY
From the Marcus Pike Fan Fic Diary
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Time for extract number 2 from your diary. The first one seemed to go down well & I have a few months now preplanned so I hope these all really do deliver. Well I’m enjoying writing them, they are a nice little distraction.
Synopsis:- Marcus has to work late on Valentines night, so how will this effect your plans for the most romantic night of the year
Word count:- 1800
Warnings:- DO NOT READ IF YOU ARE UNDER 18! PIV Sex, established consensual relationship, sex in the work place, swearing, teasing, spanking, mentions of pregnancy. Remember this is a diary so it’s written as I.
Thanks as always for the read peoples, all feedback is welcome. I hope you enjoy.
My hand still trembles when I think back to Wednesday. Valentine’s Day. I know it was only a few days ago but I am still amazed how well it worked. I’ve replayed it all in my mind countless times. So much so that this morning while I thought he was asleep, I was thinking of it as I touched myself. Marcus was playing possum & I didn’t notice until his thumb slide over my clit.
“We’re we that good beautiful?” he said with morning breath before he pulled me on top of him. My pussy was filled & oh my did he feel good. Morning kisses & gasps filled the air but oh fuck he knew what to do this morning, he always makes me cum.
Wait this is for valentines not today.
We never do anything on Valentine’s Day. First year I was sick, second year he worked late & last year a friend got married on Valentine’s Day.
How “original” is that?
But this year I had a plan. I wanted to do something we’d both remember & give him a gift he’d never forget.
I had to act naive when he said on the 10th he was on the late for the 14th. Usual patter flew out my mouth of “I don’t need a day to tell you how much I love you” & “as long as I get morning sex it’s okay” he blushed. He liked that I’m so open & honest with him about sex & our preferences. He likes that once I have said everything though, that he gets to take control. Those hips have a power over me as I quiver beneath him, be it slow & sensual or blistering passion. I’m his, my body is too.
What Marcus had no idea about is that this was all planned. Id contacted his supervisor & asked if he could work late & promised to not make a mess. Ha! Surprisingly it was all approved & allowed.
So in I sneak into his office at 6pm on valentines evening . Oooh the morning sex was wonderful before I went to work by the way. He’d got me a bunch of 13 roses & took one to trail over my body as I sat in his lap riding his cock. The way the petals felt over my nipples had me grinding harder.
“So beautiful” he whimpered as my head rolled back as he looked at my strained body about to explode in sexual desire. I knew he was going to think about the way I moaned his name as I came, for the rest of the day. I had the look from his dilated eyes imprinted in my memory. God he was good.
Sorry but it adds to the surprise.
So I crept in & set up his office & got changed & put a little recorder I had to the side to hear it all back. I wanted to get it right word for word for you my diary & so I could listen back to our flirting. I made sure his desk was clear & organised. I’d even sent him an email as to where his paper work was so he could find it the next day. As much as the fantasy of papers being thrown over the office is a romantic, it’s not practical.
I hear his tones come from down the corridor.
“I’ve just got to sort 1 more thing out & then I’m clocking off I’ve got a 7pm talk in my office & then I’m done.” The door clicks at 6:55pm & it swings on & Marcus jaw hits the floor. “I’ll call you tomorrow”
“Hi baby” I giggle as I twist my hair which I’ve slightly curled for him. He likes that. I’m sat on his desk.
“What on earth?” Hes stuttering. “You can’t just rock up here like this, I have a meeting in…” I tut & wave a naughty oh no finger at him. His eyes went from shocked to suddenly surprised.
“I’m your 7pm meeting” i lick my lips.
“How”
“Your supervisor approved it, I think he’s a romantic deep down”
“Well I’m very happy he did” I hear Marcus lock the door & hit the button to close the blinds. He takes off his jacket & stands hands on his hips. “So a valentines surprise?”
“Exactly & your gifts you are going to love.” I smirk.
“Oooh morning sex wasn’t enough”
“Never Marcus,” I giggle & stand up & start to unbutton the long coat I am wearing. I stand next to Marcus. A soft but rich kiss encapsulates us both as his hands plunge into my hair. I wriggled enough for the coat to drop to the floor. “This is your gifts baby” & I step back.
Now I know what your thinking diary & I think so was Marcus when he opened his eyes. I wasn’t just standing naked infront of him. Quite the opposite.
“I’m confused” he asked & then he looked me up & down once again.”wait is…” I nod.
“Your valentines present is all the clothes I ‘borrow off you’ baby, for you to have & so they smell a bit more like you again” he chuckles.
“You know I have no problem with you…” his voice trails off as I slowly remove his long thick football socks I wear in the winter & i seductivly remove them from my legs & feet flinging them at him. “…. Actually…” he gulps down undoing his top button”… maybe I do need them all back, urgently right now” he grabs the second sock I throw & sniffs it. “Oooh cheesey”
“Marcus!” I joke back “so you want your big comfortable captain america hoodie back then, it will make me cold when I take it off, I might need extra warmth”
“Oooh I need it” I slowly peel it from my body & Marcus blushes even more.
“What’s the matter baby?” I asked “you often see me in just your blue shirt & your boxers in the morning”
“T…t…true” he’s losing composure & his hand is trying to palm his erection but it failed. I mean Marcus should always be so proud with how big he is. “But not before sex”
“Who says we’re having sex tonight” I raise an eyebrow at him as I unbutton the shirt I’m wearing. His face burrows & he pouts. “Well maybe I need to swap this shirt for a new one.” I take a few steps towards Marcus & start undoing his own shirt. Kissing around his chin & neck. Both shirts fall to the floor at the same time.
There’s something about the way he sucks on my nipples. It’s every time. I moan. Even if I’m not in the mood or not up for it, he twists, licks, cups & then sucks. I’m instantly an aroused feral mess all just for him.
“Marcus” I groan. A feeing I adore but always has me being vocal. He whispers my name back before moving onto the next breast. My nipples are erect as I start to undo his belt. I then push away from him. He doesn’t look shocked he knows where this goes.
I step back & twang the elastic in the boxers & then turn around & shake my bum. I hear his trousers drop to the floor as I climb into the empty desk. As I do so I peel the boxers off showing him my arse. Peachy & ready.
“Don’t be shy baby” I moaned.
Slap.
The feel of his palm in my buttocks sends shivers down my spine & I gasp. He’s not into spanking, but when we were seeing what we were both into he loved the little squeak I made, it makes him throb. So he does three spanks to hear the noise each time which is his turn on.
I then turn around & open my legs, spread apart, completely vulnerable & my pussy is in need of satisfaction. He has a brief look at the state of me in front of him before he shimmy’s his boxers down. Stroking his long veiny meaty length, in his large hands, he makes the 5 paces towards me. I quiver as it glides across my clit, no lube needed I’ve been aroused for a while. He fills me in one jolt still standing.
“Fuck Marcus” he’s hit the spot already on the second thrust. His teeth grind as he growls as he fucks me into the desk. I eventually end up lying on my back on the desk, screaming his name.
“Fucking tight” he stammers “best cunt, my cunt, gonna fill you til you can take no more”. Marcus didn’t know this was how his day was going to go but he was loving it. So caught up in the moment enjoying as I clamp around his penis.
We don’t just fuck on the desk but against his filing cabinet & in his office chair.
“Fuck” we scream in unison, our final orgasms hitting. I’m in his lap. Both our bodies spiralling out of control. It was pure lust & desire. He squeezes my bum as I breathe into the crook of his neck.
“Do you know that lots of babies come from office flings?” I lift my head up eventually & look into his deep brown eyes.
“Really?” He smirks, he’s now wondering if this is a coded way of me telling him something.
“Good job this isn’t a fling & a real deal” I say as I stroke his face & he sighs. We need to have the future conversation soon.
“Well when it happens it happens & I just know if we do decide to try, our kids will be loved” his hand stroke down my arm as we suddenly then both realise the time & should probably be heading home.
Marcus was impressed I did have a change of clothes that I got dressed in, & that I brought a gift bag for all of his “gifts”.
“Baby you know you can keep these?” He says as he puts his shoes on.
“Oooh I know I just want you to wear them for a while so they smell if you again”
“All an alternate motive” I roll my eyes “hey don’t do that I mean technically you were my 7pm meeting”
So yea that was my Valentine’s Day surprise for my man. We finally got to properly celebrate one together. He has already asked if he can see my at 7pm in his office next year, I’ve said it’s a date…
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jeongjaebae · 2 years
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Takes one to know one [teaser]
Pairing: Hyunjae x reader Genre: E2L!! E2L!!! ENEMIES TO LOVERS Warnings: y/n swears a lot and radiates angry energy :') A/N: ~900 words of typical jeongjaebae-ness. the start of the ~25k (???) work that gave life to offend and want aka all your hyunjae e2l dreams wrapped up in one fic
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You have no idea why everyone compares you to Hyunjae. Sure, the two of you might be at the top of your class and working on the same thesis topic, and maybe you both have a competitive streak. Maybe you like to get on his nerves because he gets on yours. But that doesn't mean you're anything like him... right?
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Lee Hyunjae, Lee Hyunjae, Lee Hyunjae.
The entire week you'd been hearing this name as it echoed off the walls of your office, all throughout your classes, and now even at the table of your department lunch.
He's the new transfer student, supposedly here to do research at your college for a year before returning to wherever he's from. Which is a totally normal and boring reason for him to be here, of course. But that's not why this whole situation annoys you.
You're irked because you seem to be the only one who hasn't crossed paths with him yet and doesn't know who he is or what he looks like. You're bothered by the way he's already made a name for himself amongst your peers during the brief time he's been here. And then there's the way his name slips out of mouths like he's some kind of god? The absolute worst.  
"Who the fuck is Lee Hyunjae?"
You hardly notice when the table goes silent at your outburst, all eyes on you in various degrees of shock. There's Jisoo beside you, mouth open the slightest, and there's Juyeon diagonally across from you, dropping the piece of sushi he'd held in his chopsticks. You're lucky your supervisor isn't here to witness this moment.
This was supposed to be a nice lunch that Dr. Kim decided to put together to celebrate the various publications and achievements your department has accomplished. It's supposed to be a great time and it's not like you want to ruin the mood or anything, but all this talk about this Hyunjae person has been very off-putting—
The guy across from you puts his chopsticks down and holds out a hand. "It's Y/N, right? I'm Hyunjae."
Oh.
Jisoo elbows you, snapping you out of the sudden whirlwind of thoughts. She looks at you pointedly, tilting her head towards where Hyunjae's hand still hangs awkwardly over the table while the rest of the department seems extremely focused on this moment for whatever reason.
"Right," you say, shaking his hand half-heartedly with your mind still running on autopilot. "Nice to meet you."
The rest of the lunch goes by in a blur. You're too preoccupied with replaying that scene and thinking back to how you arrived at this point—why did you practically embarrass yourself in front of the entire department over this annoying new guy? Though when you think about it, he really isn't that new. In fact, you've met him multiple times already.
It all started a week ago.
Monday morning. It'd been a rough start—first, you'd overslept and were late for your class, and if that wasn't bad enough, the side door that was going to be your shortcut to class was locked. Your only glimmer of hope was the guy standing by the door on the inside. He'd looked up at the sound of your knocks, stared at you, and then simply walked away without letting you in. You were late for class.
The second incident was a couple of days after that. You got called on in class by your prof, which isn't something you'd normally worry about, but the person who turns around to stare at you as you're answering causes the words to die in your throat. It was the door guy. He had the audacity to add onto your answer too, that bastard.
And even today at the lunch earlier, he'd taken the exact food item you'd reached for—not once but twice. Sure, it might've been a coincidence, but you couldn't shake off the feeling that this annoying undergrad was out to get you. Whose lab was he in anyway and why did he suddenly appear? You'd never seen him before this week.
But it's only after your outburst and that abrupt revelation that you realize he's no undergrad at all. He's not here as a research assistant, nor is he the student of one of the TAs in the department. The new guy sitting directly across from you is the infamous Hyunjae that you've heard about all week. You just never pieced it together.
Though it's not like it's that stupid of a mistake—this is not how you pictured him to look like at all.
Based on how smart everyone says he is, you'd pictured a stereotypical nerd: thick glasses, greasy hair, perhaps a hoodie swallowing up his entire body as he slouches at his desk. The guy in front of you now, however, is the complete opposite of that. What is he doing at grad school anyway? It's a waste of those good looks to be hiding them in the depths of your lab. A crime, a travesty. How is it possible to be that smart and good-looking? Couldn't he leave some talent for the rest of you? What a selfish bastard.
"I'm selfish?" Hyunjae asks, meeting your eyes.
He waits for an answer and it's only then that you realize you'd said the words out loud. You open your mouth with an apology on the tip of your tongue but then stop when you see his expressions—Hyunjae raises a brow, perhaps concerned with your statement or with the intense staring you'd been doing as you try to process all of this. But surprisingly enough, he doesn't seem confused. He's not upset, nor does he duck his head and look away.
Instead, he smiles. The corners of his lips curve into an amused smirk paired with a twinkle in his eye.
Little did you know what kind of rivalry you just started.
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snippychicke · 2 years
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I really loved the Dali imagine you did, thank you for doing it for me! 🥰 May I be so bold as to ask for a continuation / part 2 to it? Hope all is well with you!
MisSam!!! I am so sorry it took me forever to write this! I really hope that it is well worth your wait, and I hope you enjoy!!!!
The next morning you woke again to feel much more… cohesive. 
Dali was still at your bedside, asleep in the hardback chair. Which meant you had a perfect opportunity to study the demon. 
Dali had been helpful as you adjusted to your new life. You had initially been a little creeped out by the fact he was always lingering nearby - but as one of the other teachers pointed out, you were the newest and 'very independent' for a new teacher. Your mentor - Buer - didn't seem to mind, but Dali was probably just concerned. 
Thus, you had started acknowledging him. Slowly the two of you began talking, and you felt like you were befriending him.
As well as developing a crush. 
He was nice, but it was the devilish side that had caught your interest. He may be a senior staff, but he still acted a bit childish at times as he pulled tricks on faculty and students alike. 
So no, you weren't upset by his prank. Honestly, you felt like you should have expected something like that sooner rather than later. 
But… now that he knew you were human, was everything going to change? 
--
Dali woke to something tickling his nose, preceding a slap to his face.
By his own hand.
Your laughter brightened the room as he startled awake. He blinked owlishly, confused for a moment before his mind woke up, refreshing him with the details of a long day and night at your bedside; holding a vigil as you fought the dire effects of his prank. 
But here you were, falling back into your bed as you gripped your ribs, a large grin on your face as you laughed. 
And - okay, that was a classic. He relaxed, smiling softly as he waited for your amusement to dwindle. 
You were awake. You were safe. 
You… were human. 
Devi, he felt like the biggest idiot when Lord Sullivan divulged that secret to him, after making him swear not to tell another soul. Things made so much sense now; why you tended to be skittish, your different thoughts, your imagination...
Watching you, feeling that fear that he may have accidentally killed you, made him realize - or rather admit several things. 
Mainly, his interest in you was far more complicated than he liked to pretend. It wasn't purely scholarly, or out of professional concern to make sure you were doing your job right.
He was attracted to you; your mind, your smile, your body. Everything that made you, you. Human, demon, it didn't matter to him. 
A wicked idea sprung to his mind as your laughter started to fade. He shifted before springing onto the bed, pinning you down. He grinned as your laughter suddenly died, your eyes wide with fear, face flushed darkly. 
"You dare to trick the master?" He growled with a feral grin before attacking your sides with his fingers. Tickles were torture after all, though your gasp and perles of laughter were anything but. He knew exactly how to toe the line between playful and too much, and made sure to stick right on the edge as you squirmed beneath him until tears were in your eyes as you begged for mercy. 
"You think you deserve mercy after the worry and heartache you put me through?" He purred, leaning close to whisper in your ear as his hands fell from your side to brace upon the bed. "I should gobble you up for making me worry so." 
He could almost hear your heart pounding. This close to you, he could smell the fear; a hint of that delicious scent he instinctively knew was human, as well as a trace of arousal. 
It answered part of his question, though he knew arousal didn't necessarily mean you were interested in him. He was your supervisor, and hopefully a confidante now that he knew your secret. Betraying your trust was the absolute last thing he wanted to do. 
"Well, if someone hadn't put toxic beetles in my desk," You shot back quietly, surprising him. He pulled back to study your face. You avoided his gaze, but there was a hint of steel in your expression nevertheless. 
"Well, I guess I will have to protect you from such careless idiots," He replied. "Though, I have a feeling they sincerely regret their idea now, and would offer their deepest apology." 
Your gaze drifted back to his, studying him intently before softening. "It was intended to be funny and not malicious. And it wasn't like they knew my… disability with magic." 
"Do you possess any magic?" He asked seriously, and felt his stomach twist as you shook your head. Devil, how had you lasted this long without any magic? In a school full of demons no less.
"I'll protect you," He swore, shifting to brush your hair. "You're one of my precious teachers who pledged their life to Babyls. No one will harm you under my watch." 
You hesitated before smiling once more. "I trust you." Before he could react, you leaned up to press a kiss to his cheek. "Thank you for looking out for me." 
Oh. Oh. He couldn't let you get away with that. "I can protect you from the others," He crooned, a warning in his tone. "But not when you play with fire like that." 
There was a pause as you registered his words; the meaning behind them, the hazy look in his eye. Dali was giving you every chance to back off, and instead you rose to the challenge. 
"You mean like this?" You wrapped your hand around the tie loosely hanging around his neck before you pulled him down. Dali happily met your lips in a kiss, moaning at the sensation. Soft, warm, smelling and tasting like some exotic treat. He groaned as he shifted to cradle your head between his hands, as one of yours wrapped around his shoulders to keep him close. 
It would be so, so easy to get carried away. Something about you was intoxicating, making the rest of the world blur into nothingness. All that mattered was your lips, your tongue. Your nails digging into his back, your legs shift to straddle his hips. 
Those small noises from the back of your throat, letting him know you were enjoying this just as much.
But, he had a reputation to uphold - and he had just vowed to protect you. Including from his own desires. He forced himself to pull away, though lingered close enough where your breath merged with his. "As much as I would love to continue, it's probably best if we… take it slow." 
"Can teachers even have relationships?" You asked softly, a hint of dread in your voice at the answer.
"As long as we both understand the student's safety comes first." And many demons found it hard to accept that their mate would always put their vow to Babyls before everything else. 
But you were human, and apparently full of surprises. "I would certainly hope so," You replied with indignation. "I would never ask for you to put my life before theirs." 
"Well then, it seems like I have an even better excuse to sit in on your lectures." 
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astramthetaprime · 4 months
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How about a Switchback?
So yeah.
Mom's back at the nursing home.
Another round of Covid went through last weekend.
I went to see her on Sunday.
And so now we both have it.
It's been mostly just annoying to me, but I'm (relatively) healthy. I do worry about my mother as she's hanging on by a thread at the best of times these days, but I haven't gotten The Call again so I assume she's still on this side of the life line. Admittedly, my normal life consists of spending the vast majority of my week here at Casa Proton, I really only go out on the weekends to get groceries and to have my one meal out a week and to go see Mom. So none of that is happening this weekend but I'll be going to pick up my groceries at WallyWorld later today. The dog needs his food and treats even if I feel completely blah and have no motivation to figure out my menu for this week. So I went with the lowest hanging fruit and it's going to be hot dogs and pizza this week. It'll make a nice change from the hamburgers and pizza it's been the last few weeks.
Autism is all about the safe foods. Not the healthy foods. The safe foods.
Moving right along, y'know that job I trained for 5 weeks for? Yeah. We finished all that work. And now they have me doing something else for which I had half a day's training. Unexpectedly. Then two days later said "nope, need you to go back to the other" and it took me over an hour to remember how to do the original job. Bad with unexpected transitions doesn't even begin to cover it. But this is the real world, right? This is how things work in today's modern offices, it's pivot this and agile that and multitasking and moving onward and upward.
Is it too much to ask to work one job, continuously, for a few years? Like 13 years? Long enough that I can retire?
My mom did the same job for 34 years. I did the same jobs with the Postal Service for 14 and 10 years respectively, data entry and then clerk.
At least I'm working at home. I cannot tell you how beneficial that is from an autistic standpoint. The lack of stress from not driving downtown to work, the lack of danger to myself and my irreplaceable car, the time saved, I log off and in two minutes I'm out in my front yard throwing balls for my dog. I can listen to music or podcasts or audiobooks during work just as I used to do back in my early days at the PO and I'm so damned grateful for that. So grateful.
I know I just have to suck it up and deal -- I haven't said anything to my supervisors. What could I say that wouldn't make me sound like I was whining or demanding special treatment? This is business, this is how it works these days, you either deal or you fall off the wheel and end up homeless and starving on the street. I don't have the leeway to make choices yet. I may never have that luxury, I may inherit nothing from my mother after all is said and done. It's so damned ghoulish to think that way. Anticipating her death so I can benefit from it. We all like to think we're good and moral people but this socioeconomic paradigm makes people inherently greedy. What is "moral" when you can financially benefit from your parent's death?
When my Daddy died, I inherited $6,000. I bought my first real computer and modem. A 286 Bondwell B-310V laptop with a black and white screen and a 2400bpm external modem. This was pre-Internet. I was dating a hacker at the time and he gave me a copy of a dialing program called Telex that let me call up BBS systems. And a copy of WordPerfect. And I was off to the races.
So yeah, kids, I'm older than dirt. Modems used to make noises. Your brain started equating those noises to joyful experiences and fun and suddenly you get dopamine from hearing the most godawful grindy modem tones.
The crazy thing? I still do.
This is still the sound of joy.
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goldenfreddys · 3 months
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september ‘04, cont.— um, it's kind of a lot
“Well, I have some news. It’s good news for me, but I think maybe mortifying for you.” Nadia grinned, cross legged in bed with a large book in her lap, “I have unearthed an archaeological artifact, courtesy of your mom.”
Jeremy groaned in faux anguish and sat down beside her. It was a photo album, probably filled with various outtake pictures of his youth that his mom didn’t have room to include in her primary album.
Nadia opened it up and immediately started laughing. There was a blurry picture of a newborn baby with adult sized sunglasses positioned on his tiny face, followed by more baby pictures of a similar ilk.
One photo, dated October ‘88, starred a small child wearing a ghostbusters jumpsuit.
Nadia pointed at the kid, “Oh my god, is that you?”
“Nope.” Jeremy guided her finger over to the child situated in the background dressed as a white-sheet ghost, “That’s me.”
“Wait, then…”
“My sister. I was kinda camera shy, so I always got her to stand in front of me for these types of pics.”
Nadia snorted, “Was? You slapped my camera into the lake last time I tried taking a picture of you.”
“You were being sneaky. You spooked me.”
“You’re right, next time I'll hold out a handful of sugar cubes and say ‘easy there’ like you're a horse that saw a scary twig.”
The next page had some pictures of a fishing trip. Nadia paused, frowning.
“Are you crying in this one?”
“Oh… Yeah, I-I didn't realize that in order to cook and eat the fish we also had to kill it. Um, coincidentally, this is also when I lost interest in fishing.”
They continued flipping through the pages.
“... What’s your sister’s name? You didn't say.”
“Charlie. We were pretty close back in the day.”
“Not anymore?”
“We-we um, we haven't really been in touch, given she… Died. Almost ten years ago.”
“Oh…”
Ten years. He began double checking the math in his head, before the train of thought derailed into a pile of blurry, dateless snapshots—questions like ‘do any of these men look like the one you saw that night?’ presented with a lineup of nondescript mugshots he couldn't tell apart, ‘worry tracker’ worksheets, the escalation from school counselors to therapists to adolescent psychopharmacologists, the de-escalation from policemen to detectives to amateur true crime enthusiasts— all of it at once, tangled in a cat's cradle.
Nadia set aside the album and stood up, “We’ll come back to that one. Go take a shower, you smell like job.”
It was true. Freddy’s had that typical unfamiliar place smell, combined with something kind of bitter and industrial, that clung to his clothes. Another wave of dread washed over him just thinking about his shift. If he had a scrapbook of bad first impressions, sleeping through his shift and acting like a complete basket case in front of his supervisor immediately after would need to have its own 2-page spread.
“I’m hearing a lot of silence and not a lot of getting in the wet-box!” Nadia called from the kitchen.
Jeremy took a breath and attempted to reel his focus back to the present. He got up, trying to itemize what needed to be done as he dug through the suitcase of clothes he hadn’t remembered to put away. After showering, he would need to eat, then phone his mom and try to get some actual rest. Alternatively, he could try to figure out where the fabled washer and drier unit was in the apartment.
The buttons on the light purple dress shirt he’d been given as a uniform were stiff and difficult- or maybe they were normal, and Jeremy’s fingers were still a bit jittery. Probably both.
He tried not to get into staring in the mirror. Although, he remembered last week one of Nadia’s new friends admitted she thought he was a butch lesbian when she first saw him, which was oddly comforting. It stuck in his head and gave a nice little rush whenever he had to look at himself- butches were cool, he thought. They performed machismo with grace.
Today was a hot shower day, Jeremy decided. He deserved a treat.
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yourdaddyfigure · 11 months
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Hi hi ☺️
It’s been a little while so I thought I’d give you a little job update! I’ll finally be done with all my training courses this week so I’ll be able to actually be out doing my job and figuring things out in real time which will be nice (:
There are little surveys that get sent to random clients that have been helped throughout the day that basically ask how satisfied you were with the employee and it gets pretty detailed and they rate you and the experience in a bunch of different areas. They are constantly monitored and taken very seriously. (As the lead I see everyone’s scores and our averages as a whole and have to make action plans to improve our numbers each month)
I got recognized by my managers boss (our regional manager) for getting 2 perfect 10 scores and a 9 within the first week and a half of helping clients which felt so good ☺️
Definitely have a TON to learn to be able to do my job as a lead/supervisor which is still stressful but I’m getting the basics down and it’s nice to be recognized for working so hard and doing so well so quickly 😄
Sorry for the book 😅 As always I love seeing you on my feed, I hope you are doing well 🥰
Hello hello 🫶🏼🥰
It has been a little while, and as always, I’m glad to hear from you, my friend! Always hyped for my updates on life! I’m so proud of you for getting through all the training! I already know you’re going to do amazing! You've got this!
Oh wow, you have a really important role in your team, that’s for sure. It sounds very intimidating at first, but I believe you’ll handle it with flying colors. I’m seriously so happy for you that you really went out of your comfort zone and are moving on to bigger and better things!
And of course you did! Because you’re simply that damn awesome, 😎😌 I’m telling you! You've got this!!!!
Everything takes time and effort. As long as you’re trying and putting in the time, you’re only going to get better. That goes for everything in life. So keep doing what you’re doing, and I promise you’ll not only learn what you need to learn but even more! 🥰
Please, there’s no need to apologize. I do apologize for getting to this a little late tho,😅 but as always, the feeling is mutual, and I hope you have an amazing weekend ahead of you! As always, please stay safe and sending hugs. 🫂
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