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vivanightcity · 5 months

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talking RP makes me miss my little idiot who larps as a human from a regency era novel but has no fucking idea about anything at all.

#i am apparently incapable of having normal characters #cause this guy is like a weird little fairy freak from this liminal realm between faerie and earth #where everything lost ends up #and he found a vanished country house that had been left to rot in this like trash heap world #and just moved in and started playing pretend #cause he's so fucking alone and disconnected #and everything he learnt about humans was from the books in the library #so there's nothing modern #and he's piecing together modern humans from the trash they lose #and then he decides to start selling the better lost stuff back to people at carboot sales and markets #and living his best dodgy antique dealer life #and his physical appearance is like purposefully anachronistic against the personality he pretends to have #because the only humanoids he'd actually seen in person before making up his appearance were scavengers and looked rough #every oc I make is a mountain biking vampire witch from the future #and i don't fucking regret a thing #my favorite genre of character is : wtf is going on - but like - personified #followed closely by: im so fucking angy because i can't process grief #and then finally: dog

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ruporas · 1 month

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dragon meat, you, and me

#marcille donato #falin touden #farcille #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #tw blood #tw body horror #tw gore #as a normal farcille fan this revival has been on my mind since i first read it and getting to watch it is like yippee!!#like messy revivals are everything - the consequences that will haunt u for the rest of the time they are alive #the initial hopeful moments where it all seemed well but quickly descend to That not being the case - losing not only the bit of evidence #evidence that your dream may work out but also someone you deeply care about in the process… marcille my Beloved #ofc wholly thruout the journey - at the forefront of it - getting falin back was the most crucial point but so wuickly :(( it was lost #on the other end its crazy to think about the compoments of falin now - human - dragon (dungeon) - marcille’s magic and desperation #the food the crew cooked (digested) - she is made of many parts!!#also i did not realize how medical it feels to draw smth like this. i dont usually explore the inner parts or use a lot of blood #in my work so rendering everything and looking up refs it felt quite magical (?)#ruporas art

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wispforever · 7 months

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#Naruto #Madara Uchiha #Hashirama Senju #hashimada #I really wish we would've gotten to see more of their fight after they were reanimated #too bad that was the part in the manga where kishimoto gave up on himself #ugh love them #madara being so different that hashirama sees a stranger #and is unable to understand why he can no longer get through to him the way he used to #babe he's 80 years older than you'll ever know #this is not the man you thought you killed #madara has lost everything by the end of his real life #when he's reanimated he's completely abandoned his humanity #finally gets to let some of that anger out #love him so much #good for him

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blueskittlesart · 1 year

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this. this is killing me. this is a constant with him. failure and redemption. he could not save her the first time but this time he is stronger and he is better and he is not alone. no mistake is too drastic to be fixed. no wound is too deep to be healed. you could not reach her then but your arm is not burnt and broken anymore. you can reach her now. THIS GAMEEEEEEEE

#everything about this game. hyrule healing zelda healing links arm healing the KINGDOM HEALING. EVERYTHING COMES BACK TO THIS #second chances. growth. all is not lost because of one mistake.#thinking about how he grew up and where he came from. convinced that the entire fate of the world was on his shoulders #that if he made even the slightest mistake hyrule would never recover #and then THIS. trying and failing and trying again and GROWING AND HEALING AND BEING BETTER. KNOWING THAT ONE MISTAKE ISNT THE END #GOD. FUCK #totk spoilers #totk liveblog

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quickhacked · 5 months

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Mikhail and Vitali were inseparable; when they weren’t studying or getting into fights, they would hang out at Mikhail’s place to smoke and get drunk on cheap rum and vodka, to then pass out in each other’s arms and sleep most of the next day away. They promised each other— no matter what would happen— they would never leave each other’s side. Yet after starting university and college respectively, they did not see each other for a little over six years, leaving them both heartbroken and wondering what went wrong.

by lucas expedidor // catch me if you can; eden // clementine von radics, from 'courtney love prays to oregon' // sam sax, cruising: a broken tiara // 'ceramic home' by heavensghost; quote from john murillo // 'something's changed' by laiikastears // i don't want to watch the world end with someone else; clinton kane // fortesa latifi, from 'the truth about grief' // audre lorde, the evening news // frank o'hara, biotherm (for bill berkson) // heading home; ruben // 'preface to a dream' by alessandra casini // tokyo; caroline kole // langston hughes, poem // haruki murakami, norwegian wood // julie buntin, marlena // by lute // by aleksandr popov // anyway; noah kahan // christa wolf, cassandra: a novel and four essays

#cp2077 #edit:mikhail #edit:vitali #nuclearocs #nuclearedits #happy birthday to my two boys :^) yes they share the same birthday what about it. it's essential to their whole. thing #whatever it is. they're like soulmates but also they are NOT dating. i need you to understand that. because it makes everything funnier #you guys remember when i first introduced them here and people thought they were together. good times honestly #but yeah no vitali is officially dating vincent and mikhail is just their eternal third wheel. their relationship can't be defined #they also reunite of course but i LOVE emphasizing their grief. they didn't know they'd ever see each other again #and they've known each other since around age 12. imagine spending almost every day with someone who CHOSE you #and then suddenly not seeing them or talking to them for YEARS. what do you do with that grief. that pain #sure they've found each other back but what do you do with that. where do you put it. it makes me insane!!!#they both were so lonely in their own way. vitali getting lost in vices and crowds but ending up all by himself at the end of the day #and mikhail drowning himself in studying and pushing himself far over his limits just to distract himself from the hole in his chest #night city in my head is much more massive than what it feels like in game. like yeah it feels big but not. BIG big #and i think mikhail and vitali's story and them losing contact while only a district apart really emphasizes how like #how HUGE this city is not only in terms of actual land it covers but also just. how overwhelming it is. how it can swallow you whole #anyway if you've read all of this hi. wanna make out

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canthandlethishit · 2 months

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prompt: timetravel fix it (?)

Damian somehow traveled back in time and meet robin!Jason mistaking him for Dick, after a while he caught up and realized, Jason was headed out to the place he’d be taken and later be killed at the hands of joker, Damian now have to contemplate changing the timeline to save Jason or not

go wild

#it could go all fun and rainbows and jason in the future personally collecting the siblings and finally gets to meet damian and woah happy #or it could go the time travel stuff is very fragile and telling jason could mean great alternative future where everything goes to shit an #and damian is stopped from revealing and he leaves and grieving sad when he returned and batfam notices but he wont talk wont tell what #happened and finally jason turns to check up on him in his faux aloofness and damian gives him a hug or sth #and damian’s grief is lessened by the end of the night because he realized a piece of the brother he knew remained and not all is lost #jason todd #robin #damian al ghul #red hood #batfam #batman #damian could also idk get an insight onto dick in his angsty angry teen days ig s #if you still want more extra plot stuff #but if youre goin timelines are sensitive route damian shouldnt meet too many people voluntarily #batfam prompt #writing prompt #ao3 #robin!jason #robin!damian

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itischeese · 1 year

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No but the Obito/Kakashi parallel gets so much more tragic when you consider Kakashi being in love with Obito.

Like, Kakashi lost the boy he loved and he devoted himself to his grief, took on Obito’s personality and devoted himself all the more to protecting the village Obito had loved. He became a hollow shell of a man, haunted by grief he refused to let go of but kind, determined to protect what was left.

Obito lost the girl he loved and he want mad with grief, fought and killed and destroyed what she died for just so he could have her back, if only in a dream.

The clear lesson here is that heterosexuality is toxic and dangerous, in this essay i will-

#And like #Kakashi could never confess it #was too wrapped up and repressed #While Obito confessed #bore his love on his sleeve #and lost everything in the end #I don't know where I'm going with this but By God if I have to be infected with the kakaobi feels so do you #hatake kakashi #kakashi x obito #uchiha obito #kakaobi #obikaka #obkk #kkob #naruto

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biblionerd07 · 7 days

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I tried watching some of the Ian/Mickey scenes from season 11 and it made me ill. These are IMPOSTERS. That is not Ian and Mickey!! Especially Mickey!!! Look at how they massacred my boy. But one of the most frustrating parts is that if you watch the deleted scenes it shows that someone in that writers’ room DID know how to write Ian and Mickey but the producers or whoever makes that decision were like “nah, no meaningful conversations that show how much they love and respect each other and are working on their relationship. These fans who’ve been watching the characters struggle for a decade want them to continuously argue and beat the shit out of each other and act like they hate each other!”

#John wells if I ever catch you #there were a very few small spots of goodness and I credit ONLY Noel and cam for that #they were doing their level best #some of the things they had coming out of Mickey’s mouth made me want to drive my head through a wall #in what world am I supposed to believe Mickey was getting blow jobs from other guys #and making a joke out of Ian’s bipolar????#like the one time they remembered they even wrote Ian as bipolar and it was for a shitty line where Mickey throws it in his face #it feels like every season is a whole new show and not connected at all to the others #and then it starts feeling like every EPISODE is a whole new show that’s not connected #why was there like a goofy soundtrack as Mickey’s literal Nazi abusive rapist father moved in next door #Noel was giving us everything and they made a joke out of it #and then they made a joke out of Mickey being conflicted and crying after terry died??????????#I want to kill them #Ian saying frank was worse than terry????? girl in what world??????#Mickey was NEVER insecure about bottoming and he was always adamant about how much he loved it but suddenly it’s an issue #from ‘liking what I like don’t make me a bitch’ back when he could barely LOOK at Ian to…this #also Ian used to be very sweet even when he was being stubborn and self-righteous and even violent #but they really lost his sweetness #and I know it wasn’t just cam growing up bc there were glimpses of it in the way he chose to have Ian move and hold onto Mickey #but the writers seemed hell bent on all of the characters being so horrible to each other #in the early seasons they could sometimes be cruel and selfish even to each other but underneath it all they loved each other #and it feels like when they decided to lean solely into goofy comedy that lost that #it’s just sad to see a show that started so good end so badly #I’ve seen people talking about a spinoff with Ian and Mickey and I don’t even fucking want it with these writers #maybe if cam and Noel were producers and got to choose the storylines #they’re the only ones I trust

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lunarharp · 6 months

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lazy scribbling of my baldur's gate 3 characters

#*emerges from 430 HOURS of life-changing playtime blearily like a lost and confused kitten*#i lost my interest in drawing bc everything is too sad & horrible right now. it was a luxury and privilege to lose myself in this instead #what follows will be my personal and trivial emotions about that #i'll do better proper drawings later. for me. they are both so very dear to me... deeply dear...unforgettable journeys of fate #truly have played like one possessed for the past few weeks. you have no idea. what do i do now. what do i do.#their personalities are so vivid to me though they mostly made the same choices. both intersex and they/them - canonically <3 #i missed out on FOUR PARTY MEMBERS in my first playthrough due to not understanding anything whatsoever.#gloaming ended up with wyll and pavane romanced karlach and astarion. and ended up with the one i did NOT plan on. this wasnt the plan #one of the most fulfilling romance paths i've ever..i cant say more..it all got too immersive and now i have to just.. MOVE ON ??????????#live in THIS world where i can't gut imperialism personally and emerge alive from that?#without Long Resting? without my character requesting a kiss from their beloved after a tough day ??#without preparing my little spells? without channelling divinity from my death god to keep us all alive?#without dyeing my man's clothes fancy colours for him? without him Approving whenever i lie and double-cross our enemies #without sharing clothes with my ex? without choosing to eat the heavy food first so that the weight is easier on her Carrying Capacity?#without orchestrating ways for all of my friends to kill the abusers that ruined their lives for a decade or even 200 years?#without experiencing degrading horrors on a daily basis but in a cathartic way where we always make it back to our rooms at the inn #WITHOUT SPEAK WITH ANIMALS???????????#at least there's music. just like with persona 5 that will always be with me. always #like how p5 melodies take me back to those feelings. those rich and personal feelings.... BUT THIS WAS A WAY MORE NUTS EXPERIENCE #i thought i would hate it. i did at times. thought it would desensitise me to various things. it did. but there was so much more..it was...#Well anyway *continues my life* imagine if dnd was real..something to think about

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so-called-quail · 2 months

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'Trapped in the end!' said Sam bitterly, his anger rising again above weariness and despair. 'Gnats in a net. May the curse of Faramir bite that Gollum and bite him quick!' 'That would not help us now,' said Frodo.

Sword in hand Sam went after him. For the moment he had forgotten everything else but the red fury in his brain and the desire to kill Gollum. But before he could overtake him, Gollum was gone. Then as the dark hole stood before him and the stench came out to meet him, like a clap of thunder the thought of Frodo and the monster smote upon Sam's mind.

Now he tried to find strength to tear himself away and go on a lonely journey – for vengeance. If once he could go, his anger would bear him down all the roads of the world, pursuing, until he had him at last: Gollum. Then Gollum would die in a corner. But that was not what he had set out to do. It would not be worth while to leave his master for that. It would not bring him back. Nothing would.

Sam and vengeance in today's entry

#idk i have Thoughts about this... rambles ahead...#there's an interesting arc here with how sam approaches his feelings of vengeance in this entry #starting with the first quote. frodo's response to sam is so brief and doesn't get much time to sit with all the action going on #but i feel like it speaks volumes #at least in showcasing the different points they stand on #sam centers his resentment and feelings of revenge... he's quick to get frustrated and immediately goes for threatening gollum #meanwhile frodo is focused on getting out. he doesn't have time to nurse anger nor does he want to #it feels like he's advising sam to move past it because he knows it's futile to stay stuck in those feelings #then there's sam's fight with gollum #after days and weeks of building tension from his mistrust towards gollum... this is where the dam finally breaks #sam's been feeding into his resentment for SO LONG it's no wonder he gets into this state of blind fury towards the end #he set himself up to seek vengeance the moment he gets the opportunity #which in some way i'm sure does help him in fending off gollum... that strength had to come from somewhere #but once he's staved him off he continues to fixate that anger on gollum and forgets what he originally set out to do-- protect frodo #and then we're left with the final quote...#it isn't until sam has (perceived to have) lost everything that he is able to come to the conclusion that vengeance won't serve him #...a lesson learned a little too late?? maybe?? no?? it feels cruel to say that #i definitely do not want to take the position that sam was responsible for what happened to frodo #he was pinned in a horribly desperate situation and couldn't do much once gollum attacked #i don't think much would've changed if he hadn't had his moment of fury with chasing gollum #anyways newbie here-- i haven't read anything ahead from here so idk what character arcs await sam #but i'm interested to see if this is later built upon or acknowledged #end of rambles skdfjgkdjsfg #lotr newsletter #lotr newsletter march 13th #EDIT: I forgot to space the quotes out 😭#not a crime but they can get confusing to read when scrunched together hrnnnn

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littlebittyhollowbugs · 3 months

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Evil counterparts ready to conquer the world

#hollow knight #hk hornet #hk thk #hk pure vessel #hk the pure vessel #hk the broken vessel #hk lost kin #They are each from their own au #Hollow joins the radiance and they basically move Hallownest into the dream realm where she rules over everything #This is very ooc for Hollow I know #Broken vessel uses lifeblood to resurrect all the vessels but lifeblood is deadly for non void bugs and they end up destroying #Hallownest using it's power #Hornet becomes the queen of Deepnest #And conquers the rest of the world #I'm still developing these stories #Really I just wanted to draw the siblings but evil

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missholoska · 1 year

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Is it just me or does almost every outfit in the sims 4 cottage living just seems like something Toriel would wear?

yeah that's just objectively correct tbh

pretty goat mum 💜✨

#holoskart asks #I gotta draw at least one of these outfits next soriel week for sure :'>#also speaking of cottage living. I swear that pack had something against my toriel sim for the longest time #bc the pack introduced a bunch of new pie recipes and a pie competition every few weeks. so Obviously toriel needed to win that #except the game absolutely refused to let her win for real life months on end #I have a screenshot where all 3 pies entered one time were the same type. toriel's was excellent quality vs 2 townies' normal quality pies #she still lost to them. and then when she finally Did win first place several tries later it happened in the dumbest way possible #she entered a pie. waited for hours until the competition ended. no result appeared so I gave up and sent her home #two in-game weeks pass. frisk is hanging out at their high school's football event. a notification pops up as the event ends #the result from the pie competition finally appears. during the wrong event and two entire weeks late. and then my game crashed #luckily everything turned out the same way and she still got the first place result but god. it was So Much #anyway this kind of nonsense is why I love the sims gjhdsfjgh

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quietwingsinthesky · 1 year

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Very strange to me that the longer supernatural went on, the kinder it was to John Winchester and the uglier it made Chuck.

There’s something very. I don’t know. “Don’t blame your father, your father never did anything wrong. Blame God. Blame this thing that’s been secretly making your life worse this whole time, pulling the strings, controlling you and everyone around you.”

And the further we get into the show, the more Chuck becomes a Writer, rather than it being about God as a Father. (Never completely losing that aspect, obviously, just like Chuck was always a writer, but one of these parallels clearly superceded the other in terms of importance to the story.)

#this isn’t John winchester crit ‘he was a terrible monster we should blame for everything’ post tbc #it’s about how the show lost its teeth about fatherhood right when it needed them most. and it still gives some bangers! but. this big one.#this big one flops for me.#idk maybe its just a side effect of 2/4 of the archangels being dead. Lucifer not being a real character anymore. Michael busy being gay.#like who is Chuck supposed to father figure to here? I mean there’s cas but that was never the same relationship as the archangels to god.#angels to god fatherhood relationship v different. explored in different ways.#and I mean Chuck himself is just a cartoon villain by the end too. there’s v little nuance left in him.#I guess there could have been something with Jack. oh the good spn in my head where Chuck butts into the Jack custody battle.#is this child a threat to him? better make sure he’s loved as The Best Grandad Ever.#there could have been one thing the winchesters & Lucifer could team up/agree about: get Chuck the fuck away from Jack #anyway I digress. just thinking thoughts.#spn #chuck shurley #john winchester

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m4ndysk4nkovich · 5 months

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pffffft what? no debbie gallagher scene could make me cry. she’s an annoying drop out teen mom who’s character was ruined. nobody likes her, why would i cry ove-

“hey! celia! tonya! open the goddamn door! give me back my baby! give me back my daughter! hey, franny! franny- franny, baby! oh- i’m here! mommy’s here, baby, i’m right here! i will kill you if you don’t give me back my daughter! i’ll fucking kill you! you hear me? i’ll burn your house down! you hear me? she needs me!”

#where’s emma kenney’s emmy for this scene??#where is it??#debbie literally created franny so that she wouldn’t be abandoned #she made her so that she would never leave- she remembers feeling such a connection with her mother- and she would’ve never left monica #but then franny is stolen from her #and debbie has just lost everything- all she really had was franny #yes she had neil but she wouldn’t have done that if she wasn’t desperate to keep her kid safe #and what debbie says makes me feel like its what she wanted to hear from monica #that she was here and she would kill to get her daughter back #because monica was never there and debbie was taken away several times #which makes what monica says/does hurt more #she gets franny back #and then tells debbie ‘daughters always miss their mommies- did you miss me?’#and debbie doesn’t say yes #as if what monica did didn’t rip her up inside #as if the abandonment was nothing to her and as if she ever ends up recovering from what monica did to her #emma kenney is so talented with comedic and dramatic acting #i could go on and on about it #y’all just can’t see it because you hate debbie but emma can ACT #i wish she was in more but she really isn’t in much and she doesn’t get to show off her skills often #shameless #debbie gallagher #franny gallagher #7x08

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mishy-mashy · 1 year

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That opinion that every happy ending involves getting married and having kids and it's happily ever after? This does NOT apply to the Astrea family AT ALL.

Case Study #1: Wilhelm and Theresia

They marry and have a kid, go through that typical line of a happy end... but in reality, Wilhelm loves his wife too much, and it's a problem

(especially after said wife dies and he blames everyone else in his family and Oh, Look! Family Drama!™)

Happily ever after? He's estranged himself from the Astreas now, blames his own grandson, and goes on a long journey of revenge. His son's become an alcoholic, his daughter-in-law is dead to the world, and he just left the Astrea family to be handled by the mess that is Heinkel

Wilhelm was so obsessed with his wife, thought his kid might've been a genius (he was not), and when his wife was gone, he was pretty quick to turn around and leave

And where was he before Theresia even died? Where was Theresia, too? When Heinkel couldn't get a job, when Louanna became a Sleeping Beauty, or when people broke into the Astrea manor?

Reinhard was five when Theresia died. These events all happened before that, and they're... enjoying retirement, I guess?

Case #2: Louanna and Heinkel

First off, they married young. Well, to us, it's young, but remember, the age they can start getting married is 15. They're in something like a medieval period. Being around 18 or 19 is totally plausible to get married for them. As we've seen with Priscilla, age gaps aren't a problem either

Heinkel has a beautiful wife and has a kid, and all is well for exactly two years. Then his wife is Gluttony-ed, and everything goes downhill from then on

Heinkel...

... has little talent for the sword, yet is stuck between two generations of Sword Saints (his mother and his son)

... doesn't qualify for the "van" in his name

... can't even get a proper job on his own

... almost loses Reinhard when he's FOUR

... is searching for a cure for his wife that involves killing the dragon that protects their kingdom

... has not kept his wife's state under wraps so nearly everyone knows and can gossip

... verbally abuses even those who try to help him and then regrets it when it's too late

... lost to his own 5-year old kid in a sword duel despite training his whole life himself

... is aware that national laws have been made to restrict his son

... has a job for the sake of appearances with no actual responsibility

... 's job is being done for him by someone about half his age and is otherwise just a knight (Julius)

Heinkel grew up with two heroes for parents, realized he could never match up to even the family general standard, but he does get a beautiful wife and son... and then his wife disappears in what might've the peak of his marriage, and his son has all the talent in the world—something Heinkel might've dreamed of having

Case 3: Reinhard.

Reinhard is obviously expected to marry and have a child to continue the Divine Protection, but that too is just another responsibility he's burdened with.

He's someone with so many Divine Protections that he can see the reality of what each is like. What if he doesn't want his kid to go through having the one that brings so much family expectation (Sword Master)?

Does Reinhard even lose that blessing if it's passed on? Does he just keep his copy and the next one has it too?

Would Reinhard actually feel relieved because his own child now shoulders the responsibilities he had to deal with over the Divine Protection?

Does Reinhard even have a proper understanding of how to express love, or what parental love looks like, if the two cases above are his main examples?

It's been stated that Reinhard would marry whoever the world chose. He isn't going to choose, and especially not for love. Reinhard's just an existence trying to please everyone and live up to their expectations because there's too much at stake that it's impossible to do otherwise

Example: what if he doesn't do right and everyone is dissapointed or leaves?

What even happened during the shady relationship Reinhard and Heinkel apparently had when Reinhard was younger?

In fact, the Astrea family problems started AFTER they got married. Except Reinhard, but that's because he already has to deal with the problems from the marriages of those before him, and they still haven't been solved or even ignored

#just woke up so I'll look at this later #checked in and remembered this applies to Subaru too #he marries Rem in an IF and everything's fine... but then he's back where he started #sure it was a happy “ending” but it wasnt the right and proper ending #b99 Rosa said something about how marrying having kids and being happy is just something TV does #and a lot of marriages in Re:Zero have problems or a not-good future #Emilia's parents are an unknown #Julius's parents died helping others and Julius was thrust into the position of the Juukulius heir away from his normal #Carol and Grimm just witness the mess that is the Astrea family despite being from its time of even before the Demihuman war #Lilianas parents dont care that she left and just think it'd be cool to replace her with another kid #priscilla with all her husbands dying soon after marriage #regulus makes the problems in all his relationships #i had thoughts i couldnt articulate and now ive lost my train of thought #rezero #re zero #re:zero #astrea #oh well

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dramarants · 1 year

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don’t even look at me if you wouldn’t consider sealing yourself in an ice coffin with me to stay by my side should I suffer an untimely death 😩

#till the end of the moon #tteotm #ranting #luo yunxi you fucking GOD - the way he speaks to and holds her corpse in both scenes. denial. desperation. fear. disbelief. the trembling.#his face walking up to her coffin and subsequent rage and protectiveness with qingyu over both her and their relationship #no matter how many times she said her purpose was to kill him he still believes they loved each other and refuses anything else #the bracelet sequence the face nuzzle the mirthful laughter #he can’t bear to lose her and he has no idea where to direct his overwhelming pain and sadness despite their conflicts #after all what’s grief but all the love still left to give. he has lost ppl before but not like this #there’s prolly a fair amount of guilt and self hatred underlying everything too #all he's done these last eps is try to hold on to her in every way - with every shred of his being - but none of it worked #‘just say one word please’ ‘you’re really hateful’ AAHHHH #his injured hands shaking her as if things are normal. later tucking her hand in gently as if not to wake her despite the truth.#he's lost all sense of self and purpose. his grasp on reality is hanging by a thin fucking thread #he will gladly live in his delusion & try to stay by her side. even in death. even when she didn't want it.#he can't go on w/o her anymore - doesn't know how. she has fundamentally changed him.#(so much that he even fights the devil god voice in her defense 🙏)#it’s scenes like this that bludgeon you with humanity amidst all the unreal fantastical elements and bring you back to these shows #omg I’m remembering his fixation on her not looking at him with ttml before - boy was already going insane w/o her when she was still there #healthy attachment and coping? ttj doesn't know her 😌#like idk if he fucks her corpse in the novel but props to lyx I’d fucking believe it #and once again nian baiyu is not paid nearly enough for any of this

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