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hopeheartfilia · 7 months

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im having contemplarion and it feels bad, which is like a sign i should do it more. like oh yes what are your priorities in life. what is really important to you. how much are you not really managing your time in accordance to that.

and then i hit myself with how much of my energy goes to things that i do because i need to. in order to eat, to sleep, to leave in a semi. clean space. and how kuch of my energy that actually takes. and how i spend all the rest on jsut like. fugue state behaviour.

And im like one of the mildest examples of this whcih i know but. jsut the way that i dont really prioritise spending tiem with my brother. like i want to and i try and i do. but plans with my brother are just always the most flexible. The plans with people i care about and am truly close to always will and have been the most flexible. Because if im feeling depressed as shit it will be fine. If i skip on seeing someone close to me because i need to go to do something and dont have the energy or time for both it will be fine. but its not not really? and i dont want to keep pushing things i agree to do with my brother off the way i am. and i dont know if ill manage because frankly yeah i dont really.Even when i have the energy it feels like i cant control what its towards. I can read all kight when i really needed sleep and feel shitty the whole day after but it smot a. consious decission and maybe i wouldve rather had spend the evening with my brother then turning and trying to sleep and failling and

yeah. Contemplating and its getting absolutely nowhere becaus elike yeah okay prioritise, how thou. I am notoriously terrible at that

#me #a shitpost can be blue #uhh personal i guess #yeah #i dont like feel bad right now #im just thinking #idk i am mostly thinking about how i push things off and just dont do stuff #yes i also push off things i dont want to do #its the issued of always doing things when they are super Urgent #and not when they are super important

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meowmeowmeowmeow4x · 3 months

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Supersons +1 prompt answer

If you asked Danny, 12 year old half-ghost hero of Amity Park, how half-life was going, he'd tell you things were mixed.

On the one hand, he had just spent the last three or four months in family/scientist/'this house is a death trap waiting to happen' therapy with Jazz, and by some miracle, it worked. He wasn't sure if this was some kind of dream as his parents poured over years upon years of research, crossing out lines, rewriting equations, and reevaulating everything they thought they knew about ghosts.

Was the shudders family therapy worth not going over how they'd like to dissect him? he's still not sure. The horror.

Not to mention the attention. Danny was sure he was going to throw up if his parents drag him away for more bonding time, only for a ghost to attack and for him to run off to transform. What made it worse was when the Fentons came barrelling out, guns blazing, alternating between getting mad that he'd interrupted their family time, and asking him questions about "Your suspicious spook culture, if you even have one you dangerous delusional delinquent!"

At least they were trying, but Danny was very much comfortable not spilling the beans on the whole half-ghost situation, thank you very much.

And that's why, when Dad proposed to take him to Gotham to show off their latest invention, he jumped at the chance. The home city of the Batman, one of the greatest heroes known to man (except for Martian Manhunter and Superman of course) and Dad promised to take him to Gotham Observatory too. Not to mention how much he wanted to get away from Jazz's smug looks of superiority. Gotham here he comes!

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Damian Wayne scowled as he scanned the crowed of scientists with more smarts than sense. Really, a flying toilet seat. For what deviant?

"Maybe they're for people who can fly." Kent piped up beside him. Father had let the two of them run off together, and his company was mildly more appealing than being alone with his thoughts.

"Why would Superman ever need to relieve himself mid-air. I do not believe you would appreciate your father's rear end being on display for all the world to see."

"True." Jon hummed. His voice lowered to a whisper. "You think indecent exposure is what your dad meant by "scoping out any potential future villains?"

Damian gave Jon a flat look. The sooner this convention ended, the better.

The crowded shifted, and the mass of visitors pushed toward a certain corner, where a man large enough to rival Superman's build stood upon a podium, with a boy their age off to the side.

"Ladies and gentlemen, let me introduce to you the latest in FentonWorks' innovations, the Fenton Ghost Zone Radar, soon to revolutionise the study of ghosts!"

"I thought ghosts were a magic thing." Jon said. "You know, stuff Constantine and JLD deal with."

"They are."

"Mixing magic and science is like, like, oil and water. No way this guy's serious, is he?"

"His name is Jack Fenton. That's Daniel Fenton, his son." Damian pointed to the boy in question, looking like he'd seen this scene a hundred times before, but with that knowing glint that promised something deeper. "They're normally spotted alongside Jack's wife, Madeline. Widely regarded as quacks by the larger scientific community for chasing paper-thin theories about ghosts, they've nonetheless gained funding from the government. This is the first time they've left their base of operations in Amity Park for years."

"Woah, you know your stuff, Dami!"

Damian glared at the young Superboy in disguise. "I read the briefing files. Didn't you?"

Kent looked uncomfortable and looked away. "Uhh, maybe?"

"Typical."

"Well, if he's so crazy, then why'd your dad even let him in." Upon another scathing glare, Kent relented. "Oh right, the whole supervillain thing."

"Enough chatter. We'll zero in on the younger Fenton. I intend to squeeze him like a grape, and make Father proud."

"Dami maybe you should be a little nicer-" Only for Damian to march off without him.

Honestly, inane niceties were above someone of his status. Those things were Superboy's job, and if Daniel Fenton wouldn't crack, then Damian was itching to try a new torture technique.

@impyssadobsessions

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this-isnt-the-bathr00m · 6 months

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Okay here’s another art dump! The one with willow saying women is from January but I like it so it is being included. I think this sort of reveals. who my favorite character is. Mouse

I have many, many drawings of the dont stupids (which are mainly the same 3 characters I won’t lie 😭), so if anyone’s ever curious to see more, I could share some…. maybe. I’m still very scared of posting here

#dst #wilson dst #webber dst #wendy dst #Also I think some people didn’t see the tags on my last post mentioning that all the art was platonic #uhh oh well I guess y’all can interpret them in whatever way #just know I’m not very big on the ship personally #cheeseburg

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littler0b1n · 7 months

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this is based off of a post that I saw on here on how Simon's ass was going to be cursed one way or another and so....

yeah.

Basically Simon and Betty on one of their expeditions come across the porcelain lamb and Simon gets his ass sent to the spirit world for 1000 years unable to interact with anything around him.

I'll post more stuff about this AU lol (I'm still working some things out in my head) But I do have some more things to torture Simon with :)

#adventure time #fionna and cake #simon petrikov #adventure time au #au #lol uhh idk what to call this AU yet but #porcelain lamb!Simon #works i guess lol #but if I come up with any better names (or if you guys have suggestions) I'll change it #also this is very important to me but simon becomes a very tactile person and constantly fiddles with his clothes to feel something #ok i'm done talking now lol

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demondinobear-art · 1 year

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i uhhh idk haha

#chongyun #bosacius #xiao #menogias #genshin impact #fanart #my art #this was uhh just some random doodles but apparently people quite like it on twit??#so i guess im putting this here haha #personally i really like the last drawing where bosacius is showing off yunyun #i thought its cute

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bluevelvetea · 2 months

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Satosugu 🤝 Hagimatsu

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spacerockband · 2 years

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i wanted to draw this to show how hard it is 2 wake up in the morning but i think i got carried away

#comic #comics #personal comics #digital art #art tag #saw #i GUESS #sleeping #uhh idk

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tariah23 · 1 month

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Man, I still remember participating in one of the many jjba zines that I took part in and how my piece was placed as the first page (for the second time) and how one of my mutuals/artists that I’ve always admired, hit me with the “oh… you’re on the front page again… 😅…” like man, that kind of killed me lmfao. I never got over it like man, what was that about.

#it’s not like i put the books together myself or anything all my ass did was submit my work #like this was from a really popular and well known artist as well like #their art has always been so gorgeous to me too I was like ‘I’m literally a nobody is this person really being shady or…’#rambling #I guess it’s nice being in a zine with ppl I don’t know or care to get to know at least now 😭… just submitting my art and running #referring to the jjk zine 😭 I need t start working on it uhh #zines make me feel so anxious man #it really did make me feel bad and almost guilty? I was like this is kind of awkward…#another zine I was in which was run by a mutual… well… I never even got my zine in the mail #and I even sent them $20 for some merch that they were making since I wanted to support and never got that either…#they deleted their blog but I see that they remade and draw a lot of DM and have a lot of popular posts here so it’s kind of awkward seeing #their art shared on the dash sometimes skeks #we’re still mutuals on Twitter but I don’t rly want to ask about my zine again or the $20 bucks #it’s okay like I owe other ppl stuff too I’m a late bird man but still loskekk #they were the mod for the zine too #I might hit them up again I guess I still love their art and they were always fun to talk to #there was another zine that I participated in where we had to purchase our own copy bro #i remember being so annoyed by that but went ahead and bought it anyway #I was invited to this zine so it made me even more annoyed #I #Guess it didn’t make its money back #or something like that but I remember being broke at the time and was pissed that I had to pay for my own book #I didn’t buy any of the merch because why when it was supposed to be free #if you’re participating in a zine the book and merch should be free

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fluentisonus · 1 year

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thinking about how like. insane but also kind of conceptually chewable it is that the humans and the romulans had a whole war and then subsequent cold war that lasted over a hundred (!) years without ever once actually seeing each other. the idea having such protracted enmity with a group of people -- to the point of killing each other! -- and never once looking at their faces or seeing their bodies or anything. god

#something something the sort of bizarre alienation of being at such a remove from your enemy. the divorce of the personal. idk idk #like war is inherently bad but if you can't even look at them it's like a whole other level of horrifying. how could you even do that.#it's rlly fucked up but it's like. fascinating as a concept to me #thoughts #star trek #uhh #tos #i guess

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kijosakka · 28 days

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au where through training for the,,, fuckin skate olympics or whatever alejandro did he realizes how shitty his family is and manages to leave the situation (probably getting disowned,, living off of money won through skate competitions or smth idk) and years later reunites with josé on ridonculous race to try and rekindle a real family relationship

#sorry everyone i thought 'hmm skateboarder alejandro????????' and this was born #actually why havent we done more with that skateboarding fact.#scratch that what could we do w that fact............#new fic guys where alejandro has the shittiest time ever learning to skateboard (i do not skateboard)#this also probably has something to do with me currently watching rr who knows #uhh idk who they would replace....... any of the earlier elimination fodder i guess if you switched the order of some things #a shame rr doesnt have 3 person teams we couldve had all the brothers #actually no. carlos comes down to uhhhh wherever alejandro is for sports or something #< theyre on fantastic terms. however José #this is also also partially an outlet for the family dynamic for all three of them which ive completely made up. in my head.#alejandro does not go on world tour im thinking..... now for total drama dirtbags #i could. i could. josé could compete in world tour #too many ideas. too late at night for this #rambling in the tags again hmmm #kijorambles #total drama #total drama au #< horrifying. i am terrified of putting this on main tags #will delete those later if i become too Fearful

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pigeon-toes · 7 months

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I can only trust wlw to have correct opinions about female characters

#lesbian #fandom #wlw #any other queer person is obsessed w just men #its either ppl pretend they dont exist #or sexualize them in that super het way #esp shipping culture #yeah lets ship this married man w his friend #wife? what wife?#oh uhh its poly i guess #/never mentions wife again/#(or actively hates her)#and dont even get me started on mischaracterization in mlm ships

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meteor-moon · 7 months

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look who's back

back again

(it's me)

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irbcallmefynn · 5 months

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so here's something i whipped up just now. based on an idea i've had the past few days and a brief discussion with @catboybeebop

Opposite Fynns! Two different flavors! Would you rather have "Opposite Fynn" or "Bad Future Fynn"

I suppose Opposite Fynn should be 75% snake 25% wolf, but that's harder to work with also I like this more. You can feel the malice in his voice. Also his ears being different. Because it's wrong. His shirt is also the inverse color!

Bad Future Fynn scares me. That's barely a person. That's a wild animal. Essentially what if Everything Possible went Wrong? Raised like a beast, never met Nauno and Euphi, never learned to control himself. All he wants is food. To fill a void that could've, should've, been filled by love... Terrible...

#fynn art #paint.net #furry #furry art #sfw furry #furry anthro #wolf furry #wolf fursona #personally i like Opposite Fynn more cause he's less... manic. he's just sinister and manipulative.#evil version #made some twisted and fucked up versions of fynn #just a glimpse into my dark reality #oh and i guess uhh #tw blood #but this is the Eroticism of Blood site so who cares

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aboutyoutoo · 1 month

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watched three episodes of the show and decided to go all in cuz I can't be normal about anything god bless

#i WILL watch the rest of the show but i have an imperative need to read this first #uhh should i tag this.#the terror #i guess.#personal

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rearranging-deck-chairs · 5 months

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noooo you can let me describe the doctors body trust me i totally wont be weird about it this time

#me explaining why the doctor is hot: well theyre old enough to be my messiah so jot that down #also a body thats died many times #me opening the powerpoint: so before we begin hands up how many of you have spent more time than you should thinking abt jesus' body #church was like and this is body of christ and me being 7 and autistic took that in every way they DIDNT mean #anyway sorry yaz not sure what exactly the sin is here but im pretty sure uhhh it is one #its usually the master doing this #but yaz is taking the masters place in this fic so #that tracks i guess #gonna have to figure out how to take the pronouns out of this too #also look at the third person/second person flipflopping #i do that kind of a lot but i realised in this paragraph maybe thats because..........there isnt a third person imperative uhh mode?#is that a mode we call that idk #there ISNT a third person imperative right? thats just second person?#i think so #but its interesting bc thats like the main way my narration flipflops #idk if thats like bad. bad writer habit or whatever #if it is i dont really care #it doesnt bother ME so #idk if it bothers anyone else #one time i had a fun paragraph in the doctors pov where it went from its standard 3rd to 2nd to 1st. 1st plural i think #and then Back to 3rd distance yourself from yourself dont get too close #anyway

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simonstamenovic · 11 months

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ok hi haha lol I dont rly feel like going in circles in my head forever trying to figure out whether, among other "smaller" things, being left alone in a room w only media as a child and not feeling like I had even a semblance of a personality for most of my life counts as "trauma"

a lot of these parts of me are new, I'm just recently putting names to them and it feels as though I'm developing facets of personalities in my mid 20s after a lifetime of either feeling like I'm basically just ADHD in a person, an amalgamation of kins shoved into a body, or something made of guilt Also shoved into a body.

I don't like, claim to know what this means. but I don't think a lot of my current mutuals would feel comfortable interacting w me bc I don't necessarily believe in the black and white of what plurality is. I'm not able or planning on getting any formal diagnosis and while I'm discussing this w my therapist they're very much not one to pathologize

I definitely don't feel like one person but I dont think id count for most of you as a "system" as the different parts of me feel as though theyre still developing. take all of this as you will, I'm not going to stress my body out more by trying to figure out "what" I am as I've been doing that my whole life and I'm kinda tired of it.

I know that I'm not entirely one thing and feel Enough like multiple things for myself, but blurred in a lot of ways. like some sort of gem with many different facets.

not sure where to go w this tbh take this how you will. im not comfortable saying I'm leaning one way or the other regarding system discourse, (<- not a phrase i want to use but the best shorthand i have) as I genuinely don't believe the human brain is nearly that black and white.

I'm both "me" and very much not "me" at times. idk what this means but ik I'm not comfortable saying im just pandora and im not sure im "allowed" to say im a system and im not sure if it matters, or should matter, regarding friends. im going to be like this regardless, id unfollow me if this grey area im likely to stay in bothers you

if you don't want me refollowing I'd probably block, too, as my memory is bad

#puts this in my drafts to publish at atime to cause maximum damage to my #social circle and mental health bc i LOVE conflict and pain #< A JOKE lmao this has been causing me severe distress for ages so whatever unfollow me idc #outgoing transmission #idk when im gonna publish this ive been going back n forth w my therapist a lot #rhis maybbe repetitive im just uhh tired and have been legitimately driving myself crazy overthis for ages #bc honestly like i didnt exist as a person until age 14 at least and that person #wasnt... me. isn't me they dont exist to me anymore and im not sure #the one before 19 existed either its all fractured #is that trauma?? or is it something else. does that make me endogenic to you?? i really dont know or understand #you can decide for yourself. but im not comfortable saying either way.#i barely feel comfortable existing. i dont exist? as i type this 'i' is wrong but nothing else fits so far #we could go for we and we have befkre bht so far its so nonexistent whats the opposite of i #nothing...? [ ]#some blank. the dilemma is that nothing is real.#these tags are not. genuinly i am fake.#this will get published sometime in a haze and this body will wake up to a disaster.#not enough bridges burned i guess. sure.#back 2 sleep dont send me asks abt this jst block if ur gonna block

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