ummm hi. i mean uh, Woof.

help a nb dawg pay rent → @ chuckamug on venmo or cashapp <3

my blåhaj !! :DD

transmasc nb flag!

I keep thinking about my bottom growth and I’ve been feeling really good about it. I shaved for the first time in a long while and I can actually see my tdick. It feels slender and long and thick. For years, I’ve kept my hair trimmed because I didn’t like to see my junk, but lately, with testosterone too, I’ve been feeling so at home in my skin. Plus with my top surgery date being scheduled, I’m feeling proud of my body and starting to really marvel at it and it’s really bringing out a more confident side of me

I can only take cute pictures outside or on the bus lol

[he/they, happy pride !]

I saw where you asked and-speak about their experience with top surgery without hormones and I wanted to share that I ALSO got top surgery before going on T.

I had been binding for about 10 years (two sports bras and then actual binders) and I was experiencing a lot of health issues from having breasts, so the fact that I was so sure that:

It was not the right time for hormones

A bigger priority was removing a source of pain and infection

My social and work lives were being affected by my body image and I was unable to bind for long enough to go to work AND have a social life after work

... all of this really helped me get the access I needed. Overall, it will help your case if you have more reasons than gender dysphoria for getting top surgery even if GD is the main issue for you. Something I told my surgeon and PCP (both of whom were very supportive of my choices) was "Even if I wake up tomorrow and decide this whole thing has been a farce and I'm actually a cishet woman now, I would still want them gone because of [giant list of reasons]."

To be completely honest, with all the issues I had, gender dysphoria wasn't even in the top 5 reasons I needed them gone. I think that helped my case tbh.

Anyways, I hope you get your surgery asap! I can't tell you what a difference it made for me literally overnight except that I woke up from surgery and went home feeling like everything finally made sense and I could start living my most authentic life.

All the best, bud. Please feel free to message me if you have other questions! I'll try my best to answer them.

Thank you so much!! Unfortunately, my breasts are very much average C cups, so they don't actually give me any problems re: pain/infection. I alternate between binders and sports bras (never doubling up and taking breaks on weekends when I'm alone), so that kind of helps with not being in perpetual pain, but doesn't help me prove a case where "even if I wake up tomorrow and decide this whole thing has been a farce and I'm actually a cishet woman now, I would still want them gone..."

The fact I've been perpetually waffling on surgery, too, doesn't help! I mean, sure, yeah, I've identified as trans for over 10 years off and on (mostly on) now, but part of why I covered my GD up was being cut off from all my friends and threatened with Christian all-girls boarding school after coming out. (I was even taken off my ADHD medications because my mom thought it was causing my gender dysphoria and I went with it because I was lirerally 14 and just wanted this to end, but it only aggravated my psych issues, which were further used against me getting any kind of gender confirmation and justifying me signing over my medical power of attorney at 18.) Additionally, after I got my wisdom teeth taken out over a year ago, something about this routine surgery got botched and I'm still numb in a quarter of my face and experience phantom pains. I'm not so sure now that I'm willing to risk that outcome with my chest, too. Part of me just thinks I'll just end up using binders off and on in perpetuity until I develop pain and infection enough to warrant surgery. I wish I was more upbeat about it, but I feel like I can't lie to you.

I reached out to and-speak because I saw their posts and it gave me one of those brief sparks of hope but alas, you caught me in the lull of reluctant acceptance of the situation I'm in.

OH BTW I DIDNT TELL YOU YET

BUT GUESS WHAT

I GOT A REFERRAL FOR TOP SURGERY

If I had a spare $10k cad burning a hole in my pocket that I desperately needed to get rid of then I could get it done sooner but I do not have that kind of dough. It will take... Idk like 18-24 months (up to 2y) to get in to see my surgeon & then we would still need to have some time with him so like... Idk dude. BUT STILL! THE TEET YEET!

ummm hey who thinks I'm cute. who wants to buy me dinner 😘

venmo? cashapp? I love u?

:DD

Please please please think of trans people of color when you’re going to make a generalized statement. When you’re making posts about passing tips, medical treatments for transitioning, even light hearted stereotypes include people of color in your sentiments.

As a black trans person it is so fucking isolating to see stuff I’m supposed to relate to only to find that they weren’t talking about me or people like me.

Trans thoughts

If you want context for each, it's under the cut.

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Ravioli, ravioli, give me the formuoli

I called a binder a Lung Crusher 3000

I was in chem class

Binder

Teet Yeet

New Pokémon are very gender

She's very gender

Queer people that got bullied

Silver the Hedgehog is very gender

Been called a girl too much

MENstruation

Turning Poop USA and my furry awakening

During Smoke September, I mentioned that I woke up with a really bad cough, and someone asked "Do you have asthma" so I explained that I was wearing the Lung Crusher 3000.

I'm still affected by misogyny and even if I'm not anymore I'll still support you

Somebody told me you have a boyfriend who looked like a girlfriend

Facts

local boydyke smokes weed naked outside with only a fish hat on

I love how fitting being a pussy boy is for me. My pussy is so pretty and my little tdick is so cute. I love having a hole that was made to be fucked I love being a cute little fag :3

Because it's getting hot, and I have a fresh new undercut haircut, I decided to shave. What's the harm in performing a little femininity if I'm wearing the hair and clothes that aren't feminine? I rationalized.

I started with my legs, and my little manual 3-blade women's razor quickly got irreparably clogged up with hair from not shaving all winter. There, I thought, I won't have to worry with embarrassment about people seeing my leg hair if I start wearing shorter pants and socks.

Oh, I thought again as I looked at my armpits, how will I wear tank tops when I'm read as a gross and unhygienic female? So I decided to shave those too. I had to open a new razor. The hair there had gotten long and resembled that of my cis boyfriend's, long black and curly but soft and unfettered. I shaved, going with the grain the best I could.

It hurt. My legs and armpits sting and the very short nubs of hair left feel prickly and actively worse than when I left my body hair alone. I thought I had an allergy to deodorant, but switched to generic men's when I grew my hair out to control body odor. I didn't react that time - the only difference being not shaving my armpits. Now I know I'm subjecting myself to constant razor burn and applying chemicals to it. No wonder I got a rash in my armpits so regularly.

Why did I do this to myself?

i thrive on attention ♡ lift my shirt and show off your pretty toy to your friends at a party, let them roll and pinch my nipples while they tell me what a cute pet i am ♡♡

oh nooo u can see through the side of this muscle tank to my even tinier tank top that's riding up over my tits while I'm laying here noo,,, . What are u gonna do about it.