I really like Zoey, but I think she'd be the perfect character if she was allowed to be a little weirdo. She's supposed to be the "weird" girl but doesn't ever really do anything to warrant her reputation. Let her be odd.

no but why is waffle the single most brainless-looking creature i have ever seen like

you know it is taking every ounce of her strength to string two thoughts together. a single-celled organism. head full of nothing but air and love there is naught but white noise going on in there

she is everything to me

The last of the eeveelution suits that I designed ^^ Leafeon and jolteon

Enjoy =w=

I love it when they do this. I really do.

A really sinister aspect into how people view children and parents is the idea of children being a replaceable commodity.

I've seen this in the way people talk about parents who have lost children but have surviving children... "Oh, at least you have other children," as though a child is just an interchangeable tool, a machine that dispenses what you want from it without it being sentient, whole, and feeling. The fact that people say that in order to comfort somebody shows, to me, how deep this mindset is engraved in people's brains: children are interchangeable items, and they do not fundamentally matter.

ok i know it's just a silly little fanfiction on the silly little internet but at this point i have seen a few different people discussing crimson rivers james + the possibility of him going back into the arena in a way that just feels...kind of casually ableist?? so. some thoughts:

if your first reaction when considering the possibility of james going back into the arena is anything along the lines of "nooo omg he would die so quickly/he wouldn't stand a chance/he'd be dead in a second because of his leg" please! please. please just pause and think for a moment about why that is your first response and how that is informing your speculation that it couldn't possibly be him, because we know pov characters won't die and of course james would die if he went back into the arena with a physical disability. here are some things to consider -

when you talk about things like "disadvantages," think about where you're drawing the line. in the first games, we saw that evan was taller than regulus and better built for climbing trees. he had an advantage that regulus did not have. peter was certain that he was going to die, because he wasn't as strong as some of the other tributes. vanity was physically "disadvantaged" when compared to...pretty much everyone else. both of them outlived tributes like avery and mulciber. clearly, physical disadvantages don't always matter the way you might think when it comes to who lives or dies.

think about what assumptions you're relying on and what lines you're drawing in your own thinking when it comes to disability. yes, james needs a cane. he also gets triggered by bugs. regulus can't fucking shower. regulus gets triggered by the smell and taste and sometimes even the sight of blood (if i'm remembering correctly?). sirius has dissociative amnesia. like. nobody who has been through the arena has come out the other side without some kind of issue, and all of those issues could affect them in different ways that could put them at a disadvantage if they go back into the arena. pause and consider why you might be responding to james's leg differently than you are to sirius's dissasociation, or regulus's panic attacks. what narratives about physical disability have you internalized?

consider that we have actually already seen disability addressed in the first arena! james needs glasses to see. many people don't consider needing glasses a disability, because the accomodations needed for those who wear glasses are widely available, and because it is so common + normalized that those who wear glasses don't face much (or any) stigma in their day to day lives. but regardless of how you'd define poor eyesight and where you'd draw that line, it is undeniably a physical disadvantage that james needs a physical accomodation to address in order to put him on a "level playing field" with anyone who has 20/20 vision. and how was it addressed? super-fancy high-tech contact! bam. clearly, the hallow does take disability into account in some ways, because they want to make sure they have an interesting game. so again, where's the assumption coming from that james's leg would put him at like...an egregious and impossible disadvantage?

i think it's completely valid to have discussions about disability and to talk about the reality of how a physical disability like james's might affect him in the arena. but i also think that discussion should be dissecting and pushing back against societal ableism surrounding physical disability, and saying shit like "oh he'd die so quickly bc of his leg" is...not doing that. so. just some food for thought!

hey! i was just going through your blog, and i saw a post about ice&carole and mav&goose. i looked a bit more but i couldn't find a post about your take on mav and goose's relationship, so i wanted to ask what it was. if you have answered this, i'm sorry about asking you again. imo i think what they had was wayy deeper than friendship but complex and probably not romantic, but again, i just wanted to know your thoughts on it.

thank you! and this blog has probably been one of the best finds i have ever come across on tumblr, i'll be sad to see you go.

yeah, i was really trying to be suave and subtle and mysterious about it with this parallel

like, you should be able to figure it out for yourself.

but luckily for you i looooove beating dead horses. to a problematic degree.

the full story of my vision of mavgoose (moose?) is in the completed draft of the extras that are coming out on Saturday. about halfway through. But i want to bring it back to the internal craft-of-writing debate i brought up yesterday—my inability to summarize, or to cut superfluous sections that don’t really matter.

I’ll stick it under the cut for spoiler reasons, but i wanna show the simple first draft of this scene versus the complicated, heavier final draft. And I want to ask any of you, if you’re interested—as a reader, which is more impactful? which should i end up publishing?

the simple first draft:

then i kept turning it in my head thinking of different ways to edit it to say something slightly different, to get a little more specific, coming up with things to add, and ended up adding like five extra paragraphs. which is this:

about 1/4 of the final draft (by which i mean, this is about 1/4 of the whole final discussion scene, but the goosemav-specific content only goes on for about another graf [omitted bc spoilers]):

(so to answer your ask explicitly, i actually don’t think they were anything deeper than good friends. imo there’s no evidence that they were anything deeper than good friends, especially with maverick blowing goose/goose’s wishes off soooo many times [‘she’s lost that lovin feelin;’ volleyball; refusing to do the responsible thing at least twice even after goose tells him it puts his & his family’s livelihoods at risk…bro all he does is blow off goose]. see me bitching in the tags for more on this)

obviously in my head the complicated in-depth version ⬆️ is the True version, the version of events that really Happened. i think the writing is in some spots much more compelling. But it just doesn’t make for a particularly good reading experience when it’s surrounded by like 3/4 pages of other discussion of history! sometimes too much of (what i think is) a good thing turns that good thing bad! & this is a major keystone dynamic of my whole series so i just want to get it right, for my own peace of mind. I guess im asking you to be the harsh editor i wish i had sometimes, if ur interested in doing so—this is genuinely a major major problem i have with my writing, i can’t ever just leave well enough alone 😭 please let me know if simpler is better/less is more in this case! do i publish the short vague “the reader fills in the blanks” version or the long boring “here’s EXACTLY how i see it” version?

talking to a friend about getting back into art and i think the #1 most important piece of art advice i could ever get or give is just "figure out what is FUN to you"

like i think there is sooooo much emphasis on how to build SKILL in art but a lot of it really treats art like a job or like video game grinding, like it's this thankless job that you have to work at in order to reach a Threshold and i know it's not EASY to make yourself have fun but like

imo a solid 70% of the reason i create art is because the Act of Drawing is fun to me. it's fun problem-solving and planning and putting down lines and playing with colors and tools. it's fun to depict little scenes in my head or to create outfits or to find ways to fill the canvas. never forget that creating can be fun. sometimes it's hard and sometimes you have to battle through your own blockades to get there but the ultimate goal should always be to ENJOY it, to find what you enjoy doing and then do it forever. improvement will follow enjoyment.

i think especially with all the debate about ML image generation it's more important than ever to embrace FUN. if you're only focused on the end result it's so easy to get in your own head- to think about what doesn't look good or what skills you don't have yet or to compare yourself to other artists. but photography didn't kill the art of drawing and AI won't either because, simply put, there will always be people who want to do the physical act of making art because it's fun to do! using paints and markers, splashing colors around, doing shitty pen doodles, using the symmetry tool in your art program to do abstract mandalas that are just squiggles formed into patterns. do art like you're 5 and you've been handed markers to pass the time. do art like you're bored in class and you're keeping your brain entertained by drawing stick figure comics in the margins. do art like an absent thing, do art because it satisfies your brain. the goal is not to make something beautiful and perfect, the goal is to make something because your hands need to make and your body needs to make.

want to start a fandom trend of Dramasonas where we all draw ourselves as super incompetant interns.

sometimes i will draw something completely unrelated to my sims (or the internships where i do fuck all) and u can bet everything its gonna be the pusia bnuuy

logically, I know this means nothing, but also it means everything to me

(Gideon the Ninth, pg. 423; Harrow the Ninth, pg. 313 & pg. 403; Nona the Ninth, pg. 107 & pg. 357)

One thing I find deeply frustrating is whenever you go “This piece of medía looks really good and like something I would enjoy however when I tried to get into it, I found it contains a great deal of things that I find extremely triggering which sucks because it otherwise sounds like something I’d really enjoy” and someone goes “Oh that sucks, I’m sorry you’re missing out it is REALLY GOOD and you WOULD love it!”

Welcome to my page!

Expect nothing here but chaos, art, and obscurity :)

i’m kind of begging for people to be considerate when it comes to commenting on my art. if what you have to say is weird or rude (i.e. accusing me of putting the straight pride flag in a drawing when the background is literally just black and white and also i am fucking bisexual) then maybe you just shouldn’t say anything at all. it makes me feel bad about drawings that i previously was proud of, and makes me not want to share my art anymore.

that boy is sixteen thats his weekly allowance