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Just a heads up Mephistopheles has red skin. But I’m so happy to see more content with him!
Hi anon!
Okay so two things, firstly you might want to check out the Forbiddem Realms wiki:
And specifically the source which is canonical to 1E:
Mephistopheles has multiple different forms! :D The blue form exists in different spaces and across different campaigns and you can Google right now and find canonical fanart of blue-skin Mephistopheles! Some of those illustrations are hot as fuck, so live your best life :D If you're happy to see content of him, hopefully that includes the blue form as well.
And since Mephistopheles was never actually in Baldur's Gate 3 I get to choose what forms they are because secondly, I highly recommend you read tags and author's notes thoroughly for Palmarosa for the additional reason that:
Is in the tags! And in the Author's Note of the first chapter:
I knew the DND purists would kind of get up in arms about all kinds of things (and...I was right), so I think this is now like the tenth time I've had to remind people to actually read my tags and author's notes! I don't kind of want to remind folks in every chapter that I will do something I like more if I don't like the canon, or what the point of fanfiction is in the first place. But I'm not trying to write more canon anon, I'm writing fanfiction, and the transformative part is the point.
It doesn't matter if his blue skin was in the Wiki or not, I can do what I like in this story, that is, after all, the spirit of DND and creating new campaigns within an existing structure, and that's precisely why Mephistopheles has so many forms in the first place! Heck, I could've made him green :D
There's a lot of things that aren't canon compliant in this story, from Astarion being able to taste food properly, to Mephistopheles being based on 1E instead of later version/s (I mean he's not Molikroth here either), to the House of Hope having many many more rooms than present in the map, and a great deal more besides.
I know that one version of Mephistopheles has red skin, I just like the one with blue more!
#asks and answers#palmarosa#thespectaclesofthor#it's really time that people started reading tags and author's notes again#but anyway you might not know this anon#but fanfiction doesn't owe *any* compliance to canon!#the whole premise of the story - raphael and astarion hooking up#is not canon at all#if you see something that doesn't seem right#the author probably meant it that way#or enjoys it more that way!!!#the best people to correct if you notice a non canon compliant error#is people who are *literally writing the canon*#if it's people writing fanfiction#it's best just to leave it be#they generally made their decisions on purpose and not by accident#especially if they have a 'this is NOT canon compliant' tag#tbh the art i just see of red mephistopheles i find uglier than the blue skin form so i made a call lol#but yeah in case you feel the urge to correct fanfic authors again on the canon in the future#maybe just keep in mind what fanfic is for#for a lot of authors!!#look for a 'canon compliant' tag if an author is trying to be canon compliant!
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hi it's the good omens mascot here's some shit about me that might be relevant
I appear to have accidentally caused chaos so I figured you might as well know about me since I'm responsible for it. And also so that you know who you broke, thanks ineffable fandom.
I have been called the prophet by some of you all. This is not entirely untrue, but I would like to add as I did in one post, that Apollo also gave me the curses of art, (very emotional) music, (sometimes good mostly dreadful) poetry, (same parentheses apply, except that the dreadful is on purpose) writing and (used to be good now dreadful) medical knowledge, and so yes, you did accidently adopt a messenger of an ancient Greek god.
Yes, this entire entry into your cult happened from start to now happened in 48 hours.
This will seem less bizarre when I give you context about me and fandoms. I changed career paths (after three years of intense study that cost me my sanity) from science to the arts because I was inspired by drarry fanfiction of them leaving their ministry jobs and following their dreams. Yes I tossed three years and my loss of sanity away in one week of decisions. I'm now a designer. Thanks Draco.
I read so much drarry fanfiction that my mum had to take me to the hospital for injured wrists. I wore wrist and elbow supports and was in constant pain for a few months. I was only later introduced to autoscroll. Yes, I am a fool. Yes, I am unaware of how to human.
I'm broke and cheap enough that I feel guilty buying bottled water, but for Christmas I spent the equivalent of around 150 bottles of water getting a Bakewell tart custom made (they don't sell them where I live). Why? Because in one single fanfiction, it is Draco's favourite food. I would never spend that kind of money on a dessert for any real human being.
That is to say, you all are not ready for when I REALLY fall for Crowley. I don't saunter vaguely downwards for people. I bypass earth and crash into hell, leaving a smoking pit in its infernal ground.
I swear I'm not as dumb as I seem, I just have ZERO general knowledge, and am terrible with faces. I can tell you what the graffiti on the walls of Pompeii from before 70 AD said but I don't know who my previous president was, and personally I think that's very classy of me.
Some of you seem concerned about my sleep schedule. Worry not, I sleep in four installments, night, morning nap, afternoon nap, evening nap. I sleep more than you all, that I can promise. I sleep more than my doggy sister.
About the streams and the timezones, I have no idea how to make it so people can watch, because I frequently mix up east and west and last morning I mixed up the Pacific and Atlantic ocean. I don't know at what point the Eastern hemisphere becomes the Western or how any of it works. I also thought Wakanda was a real place.
But hey fun fact, in 2020 diclofenac sales were dropping in Iceland. I know this because I wanted to make sure to use the correct painkiller in one sentence of a story I was writing. It was completely irrelevant. But hey any of you writers here probably feel my pain. I don't write fanfiction, but I am an author and I write original stories. And honestly what is more useful, Icelandic diclofenac sales from three years ago or timezones?
A career test once told me to be a standup comedian.
Yes that's me Asmi, just your regular dumbass lad who is slightly unhinged, serving himbo twink energy, hello hi nice to meet you all. PS: the poll results are out and Doctor Who won, so tremble, DW fandom.
#good omens fandom#good omens mascot#asmi#weirdly-specific-but-ok#this is me y'all#good omens brainrot#thanks for breaking me i figured you should know about me#crowley#just crowley i'm going to shatter soon#drarry#draco malfoy#fandom culture#fandom things#doctor who#dw fandom#more inaccurate summaries coming up#good omens#fanfiction#and how it ruined and saved me
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Hi!! How are you:)? I hope you're doing okay! Can i request wind breaker boys (BOFURIN) with a crush that is super sweet (the sweetest in the town) who's also shy? + super oblivious and stupid when the topic is about romance? :3?
Character with dense!reader (BOFURIN)
Haruka Sakura
Whenever you would say fairly stupid things, you didn't understand why he would get all red and quiet out of nowhere. He is aware of your air-headed skull and tries to help you exist in general, but when you're saying things about how cute he is, you end up standing there with question marks clouding your head when he starts to childishly insult you.
He always claims it's a drag whenever he has to look out for you in case you end up setting a car on fire, but something that he was able to figure out is the only time you end up getting embarrassed is if romance is ever brought up.
The little moments when you realize the space between you and him is closing up a little too fast for your liking makes you start stuttering, asking him what he wants, and the way your eyes flicker everywhere in the room made him surprise that you were equally as awkward as him. He doesn't take advantage of the fact that when you're shy, but there is a part of him where he finds that side of you to be cute.
Hajime Umemiya
He thinks you're adorable.
The first time he met you, he didn't actually think you were serious about your rambles whenever you opened your mouth and said something diabolical and went about your day. However, when he realized it wasn't a joke, it took him a few days to understand that everything you've said, you meant it with 100% honesty.
You never understand any hints that people drop, and he is usually the one to break it down for you; otherwise, if it was another person, they may or may not have mauled you in the face for having to repeat themselves four times already. Hajime knows how to be patient, and it's very rare where he gets upset at your stupidity.
Aside from looking out for you, one thing that intrigues him is the way your behavior only changes when you find yourself trapped in a heated situation. It was a complete accident when he made you blush the first time; he was keeping you close to his body in a secluded area and told you to keep quiet. The moment he released you, he was shocked to see how you couldn't look him in the eye, the way your body grew hotter, and the way you refrained from speaking for a specific amount of time.
He found it odd that you got shy around him if all people. He doesn't try to make anyone nervous by any means, but the way you looked and the way you fell apart in his hands, he thinks about that from time to time and has intrusive thoughts to see you like that again.
Toma Hiragi
He wants to kill you. The majority of his time spent with you, he does enjoy your presence with him and the way you make him feel whenever you're spending time with each other. Despite those times, the other half spent is him growing white hairs because of your irrational decision making.
He doesn't mind seeing you mess up every once in a while; sometimes, he does that on purpose so you end up learning from your mistakes and afterwards helps you.
He still jokes around and treats you almost the same way he treats his closest friends (Umemiya), but even so, he has to set limitations to you because you somehow ended up being denser than his best friend.
It took him a while to notice that the only time your mood would shift was whenever something made you shy. He didn't notice it due to it mostly being out in public together, and he ends up rushing you to hurry up and follow him. But one day, when you went over to his house for the first time and you watched him take off his leather jacket revealing his well-defined back, began to remove his silver rings and lazily place them down on his desk, and cracked his neck to scavenge through his drawers to find you a shirt to wear somehow made you grow nervous.
You sat on your bed awkwardly watching him reach out one of his shirts that seemed way too oversized for your body, and when he called out your name, he noticed the way you jumped at him with wide eyes and blush covering your cheeks. He was a bit curious as to why you were so on edge all of a sudden until he came to terms it was generally because of him.
He kept it a secret from you that he knew he could make you nervous, and since then, he's sometimes used that as an advantage to make you listen to him...
Mitsuki Kiryu
A terrible influence. It's not that he influences you to take life risks, but he does influence you to continue with your stupid decision-making. He purely does it for a part of his entertainment but will also go out of his way if he thinks it's a bit too far and dangerous.
He's found mobile games as an outlet to put his boredom, however once he found you, there was a slight decrease in his screentime when you two started to grow close. Eventually, his screentime lowered drastically when you became the closest person in his life.
He wasn't aware of a specific trait of yours of growing shy whenever romance popped up. You two left a fast-food restaurant after grabbing a quick bite and walked down the street with drinks in your hand as you continued talking with him. After walking for a bit, two unfamiliar girls came up to the both of you and asked for his number.
During that moment, you stood there awkwardly as you watched him blink at the two girls you didn't recognize. If you were being honest, a tint of an unknown feeling lingered in your gut when you saw him smile at them. However, before giving him his number, he shot a glance at you making you widen your eyes when he caught you staring. You immediately looked away and even twisted your body slightly, moved away from him. In that moment, he couldn't care less about those girls in front of him because as soon as he saw you change moods for the first time, he worried if he had upset you.
Afterward, he understands that you were just shy since you weren't very fond of romance, but when he gains that piece of information about you, he doesn't know if he should abuse that power or not to see if you'd crumble in his hands if he ever made a move on you.
Hayato Suo
Surprisingly, he handles you very well. Hayato is known to look out for others while maintaining a devious side of his that he likes to reveal every once in a while (or more than). He oddly knows how to handle chaotic people better, rather than nonchalant individuals.
He genuinely enjoys spending time with you, even if you'd probably end up going to jail one way or another, he still steps in for you whenever you go a little too far. If it weren't for him, you'd probably be homeless living under a cardboard box.
He lets you do whatever you please, but he will stop you the moment he senses something will go wrong, even before you think of that decision. He somehow can pinpoint the things you think before you get to say them.
He doesn't exactly know you get shy whenever something romantic comes up until you ended up watching a romance film with him at his house. He invited you over for a hangout, and you two decided to watch a Chinese drama because he wanted to learn the language better by not reading the Japanese subtitles. He ended up putting it on anyway so you could at least enjoy the movie too.
It was late at night, and he noticed after thirty minutes into the movie, you stopped speaking and eventually grew quiet. Something he wasn't used to. So when he takes a glance at what you're doing, he scans the way your face almost seemed lost and sweaty, and the way your breathing went rugged, making your chest fall up and down quicker than usual. He paused the movie and asked if you were okay and turned on the switch when he noticed you were even redder in better lighting.
Ever since then, he's quickly learned that your mood only changed if something falls into the category of romance. He doesn't go out of his way to embarrass you over that, but he does keep it in mind and he's found out he can use that tactic as a way to get you to listen to him better.
#wind breaker#windbreaker#windbreakerxreader#hajime umemiya#hajime umemiya x reader#haruka sakura#haruka sakura x reader#jo togame#mitsuki kiryu#taiga tsugeura#hayato suo x reader#toma hiragi x reader#toma hiragi#hayato suo#japan#tomiyama choji x reader#jo togame x reader#taiga tsugeura x reader#tomiyama choji#mitsuki kiryu x reader
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bliss redesign based off one I made in my teens
thought process + various other bits and bobs under the cut
I was 15 and annoyed by everything that moved when this character first came out, so in my own head I was very much making a Point with this redesign. Hence, I made very minimal changes. I wanted to work with what was already there and basically just make the existing design more thought-through. Little breakdown ahead (keeping in mind i myself am very much An Amateur who doesn’t know shit and am just ranting about my opinions and i also haven’t seen a single second of the 2016 reboot so i don’t know much about Bliss to begin with)
1. one of my Biggest pet peeves with Bliss is that the powerpuff girls each have bangs that are simple, memorable, and iconic while also being unique from each other and being reminiscent of irl little girls hairstyles. It’s very neat and clever and I like it a lot
and then Bliss has this confusing jumble of shapes that looks like it changes in style halfway across her forehead
i have absolutely no idea what the intent is here. My only guess is maybe it’s meant to look weird on purpose like she was trying to cut it herself or something (I suspect it’s something like that since she seems to have normal looking bangs as a little kid from what I can see) but it doesn’t really come off that way if that’s the case. It just looks like baby’s first PPG OC where you Understand that it’s meant to be hair and that it is made out of shapes but have 0 understanding of hairstyle or character design in general. Heck I might have put this exact hairline on a character in the past at the age of like 8
So in my redesign she’s got 5 even notches across her bangs, not thee most exciting change but it does the job I think. It is pretty reminiscent of Blossom but they look different enough from each other that I wasn’t too worried about it
2. low-hanging fruit time, Bliss’s hair color is horrible on the eyes. I’m bewildered at the decision to do this, especially since there is just so much of it, I struggle to think of how she could exist in any scene without hogging all the viewer’s attention constantly. That said, I understand they wanted her to have an unnatural hair color to really signal that she is a Fresh new Teen character from the late 2010’s, which is. Whatever, that’s fine, so she gets purple hair now. I kept the streak for the same reason, especially since she’s got a lot of hair, so no harm in a little extra interest in there.
I also learned recently that her hair glows sometimes? which i did Not know when first drawing her but well i think the darker color helps anyway. It adds some contrast for when she’s normal vs when she’s glowing and makes the latter appear more,, idk threatening or powerful or whatever the mood generally is when she’s doing that.
I did re-add that toothpaste blue to her eyelids though. I like to think it’s also the color of her lasers. It’s a cute color, just not as like 70% of this character’s palette
3. real talk I was drawing this from memory and didn’t mean to change the way her hair flares out from her head. realistically I think the original is fine, maybe just a little boring but fine, so that part of the redesign was an accident. Only thing is, it’s in the exact same position in every screenshot I’ve seen? It doesn’t seem to whip around when she’s flying or anything which looks weird and probably looks weirder in motion, especially since it takes up so much space onscreen. Idk it’s a strange decision, esp since the original show liked to use the ppg’s hair to emphasize their movement, so I’d just bring more movement into her hair. I mean if nothing else it’d make her look cooler.
very very rough little visual of what I mean
I also ended up making it shorter in my redesign—again, not really intentional, but I think it’s better that it eats up a little less of her silhouette
4. Her headband is largely the same, I didn’t hate the idea of her having an accessory, so I just toned down the colors. I’m not personally a fan of the powder blue and that pink heart is very bright and just doesn’t go with the rest of her (once again the color of her hair is doing it no favors). I also moved the heart over. Not necessarily needed I think, but I feel like it reads quicker as a headband and not a weird crown that way+introduces some asymmetry into her design that I think is nice.
5. my biggest gripe other than her bangs are her hips. I’m not against adding anatomy to this character design to make her read visually as older than the girls, but it’s so awkwardly done and distracting. I feel like it even interferes with her line of action more often than not (which is not helped by her unmoving hair).
Part of the issue is she still has the teeny tiny torso, just… with those square-ish hips slapped on, which makes her legs look all gangly and stretched out. I tried to balance out the proportions more in my redesign, as well as change the hips to a flared skirt. I think it helps differentiate her from the girls and still implies hips underneath, it just also functions as a less clunky transition from her torso to her legs.
Lengthening her torso also allows the stripe to look more like a belt above the skirt, which I think helps to sell her as “similar, but not the same” from the ppg
6. Her leggings(? Idk Im not a fashion person) aren’t a bad idea I think. like a more mature version of the girls’ stockings, but I think the white makes them look really distracting. It would help to make them a darker color I think, but since I wanted to keep them reminiscent of the girls’ socks I kept them white and just shortened them.
7. Not really sure what Bliss is wearing on her feet. I think they’re Mary Janes, but they’re drawn a bit different from the girls’ and I honestly think it’s too babyish a shoe for her to wear. I’m not sure what she’s actually wearing in my redesign either honestly, but the goal was just to make them look like the girls’ Mary Janes while clearly being something different.
8. Uh her signature color is something I’ve contemplated changing a lot but to be real I think it’s fine. I feel it was a very bad idea from a marketing standpoint because people were hype about Bunny and would obviously be mad they didn’t get her once the character actually dropped (and in the long-run she would just end up being overshadowed by the character everyone has already assigned that color to) but I’m personally not bugged by her being purple beyond that. If I were to draw them together though I think Bunny would have a more pinky shade of purple and Bliss leans more blue.
Loosely on the same topic, because of Bliss I’ve had a running headcanon that “only child” types of powerpuffs tend to come out purple. Kind of like how trios tend to have a red, blue, and green. It’s a fun little piece of fake lore to rotate around in my brain
Anyway with all that out of the way, here’s some redesigns I decided to have some fun with. Wasn’t being too precious about recognizability or simplicity or anything like that, but I did run out of steam partway through. There’s also one based off Whoopass Bell bc idk, why not
Finally, here’s some OCs I only ever drew once before out of a desire to give Bliss her own teen girl archetypes to form a team with. This is Bee and Beetle, who I’ll probably definitely forget about again immediately after posting this
#ppg Bliss#the powerpuff girls#my art#powerpuff oc#under the cut anyway#trying to do an interesting background#i got bit by a drawing bug and felt the strong need to finish this post today#i’ve been meaning to put together some art and a little ramble about bliss for a while#largely because idk if or when i’ll ever actually talk about her again#i also skimmed through this post once or twice so sorry if it’s incoherent#anyway this took a long ass time i need to take a nap or something
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Leo has been the leader since day one
Alright, I haven't seen this conversation yet, but I can't be the only one who's noticed this. This isn't my usual post- not that I post often- but art is WIP.
~aannnnyyway~
Leo has been the (back seat) leader of the Mad Dogs since day one.
Mobile users, RIP no seriously, you are digging your own grave
In the first two episodes he shows his potential, he thinks ahead, guides the team, makes astute observations, shows his knowledge of his team (including himself), and makes his own plans (even if Raph has made a plan, he almost always has his own).
I'll go through the first two episodes chronologically.
First is Mystic Mayhem.
-This is a good example of understanding himself-
Leo: So . . . You guys from Jersey?
Mikey: Really Leo?
Leo: What? I can't make a joke in the middle of the craziest thing ever? That's how I cope.
-Leo stops his brothers and forces them to think ahead-
Mikey: Should we just ask him for it?
Leo: And what do we say when he asks us why we want it? That we need to go after our best friend, who disappeared into a wall after our priceless weapons were destroyed by mystical jogger guys?
-Not only is Leo showing how well he knows his dad, he executes his own plan when Raph's first plan fails, without asking his brothers first-
Raph: How'd you get that?
Leo: You know he always passes out after milk and cake.
-Now, this example is a debatable one, yes it shows his understanding of Raph, but it may also just be to shown to establish relationships in general since this was the first episode-
Donnie: A few hours ago I would have called this foolish and impossible. Now I just call it foolish.
Mikey: Say what you want Donnie. Raph'll pull is off 'cause if he doesn't, we'll loose our best friend forever.
Leo: Mikey, don't say that. You know he chokes under pressure.
Donnie: Leo, he's even more self-conscious when you talk about it.
-Here, while happy to see April again, he keeps the team on the task that got them in the hidden city in the first place. It can be argued if this was on purpose or not; but it still showcases his natural ability to lead-
Donnie: According to my calculations, we are in a tertiary-metaverse.
April: Actually, I've been doing some exploring, and we're in a hidden city deep under New York!
Leo: So where's the dog thingy?
-There are even subtle moments where Leo takes the lead; after Donnie takes out Draxum's robot with his tech, Leo is the only one talking to Draxum directly for the team. This is another debatable example, you could say Leo is just being the face man here, but I'd like to include it-
Draxum: Accidently impressive. With a little bit of training you can be formidable as I hoped.
Leo: Okay, well, great, and since you're surrendering. . .
Draxum: Baron Draxum does not surrender.
Leo: Okay, well, when he gets here we'll deal with him. . . oh, ho, ho, I see. You're doing that whole "sinister talking in the third person" thing.
-Here, he is the only one to once again question Raph's decision, and present his own idea instead-
Raph: We just defeated a boss villain. We're heroes. We deserve a name like Mad Dogs.
Leo: Mad dogs? You don't think something like Mutant Ninja Turtle Teens or. . .I don't know. Maybe - we'll keep brain storming.
The very next episode has soooo many parallels to the movie.
Origami Tsunami.
The dialog is long on this one and, despite the humor, throughout this scene Leo guides his brothers to the best mission for their skill level.
Mikey: Yo, Leo, we're gonna be heroes!
Leo: Okay, what's the plan? Solve the city's rat problem?
Splinter: Hey now. I am standing right here.
Raph: Pfft, no way. We're crime fighters!
Donnie: Okay, check this out. The Spine Breaking Bandit!
Raph: Yeah. Go big or go home!
Leo: Yeah, go home in a stretcher. What else you got?
Donnie: Hmm, well this one's kind of lame. Someone stole paper from a delivery truck.
Leo: Not on my watch! This is exactly the kind of junior level mischief we can put an end to.
-Leo then hypes his brothers up for this mission-
Raph: Really? That'll make us heroes? But it's only paper.
Leo: It's only paper. I'm so sorry. Donnie, what did he say? Did he say it's only paper?
Donnie: Yup.
Leo: Did he say it's only paper?
Donnie: Yes, he did.
Leo: Okay! That's what they all say. You think the road to hero town is paved in real crime? No! It's paved with the tears of the poor paper man. And who helps that guy? I'll tell you who; we are who!
Raph, Mikey, and Donnie: Yes!
-When Raph's first plan fails, and he sees how discouraged his brothers get...-
Donnie: Uh, quick question. Did we seriously get schooled by paper thieves?
Raph: I didn't swoop like a boss. I swoop like a noob.
Mikey: Man, this seemed like a really cool idea until we didn't succeed at it.
-...so, Leo gives a "hero" speech, like he does in the movie. Although this motiving speech needs some help, he still tries-
Leo: Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa! Where'd my brothers go? Mikey, where's your. . .legendary optimism? Raph, where's your, ya know, your go-getter attitude? And Donnie, where's your. . . your thing, your - emotionless passion?
Donnie: Here.
Leo: We can still catch these lame old paper crooks and be heroes!
-In continuing this scene, we see the Leo make and execute his own plan, now that Raph's impulsive plan has failed-
Donnie: Yeah, that's gonna be hard. This was the last paper store in town.
Leo: Hmm. . . or was it?
Donnie: Yeah, I. . .I literally just said that.
-Again he takes the lead talking to the foot clan first (could just be that he's a face man here, but nonetheless)-
Leo: Okay twerp. . . and surprisingly big man. It's four against two. So what you say we just call it a day, right?
-Leo uses his observations to guide the team, here when the foot are making their origami soldiers, Leo realizes taking out the paper ninjas isn't a solution-
Leo: We're getting no where fighting these guys. We gotta take out the source.
-After Raph ~properly~ uses his ninpo for the first time, Leo again uses his surroundings to find a solution, in doing so he shows both guiding his team, and astute observations-
Leo: Hm. Mikey, the sprinklers!
-Even at the end of the second episode, they look to Leo for reassurance and support-
Mikey: So. . .does this count as a win?
Leo: Well, I don't know. Let's think about it. Did the bad guys get their big supply of paper? Uh, no. Did they build their army of soilders? No. No they didn't. Are they otherwise Thwarted, and we unscathed?
Raph, Donnie, and Mikey: Yes!
Leo: Hero mission accomplished, my friends!
Alright.
First off, if you've made it this far, thanks for attending my not even close to life changing ted talk. I hope you have enjoyed my rant.
In conclusion,
Leo has the potential to lead, just prefers to do as little work as possible. He almost always passes resonsibility onto someone else, however when he has no other choice but to lead he does it well without realizing it. There are many other subtle examples sprinkled throughout season 1 and 2.
I have more thoughts on this, but this post is already the height of the empire state building.
Class Dismissed.
#did I really just spend this much time writing this?#yes#yes I did#rise of the tmnt#tmnt#rottmnt leo#rottmnt#rottmnt donnie#rottmnt mikey#rottmnt raph#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles
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World Bearer Part 3
You can't help but wander your mind helplessly, trying to keep an eye out of any threats and danger that could impose on the power your child emits. I'm not like Gojo, I don't possess his six eyes preventing any harm, but even that didn't protect him from his death.
Your puffy eyes hid shy behind your hair, as your child was warmly packed in cloth trying to cover his white hair more than ever. After the announcement of Gojo's death, curses would rejoice, but yet they didn't.. because they have already sensed your son's birth.
Thinking back you cower yourself in a free seat at the airport, news being flashed of the sudden unexplainable and paranormal activity in the city. A mass of people missing in the Shibuya Station after an enormous party, the higher ups cannot cover it that much this time—too many things got out of hand and it's all spilling right before peoples eyes.
A little credit to your family clan, providing a safety heaven where you can be kept safe with your son, until.. you never know until when but you do not dare tell the world his birth even if it meant not being able to see Gojo's corpse, you forced Shoko to tell you through phone his image. Painful as it is you would trade your life for his at that moment.
Cruel just cruel
The honoured one
The one who promised
Waves of reality check and realization hits you as you wait for your flight in finally about an hour, sorcerers still fought in Shibuya. The war made you want to join, it made you want to avenge his death, their deaths, your love, your friends, you call them family because they were your family. Yet you couldn't do anything but to protect what you have left and the only thing you could protect from now on
your son
You were raised by a prestigious line of sorcerers, background even unknown. The whole clan raised in a single island owned by generations to generations, completely sealed away until they are to decide to go and explore the world as it is or to help with the protection of humanity. When you left your clan after they're guidance and teachings the outside world was overwhelmingly but you took it easily, you adapt easily. You came out of the island, out of the nest, and even with the culture shock you knew you had one goal in mind and in heart.
To protect humanity, that's how you met Gojo afterall
The more you knew about him, his past, his childhood, it made you doubt your principle, how could some people be selfless and majority so selfish.
Everything has purpose, he's the one who made you doubt after you loved him because of how much he carries burden just because he was born. It was by birth and it wasn't controlled but it was destiny and it was his decision.
He could've killed those higher ups, if he wanted to
He could've ditched humanity, and lived to be human himself
Those gifted skills, who were they to be waste for
He embraced it, but it was overwhelming and stressful to hold such. The thought of your son bearing it next out of guilt, out of heroicness, out of principle is just to painful for your heart to bear.
His father has made history, who am I to deny and not tell him such? Timing. Timing has always been hard
Gojo always knew when, where, and what to start whenever you are confused. He was always on time for you, 'how could I be on time for my son to know what he carries and the possibilities?'
Would he be heroic like his father?, sure he looks like his father with little hues of me, but would he be guilty to deny protection of those in need?
Those in need differ, everyone is a sinner afterall
such thoughts devour you as you sat still looking at your son's face as he slept peacefully, remembering every detail and observing every movement. You looked around for a second to suddenly see no people around the airport, no one left but you and your son. Your eyes too dry to even shed another tear, they all left you there,
—Sometimes even if you wished you haven't bear his child, you haven't met him, you haven't left your clan for something 'greater' for something to 'protect' it was always much more worth it to go through all this again if it meant going back in time to savour even the smallest glances you had with your love before, even if it meant redoing every work, even if it meant bearing his child again for 9 months with constant fear of danger, even if it meant giving birth to your son again. Just with a button or a clock to tick and take back time, just for him to be by your side all through that
It would be worth it
You finally let down your shoulder and embrace your son a little tighter, you cried. You let it all out, you and your son alone at the airport, no people, no one, you repeated again and again whispering to your son
'but you still have me, and I have you, my son, my world that I bear, I will be by your side if you decide to bear the world yourself of cower from it' you wept.
For a split second, Gojo knelt infront of you as you sat embracing your sleeping son. He wiped your tears and gave a reassuring smile, his eyes cried out itself yet he still managed to compose a smile, you cried harder, screaming out of grief, anger, sadness, doubt and love.. something even you couldn't hear, everything was just mute and bright, you felt you said everything when he saw your state and you felt like you knew everything when he saw your face,
He took your hand and squeezed, he cupped your face and made you look at him all at once you cried harder than before, your heart shattered knowing this is all the energy he left, his message on the right timing, timed when you were about to break down to the oblivion, timed when you needed him atleast one last time, timed when every little thing from before and to the future mattered. He took a look at his son and kissed his forehead, you gasp from the physical pain you feel on your heart on how much your mental and emotional pain affects you.
He gave you a long deep kiss, and you knew, you knew all too well, you knew it even before, you knew it all the time, you saw it clearer when he came to your life and up to this moment onward
and he just said
"Just trust me you'll be fine" his voice were the only thing audible, before you dare not to blink an eye of the burning pain it caused of tirelessly crying and not sleeping, you blinked. Before you felt him leave and disappear into thin air he whispered 'I love you'
And with that he was gone
That was all he needed to say
You remembered it all like a tsunami hitting you face to face, the memories you shared, the littlest details, the faintest messages that meant 'I love you' felt like your heart pealed and squeezed until your lungs held your breath.
People at the airport were back, and your child awake due to a single tear from you eyes dropped to his cheek. You smiled and brushed it off, you gave a warm chuckle. "this is a little harder this time but trust me you'll be fine" you said.
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#gojo angst#gojo x reader#gojo x y/n#gojo satoru#gojo x you#anime#jjk gojo#jjk satoru#jujutsokaisen#jujutsu gojo#Gojo angst#Angst#jjk angst
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aight, we back and we're goin in tabbatha, brace urself.
(i reread the latest chapters because a full absorption was required)
as someone who adores psychology and analyzing literature as well as having dealt with depression, you really hit the nail on the head with chapters 15 and 16.
it was super healing to read readers experience through the beginning of the chapter, with the sisters comforting each other in a very vulnerable way and then taking that comfort away. i ADORE you as an writer for making that choice, even if it sucks in the moment. i think it really shows how much youve grown as an author and i would so sososososo happily read a published novel by you. your humility regarding angst drives me a lil insane with how visceral of emotions you put your readers through tho 😂
you show SO much expertise imo with how you eased us into chapter 16 and the overall tone by beginning with feyre and rhys. by showing us how devastated she was over this and rhys' reaction being just to care for his mate, not truly caring about readers own wellbeing.
moving into readers pov and showing us just HOW bad her depression has gotten since the accident with azriel. cassian sitting outside of her door, and idk about anyone else but he came off as a little abrasive when he addressed reader? but i digress, it took literal days for her sisters to be able to get through to her and to get reader to open up to them about 💫why💫. and then the sisters curling up in bed how they used to and just holding tight, because like one of the other anons mentioned, that the born fae will NEVER truly understand the archeron sisters. and then you nail that point in AGAIN by having rhys interact alone with reader. her terror and her spiralling thoughts, and his disregard for how SHE truly is? his hasty departure where you can feel him disregard her as a loose cannon that he now has to handle the fallout of and Nesta's rescue. because she of all people know how he is with anyone but those he deems important in the moment :(
(the paragraph detailing what reader would have said to each sister respectively made me BAWL, like end of kingdom of ash kinda bawl, so massive respect for that alone.)
the ending with mor has got to be my favorite representation of her post ACOSF, just because ive always believed sjm wanted the focus of this series to be how massively flawed her characters are (and purposely so). you showed the courtier, the commander, AND the ruler of the hewn city very well in her reaction to readers actions and her newly uncovered involvements with eris. because ultimately mor has every reason to be upset with reader regarding eris, but she took her words too far because of her love for the IC. which is a massive flaw all of them possess, that you show BEAUTIFULLY throughout the series.
i also really love the decisions youve made with creating reader's character in general. it makes sense that she would be pushed to the side for so long, its been years that weve been waiting for nesta and elain to heal and so imagining a world where there are four sisters? Perfection, truly. the angst is 🥰🥰🥰
as a chronic lurker on tumblr, ao3, and wattpad respectively for the past decade. You are one of the few writers ive found that makes me want to reread ACOTAR after finding it a lil disappointing at times compared to sjm's other series (no hate, im just a tog and cc ride or die 😂) so when i felt as emotional and inspired as i did, it only makes sense that you hear just how amazing of a writer you are💖 I hope that this brings you some joy while plotting how to torture your readers next.
Respectfully foaming at the mouth waiting for the next chapter.
-🤠
‘as someone who adores psychology and analyzing literature as well as having dealt with depression, you really hit the nail on the head with chapters 15 and 16.’
Okay, I don’t want to get super personal and kind of blabber and waffle all over the place since we’re literally just starting, but hearing people say that they can relate to reader—whether through her anxiety, how introverted she is, or through the moments when she spirals—it kind of bittersweet? As a writer, I feel rewarded that you’re experiencing a connection of some sort with reader, but at the same time it’s hard knowing that those experiences are real emotions for so many people?
‘it was super healing to read readers experience through the beginning of the chapter, with the sisters comforting each other in a very vulnerable way and then taking that comfort away. i ADORE you as an writer for making that choice, even if it sucks in the moment.’
This is so interesting because I know I was quite stressed about uploading chapter 16 since I was worried the calm at the beginning would be too much of a 180° after the intensity of chapter 15? I thought it might be too slow-paced and that perhaps I should have tried to keep that tension going, but at the same time chapter 15 was written intended to be either the first or second highest tension point?
I’m flattered though that you think it was a good choice to have those sweet moments at the beginning and then to end on the angst? Personally I think that’s just a habit now to keep people engaged? 😅
‘i think it really shows how much youve grown as an author and i would so sososososo happily read a published novel by you.’
Is this payback for the angst of cbmthy? Are you trying to make me cry in return? I think it would be fun to write a book but at the same time very draining? I suppose I don’t have to write it now 😅 maybe if I make it to fifty I can sit down and give writing a go, but I’m not sure how realistic it is for me to consider writing a book at the moment :/
Still, thank you so much for such a high compliment—it kind of blows my mind that you’d be interested in an actual physical book 🧡💛
‘your humility regarding angst drives me a lil insane with how visceral of emotions you put your readers through tho 😂’
I genuinely think it might be a case of some of the stuff that pops up in cbmthy/other fics happens to hit specific emotional soft spots? I still don’t think of cbmthy as being particularly sad—it has angsty parts definitely—but to be fair I know the full story whereas you’re still coming out of one of the lowest parts? I’m sure that makes a difference :)
‘you show SO much expertise imo with how you eased us into chapter 16 and the overall tone by beginning with feyre and rhys. by showing us how devastated she was over this and rhys' reaction being just to care for his mate, not truly caring about readers own wellbeing.’
Oh my gosh please I feel like you’re assigning me way too much credit 😭
Honestly it just felt like it made sense to start with Rhys and Feyre since we haven’t really seen them at all it would be a good way to possibly catch some people off guard!! I also just couldn’t figure out how to start it from reader’s perspective since it felt too ‘noisy’(?)—a lot of the choices are heavily influenced by whether or not I feel I can make a scene work, so if I can’t I have to switch it to a different one!! I wouldn’t say it’s anything near expertise 😭 (but I appreciate it nonetheless)
‘cassian sitting outside of her door, and idk about anyone else but he came off as a little abrasive when he addressed reader?’
I think that’s a mix between me genuinely being a little unsure how to write his character and the circumstances? Cassian knows that reader tried to kill herself, that Nesta has had thoughts like those, and that Nesta cares for reader—that plus it being around the middle of the night I guess it was kind of a shift between him being unsure how to approach her since she might still be spiralling, and not wanting to overwhelm her which is why the talking was so minimal? He’s torn between worrying for Azriel who’s his brother and also reader who’s his mate’s younger sister—I think he might have it the most difficult besides reader if I’m honest in terms of conflicting feelings? It was supposed to be a little weird though, since reader doesn’t know what going on, and isn’t particularly familiar with Cassian? Comparatively with her sisters or Bas, I mean :)
‘and then the sisters curling up in bed how they used to and just holding tight’
This was such an enjoyable scene to write and probably one of my favourites so far 🧡💛 I hope it was as pleasant to read as it was to write
‘by having rhys interact alone with reader. her terror and her spiralling thoughts, and his disregard for how SHE truly is?’
I’m glad that this kind of showed? I don’t want Rhys to appear totally insensitive to reader because I think that would be too ooc for him, but he cares for her because she’s his mate’s sister, not because of her. And he still has to think as High Lord, and even putting Mor’s history with Eris aside, Eris’s a dangerous opponent because of how manipulative he can be, and that paired with reader’s more naive side that’s searching for affection from someone isn’t a promising combination?
Even then though, he’s still lost his own sister, so I feel that impedes his ability to be entirely impartial to reader’s situation, hence the mention at the end of the conversation where he tells reader to rest and that she gave them all a scare.
But yeah, he’s a little cold I suppose to her
‘(the paragraph detailing what reader would have said to each sister respectively made me BAWL, like end of kingdom of ash kinda bawl, so massive respect for that alone.)’
I’m incredibly sorry 😔 KoA level of tears shed? 🫢 I feel awful, I’m so sorry 😭🧡💛 (I did enjoy writing that paragraph and the one after it, so I guess it kind of succeeded in its assigned task 😬😭)
‘because ultimately mor has every reason to be upset with reader regarding eris, but she took her words too far because of her love for the IC.’
This is such a nice take that I hadn’t thought of in these specific terms?
I think the born-fae ones of the IC will naturally have a different kind of bond than the sisters do just due to history and experience, but I hadn’t really considered Mor’s reaction to be one that might be fuelled by love for her family because the scene was written from reader’s perspective?
On a slight side note, I find it so enjoyable to see this different take on Mor’s actions since so far I think most people have been somewhat agitated with Mor’s behaviour (and I kind of agree it wasn’t the best way to go about it) so it’s interesting that you’re speculating over her reasons and actually considering her position? 🧡💛
‘the angst is 🥰🥰🥰’
Thank you very much 🧡💛
A year ago I probably would have been concerned to hear something like this, but I guess with the majority of cbmthy supposing to be angsty, it’s good to know it’s having the desired effect? 🫣🧡💛
‘(no hate, im just a tog and cc ride or die 😂)’
We could have an entire conversation about this because I adore Throne of Glass but have struggled so much with Crescent City (I think the modern setting really throws me off?)
‘so when i felt as emotional and inspired as i did, it only makes sense that you hear just how amazing of a writer you are💖 I hope that this brings you some joy while plotting how to torture your readers next.’
Being completely transparent with you I read through your ask multiple times and took a pause in between each one because I kept getting so overwhelmed (in a good way)
I’m so flattered that you wanted to write in this level of detail about the events of ch. 16 of your own accord??? It blows my mind and I want to say just how much I sincerely appreciate you coming into my asks to chat about this story that was by no means planned or supposed to happen but I’m so glad it did 🫂🧡💛
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weird swap au infodump incoming !!!
i was slightly anxious while thinking on other characters in the swap au but given i already made the decision to be a litte Weird with it i guess it’s not too much of an issue. everythings not really a 1:1 swap
not every single character has a swap because i want to center in on the primary cast. maybe that’ll change later and we’ll get ideas for less relevant characters and how we could change them around but for now try not to expect things like idk “ikutsuki and elizabeth swap” or some scary shit like that
i am admittedly struggling with what to do w the twins (the protags are twins in this au like with every other thing i make) outside of them still having the connecting line of losing their parents to an accident on moonlight bridge. they just didn’t get death sealed in them this time. but uh hey you don’t need that to happen to you for the events to result in Deep Issues. i think there IS something interesting there in that they wind up coming back to iwatodai all those years later, and they get roped into sees because of course they do. i think it’d be interesting to explore them through the lens of being normal party members at least. the only thing is that you don’t really get a solid ‘swap’ situation with them since mitsuru maintains some of their canon qualities while still not exactly moving from her typical role as heir to the kirijo group. more on that as me and the bestie talk details over
we actually are planning some pretty fun stuff with ryoji?? the wonderful thing is that ryoji is by all intents and purposes just a normal fucking guy in this au given all the appriser stuff goes to yukari. but as a general rundown here’s what he has going on
childhood friend to the twins, loves them dearly. was very sad when they moved after the accident, and overjoyed after they transferred back.
has a younger brother named pharos:)
the mochizuki family was close with the takebas, particularly eiichiro was close with them. you can imagine where im going with this. his death was a tragedy to them, but more than anything it spurs something on in ryoji as he grows older. the alignment of the accident resulting in eiichiro's death and the death of the twins' parents occurring in such a close span of time bothers ryoji. for something that had such a massive negative impact on the lives of two people that are insanely important to him to potentially have more behind it than meets the eye, it becomes a vague obsession. which of course, eventually leads him to sees.
his role replacing yukari in this au gives him a fraught relationship w mitsuru. his distrust is very…intimidating, because it’s not nearly as outright as canon yukari’s. when he’s pointing out inconsistencies in what info mitsuru lets them have, he’s calm, sporting a smile, but emitting coldness. mitsuru herself of course isn’t Unaware of the effect the kirijo group’s work has had on him, but i think being incapable of getting a proper read on ryoji a lot of the time definitely does her no favors.
next lets talk about aigis! i had a little too much fun adapting her.
taking after canon kikuno's role, aigis was a human child sold to the kirijo group. she has a naturally-awoken persona (something something ergo research offers a higher payout to her parents because of this)
after the failure of the persona experiments resulting in strega, aigis is adopted by a handful of scientists from ergo research (this is essentially a timeline where the events of aigis the first mission dont happen, at least not the same way. i figured itd be fun to give the characters introduced in that game an active role in this au). she lives in yakushima with them.
her upbringing has left her socially awkward and distant, and trust is hard for her to fully feel. the intention on behalf of her guardians was to make sure she wouldnt have to give herself to the group as a weapon if she didnt want to, while having a family that cares for her and is able to meet her needs as someone with a very unique situation. she accompanies them if they need to do something during the dark hour because shes capable of protecting them with her persona.
aigis is still recruited to sees during the yakushima trip. a la the movie, she protects mitsuru and ryoji from a hoard of shadows after they leave the kirijo estate at night without their evokers. knowing of sees due to how long shes been in proximity to the group, she asks to be transferred into their unit so that she can help directly combat the dark hour so it wont be a danger to her family anymore. she would still very much view herself as a weapon raised by the kirijo group despite her adoptive family trying so hard to help her unlearn it. she experiences some pushback about it of course because its inadvertently feeding into something she is meant to be unlearning, but she wants strongly for it so its not like they can fully deny her.
thats everything we've got cemented so far...we still have to figure out the other members of sees that need swapping but for now you can have these doodles. a kiku + some concepts for human aigis and non-protag femc
#quinn moment#quinn drawings#<- ill figure it out one of these days.#open to suggestions as usual...#kym swap au
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Personal Recs! (General Audiences, Teen And Up)
Here are some of my personal recommendations! This post will include fics generally suited for most audiences.
Our Kind Of Intimacy by Moss-On-The-Bones (General Audiences, Complete)
Ink had the marvelous idea of making Error his canvas. A little over 1k words of Error being painted on.
This is a part of a reverse big bang with @wewawoomp on Tumblr. Link to the art will be at the end notes.
Duplicate The Terror by Sye_Dye (Teen And Up, Complete)
This wasn't how it was suppose to go. Dream felt that he has done everything to get through to Nightmare, but to no avail. But to resort to this? He didn't think things could have gone so south so fast. He just wanted his precious brother back. Was that too much to ask for?
It was an accident.
Now he hurt his brother and he was not sure what to do.
His brother sneered at him. On the other side of the room, another Nightmare glared at him.
There were two Nightmares now.
What has he done?
In which Nightmare does not know what to do with himself and finds a new path.
Schrodinger's Gate by moondrift (Teen And Up, Incomplete)
Disoriented and emotionally frayed from decades spent in the void, W.D Gaster suddenly finds himself at the mercy of a cold and arrogant alternate self. His doppelganger promises to return him to the void once his research is complete but before he can make good on his threat, Gaster is introduced to this world’s variant of his son and he is forced to make a quick, spur of the moment decision.
This sole act sends unforeseen ripples throughout the Multiverse and hurdles Gaster on a perilous journey across it to find his way home.
or
Dadster plays hopscotch across the multiverse, unintentionally and intentionally acquires children, tentatively reciprocates Grillby's feelings, engages in actual literal custody battles with copies of himself, somehow steals a Bad Sans™, narrowly avoids death at the hands of Error and somehow flies under Ink’s radar for a shocking amount of time.
Don't care 'bout my Bad Reputation by Insecuriousity (Teen And Up, Complete)
Every monster in Snowdin knew that between the two Skeleton Brothers, Sans was the soft one. He never dusted anyone, always hid behind his brother’s legs like a coward, and had the stats of a newborn whimsun. The only reason nobody had dusted him yet was because only Sans could extract some mercy from Papyrus.
It was goddamn hilarious, how wrong they all were, but Sans wasn’t about to correct them.
you become by theragingprophet (General Audiences, Complete)
you aren’t Real, but for him... for your little brother, you can pretend.
(in which Sans is Papyrus’s imaginary friend, and magic is both a wonderful and terrifying thing.)
The One Where Sans Tells It Like It Is. (Or: The One Where Sans Is Number One Dunckle) by marauding_bagel (General Audiences, Complete)
When Toriel asked him to attend the meeting in her place for one night he thought it wouldn't be a big deal. Turns out Sans could not have been more wrong.
At Their Mercy by Devcipher (Teen And Up, Complete)
The multiverse had been perfectly balanced when the seven higher beings weaved it together. Through countless interferences, however, the balance has begun to tip, and stability is threatened. Fate's creation has been unresponsive to their warnings, and thus a solution must be made. While feuding with Destiny over a monster to be Ink's counterpart, Karma intervenes.
Inspiration from Harrish6's Forced God of Destruction universe, but a unique alternate multiverse/universe of my own.
Discord is constantly breaking the link for the ATM discord but: https://discord.gg/DgHWGnMNrs *EDIT: My server got raided twice please message me for a link lol*
Tumblr: https://www.tumblr.com/devtemrys
Kinder Than He Seems by WrittenKinzy18 (Teen And Up, Complete)
Error is the Destroyer of the AUs. The sole purpose of his existence is to clash with Ink and destroy the entire multiverse. He has two easy ways of doing so: finding the Doodle Sphere, or killing the Classic Universe. No one wants to get rid of him completely, but they also can't let him roam free.
However, when Classic himself is brought into their multiversal meeting, they find Error has always known where the Original Undertale was. In fact, he'd been actively visiting it as a friend.
Were they really so wrong about the Destroyer?
Ancients & Champions by jisko2ijsko (Teen And Up, Incomplete)
After monsters broke free to the surface Sans thought that the humans would be the hardest to manoeuvre around. Nothing could have prepared him for what he found in a different country far from his home. He will learn more about the world, them and himself as he tries to deal with feelings and long forgotten memories.
TLDR: Sans decides to travel to help Alphys and Toriel and ends up meeting more skeletons and experience many more adventures. Good thing two are really cute and the other four are actually very nice.
Turn Back Time by orphan_account (Teen And Up, Incomplete)
Nightmare finally killed his brother. Dream is finally dead. Or so he thought.
Dream also thought he was killed. He thought he was dead. But when he opened his eyes he's perfectly fine, unexpectedly. His pain has gone, there's no tendril piercing his body, and his wounds disappeared completely.
Then a familiar voice greets him, chuckling softly.
“Why are you looking at me like you’ve seen a ghost?”
"Night...mare?"
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“Not until the women’s liberation movement of the 1970s was it recognized that the most common post-traumatic disorders are those not of men in war but of women in civilian life. The real conditions of women’s lives were hidden in the sphere of the personal, in private life. The cherished value of privacy created a powerful barrier to consciousness and rendered women’s reality practically invisible.
Women did not have a name for the tyranny of private life. It was difficult to recognize that a well-established democracy in the public sphere could coexist with conditions of primitive autocracy or advanced dictatorship in the home. Thus, it was no accident the initial method of the movement was called “consciousness-raising.”
Consciousness-raising took place in groups that shared many characteristics of the veterans’ rap groups and of psychotherapy: they had the same intimacy, the same confidentiality, and the same imperative of truth-telling. The creation of a privileged space made it possible for women to overcome the barriers of denial, secrecy, and shame that prevented them from naming their injuries. In the protected environment of the consulting room, women had dared to speak of rape, but the learned men of science had not believed them. In the protected environment of consciousness-raising groups, women spoke of rape and other women believed them.
Though the methods of consciousness-raising were analogous to those of psychotherapy, their purpose was to effect social rather than individual change. A feminist understanding of sexual assault empowered victims to breach the barriers of privacy, to support one another, and to take collective action. Consciousness-raising was also an empirical method of inquiry. Kathie Sarachild, one of the originators of consciousness-raising, described it as a challenge to the prevailing intellectual orthodoxy: “The decision to emphasize our own feelings and experiences as women and to test all generalizations and reading we did by our own experience was actually the scientific method of research. We were in effect repeating the 17th century challenge of science to scholasticism: ‘study nature, not books,’ and put all theories to the test of living practice and action.””
- Trauma and Recovery by Judith Herman
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GENERATION GASFUSS
by Oliver Kuhn for Playboy Germany, February 2002 (x)
The best racing drivers in the world and their fast sons: why the speed gene is dominantly inherited.
That was bitter for Michael Schumacher. This underage kid overtook him twice. In the final of the 2001 karting world championship in Kerpen, Schumi was still just ahead in the end. But the message from Nico Rosberg, 17, was clear. In a few years, he wants to bring the Formula 1 World Championship home to the Rosberg clan. Like his father Keke once did.
There is no other sport in which passion is passed on from father to son as consistently as in the case of racing drivers. The racing gene is inherited in a dominant way. Already world champions Damon Hill, son of Graham (world championships ‘62 and ‘68), and Jacques Villeneuve, son of Gilles (world championship runner-up ‘79), advanced to become successful drivers. And the next generation is just growing up.
Mathias Lauda, 21, races in the Spanish Formula 200. Tomas Scheckter, 22, scion of Jody, races in the American Indycar championship. Nelson Piquet, 17, tries his luck in Brazil. All just warm-up exercises. They're all speculating on one of the lucrative spots in Formula 1.
Nico sat in a race car for the first time in April 2002. Just before his final exams. The first test took place in the rain, and the engine exploded during the second. It looked bad before the race in Hockenheim. "Watch out for the gray tracks, the rain has already dried there," father Rosberg whispered in his son's ear. One hour later, Keke heard his Finnish anthem: Nico started the season with a victory.
"I inherited the crazy from my father,” says Nico. Which means something like: the Rosbergs don't like to brake, they love risk. At least the male part does. Mother Sina has so far not watched a single race out of fear for her son. "It's logical that sons do the same as their fathers," says Keke dryly.
Nico Rosberg had a lead of exactly 81 points after 20 races in the Formula BMW ADAC championship. The 17-year-old son of Formula 1 world champion Keke completed his A-levels on the side, signed thousands of autographs and claims that racing is Finnish.
Racing kids go straight from bobby cars to go-karts. As teenagers, they then buy into the junior classes. A Formula BMW car costs 45,000 euros, a season at least 200,000 euros, and a race track for testing purposes 10,000 euros a day. A minor accident in a corner not only puts a hole in the bodywork, but also in the cash. In addition to an engineer, mechanic, and truck driver, Nico also employs a computer scientist who evaluates the engine data.
Whereas in the past it was only driving talent that counted, today the quality of a media star is also decisive. Nico Rosberg looks a bit like Leonardo DiCaprio. This appeals to his main sponsor Viva and the music channel's target group: boys who want to become racing drivers and girls who adore them. "The girls are into racing drivers," Nico explored. After the race, he stands in front of the tent and signs his posters. Amused, he recounts how at one event a girl cried out in rapture, "I touched him."
Shortly before the end of the season at a race on the A1-Ring in Zeltweg. This time it goes wrong. 32 cars are driving. One is stationary. Nico is sitting in it. He got a stop & go penalty because he overtook a car despite a yellow flag (no overtaking). "It was too lame," says Nico and laughs. After all, he has an unassailable lead in the overall standings. No one can take the championship away from him.
This is the end-of-season reward: Nico is the youngest ever to test a Formula 1 car. The BMW Williams car. The first son has made it.
At the very back of the paddock, in the small tents, there are drivers who are supposedly much better than Nico. The father of one such talent is an engineer and mechanic in one. But there is not enough money for test drives. The mother grills sausages in front of the tent. The son is not particularly good-looking. The big career is not going to happen anytime soon. It's not easy not having a famous father.
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hey vivi! your cyberpunk edgerunners text post has lived in my head rent free since i first saw it and having read more of your blog i really like your media commentary in general. i'm just wondering, where did your ideas of text and subtext come from? (and how are you so good at drawing out what the text is?)
Thanks! I'm glad you liked it. I'd gotten rather irked with some particular followers of mine jumping on a hate bandwagon and claiming there was no substance to the show, which was just so obviously untrue I could barely believe it.
Media critique and commentary isn't something I've ever like, done any formal training in; it's not like I have an literature degree, but it has always been very important to me to find meaning within artwork and to find and bridge connections between what things resonate with a given body of work.
The stories that are dearest to my heart are always the ones that I'm able to find that meaning within; any kind of message, soul, or meaning. Themes that interconnect within the work, questions asked and answered or left to ponder, repeated motives that stress a particular idea...
And most truly great writing is built deliberately upon those ideas; but even the most vapid entertainment focused works will have that kind of subtext somewhere within them.
In the case of Edgerunners we have interviews with the author who specifically talks about some of the ideas that I mentioned ( notably the idea of living for someone else's dream), but examining the work itself we easily can find it on our own by thinking of what decisions the characters make and how they are contrasted to others, and how the story reacts to those decisions.
Text and Subtext is... something that a lot of people struggle with. And I'm not sure I can exactly give you a quick tutorial on how to do that other than saying that every story is something that a person made.
Things in nature can occur randomly, but things made by people are things made by decision. This includes both their conscious thoughts, and unconscious thoughts.
And the key to learning to examine media and ask yourself what it's about and what it means is about interrogating those ideas. Did the author put this here on purpose, and if so why? If they did it by accident, does it connect with anything else? Are there things repeated quietly throughout the work that aren't the main topic of discussion? Things that aren't necessarily important to the characters but things that keep resurfacing in their story?
There's no hard and fast answer to what's what, but the key is asking questions; always wondering, always looking. And while many people think it sounds like homework, when you begin to watch media you enjoy with a critical eye it can be genuinely fun, and better than that, it stimulates your mind and satisfies you in a way that simply sitting back and letting entertainment wash over you can't.
You start to appreciate characters more, things stick with you when you're done watching, you feel things more emotionally and experience that catharsis when things work out - or don't.
Just give it a try yourself, start asking questions, and see where you end up. I promise you wherever a story leads, it won't be boring.
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"I made a decision," the woman murmured all of a sudden, rolling over to her side so there was a better angle to look at Rhys (so strange to think he had another name - it was taking her some time to adapt and use the right one), a hand going to touch his face with the same gentleness that the brunette had reserved when she genuinely believed the man to be made of divine energy.
Well - in many ways, he was still godly in Melissa's eyes.
"I'm keeping the name you gave me - 'Melissa'," she said, inhaling softly before closing the gap between their faces, but enough just for a brief kiss - nothing that would distract them both from the actual conversation, "I've looked it up and it's Greek, isn't it? Named after bees and honey; you made me to be sweet, kind and loving. I like Melissa better than the person I used to be before you."
The memories had returned - but frankly, they felt like a dream; the strength of the ideas and desires that Rhys had accidentally imprinted on the former bounty hunter was still very significant, but she was able to remember things now. Melissa knew who she had been, what she had done... And the role she had within Rhys and Atlas now. There was no doubt in her mind.
"Accident or not, you made me into someone with purpose - I'm not giving that up for anything. Not even the name," the woman chuckled, linking her fingers with his, flesh against flesh as if he somehow could feel her sincerity better through skin rather than his other hand, "I can still call you 'my lord' if you miss it, though. It still feels appropriate... In the bedroom."
It's funny how much someone can change and how much you can still love them. Melissa's much different now compared to who she was the first time they'd met-- wiser, for one thing, and better adjusted. She's much more adept at surviving the danger that comes with living in the Borderlands in general, too.
Melissa doesn't look to him for everything any more, and in fact she hasn't for a while. She's more independent. More sure of herself. More... full as a person, which isn't to say she'd ever been lacking, but there were times where Rhys knew exactly what was on her mind because he'd written her that way. Now, he only knows her as one would a lover instead of a creator; he knows her because of the time they've spent together and everything they've done, and he's fallen for her over and over again all throughout.
Some things are the same, granted, like the way Melissa touches him, always so reverent even after the confession of his humanity. The way she speaks to him, sweet like fucking honey-- the press of her lips to his, always so good but always leaving him wanting more. Even now, Rhys has to resist the urge to lean over and kiss her again, having put the book he was reading down the moment she'd started speaking. He wants her as much as he always has all these years, and he's sure that isn't going to change any time soon. At least, not in any way that doesn't involve wanting her more.
The point is that he wouldn't have minded if being Lily Drysdell was what she chose for herself (and, boy, if finding old records of Lily's existence following the analysis of Melissa's genetic makeup hadn't been something). As she understood herself more, and as she grew into whatever she wanted to be, Rhys had been by her side every time she'd let him be there. As she evolved, and changed, and became herself, Rhys found that whatever old fear he might've felt that she'd leave him once she discovered his lies had faded with it.
And now, hearing the love of his life tell him that she prefers the purpose he'd written for her, prefers the name... well, even the old guilt he used to have stays buried in its grave.
What can he say to that, really? What can you say to someone who thinks you've saved her life when she's saved so many more? Looking at Melissa now-- and it's Melissa for certain, Melissa forever-- and seeing the adoration in her eyes makes his heart swell with love both familiar and new. The playfulness that trickles into her expression only makes her more beautiful, and Rhys finds it impossible not to smile in return.
His hand squeezes hers where they're entwined. His cybernetic fingers caress her face in a mirror of her touch on his. More important than words is to kiss his woman again, relishing in her warmth, her softness, her genuineness. More important than anything is to tell her he loves her after.
So he does, the words quiet and rumbling from deep in his chest. "I love you, you know..." And, because she's decided, he hums a content: "Melissa."
Then Rhys grins, bright and confident, and presses another soft kiss to her lips.
"And if my sunbeam still wants to call me her lord," he purrs, lips brushing hers with each word, "who am I to tell her 'no'?"
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ꕀ ᐝ 𖠳 cemre baysel, cis woman, she/her 𖠳 ᐝ ꕀ ‷ heads up ; if you hear HATE TO SEE YOUR HEART BREAK by PARAMORE blaring, it’s most likely ELA ERSOY making their way down the shore ! they’re 24 years old and celebrate their birthday on 01/10 - i knew they were a/an CAPRICORN ! especially since they’re very EBULLENT and MEDDLESOME. they are from ANTALYA, TURKEY, staying in DOWNTOWN and are currently working as a PRESCHOOL TEACHER, here at the cape. they always did remind me of the smell of cinanamon candles, the feeling of writing with new pens, and moon / sun necklace.‷
basic information.
full name: ela ceren ersoy
gender & pronouns: cis woman, she/her
place of birth: antalya, turkey
age & birthday: 24, january 10th, 1999
area of residence: downtown
occupation: preschool teacher
summary.
ela ersoy, born into the prestigious ersoy family in turkey, harbored a deep desire for her mother's beauty, believing it held the key to power and happiness. however, her reality was far from glamorous, with her parents' tumultuous relationship and her father's untimely death leaving her emotionally scarred. seeking acceptance and love, she followed her mother to cannes and later to the united states, where she made impulsive decisions, including marrying an abusive man. after returning to turkey and inheriting her wealth, ela experienced newfound freedom but also felt shame over her reckless lifestyle. however, seeking a sense of purpose, she made a life-changing decision to become a teacher in the united states, now looking forward to a fresh start and a more fulfilling path ahead as she enters her first year as a teacher's aide at a local preschool.
background.
trigger warnings: death, domestic abuse, car accident
in her early years, ela harbored a profound desire—to possess the same beauty as her mother. she believed that beauty held the key to power and happiness, but little did she know how complex her path would be, being born into the prestigious ersoy family in turkey. the ersoy name carried both wealth and a burden of historical significance.
yet, the reality of ela's life was far from the glamorous facade that many would assume. her parents' tumultuous relationship often made headlines, becoming a subject of widespread criticism. kaan ersoy, ela's father, made the controversial decision to leave his wife of fifteen years for a younger, more attractive, and supposedly more fertile woman, alara urusoy, a model.
despite the opposition from both families, kaan and alara were determined to be together and hastily tied the knot mere hours after kaan's divorce was finalized.
nine months later, ela ersoy came into this world, bringing both joy and unexpected sorrow. although her father had hoped for a male heir, his heart quickly embraced his precious little girl, and he reveled in the newfound role of fatherhood. tragically, their time together was cut short when kaan's life was claimed in a devastating car accident, leaving ela merely fifteen months old. the opportunity for a loving father-daughter bond was cruelly snatched away.
at just twenty-one years old, alara found herself widowed and grappling with the immense loss. however, she was fortunate to receive a generous monthly allowance, easing some financial burdens. despite the grieving, alara immersed herself in an active social life, attending lunches, cocktail parties, and dinners. eventually, a pivotal decision emerged in alara's life as she chose to move to london.
as the heiress to a colossal hotel empire, ela was set to inherit a substantial trust fund once she reached twenty-one. however, her father's family disapproved of alara's lifestyle, leading her aunt to seek custody of ela when she was just five years old. without the need for a trial, alara agreed to relinquish her rights as a mother in exchange for a considerable sum of money. she did, however, request to spend some weeks with her daughter during the summer, more to maintain appearances than out of genuine affection. as a result, ela relocated to her aunt's opulent mansion in antalya.
ceyda, ela's aunt, was delighted to have her niece under her care. she had longed for a daughter of her own, and now she finally had one. however, their relationship appeared more polite than affectionate, with ceyda showing care but keeping a certain emotional distance. struggling to adapt to her new environment, ela desperately attempted to please those around her, especially her aunt. the abrupt changes in her young life began to take their toll, instilling doubt about her own worth. she couldn't help but compare herself to her mother, believing beauty and perfection were attributes solely gifted to alara, fueling a deep-seated desire for acceptance.
upon turning eighteen, ela received a rare opportunity to spend the summer in cannes, where her mother now resided. this prospect excited her immensely, as it had been years since she had the chance to spend significant time with her mother. the possibility of finally building a meaningful relationship with her was all she had ever longed for. as she grew more confident in her appearance, she hoped that she might now be deserving of her mother's attention and affection.
however, what she didn't anticipate was how profoundly she would fall in love with the newfound freedom her mother's company provided. it was like being released from a long confinement, and ela relished every moment of her emancipation. the initial rush of freedom captivated her so much that she no longer wished to return to her previous confines. what was meant to be a two-month stay stretched into three, then four, as they continued to enjoy their time together in cannes. eventually, her mother made the decision to move to the united states, and without hesitation, ela followed suit, drawn in by the irresistible allure of the dazzling hollywood lights.
a child, that's who she was. the clothes, the makeup, and her attitude could have fooled anyone that she was no less than twenty-five, but she was only a nineteen-year-old girl trying to co-exist in a world of adults. it was the summer of 2018 when she met miles foster, a talent agent, ten years her senior. he fascinated her, as did the rumors surrounding him. he was known to be a 'bad boy', the kind that dragged a playboy reputation. how could someone like him have eyes for someone like her? getting involved with him was an act of desperation.
simultaneously, ela encountered another young man, someone her aunt would approve of: well-mannered, intelligent, well-traveled, and her age. he treated her like royalty, and their connection felt effortless. in a perfect world, he would be her choice over miles. in a perfect world, her self-hatred wouldn't have gotten in the way.
in a sudden, impulsive decision, ela accepted miles' proposal, despite her aunt's disapproval. her determination at nineteen was unshakable. miles revealed his true nature even before they married, displaying forceful and domineering traits. despite these warning signs, ela, struggling with low self-esteem, found his confidence appealing. they married in the winter of 2018, but what followed was a harrowing nightmare. miles's violent outbursts instilled fear in her, leaving her desperate for an escape. before her twenty-first birthday, she bravely confronted him, expressing her desire for a divorce, and ultimately returned to turkey.
after returning to turkey and gaining full control of her inheritance, ela became the center of attention, relishing the newfound freedom and the attention people showered upon her. for the first time, she experienced a normal life, surrounded by friends her age and focused solely on her own desires, not seeking approval from others. however, the lavish and reckless lifestyle she embraced left her feeling ashamed.
things took a turn when her beloved aunt fell seriously ill, triggering deep fear of losing the only family member who truly showed her love. after her aunt's passing, ela retreated to the family's summer house. with her two cousins, she became a co-heir of the renowned 'ersoy resorts.' despite this inheritance, she realized that she lacked passion for the family business.
seeking a sense of normalcy, she made a life-changing decision to return to the united states two years ago. there, she studied to become a teacher. now, on the verge of her first year as a teacher's aide at a local preschool, ela looks forward to a fresh start and a more fulfilling path ahead.
wanted connections.
the one that got away: her first and possibly only love so far. they met when ela was 18 and moved to california. they had a very brief romance before she chose miles over him. to this day, she regrets this decision.
friends: since she moved here, ela has been leaving her comfort zone and she's been trying to improve her social life. so i'd love for her to have a small group of friends.
work related: she is going to start working at the local preschool, so either other teachers or maybe the parents of some of her new students.
neighbors: she lives in a small apartment in downtown.
fwb: ya know the drill lmao
unrequited feelings: either ela or your muse admire the other from afar and somehow they haven't mustered the courage to talk to the other.
awkward date: they went on a date for whatever reason but it didn’t work out and they ended up never talking again.
wrong idea: ela dislikes this person because she thinks they’re not a great person but of course, all ela needs to do is give your muse a chance.
misunderstanding: these two didn’t have a great start. maybe ela threw coffee on them by accident, or was talking to your muse s/o and unintentionally seemed like she was trying a move and your character took it the wrong way.
#cape.intro#✦ — • general • ela ersoy •#tw death#tw abusive relationship#tw domestic abuse#tw car accident
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21. Turning points in their life for Seiji
Thanks @dandylion240 !
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The first major turning point in Seiji's life was the death of his friend, Tsubaki, in a snowboarding accident. He was in love with her and never got the opportunity to tell her, but even if he hadn't been in love with her, he's convinced that losing someone so close to him in such an abrupt way would've traumatized him anyway. Sometimes he thinks of it as "the beginning of the end", as that was the point at which he began to truly understand his own mortality, and when he began to fall out of love with the mountain in general and with snowboarding in particular.
His second big turning point was Victor's snowboarding accident. He was beyond grateful that Victor would ultimately be okay, but the whole thing shook him to his core. If he hadn't been fully convinced before, he made up his mind to quit snowboarding after that. All he could think about was how devastated he'd been after Tsubaki's passing and how crushed everyone who loved her had been, and he imagined Victor's family and friends having to go through the same thing. Then, he thought about his own parents and friends, and decided he could not, under any circumstances, risk putting them through that. So, he quit competing, quit teaching, and hung up his board altogether.
The next big turning point for him was meeting Sachiko. At their first meeting, ghost Sachiko mistook him for someone else. Later, he learned that the person she mistook him for was his great-grandfather, who was also named Seiji. Sachiko had been a servant in their house, and although she was in love with the young lord (and he with her, as far as she could tell), she could never say anything to him. It hadn't been her place to speak first, and even if she could have said something, a relationship between a servant and the wealthy heir to an estate would never have been permitted.
Seiji and Sachiko started getting to know each other, and he slowly started to realize he was falling in love with her, as impossible as it was to be in love with a ghost. They had so much in common, and they helped each other heal, and they were both convinced it was fate that they should be together.
Seiji's latest turning point was his decision to find a way to restore Sachiko to life. It turned into a quest that felt to him like it probably should be the plot of an anime or a young adult novel, but as wild and improbable as it was, he hadn't felt such a sense of purpose for anything in a very long time.
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This recent tlsq (A gathering of old friends) is actually quite good tbh. I’ve never been a fan of Penny (bc of the Valentine’s Day tlsq and the love charm) but this has rlly made me like her again!
Plus, im kinda hoping that the whole ‘friend who was thought to be dead is actually alive’ thing is suppose to parallel the main story
I’m glad to hear that you enjoy it. Unfortunately though, I really can’t say the same. Admittedly, I didn’t play it myself, and I didn’t even bother to read the entire dialogue, but based on what I know… I know I couldn’t handle how absurd it is.
Alright, first of all, let’s address the whole “fake death” issue, and why I think it’s stupid in Scarlett’s case, yet I want it so badly for Rowan. The thing with fake deaths is that they have to have a purpose for the story. Otherwise, it’s just a cheap plot twist.
I want Rowan’s death to be fake not only because I want Rowan to be alive, but most importantly because it’s connected to the theory that you have to experience great loss to retrieve the treasure from the final Cursed Vault. This would explain why R was so obsessed about killing one of MC’s friends, and why they ultimately led to Duncan’s death. And by faking it, Rakepick satisfied R without anyone ACTUALLY dying. It could’ve served a purpose. It’s not the case with Scarlett at all. Scarlett being secretly alive adds absolutely nothing to Penny’s story. In fact, I’d say it diminishes her past development.
In the “Penny For Your Thoughts” SQ, Penny might drink the Forgetfulness Potion, proving that she doesn’t handle stressful situations well, or she might not drink the potion, proving that sometimes, she can be very strong. In my opinion, making Scarlett alive feels like saying that these decisions didn’t matter anyway. It’s especially odd if Penny did drink the potion, meaning that she doesn’t even remember Scarlett’s accident. And here, MC is a total idiot, saying: “If you still don't want to remember, that's all right. But if you've changed your mind, I'll tell you everything”. Like… if Penny doesn’t remember it, she can’t really decide whether or not she wants to remember it, don’t you think? And later on, we learn that Scarlett wanted Penny to think that she’s dead, so… WHY THE FUCK WE FEEL ENTITLED TO INTERVENE IN THIS SITUATION?
Moreover, I don’t like how this quest basically ignores Penny’s development through her friendship with Chiara. Her change of heart in the first Halloween TLSQ where Chiara was introduced was a pretty big deal. And yeah, I know that they added here a line: “I know we have friends who’d disagree, and I don’t love myself for feeling this way… But the truth is, many werewolves are monsters. Plain and simple. This may be one of them”. It just doesn’t sit right with me, considering that she’s friends with Chiara and knows that Chiara is indeed a werewolf. I’m pretty sure that whoever wrote this story forgot about Chiara entirely, and this line was added last-minute.
Seriously, Penny’s backstory (at least this part) was done and complete. It didn't need any additions. And no, I don’t buy that JC wanted to introduce it to new players who didn’t play the original SQ because it’s currently unavailable. JUST BRING THE ORIGINAL SQ BACK TO THE GAME! It should be much easier than writing the entire story which makes no sense.
And speaking of making sense, the logistics of Scarlett’s survival is… *sigh*
Here’s the thing: Scarlett is a Muggle. Muggles have significantly lower chances to survive werewolf wounds, so they rarely transform. Considering that Penny thought that Scarlett is dead, she had to be in rather bad shape. As a Muggle, she probably wouldn’t survive. On top of that, the Ministry might be incompetent in general, but they’re very serious about the Statute of Secrecy. I don’t believe they would give up so easily on investigating a werewolf attack where a Muggle was involved.
I never really liked Penny, and I don’t think anything could change it. However, I do think she was done dirty in this quest. Moreover, we were done dirty as well because instead of this pointless story, we could’ve had a brand-new story for one of our neglected friends. Or maybe we could spend time with a bigger group, discussing their experiences from the end of the war. Honestly, anything would be a better investment of time than bringing Scarlett back to life.
I’m sorry, I don’t want to sound harsh or bring you down. But this quest actually makes me upset.
#hogwarts mystery#hphm#hphm spoilers#penny haywood#scarlett sparks#jam city#potter memorial tlsq#ask#its probably for the best
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