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why the fuck did i just watch naruto episodes. hey? why did i do that. goodbye i nedd to fix myself
#i say. as a naruto blog#sigh... maybe i delve into the great unknown (kkiru tag)#thats a lie im never doing that again
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WELCOME TO PHIO'S EXTREMELY SELF INDULGENT AU HOUR!!!
"Oh, FINALLY, another visitor! It's so quiet in here, it's unnerving..."
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This AU was meant to be posted on halloween but eh.... Happy Thanksgiving? HAHAHHA
still dont have a name for it, but basically, back in october i was suddenly hit with the need to have a halloween au, so now we have ghost-ified prismo and vampire/witch-ified scarab :D ( although didnt finish the scarab reference spread in time because uh, school and i lost motivation unfortunately )
au synopsis and rambling below the cut!!
the premise of this au is simple : scarab is a real estate agent whos known for his manners ( never barges in, always waits to be invited! though it is a little weird how he keeps asking to be let inside even if they already agreed that he was going to come over... ) and efficiency at his job - that is, convincing people to buy high-end housing for a good price. although his social skills need some... work, his ability to persuade people isnt something to be laughed at.
unfortunately for him, persuading the higher-ups is a completely different story - which he learned the hard way after flunking something big for the company. they dont choose to fire him, no. instead, they put him through a trial, assigning him to sell their most unprofitable property : the mansion in a small town locally known for being haunted by an "evil spirit". if scarab manages to sell it (for good profit) within six months, he is excused and is able to go on with his job. if not... well, best not to think about it, yes? after all, he'll succeed with ease - all he has to do is dispel any worries about some fake "ghost" that only exists as a result of filthy rumors. maybe clean up the place. not too hard, right?
meanwhile, stuck inside said mansion is an extremely bored prismo. hes been hangin around this place for like... how many years now? forty? a hundred? meh, all the same, lately the place has been quieter than usual. i mean- of course people dont just walk into a creepy mansion every day, but there would usually be at least a few bold kids or vloggers coming in now and then for him to entertain but even then they wouldn't stay long ( for obvious reasons ). and now, just some unbound spirits or dumb animals would pass by and thats about it. a guy can only entertain himself for so long, yknow?
that is, until today. when some posh-looking business man entered the premises and started snooping around ( whats the deal with that, by the way?? ). must be prismo's lucky day!! this is the perfect chance to pull out all the stops and play the FUNNIEST prank ever! hah!
... oh. looks like things've gotten a little out of hand.
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WOOT WOOT WOOTTTTTTTTTTT!!! im so so happy to finish this because ohhhhh my god this has taken ages for no reason other than the fact that ive been really dragging myself to make presentable art JSNDJSJXNSJX.... i realize that i have never worked in real estate ( or at all ) which means i have probably fucked something up but uhh um ill deal with the backlash later :"D im also realizing how many odd unanswered bits and bobs this au is going to have in the future, which... i am ignoring for the most part for now, but there are SOME things that i DO have figured out like ghost lore... but thats for another time, for now i leave you with this >:)
#again i do apologize for not including scarabs reference SOB it was taking so looooong and if i didnt finish it by now i wouldve just never#posted it at ALL so im glad im able to get this out now#again still dont have a name... but would love suggestions if people have any :D#ive been thinking so hard about the name and havent landed on aaaanything dude#creepy crawlies? tell-tale?? witching hour?? GAHH THERES SO MANY OPTIONS AND I DONT KNOW WHETHER I WANT TO GO WITH SYMBOLISM OR SILLY SIMPL#but anyways time for real tags#prohibitedwish#prismo the wishmaster#scarab the god auditor#uhh idk what else to put HAHAHHA#dont wanna tag fionna and cake cause i feel like thats just a lie idk#ACKKK I CANT BELIEVE IM FINALLY POSTING THIS I AM. SO NERVOUS MY HANDS ARE SO SWEATY YOU DOTN EVEN KNOW#okay okay. sending post now oh god
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the school arc to me is so good because it drags ciel out of his position as a powerful figure and literally places him in the shoes of the person he could have been. the circus arc ALSO drags him out of his position as big bad queens watch dog/head of the phantomhive estate but the school arc feels like a mockery of a future that never was. this is what he could have been had his parents not died. and even then its NOT because he will never be that kid.
he never was.
#ramblings#incoherent beyond belief its 4 am#and im trying to avoid manga spoilers#might add a reblog with more coherent thoughts when i wake up but im off my meds so i cant promise anything#actually correction im being vague w the manga spoilers#manga readers know whats up#idk if there are any anime only ppl who havent been spoiled on The Plottwist Ever yet#but i figured there will be new fans and though im not tagging this it might still get seen so#cant WAIT to see our boy absolutely miserable in animation form should they recreate that arc LMAOOO#which ofc is after the germany arc so thats still a long time away#but STILL. itd be fun i need to see this young teenager lose his mind in color with sound#him relying on sebastian to do all his fag duties (sorry. dredge) so he can work his way up the social ladder#trying to gain power while simultaneously proving that he cant do anything but rely on others#hes always needed help in basically every way and he hasnt CHANGED he just got a demon to do it for him#he learns to lie and charm and cheat and all the while hes a fucking CHILD WHO STILL STRUGGLES WITH NORMAL THINGS#ciel is my little baby and i love him deeply no matter how much of a little bitch he can be#his helplessness isnt just 'oh he was raised in british high society' its also that he never got the chance to learn anything#which to elaborate on that id also have to go into manga territory. iykyk#like absolutely at this point he just refuses to learn how to do things he has a pet demon to do it for him#but.#hi the phantomhives backstory is killing me again its so late#both atlantic and the school arc are just setup for the Big Arc but theyre very good in their own right i SWEAR#also when i rewatched the circus arc a while back and i realised how some scenes were shot#the heavy foreshadowing that i didnt realise. yk. 7 years ago or however long its been since i first watched it#CRAZY#if you are new. to kuroshitsuji. and you havent read the manga. dear god. read the manga#ALSO GRELLE IN THAT ARC IS SO BEAUTIFUL & OTHELLO IS TRANSMASCULINE. OKAY GOODBYE
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ppl who like making friends solely with one-note cardboard boxes who will hang out with them when it's convenient and never open up about who they are as people and what their lives are like dni
#the salt just caught up with me and now im pissed#hi welcome to what i like to call a friendly reminder that hanging out with someone just because its convenient is kind of shitty#and a less friendly reminder that talking about yourself to connect with people is an autistic trait#and an even less friendly reminder that not telling someone if theyve done you wrong and then proceeding to blow up on them is ALSO SHITTY#ESPECIALLY. WHEN. THEY THINK. YOU'RE ON GOOD TERMS. BECAUSE YOU ACTED LIKE IT AND THEY CAN'T READ YOU.#IM REALLY FUCKING MAD#I THINK I HAVE EVERY RIGHT TO BE.#the people who actually somewhat knew me and hung out with me and were on good terms with me think the same#so like BLEH MYEH :PPPPPPPPP#like okay youre entitled to your opinions but sometimes you need to keep those to yourself#did u see me insulting u to ur face#nope i have not done even once#and thats on getting better communication skills instead of lashing out at someone for trying to fit in with your own vibes#like yeah oversharing is my deal. anybody who sees me here knows that#i bond by being open with people about who i am and what i like in the hopes that theyll do the same#if u think im just around for gaming and making silly jokes u would be wrong.#but of course nobody told me people weren't there to bond like that which in my opinion shouldnt be on me#and once again i am outcasted over something honestly kind of fucking stupid#some of the jokes i made were stupid yes but thats solely because i severely misjudged the vibes#and checks notes oh yeah nobody pulled me up for it even once.#okay so let me get this straight you barely know me and have been making assumptions about me since day one#pretty much let me believe you liked me for two whole weeks instead of asking me about things or cutting me off#and im the one who gets treated like im in the wrong? okay#this miscommunication was not my fault in the slightest and i KNOW that#if you hadve just talked to me things would be fine but theyre NOT.#if you hadve just looked at my gosh darn profile and seen im the queerest fucker around making gay and homophobic type jokes maybe you woul#have had half the mind to ask me if i could stop making those jokes!!!!!!!!!#i am not transphobic!!!!!!! I AM TRANS!! I WAS MAKING A MOCKERY OF SOME TRANSPHOBIC CULTURE I HATE!!!!#i mightve vented on main ONE TIME under the guise of a silly joke but oh my god guess what?? that was an attempt to see if anybody related.#you never liked me in the first place dont lie to yourself
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Oh g-d I've been withdrawing
#gamer txt.#i keep typong up posts and tags and delstinv them withoit thinking too much about it recentlu but k never usually dp that#theyve all been needy and attention seeking and thats why i was eriting them in the first place but thats ehy i keep deleting them#because i want attention#and that scares tge hell out of me#how bad do i have to be to be this desperate for some sort of contact yet this scared of losing everyone eho moght give it to me#why am u rhis scared of people thinking im annoying ive been feleting needy posts for months thats not . like me#even when im bad im usually better than that i dont. i dont understand ahy this is different#hell i relapsed a few months ago and i couldnt bring myself to even say i cut myself again outright bc i didnt want to be bother#since when the hell have i put up the illusion of being ok on this blog why am i so comcerned#are my trust issues really that bad? am i really that worried everyone who cares about me will fold the second i inconveniene them?#g-d thats. yeah fuck no wonder my friends were insulted when i gave them a 6/10 for 'ppl i would talk to if i had issues'#that is insulting#and whats worse is that its a lie#6/10 should be over half i should tell them my problems about half of the time#i dont do it. ever#and usually thats not too bad because i unload wverything here anyways but now ive stsrted stopping kyself frkm doi g thst#i want help and attention and to stop being so svared but im too scared to ask for those#i had to drag myself out of bed to make rhis post bc if i left it till morning i wouldnt do kt#also thats why all the typos btw no glssses its dark and i stsrted crying at some point#i dont know if its just how ive been feeling lateky or if theres some truth to it but i feel like my text posts have been getting seen less#im honestly kinda really twrrified im gonna wake up and no one will have seen this post and im just gonna pretend to be ok#bevause i would i think i would really just give up#i dont know what gl do#ive never been this scaredwithout a discernable cause before#ive stsrted cryung way harder andb u dont even know why#i think i think thats more or lees everything off my chest#im gonna try to sleep
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im rewatching the no one else like me music video bc the brainworms are writhing, and it keeps randomly hitting me, over and over again, that
a) those flashbacks happened. they HAPPENED. soundwin actually DID THAT, in ACTUAL CANON?? THEY CANONICALLY ARE IN LOVE WHY DO THEY KILL ME SO MUCH
b) SOUNDWIN ARE FREAKING BOYFRIENDS NOW?????
c) NEXT EPISODE IS THE LAST EPISODE?????????
idk how the flip im supposed to survive without this silly little band every single week
surely theyll renew it for a second season
or just a soundwin spinoff pls
so many of us have asked for it I NEED IT OH MY GOSH
like. this show has killed me twelve times over. but without the show, i think i might literally cease to exist. i know ive said it a lot, but i genuinely dont know how the flip im gonna get through life without new canonical soundwin content filling my screen and brain every single friday night / saturday morning
(and literally while i was typing this out, captain posted this
HE FREAKING GETS IT BRO)
#sorry this post is a mess i just genuinely dont know what to do with myself#how the flip is it already nearly over#in the past ive been glad for time passing quickly bc IT FEELS LIKE LAST EPISODE JUST CAME OUT AND THE NEXT ONE IS IN TWO DAYS#but now i just want time to slow down please#not just cos the last three years have gone way too fast and i still feel like im five years younger than i am#and not just cos im still trying to process 2020 and its literally nearly march of 20freaking23#but also cos the show like. just started. and now its gonna be freaking OVER in THREE DAYS???#it genuinely doesnt make sense in my mind and it physically hurts to think about and i cant process it and im so scared for it to be over#this is my comfort show. comfort characters. comfort actors. comfort ship.#im never gonna feel comfort again when its gone#(thats a lie ill find a new hyperfixation and then ill be fine BUT between hyperfixations is always pure hell)#soundwin#winsound#satangwinny#winnysatang#my school president#my school president the series#no one else like me#help im not okay
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every morning I'm like wow.. birdsong and sunshine.....hm.. u know what. maybe there is hope in the world. and everything will be ok :3 and every evening I'm like I Hope A Meteorite Crashes Through My Window While I Sleep Hitting Me On The Head And Killing Me Instantly. and I switch between these multiple times throughout the day and alsosometimes they happen the other way round and theres no sense or reason or order or pattern just the labyrinth forever. yeah I'm good why do u ask
#girls will play videogames to chill out and then 10 minutes later will be hysterically crying in the bathroom brushing their teeth#i dont know whats wrong with me anymore i give up trying to figure it out. thats a lie i wish i could give up but my brain will never-#exit the ouroboros spiral of trying to figure it out bc SOMEone broke the switch for reptile brain pattern seeking activation#i dont even know how i feel right now im either fine or im going to start sobbing again#does anyone know when this ends its not fun anymore and i need to go to sleep :-(#vent post one million and one.......... im fine guys i just like to fantasise that someone i care about reads these and thinks yikes!#and doesnt even acknowledge it irl or do anything except put on performative sympathy when talking abt me to other ppl#bc theres nothing anyone can do and at its not their problem and thats ok i dont begrudge them for it ill keep ventposting forever anyway#but at least maybe a real person HAS read it. so how i feel does actually exist in a witnessable form somewhere. anyway goodnight#dont send me asks this is a VENT POST sorry and thank you okay bye#.vent
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half 11 at night gender hits different
#i have been having. a weird fucking time#lile everything i thought i knew about myself is a lie kind of weird#like ive been keeping a whole tidal wave back#keeping it ina. box i didnt even know was there most of the time#everytime it tried to get out i shoved it back in so automatically i mostly didnt realise i was doing it#bc man is it uncomfortable#but i am only left with emptiness and disconnect#and everytime i shoved it back in the box got smaller and it was harder to shove back in#and here we are now#and its baffling and it doesnt make any sense but its the only thing that feels like it makes sense and it feels right to step towards it#but im not shoving it in the box again#i could life would be much simpler if i did but id carry on watching the girl in the mirror who's never been real live it instead#and i think sooner or later the box would fucking shatter anyway#WHOO#anywayyy thats enough hyperpersonal life updating for tonight 🤣#it's a very confusing time but also exciting and I've never been more hopeful that this might actually be it#im not ready to say what i think i am yet i can barely say it to myself in plain words but I'll get there 💜#mine#gender adventures with neednoggle#maybe delete later
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I hate you tiktok, I hate you tiktok, I hate you tiktok
#'oh i have actual diagnosed ocd'#'?? you dont do -autistic trait-'?#'yeah thats a different thing'#and then the genuinely ACTUALLY fucking believe that im lying and theyre right AND THEYRE MAD AT ME ABOUT IT#'they like to lie about having ocd'#im going to obsessively and compulsively shove my foot so far up your ass#mo moans#i literally didnt tell ANYBODY for YEARS for THIS REASON#every intrusive thought joke#every time someone attributes other neurodivergency traits#every time someone says 'oh you have ocd like me because i like things tidy'#i actually can only interact with other people with ocd that have known for awhile now#and we will never discuss it#but by god will i never have to explain myself just to not be believed#or WORSE#to be believed for my Actual intrusive thoughts#ever again#rant
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JUST FINISHED MY LAST SHIF T AT MY JOB EVERRRRR MOODBOARD!!!!!!!! LOVE AND LIGHT TO EVERYBODY!!!
#SDHFDSGFCHASGFSDG1!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 I AM FREEEEE!!!!!!!! NEVER AGAIN!!!! NEVER AGAIN!!!!!!!#this is soooo crazy....worked there for a LONG time too and now NEVER AGAIN!! never thought this day would come....#actually thats a lie. i thought this day would come like three months ago im mainly surprised i didnt quit sooner. BUT STILL!!#will do everything in my power to ensure my next job is in retail rather than food service :-/ its sort of beyond my control but god i neve#r want to work in food again. i sort of think everyone in the country should do a mandatory food service employment term like how#military service is compulsory in some countries just because i think if people worked in food less people would b assholes to employees#(we can always tell if customers have worked in customer service b4) but yeah. ive DONE MY TIME!! i'm FINISHED!!!!!!#(ridi's) bigmouth strikes again
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the things that are generally wrong with the volstovic cycle are made (naturally, by virtue of the setting and pov characters) so much more egregious in shadow magic but like. kouje & mamoru are unfortunately still the only prince/retainer dynamic i’ve ever read like nothing else compares. sorry. forever.
#like again this book is really really horrible politically like i read it for the first time when i was ... 17 maybe? and definitely like#way less educated although even then i could tell that it uhm. werent great. but re-reading it im like HOLD on. this is so not it#but then there's bit from mamoru's pov on page 318: 'let me' he said and i let go immediately allowing his capable hands in place of my own#i remembered how we had stood in the same positions once though reversed. i had been the one to adjust kouje's hair#all his fine braids gone as if they'd never been there to begin with.#did the accomplishments mean anything if what one had to show for them was gone? was i still a prince if i lived in the forest#with no one to see me but the birds?#'there' said kouje stepping away once he'd finished. 'thank you' i murmured not daring enough to raise my eyes#i couldnt bear it if kouje were to decide that i'd done something unforgivable. not after everything else.#CONTRASTED WITH kouje on p 400:#there was so much of the emperor in [mamoru]. looking at him was sometimes like catching an accidental glimpse of the sun#LIKE ITS THE CORNIEST SHIT IN THE WORLD BUT I FELT IT. THAT SHIT WAS GENUINE.#like that never excuses the everything else of it all but i do think its fascinating how they write their characters thats def where their#strengths lie !!! characters and interpersonal dynamics#(like lord temur and the volstov diplomat (''diplomat'') trio anyone#?? i love that shit)#recently read
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Is underage drinking more excepted in Filipino culture? ps I’m not judging or worried (well maybe I was a little) I’m just curious.
yeah LMAO, im pretty sure every culture but america's is really lenient on letting kids drink so long as their parents are there
#snap chats#and lets face it kids in america sneak out to drink anyway#whether its cause my parents had the foresight of american culture or were just fine they let us drink whenever at home#but its also because of that that none of us really liekd drinking#ok thats a lie /i/ never really cared about drinking#again it was only something id do with my dad and it was more like a celebration adn special occasion#my brother doesnt drink at all and my sisters are like. your average young adults about drinking#so needless to say we're all fine dont worry#also i was 14/15 six years ago and CLEARLY we can see im fine. for the most part#the things wrong with me have no association with drinking <3
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#teresa.txt#dont read the tags lol im just going insane in here it has been. it has been at day so far lmfao#listen i am going thru it right now. im gonna take a shower im gonna lie down im gonna pass out while i watch a show on my phone or somethin#that lady at the tattoo parlor was. ive never wanted to punch someone in the teeth so bad than i do right now#culmination of all the events of this morning#walking to the closest doctor 30min away and feeling like rambo in the fucking jungle cus theres no sIDEWALK IN THIS FUCKING PLACE#walking back to this fucking shop thats fINALLY OPEN AFTER CLOSING WITHOUT ANY INFO OR UPDATE#THIS LADY TELLING ME I SHOULDVE CALLED AND TEXTED WHEN I IN FACT /VERY MUCH DID THAT/!!!!!!#being all short and condescending with me about iNFORMATION SHE DIDNT GIVE ME IN THE FIRST FUCKING PLACE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#talking to me like im dumb for going to see a dr instead of her whEN I FUCKING TRIED BUT THEY WERE CLOSED AND WOULDNT ANSWER THE PHONE!!!!!!#LIKE BITCH WTF DID YOU WANT ME TO DOOOOOO#YOU NEVER TOLD ME HOW LONG I WAS SUPPOSED TO KEEP THEM IN FFS LMFAO#so now i gotta wait at least a month to go back and get these piercings done all over again#but i dont know that i wanna go to that place again LMFAO i think is rather just. find someplace else#even if its a bit more pricey like. i dont wanna see her face again LMFAO#i have Not slept i am still pmsing my period is incredibly late so i know#oh i know. that its gonna kick my fucking ass#i am gross i had to walk right next to the crops under the burning sun for close to an hour total i am sweaty i am Murderous#the fucking i ternet people are assholes we have been here almost three months and they still manage to fuck us over we sTILL DONT HAVE WIFI#literally just. teresa and the no good terrible very bad week. its wednesday lmfaogjfjkshfkdjf#incredible. almost impressive#what a fucking waste of time#yeah no i cant go back to that girl i will crumble to dust
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This has a point - bear with me! I turned twenty-two a non-specified number of days ago. I was at work. My colleagues, upon learning this, got me a card and a cake and threw me a party before our DnD game. They put all this together in the span of my right hour shift; I've only worked there six months. My colleagues are some of my favourite people in the whole world.
My flatmate loves tiktok, an app I despise. But every day she saves rat videos, and then shows them to me when I get home from work/class. My other flatmate once hand-drew me wrapping paper of a hideous little cartoon man because he knew it would make me laugh.
My cousin, who’s eight, always asks everyone else if they want to play with his X-box before he does. There’s a girl in my class who always stops people on the way out to tell them she really liked the points they were making in discussions that day. Every discord server I’ve ever been in has a channel for sharing pictures of your pet. I’ve never met a person who doesn’t want to brag about their friends. I love when you make a baby laugh on the bus, so they try to make you laugh in return.
And now the point! The point is that I think people are so good. So unbelievably, fundamentally good. And I want to write people like that. Even when they’re not being actively good, there’s So Much Good inside of them. There are so many wonderful people in my life, I feel I would be doing them a disservice by not portraying just how amazing people can be.
#writing#positivity#ethics town#writeblr#podcast#and for ppl who like reading tags here's a nice story about rhys (january rhys)#the first time we met he asked me what i wanted to do#like as a job#and usually i dont tell ppl or lie bc its embarrassing but i thought 'this is such a nice boy and and ill never see him again#(lolllll) may as well tell him' so i did#and he was like 'wow thats so neat i bet youd be good at that ppl could do with that my friend does that you should talk!'#yknow bc hes adorable#anyway its like 2 1/2 months later were at a mutual friends b-day. weve spoken about like 1 work thing in the interim bc#rhys aint big on discord and i really have no need to be talking to cast most of the time and like we dont really know each well tbh#but he asks me how my thing i want to do for a job is going and for just a second i genuinely think im going to cry#ive never told ANYONE i wanna do this before. so ive never been asked about this before. and more than that this was a maybe three minute#conversation we had amidst a 50 hour w/ 3 hours of sleep weekend during which time many more interesting topics were covered#why and how tf he remembered that will always be lost on me. but i said 'yeah slow but its happening' and he said 'good i hope you do it'#and then i segued wildly before i did cry at someone elses party#anyway ppl are so great#just so so unbelievably great#there isnt really an end to that story the thing i wanna do takes a reeeeally really long time#buuuuut rhys and i are actual friends now (in case you cant tell by the Everything i say about him lol). which is nice
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hes a solid 6 but he starts yelling about zenos's arc post-stormblood to anyone who will listen
#i have mastered the art of explaining zenos 'no that death wasnt right lets try again' yae galvus#its not even thirstposting its just me going fucking feral over the character i have a hyperfixation on#so far! several online friends. my dad. my sister (twice). my stepbrother. my rls are lucky i havent seen them since before i played it#ok thats a lie i saw one of them but she didnt shut the fuck up about her new boyfriend the whole time#she never listens to me <33#btw i do literally mean yelling. the moment im allowed to talk about him i immediately get overly excited and will raise my voice.#in 2 days itll be exactly a month since i played through the end of stormblood and im so.
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i think of her when it rains or when i see beautiful dresses, or sunflowers, dogs or the colour blue, i think of her when i eat food we shared or when im watching a show i think she'd like, i think of her when i look at my hands and remember how she wouldn't ever let them go, and i wonder if she thinks of me at all
#i feel like i dont have to put as much effort into you anymore#im sorry#im sick of having the same conversation again and again#how do you tell someone and act like thats a good thing#how do you tell someone you only loved them in the way you did because you were scared theyd leave otherwise#how do you lie to someone again and again and wonder why they never want to hear the words ever again
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