He hates to be looked at while he cries... the least I can do is to be there.
Things I want to say:
1_ I cut my hair and changed the style. I'm still trying to figure out how to draw myself again.
2_ I had a lot of trouble with the colors of this crap- but I'm tired of it, so, I'll just let it be.
3_ I'm traveling rn, so I haven't had a chance to draw... not as much as I'd like to.
4_ I wasn't going to post it 'cause I kinda hate how it turned out, but it's been a while since my last post, so I felt like I had to post something... and since I'm traveling I knew I wouldn't be able to do another drawing at least until next week...
It's crazy how Furina came out at the perfect time for me.
It's been 2 monthes since my social insecurities have skyrocketed, fearing I'll lose every friend I have. That I've been eating mostly Buldac noodles. That I'm isolating myself and letting my place rot because I'm sad.
During 4.0 and 4.1, it was obvious she had her insecurities, but I looked up to her because she always showed her bright side. Told myself she was incredible for that and I should do the same.
And then 4.2 came out and it's been soul crushing. Furina went from a model to a lost person that I can relate with a bit too well. But seeing her healing in game and in fanart heals me a little too.
Obviously she has a real trauma and is way better than me because, well, she's fictional, and I must be projecting. But I feel like saying theses thoughts, if not to someone irl, to the void that is the internet at least.
today marked a decade since I tried to end my life. and over these last ten years, I wouldn’t say things have gotten any better. in fact, if anything, they’ve gotten worse. however. I’ve learned and I’ve grown and I’ve gotten stronger. there’s been lessons and pains, but on the opposite side of that, there’s been experience and joys. and at the end of the day, I guess life is just learning to live with both. and although I’ve got a long way to go, I’m glad I survived, and I’m glad that I have the opportunity to begin again with each day that passes.
Can someone just write about Will going near catatonic after Mason carves up Margo and attempting to kill himself and Hannibal finding him? Because srsly, Will just lost a CHILD.
Or not even attempting suicide, but confronting/breaking down in front of Hannibal or moving away or something. I am seriously dying for AUs where Will doesn't confront Mason, but instead reaches his breaking point and turns inward. Please tell me I'm not the only one.
I see a lot of you talking about gay cannibal romance. But what about gay cannibal lizard romance? Humans can't cannibalize each other that much, however, lizards can beacause they are able to regrow their tails. Their relationship would last longer.
I have a knack for doing extremely specific charades that also happen to be inappropriate gesturing. For example today when i pretended to play trombone and it looked like i was give a two foot long cock a blowjob and also when i pretended to churn butter and it looked like i was giving that same two foot cock a handy. Cough. Both of these were in front of like 10 people i am not all that close to. Theres more examples but god i cant think of them as easily as those two. Infamous. I cant live the butter one down