#so im not saying my gifs deserve thousands of notes | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

love-strawberry · 2 years

Text

3am talks cause i love you

summary : in which she's an amazing mcu actress and he's her biggest fan ever.

pairing : sebastian stan x reader

warnings : language

author's note : okayyy so a vERY HUGE THANKS TO @ateliefloresdaprimavera for giving me SO many ideas to form all this on, i love you angel <3 and evanora is y/n's character in the mcu and she's bucky's love interest and she dies in black widow okay? okay. and yeah, you'll find pieces of plot in the comments thank youuuuu

tagged : @mrsben-barnes @ateliefloresdaprimavera @0oolookitsme @slut4benbarnes @ellora-brekker

masterlist

navigation

----------

liked by imsebastianstan, tchalamet, taylorswift and 4,724,917 others

y/n_ 1 week left till black widow is out everywhere!! this is so exciting!! i can't wait for you all to see this <33

tagged marvel florencepugh scarjo

94,528 comments

username OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG

username IM HYPERVENTILATING

username can't wait for y/n, scarlet and florence to kick ass on screen

tchalamet i better be getting free tickets

zendaya that's my wifey 🛐

florencepugh i say that's my beautiful baby and im so proud of her <3

username omg the trailer was so fucking good, like the fighting sequences? the acting? and y/n's iconic dialogues with yelena?? amazing!!

imsebastianstan YES YES YES YES YES YES YES YES

-> y/n_ wow ok, calm down before you pull something

username i sleep soundly at night knowing sebastian is one of us and he'd definitely sneak is bts content

username sebastian being her hypeman

username omg we're finally gonna see the widow sisters on the screen

username im not prepared for the amount of sadness im gonna feel after watching it cause endgame exists

scarjo love you bbg <3

username no thoughts just scarlet, florence and y/n being besties

username black widow deserved a trilogy

username marvel imma come for you if you hurt my babies

----------

liked by y/n_, scarjo, florencepugh and 4,825,529 others

imsebastianstan after watching the movie, the only i can say is you're not ready for it. y/n_ i have watched you go through this movie with determination and passion with a bit of fangirl-ness for scarlet but i couldn't be more proud of you. it doesn't matter to me that you called me up at 3am just to talk about evanora and bucky's relationship because i loved those talks. and i love you <3

102,628 comments

username im crying

username this is all very sweet but should i scared of watching the movie?

username WTF WTF WTF WTF I WATCHED IT AND WHAT? HUH? HOW?

username IM SOBBING EVANORA-

y/n_ i was already crying and now you made me cry some more :( but i love you and i am so thankful that it was you who endured my 3am rants

-> imsebastianstan and i'd do it a thousand times again <3

username the biggest plot twist was bucky in the 2 end credits scene

username "it's okay, yelena, really. you'll have that big apartment right in the middle of new york city and you'll live your best life. i'd be around to make sure of it" my heart </3

username they killed evanora off and for what? to make natasha suffer more? to make yelena blame make herself for not reaching her in time? to make bucky keep repeating the last words she said to him? what the actual fuck marvel

florencepugh you're too cute, makes me sick to my stomach but in a good way

chrisevans wow, someone PLEASE find me a lover

username both natasha and evanora had yelena on their mind before dying and that fact will keep me up at night

scarjo sweet caption. now come and pick us up please

username but y/n's acting was sooo good in this?? and florence and scarlet had ASTOUNDING chemistry with her like this movie is a masterpiece

username this movie broke me

----------

liked by zendaya, tomholland2013, scarjo and 4,925,196 others

y/n_ after more than a year of filming, we're finally here!! i can't believe that this is over, i had so so so much fun filming black widow. filming with scarlet and florence who are not only my sisters onscreen, they're my sisters irl too. i loved every second of it and i hope you do too!! thank you soooo much for giving this movie this much love!! i love you and thank you <3

tagged scarjo florencepugh marvel

104,915 comments

username I LOVE THEIR DYNAMIC YOUR HONOUR

username when natasha said "it looked like you looked up to me but actually i was looking up to you, you're my everything, you and yelena" my soul left my body no kidding

username i thought yelena visiting natasha's grave was sad enough but marvel said fuck you and slapped me with yelena visiting evanora's grave and yelena telling bucky the news

imsebastianstan so so so so proud of you and how far you've come!! you deserve all this and more

-> y/n_ i couldn't thank you enough for supporting me, i love you!! thank you for celebrating my highs and supporting me during my lows <3

username the whISTLE-

username how can i sleep at night knowing that yelena and evanora won't live together in their apartment in nyc? that bucky and evanora won't get that 'picture perfect ending that we deserve with sam' anymore? that natasha died knowing that it should have been her instead of her sister? that peter won't EVER get to tell nora about mj? huh?

florencepugh you're my muse, and i admire you so much!! keeping shining like this baby, your deserve it. i love you ❣️

scarjo i love you SOOO much darling!! filming this movie with you has been an absolute pleasure!! 🤍🤍

username bucky's small but heartbreaking "she told me that she'd be seeing me soon"

username "i thought it was just a small mission. i-i-i don't get it, i thought- what? how?"

username bucky :(

username when you realise that evanora getting yelena that apartment in nyc was her way of saying goodbye because she had a feeling that she wouldn't make it so she wanted to make sure that yelena and natasha would be okay

anthonymackie i. am. heartbroken.

----------

liked by y/n_, chrisevans, tomholland2013 and 4,173,658 others

imsebastianstan meet bucky yarns, mine and y/n's son <3

tagged y/n_

99,528 comments

username omg

username that cat is the definition of perfect

username i want

chrisevans wow, betraying dodger

username his eyes are so beautiful

y/n_ give me back my son

-> imsebastianstan you've had him since morning

-> y/n_ and? your point being?

username now i wanna adopt a pet

florencepugh coming over asap

-> scarjo ditto

username bucky has my heart

username i have only had bucky yarns for 1 hour 19 minutes but if anything happened to him, i would kill everyone in this room and myself

username AWWWW

username i bet he loves y/n more

username 🤍🤍🤍

username the icon

username the legend

username the moment

zendaya wow you two are dorks but mY GODSON IS SO CUTE AWW

----------

liked by robertdowneyjr, chrisevans, scarjo and 4,925,528 others

y/n_ no thoughts just my boyfriend being beautiful and ethereal and pretty and handsome and sexy and hot and cute and adorable and every other adjective

tagged imsebastianstan

username awww y/n's nana fixing his bowtie

username i want him to look at me like THAT™

username 🛐

imsebastianstan stop im blushing

-> y/n_ that was literally the point??

username i want this relationship so so so so so so fucking badddd

username y can't i have this? huh? why?

tchalamet 💦 sexy seabass

username anthony is rubbing off timothee you can Tell

username i don't have to know, i just Know that he's looking at y/n like that

username imagine him at their wedding omg

florencepugh post more photos of yourself. pls. i hate looking at this dingbat

-> imsebastianstan wow- fuck you

username drooling

username y/n won at life

username their relationship>>>

chrisevans sebastian, make that look more holy

username chris oml-

username 🤰

----------

283 notes · View notes

crowning-art · 1 year

Text

TGCF SPOILERS FINALE!

Me and 10 cuties who have been keeping up with my crazy TGCF journey after i finally finished it 2 years later lmaoo

*Note that clown in the center is me and everyone knows why after seeing my wonderful, beautiful, RIDICULOUS AND OUTLANDISH theories throughout the read lmaoo

Without further ado...the finale!!

-------------------------------------------------------

Goushi really swooped in during the LAST TWO SECONDS of this huge novel and really just stole everyone's heart, huh? I love this dude

In the last second, a hand caught Feng Xin’s boot, and Feng Xin caught Mu Qing’s boot. When he looked up, he cried, “WHAT THE FUCK!!! WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK!!! GUOSHI OLD SIR, PLEASE DON’T EVER LET GO, ALRIGHT!!!”

YOOO FENG XIN ACCEPTED HIS CHILD OH MY GODDD DJJDJDJDJF T-T THE CHARACTER GROWTH

THE WAY THE TABLES HAVE TURNED AHHHHH its now Xie Lian who has Jun Wu pinned and nailed down to the ground with a sword djdjdjjdjjd low key, Xie Lian really needed to do that....yknow....therapeutically lol

I love this so much cuz ya, at the end of the day, it's tiring, it's exhausting keeping up a facade and forcing yourself to be someone who u know really isn't you and I feel Jun Wu despite all he's done was very heavily a product of his situation.

“I just genuinely really miss Your Highness,” Guoshi said. “I miss the once-Kingdom of Wuyong,

I miss our people, and I miss the days before we ascended. That’s all.”

“…”

Guoshi then added, “It’s been so many years, Your Highness. Just watching you makes me tired. Very tired. How about you? Are you not exhausted?”

And yes, I get that there was still a bit of inherit evil within him which got amplified thanks to the wuyong problems but like at the end of the day, he's just a sad little meow meow

AND THEN

“…Have I been defeated?” Jun Wu sounded a little lost.

After a moment of silence, Xie Lian took off the bamboo hat carried on his back, took it in his hand, and covered it over Jun Wu’s face.

DJDIFNIFJFJFJFJ DO I EVEN HAVE TO SAY IT AGAIN??? HJDHDHFHFHF U KNOW WHAT IM GONNA SAY AND UGH ITS ALWAYS BACK TO THE ✨️THEMES OF KINDNESS AND LOVE✨️ BRB gonna cry some more AGAIN

Ahh I remember pointing this out a while back but Hua Cheng was always the ONLY one who really helped ground Xie Lian when he was lost and confused. Like the split emotions he kept feeling of not knowing whether to laugh or cry, all gone even when he's told the craziest news yet, aka Wu Ming identity

All of a sudden, thousands of emotions, millions of words swarmed into his head. There was gratefulness, there was shame, there was heartache, there was wild joy, but above all else, there was incurable love.

Lol u guys don't even get it, there were so many parts that were my fave here and I was trying my best to not post the whole chapter here cuz i loved EVERY part, the way Xie Lian leaped into Hua Chengs arm at the end, the cute Xianle trio bickering, just everything T-T

WTF U MEAN LIL BREAK I DO NOT NEED THIS RN PLZ DONT OH MY GODOHMYGODOHMYGOS HUA CHENG DONT U DARE DIE OH MYGOD

All of this:

Hua Cheng’s long and slender fingers gently combed through Xie Lian’s mussed hair. “Then, Your Highness, do you know why I refuse to leave this world?”

Xie Lian couldn’t understand why Hua Cheng could still be so calm at a time like this, as he was panicking so hard he was trembling. But, while feeling lost, he still simple-mindedly asked,

“Why?”

Hua Cheng replied quietly, “Because I have a beloved who is still in this world.”

Hua Cheng said quietly, “Your Highness, I understand your everything.

“Your courage, your despair; your kindness, your pain; your resentment, your hate; your intelligence, your foolishness.

“If I could, I would have you use me as your stepping stone, the bridge you take apart after crossing, the corpse bones you need to trample to climb up, the sinner who deserved the butchering of a million knives. But, I know you wouldn’t allow it.”

They really did invent love, I can't think of anything else to say to this 😭

HIS EXPRESSION MY HEART CRACKED INTO A MILLION PIECES AT THIS WHOLE SCENE BUT ESPECIALLY AT THIS LINE

Hua Cheng’s gaze was gentle and blazing, that remaining eye filled with love, and it gazed at him silently.

He's gonna be back for sure. The red string and the ashes are still there....but it's still soooo saaad

LMAOOO the heavenly officials became homeless fr I'm dying lmaoooo

ROUYE IS BACK YESSSS!!! AND UGHH XIANLE TRIO!! IM SO HAPPY THEY R TOGETHER AGAIN!! I MISSED THIER SHENANIGENS SO MUCH

Xie Lian rummaged around his sleeve and fumbled out a white silk band that was torn in half, and said joyously, “Yeah, finally, the material to fix Ruoye is found! I’ll go patch it up right now!”

However, Feng Xin stopped him. “Patch it up? You?! Forget it, what can you patch? Ask someone else to help you.” Then he turned his head and shouted, “MU QING! COME GET TO WORK!”

Pei Su and Banyue were really an underrated duo this whole book, especially with the way they guarded Ke Mo and the other ghosts lol

Pei Su and Banyue were sitting at the entrance, both of their expressions blank.

Feng Xin divorce arc lmaooo Finally it came to an end...and in a really nice and mature way. I really appreciated the way MXTX wrote Jian Lan's whole character, like she also grew as a person and is def underappreciated

However, Jian Lan withdrew her smile. “What you’ve said are all things of the past. What was love once doesn’t mean it’ll last. I’m not interested in being a charity case and a nuisance.”

And Xuan Ji! Everyone really grew up huh? (*sobbing incontrollably*)

Still don't like Pei Ming smh overgrown man child fr U go Yushi Huang for showing him whose boss!!

GUZIIII MY HEART NOOOOO I really respect LQQ for doing this

so I could only…gather a bit of the soul particles of the Green Ghost and keep them in a lamp. Now he shows up in front of me every day hugging that lamp, asking when the soul within the lamp will grow bigger! I really…”

And Guzi! Fret not! Qi Rong will be back cuz his ashes aren't destroyed!!

THE PEARLS ARE BASICALLY A GIFT FROM THE INLAWS THAT HUA CHENG HAS NOW DJJDJDJDJDJDJFJDJD

A moment later, Xie Lian nodded slowly. “It’s mine. It’s a pair of pearls my father and mother gave me when I was young.”

Lol Ling Wen's punishment thooo and the subtle hint that Ling Wen may have acc cared for the dude despite everything kinda warms my heart

Ling Wen gave a small laugh. “Your Highness, don’t say it like I would do anything for him. After all, I’m cold-blooded and recognize no loved ones, so why would I do anything like that?”

“Is that right?”

“Let it be.

I love love love the way the passage of time was described here God I don't know how to explain it but I love it

People came like the tide, then left like the tide. Mount Taicang regained its deserted lonesomeness.

Atop Mount Taicang, there used to be an enormous field of maple trees. They were all burnt down by that massive fire, but reborn after a thousand years. They were no longer the same ones Xie Lian leapt through to train once upon a time, but the landscape was the same.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASAASASSMXKXKXJXNCJXNX AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

With three thousand Blessings Lanterns rising along with the night behind him, that man turned back and gazed at him. Robes redder than maple, skin as white as snow; between the brows of a face so handsome it couldn’t be stared at, there was still that wildness and a feral aura, a proudness that couldn’t be cut down.

There were no words. Both started walking towards the other.

A step, another step, each step faster than the next, then finally, they started running.

He ran forward whilst tears fell and stayed behind him. Xie Lian voiced this in his heart: he believed.

He believed that this man would die for him again and again, and would be reborn for him over and over. Even if he fell into the depths of hell, he would break through the abyss for his “belief”.

Last time, they spent eight hundred years running towards each other.

This time, it only took an instant to fall into each other’s embrace.

DID I CRY HERE? U BET YOUR FUNKY LIL BEAN I DID And u don't get get AGUHH it took 1000 pages for them to get to where they were AND ONLY ONE PAGE TO MEET AGAIN THE ABSOLUTE POETIC METAPHOR HAS ME LOSING MY MIND u have to read through 244 chaps to see them trying to get to each other and when they finally do..it takes less than a page for them to reunite again I AM CRYING RN

The grand final banquet in Puqi shrine, with windmaster and the fellow beggars, he xuan secretly eating with them, fengqing arguing and bantering (flirting basically -_-), heaven's eye, hualian, the heavenly officials dropping by, just everyone finally living a happy life

What a story! Like what a story! Unbelievable!

This is how it started and this is how it ended

However, if people worship the divine statues of this one god and one ghost together, then there will be a miracle

Cuz their whole story is a miracle but that's the point! U can't give up! Xie Lian's story IS inspirational despite being fictional! Believing in your principles and doing the right thing, showing kindness no matter the circumstance, and growing from adversities, honestly I had so much to say but I read the post script and lmao MXTX said EVERYTHING I wanted to say!

-------------------

I'm always the kind to finish books within a day or two but I really didn't want this one to end (hence two years to read it) but God the whole experience was so incredible and tbh, I started documenting my thoughts for myself just so I can reread them later and laugh lmao but then a bunch of you guys kept up with it and it genuinely became such an exciting thing to look forward to after reading as well!!

Special shout out to @silvia-moon and @maause who were there from the beginning!! I loved every comment of yours and had a blast reading them every time 🥰

Ahhhh IM GETTING SO EMOTIONAL LIKE THIS LONG WINDING JOURNEY HAS FINALLY COME TO AN END 😭 (borderline tearing up while writing this post) but alas! Every banquet must come to an end (haha see what I did there? Hahaha....😭😭😭)

And of course there are the extras! But those shall be read some other day! In the meantime, I'm so so excited to get to drawing all my fave scenes!! I can't wait to get to that!

Until then,

Farewell 😊

26 notes · View notes

kybervisions · 3 years

Text

for a moment [robb]¹

summary: the king in the north interrupts the martells as they have dinner with hopes of forming an alliance with dorne and falls in love while navigating southern politics before returning to war.

author’s note: [ᵖᵃʳᵗ ²] i’ve been compulsively rewatching game of thrones and need to write something for my boo plus dorne deserves some love so yeah lmk if y’all like this im losing the ability to produce serotonin ,, requests are open :)

tags: description of reader (vague dornish features), westerosi politics,

Traveling to Dorne while in the middle of a war was not easy for Robb. It was his mother that suggested he seek aid from Prince Doran Martell. When the Lannisters defeated Stannis at Blackwater with support from House Tyrell, Robb acknowledged he needed to make alliances with other Great Houses. So, he sailed for Sunspear.

"You must forgive us, we started without you,” Prince Doran says lightly.

The first thing Robb notices of the aging prince was the wheeled chair he sits in. His mind goes to Bran, which fills his heart with sadness. Robb misses his brothers and longed to return home, with his sisters.

“Prince Doran,” Robb bows.

“Your Grace,” Doran smiles as a servant pours wine into his cup. The Martells were having dinner. “Please, take a seat,” Doran invites Robb.

“What are you doing in Dorne, Your Grace?” Robb takes a spare seat and turns to the source of the question — a breathtaking Dornish beauty, with hair black as death and skin kissed by the sun. He’s instantly drawn to your entrancing catlike obsidian eyes. “Your Grace?” You call.

“Patience, little viper,” Prince Oberyn speaks, smiling. “Let the boy admire your beauty,” You roll your eyes. "Then he can tell us why he has illegally entered our country in the middle of the night,”

“Well, I can think of two reasons,” Your Dornish drawl is heavy and alluring. Robb could listen to you speak for hours. The smirk on your lips is somehow both playful and terrifying. "A terribly-planned assassination attempt or treaty talks,”

“Apologies, Princes, Princesses,” Robb clears his throat. “But we could not trust a raven or envoy to deliver our proposal,”

“Proposal of sending thousands of Dornishmen to die in your war?” The fire in your voice reveals the love you have for your country. “Well, you certainly have our attention,” You drink your wine, eyeing him.

“Each raven that comes north tells us about your victory against Tywin Lannister,” Oberyn comments.

“You’ve proven yourself to be a gifted commander,” Prince Doran praises him.

Robb scans the faces in the room; the Martells favor a Stark victory, that much is obvious. So, half of his mission is complete, the easiest part. Robb would have to play the game carefully to ensure support in his southern campaign.

“But, battles do not win wars,” You interject. Doran smiles. “So, you’ve come to us,” You grin and lean closer to him. “In hopes that your enemy is also our enemy,” You smile is bright and enthusiastic; it reaches your big dark eyes, and Robb knows he wants to see it again, everyday for the rest of his days. “Smart boy,” Your tone softens and eyes focus on him. A grin threatens to break his face.

“He is not a boy,” Theon’s voice sounds angry, insulted at the princess’s diction. Robb doesn’t turn to look at his oldest friend; he can’t tear his eyes away from you. “His Grace is Robb of House Stark, King in the North,”

“We know who he is, boy,” Princess Arianne bites at Theon with a smile on her lips. “And we are honored to host His Grace,” She bows her head.

"And we thank you. We understand how dangerous it is for you to meet us—”

“And yet you still came,” Oberyn interrupts.

“There are few Houses in Westeros that have suffered at the hands of Lions,” Robb says, choosing his words carefully. Even his tone could help determine the future of his people. “When Joffrey was crowned king, Dorne did not bend the knee,” In fact, Dorne pledged complete neutrality in the War of the Five Kings. “Why?”

“Why do you think, Your Grace?” Prince Doran smiles softly.

“I can only presume that you understand how dangerous it is for a thing like Joffrey to sit on the throne,” Robb hopes that the Martell’s passion for dead Lannisters extends to committing treason against the Crown.

“Oou, a thing,” Arianne chuckles. “Much nicer than what you called it, sweet cousin,” The princess smiles at you. “What was it again?” She asks.

“Enough. There is no need for such language while we eat,” Doran prevents you from revealing your name for Joffrey. It is clear he has grown frustrated. “His Grace and his party must be tired. Aero, escort them to their rooms,” The prince orders his personal guard. “I will have hot meals delivered to you,” He smiles.

“I hope you slept well, Your Grace,” You link your arm with Robb’s as you stroll through the gardens. Robb chuckles at your confidant move. A woman of action. “Was the heat an issue?” You slightly turn to face Robb. He can feel your wandering eyes on his lips, and from the corner of his eye, Robb can see your tongue sweep over your lips. It was a small quick flick of your tongue but cemented your interest in him.

“It was,” Robb smiled. “But once I got all those furs off, I felt the ocean winds,”

You hault. “Hm, yes I found that sleeping naked is the only way to sleep in this heat,” You turn your body, and Robb moves to face you. You close the space between you and him. He swallows hard. You grab his arm and your fingers graze the sleeve of the coat.

“Thankfully, it won’t this heat won’t last,” He smiles.

“Oh, right, ‘winter is coming’,” You mimic his northern accent and wink at him.

He laughs. Your smile makes him feel warm.

“You are so pretty, my princess,” Robb hears a boy’s voice not too far away. “And you are going to be my wife,” The boy laughs.

“You’re going to be my husband,” A girl says.

Robb looks at you, curious about the voices. So, you grab his hand and drag him through the intricate garden, turn after turn, until you reach the boy and girl. You release Robb’s hand before approaching the pair.

“Trystane,” You say happily. “I thought you were at the Water Gardens,”

“Myrcella likes the Old Palace,” Trystane tells you.

Robb looks at the gold-haired princess. Myrcella Baratheon. No. Myrcella Waters. Her brother killed his father. Her father, her true father, shoved his brother out a window. Her mother holds his sisters hostage.

“Who is your friend?” Myrcella takes Trystane’s hand and stands beside him.

“Ah, a northern bastard,” You lie to the princess. Robb furrows his brows, confused as to why you would lie. “Jory Snow,” He cracks a smile.

“What are you doing so far from home, Ser?” Myrcella asks kindly. Trystane holds Myrcella close, his fingers playing with her hand.

“The war has displaced a great many people,” You tell the princess. The warm smile on Myrcella’s lips slowly fades.

“My deepest sympathy,” Myrcella says. “I hope your country can find peace,”

“And what do you think peace would look like?” Robb asks.

“Well, Y/N tells me the North wants to be free,” The little princess looks to you, and you smile at you. “With what my brother has done...I think they deserve it,”

“Your grandfather thinks otherwise,” You tell the princess. “Fighting a war against the Young Wolf,” Your eyes lock with Robb’s ocean eyes.

“Wars are pointless,” Myrcella states, rolling her eyes. “People suffer and die because a few lords can’t act civil,”

“Not all lords are civil, princess,” You warn her. “Do you think your brother is good and chivalrous?” You ask.

Myrcella lowers her head, “No,”

“Enough politics, please,” Trystane begs his cousin. You smile at the boy. “I have an idea! Let’s leave,” He tells Myrcella. You laugh loudly at your cousin’s annoyance of you. “Y/N, leave us alone,” Trystane says, walking away with Myrcella in hand.

“She is marrying your cousin?” Robb asks you. You nod in confirmation. “So my visit to Dorne trivial,” If Myrcella is to marry Doran’s son, Dorne has secured an alliance with the Lannisters.

“No, your visit has not been trivial, Your Grace,” He wants to hear you say his name, not his title. “Your visit has been a gift,” He feels your soft hand take his. He’s never felt such warmth, and then he thinks of hugging you, holding you in some intimate way. “But I need to know if I can trust you,” Your soft hand cups his face. He hitches his breath and holds it — holding a gaze with your pleading, night-dark eyes.

“No, your visit has not been trivial, Your Grace,” You assure him. “Your visit has been a gift,” You take his hand in yours, desperate to touch him, any part of him. “But I need to know if I can trust you,” You cup his face, feeling his facial hair softly brush against your palm. You gaze into his gorgeous ocean eyes.

“And how can I trust you?” Robb asks.

You pull your arm away, and you see the faintest sign of disappointment in Robb’s face.

“What do you want to do with Myrcella?” You ask him. Despite your attraction to Robb, you cannot ruin your uncle’s decades-long plot for revenge. Your loyalty will forever be with your family, but if Robb’s heart is true, then perhaps Dorne can offer assistance.

“What?”

“Would you kill her? Her entire family is responsible for all the terrible things that have happened to you and your country,” You tell him. “Or would you take her away and bargain her life in exchange for your sisters? What would you do?” You demand an answer.

“Nothing,” Robb answers bluntly. “She’s a child. Children shouldn’t be punished for the sins of their father, or mother,”

“Or grandfather,” You say.

He smiles, “Or grandfather,”

The mood turns sour as reality sets in. Robb clears his throat and his face hardens. “My mother released the Kingslayer,” He confesses. You sigh. “She hopes the Queen regent will trade my sisters for her lover,” Him telling you this only makes the war real.

“She won’t,” You tell him, speaking to him plainly. “Having your sisters gives them power, an advantage in the game,” You explain. “Do you know what Tywin Lannister had the Mountain do to my aunt and her children?” You ask him. He shook his head, a stern look on his face. You sigh and touch his face again, cupping his cheek. “You —

“Princess!” Aeros shouts from not too far. You quickly move away from Robb. Aeros approaches you. “Your dancing master is waiting,”

While waiting for Prince Doran to call for him (or for you to drag him away elsewhere), Robb strolls throughout the palace. He’s never been good at waiting. Even in battle, Robb had never felt so worried. He certainly felt more confident with a sword in his hand. Westeros is at war, yet there are regions in the continent where there is calm.

“Robb!” Theon whispers. He stops and turns his head to see his friend waving at him. "Where have you been?” Theon asks, walking towards him.

“With the princess,” Robb answers honestly.

Theon smiles, “Well, look at you,” He chuckles. “Taking after your namesake after all,”

“None of that,” Robb shakes his head. It is true King Robert was a far better whoremonger than king. Robb could never be like that, and he’d never disrespect you in such a way. “And where have you been?” Robb asks Theon.

“Princess Arianne took me to the bazaar,” Theon says. “With a tour of the docks,” There was a hint of excitement in Theon’s voice. “Dorne has 100 ships ready to sail,” He whispers with a smile. “With a hundred more almost done,”

“You saw them?”

“I saw fifty ships near the bazaar, and Arianne tells me more wait along the coast. They’re ready to fight,”

“They plan to marry Princes Trystane to Princess Myrcella,” Robb informs Theon. “I saw the two in the gardens,” He says. “They seemed in love,”

“They’ve secured an alliance with the Lannisters?” Theon questions.

“Afraid we’ll inform the queen about your visit?” Your voice booms through the halls of the palace. Robb looks to you. He admires the attire that elegantly draped your body — a pale-orange dress with motifs of deep orange suns with a matching cape of silk cladded on your right shoulder . There is a playful smile on your lips, easing Robb’s nerves. “Have no fear, sweet boys,” You say, approaching Robb and Theon.

“Good news?” Robb hopes.

“My uncle wishes to speak with you,” You inform him. You extend your arm and wait for Robb to take it, “I’ll take you to him,” You smile. Robb takes your hand in his and feels a thrilling rush. You sprint away from Theon, farther into the palace.

Doran sits overlooking the gardens, with the sun slowly disappearing from the sky.

“My niece is a bright girl,” Doran speaks. His back is to Robb and yourself. “I trust her with my life,” The prince tells Robb. “With the lives our people,” He asserts his confidence in you. Feeling you pull away from him, Robb squeezes your hand in hopes you’ll stay. “What could you give us in return for our support?”

“Our enemies are the same, my prince,” Robb says. “Help me defeat the Lannisters, get revenge for our families, and you can have the Reach,” He promises, looking into your eyes, two pools of black ink. “Fight alongside me and you’ll have the most fertile land in Westeros,”

“You have proven yourself a capable commander,” The prince compliments Robb. "I will give you forty thousand men,” Doran pledges. “I trust you will put them to good use,”

“You have taken the Crag?” You ask Robb, who nods in return. “We’ll make the Westerlands rain with the blood of lions,” You say with fire in your eyes.

“My niece will command the southern front, twenty-thousand Dornishmen to protect our border, and then she’ll march north,” Prince Doran demands. You pull away from Robb and walk closer to your uncle, resting your arm on the back post of his chair.

“My niece will command the southern front, twenty-thousand Dornishmen to protect our border, and then she’ll march north,” Doran reveals to Robb. You let go of Robb’s hand and approach Doran’s chair. You smile and reach for your uncles hand, happy that you convinced him to help Robb.

If the Lannisters are beaten, and Robb helps you take the Reach, then when the Targaryens arrive to Westeros, Dorne will be able to supply their army with good crop. The downfall of Tywin Lannister will come one day, and you have faith Robb will continue to be victorious in battle.

“You honor me, my prince,” Robb says. “I thank you,” You can feel his eyes roaming your body. Your face feels hot, as it always does when you’re so close to Robb. You need to have him. A powerful commander with a pretty and youthful face — a king that entered your country asking for aid in a war that is hundreds of leagues away.

You want to feel his arms wrapped around you and feel his beard between your legs, but accept that your lustful desires are second to getting vengeance for the blood Tywin and his beast split.

“Gather your party, Your Grace,” Doran says. “Fifty ships will be ready to sail you back to the Crag when the moon is out,” He adds. Your uncle refrains from pledging Dorne’s entire military, which is sixty thousand strong with almost two hundred ships ready for battle. “Better hurry,”

“My prince, princess,” You hear Robb walk away, his footsteps echoing on the tiles of the Old Palace.

“It is difficult to see you leave, Your Grace,” You admit to Robb. He turns and sees you standing at the doorway. You grin and sprint towards him on the balcony overlooking the sea.

“You don’t have to call me that,” He tells you as you reach him. “I’m King in the North,” He reminds you. “We aren’t in the north,” Robb smiles walking towards you.

“It is out of respect,” You bow. “Robb Stark, the Young Wolf,” You say dramatically, and he finds your accent charming. “Wouldn’t want you to eat me,” You smile. He smiles. He’s never met quite a woman like you.

You look stunning in this last moments he has with you under the stars. He so desperately wants to kiss your lips, just once. “I will miss you,” You whisper, he takes steps closer to you.

“We will be together again soon, I promise,” He cups your face, holding you gently in his hand. You look at him with soft and loving eyes, like a kitten. “My kitten,”

For a moment, Robb wasn’t a king at war. He wasn’t the King in the North fighting the Lannisters. He wasn’t worried about rescuing his sisters from the lion’s mouth; because for a moment, Robb was a foolish boy in love with a princess.

#robb stark x reader #robb stark one shot #richard madden x reader #robb stark x you #game of thrones fic

325 notes · View notes

charincharge · 2 years

Note

i was watching reputation stadium tour and i have to ask, can you rank all the songs in reputation, best to worse??? im so curious ☺️

the WHEW OKAY. Here’s my disclaimer -- I LOVE reputation. Like... so so so much. So even the songs that are ranked at the bottom are still higher than SO many other Taylor songs. And honestly, my taste is subjective so really this is more of a list of favorites/least favorites. But. Here we go. I’m gonna go worst to best, though. To build up suspense 😂 Here we go.

15. So It Goes -- there’s a reason this song was the only rep song she didn’t perform on tour and it’s not because it was “too sexy” -- it’s frankly, a little boring.

14. Gorgeous -- it’s fine, I guess, but it’s usually a skip for me

13. This Is Why We Can’t Have Nice Things -- a BOP to be sure, and I enjoy singing it at the top of my lungs, but the “I can’t even say it with a straight face” makes me cringe ever so slightly still

12. New Years Day - I am shocked to have this song so low in the rankings because last year it was my number one most played song lol. But, I think it’s just pretty. It does read a bit like a diary entry in a more youthful Taylor way that I love.

11. ...Ready For It - I am fairly certain she wrote this song just so she could open her tour with “BABY LET THE GAMES BEGIN” -- because as we all know, Tay LOVES a game. The rap reallllly took me out the first time I listened to it. Like, I could not understand who this Taylor was and what she was doing. It took me about 10000 listens of this song to even come around to it, which is why it’s still at the bottom. But I adore it now and it lives in my heart with love.

10. King of My Heart - As the song says, “perfectly fine.” That’s pretty much how I feel about it lol. Love the drums and the BRDIGE (that bridgeeee!) but the verses drag it down. There, I said it.

9. I Did Something Bad - Listen, I LOVE this song. But when it stacks up in the rankings, this is where it falls. The tour version is far superior to the album version and it gave us incredible quotes like - If a man talks shit then I owe him nothing - which, truly, is my mantra. But ultimately, too petty to be top fav.

8. Delicate - an instant classic, solidly in the middle.

7. Look What You Made Me Do - this song gets SO much more shit than it deserves. It is WILD, it is BOLD, it is everything I wanted from Taylor. She put on a new skin and said, this is who I am and you can’t get rid of me. Plus, that music video is a literal masterpiece stacked with THOUSANDS of easter eggs, I don’t know that she can ever top it.

6. End Game - I am a Sweeran stan through and through (I know people hate him but I do not careeeee), and the first time I listened to this I was like WHAT IS THIS but also I LOVE IT. Taylor put on her rapping shoes and she was TERRIBLE at it, but I enjoyed it thoroughly.

5. Call It What You Want - “all my flowers grew back as thorns” just really spoke to me at the time this album was released, the idea of recovering from trauma is wrapped up in this beautiful song, and I wish it got more love!

4. Dress - if I was asked what the thesis of reputation was, i’d answer “DRESS” -- it’s all about this beautiful love story unfolding in secret, having to hold back because it’s forbidden and forced to put on a different more socially acceptable veneer for the public, it really is the definition of: “we think we know someone, but the truth is that we only know the version of them they have chosen to show us”

3. Don’t Blame Me - so raw, so honest, so Kaylor (the DAISY DRAWING in the liner notes, I MEAN), her vocal range?! -- it’s a tried and true blues song, with call and response, even, and it’s such a departure from anything she’d ever done before, it continues to blow me away every time I listen to it

2. Getaway Car - honestly, this song is a God-Tier Taylor Song for me. Lyrically STUNNING, the syncopated rhythms she experimented with, the soundplay to have the rhythm sound like sirens (genius!), all put together with Jack’s magical producing touch... it’s the single we deserved and I’m still sad we didn’t get it.

1. Dancing With Our Hands Tied - I could write a literal essay on why I love this song, but I’m not sure anyone would be interested. It’s the aftermath of kissgate, it’s about what it’s like to fall in love with someone the world won’t let you be with in the most isolating and harrowing kind of way, and I don’t think another song better encapsulates the queer experience of not being ready to be out but being painfully, suffocatingly in love. It’s the musicality, the beat drop, the whispering. It speaks to my soul in a way that so few songs do. Anyway. It’s perfect. No notes. (also particularly obsessed with the acoustic tour version because it feels like how it was written, just a girl alone, in pain with her guitar).

Anyway, that’s it. My rep rankings. Hope you enjoyed. Thank you for this, it was truly fun.

#taylor swift ask #reputayswift #my own personal feelings and opinions #ask #personal #taylor swift

24 notes · View notes

dameferre · 2 years

Text

I posted 4,902 times in 2021

336 posts created (7%)

4566 posts reblogged (93%)

For every post I created, I reblogged 13.6 posts.

I added 6,089 tags in 2021

#qew - 4197 posts

#art by artists - 669 posts

#watch this - 231 posts

#elle answers your questions - 214 posts

#atla - 210 posts

#anon - 150 posts

#zukka - 136 posts

#t.t - 98 posts

#black sails - 95 posts

#sokka - 89 posts

Longest Tag: 136 characters

#‘it’s just one of those areas yknow. like there aren’t enough poc living there so all the food sucks’ and she was like ‘mmhmm i getcha.’

My Top Posts in 2021

happy prince phillip is dead day to my mom, who when i showed her a page of ‘prince phillip is a walking corpse’ memes said (after she’d finished laughing) ‘all of those people are going to feel so bad when he actually dies’

290 notes • Posted 2021-04-09 12:41:09 GMT

i know no one asked and im never gonna write it but my comfort fic this week has been one that only exists in my mind, which is... just a collection of zuko and katara moments

zuko coming out to katara, bc she’s got accepting mom vibes, and katara gets to experience the sweet euphoria of hanging out with a dude, who is not related to her, without worrying about him being attracted to her in the slightest

sokka proposes to suki, suki accepts, zuko cannot understand why it feels like his entire world is crumbling around him but katara can, and she and toph distract him for a bit

zuko and katara comforting sokka together after suki breaks off the engagement

zuko giving a speech at katara and aang’s wedding

the slow progression of zuko and sokka best friends to lovers as seen by katara, who at one point sits sokka down and says ‘you’re my brother and i’ll stand by you no matter what, but please for the love of fuck be sure about this before you get zuko involved. dont risk your friendship if you aren’t 100% sure’

zuko telling katara he plans to propose (katara cries)

katara giving a speech at sokka and zuko’s wedding (zuko cries)

just a thousand little moments of the two of them bonding over how ridiculous and wonderful the loves of their lives are

most crucially, katara and zuko doing some diplomatic thing together or whatever and accidentally getting stranded together. and then katara goes into labour. i cannot express how much serotonin i get from the idea of zuko. zuko. helping katara through labour. and by helping i mean letting her squeeze his hand until she breaks a finger (she’ll heal it later) and talking him through delivering the baby. he cries more than she does, and probably passes out. i think i personally deserve this scene

it probably ends with zuko and katara, helping each other through grief after both sokka and aang pass, but im not trying to make myself sad here this is a happy imaginary fic about best friends okay

378 notes • Posted 2021-04-15 22:34:06 GMT

ok this is nonsense so don’t take it too seriously but my friend just reminded me that before the panaderia hit her 2020 mission was to sleep her way through the alphabet (she got to h)

so now i can’t stop thinking about sokka who makes the same resolution one year and asks zuko ahead of time to fill the ‘z’ slot because “who else am i gonna hook up with? some asshole named zach?” and zuko laughs it off at the time but then slowly realises he. might not be entirely opposed to that.

and then hijinks ensue as zuko tries to rush sokka through the rest of the alphabet by way of overly enthusiastic matchmaking and simultaneous aggression towards anyone on earth with a name that starts with ‘z’

385 notes • Posted 2021-01-25 21:21:31 GMT

people of colour, for fucking lifetimes: white supremacists in america are dangerous terrorists and if they go unchecked they will try to bring about the downfall of our democracy

white people, today: wow?? white supremacists?? in america?? are DaNGerOus??? terrorISts??? and they’re trying to bring about the downfall of our democracy???????/????????/??/?//?

592 notes • Posted 2021-01-06 20:37:28 GMT

What You See You Might Not Get (art by the incomparable @sebsketchs)

Five things Zuko learned about Sokka, and one thing Sokka already knew about Zuko.

a zukka star trek au for three days of zukka week 2021 prompts! 5+1, hurt/comfort, and free space day bc it’s about as au as it gets

1267 notes • Posted 2021-03-21 02:49:16 GMT

Get your Tumblr 2021 Year in Review →

#this is fun #3/5 posts are zukka as it should be and also. checks out lmao #actually the most surprising thing here is the amt of asks ive answered #wild #ep

20 notes · View notes

hopelikethemoon · 4 years

Text

Christmas Morning (Javier x Reader) {MTMF}

Title: Christmas Morning Rating: PG Length: 2000 Warnings: FLUFF Notes: You can find everything about Maybe Today, Maybe Forever here. Christmas Day 1998. Summary: Presents are opened.

@grapemama @seawhisperer @huliabitch @beccaplaying @rogrsnbarnes@thewallpapergoesorido @twomoonstwosuns @gooddaykate @livasaurasrex@ham4arrow@plexflexico @readsalot73 @hdlynn @lokiaddicted @randomness501 @fioccodineveautunnale @roxypeanut @snivellusim @lukesrighthand @historynerd04 @mrsparknuts@synystersilenceinblacknwhite @behindmyeyes-insidemyhead @exrebelshocktrooper@awesomefandomsunited @ah-callie @swhiskeys @lady-tano @u-wakatoshii @space-floozy@cable-kenobi @cool-ultra-nerd @himbopoes @findhimfives @pedrosdoll @frietiemeloen@arrowswithwifi @random066 @uncomicalhumour @heather-lynn @domino-oh-damn@cyarikaaa @ahopelessromanticwritersworld @im-still-a-pieceofgarbage @ksgeekgirl @yabby-girl @xqueenofthecraziesx @punkass-potato@coredrive @pascalesque@theduchessofkirkcaldy @queenquazar @sabinemorans @buckstaposition @holkaskrosnou@yespolkadotkitty @fleetwoodmactshirt @seeking-a-great–perhaps @kochamcie @jaime1110@katlikeme

“Mommy, look what Nadia got me!” Josie shouted, getting your attention as you looked through the viewfinder of the camcorder. She proudly held up a bright pink CD-Rom game, “It’s the fashion designer game I’ve wanted for forever!”

Javier gave you a look, “I think she just shaded you.”

You rolled your eyes, “Thank Nadia for it.”

“The kid’s got style. How could I resist?” Nadia shrugged. “Next time we watch you, we’ll play with it, alright?”

Josie nodded her head, “Thank you.”

Chucho chuckled, “Just you wait until she opens my presents.” He took a sip of coffee before sitting it aside and taking the very squirmy Sofía out of your arms.

“Mommy!” Josie squealed. “Monica got me the nail designer too!” She beamed at the camera.

“Looks like this is a very Barbie Christmas.” Javier remarked, resting his hand on the top of your thigh and giving it a squeeze. You pulled your housecoat around you tighter and leaned into his side.

Josie moved onto her grandfather’s gifts, which included the Barbie Riding Club game and a matching Barbie doll.

“Look!” Josie brandished the doll, pouting a little. “But I still don’t have a pony.”

“Hmm.” Javier tapped his chin thoughtfully, “I wonder if Santa knew. Maybe you should open your stocking.”

Josie scrambled across the floor to grab the stocking out from under the tree, before retreating back into her spot in front of the camera.

“Clothing…” She huffed, tossing them aside like any little girl would, before she got her hands on the big toy. “A horse! Daddy, I got my pony!” She ooed and awed as she stared at the package.

“And it walks,” You told her with a grin.

Mitch leaned over the back of the sofa, giving your shoulder a squeeze. “That smile right there reminds me of a certain sixteen year old and Dove.”

“Oh God.” You hid your face.

“Who’s Dove?” Javier questioned.

You playfully swatted Mitch’s hand off your shoulder. “The guitar I got for Christmas after I moved in with them,” You explained, scrunching up your nose “It was black and had this stupid white dove on the front.”

“She was just the cutest thing,” Darla remarked from behind the sofa where she was sitting beside Mitch on the chairs Javier had pulled in from the dining table. “But she was no Stevie Nicks.”

Javier grinned at you, rubbing his hand up and down your leg, “I didn’t know you played.”

“Not well.” You assured him, making a face as you pressed your lips against his shoulder.

“She wasn’t terrible,” Mitch amended. “Not great, but not terrible.”

“Mommy, are you getting this?” Josie questioned as she tugged on a dress over her pajamas.

Monica laughed, “Why don’t we do a fashion show later?”

“Does Tate want to do a fashion show?” Josie questioned.

Tate clenched his teeth and grimaced, looking towards you and his parents for a way out.

“Tate would love to be in your fashion show,” Mitch told Josie, patting Tate on the back.

“Thanks dad.” He grumbled, shaking his head.

“Now, let’s see what mommy and daddy got for you.” Javier said, gesturing to the large box that was still sitting under the Christmas tree.

“But I’ve already got everything I wanted!” Josie announced, even as she hauled the box over and started peeling away the wrapping paper. She stopped once she realized what was in the box, her jaw dropping as she looked directly at the camera, before looking towards you and Javier. “Mommy!” She grinned at you.

“Well, let us see.” Chucho remarked, taking another sip of coffee.

Josie quickly peeled away the paper and proudly held up the American Girl doll that you had been eyeing for over a year. As soon as that catalog showed up in the mail last Christmas… you had known you had to buy it for her.

“What’s her name?” Monica questioned, tilting her head as she tried to catch a glimpse of what the name was, but Josie was quick to turn it back around so only she could see it.

“Her name is Josefina! Just like me!”

“No kidding,” Chucho remarked, looking at you and Javier then. “That worked out didn’t it.”

You laughed, biting on your thumbnail. “An arm and a leg later.”

“Let me see,” Nadia said, holding her hand out to take the box from Josie. “Josefina Montoya.”

“Wait a stinky minute!” Josie jumped up suddenly, racing down the hallway towards her bedroom.

You pursed your lips and looked between the other adults in the room, “Where do children get those phrases?” You laughed, sitting up a little as you looked down the hallway as she came trotting back with a book in her hands. Ah.

“You’ve been reading to me about her, Mommy! You clever lady!” She jumped onto the sofa, nearly causing Chucho to spill his coffee beside you as she threw herself onto yours and Javier’s laps.

“I wanted you to know all about your new friend,” You told her, poking her in the belly. “I hope you realize you’ve been spoiled rotten today.”

“It’s because I was a good girl all year.” Josie grinned brightly at you, tucking her hands under her head as she reclined back on you.

Javier tapped his finger against her nose, “And now you’ve gotta be a good girl for a whole new year.”

She sighed dramatically, “Well, I’ve gotta be good for sissy.” Josie sat up and walled her way in between you and Chucho to dote on her sister.

Mitch leaned over the sofa, “You’ve done good, kid.”

You smiled back at him, “I’ve tried to.”

“So what did you two get each other?” Monica questioned. “I noticed you two already did gifts.”

Javier snorted, “That’s what happens when you’re parents and you get up before the little ones.” He curled his arm around your shoulders, “Aside from the grill, someone got me the Star Wars trilogy on VHS.”

“And a couple new games for his Playstation,” You said, patting his leg. “And he got me an office chair for our office at school.” You shrugged. The real gift had been the update to the silver bracelet you wore. Hidden under the band, away from anyone’s gaze, was a special date in May — etched in alongside all the other important dates in your lives.

You still couldn’t believe that a few feet away, unbeknownst to everyone except for Chucho — the picture of the two of you, fresh out of saying your vows, hung on the wall without anyone knowing.

Your little secret.

“You know, the fact that you play video games gives me hope for other people from your generation.”

“You’re right behind us,” You reminded her with a pointed look.

“You and Javier are Boomers,” Nadia pointed out. “Monica and I are Generation X.”

“I feel like this is a slam.” Javier remarked, his brows drawn together skeptically. “Is this a slam?”

“Now we know where Josie’s getting her zingers.”

Josie nodded her head, “I get all the zingers, mommy.” She grabbed at your hand and kissed it. “I love you mommy.”

“Aw, I love you too sweetheart.” You kissed the top of her head.

“You too, daddy.”

“Love you, princesa.”

Josie jumped off the sofa, startling Stevie who jerked awake. “I love everyone in this room!” She announced, before snatching up her American Girl doll box and heading back towards her bedroom.

“I so thought the horse would be the biggest draw,” You remarked with a shake of your head. “I guess you can’t always know.” You took the baby back from Chucho, settling her into the spot in between you and Javier so she could recline back against him.

Chucho gave your arm a pat before he hauled himself off the sofa, “I’m gonna make another cup, now that the fun’s over with.”

“Make a whole pot, will you? I need coffee.” You said as you stifled a yawn.

Mitch got up from his chair and walked around to take Chucho’s seat on the sofa. “Thank you for inviting us back into your life.” He said, gesturing towards Tate and Darla. “Not a day went by that I didn’t worry about you. Hoping that you’d turn out alright, despite everything. And you have.”

You felt tears prickle behind your eyelids as you blinked slowly, “Thank you, Mitch. I wish I’d made more of an effort.”

“It all works out in the end,” He said with a wave of his hand. “You and your family are welcome in Philly.” Mitch looked towards Monica and Nadia then, “You two as well.”

“Really?” Monica smiled. “I’m honored.”

“You’re family.” Mitch said with a warm smile, before he looked back at you. “I’m proud of you and I know dad would be… God, he’d be thrilled to see how well you’ve done for yourself. That’s all he ever wanted.”

You wiped at your eyes, “I don’t know where I’d be if he hadn’t set everything up for me. I know I’m really lucky.” You knew there were hundreds of thousands of kids who went through the same bullshit you did — every day.

Monica had shitty parents. Connie’s mother was in the running for craziest mother of the year.

“I just want to do right by my girls.” You told him. “They deserve the world I didn’t have.”

Javier squeezed your shoulder three times as he kept his arm curled around you. “I’m glad you welcomed Mitch into our family,” He started with an amused tone in his voice. “Otherwise I’d never know you could play the guitar.” He snapped his fingers. “Steve’s got one.”

You turned your head slowly and glared at him, “No.”

“Oh, come on.”

“No!” You laughed, slapping his leg.

“She really wasn’t that bad,” Mitch pointed out. “If she had actually practiced.”

You scrunched up your nose, “I felt weird taking lessons from your nanny.”

“She was paid for it!” Darla assured you. “And to think, you could be some big name musician if you’d put a little effort into it.”

“I wouldn’t have met Javier.” You said without hesitation. “There’s no variation of my life where I’d be okay with that.”

“I dunno,” Javier clicked his tongue against his teeth. “Maybe I’d be working security for your concerts.”

You rolled your eyes, “No.”

“You two go well together,” Mitch pointed out, drawing a line between the two of you. “I don’t think I ever saw this spark between you or any of the guys you brought home.”

“MItch!” You shot him a look. “Shut up.”

“No, no. I’m curious now.” Javier glanced around you. “What were these men li—” You covered his mouth with your hand before he could finish.

“Nope. We are not having this conversation.” You warned him, turning back towards Mitch then. “Don’t.” You slowly uncovered Javier’s mouth. “I went to an all girl’s school, my choice of boys was narrowed down to Darla’s friends’ sons and the sons of the ladies at the DAR.”

“They weren’t terrible.” Darla pointed out.

“The were the poster boys for frat houses, college sports, and the dictionary definition of WASPs.”

“Oh,” Javier tilted his head. “Lance?”

You made a face, “Unfortunately. In my defense it was Philadelphia.”

“The pickings were slim.” Darla laughed. “But look what it’s led you to.” She patted the top of your head in a very familiar fashion, before she headed into the kitchen to get a cup of the coffee Chucho was brewing.

“All that matters is that you’re happy, kid.” Mitch reminded you.

“Oh, I am.” You assured him. “I think I’ve maxed out on happy.”

“And we’ve maxed out on camera space.” Javier pointed out, setting Sofía in your lap as he scooted forward to fiddle with the camcorder.

This was what Christmas was going to be like for the rest of your life. A stark contrast to the Christmases you remembered from years past — back when the holiday seemed like a black mark on the calendar because you never got to be with the people who actually loved you.

Now you had that love and you were never letting it go.

#javier pena #javier pena x reader #pedro pascal x reader

106 notes · View notes

fart-gate · 4 years

Text

SG1

Season 4 episode 2

"THE OTHER SIDE"

Notes by me

- Jack in a leather jacket ❤

- "didnt I order you to get a life?"

- good to know sam and Daniel are so obsessed with their work that they would stay all night. I wish I could find a job I love like that

- "someone trying to contact US , how often does that happen?" Point Daniel

- "the stargate is a portal to our ancestors" you right! Second planet to guess that correctly

- OOF they didnt know they were nice and kept the iris closed and now they have to scrape 3 people off the back with a spatula

- when they finally get in contact with them and they have to apologize for killing 3 of their people like bugs on a windshield

- how is he able to send visual?

- "the first time the descendents pf earth actually called home"

- daniel: I have prepared a 35 minute bullet point presentation explaining why you should give us permission to help them

Hammond: permission granted

Daniel: POINT NUMBER ONE- wait what

- wonder what kind of food they always give ppl whenever they trade with planets. My best guess? Pop tarts

- if I was on an sg team to give ppl food I would give them gummy worms bc I like gummy worms

- OF COURSE they are always looking for new weapons. Who cares about helping ppl! Do they have guns. Typical government

- this Dr lady legit just pushed a make up brush into his neck and hes fine

- Jack and Sam side eyeing each other about the make up brush. Clearly advanced technology they can trade for

- everyone always surprised to see tealc is with them and nice. These are the things that make me think he is the very first jaffa to leave the goauld and fight back

- "hes part of our team"

"....is he?"

- when he flips thru the pics of the people in stasis and its just the same 2 white guys at different angles

- love when Jack doesnt understand science talk he just asks Sam to translate . Sam is the human science for dummies book

- reaaaaallly hoping that aircraft that Jack shot down was unmanned and they werent lying

- brief exposure to the mind things wont hurt Jack at all! Unlike our friend here who has permanent brain damage bc of long exposure. Small comforts

- these mind controlled drones are damaging these people and they dont care at all I'm scared mom come pick me up

- lady: our food is chemicals and yeast

Daniel: I'm eating WHAT

- heavy water! What do they have against light water

- Jack and Daniel having a fight at the dinner table using only casual tones and their eyebrows

- the kid who came in the tell them the enemy breached their defences can breach MY defences hot damn

- "to seek new allies and procur technologies to aid in the defence against the goauld" FINALLY something to describe what their job is. But this is to describe now. What about the first 2 seasons

- Daniel is suspicious and I feel like we should listen to him

- "I was speaking metaphorically"

"Well DONT......its not fair to tealc"

- Jack vs Daniel

- daniels hair looks good in this ep for me specifically

- daniels moral compass is so chaotic

- hes got a point tho??? Hear me out. What if an alien race came to help hitler and they helped him bc they didnt know what the other side was fighting for? That would be horrible. Daniels right. These ppl could be hitler

- hold up Jack and tealc in those mind drone things is a bad idea okay we already established the brain damage thing right??? Hello???

- I WAS RIGHT they lied about them being unmanned!!! U aint getting heavy water now bitch eat me!!!

- oh theyre bad news bears. Who saw that coming raise ur hand 🖐🖐🖐

- now their being super shifty about everything. "He is remembered" WHOS he??? A goauld????

- Daniel asking 1000000 questions and Jack having to close his eyes and ask the stargate gods for patience

- "Daniel......shut up"

- JACK DID NOT JUST SAY THAT MY BOY. HE DID NOT JUST BE MEAN TO HIS ARCHEOLOGIST. IM BOUTA THROW HANDS

- thats it everybody leave the room I want to talk to Jack alone

- omg they dont want tealc around. Racist mother fuckers. Or xenophobic I cant tell which

- Jack grabbing daniels hand to stop him from dialing and daniels eyes shift in every direction like hes watching pin ball

- jack, sobbing: you were right Daniel they are assholes and we cant trust them

Daniel: what made you see sense

Jack: they dont like tealc

- sam almost laying down on the battle plan table like what is she doing???

- jack: what do u thing of alar

Tealc: hes hiding something

Jack: like what

Tealc: fuck if I know???? Do you know what the definition of Hiding is???

- oh are they clones??? Is THAT why they are all generic white people??

- "they come in all shapes and sizes??....and colors???"

RACIST MOTHER FUCKERS OH MY GOD

- alar: black and brown people were all over the face of our world so naturally we had to poison our planet :)

- bc thats the logical conclusion when your a racist fuckin idiot

- sam high kicking people in the face is my sexuality

- tealc crushing alars hand with a smile

- hahaha just fucking blow them up!! Lmfaooo

- this is so funny they are legit just blow them up and leave. No less than what racists deserve 👍

- they closed the iris and that dude tried to follow and we just hear a dull thud. Splattered

- RDAs acting i- its just amazing. Hes like shocked that they just killed thousands of people but also those people deserved it so like???? His emotions are fighting each otherrrrr

- was he looking at tealc when the camera faded out. I would like to think so

#stargate season 4 #a couple thousand less racists in the galaxy! good for us

1 note · View note

just-some-random-blogger · 5 years

Text

One Million In One Day | 4

GOT7 SugarDaddy!Jackson Wang x Reader | Part 1 2 3 4 5 ? Characters: Jackson Wang, Park Jinyoung, Im Jaebum, etc. Summary: His mother’s final wish is to see him be happy in a relationship, knowing that Jackson would be fine when she left him. But, damn, he didn’t have time for relationships, especially not since he was busy running his father’s billion dollar empire, thus the compromise: you.

Word Count: 1k+ Warnings: Dumbness, drinking, mentions of infidelity, annoying-ness, etc.

Preview | Alternate Moodboard

A/N: once again i did this on the app so if its barf on your pc i am so sorry ALSO TYPOS AMSJSJSJS

Pabo ❤: ya. U wanna watch smthing w me+mark

Pabo ❤: yayayayayaya wake up its only 7

Pabo ❤: ysaaaaaaaaaaaa

Pabo ❤: r u rly asleep or are u busy? U w Nari???

Pabo ❤: YA

Pabo ❤: R U GOING TO JB'S PARTY

Pabo ❤: YA NARI TOLD ME U WERE GOING

Pabo ❤: YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA DONT FKING DO THIS

Pabo ❤: YOU HABE NTOING TO PRPVE

Pabo ❤: YAAAAA

Pabo ❤: YAAAAAAAAAAAA PICK UP!!!!

You have 10 missed calls from Pabo ❤

My heart dropped as I rummaged through this tiny, tiny purse that was just an accessory basically. After moments of looking and looking, and coming across with nothing, it was decided. I groaned in utter annoyance and almost ripped my scalp off if it wasn't for the fact I spent hours curling my hair to perfection.

I caNNOT BELIEVE I left my phone at home.

I whine and stomped my feet lightly, not wanting to disturb the driver of the taxi I was in. He didn't deserve that.

I huffed and crossed my arms. Oh well.

This was it, and at least I had my keys and wallet with me. Nothing was going to ruin this.

I wonder if Nari was already there.

I paid the driver once I got to my destination and went my way, inside the exclusive party. I turned to tell the bouncer my name but oddly enough, he spared me no look and simply moved aside and let me in. I... huh, thoughtful?

I blinked rapidly as I walked in the place.

Wait... do you know what that means?

It means I, me, ME, I have an effect on people. But why? It's neve-- wait, is it because-- because of this dress.

My heart pounded in my chest as I stalked down the hallway, making it into the dim, loud, smoky, dizzying place that made my stomach churn and my hands sweat.

Where is Nari?

I chewed the inside of my lower lip and watched where I was going. I went to the sides, avoiding the crowd at all costs, hearing a few heys and some how are you beautiful on the side, making me want to gag though my lips haven't even touched alcohol yet.

Suddenly, a very distinct shriek pierced my ears and I looked up to find the source. And there Nari was with a big grin, waving her hands at me as if I was some sort of celebrity.

"Oh my gosh!" she gasped, shimmying through the crowd. "You bought really did buy the dress!"

I chuckled nervously and nodded. I can't tell her about Jackson.

"Yeah. I... I thought it was about time, y'know, in this long time coming."

"Damn straight, jagiya!" she eeked in approval. "Oh when Jaebum sees you, he's gonna--" she cut herself off and then slapped my arm. I whined at the random action.

"What the h--"

"Jinyoung has been calling me for hours! Why haven't you answered his calls?! Is it because he doesn't want you to go to your ex's party."

My brows quirked, "Jinyoung's been calling me?"

Nari scoffed, and seemed that sh was about to attack me, but then she realized something. "Don't tell me, you forgot your phone again, didn't you?"

I rolled my eyes, "No shit Sherlock! Text Jinyoung and tell him I'm fine, ho."

She rolled her eyes, "You do it!"

"Nari! Just tell him this: she's with me, and is fine."

My best friend gave a prolonged groan and pulled her phone out. "Get me a drink then, ho. Reception is bad by the bar for some reason."

I chuckled and nodded, "Fine. Wait for me here then. I'm not particularly fond of hanging around the bar."

Nari nodded. I moved past her and went through the sea of people, gritting my teeth whenever sweat skin made contact with mine. I shuddered at the revolting atmosphere around me that gave me nothing but revolting sensations. Once I was spat out of the crowd that shoved itself against me, I huffed in both relief and frustration, gripping my glittering dress and strutting to the bar. The bartender gave a smile and nodded, immediately asking, "What can I get you?

I pursed my lips, "The sweetest cocktail you have, please."

"I'll make it sweeter for you." the bartender winks, making my eyebrows raise and my head to pull back. I brushed my sweaty nape and chuckled as the man behind the bar got to preparing my drink.

I laughed quietly by myself as I looked around the place.

JB really knows where the hottest places are at. He'll be a great businessman.

"Hey."

I looked over my shoulder, to where the voice came and looked at the man with widening eyes. His hair grew longer since the last time we met, but it still suited him, because, well, he was him.

"It must be your first time here," he spoke while his pointer and middle finger flattened my hair. It was a habit of his. He took a sip of the drink he had in hand then continued, "And the world must be good to me because it's my birthday."

I looked at him, astonished, in pure and utter disbelief, and chuckled loudly, "Don't you know who I am?"

The man seemed to take the questioning statement as a challenge. He leaned him, smelling his cologne and subtly of alcohol. "I could... know you real good."

I my mind went spinning and I just had to turn away.

"Don't you have a girlfriend?" I snipped, whipping my head back to him.

His face remained playful, but I saw how slightly his eyes dropped. "No," he replied the same way he did the first time I asked him a similar question.

"No?" I scoffed out a chuckle, "Are you sure? Isn't her name Jisoo or something."

It was then he visibly showed tension.

I felt tears well in my eyes but I blinked them away. I turned away and rubbed my nape, digging my fingers into roots of my hair. "I can't believe you're drunk already. Has your tolerance went down since last year?"

"What are you talking about?"

"What?" I repeated as I looked at him, "Do you really not remember me, Bum-ie oppa?"

Just then the bartender came back with my order and I took it without hesitation. The man before me was struck by lightning or realization. I took a sip of the drink in my hand and then clicked it against his, "Happy birthday, cheater. Good to know you want back what you've broken."

I turned away from him and swayed my hips away from the imbecile. Apparently though, he wasn't embarrassed enough by our encounter and called my name, pulling me by my arm. I looked at him over my shoulder and he dared to push my hair back behind my ear. He spoke my name again and so I reciprocated.

"Jaebum." I spoke with venom.

"Wh-wait. Ya... You look amazing."

I scoffed and roughly pulled my arm out of his grip, "I've always looked amazing, you bastard." I turned around and downed the drink in one go as I walked back into the sea of people.

"Ya! Where's my drink?" Nari asked as I gave her the empty glass. I saw a bunch of frat boys drinking soju and so I pushed my best friend aside and went to them.

"Hey, boys. Can I have some soju?"

They all turned to me and nodded profusely. I then took their bottle and drank it all the way back to Nari. She looked bewildered, mortified at me and my actions. "YA! WHAT THE HELL?"

"Jaebum-ah."

Nari pulled her head back, "Ya! I'm not your cheating ex-" "I saw him." I spoke, out of breath and hot blooded.

"You did?" Nari spoke in surprise and concern.

"Yeah and he thought I was someone else and hit on me!"

"HE HIT ON YOU! WAAHHH WHAT A DOG--" "I'm so pretty he hit on me!"

Nari held back her laughter as I took her hand, "Ya... I need you to take thousands of hot pictures on me okay. I have to show someone."

She chuckled but pulled her phone out, nevertheless. "If that someone is Jaebum, count me in."

"NOOOOO!" I scoffed, "it's Jackson!"

Nari stilled, "who's Jackson?"

"He's my sugar daddy! Ya, don't you know I'm so pretty he asked me to go out on a date with him and pay me a million for it."

The woman threw her head back in laughter.

"YA! I'M NOT LYING!"

"Okay, jagiya. I believe you." Nari breathed out, "Waaah, I can't believe you're already that drunk."

Nari took my pictures and filmed me while I danced and drank, and danced, and drank, and drank again, and again, and I think I seduced Jaebum or something, because the same Nari was pulling me away for something.

I don't know what.

"Here," I was handed to someone like a package.

"She drank a one-fourth bottle of soju, two cocktails and a bunch of half finished drinks from strangers."

I looked at the man I was leaned up against and caressed his cheek, "You're pretty."

He looked down on me with raised eyebrows, "and you smell horrible."

"Ya, Jinyoung-ah, the correct response is to say you're prettier."

He rolled his eyes and grabbed my wrists, spinning around and carrying me behind his back. I grunt and hit my nose of his head, causing both of us to grunt.

Nari whined, "Just let her die, honestly."

"You read my mind." the man I was propped on growled.

"URSA MAJOR IS JUST A HOAX! I'VE NEVER SEEN IT BEFORE."

"You can't tell the constellations apart for the life you," Jinyoung noted, adjusting his drip on me.

"You can still dump her body in a dumpster, Jinyoung." Nari offered.

He sighed, "Nah, she's not worth potentially getting caught and sent to jail for."

Jinyoung started walking off and Nari waved goodbye before heading back in. The bouncer however did not let her enter, which made her shout at him in annoyance.

"Yaaaa, stoooop! I still have to take pictures for Jackson!"

"Who's he?"

"He's the one who bought me the dress."

"Ah, you're sugar daddy? Nari sent you your photos for him." Jinyoung spoke as he put me into the front seat of some car.

"How do you know? Did you steal my phone?"

Jinyoung went into the front seat and opened the engine. He chuckled and drove his car back, "She called me, and told me."

"Why would she tell you?"

"Because I called her, knowing you."

"Knowing me?"

Jinyoung drove forward and glance at me quickly, "Knowing how you get around Jaebum."

"Ew! Don't talk about him!"

Jinyoung chuckled softly.

"Nari didn't call you to pick me up though."

"What?"

"She was too busy taking pictures of me. You came here to kidnap me." I spoke, crossing my arms.

Jinyoung pursed his lips as I continued, "I won't give you my heart."

There was silence. The driver gripped the steering wheel. "You can't sell any of my organs to the black market."

Jinyoung gave a breath. His eyes crinkled. "Ya... no one would want any of your organs. You're too unhealthy. Mine on the other hand, would cost billions." The man struck a pose and I hissed between my teeth.

"Who is Jackson though?" a long minute of silence was broken by that sentence. I huffed at the question asked by the person beside me, "I told you, he's my sugar daddy. He's gonna make me rich."

Jinyoung pursed his lips, "Are you seeing him?"

"I'm seeing you, pabo."

There was nothing but silence at this point. "Sure, let's see each other then." Jinyoung spoke after a while, deciding for himself.

I shrugged, "Sure."

#jackson wang #jackson #got7 #jackson wang fanfic #jackson wang x reader #jackson fanfic #park jinyoung #park jinyoung x reader #park jinyoung fanfic #got7 x reader #got7 fanfic #im jaebum x reader #im jaebum fanfic #jaebum x reader #jaebum fanfic #jinyoung fanfic #jackson au #sugar daddy!jackson

94 notes · View notes

khotgirl · 5 years

Photo

Lost

Yoongi loved her so much.

Why did she have to leave? Did he deserve this? Did he even mean anything to her? How fucking pathetic was it that she just decide to get up and leave him out to dry. He felt helpless.

Love is not simple, we learn that since we are kids. Why do you think sometimes you get that tingle in your stomach when you have something as simple as a crush, well subconsciously the word rejection lingers in your mind.

When you don’t get what you’ve done wrong in a relationship and suddenly your partner (now ex) decides to end it, it’s inevetiable to stop you from obsessing over it, think about it hundreds times, till your brain decides to think about “something else” but it doesn’t really cover for all the pain and the hurt you’re going through. Either way, your brain keeps on the mind games, makes you feel happy then sad all over again, it never gets tired and while you go through the rollercaoster of emotions - you just feel empty. Nothing makes sense anymore.

You have to feel it, you have to feel the hurt and the pain, evrery singñe drop of it, so someday you can heal form al the damage that’s been created, you’re not gonna be the same anymore but you’ll eventually learn hot to be happy again.

Anyways, so fucking what if ou feel empty. Life always takes what makes you the happiest, always takes the things that are so precious to you and throw it away, letting you be in your darkest moments, feeling like complety shit and souless. You’re not yourself anymore.

Yoongi couldn’t accept it, he couldn’t handle it, he wanted her back so bad, he couldn’t stop thinking, he didn’t want the companion of others he just wanted her. She was his life, he told her everything, from the simplest things to the sad and horrible things he thinks before going to sleep. She knew him more than anyone, and he still couldn’t believe that after all they’ve been through she just decides to go and leave him.

She just said “I don’t feel the same way as before, I don’t think i love you anymore, I’m sorry” She couldn’t look him, his perfect dark brown eyes, the ones that once were full of joy- were then full of sadness, sorrow, pain and fear, fear of losing the one thing he felt was right for his life.

She then continued to say “I really loved you at one time, i just have these feelings. I-I don’t feel like I do that anymore. loving you, it’s been a while since I started feeling this way” It all really just felt staged, she never loved him, she was just palying him like a puppet, he was his play thing until she finds the next BIG THING. He felt pathetic thinking someone could actually love him, be with him, for fucks sake BE in a relationship with him.

“I’ve found someone else” Yoongi looked at her, he felt his heart break right then and there into a million pieces. He couldn’t believe he didn’t see this coming, he wanted to laugh at himself, thinking that he could have something nice for once in his life. Well maybe people are telling the truth when they say that love blinds us, it’s so true and in the most painful way.

After that day, he couldn’t stop thinking about it, he even dreamt about it, he felt it all over again, he fell onto a hole and couldn’t get up anymore.

For months now they’ve broken up, he still couldn’t get over it, over her. He woke up every day went to work, produced some songs, (he writes the sourest lyrics and the deepest beats); he guesses that maybe people love it so much since is a feeling that everyone feel at least once in their lives; then he goes home. At home he drinks like a sailor and smokes like he wants to get cancer. Self-destruction that’s how you call it, he couldn’t find any other source of happiness. Nothing was enough fot him, not the cigs, not the sex,not the alcohol not the porn, not even the fucking drugs, he wasn’t satisfied with his life anymore. He jus realized that there really way out from this shit-show people call life.

When he was with friends, he wanted out, he didn’t want to be with them, he was tired so tired of human interaction, his thoughts consumed most of his energy, he wanted to die and never have to look at anyone’s eyes again, not now, not ever.

That until he found a girl on a quite depressing night out, she seemed somehow broken, she had those lost puppy eyes and a really sad smiled painted all over her face. He approached her, she was sitting on the last banco of the bar, he headed over there and said “Hey you look sad, want some drinks? On me ‘cause I had a pretty shitty day myself and I could use some companion" she looked at him with wide eyes. He could see she was hesitating, I mean who the fuck would just say “fuck it yeah I’m going to let you buy me some drinks and think you’re not some creep looking to take advantage of me” she made up her mind and shrugged her shoulders with a fuck it composure and responded “Yeah sure why not, I could use some drinks tonight”. The night was long, they talked about everything, they laughed, they smiled, they cried and were just strangers, they felt comfort in each other companion.

But that’s all it was one not so shitty human interaction, with the same broken feelings, at a bar, with friends, feeling out of their element.

After that encounter with the not so anymore mysterious girl, he went back to being his old sappy self, “ it was nice to talk to someone about it” he thought “but that doesn’t change the way im feeling” he ended on a sad note.

He wrote letters to her, the girl he loved, probably more than a thousand times, he wrote letters, music, melodies, text messages, he didn’t want to give up, he couldn’t give up. It was hard for him to realize the fact that she was gone, that she found someone else that he was left alone in the dark feeling like shit, his mind was so fucked at this point he didn’t know what to do, he didn’t know how to cope with his feelings.

Yoongi was alone, he had probably only two friend, others were just acquaintances he talked to from time to time. His family disappointed on him, his company now crumbling, they really needed Yoongi, but he was out of it. He spent most of his days drunk, drinking full bottles of wine, walking around his apartment sulking on why? why? why? why? why? why? why? why? No one knew what was going on with him, he was done talking about his feelings, he kept them bottled up, the only way they could get out was when he drank, he cried so much, he called her, he wanted an out and not even his friends could tell them how to fix it, he felt like no one cared.

The feelings he held on for so long got the worst of him, he became rude to others, he was aggressive, scared, scared of feelings, hurt and tired. One of his only two friends left him they left him without saying a word, without trying to talk to him he literally just went up to them and said “Hey, words out that you don’t want to hang out with me anymore, is it true?” that was a lie, no one told him he just had a gut feeling and it was starting to be pretty much obvious, to which his “old friend” responded “Um hey yeah, I mean look I think we should take some time off of talking to each other I just want to hang out with my other friends so yeah, sorry” Yoongi felt so heartbroken. The one person he thought would be there didn’t even have the guts to tell him the reason they wanted to stay away from him, they ended up resuming their relationship shortly after, but still made him feel insecure it made him realize that he wasn’t as important as he thoguht he was for some people at all.

During that part of his life he had obscure feelings, he didn’t try getting over her, he still tried to get her to contact he to get her to love him, he came back to self-destructing himself, only this time with the girl he’s been cherishing for so long used him, knowing how yoongi felt for her, she told him tstuff she knew yoongi would want to hear, they went on long walks they ended up kissing each other everytime and Yoongi in that moment, felt like everything was falling back to place.

He knew though, what she was doing, he knew that she was using him and he let it happen ‘cause that was the only source of happiness he thought he could get. She stopped talking to him when she saw him, she wanted to see how much he could play with him, she wanted to see how much she had destroyed, she wanted him to beg to see how his face fals down when she was with other guys, when she was with her friends, when she was with his now ex. Yoongi took it all, he took it all because he loved her, he loved her so much to the point where he didn’t stop to think about the damage he was doing to himself.

He thought it was impossible to get someone you loved dearly out his head. She too at one point just really toyed with him, she used to ask him to tell her why he loved her, she spew words like “Maybe in the future we could be together, just wait for me to be ready.” The worst part, he believed her, and he got so happy when she said that. At those moments he felt like he was on cloud nine, he felt happy that he was spending so much time with her, with the lover of his life, that she would text him, that she would make him laugh just a little, her kisses made him forget all of the bad she made him feel. He knew inside, that it was just fun and game for her, that she would never look at him as more than just one toy who could play with his emotions, but he was in love, he fell in love so hard that not even if he had the chance to stop loving her he would, because he felt like his world would stop, he felt like there would be nothing to live for if he stopped loving her.

Those things said were just for a period of time, she started to ghost him again, she started acting like he was nothing, she made him be so used to her that now the thing she was doing was way worst, she ignored him when he talked to her, didn’t let him talk when he needed to, declined every possible text and call he would have made. Other days she would talk to him, she would call him, she would tell him to hang out and the next day never saying a word about it, she started playing but in a different way in a much more painful one, she would disappear for more than two weeks and then come back saying something on the lines of “Just fell asleep, ah ah.” Yoongi kept on knowing that she was just using him and letting it happen, not daring to leave, not now that he felt like he had her.

That went on up until probably 4 months when she decided to stay out for good, once again leaving Yoongi broken, he started calling and texting again, she would answer him from time to time but not in the way yoongi wanted. One day Yoongi woke up and realized that maybe, just maybe the relationships he tried, the things he had that didn’t really work out for him it was maybe because of her, maybe because he spent so much time thinking about her, sulking for her, longing that he didn’t even realize that he was destroying himself and he stopped after that day he stop calling, texting and thinking about her, he may’ve had a few slips but very little.

He still thought of her from time to time, he felt comfort of thinking of the feelings, the purest feelings he ever had, from time to time he still wondered what would it be like to be with her, how would it feel like if it wasn’t a one sided love, how would it be like if she cared for him, if she loved him like he did to her. There are days though still where he wants to talk to her, he doesn’t even know what he would say but still, loving her was really hard but easy at the same time, hard because it was so painful and easy because it was a pure feelings it came right out his soul, and he would always hold on to those feelings, cause that’s all they were now longing memories, memories he wished could’ve been better but still somehow got to live them, he got to live what love and falling in love felt like, how suffering for love felt like, how pain felt like and how sometimes it made him feel happy.

41 notes · View notes

godstiel-coded · 2 years

Text

I posted 4,521 times in 2021

345 posts created (8%)

4176 posts reblogged (92%)

For every post I created, I reblogged 12.1 posts.

I added 405 tags in 2021

#asphodel rambles - 141 posts

#do this tag - 67 posts

#posts that boil my emotions - 49 posts

#pspsps you wanna send me asks so bad - 35 posts

#prev tags - 27 posts

#transnatural - 20 posts

#asphodel writes - 18 posts

#baby jack truthing - 18 posts

#storm of a thousand rains - 15 posts

#destiel - 15 posts

Longest Tag: 140 characters

#im caskin (im joking i think) and that means wroting from cas pov can be hard bc it feels impossible to get them to understand how he thinks

My Top Posts in 2021

I'M CRYING BENNY I LOVE YOU, BENNY I NEED YOU TO KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU, YOU DESERVE SO MUCH BETTER THAN THIS I KNOW YOU DON'T FIT IN WITH VAMPIRES OR HUMANS I KNOW YOU'RE HURTING, YOU'VE BEEN ALL ALONE FOR SO LONG AND AND YOU LET HIM--YOU LET DEAN--BECAUSE YOU...YOU DIDN'T BELONG AND AT LEAST HE'D HOLD YOU AND HE DID HE HELD YOU AND YOU DESERVE THAT, YOU DESERVE A SOFT LIFE WITH PEOPLE WHO APPRECIATE YOU BENNY I LOVE YOU SO MUCH YOU STAYED IN PURGATORY BUT DEAN HE SAID HE'D WAIT FOR YOU IN MAINE AND TOU LET HIM BELIEVE IT BECAUSE HE NEEDED TO HEAR IT AND YOU NEEDED TO LOSE YOURSELF IN THE FIGHT AND YOU DON'T DESERVE THAT OH MY GOD BENNY BENNY I NEED YOU TO KNOW!! THAT THERE'S A HOME OUT THERE FOR YOU EVEN IF YOU DON'T KNOW IT YET

82 notes • Posted 2021-03-24 14:47:18 GMT

No y'all are right, life IS full of little things that make things so worth it. Have you ever sat with a toddler and fed them off your spoon something they've never had before but clearly seem to like? Knowing that they trust your judgement enough to try it. Have you ever used a big dog as a pillow? Ever gotten a shy cat to lick your fingers? Ever gotten the worlds most satisfying headache from hours of high pitched squeals of delight. Ever taught the best sword fight techniques to an angsty preteen? Ever succumbed to a puppy pile?

Honestly, like, go forge a deep bond with something small and impressionable and leave them the sort of impressions you wish you had more of and maybe you'll feel better

98 notes • Posted 2021-04-15 16:40:05 GMT

Cas with a cat would be too powerful because he will mirror back signs of affection when possible--even if he doesn't get them--and with Dean that looks like "I understood that reference" and "I need pie" but with a cat it would look like rubbing cheeks with them, and the cat rubbing their head along the underside of his jaw, seemingly unaware to the cat fur clinging to his face and clothes

162 notes • Posted 2021-07-22 13:40:23 GMT

[misha cameo voice] "Would I rather... Deadname someone or be thrown into--into the sun. Hmm. Well, I think that being thrown into the sun is probably not a-- not a particularly fun experience, um, because you would die, most likely. Now, I'm not a scientist, but I imagine the sun would be a bit too hot, to um, for the human body. Now, deadnaming that's--I always thought that sounded a bit like killing a name, but I think names would, uhh, be kinda hard to kill, but apparently it Actually refers to um the use of someone's name at the.. time of birth, when they would rather you use a different name.... Which would be really quite rude but would probably involve less um vaporization. So, I think it would depend on if they're--if they're going to [nervous chuckle] kill me for being rude?"

289 notes • Posted 2021-09-03 02:42:37 GMT

Baby!Jack truthing

Disclaimer; my Jack knowledge is through Osmosis and Canon is irrelevant. Feel free to add on and don't be shy abt commenting rather than tagging <3

~He sucks at pronunciation of names and other relatively simple things but he picks up on large words he shouldn't know Too fast and says creepy things sometimes

~He calls Dean "Dee" or "Deedee" when he learns to write it takes Years to stop writing "Deen"

~he regularly says vaguely horrifying things and Cas takes it in stride So well and the PTA moms Don't

~okay this is projection but if someone says "Your mom is here" while he's in elementary he gets Terrified but its usually Eileen, or Jo, or Charlie, or Jody, or Ellen, or any other woman he knows and he gets used to it eventually. "your dad is here?" Always gets "which one?" Which results in Teachers having to give a small lesson on how a kid can have 2 dads/2 moms for the kids w no clue

~Cas being able to hear his "prayers" saves their ass in a million little ways

~Jack only sort of knows what Mom vs Dad means and doesn't really know theres a gendered connotation to it and tends to just Guess

~He calls his friends parents "(Friend)'s Dad" defaultively, appearance irrelevant

~He loves bows and dresses sometimes, also bee related clothes and cowboy related clothes as he tends to associate each adult in his life with one Specific thing

~Cas makes Dean promise not to confine Jack to primitive human gender or sexuality based norms

~When Claire ("Care") comes to visit he is Ecstatic and she can't get rid of him

~He doesnt comprehend how he is tied to Jody or Donna so its "My Jody" and "My Donna" I think Ellen might be Nana and Charlie and Jo both Aunts but I'm not totally set on that

~Jack loves to sit on Deans foot or ride piggy back style or sit on his hip

~He sits on Cas' shoulder and in his lap a lot

~LOVES dress up

~Dean picks up humming Red Neck Woman (heard it karaoke at a bar once) because of the line about the baby on her hip

~Cas and Jack listen to the worst pop ever, he's a Katy Perry (thats her name right) fan

~Jack likes Sesame Street, Octonauts, and Paw Patrol

~as part of a prank war (Claire started this one) Sam teaches Jack everyword to "The Song That Doesn't End" and everyone is paying the price

I can and Will go on so Please encourage me

353 notes • Posted 2021-02-02 00:59:46 GMT

Get your Tumblr 2021 Year in Review →

#my 2021 tumblr year in review #your tumblr year in review

1 note · View note