where did my mutuals go? did i do something fr fr? we haven’t interacted in so long and im so sad. i have severe anxiety and i think y’all HATE ME FJDHDH
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so i only have one friend irl and that’s not new or anything ive rarely had friends all my life. for whatever reason no one wants to get closer than arms length to me, despite the fact that most people think i’m nice.
but that means i can’t lose this friend. i’ll have no one. but she has a boyfriend now and never wants to hang out with me i don’t know what to do. i ask her all the time and she always says she can’t but she’s always either at home or with her bf why can’t she make time for me? and it makes me spiral cuz there’s not really anything i can do? but then i’m completely alone and that’s terrifying
ive clung to online friendships and i absolutely adore all my online friends. it’s just. so lonely that i have no one to see. and what if they get sick of me too. it’s so isolating. and i mean it happens online too, i say something in a group chat and get no reply. how is everything i say Wrong. how do i fix it!!!!
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hi excerpt time
(tw: slavery and strict gender roles in the context of an au heavily inspired by classical history, attempted suicide, infantilisation, dehumanisation)
Tommy turned sixteen on the cramped ship carrying him further and further away from home. He could feel his heart, left on the shores to break, shatter once he realised that- counting the days by the gruel he was served, since they’d stopped letting him out after he’d tried to drown himself the first few times. Too valuable.
The chains around him held him down tightly, but at least he wasn’t hurt, he supposed. One or two of the soldiers had slapped him around a little, sure, but not enough to hurt. He almost wished they would- because it wasn’t like they were sparing him out of kindness or any of that shit. No, they just didn’t want to damage their most valuable loot.
The mere idea of that still made Tommy almost lose what little food he had in him. It was against the Primes in every way. It was Their will that every man, woman, and child is worthy of respect and love, and is in ownership of their own self. Prisons and chains and slavery- that was blasphemy of the highest order. The Esemperians called themselves civilised, yet they would take your freedom from you. It was a worse fate than death.
He was meant to celebrate becoming a man with feasts and hunts and epic poetry- even if he wasn’t the best at that because fuck he wasn’t the best at anything manly apparently, it’d still be proof he was a big man, like his brothers before him.
That was when you chose your path- to join the men in hunting and ruling, or women in magic and tending to the home, because obviously it’d be stupid to base that shit off of how you were born or something. Fuck, when Tommy was born they’d thought him a girl, but like everyone he got the chance to choose, and he knew he wanted to be a man. And now he was stuck, not a man nor even a woman, but a child, forever.
Content no one but the Primes were watching over him, Tommy let himself weep for what could have been.
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The masterlist is not working for me it keeps loading the same page :(
hwalloween.tumblr.com/atzmlist
try copy and paste this line and see if it works! the links are fine to me but I also keep getting redirected to the home page with the masterlist link
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I know that I definitely will be cleaning my followers from all blogs - because there are too many people following me that are not writing with me. I’m also getting reluctant on starters again because people aren’t replying to them.
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>>> Risk ineffable husbands, 7 pages
here's a little comic, it's not completely show!gomens compliant but its headcanons i enjoy
comic notes under cut :)
I enjoy Az already realising he likes Crowley by the time Adam appears but hasn't yet worked out what to do with that information bc acts-of-service Crowley Can't Talk, Wont Talk.
Crowley on the other hand has been VERY GOOD at ignoring why he spends so much of his time around Az so only on the crux of YOU'RE GOING TO LOOSE HIM did anything manage to force its way through to his brain. (i did not enjoy crowley being told he was in love with az in s2, i think he could have worked it out himself)
i rly enjoy hcs where they started sleeping together and with humans for fun (i mean the ox ribs scene sets some v good precedent for this) az sleeps with humans bc he indulges! he likes pleasure! crowely on the other hand is very bad at catching feelings and doesnt like it when they die so has mostly only slept with az (did i mention he's VERY good at ignoring his feelings) but they probably haven't slept together for a few hundred years when adam pops up.
my compliant show!hcs are still that az knows he loves crowley (i mean the scene with jim where he leaps out of the chair to attempt to protect crowley saying no he defo doesnt know ANYONE who he feels that way with, don't look closely at anyone he is with) and is just sort of sitting on it still, waiting for any hint from crowley, planning a ball definitely only for humans and no other reason. Crowley is obviously very protective of Az but he still hasn't clicked why he's worried about him but he doesn't have the excuse of heaven or hell anymore so it wouldn't have taken much for him to work it out (hello one of his first lines in s2 is "you ever think, what's the point?" the point is love you idiot)
(book!gomens is just they're already married and have been fucking for centuries but the book just doesnt mention that.)
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Oh look, it seems everyone has been opted into the unfortunate "experiment" now. For everyone who has been blissfully using the old UI up until now, welcome to hell :)
Do you not like hell? Do you want to leave and crawl back up into the sunlight of the old UI? Well, have I got a link for you! A beautiful tumblr user (who is not me) has gone and fixed things beautifully for you already: https://github.com/enchanted-sword/dashboard-unfucker
You will need to have Tampermonkey installed on your browser of choice, and once that's done, just go to the github link above, and peruse the readme to install. And voila! You have your old dash back!
The authors of XKit Rewritten said during the experiments that at the time, since this was an "experiment" they weren't going to implement anything to revert to the old UI (although who knows if they'll do it now). And the dashboard unfucker has worked beautifully enough for me to where I genuinely couldn't tell if they had ended the experiment or not.
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Tonight I learned that my 20 yr old partner has never played chess and doesn't know how to play chess. This is mind boggling to me. They claim its not weird for people to not know anything about chess so I. I need to see. Please.
Okay so, I made a mistake in not elaborating the meaning of the options. You do not have to be good or know what you are doing in the slightest to pick that you have played before. The middle three options are for your understanding of the game having never played it at all. The reason there's a percentage on the last option is because my partner made a tumblr so they could pick it because they think they are hilarious.
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