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that-one-weird-cloud0 · 3 months

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Danny: *just chilling on the couch while being very still™️ at the Wayne Manor*

Clark: *comes to visit*

Clark: hey Bruce?

Bruce: yes?

Clark: why is there a dead child in your living room?

Bruce: what 0-0

Danny: oh shit

Danny: *starts up heartbeat* better?

Clark: *even more freaked out*

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xenomorphicdna · 5 months

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@aluminum-angels i made an entire doodle page just to prove a point

Their relationships do not fail, they get along just fine and they love each other very much

Peace and love among my rw ocs

#auugh you people will not belive the shit i've been through today #ok so basically i was grabbing some food out and i sprinkle the cheese and im like huh this cheese kinda stale #so i give it a sniff and it STINKS and im like aw fuck well its already on my food so uhhh in the microwave this all goes maybe it will be #ok after its heated but SPOILERS it does not and actually now it smells worse so im over here trying to figure out if its worth to eat this #thing and if it will taste as bad as it smells luckly it tatsed just fine but auughh couldnt breathe while eating that but it doesnt end #there because after gulping all that stuff down suddenly everytime i breathed i could smell that stuff augh it was horrible #worst decision of my life so i needed a cure for this rancid ass stench so my lord and and saviour garlic comes in to save me #and you can just chew on that stuff no one will stop you (altho maybe someone should because eating garlic raw kinda hurts)#anyways posion neutralised but i am rather weary of cheese now #rain world #iterator #rain world oc #iterator oc #oc four blue flames #oc vision of a past #drawins

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sporesgalaxy · 1 year

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i shouldve played pokemon violet in spanish....

#on top of being good practice i bet it wouldve kept me more engaged....#but if i restart now #what if replaying the same stuff makes me disengaged again but in a different way.....#i have not touched the game in months and im not even halfway thru it argh.#i wont touch it today anyways i have to clean a bunch of shit. but still i find time to agonize over inconsequential things #adddna #also to be clear 'im not engaged' doesnt mean its a bad game. it means im a shit ass gamer #i am. NOTABLY. bad at engaging with games the way that youre supposed to.#its a miracle pkmn sun & legends arceus went as well as they did #but alas. the amount of free choice in violet makes my little pea brain confused #legends arceus was my max capacity for open world story driven games i guess.#'dont you own breath of the wild' i sure do. i havent played it in over a year i think. maybe 2!#and girl you KNOW i am even LESS close to halfway thru that one #'hows spore different' theres not a story im just encouraged to fuck around! its like an art program. to me :)#meanwhile in violet and botw i cant draw on things. i cant make a little guy of my own. &i can barely play dress up #im supposed to be entertained by GAME mechanics???? in the VIDEOS GAME??? and not just creative tools and/or linear narrative???#bull shit . game mechanic of skill is nothing but agony for sydney. the least you could do is give me a good consolation dress up game.

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justalittlebluetiefling · 5 months

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I am typically a very quiet person (in volume), so I forget that I can actually be Very Loud until I have to run a practice by myself.

#i was the Primary counter tonight and oh boy i am out of practice and breath my lungs hurt #i will tell you that those teenagers fucking listened though #i always forget that they are actually very scared of disappointing me too because i feel like such a background coach most of the time #and honestly it's the best they've done listening to me without the head coach there ever #one of them came up to me after today and was like 'oh my god i forgot how much i missed you running practices'#and i was like 'really? i felt like i was so mean to you guys today' and her answer was 'yeah but we deserved it'#they're good kids our first competition is on saturday and they are not going to look great but i hope they look decent #and then we have 2 months until the next one so we have more time to get our shit together #my coaching adventures #personal

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tidekissed · 1 month

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sitting and waiting for a stressful phone call 👎👎👎👎👎👎👎👎👎👎👎👎👎👎👎

#tidepool chats #I HATE it when people will not get back to me about shit THEY fucked up #I have a very tight schedule. I cannot sit and wait for your sorry ass when you were supposed to get back to me ten minutes ago #in zale time ten minutes is when I could have a rare bathroom break or take a breath/catch up on notifs #I’m so irritated. I have other classes and meetings yet today I have to be on time for.#and here I am. waiting for a phone call from admin. about something THEY did to ME #but somehow *I* am the one suffering for it #it’s fine. I’m fine.#yes I did indeed get woken up again and three people have told me I look terrible #but it’s fine. I’m fine. Totally unaffected by sleep deprivation.

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alltherelicsofalifelonglived · 9 months

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alright having mostly played thru rain world (havent finished gourmand bc i'm not emotionally ready to be a slugpup parent, havent finished hunter and saint yet bc i suck at this game) im going to weigh in on the slugcat fur argument. i think they all have fur, however, i think its constantly way too humid on account of the daily torrential downpours for it to ever be fur-like in appearance, and is instead has more of a gel-like feel to it. like if the structure of the fur and whatever skin oils are produced reacted with water/humidity to form an insulating coat. saint, however, doesn't get the daily downpours and humidity is much lower, so it's fur is fluffed, which helps insulate against the cold. basically all of them are wet cats all the time, except saint bc climate change.

#can you imagine how fucking humid rain world is #how does shit even breathe #anyways dryest to wettest is obviously saint is dryest #then artificer who is always blowing shit up #then spearmaster with the Weird Vibes #monk survivor and gourmand are all normal slugcat wetness #hunter is close but slightly wetter due to the Turbo Cancer #and rivulet is obviously the wettest of beasts #artificer's skin oil is explosive out of sheer spite and rage and her burning hatred also keeps her dry #spearmaster has more surface area for airflow so dries out easier at least in the tail region #slugcats are Wet is the hill im going to die on today #rain world #slugcat #do i care too much about the biology of slugcats? probably. am i gonna continue speculating? yep.#slugcats probably have naturally hydrophobic coats #the dryest ones are worse at swimming because that hydrophobic coating isnt established on them #its either this or they're literally the texture of pipe cleaners #also when i say i havent finished hunter i havent even made it out of farm arrays on them im so bad #saint ive at least gotten some progress on

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floral-hex · 10 months

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I’m fucking disabled

#I had this conversation with my therapist last week. I’ll give you the secret HIPAA breaking rundown #I HATE calling myself disabled #I don’t know why. there’s no shame in it. it’s just ya know it’s just what I am #but I still can’t get it into my head that yes I’m kinda fucking disabled #because here I am sitting on this creaky futon unable to understand anything anyone is saying to me bc my hearing is so bad #it’s a bad hearing day! it happens! some days are good! today is very much not so good!#so I told my therapist I’m way cool with telling people I have mental health issues #but when it comes to hearing it’s ‘oh no I’m not REALLY disabled. I just uhhhhh can’t uhhh fuckin hear sometimes 🤷🏻‍♂️ that’s normal right?’#and he’s like no my sweet boy you are disabled you need to own that shit #okay… he didn’t say it like that but this is my flashback please let me have this #let me be a sweetie boy in my own mind #he said it’s usually the reverse: people don’t like to admit mental health issues but will mention physical disabilities #I just… I spent 30 something years with great hearing and then it all just got taken from me out of the blue and no one knows why #and I hate that. I’m so angry. I’m so fucking angry and scared and alone #and I hate admitting that yes I am disabled. like really disabled. it feels like defeat.#and it shouldn’t. like I said it’s just kinda what I am now. It’s like saying I breathe or I’m allergic to birds. it just is me.#sorry I’m just having a rough day #I got about an hour of sleep and now I’m holding down the fort while a home inspector and the new buyer look through the house #and I can’t talk to either of them. I can’t understand them talking to each other. it’s isolating.#I have therapy later and I’m hoping I’ll be able to communicate and hear during it. I really just need someone to talk to #I miss talking to people in person. I can still do that it just can take a bit of work and I hate subjecting people to putting up with me #I feel so needy. I just want some human connection. I want to know I can still make this work.#gosh this is whiny. sorry about that. just needed a quick vent to get me through the next few hours #anyway I love you. probably. maybe… ehhh #you can ignore this #text

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pastafossa · 2 years

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I've decided on no chapter this week, I need to work on the getting the fiberglass dust out of my room and belongings. I've talked to a friend who's installed insulation before and it's salveagable/cleanable - it'll just take work, but that means I'm going to have a very busy week since I need to get this taken care of ASAP. Will post updates if anything changes.

#pasta life update #the red thread #i'm just glad i can save at least some of my stuff #and friend told me what mask and gloves i need so i'm not breathing that shit in while cleaning up #my lungs feel a little better today too so that's something #especially since i haven't gotten my new medicaid approved yet #which means i am currently sans insurance and thus cannot afford a hospital trip

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hella1975 · 2 years

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my mum will say the nastiest rottenest things to me and then she’ll calm down and be like ‘sorry 😝’ and ill move it on bc it’s not worth getting her angry again but inside im like babygirl maybe u have some anger issues maybe

#at one point she was like ‘do you think im mean?’ and I was MAD mad at this point and both of us mad is never good #bc we’re just trying to hurt each other for no other reason than to know we’ve got through to the other #so I was like ‘YES I think you’re mean’ ‘but only when I’m angry’ ‘that doesn’t justify it’ ‘but you agree only when I’m angry’#and I didn’t know what she was getting at so I was like ‘yeah?’#THIS BITCH GOES ‘huh I can live with that’ LMAO???#anyway I moved out of my uni room today and a year ago when I moved IN me and my mum rowed the entire time #and it’s a real sore point for me bc it was her saying how cold I am and that she basically doesn’t like how I’m turning out #(direct quote)#and me saying how her temper ruins everything and she can’t see sense #and low and behold we effectively had THE EXACT SAME ARGUMENT today a year later #‘your lack of empathy astounds me. I despair of you’ (that’s a new one. 11/10 word choice she didn’t need to go so hard with that)#and me going back with ‘I hate you when your angry’ and very dangerously close to ‘your just like your mother’ territory #shits and giggles!#I’ve just had a nap bc we’ve been up since 4am and she came upstairs #and I fully pretended to be asleep bc I know that means she’s come to apologise #which means she’s actually taken a second to BREATHE and stop being so fucking angry #and low and behold it returns all logic and critical thinking skills to her #and I’ll have to forgive her because I do genuinely hate her when she’s angry #and it’s just not worth holding onto so I’ll take an out if she gives it me #but it’s soooo frustrating and unnecessarily upsetting for BOTH of us #and I hate that we still fucking do this and I’ve got a whole summer of it and I can’t just go back to uni now and yeah #live love etc #delete later #don’t reblog

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pepprs · 1 year

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ok well i had a second breakdown. and i feel a third one coming on

#purrs #i have been so mentally ill today. i keep thinking abt what my mom revealed to me and crying over it like omg. it could’ve been so so so #much fucking worse but what happened was actually pretty bad and has consequences that will impact me FOREVER. i was a newborn baby and my v #very first moment being alive in the world was one in which i was ********* my very first days alive in the world i was completely alone and #nobody wanted to see me or beljevei existed and everyone thought i was going to die and no one could touch me! epic and awesome and epic and #awesome and epic! literaly this explains everything that is wrong with me and has ever been wrong with me and will ever be wrong with me.#and there’s nothing online for adults who discover this shit abt themselves and then have to cope w the implications. no counselors that #specialize in this. like um they’re tearing the deck down on monday maybe i should go stand on it and let them take me with it bc clearly #every day of my life has been and will continue to be one in which i suffer the consequences. but also i am making a mountain out of this an #and i am sleep deprived and overworked and overwhelmed and about to get my p*riod and haven’t had counseling so im being insane over nothing #but i have ugly cried so hard today. like i was so little and some awful things happened to me and i can never get back what i missed and im #like this literally forever. it’s like this grief that takes my breath away #delete later

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tariah23 · 2 years

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Another annoying day at work

#I want to say a lot but I’ve already complained and had an attitude at work all day and got so worked up I was out of breath and my boss #gave me a gummy I was like 😑 I’ll take it #don’t even feel like going into details I’m tired man i just got here and it’s already-#I don’t want to quit tho #good money #but man I am not a slave either gtfoh #and don’t make it seem like I’m not doing enough/ my part when you got everybody else sitting on their asses on their phones and eating and #shit and standing around acting like they’re doing shit (the concierge’s 😑 they literally don’t do anything but greet guests and show them #to their lockers and stand around looking pretty like that’s literally it) so don’t get up in my face talking about we need this and that #like I’m only one person I’m one nigga we keep telling them to hire more ppl in our department there’s like 4 of us and 3 of them are #transitioning soon then it’ll just be me all by myself like bro this is so unprofessional #even other departments are like they need help 😵‍💫-#rambling #Sunday’s aren’t usually hectic but today sure was #and the coworker who I usually work with #well they forced her to come in to close instead of coming in as a mid like usual because I was wondering if she called off #it’s so stupid #my sis usually closes but she’s on a trip rn #and there’s another girl who doesn’t show up on sundays and misses work a lot anyway because of school/ family stuff #its literally never anyone’s fault if they call off it’s always the jobs fault for not having coverage/ hell never the person #then I already had a feeling that today was gonna be annoying because the girl who calls off often wasn’t coming in but I figured that #someone else would’ve finished the shit in the back at least but nope I had to play catch up and do the shit from yesterday and this morning #so there was a lot to do and this bitch comes back there talking about some you need to prioritize this and that and do this and that as if #I don’t know how to do my job as if I wasn’t just doing what she said needed to be done etc etc like she isn’t even the boss she’s just #another worker like girl get your bosse’s pet ass out of my face #killing stabbing slamming

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vigilaent · 1 year

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my cat will not stop having asthma attacks so i may be a bit scarce

#out.#his steroid shot barely helped i fucking hate spring #:/#which sucks because i love spring. but this happens EVERYYY year and he barely survives it each time so #animal health //#ask to tag #he's already needed more steroid shots than usual but they get him through it #so it's always just. like i'm gonna fucking explodeee when even that doesn't work #cause then you just have to sit there. and hope his attacks will be 4 hrs apart so u can give him albuterol #and if they aren't then shit sucks watching ur cat struggle to breathe bc it is spring in the goddamn midwest 👍#sorry #vent //#the ogs can attest that this happens every year sorry for neverending cat asthma drama forever #if i on the other hand crank out replies threads today it is because i am coping

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hueningkai · 1 year

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#o boy its been a shit january fr.#i feel so !!!! suffocated n alone #the fact i had to call in bc of the state of my mental health on monday was insane. i've never rly done that #and some people knew so it made it even more stressful having people worry 😭😭😭😭#my colleague did get me chocolate + iced coffee today to cheer me up :')#which was great bc as a result i am Sick and have NO voice and everything aches.#i walked into work yesterday and had to ground myself and do breathing exercises #i am fucking exhausted i slept well but still felt drained mentally n physically #im!!!! not okay!!!! but ill be okay!!!!#i may delete but im just. sad. kermit sad.#change is 😬#i had terrible eye pain last week and i kept telling people it was stress but they didnt believe me!!!#eye pain n cluster headaches n the fact even my meds dont curb this anxiety/depressive episodes !!!!#and my memory has been TERRIBLE like my memory sucks anyway but im talking forgetting things after like 2 secs .#i walk a few steps and i am like ? i forgot what im doing #kye.txt

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narutomaki · 2 years

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when I remember I have work tomorrow

#i hate having one (1) day off and then going back to work #i know i spund entitled and privileged and like an asshole buy it fucks qith my sense of time SO BAD #i had no idea today was friday!#when im working 4 days on 3 days off i KNOW WHAT DAY IT IS.#being disabled and having a whole organization backing me if the company tries to pull shit abt ny drs note. :^)#i work 5 hrs a day max 20 hrs a week #this is the maximum i can do before i go over the threshold to causing my body more injury #im barely recovering as is. but at keast im going 2 or 3 days a week not in exceuciating pain #that i have to mask with medication and deep breathing.#i dont want to do this forever but what the fuck else am i going to do.#i cant get a degree bcus the only thing im interested in is financial and budgetting and that makes me a corporate shill #vut i just like numbers and spreadsheets and structure #but also. never going to be able to work at a financial position with the hours i need to work #to not end up sobbing in the er getting injected with fucking. steroid pain medication #so.#any way thats my life story #only job i am interested in doing is morally reprehensible! so im just going to be a cashier until i die of a heart attack #caused by the stress of it lmao

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malkaviian · 1 year

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i have a headache but also i dont want to go to sleep just yet dkjnfjds i want me-time

(warning: as i was writing the tags of this post this turned into another kinda-heavy rant about the situation my group of friends and i are. so keep that in mind)

#things were weird today when She(tm) was there but when she left things were normal again #but these hours were kinda stressful rip or more like... there was an inherent discomfort and tension in the air #with some ugly commentaries and actions on her part. like its your (supposed) best friend's birthday at least try to hide your disgust 👍#birthday you ~apparently~ forgot until it the day before. also you didnt had a single penny to spend on the gift for him #but you sure as hell had it to go eat with your college friends to expensive places! girl at least dont post about it on insta #and just in case; this wasnt a '*goes to expensive places before* -oh i dont have money sowwy :(('#this was a '-oh i dont have money sowwy :(( *goes to expensive places after it*'#what we were asking for collaboration was way less than what she spent on those places. it was AT THE VERY LEAST 3000 ars per food #and you know what she wanted to give for the gift? 500 ars!!! you cant buy shit with it; let alone if we only collaborated with 500 each #like she wanted. we're 4; genuine question what kinda shit can you buy for $2000. maybe a good quality cup but we already gave him that #but even then the point is not the money; the thing is the attitude. you cant spend more than $500 on us #but you can spend at least $6000 on your other friends; given you went to eat with them two days in a row. priorities i guess?#OH! and talking about it!! can you fucking believe she INVESTIGATED the phone of our ~new~ friend (the one shes jealous of)#and DEADASS said 'oh i see. my mom has an A51'. our friend has an A20 if im not wrong; which might not be an A51 but its. still expensive??#also your mom has an A51 but you have an iPhone 5 since you were on high school. but hey; apple i am right?? inherently better than an A20 #sorry i have less than that; i have an A10s (that i got on the start of 2020). can i still breathe the same air as you and your mom /s #once again the problem is not the money or the phone or WHATEVER. its the fucking attitude shes having. you want to pretend you have money #and act like youre superior to people who 'dont'; when in reality YOU ARE MIDDLE CLASS. YOU ARENT UPPER CLASS; NOT EVEN UPPER-MIDDLE CLASS #YOURE MIDDLE CLASS. MIDDLE CLASS LIKE THE REST OF US; NOT LIKE YOUR COLLEGE FRIENDS YOU LOVE SO MUCH AND WANT TO IMPRESS #YOU SPEND MONEY YOU DEFINITELY DONT HAVE BECAUSE YOU WANT TO APPEAR UPPER-MIDDLE AT THE VERY LEAST. but thats a lie #a lie that if these beloved friends bothered to ACTUALLY know even the slightest about you; like we do; would fall apart. but they wouldnt!#because they dont care about you as much as we care(d). do you think they will tolerate this fucking attitude youre having towards us?#no they wouldnt. trust me; they WOULDNT. they will tell you to fuck off and leave you completely alone. go cry a river.#god fucking dammit why are you like this. WHY you turned like this. or rather; why we were SO GODDAMN blind we didnt noticed this before #negative

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itstimeforstarwars · 1 year

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Being in my new department is bad for me because nobody gives a shit what anyone thinks and it’s rubbing off on me and I am going to get fired for telling a manager to go fuck themself any day now.

#chit chat #the guy who was in my job before me came to visit today #and he was telling me that he quit his new job and told everyone to go fuck themself in the same breath #so i guess it would prove that there is exactly one type of person for this job #god i should have just fucking quit in August like i intended #work stuff #i made cupcakes tonight and they all turned out bitter because i am filled with misery and it infected the food #i also gave myself a nosebleed from crying all night but that was unrelated to the shit cupcakes #i am going to bed tomorrow and if i end up quitting or getting fired for Christmas you will all find out on friday’s chapter lol #which i have yet to edit but maybe I’ll just post it raw because i have not had a single fucking hour this week to do anything fun #i hate december #and im going to bed now

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