sending my love and support to everyone currently impacted by the adhd medication shortage.
please know that you are allowed to need extra support if you're struggling without meds
and that there's nothing wrong with you for finding them helpful.
not being able to function in certain ways without them doesn't make you any less worthy of anything.
you are trying your best with what you have, please be kind to yourself and allow yourself to be proud of your achievements, even if they're different to how they would be with meds.
if you're used to doing things with your meds, having to spend time adjusting to not having them is difficult, there's nothing wrong with you for finding that.
I hope you know that you are not alone and can be proud of yourself for how you've managed so far <3
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For the fanfic ask game: 💖 👀 🥺 🤲 🥰 (sorry I know that's a lot LOL feel free to pick and choose!)
The ask game <3
Oh no don’t apologize! I love people asking a bunch of questions because I love rambling about my fics!
💖- What made you start writing?
I have two answers for this question, since I actually stopped writing a while ago and then got back into it.
I first started writing in general because I was primarily a Wattpad user (I had no idea Ao3 existed, but give me a break I was like 13) and I was reading fan fiction for a manga/anime series called Kuroshitsuji or Black Butler and I just wanted a heroine reader like me.
Most of the "readers" or "ocs" in those fics didn't really stand up for themselves and often let the guy characters walk all over them--or they would be referred to as "badass" but were never really given a chance to be badass. And, at the time, they were also mostly blonde haired/blue eyed.
So I started writing because I wanted a heroine reader that stood up for herself and didn't take anyone's shit and was actually badass on paper--and who had brown hair and eyes like me. I actually still have the full outline of the fic I was working on, and a draft of the prologue, and here are two commissions I bought for my oc:
I did eventually stop writing for a while, though, because I was just tired of writing and rewriting and rewriting (the outline and draft I have currently is my 3rd rewrite of the entire thing, 4th if you count the other completely different version of it--I get very nitpicky with my fics sometimes).
What got me back into writing was actually you. I started reading "Shoulder the Sky" and I saw how much work you had put in and how passionate you were about your fic and I just...got inspired. I already had an outline for The Great War sitting in my Google Docs (from back when I first got into Star Wars) and I basically decided "fuck it, if they can do then so can I, I'm gonna start writing again" and I did, and now I have two fics ongoing and several in the works that I can't wait to get to.
👀- Tell me about an up and coming WIP!
Ok, one of my WIPs that I'm working on (that I hope to start writing soon, once I finish the outline) is a Modern!AU called "Deeper Roots."
Basically Cody and Obi-Wan are high school sweethearts who have had a long-distance relationship for over a decade now, since Obi-Wan had to move away from their town when he got custody of his siblings (Anakin, Ahsoka, and Reva) from their father (Qui-Gon) due to family issues.
Well, Obi-Wan and Cody decide that he should move back to town since Anakin will be starting college soon (he's 21, but took a gap year and then waited since he had an accident that took his arm) and the college of his choice is nearby + Ahsoka wants to go to that same college + they all miss Cody a lot and want to see him more.
Only one problem. Cody hasn't come out to his family and they have no idea he's dating someone, let alone that he has a boyfriend and that he's--for all intents and purposes--technically a father of three. They all try to keep things a secret from his family still, but things obviously get a whole lot more complicated once the two sides of Cody's life start to intermingle.
(also, I think Reva should be incorporated into their family in Modern!AU fics more often, I think she'd make a great youngest child)
🥺- Is there a certain moment or common interaction between your characters that never fails to put you in your feels?
Ok, slight spoilers for BCC, but one interaction that always makes me emotional when I start to think about it is this one line that I have planned for the end of BCC.
Basically Obi-Wan and Cody are hiding away in a storage room after a hard battle and Obi-Wan says something about "not wanting to be High General Kenobi."
So Cody says that they don't have to be Commander and General. That, when it's just them, "they can just be Obi-Wan and Cody."
👐- Would you please share a snippet of a WIP?
Nothing else is really written yet, so here's a snippet of the next chapter of Bloodshed, Crimson Clover:
The Force sparked restlessly under Obi-Wan’s skin as he stared at the empty holomap in front of him, eyes searching it for the readouts of a battle that hadn’t happened yet—or, rather, was happening, but just out of reach. He could look away. Attempt to meditate, or finish last mission’s report, or do something more productive with his time, but the near-blinding blue light of the blank screen had already seared itself into his mind and he knew that, even if he walked away, it would follow him.
So he stayed.
Staring.
He hesitantly reached out along his and Anakin’s Force Bond, gently pushing forward the memory of Crys announcing they were only fifteen minutes out and an impression of– you? Them? Safe?
Part of him didn’t expect Anakin to respond, and another part of him dreaded that very fact, but—as always—Anakin was full of surprises. He was quickly hit with a twin pair of waves, harsh impressions of impatience and frustration that burned the back of his throat, and their corresponding memories—one of the 501st’s Star Cruisers disappearing in a flash of fire and smoke, a supply ship they were escorting quickly succumbing to the same fate, Anakin’s admiral informing him that they couldn’t hold out much longer.
The taste of ash felt thick and heavy on his tongue, and it took him a moment to recover from the sheer intensity of it all—although he was careful to keep his expression devoid of any emotion. Anakin was strong in the Force, but that meant he often forgot to take into consideration how his power might affect those around him. Obi-Wan was used to it, however, so he was able to disperse the effects quickly enough, and the emotions that followed were all his own.
🥰- How do you feel about reader interaction? Are you open to receiving questions about your fics?
I LOVE IT SO MUCH!!!
*cough* ahem.
I love getting questions about my fic and I love getting comments and people talking about it--all of it just makes me so happy! I love my fic and I love to see people loving it too!
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i just wanted to say you are a complete and utter creative genius.. THANK YOU FOR FEEDING US!! — you might be tired of ps!ghost by now but i just wanted to ask/share a little..how do you think ps!ghost got into his field of work? my brain is saying it probably started in amateur college videos where his roommates started it but he ended up joining in, they put the video up online for shits and giggles, ghost is unexpectedly popular..
eeek, thank you so much, love!! you know what, I wish I was tired of ps!ghost—my life would be much easier if he didn't possess my every waking thought, lol. alas!
to answer your question: that is how.
that is exactly how.
what comes to simon's college friends, they were definitely posting videos of them having sex with their one night stands—all consensual, yet still just slightly morally questionable—but simon only went solo.
his first video was really not a great one: just the shitty back camera of his phone filming his cock has he touched himself, and while he was beautiful, it was not his cock that got the attention of the viewers that happened to stumble upon his video.
it was the dirty-talk.
it was the groans and the curses: the accent and the low chuckles, as he fucked his hand until he was coming all over the dark blue sheets of his dorm room. it was the way he spoke to whichever lucky human it was that he was thinking of in that moment.
the praises and the promises.
and while the few comments his roommates had received on their videos were all complimenting the girls, what came to the handful of comments that simon received, they were all talking about his voice and his dirty-talk.
and holy hot damn, did that give the cocky bastard a confidence boost. while he had never been the quiet type with his hookups, he was now actively paying attention to the way he was speaking to them. studying the way in which their eyes rolled back as he complimented them, and noticing the way that they downright began to glow as he praised them.
and so, he kept learning and he kept posting. after a while, he invested in a better camera. one that he would prop up on a pile of school books as he filmed himself—first with his face cropped off the frame, and after a while with a mask covering the lower half of his features.
the skeleton, people called him.
ghost, he corrected them.
the more he posted, the more popular his videos got. he began to gather a community of regulars, nearly obsessive over the man only in his early twenties.
and that's when kate laswell reached out to him. the agent had seen his videos, and noticed the way that he was being eaten up by his fans. the potential of ghost was unmistakable, and she knew that the studio she represented could offer him something safer and more secure: something that he could actually make a pretty penny out of.
ghost—surprisingly humble under all the cockiness and the confidence—thought that the whole thing was a joke, until kate offered to fly him first class to L.A. to meet up with the studio.
his friends, of course, lost their shit and downright threatened him to dive into it or else. and for one very unspecified reason ghost is extremely happy that he did.
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Got an evil eye
In which there’s a small Demon!Rire Angel!Rire comparison.
❗️For commonly asked qs please see my BTD FAQ
😇 The lore of Angel!Rire is essentially:
Possibly rogue angel that kills people under word of God.
Word of God being debatable because his criteria for killing people changes a lot - (eg: might kill a bad person cos they’re “bad”, similarly will kill a good person to get them to heaven faster, similarly will just “mercy” kill whoever because humans are a plague to themselves and others etc) - EITHER WAY no one seems to be stopping him.
Also debatable is whether he believes in his justifications for his actions or if he’s just doing it for fun and purposely smoke-screening that fact.
I have described their main similarity before as deception since they both seem viable (as a normal human / normal angel) at first. Their main personality difference is that their modus operandi is flipped - Demon!Rire will often see how long he can con someone, but will eventually reveal his true nature and will match what he says with it. Angel!Rire is more blunt and will reveal his true nature almost immediately, but will continue saying things in complete antithesis to that reveal thus masking the reality of his intentions.
I do know what OCTs are! But I probably would never join one due to lack of time. They seem to be very large commitments and i’d be better off trying to find that time to do BP :V
There is no set location for BTD (considering that me, Gato and EP all come from diff countries LOL)...other than maybe “Earth” and “some city/town place that predominately speaks English”.
This is, actually, one of the more popular questions I get asked over time about Rire XD; Which makes me think I need to update my FAQ to include it. Anyway in my FAQ i put it like this:
CAN RIRE FEEL LOVE? I don’t know if you could classify what he feels as “love” in the same definition we are used to…
And from other answers to similar qs:
IF he becomes fond of someone for whatever reason, he will probably become more possessive. His methodology might not change so much, but there would be more aftercare (cos if you want someone to last longer...)
I never go any more in depth when answering these kinda qs even though i’m sure people would like me to XD
At first I was going to say “I don’t know Depeche Mode”, but when i looked them up on Youtube i saw “Just can’t get enough” and was like OH I KNOW THESE SONGS.
As for Rire it’s not super in line with his usual, but I don’t think he’d mind the music!
He’s gotten used to moving between different climates quickly so it doesn’t really affect him as much.
You would not be the first so go for it if you want lol.
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