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disaster-bay-leaf · 3 years

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Ok so these were the cutest~ (ㆁωㆁ)

4, 6, 7, 9, 12, 19, 22, 23, 28, 33, 34, 46, 47, 52, 59, 60, 63, 66, 83, 87, 88, 93, 99

I kno I listed like....all of them lmao but feel free to answer whichever you want and ofc you can ask me in return Baybe ( ◜‿◝ )♡

uHUHUHUHU much content for me to answer, im happy bebe 💜💜💜✨

4 - how do you take your coffee/tea?

hm coffee either Very Black No Sugar (for the sleep deprived me) or iced latte three sugars and theres no in between

and as for tea its All Black Teas That Exist, cinnamon-flavoured especially (but basically all teas that come to mind when u think “autumn”), and rooibos!!! okay basically the only oke i dont like is any type of green tea (which is sad because they look cool but my tastebuds said ✨no✨)

6 - do you keep plants?

honestly id l o v e too because i love plants but,,, im kinda horrible at taking care of them though still way better than the majority of my family (research helps) so the only plant i own is kinda a small-palm-tree-looking thing in a bigass glass jar that i saved from my mother’s plant-destructing hands and its mostly doing well (the ends of its leaves are starting to be yellow tho and im worried:((( )

7 - do you name your plants?

yes!!! though the current one was named by my sister and its called “pickett” after fantastic beasts shsjjsj

9 - do you like singing/humming to yourself?

oh god oh dude you have n o idea

i have absolutely n o singing voice but its something i do constantly to give my brain the right amount of stimuli so basically i listen to music 24/7 and hum to myself 99% of that time

12 - whats your favourite planet?

oh i actually didnt think about this for so long but either pluto (hes a planet screw nasa) or saturn (RINGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) or venus (girls,,,and libra,,,)

19 - do you keep a journal? what do you write/draw in it?

okay im gonna be completely honest with yall and say that my every single try at keeping a journal failed spectacularly and i lost motivation after like a few months so my only journals rn are my fancy fake-leather-bound calendar to note tests and assessments into, a kinda roughed up notebook that i uses for noting down poems or scribbling or passing notes in class, and a kinda fancy bullet journal notebook that i used as a book of shadows for a while but since my fountain pen died i didnt touch it

22 - are you a morning person?

n o

i am so not a morning person but i wish i could be because honestly dawns are beautiful

but as it is rn im either sleep deprived all the time and loathe every second of being in an awake state or (if i have a few days of schoolbreak) my biological clock moves forward a few hours and i sleep 2am-10am

23 - whats your favourite thing to do on lazy days with zero obligations?

except for the fact that i dont remember the last time it happened, i would probably spend it drawing outside, watching anime with my sister and riding a bike around the forest

28 - sunrise or sunset?

i love sunrises because its so peaceful and everyone is asleep but also i subconsciously immediately correlate them with waiting for a train to take me to school (because thats basically the only time i see them) so its a bittersweet love especially with my fucked up biological clock

but sunsets are really really pretty too and i see them more often so i cant choose

33 - whats your fave pastry?

and isnt that a millior-dollar question dhsjjsjsj

either cinnamon rolls (i absolutely adore them) or that one specific type of cupcake-shaped-thing made out of shortcrust/bread/whatever its called and filled with vanilla pudding

34 - tell us about a stuffed animal you kept as a kid. what is it called? what does it look like? do you still keep it?

awwww this is cute

okay so basically my two favourite stuffed animals (i still have them, they sit in my wardrobe) were two teddy bears (like maybe 20cm high each of them) and one was pure brown and the other was silver-brown and they had stereotypical polish male names “Waldek” (read. Valdek) and Stefan (i think tho im not sure if i remember correctly, my memory is a feeble thing sometimes

46 - tell us the worst pun you can think of

what dog would never bite you? a hot dog *badumtss*

47 - what food do you think should be banned from the universe?

huh a year ago id say pineapple pizza but i guess i dont hate pineapples that much anymore (tho putting them on pizza is still an abomination) but i think that if id ever want to get rid of anything it would be parsley, i hate that freakin herb (does it count as food tho)

52 - what are your favourite memes of the year so far?

the ever given for sure shsjshjsjsjsjjsj

but bullying tramp stamps is gold and pure tumblr energy too

as for fandom memes: im in love with all keeping-up-with-the-todorokis variations and the fact that the entire bsd fandom looked at fukuchi and said “biTCH” and thats one of the only things we’re unanimous about

59 - whats your favourite myth?

i always liked the kora/persephone myth (though demeter is an overbearing parent to the nth power), loki and thor crossdressing at a party to get mjolnir back, atalanta because shes a queen and id politely ask her to kick my ass, and cassandra because she deserved better, and theres a l o t more because alas i was a mythology nerd but this post is long enough for me not to make this section 20 times longer sjjsjsjsjsjks

but there are a lot of slavic myths that are very cool too, though we dont know that much about them as about the greeks for example

60 - do you like poetry? what are some of your faves?

o o o o h yeah i do like poetry because to create such a beautifully sounding thing with only words someone has to be a genius

some of my favs are: some works of nakahara chuuya (thank u bsd for introducing me to this man’s beautiful imagery in his works i swear to god the descriptions do it for me) (also his poem about having hangovers is a mood like i feel you buddy), the raven by ea poe (i know everyone likes it but hOLY DAMN THE INTER/INTRAVERSE RHYMES ARE LIKE,,, BREATHTAKING) (and aso im a slut for gothic horror), and many more but also That One Poem From Welcome To Nightvale about reaching the island in the west,,, only perfect vibes from it

63 - are you fussy about your books and music? do you keep them meticulously organised or kinda leave them be?

okay heres the thing. for anyone else both my playlist library and my bookshelf would be considered pure chaos of a mad man b u t they actually have a highly focused system which means that i sort them based on their vibes, lovability and (in case of books) their age and whether or not theyre a part of a series so i would say my bookshelf is rather organised (when a quarter of it isnt occupying my desk that is) and my music is more organised than not but sometimes it gets out of control and i have to sort it entirely again

66 - what would your ideal flower crown look like?

either entirely constructed of simple white daisies, entirely constructed of only white roses, or something that probably would win a “how many different coloured flowers can one fit in a flower crown” competition

or something purple (maybe not belladonna)

83 - whats some of your favourite album art?

god i dont know if it counts but hozier’s wasteland baby is probably one of my absolute favourites and no one shall beat that

“thrifted youth” (dalynn) and “standard deviation” (danny schmidt) have very aesthetic covers too

also the iconic p!atd too weird to live, too rare to die! album cover,,, its just iconic what can i say

and last but not least matt meason’s pink-and-black album covers (though bank on the funeral is really pretty too but like,,, “who killed matt meason” d o e s it for me and so does the 2017 tribulation single)

87 - what are some movies that you think everyone should watch at least once in their lives?

this is such a hard question because im not a really cinematography-oriented gal but i suppose that (at the risk of not going deep enough into the cinema world):

- the princess bride

- inception

- night at the museum

- SPIRITED AWAY

- forrest gump

- truman show

- E.T. (i cried okay)

- the lord of the rings (because damn me if this isnt one impressive adaptation)

- parasite

and one more personal recommendation: “ready or not” with samara weaving because goddamn i dont usually watch this genre but holy s h i t is it good

93 - whats the hairstyle you wear the most?

honestly just plain hair down (because having curly hair is a menace), split in the middle when i have longer hair and split on one side when its short

also low ponytails or half-up-half-down when im exercising, or double french braids when my hair doesnt cooperate enough to look presentable in any other form

99 - list some songs that resonate with your soul whenever you hear them

this is difficult because my music taste is a goddamn rollercoaster on a good day, but heres some:

- me and the sky from “come from away” musical (this is sort of a test song for my mental stability, if i cry i aint stable)

- dancing after death by matt meason (okay most songs by matt meason except for like,,, hallucinogenics maybe)

- tears and rain by james blunt

- i will follow you into the dark by death cab for cutie

- almost home by mxmtoon

- anything by hozier really but shrike especially

- payphone, the cover by alex g (i cried to this song so many times)

- burning pile by mother mother (can i roast all my problems please)

- long way from home and cleopatra by the lumineers

- autoclave by the mountain goats

oooh that was c o o o o o o o l as fuck thank you sm so much bebe (and sorry for the long post @everyone else)

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prodicalmenace · 4 years

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Okay but like you’re in a coma and life and death are fighting for you where ironically Dazai is life and Chuuya is death—

i still dont have a real writeable idea for this so lets just talk it out...

dazai as life and chuuya as death has the same energy as canon where they keep trying to push dazai as inherent good and chuuya as inherent evil. its so funny. im laughing, like right now and all the time, because a.) theyre meant to embody “the grey area” as much as the entirety of the story does all the time and b.) this fandom doesnt seem to understand that an allegiance does not equal a stop on the pendulum of morality so stop acting like everything has to be one or the other and actually READ instead of drooling over pictures

but this scenario of a coma almost fits so right. you, i dunno, get hit by a car or have a bad bungie jumping incident, idk, whatever it is the world views it as a freak accident and here you lay in a hospital bed for months like bad spinach. except its not a freak accident, because there exists this higher power or whatever that has dictated your time. as you lay unconscious the lose ends around you are closing up, the life that goes on improves as you truly leave your mark on the world as a literal casualty of life.

but life gets greedy.

dazai sees your unconscious body every day and knows it was his job, his rightful honor or whatever, to complete your life cycle and give you up to deaths doorman, chuuya. it was arranged before you were born, and he does it all the time, but how fucking dare your partner develop romantic feelings for your sibling while you sit there lying in your own filth. how dare the world turn on without you, how dare it improve, when your life made it bearable enough for him.

it’s very adjustment bureau, a transaction that was never supposed to be torn between the one who is selfish and the one who knows his place, because chuuya knows this is for the best, that this will be your release and you will finally know the peace you literally kill yourself trying to experience. he better than anyone knows life after death, and he knows that you deserve it, so just let go and he can give that to you.

but you remain too attached to life, to dazai’s pull on your fingertips that suddenly remind you that you’re cold. and for those brief moments you exist, but it stings when he asks you to lightly move your muscles and breathing in burns with the plastic shoved in every end of your body. it shouldn’t hurt so much to live but boy did you already know that, because life just takes and takes and takes and when it claims to give a damn it sure flips the switch on you, huh? what will dazai do anyway, other than thrive a bit in the chaos your life creates before moving on to better things. what part of his selfishness is so attractive to you when it hurts just to be on the same plane as him, and the same plane will never be the same wavelength.

so often people backtrack the shit of life with benevolence and opportunity but we are all well aware its garbage, and i think that fits dazais character so much. life is supposed to be beautiful, simple, dressed in a trench coat and ready for rain but he jumps into the fucking river and doesn’t bother holding his breath. it’s unreliable, it’s real, it feels like a nightmare only you’re aware for it.

meanwhile, as kimmy schmidt puts best, death is the eternal sleep and mama needs a nap. it’s often regarded as the true benevolence and the existence of freedom. there stands chuuya, beautiful sideways mullet chuuya who understands (even if in little practice) empathy and its value in life as much death. chuuya who puts your mind at ease when the world is sheit and threatens to drown you without your own comprehension. chuuya who allows you to let go, to grow, to digress, to do as you need because now you can. i have less descriptions here but basically, chuuya is so good, yah?

this also rings to chuuyas loyalties--where chuuya fights its for order, for structure, for safety of those he loves. his value of people makes being death a perfect role because life is so hell bent on torturing people that don’t deserve it, meanwhile he’s fulfilling a duty that has meaning and is working for a larger purpose than his own satisfaction. likely this means that you actually mean just as little to him as you do dazai, but only one of the two is concerned with your actual wellbeing rather than an emotional outburst. comedy, i know, but deaths misplaced anger comes from lifes inability to follow through.

also this post is not about dying being good plz dont bull a booth on me i cant take the heat

#osamu dazai #chuuya nakahara #dazai x reader #chuuya x reader #bsd x reader #bungou stray dogs #bsd au #prodicalmenace requests

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myhahnestopinion · 5 years

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The AARONS 2018 - Best TV Episode

Peak TV is tearing me apart trying to binge-watch every show that is epic, so defending individual chapters of these shows is a good way to remind oneself to not get so lost in the big picture. Here are The Aarons for Best TV Episode:

#10. “Captain Underpants and the Costly Conundrum of the Calamitous Claylossus” (The Epic Tales of Captain Underpants, Season 1, Episode 7)

Even more so than the fun but formulaic movie of last year, The Epic Tales of Captain Underpants embraces the irreverent spirit of Dav Pilkey’s children’s books. This charming childishness is no more prominent than in “The Costly Conundrum of the Calamitous Claylossus,” in which the latest vile villain brings the world of the Wedgie Warrior from its traditional genial 2D animation to 3D Claymation, threatening its survival... due to, as the characters note, the budget cuts to their show needed to maintain such animation. This meta-narrative proved that, when it comes to the colossal undertaking of retaining the joy of Pilkey’s series, the Netflix Series is certainly wearing the pants.

#9. “A House Divided” (Trollhunters: Tales of Arcadia, Season 3, Episode 10)

Trollhunters rose above the basic tropes at the backbone of its story thanks to the creative spirit of creator Guillermo del Toro. For its final season, del Toro’s influence was felt harder than ever, particularly in “A House Divided,” which marks protagonist Jim Lake’s fateful loss of innocence, a common theme among the director’s works. Jim’s journey has left him with an impossible choice, which renders the viewer nervously unable to breathe for the duration of the episode, only to culminate in an unforgettable ending that features only the sound of breathing. While spin-off series 3 Below may be off to a good start, it will be difficult for any of del Toro’s planned Tales of Arcadia to match the heights of his subterranean world of trolls.

#8. “I’m Not the Person I Used to Be” (Crazy Ex-Girlfriend, Season 4, Episode 8)

Crazy Ex-Girlfriend’s final season is off to an affecting start, but has suffered from a sense of place-setting in its first half, the blessing and the curse of its extended episode order this year. However, the series’ endgame seems to have finally begun in its tight-knit mid-season finale, which saw the return of season 1 mainstay Greg like you’ve never seen him before… literally. Skylar Astin gets off on the right foot as the recasting of the role, a backstage change used within universe to demonstrate and further develop Rebecca’s changing sense of self as she seeks happiness and reconciliation, noble pursuits that make for notable television. That doesn’t sound so crazy now, does it?

#7. “Winner” (Better Call Saul, Season 4, Episode 10)

If Crazy Ex-Girlfriend has made excellent television out of the pursuit of personal growth, then Better Call Saul’s moral decay can perhaps be designated its mirror image. As with all of the show’s season finales, “Winner” is a product of bad decisions on the part of the characters, and great decisions on the part of the show’s creators. The episode acts as a microcosm of a season filled with exhilarating schemes, striking cinematography, and poignant decisions, culminating in a turn of events that remains shocking despite being known as inevitable. The episode title says it all. This one’s a winner.

#6. “Legends of To-Meow-Meow” (Legends of Tomorrow, Season 4, Episode 8)

As noted in its ranking in the Best TV Shows of the year, there is a large assortment of gonzo episodes of Legends of Tomorrow that deserve distinguished praise, but the show might have snuck its most awesomely oddball episode in just under the wire for this awards show. A teammate’s transformation into a feline following a regretful change to history is but the cat-alyst of an episode that illustrates the multiple revisions to the Legends of Tomorrow (aka Custodians of the Chronology aka Sirens of Space Time) timeline via retro-TV-themed intros, explicitly mocks the comparatively tame nature of the concurrent running “Elseworlds” crossover, and, yes, teaches kids helpful lessons through the power of singing puppets. It’s an episode brimming with loveable moments, but all knit together with a touching story of a lost love that perfectly illustrates why Legends of Tomorrow has clawed its way up to the best of the Arrowverse.

#5. “Time’s Up for the Gang” (It’s Always Sunny in Philadelphia, Season 13, Episode 4)

Always Sunny has never shied away from addressing hot-button issues, tackling racism, abortion, and gun control with a biting satirical edge in just its first batch of episodes. Yet, it’s still shocking how much dark humor the show can unearth in the most unlikely of places, a delicate balancing act that succeeds because the show is keenly aware of where its jokes should fall. Written by series standout Megan Ganz, “Time’s Up for the Gang” puts its hilariously-horrible cast of characters through the ringer over their past behavior with rollicking gall and technical grace. There’s likely no other show that can maintain such quality and relevance thirteen seasons in, suggesting that Always Sunny’s time is far from over.

#4. “Jeremy Bearimy” (The Good Place, Season 3, Episode 4)

Written by the bearer of one of Twitter’s best accounts, and the mind behind last year’s eclectic entry “Dance Dance Resolution,” Megan Amram, Jeremy Bearimy brought The Good Place’s third season roaring to life in wild fashion. Kickstarting with the reveal that our universe’s true nature is more “Jeremy Bearimy” than timey-wimey, the episode features a slow descent into existential crises that is, despite the show’s wonderfully heightened reality, presented in the most relatable of fashions: a truly, truly disgusting bowl of chili. The episode’s major resonance lies in the credo cultivated in its final moments, a commitment to doing good in the face of inescapable punishment, but it’s also an unbearably funny journey to get there.

#3. “Free Churro” (BoJack Horseman, Season 5, Episode 6)

BoJack Horseman’s most remarkable episodes, such as previous Aaron winners “Fish Out of Water” and “Stupid Piece of Sh*t,” have been those that have toyed with its animation format. “Free Churro” breaks these conventions in a completely different manner, isolating the entire action of the episode to a single monologue via eulogy delivered by Will Arnett’s BoJack. This striped-down focus parallels the striping down of BoJack’s psyche through a rambling, soul-churning soliloquy that lays bare BoJack’s tragic backstory. As it goes on, the monologue leads the protagonist and the viewer to the harrowing realization that perhaps there will not be a happy ending waiting at the end of all this. It’s heavy stuff, but the cherry on the top of a great episode is the comedic pay-off to the piece, in case you were afraid that “Free Churro” was entire free of cheer.

#2. “Party Monster: Scratching the Surface” (Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt, Season 4, Episode 3)

Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt, like BoJack Horseman, is a show that address a history of abuse in unexpectedly uproarious ways, and, like BoJack Horseman, produced one of the best episodes of the year by breaking its Unbreakable formula. Framed as an expose documentary on Kimmy’s once-captor, the Reverend Richard Wayne Gary Wayne aka DJ Slizzard, “Party Monster: Scratching the Surface” is at once a staggering assortment of long-running gags, a painfully precise mockery of documentary formats (including riotous instances of narrative tangents and stock footage), and a scathing lampooning of how misogynistic radicalization takes hold. The show has always been fueled by a righteous fury, but with the fourth season’s no-holds-barred approach to its darker material that never sacrifices the rapid-fire humor, it’s sad that Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt will be ending this year, when it seems like it’s still just scratching the surface.

AND THE BEST TV EPISODE OF 2018 IS...

#1. “Teddy Perkins” (Atlanta, Season 2, Episode 6)

Unexpected even in a show that’s routinely impossible to predict, “Teddy Perkins” is undoubtedly the strangest episode of TV all year… and certainly the best. Fulfilling, and perhaps exceeding, the bizarreness of Atlanta’s oft-cited inspiration Twin Peaks, the episode follows Lakeith Stanfield’s Daryl quest for a particular piano that lands him in the decrepit mansion of the peculiar eponymous Teddy Perkins, an eerie, ersatz late-in-life Michael Jackson, played by star Donald Glover in extensive make-up. It’s surreal without sacrificing structure (in fact, the episode aired unbroken by commercial to enhance the immersion) or the show’s social commentary. For the entire extended-length of the unnerving and unforgettable episode, viewers are rankled by the horrifying possibilities of a show that has so unequivocally shattered all boundaries of television, including the possibility of a fateful end for a beloved central character. A standalone dreamlike masterpiece strengthened by its relation to a superb show, “Teddy Perkins” will undoubtedly perk up your ears if you’ re not already all in on Atlanta.

Yes, I know my puns got worse as the episodes got better.

NEXT UP: THE 2018 AARON FOR BEST TV PERFORMANCE!

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hcrris · 5 years

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can ….. i come in ????? have been watching unbreakable kimmy schmidt for 3 hours pretending time isnt passing , life isnt real and in fact.. i am dreaming (-: lajdfksl hey <3 im jay im 21 and i love those instagram profiles of hamsters in little clothes ( when they got little purses? ???? dont talk to me im cryin. ) below u will find info about jane harris aka literally the vine of the little kid scribbling hard like his life depended on it. shes a mess ?? but a semi enjoyable mess. a mess with good intentions. if u want to establish some connections, LIKE THIS and i will come annoy u <3 alternatively u can ease my social anxiety and msg me here or through my discord sencha tea#4035 (و ˃̵ᴗ˂̵)و♡

( lily collins, cis female, she/her. ) — jane harris has been a medina complex resident for three years, now. they’re twenty-three years old, and they tend to avoid making eye contact. sometimes when i walk by B06, i hear cherry-coloured funk by cocteau twins playing. lately, i’d say they’re pretty effervescent, but sometimes that’s overwhelmed by the fact that they’re neurotic. i mean, they usually pay their rent on time, though, and that’s most important fact here.

repeatedly fixing the apartment number on the door when it swings down to a nine, a split moment of shadow after the radiance of laughter, carl sagan’s pale blue dot, a life of frequent minor accidents, constant hunger for balance overshadowed by emotional turbulence.

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TW ALCOHOLISM EMOTIONAL ABUSE DEPRESSION & ANXIETY !!!!! ok moving on

her parents met in art school in paris.. her mom is french and studied art history while her dad was an exchange student from california with a skewed artist mentality. it was that saccharine, toxic sort of love. her mom always felt like she needed to be the guardian angel in the relationship who would always hold him up when he was feeling down and he was feeling down….. a lot. because she was putting all that energy to save her relationship, she was drowning too but never enough to walk away. there was a lot of love there but it was twisted and uncomfortable at times

when they found out jane was on the way, it felt like they needed to suddenly grow up. her mom was ready to make changes, adapt to the new lifestyle. her dad, on the other hand, urged they rethink if this is what they want but he didn’t push for abortion.. he understood it was jane’s mothers choice to make and reassured that he would be there for the both of them no. matter. what.

but ??? the reality was he felt trapped by the idea of a child and he struggled to acknowledge and accept how quickly his life was flipping upside down and how he lost all control of it. he wanted to travel around europe ???? soak in nature, daydream and make art . but jane’s mom wanted to settle. instead of embarking on adventures after graduating, they decided to move to california.

things just seemed to fall apart like domino from then on. janes mom was lead astray.. thinking that what california would bring them was stability but instead, it was all chaos. they rushed to get married .. turned out janes father wasnt on good terms with his parents. he was irresponsible financially, put both his parents in huge debt, was blinded by his ego to ever realise his mistakes. lied constantly .. convincing janes mom that there’s light going forward. that once he finds a sponsor for his art .... once he sells his first piece ... once they see in him what he always saw in himself , he was going to make it right. and he reassured he would make it right for jane.

janes mom was so pathetically in love that she pushed through .. living in a sort of imagined world, believing that things were better than they actually were. and her dad was good at persuading that narrative. he would come home with a pocketful of cash and the bills paid. oftentimes, it was all an act. his art wasn’t selling and a lot of what he bragged about was borrowed or stolen. behind the curtain, he was absent and unmotivated. he would come home in the evening claiming that the whisky breath was celebratory but in reality, he was complaining to the barman two blocks away about how his life feels monotone .. like a french black and white movie.

the day of jane’s birth was a whole mess. her father decided to drive her mother to the hospital, knowing he had one too many. they were caught for speeding and while janes dad spent the night at a nearby station for driving under influence, her mom was at the back of a cop car, crying for one too many reasons .. jane decided to hang on for a little while longer and was born at 3am the following night. cradled in her mothers arms and her dads voice humming on the line

jane would only ever hear the romanticised version of this story from her mother. this ??? fucked up sense of security that no matter what, love conquers all. that love means supporting each other, loving each other extra when everything else falls apart. but truth is.. her mother was forced to give up her own dreams, lost all connections to her past, worked days and nights at a nursing home to support her family and pitch in to her husbands alcoholism while she’s at it. making excuses that jane was too young to contradict. all while the only source of happiness for her father was the haziness of his evenings, when he felt like floating and he could barely hold onto to his paintbrush. he was a stranger living in their basement .. more than he was ever a father

growing up, jane watched her mother mask her depression. carry empty bottles out from the basement, trying to hide it from jane .. it brought her shame. she was doing the same thing to jane that he was doing to her for all these years .. consistently expressing a certain attitude, this unwavering satisfaction for the life they are living and so ... it hardens. you start to believe it. except unlike her mother, jane was observant.. she had other lives around her to compare to her own, voices of reason that pierced through the skewed perception her mother drilled into her skull. when jane grew into her skin, she felt so ... disgusted and angry. she tried to pull her mother out of her fantasy but nothing worked.

through her high school years, she felt helpless .. her home life was a nightmare and she made every possible attempt to stay out of it for as long as possible. she took on jobs and extracurriculars .. stayed at her friends’ house until she couldn’t. and she would think.. think so hard, she would start crying. pushing her own problems away .. in her head, she would imagine herself in a different skin, a different place. it was the only way she could calm her breathing. only to have to battle the same thoughts the following morning

after graduating high school, jane went to community college for product management got a job offering after her placement at a big company and moved out shortly after ( and MOVED IN to medina... can i get a yee yee ) .. she got insurance for the first time in her life and eats too many of free pizza slices at work to save up on groceries every week <3

she doesn’t visit her parents bc she no longer feels like her mother is on her team. she’s lived a maddening and terribly draining life and living alone has brought her deserving peace.. although she’d rather keep contact with her mother to a minimum, its obvious that jane is her mothers anchor. if she feels as though her daughter is not fighting for her, she breaks down.. as much as jane wants to run away from her past, it always seems to catch up

if ur still reading literally who are u lafjdkl. ill be done schoon ..... oof

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if they are friends ... jane. will. talk. ur. ear. off. but probably not for the right reasons lol .. she has never been assessed by a professional, isn’t taking any treatment but she definitely needs it :( shes a chronic overthinker.. the voice in her head keeps chattering away most of the time which gets a little nauseating. she hates silence and feels like she needs to fill it with words. she often says the wrong things .. to the wrong people ... at the WRONG time and she is very aware of it. its the culprit for her self doubt and struggle to open up emotionally to the people shes close to. shes very critical towards herself, she micro analyses everything from the way she acts, the way she looks and what she says. shes also not a fan of confrontation !!!!!!!BUT!!!!!!!!!!!

she is a FIREBALL when she stands up for others. i dont know how she hasnt gotten into a physical fight yet. she would literally rip ur side mirror off ur car if u didnt wait for an old lady to cross the street. is intense in every possible way. if shes angry, shes angry and impulsive and out of control, when she is in love, she feels it in her bones and simultaneously wants to rip her hair out, when she’s passionate about something, she is persistent until she isn’t and when she loses motivation, everything feels bleak .. theres never any emotional balance, even though she fights so hard for it every day

likes sci fi movies .. literally when they are Floating in space ???? SIGN! JANE! THE! FUCK! UP! letterboxd is probably her favorite app. sometimes she will post a review, read it over and over, find something wrong with what she said and then delete it. shes very neurotic. she either has good days where she can comfortably be herself or bad days, when it feels like everyone is judging her every move when in reality. ... it is always .. all in her head.

and she is mostly in her head. she creates fantasies of her life, relationships platonic and romantic and as a result, nothing ever seems to measure up. she feels secure in her fantasies but oftentimes when it hits her that they are just that, fantasies, she ... feels really alone.

will trip over her own feet . has like 5 bruises from washing the dishes </3

she works as a part of a product design team in a big company.. probably has the knowledge to move up the tier but does not have the courage to stand up for herself . she doesnt believe in herself and is kind of a pessimist .......

got high one night and decided she wants to start an uber ....... only for women. but doesnt think its a good ide a (its a good idea. id like to think in 10 years time ... bitch made it)

really weird. likes eating broad beans and frozen strawberries .. will literally eat a lemon.

she will have different interests every week but never seems to be any good at anything ???????????? makes her sad.

claims tidying up with marie kondo changed her life LAKJDSKLDJ

*draws curtains* anybody else tired?

#mediocre.intro #»-.-°-ỽ-⸰-ｓｈｕｔ-ｕｒ-ｔｒａｐ-⸰-ỽ-°-.-«#4 hrs ago : yea ...... i could finish this intro in like 2 hours :) why not. whats gonna stop me ???? writing doesnt take that long.#it takes literally ?? 2 miliseconds. lol .......#im shtupid !!!!! have to take a shower. this is longer than all shakespeare plays combined.#if u read this im manifasting a good year for u.

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Are there any ships in the AU? And what are the relationships between everyone? I feel that's a good start.

Hey you....thanks :'USo about them ships most of them are actually one sided?? Bc im like that lmao.Bonnie and Foxy are together, while Freddy lowkey thinks hes above everyone and Chica isnt interesed at all in romantic stuffWith the toys u could say Mangle is dating themselves??? Like, the endo head is rlly protective of Mangle and viceversa, to the dismay of Toy Chica, who has a MASSIVE crush on Manglealso even though Toy Bonnie flirts with everyone hes actually way too self absorbed and narcissistic and Toy Freddy...hes just an old man in the body of a chubby bear...he just wants to rest...Balloon Boy kinda has a bit of a crush on Withered Foxy, and follows him everywhere. W. Foxy knows about this and lets him hang around The Puppet being an otherwordly being and all that doesnt really understands nor cares about that kind of stuff and the most they can feel are strong feelings of friendshipNightmare and Nightmarionne are The Couple, the scariest gayest and healthiest couple Spring Bonnie and Fredbear were together but Golden Freddy cant stand Springtrap Now with the guards, uhWilliam is incapable of doing things for anyone unless it benefits him as well, and considers forming bonds with people a waste of time; honestly i dont even think he even loves himselfMichael Afton deserved bette- i mean, hes busy watching bad soap operas and rotting Phone Guy had a lot of one night stands and stale relationships back in his day, but nothing really stickedMike Schmidt has an infatuation with phone guy even though they never met but hey, i guess is easier fantazising about a disembodied voice than actually trying to talk to a real person If anyone is even reading this at this point i guess ill write a different post about their (non romantic) relationships...bc this got waaayyy too long im sorry everyone

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okay we’re gonna talk about TFA

I love skinny!steve so much tbh bc all he wants to do is help bc he feels like he cant sit back and wait for the war to end without doing something and he gets so sick all the time and knows that hes 100% going to die if they take him overseas but he just needs to help bc hes so brave and good and pure

i love the scene where peggy punches hodge in the face for being sexist and steve is just giggling

i love the scene where steve and peggy both go to cover the grenade bc they both just need to save as many people as they can they are both so so upstanding and good

i love the scene where hes running through the streets of brooklyn right after he gets the serum and breaking things and apologizing bc he doesnt know where his body parts are but he knows that he needs to do the right thing

i love the scene where steve’s doing his war bonds bit for the soldiers of the 107th and these mostly good men are yelling at him bc they feel cheated and gross and have been through hell and steve cant possibly know whats thats like at this point and he feels so bad bc hes not allowed to help and fight like he wants to

i love the scene where steve finds out about bucky being “dead” and drops everything to go save him bc bucky is all steve’s had for so long and he’s taken care of steve and made sure he was healthy and fed and got his medicine bc these two boys care about each other so much

i love the scenes with the howling commandos before theyre the howling commandos while theyre still captured and theyre all so jaded and ruined and exhausted but theyre so funny and good and bright bc theyre trying so hard to keep hope and then steve comes and saves them and these men are still fighting to save as many lives as possible bc in thats what theyre here for

i love the scene where steve finds bucky half dead and delusional and hes so so worried and scared and disgusted and bucky just clings to him like a lifeline and is so happy to see him and then just follows steve and theyre talking to each other and buckys asking questions and steves giving him these shitfaced silly answers and then bucky literally just went through what mustve been an awful torture and hes making jokes and standing by himself and walking across beams and then he can get out and finally be free of all the war bits but hes never going to leave without steve these two men love each other so much

i love the scene where steve and the pows all come back from their long journey and peggy is so proud of him and everyone is so happy to see all their friends safe

i love the scene in the bar where steve asks the howling commandos to be the howling commandos and theyre all so ridiculous but trust steve so much and literally turn down going home for the war and then i love how bucky makes it clear that he couldnt care less about captain america but steve rogers has always been his home and his everything and going home without him would be ridiculous so he stays

i love when peggy walks in and bucky has the conversation with her where she doesnt look at him and you can tell hes trying to hate her but he cant bc its clear how much she likes steve and bucky is fighting with himself bc hes clearly jealous but hes been wanting someone to see steve the way he sees him for so long and peggy does

i love the scene where lorraine is talking to steve and highkey trying to make a move on him and steve just has no idea what to do or whats going on

i love the scene when peggy and steve are like lowkey fighting about the kiss and peggy just like stares at him

i love the scene where peggy shoot his shield bc hes upset but shes also looking out for him but making sure it works and howard and steve just stare after her

i love the montage of the howling commandos following steve and taking out the hydra base bc these men are so brave and smart and handy and charismatic and funny i love the howling commandos (plus i love that steve keeps a pic of peggy in his compass)

i love the scene on the train with steve and bucky so much bc they just love each other so much and know each other so well and they fight together so well and they always have each others backs and they need each other so much and then bucky picks up the shield and is shockingly confident with it bc its steves and then he falls and you can see steve react as someone who just lost everything

i love the bar scene where steve is just trying so hard to drink away the images in his head bc hes lost a lot of what he was fighting for and then peggy comes and reminds him that no, hes here bc its the right thing to do and he needs to finish this bc bucky wouldnt want him to blame himself and sulk forever

i love how steve goes through the rest of his fight angry and cynical bc hes lost his best friend and hes so tired and he wants to go home but he cant bc he just watched his home fall off a train

i love seeing peggy fight. shes so strong and powerful and good with weapons and i love that we got to see a little of it (wish we got more but)

i love peggys kiss and how steve reacts to it its so cute and pure and peggy and steve care so much for each other and its just all around a very good storyline

i love the scene on the plane where schmidt is talking about the power of the gods and the future without flags and steve just isnt having it and just doesnt care enough to even be baffled by any of it

i love how he brings the plane down. i love how steve rogers stops fighting bc he finished what he came overseas to do and theres nothing in brooklyn for him and there no more war of steves to fight and hes so tired and he wants it all to stop

and lastly i love how the howling commandos and agent carter all got to live happy, good lives bc those men fought harder than nearly any others in that war and saw so much death and destruction and they deserved so much more and finally they get to go home and be safe

#long post #i got carried away #steve rogers #captain america #the first avenger #stucky #bucky barnes #peggy carter #the avengers #i love steve rogers with my entire heart #peggy carter changed my life #bucky barnes is so good and brave and deserved so much better #all of my babies deserved so much better #mine

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2017 EMMY PREDICTIONS

so.... i take award shows pretty seriously. and ive seen over 75% of the shows nominated this year, so i have even more stakes than i usually would, and im SUPER excited! below the cut, you’ll find my predictions for who will win each of the many, many emmy categories!!!! an asterisk means I haven’t seen the show.

Outstanding Drama Series Nominees:

• Better Call Saul * • House of Cards * • Stranger Things • The Crown • The Handmaid’s Tale • This is Us • Westworld

my prediction: while many of these shows are exceptional, The Handmaid’s Tale manages to take an already fantastic novel and make it even better.

Outstanding Comedy Series Nominees:

• Atlanta • Black-ish • Master of None * • Modern Family • Silicon Valley * • Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt • Veep

my prediction: a lot of these shows have been nominated over and over and over, but to me, the one that stood out the most this season was Atlanta!

Outstanding Lead Actress in a Drama Series:

• Viola Davis (How To Get Away With Murder) • Claire Foy (The Crown) • Elizabeth Moss (The Handmaid’s Tale) • Keri Russel (The Americans) * • Evan Rachel Wood (Westworld) • Robin Wright (House of Cards) *

my prediction: this is a hard one! Viola Davis is always outstanding, but Evan Rachel Wood was truly transcendant in Westworld. We’ll call it a tie.

*i wont be predicting male actors bc i really dont care im sorry*

Outstanding Supporting Actress in a Drama Series:

• Ann Down (The Handmaid’s Tale) • Samira Wiley (The Handmaid’s Tale) • Uzo Aduba (Orange is the New Black) * • Millie Bobbie Brown (Stranger Things) • Chrissy Metz (This is Us) • Thandie Newton (Westworld)

my prediction: Millie. Enough said!

Outstanding Lead Actress in a Comedy Series:

• Pamela Adlon (Better Things) * • Jane Fonda (Grace and Frankie) • Allison Janey (Mom) • Julia Louis-Dreyfus (Veep) • Ellie Kemper (UKS) • Trcee Ellis (Blackish) • Lily Tomsin (Grace and Frankie)

my prediction: Allison Janey!!!! mom is a very flawed show but she is always flawless! ellie and julia are good runner ups!

Outstanding Supporting Actress in a Comedy Series:

• Vanessa Bayer (SNL) • Leslie Jones (SNL) • Kate McKinnon (SNL) • Kathryn Hahn (Transparent) * • Judith Light (Transparent) • Anna Chlumsky (Veep)

my prediction: Leslie Jones is such a great actress, her and kate are both strong contenders, but to me? Leslie!

and now we get to the limited event series, which is the one im most excited for!

Outstanding Lead Actress in a Limited Event Series or TV Movie:

• Felicity Huffman (American Crime) * • Nicole Kidman (Big Little Lies) • Reese Witherspoon (Big Little Lies) • Carrie Coon (Fargo) • Jessica Lange (Feud) • Susan Sarandon (Feud)

my prediction: I think its pretty damn near impossible to beat Jessica Lange. Perfection.

Outstanding Supporting Actress in a Limited Event Series or TV Movie:

• Laura Dern (Big Little Lies) • Shaileen Woodley (Big Little Lies) • Judy Davis (Feud) • Jackie Hoffman (Feud) • Michelle Pfeiffer (The Wizard of Lies)

my prediction: LAURA DErN!

Outstanding Limited Event Series or TV Movie:

• Genius • Fargo • The Night Of * • Big Little Lies • Feud

my prediction: I loved many of the nominees for this, especially feud and bll, but if big little lies doesnt win i will flip a table. it deserves this.

agree or disagree! message me to talk further!

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From Groundhog Day to Raging Bull? films to inspire and uplift

Supposedly inspirational films tend to leave our critic reaching for the sick bag. He finds defeated boxers, desperate weathermen and boozy, cantankerous widowers far more uplifting

Can films be inspirational? Well, the good ones all are. And, in a broader sense, going to the cinema is a narcotic, luxurious experience that makes you feel inspired, uplifted and stimulated. But when people talk about inspirational films underdogs achieving spectacular sporting success, charismatic teachers winning over pupils, people overcoming disabilities I am sometimes a bit agnostic. An inspirational film often feels soupy and syrupy, schematic and cliched, faintly coercive and reactionary. Inspirational means aspirational, no arguments and it brings out my ironic, grumpy Brit. When Im asked for my favourite inspirational scene, I nominate Tom Courtenays final, miserable act of defiance in The Loneliness of the Long Distance Runner.

One movie that was lauded as inspirational, The Blind Side, features Sandra Bullock in an Oscar-winning performance as a well-to-do Christian Republican mom in the Sarah Palin mould. She takes in a troubled African American teen and helps mould him into a top football player. This was a huge hit in 2009, with great swathes of America undoubtedly deeming it to be inspirational (perhaps the inspirational movie is itself an American genre). Personally, I felt it unwise to leave the sick bag beyond arms length. The same goes, incidentally, for Clint Eastwoods terrible Invictus, about the South African Springboks earnest battle for the 1995 Rugby World Cup, under the kindly eye of Nelson Mandela.

Keep the sick bag handy The Blind Side. Photograph: Allstar/Warner/Sportsphoto

I like Rocky as much as anyone, but Im quite sure Raging Bull, with its dark, mysterious poetry of defeat and survival, is in a different weight class. And there is something inspiring in the final audacious quotation from the Gospel of St John: All I know is this: once I was blind and now I can see.

Yet sometimes films are genuinely inspirational, specifically because they dont indulge irony or nuance (it could be that inspirational, like comedy or romcom, is a genre that isnt critically acceptable). I have a soft spot for that fierce heartwarmer, The Pursuit of Happyness, directed by the Italian master of dolce, Gabriele Muccino, and starring Will Smith. It is a true story about a guy called Chris Gardner who once faced poverty as a jobless single dad, got an unpaid internship at a prestigious firm, and had to keep up appearances alongside the pampered yuppies competing for a permanent job, while he and his son slept in hostels or even subway toilets.

Yes, its treacly and unashamedly premised on the idea of material success, the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. But its forthright and well made. It doesnt exactly inspire you, but it is touching and successful in its sentimental-euphoric inspirational mode. In this vein, I have to give credit to a sweet and good-natured movie based on a true story: October Sky, with Jake Gyllenhaal as a grim-faced coalminers son who is inspired by Russias Sputnik to go into rocket science when he leaves school.

The King of Inspirational Robin Williams in Dead Poets Society. Photograph: Moviestore/Rex Shutterstock

As for the inspirational-teacher films such as Good Will Hunting and Dead Poets Society, again I am agnostic. They garnered a lot of awards-season euphoria, but I am not sure they have aged well. They certainly show that Robin Williams was the King of Inspirational, in the same way you might call Fred Astaire or Gene Kelly the King of Song and Dance. Something in his hyperactive funniness vulnerable, secretly wounded, dripping with empathy, morally strong made him the incarnation of inspirational: the teacher figure who wasnt distant or fierce, but often a kind of rocket-fuelled version of the class clown who was on the kids side. Williams did this so well that he was never quite convincing in the darker roles he tried at the end of his career.

Laurent Cantets Entre Les Murs (The Class) is a French film about a tough inner-city school. Maybe its too tough to count as inspirational, although its seriousness is inspiring in a way as is the final, enigmatically moving shot of the empty classroom. And a mention should go to Goodbye, Mr Chips, the 1939 version, with Robert Donat as the much-loved public schoolmaster who teaches generations of boys right in the decades leading up to the first world war; despite his own poignantly short and childless marriage, he thinks of all these boys as his children. Goodbye, Mr Chips is an example of how the inspirational movie is a cousin to the weepie.

Where inspirational triangulates with the weepie and the Christmas film James Stewart in Its a Wonderful Life

Its a Wonderful Life deserves a kind of peripheral inclusion here, for being where inspirational triangulates with the weepie and the Christmas film. Part of the agenda of the sentimental Christmas movie is to inspire characters and audience to lead better lives. That is very much the point of Frank Capras celebrated work, in which George Bailey is shown a vision (not dissimilar to those vouchsafed to Scrooge) of what his hometown would have been like if he had not sacrificed his own ambitions to help the community.

Just as inspirational and brilliant is Harold Ramiss Groundhog Day. Bill Murrays misanthropic weatherman is trapped in a repeating day, made to go through it again and again, and inspect his own life in all the detail he had arrogantly ignored, with an infinite amount of time to acquaint himself with every square millimetre of the hokey small town he had presumed to despise. He becomes a better person, but the films own comic miracle is that it doesnt labour this point, despite Murrays hilariously laborious ordeal, or even make it explicit. And I think that is inspirational.

Self-fulfilment We Are The Best!

But for me, the one genre I find really and truly inspirational without having to claim it as a guilty pleasure is any film about people forming bands at school. Movies such as John Carneys Sing Street and Lukas Moodysons We Are the Best! are genuinely inspirational because they are about self-betterment and self-fulfilment, in their way, but no one is telling the pupil musicians they have to do it to get good grades or be a more responsible person.

In fact, the grownup world is usually frowning at the whole idea of being in something as disreputable as a pop group. So there is something entrepreneurial, creative and rebellious about it. Under this heading, I would also include Good Vibrations, an excellent film about Terri Hooley, the record shop owner who nurtured Belfasts punk scene and brought the Undertones to the world.

Isolating a moment of inspiration in a film is an interesting challenge. Alexander Paynes About Schmidt is a relentlessly dark film on the painful theme of family dysfunction. Jack Nicholsons performance is dyspeptic and despairing: his face (like Paul Giamattis in Sideways or Bruce Derns in Nebraska) is on the point of becoming an immobile mask of disappointment or despair. Yet every time I see him burst into tears at his letter from the little African boy, I find the moment euphoric and, yes, sort of inspirational. There is something irresistible in the possibility of Schmidts redemption, even in its broad implausibility. So maybe About Schmidt is my favourite motivational film.

More uplifting culture for 2017

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From Groundhog Day to Raging Bull? films to inspire and uplift

Supposedly inspirational films tend to leave our critic reaching for the sick bag. He finds defeated boxers, desperate weathermen and boozy, cantankerous widowers far more uplifting

Keep the sick bag handy The Blind Side. Photograph: Allstar/Warner/Sportsphoto

The King of Inspirational Robin Williams in Dead Poets Society. Photograph: Moviestore/Rex Shutterstock

Where inspirational triangulates with the weepie and the Christmas film James Stewart in Its a Wonderful Life

Self-fulfilment We Are The Best!

More uplifting culture for 2017

Read more: https://www.theguardian.com/film/2017/jan/01/from-groundhog-day-to-raging-bull-films-to-inspire-and-uplift

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