tell a 2016, hell even a 2021 tianshanist that Mo GuanShan tickles He Tian under his chin and calls him a good boy for BUYING then plating food and watch them be carted off in the back of an ambulance
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my cat has been napping in my lap for the last hour or two and it's very cute but I do have to occasionally move my legs
the first couple times I did this she was like "okay fine I will readjust" and then curled up between my legs again
but this time I needed a greater shift (partly because I simply cannot sit with my thighs spread enough for her to lie between them for this long), and took longer, and she decided that she would respond to this by hissing and biting my ankle
and then hunkering down and refusing to let me move or to put my hands near her
so she has been kicked off the bed for now
sorry ma'am you are very cute but this is unsustainable
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I carry so much shame and sadness for my parents surrounding my disability. it's strange because I do recognize my own pain, but I also see them having to deal with this and what it means, seeing me in difficult states in a new light, seeing me require new experiences (like sitting more frequently, vocalizing my needs more in general, asking for disability accomodations). and I do feel like I've let them down, even if they tell me they didn't have any expectations to begin with, I have to explain to them that good health is an expectation (and that it's untrue that they didn't have any expectations of me, everyone has hopes and dreams for their kids). I see so much of their pain and grief and confusion and fear and guilt. My dad seems to carry so much guilt with him and oscillate between trying to accept and understand that these are my life conditions and denying that reality, saying I don't need to live in that reality if I don't want to and I can do anything I set my mind to doing. And it's just so frustrating and heartbreaking having your own struggles with disability, that are internalized most of the time, be spoken out loud by the voice of the person who put those ideas in your head in the first place, not trying to be malicious but trying to get you to succeed.
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COULD adam overpower michael like sam did to lucifer? in theory yes i think he could the problem is adam doesn't really have the willpower for it anymore. i mean the end of 15x08 kind of established him as a bit of a wreck with the whole "since when do we get what we deserve" thing because yknow. he was in a cage for a thousand years and he's tired in a hopeless sort of way. if it happens it happens. not to mention michael's his friend! so his willpower would be weakened by that as well. but at the same time i can't see any sort of scenario popping up where adam WOULD have to suppress michael because there is no situation in which michael would be fighting tooth and nail to be in complete control like lucifer was. he respects adam too much to do that and is extraordinarily gentle with him to boot. so in theory yes he could but in practice? michael just hands him control the second adam wants it
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thinkinn im havin one of THOSE days but it makes me distressed when i feel disconnected from the world in general. why wouldnt it yk, i just dont really feel there. haven't done much today, nor moved admittedly. guess ive just been overwhelmed and im feelin it now. i dont feel like a person and its a little scary
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