mini update yay-
so lets see, ill start off apologizing for being dead- exam season is around the corner and the only good thing about that will be that i will no longer have to teach or design papers- so i can probably draw a bit again, hopefully at least- so i WILL get back to the requests yall have sent me i promise uwu💕
tho bad news comes in the form of my school principles and viceprinciples bullying me because im a newbie, saying im not good at my job and putting their shortcomings as my fault because who wouldnt like to blame someone else for something they werent able to do- and i feel like the abuse im taking in this toxic environment is convincing me slowly to quit my job and start risking less stable jobs even if it means being my daddies little house girl again for a while. 🙄 at the very least even if im leaching off my parents i still actually HAVE somewhat decent parents and thats not something alot of people could say and im greatful for that.
the audacity was well shown when the principle went on the teachers meeting and was like "some of the teachers here who i will not name dont know how to do their job-" and then told me that i only got my job cuz my dad is rich [which yeah sure my daddy studied 4 years of uni and then credited me sure mmhmm makes sense.] and honestly i feel like im surrounded by 50 year old toddlers-
overall, learning to adult is difficult and im glad some people are helping me figure out how to put together a resume and apply for jobs and all that.... but i guess the next bad news comes in the form of us leaving for russia. i dont hate seeing other countries but having my life uprooted immediately after work ends and summer starts and selling off the car and putting stuff in boxes and yeeting ourselves via plane to live somewhere else for the next 4 years in pure isolation is not something my mental health is gonna be haha about. esp since im gonna have to talk to my therapist and doctor to give me enough meds for me to be able to search for another doctor while im there to give me similar treatment. ughhhhhhh.
overall i feel like i have reached a lovely level of ✨️no longer giving a shit about existance✨️ and thanks to some friends i was convinced juuuuust enough to reconsider ending myself :) in my defense, google was getting annoying for only bringing up hotlines =_=
my eyes cant see well anymore due to constant crying and emotional numbness has taken over me, so i apologize if i may seem out of it or a lil blunt at times when im talking lol i no longer have the energy to PRETEND and hold a mask to seem SOCIALLY appropriate and in this last month of school im gonna be making it everyone elses problem at school.
but other than that im looking forward for school ending so i could just sleep for a while without waking up BEFORE my alarms at 5am.
ok lets see what else uhh... my bday is on 19th and i pray to lord nobody makes a surprise party for me here, the anxiety of being in crowds is already kicking me in the ass im not ready to pretend to have a social battery ugh.
okay thats it mostly, i think.
i actually made this update MINI get it? :D
...ill show myself out...
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Book 7 JP spoilers (recent-est i think)
(recently found out how to do keep reading bits.)
i. have been told what happened
you know this groovy with him crying
i know context now
and
oh my god
my. heart. ughUISHfdi rOOOOK.
(m gonna be honest rook was never my favorite and i honestly didnt know how to feel about him. [to be fair i hated sebek at one point but now im like a huge sebek fan so.] but i think when this gets onto EN and i play through it im just gonna be a huge rook fan man.)
like
okay
so i know what happens in the story
(also i love this so much this is now in my mind, rook's actual room pre-nrc [except vil's not in an RSA uniform LMFAO. actually if it was PRE-NRC i dont think either of them would have enrolled at a school yet, unless neige is older than vil, or unless RSA doesnt do the same enrollment ages or whatever like NRC)
ACTUALLY SCRATCH THAT NEIGE IS IN HIS 2ND YEAR???
??????? people notice so much oh my god..
wait....
actually do you think neige joined a school because he saw vil join one?? cause. i think he really idolizes vil.
(actually kind of makes me think of cheka idolizing leona)
huh. random thought.
i mean i only know a summary of it (im fine with spoilers ngl and i dont care even if you shove like a fully translated post of the entire chapters and stuff.. i just like seeing story that i dont mind rereading)
but like man. its gonna break me when we're there for that moment. (in EN)
i
dont want to say anything in case there's an EN person here. and i mean if they're spoiling themselves all the more power to them but i also feel like its one of those things that are a LOT more impactful when you encounter it for the first time so im just. not gonna try to learn more about it and wait. (although its like. JP is in Part 8 i think, we're in Part 4??? that seems so far away sob. but also we gotta finish lilia's dream first so...)
im just. sadge. (also idk what vil's dream is but i think we end up seeing it. unless it was actually a render of him from rook's dream, which i wouldnt think is too far off. but also--)
THIS IS APPARENTLY CANON?
I SAW IT AND I THOUGHT IT WAS A JOKE BUT THEN I RAN INTO IT AGAIN??? and its like. LISTEN. he looks so goofy i cant... epel. i love you. but oh my god (i cant take you seriously im SORRY im DEAD)
also he's still in pomefiore which is cool (he accepted his cuteness! although i dont know how much of a weapon his cuteness would have now..?. you think he snaps out of it cause ppl might laugh at him [and then he beats them up] but he still gets irritated cause what the heck im not cute anymore--- [..wait. i was never cute. what am i on about.] ...i keep overusing the word cute and i know he wouldnt use it himself but i have a very small vocabulary.)
im just.
i dont know how to feel about this ??? (it feels more cursed than hatless rook. i can at least pretend he isnt hatless. but like. epel..)
also vil in rsa /neg /hj (the rsa uniform looks so bland and i like him in darker colors)
okay im gonna be honest i have a dislike against RSA. and thats honestly because im petty and hold grudges.
also i like my villain boys and i just want them to win (..yknow. i really dont think GloMas counts when the RSA boys were actually nice enough to like. ..take hits for them??? and then we were planning on leaving them like LMFAO 'not my problem')
so yeah.
actually wait if rooks dream takes place in VDC how the fuck
WHO IS NRC TRIBE????
CAUSE VIL'S IN RSA WITH NEIGE?? HELLO??? WHAT.
WE'RE NOT WINNING WHAT THE HELL
(unless our role in the dream is to drop a jawdropping performance [idfk do we have diasomnia boys minus lilia(? i honestly dont know how lilia's dream ends and if he joins us) and malleus???)
but listen. if vils the best. and neige is the best.
we're so. not winning..? (i was going to ask if it was gonna be like rook this time voting for NRC and thats how we win. but like. HELL no are we gonna have it be split 50/50 again like that)
anyway i am still very excited and so pumped and oh my god fhsuihe
i find it so funny that at the start of the post i was so crushed like 'oh my god...' cause angst and then here i am doing a complete 180
EDIT: hold on. i didnt think to think about it but now that we know what his room looks like
thats his bed. you can see the neige part. and that thing he's holding onto is like the movie poster (or i assume its a movie poster) with vil and neige
ngl i saw some people linking it up to like the hunter crying on snow white's dress
which. i never saw this movie so like (i dont even want to know what happened but also these movies are OLD. also in like sleeping beauty?? i saw the animated of once upon a dream or something like that and mans just comes up to her out of nowhere. no warning and holds her and sings and im just like brUH if you did that id fucking hit you like WHAT???)
also i just noticed his muscles goddamn.
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RAY YOU SHOULD DO ONE W ELLIE, WHERE YOU AND ELLIE ARE STEP SISTERS AND YOU LIKE HER A LOT, BUT YOU DONT WANT HER TO KNOW THAT, BUT ONE NIGHT SHE GETS HOME DRUNK AND YOU HELP HER GO TO BED, BUT SHE STARTS KISSING YOU AND IN THE MORNING YOU ARE LAYING IN HER BED NAKED, BUT SHE SAYS THAT THIS THING CAN NEVER HAPPEN AGAIN, BUT SHE CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT YOU, AND YOU TWO SECRETLY START DATING, i hope this is too dirty😊😊
step sister!ellie x fem!reader
Im gonna change some things about this to make it more of a drabble :)
cw: wlw, fluff with plot, mentions of alcohol, light vulgar language, secret rs, step sister trope (non biological).
I planned on making this longer than it is but I decided it being shorter just made it better.
♡
'fuck..' ellie groaned, her tone quivering ss she stumbled through the door. her feet dragging on the floor boards lightly. you leaned up on the couch, rubbing your eyes as your nostrils flared. 'els?' your eyes turned their gaze onto her, your pupils slightly growing. 'oh my god..' a sigh escaped your lips as you got up, lifting yourself up off of the couch. a whiny mewl slipped out of ellie's lips as she guided her coat off, stretching her arms out. 'are you okay?' your eyebrows scrunched, looking up at ellie as you helped her take sit down on the couch.
'mmhm..' she murmured, leaning back on the couch as her arms guided up to behind her head. she exhaled a deep breath, pulling a hand out to her nose, scrunching her eyes as she rubbed her face. you studied her, your gaze softening, 'were you at the bar again, ellie?' your tone was gentle as you put a hand on her spine, guiding your hand up and down in a comforting manner. 'yuurrrp..' her words slurred drastically, yet her voice was smooth.
another sigh choked out of your throat, you pulled your hand back and sat up. 'okay we gotta get you to bed..' you gripped her hand, attempting to pull her up before failing miserably. you whined, looking at her with an annoyed scowl. 'ellie, c'monnn..' you groaned, trying to pull her up again.
'mmggh fine..' she grabbed your hands, pulling herself up with your help. you gently held on to her, guiding her into her bedroom. 'you reek..' you giggled 'what did you drink?' you helped her onto her bed, looking at her with a curious smile. 'just some rum..' she hummed, her voice cracking while she laid back onto her bed, stretching out her limbs as she got comfortable.
a gentle giggle escaping your throat, 'just some, huh?' you teased, getting a chuckle out of her. 'too much..' she said, making it almost sound like a complaint, you laughed, pulling a blanket over her in a silly playful manner.
'mph, c'mere.' she whispered, her gaze resting on you as she patted the spot next to her on the bed. 'ooh sleepover time?' a silly smile growing on your pretty lips, you climbed onto the bed, leaning your back onto the wall. she leaned over, resting her head on your shoulder. 'don't leave me..' she said, her voice low as she shut her eyes, you smiled. 'I guess it's a sleepover then...'
she chuckled, her nose nuzzling into your collarbone, "mmhm..' she hummed, whipping her head back slightly, just enough to rest her gaze on you.
her eyes turned their focus to your lips, her gaze switching back between the both of your gorgeous features. 'you're staring, els..' you mumbled, looking over at her with a gentle smile. she nodded, 'I know..' her words slurred again, but this time they were clearer. she leaned in, her teeth biting down on the skin of her lips, the tension was deep, strong enough to be cut by a knife.
her tongue darted out of her mouth, lightly coating her lips with her saliva before she put her hand on yours. her other hand guiding up your neck before resting above your collarbone, she pulled you in slightly, pushing her lips against yours.
the way her lips gliding against yours was intoxicating, it felt so wrong yet so right.
she pulled pack, looking at your face, almost like she was studying you. her eyebrows scrunched, the way she looked at you made you get the butterflies. she smiled at you lightly before nuzzling her face into your neck.
(sorry that this is 1. short and 2. not very much like the request but I don't really like writing step sister tropes so that's why I made it only a kiss. but I do love the request and just letting anyone know I'd love to take requests rn cuz of writers block and lack of creativity, and I'll try my hardest to post fics daily. thank you for over 500 likes after only just starting this account, I love all of you<3)
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