Can’t believe David’s first words to Gwen are the same as his first words to her in the special (which I think was intentionally going to be the series finale, but I don’t know if that is confirmed.) just making myself a little crazy rn.

looking up thermal carafes in the 25 and under range bc i would like to be able to make a large pot of cocoa and have it stay warm for at least 10 hours, and they are all SO boring looking.

brushed stainless steel.

black.

white.

red.

I saw a (baby) blue one that's gone on my short list, but i really would prefer a purple one (i have so far found ONE but it's literally my LEAST favorite shade of purple on earth), or one with flowers or stars or something.

why are there no PATTERNS anymore???

when i got into fandom as a teenager i understood my preference for f/m pairings to obviously be due to my being bisexual. of course i wanna see men and women kiss, that's hot. duh.

and you know. i was right. it is hot.

“Howard is such a bad friend Randy deserves better!!!1!1!1” they are literally freshman..straight out if middle school..teenage boys..OF COURSE THEYRE GONNA BE ASSHOLES no highschooler is going to immediately understand morals and “how to not be a jerk(or..shoob)”, ESPECIALLY FRESHMAN!!!

ALSO dont act like randy is a saint, he can be an asshole too, just not as excessively cause 1. He has a (somewhat) higher morality rate and a bit more empathetic and 2. Hes the main character, more often than not you want the main character to be likeable.

(I rlly hope i worded this right)

Been getting into podcasts as of late, and have finished/caught up on:

Old Gods of Appalachia

The Silt Verses

The White Vault

Dark Dice

And have started I Am In Eskew. Old Gods and Silt Verses are announcing new seasons soon which is exciting. Eskew is interesting so far too.

Apparently coaching soccer once a week isn't workout enough to stay in shape WHY NOT.

so last week I got what I guess is the Growth Mindset™ praise for the first time ever I think, where I was commended for my hard work and dedication...which i honestly think is kinda code for "wow you have no natural aptitude for this whatsoever but you're sure as hell trying, well done". I mean that is in fact absolutely true so. it is a physical, coordination-requiring skill and I am (or at least was) basically dyspraxic

anyway it doesn't actually feel any more motivating than the opposite that I'm used to ("you have so much potential / so smart / whatever; you just need to work harder") but stuck with me just coz it's so fucking weird lol

a classmate teased that I was being heralded as a model student lmao and I hated that so much. even though the instructor who said it is extremely good and a big deal and I do respect him a lot, and...I am very dedicated to it. but still repulsive idea

my neurodivergent brain will not let the editor in me REST. it is impossible for me to write without editing as I go. can’t be turned off or even traded in for your car’s extended warranty.

Advantages of being an elf:

- you get the pointy ears

- youre never in a hurry again, ever

Disadvantages of being an elf:

- every other race assumes youre racist

- every other race makes fun of your bland cooking, with good reason

- you gotta walk up a thousand stairs to make it to the 2nd room of any building bc the architect thought making it tall and ornate af was a good idea for some reason

- no other race laughs at your jokes, with good reason

- theres always some fucker high up the chain of command whos like "elven kind never interacts with the brutish orcs...." and youre like "who voted for this guy anyway" and then you find out he was chosen royal advisor 10,000 years before you were born

- every other race makes fun of your garbs. With good reason.

personal opinion but. the reason tiktok’s ‘zepotha’ isn’t doing great isn’t because of a lack of cohesion or poor reasoning behind it (although I’m sure these would’ve contributed). It’s because when I was first introduced to Zepotha it was as a fake movie concept. And when I was first introduced to Goncharov it was as me spending the entire morning trying to figure out why Tumblr was obsessed with some random movie.

If anyone is wondering how ER life is going we just had a pedestrian vs train.

I’m tired

i refuse to believe that boycotting is hard. my favourite thing in the world is ordering maccies after a late night at work/a concert/getting drunk. yes i do miss it sometimes. but the other night i ordered from a small place near my house instead and it was the most orgasmic burger i've ever had in my life. i very rarely say this but fucking suck it up people are DEAD

something about giving your only little bro a matching set of lab glasses idk i just wanted to draw them together in the lab :]

Gray and Graysons

One of the Bats has a secret. Something they never told to the others.

They were so very young but they have memories of a sibling, so small and tiny. They remember the burst of warmth they had in their heart when they held the tiny baby for just a moment.

But they weren’t allowed to keep them, their family couldn’t raise them. Money was tight, just enough for three but not for four, despite their shows always bringing in a crowd it was getting harder and harder for the world to be wowed by them in the new age and their sibling was too small and tiny and needed to be cared in a single place than for them to be on the road. Their lifestyle was not good for his tiny sibling apparently.

They had to watch as their parents gave his sibling away to people in suits, them promising to give his baby brother to a loving family when they find a ‘home’ for him. He watched his parents try to be strong only for his mother to break down once the car left down the road, his father holding her and apologizing, the rest of the circus troupe all silently coming over to give the heartbroken family condolences.

Richard ‘Dick’ Grayson had tears running down his face when he last saw his baby brother.

A brother he got to name before he had to be given away.

Daniel ‘Danny’ Grayson.

-x-x-

Dick never told the others. If anyone dug deep into his past they might find his brother’s birth records maybe, if someone got around to digitizing the paperwork for him but given the fact he was placed in the US childcare systems just a few days after his birth and the fact that Dick was still pretty young they most likely believed he didn’t remember his baby brother now. Not after so many years.

But they were wrong, Dick remembers. And he kept the secret close to his heart and memories.

And the only physical evidence he had was a single picture of him holding his brother, a smile on his tiny face towards their father who had taken the photo of them together. When he had lost his parents, lost most of the things that connected him to them, to his past in the circus that had been his whole life, had been taken from him in Gotham’s ruthless childcare system, he held on tight to the picture in secret. Hid it away from anyone trying to rip it from him, hid it from Bruce when the man took him in days later, hid it from Alfred despite how gentle the butler was towards him. He couldn’t, wouldn’t risk losing his photo at the time, he hadn’t trusted anyone and by the time he did he didn’t have the heart to reveal it.

So yes, the existence of his baby brother Danny was his most guarded and best kept secret.

So that’s why Dick, as Nightwing, nearly died from a heart attack when leaving a Justice League meeting he spotted a familiar face among one of the new engineers working in the Watchtower.

It was like seeing a young version of himself. Only, Dick could see that the young man was more than a copy of him, so much more than a clone. He held many traces of John Grayson but also had a bit more of Mary Grayson than Dick did. Small details that Dick foggely remembers taking note when he had held his baby brother.

“Hey, hurry up with that report Gray!” Shouted the head engineer from down the hall, his hand beckoning the young adult to come over.

“Coming! And boss, I told you Danny is fine!” Danny shouted back before hurriedly leaving a stunned Nightwing.

There's something so crazy about the fact Buck found his place (amongst the 118) because Tommy left. Like how insane it is that Tommy became the root of Buck's healing, discovering himself and finding his place in the world. He did that once by leaving, and he's doing it again by coming back into the story.

The more I learn about judaism the more I wonder where tf christianity got all its bad shit. Why is divorce a sin in christianity when judaism has recognized the right to divorce for nearly a millennia and has codified religious laws for it. Why does christianity consider sex to be dirty (to the point where puritans considered it a sin to enjoy having sex with your own spouse) when in judaism it's considered holy and it's a literal mitzvah to have sex with your spouse on the sabbath. Why does christianity consider it a sign that you're faithless if you question your religion when in judaism that's considered an essential part to developing your faith. I'm probably stating the obvious here but I still can't get over the fact that there's no historical basis to any of this shit before christianity started, it's like christians just said "hey guys what if we took the torah and built a new religion around it but this time it was actively hostile to human life"