skipped logging day 3 of welbutrin, but i was just very emotional i both good ways and bad ways

theres this girl in school who is projecting insecurity and is trying to get into my head but like... my 3rd eye is open; my only competition is myself, but i know all people arent like that

it did really hurt my feelings that she's still talking shit about me, which came as a surprise to me bc it's unsurprising behavior from her part

the good part was that i was doing recordings for a competition (to make money bc im so broke pls, anyone who reads this pls manifest that i win any anything) and had a little transcendence moment singing a mahler piece, which was so deeply refreshing bc doing recordings is usually a nightmare and editing them is so cringe

but the song is about finding peace and closure in the feeling that everything is gonna be okay, which was such a euphoric feeling, but also bad bc i can't produce "quality vocals" while i cry which unfortunately is the point of doing the recording

but falling in love again with what i do and finally coming to appreciate the emotional labor of my work, which for so long was a hinderance on my art is very cool and good

day 4 of welbutrin: i didnt sleep well last night and i didnt have breakfast this morning

i have a terrible headache and had to come back to my apartment to lie down AND i have an audition in 2 hours ooooof

like, im VERY excited but SO exhausted

thats on me, i shouldve figured out breakfast, but this is the final stretch of the semester and i NEED to graduate

idk, they cant all be winners, and i still need time to get used to the meds i suppose

but it does feel like my life kind of started over

a soft reset (in a good way)

Meanwhile Lily and Remus did not have nearly as much fun...

{Divination Class (pt. 2/3)}

Eddie, who, as a child, struggled with making decisions, so Wayne gifted him a Magic 8 ball that he could turn to for guidance. Eddie spends most of his childhood carrying around the Magic 8 Ball, using it to decide between mac and cheese (ask again later) or chicken strips (signs point to yes) at lunch or whether he should go talk to the new kid Gareth (without a doubt). 

Eddie slowly starts to make his own decisions but keeps onto the Magic 8 Ball for important, life-changing questions. He asks if he should drop out of school after failing his first senior year (my reply is no) and then again if he should repeat said senior year (it is decidedly so). He even asks if he should start working for Reefer Rick (reply hazy, try again) -- it’s the one time he chose to ignore the ball’s advice. 

Unfortunately, Eddie doesn’t have his Magic 8 Ball on him when the witch hunt starts. He wishes he could ask it if all this hiding and running is going to be worth it. But for once, Eddie has to rely on his own decisions. So he keeps going. Lets Dustin and his friends take him under their wing and protect him. Has to trust that Nancy’s plan is going to work and that Steve is going to make Vecna pay when he nods his head at his request. 

It’s hard trusting other people without having something to double check the universe’s whims on, but he has no choice. 

When he survives and gets sent to the hospital, the Magic 8 Ball is one of the first thing he asks Uncle Wayne to bring him from home. The first question he asks: was any of it real (without a doubt). Oh, how he wishes it was all a dream.

The second question he asks later when he’s all alone: will I get over my crush on Steve (very doubtful). Not pleased with the answer, Eddie pushes the Magic 8 Ball aside and rolls his eyes. What does it know anyway? 

As his recovery continues, Eddie comes to rely on his Magic 8 Ball less and less because he has a group of friends around him who are there to offer their guidance. The Magic 8 ball stays perched on the small hospital table though, always in reach if he needs it. 

He nearly tells Wayne to take it home one night, but he’s glad he doesn’t because in the morning he wakes to find Steve shaking the ball in his hands. 

“Didn’t strike you as a Magic 8 ball kind of guy, Harrington,” Eddie teases, voice thick with sleep and whatever drugs are still coursing through his body. 

“M’not usually, but I needed a little guidance with this question.” 

“Oh yeah? And what does the magic ball say?” 

“It just says yes.”

"Ah, the most definitive of Magic 8 Ball answers.” 

“So I should trust it then?” 

“That depends,” Eddie says, stretching out on the uncomfortable hospital bed. “What did you ask it?”

"I asked it if I could kiss you.” 

Without thinking, Eddie sits up and snatches the Magic 8 Ball from Steve’s hands. He ducks his head, closes his eyes, and mouths his question before violently shaking the Magic 8 Ball. 

It is certain.

“What did you ask it?” Steve asks, stepping closer to Eddie’s hospital bed.

“If you were being serious.” 

“And? What did it say?” 

Eddie turns the Magic 8 Ball so Steve can see the little triangle floating. When he looks up, he sees Steve barely containing the smile breaking out on his face. 

“Guess you better kiss me, Harrington,” Eddie teases. “Don’t want to upset the Magic 8 Ball gods.”

magic (8 ball) mike

my mind is a safe and if I keep it in we all get rich

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trust the magic 8 ball lmao

Dean, shaking a magic 8 ball: Does Cas like me?

Magic 8 Ball: Don't count on it.

Dean: 😮…

Cas, sitting next to Dean in bed: We've been married for five years, Dean.

the ones you shouldn’t have killed or something never read it

alt versions

this is canon in my au btw. they’re all on williams ass

Y’all why did they make the 8 ball cvnty?

Is there a specific reason or were they just like um we need some✨💕💅

Update: Pete Wentz is just a bubble gum bitch

Glen Powell at the Hit Man BAFTA screening in NYC - 04.17.24

(x)

The thing that kills me about “and in the end, I’d do it all again / I think you’re my best friend” is the “I think.” We’ve all seen the Pete Wentz interview where he talks about his therapist pointing out his equivocation, and I’m sure that’s part of it, but I love the implications. That you’re looking back at your life and all the pain and hardships you’ve endured and deciding that you’d do it all again, suffer it all again, just to have this one person with you. But you are, by nature, also looking back on that relationship— the highs and lows, good and bad, hurt and comfort, true understanding and miscommunications— examining all the evidence and saying, maybe I couldn’t always see it when I was in the middle, but it all adds up to you being the truest thing in my life. It’s giving Rain by Raymond Carter: “Would I live my life over again? Make the same unforgivable mistakes? Yes, given half a chance. Yes.” It’s giving Slow Dance by Matthew Dickman: “There is no one to save us because there is no need to be saved. I’ve hurt you. I’ve loved you. I’ve mowed the front yard.” It’s “every lover’s got a little dagger in their hand” and “the person you’d take a bullet for is behind the trigger” and “I’ve loved everything about you that hurts so let me see your moves” and “let’s twist the knife again” and “scar crossed lovers.” I’ve looked on our past and decided that I would do it all again with and for you, to be here with you now in the present. “It’s our time now, if you want it to be.” And it’s “I’ll be yours.” Let’s have the future too.

we thought we had it all

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Happy weekend to you all! 💟

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