Ngl y'all feeling kinda sappy and blessed by the Lake itself rn

Insane how after all this time this series still brings me so much joy. But not only the series, also the fanbase. I swear reading what you all have to say about the art I make makes waking up every day feel worth it 😭

I did not expect Down the Rabbit Hole to get much attention just cuz David isn't really a fan favorite and he only ever really mattered to me, which is why I made this comic to begin with... I just love David/Mr. Rabbit that much. And tho I was anxious and had my doubts about being able to pull something like this comic off, especially cuz I wasn't sure if I would upset the lore bros (which I did like once but it got resolved super quickly) all I knew was that I just wanted to make something special for David that I feel like would really make a mark in the fanbase... Even after I leave to, no doubt, hibgernate again, And I feel like I did that. But it wouldn't have been that way without all the love and support I got from everyone on here and reddit especially. Like you guys made this comic special 😭🙏 you gave me motivation and confidence to work on it and to make it something special.

I know I don't talk to any of u 1 on 1 (tho I'm always open to I promise I don't bite) but still seeing your tags and reading your comments means the world to me. I'm truly nothing but an artist trying to share their love for something they care about deeply, and you guys were there to tell me "yah, this is cool". Like seriously some of you wrote me comments that I now think about every day and it makes me smile every day.

Ig what I'm trying to say is just thank u for following me, thank you for giving my art the time of day. Your time is precious and you chose to spend it reading my silly comic and looking at my goofy art and even write me something. I appreciate that sm. So thank you 🙏 and I hope I can always make things, whether for Rusty Lake or just art in general, that makes people happy. It's all I want with my art and what makes me happy to be an artist.

But that's enough sap for now haha. If you're reading this. I love you 💜

// CONTAINS COMMENTARY AND PICTURES OF TEARS OF THEMIS NEW EVENT: “ENDURING LIGHT.”

This is only the Prologue section I talk about in this one, aha and I ALRWDY HAVE SM TO TALK ABTR

first of all, another group event of course, you love to see it and they’re being dorks but in a cooler way already 💃 also btw happy new year!! hope it’s been treating y’all well already :]<3

okay so i’m going into this event basically being sus of everyone at this point LMAO, i don’t even trust our boys tbh - anything could happen and i’m excited! everytime there’s a big event i always am like “ugh… not another one i have to drain energy into and it isn’t even that interesting” (respectfully). like the last one on the train? i didn’t really care much about it, the only things that interested me were nxx being all up on eachother (exaggerating)

basically i prepare myself to be disappointed, which might sound messed up but tbh the events have only been hittin recently (for me) because of the fact that they’re not having nxx be at eachother’s throats lol. (not saying the past ones weren’t good though and that none of the recent ones were a miss bc again, i didnt fully enjoy the train event)

this one already had me though 😭 got me gagged, the ui is so fucking cool - the card system?? the OUTFITS make me wanna CHOMP my phone (esp luke’s… smth- smth abt it is just. hm, delectable). also baby davis always appearing is so cute his little “hello, miss… uh, i mean, little boss!” LMAO that is my son!!!

ANYGAYS we always have to start off with Marius talking about something going on ‘round town, intended to invite his lovely lady but of course the boys have to interrupt and say hey, where is our invitation??? 🤗 you love to see it

jxjddh “i didn’t ask you guys” LMFAO HE IS SO DONEEE - artem, vyn: “oh really? let me hit you with this comeback. give me my invitation.”, like why are they so angy ARENT YALL RICH? GET YOUR OWN INVITATION 😭😭 i just adore the difference here though like, luke is the one purely excited here and not just “oh, aha, trying to get alone with rosa? how about: no.” but vyn is like 😭 “okay, shit, thanks for the invitation, marius.”

ARTEM MINDING HIS OWN BUSINESS BY HIS COMPUTER AND DECIDING TO INSERT HIMSELF INTO THE CONVERSATIONNN. they’re silly billies.

of course we needed our typical marluke banner 🥺

“Without us, who would you team up with?” did he just call marius friendless or can i also mix that with delulu poly nxx and add a hint of, “bitch who else are you planning to invite? we are RIGHT here” LMFAO

“Luke, are things at work slow lately?” 😭😭😭 i have tears in my eyes u were gonna invite him anyway shut up

i want a group event where the guys don’t butt in just to see if marius invites them anyway HAAHSJS like he just has the stuff ready for the boys just in case they butt in again, but one time they don’t and he’s just confused 😭

kicking my feet, he loves them all dearly. they’re my babies, my lil ol family!!

ANYWAYS… we’re here. Li Hotel 🤨 && again, the wayyy i was entranced with everything omg obsessed obsessed. BY THE WAY i already suspect that the letter-friend is reporter pearce 🤨🤨 don’t ask me for proper reasoning besides the fact that they reveal the letter-friend is a guy LMAO

&& shares the same life goal (wanting to travel around the world) as little boss 😔💜 but who knows…

alright last two things ✨ nxx boys lowkey teasing rosa by being in character HAHAHDJ (NOT ME POSTING THE WEONG PICTURE AND MAKING MYSELF SAD)

same, rosa, same 😭 (and the invitation card?? zoo wee mama- the way that marius was the only one who kept his eyes on rosa thoughhj hejeejnffk GRRR. okay sorry. NAUR and the luke stare 😔 marluke strikes my heart once again!!! WHY IS VYN ALL THE WAY UP THERE BTW)

anyways. last but not least, this isn’t technically apart of the prologue but it’s when Davis takes you on a little tour as always to show you the event and there is one part where you can have discussions with the boys. you click on luke by default but the first conversation option you have, he talks about this:

&& this actually made me tear up pretty bad 😭 then i had a whiplash and went “OHH THE FUCKING CARD” LMFAOO,, LIKE WHY WOULD HYV DO THIS TO ME 😞 i love the parallels luke always has with his au cards though ugh, makes me depressed in the right way(??)

like his birthday card (the name is itching my brain, i can’t remember) and in his bday event there was a mirror and sword (i believe) that appeared 😔 now this… sobbing throwing up, do NOT TOUCH ME

ARE YOU TELLING ME HE ACTUALLY DIES IN THE CARD STOOFPFPFDB??? THAT HE DOESN’T SAY HE LOVES HER? WHAT IS THIS. punching the floor. DO THEY ALL DIE? I THOUGHT ARTEM AT LEAST LIVES…. AM I MIXING UP CARDS…. see what this event is doing to me already 😔

ojay. i’m done here, had to write the thoughts out brrr, imma go finish reading the event now 🌚 toodles (unless u can read the vyn spoiler below)

HUGE CARD SPOILERS BELOW: VYN [MEDIEVAL SUSPENSE]

OHHbajdhd and adding on why I’m not trusting anyone - even our boys - in this event is because this event reminds me too much of a card that Vyn has. A group of folks in this card are acting and Vyn’s character ended up being the killer. I won’t leave my thoughts on the card but this is why I’m sus of everyone 😔

Hey again ;)

LMAO SORRY TO BOTHER U AGAIN BUT I HAVE A THOUGHT

This isn’t a request cuz I feel like u already have a lot on ur plate rn, so imma entertain u with sum thoughts I have instead >:)

SO. I was scrolling through TikTok and noticed that the trend “lalalalala” and “okokokok” is like well..trending lmao. And I couldn’t help but think of stepbro Leon with this🥹 like just imagine reader going through the app and just comes across this trend, she thinks it’s cute so she wants to show/try it to Leon<333 it doesn’t have to be smutty(for once🤣) I just imagine after she shows it to him, he’d raise his brow and just stare at her, lowkey judging lmao. He’d def say sum like “what are you kids on these days?” like a boomer. But I def know that his heart melts a little when she asks to do this with her💕💕

Like broooo just think about him kinda just being in front of the her phone’s camera awkwardly and she’s just so excited to record!! She’s so excited and giddy that she doesn’t even notice that she sits on his lap and pulls him close to her so they can both be in screen. He doesn’t say anything, secretly smirking and feeling smug cuz he’s Leon, and when she hits the record button and the audio comes through, they both just do their thing😩❤️ she’d def squeals out happily after watching it and gives him a small peck on the cheek as thanks, smiling widely at him.

“Thanks sm Leon!”

His heart misses a beat or two while staring at her with puppy lovesick eyes🥰

“Anytime sweetheart.”

IM GONNA COMBUST PLS💥 I absolutely love the smut between them but imagine how cute it is when they just simply spend time with each other🥹😭

Ahhh!!!! 🥰 🥰 You’re never bothering me! I love hearing your thoughts!!! 💜 💜 💜

Oh that is too cute!! And so sweet!!! 🥹🥹 yes! Leon would have such a boomer mentality in regards to TikTok (he’d be such a vine fanboy though 😝 ).

Ugh I love that 😩 just the little smile he has on his face when looking at her, especially when she’s not paying attention and still watching the video on her phone 😭😭 he would so give her little kisses when she’s sitting in his lap to try to get her to giggle and mess up her recording 🥹🥹

Please keep sending me your thoughts 💜 💜 this literally made me giggle and kick my feet in the air 🤭🤭

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a/n: so uhm ✨h i✨ sorry for disappearing for almost a year (jfc 😀) but uh i’m back! for how long? i have no clue but i made like three chapters while i was away so those are being queued up to be uploaded within the next few days. imma try out queuing posts instead of making them and then posting so i can at least make them in bulk and then just queue them up 🤧🤧 once again, thank u all sm for the patience’s and continued love and support on ihih 💜💜

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Hi! I’m the one who asked for writing tips, and while at first I thought I’d keep my identity a secret (as if this is Gossip Girl) I thought I’d saw my appreciation with my name on top! Most people write anonymous asks, but I know I love it when I know who I’m speaking to, so, officially ✨hello✨

I’m actually a writer from another fandom who expanded to JJK after reading the manga and falling into the Toji rabbit hole. I didn’t think I’d actually start writing about him myself, but I ultimately lost to my urges ;-; I’d already started writing a multi-part fic about him when I sent you my message, but still wanted to see how a pro Toji writer would advice me to go about it! Thankfully crossing from one fandom to the other seems like a smooth tradition? Too early to tell, but I am glad to join your ranks.

Your tips were quite helpful, and I couldn’t help but notice how warm you are as a person! Whenever I read your fanfics, I get this warm fuzzy feeling and I wondered what kind of person writes such fics, and reading your response sort of affirmed that it’s someone who loves writing and their fans. You are one of my fav Toji writers for that reason, because you see him through this lens of affection and love that really matches his character, and the love/affection he didn’t have growing up in his life. That feeling is irreplaceable imo.

BUT enough bootlicking ahaha if I’m being honest, I’ve never really written a fan letter before and it’s been about two months since I started reading your work and I had a lot of accumulated praise. How we break though… that broke me. I got actual tears in my eyes, and “hated” you for a moment because this was pure sadism 😭

Don’t think there’s anything more to say other than thank you for getting back to me, sorry for this mess of a message and I wish you all the best 💜

HI MIRTO!!! NICE TO OFFICIALLY MEET UUU! im genuinely sorry for replying to this late. my summer sem’s abt to end so the projects and papers and group presentations are beating my ass 😭

the toji rabbit hole is insane ur so real for this. i too was just tryna make sense of jjk when i fell into the toji rabbit hole myself and boom insane pining ensued. but AHHH the multi-part fic??? pls drop da link baby 🤲🏼

im so glad that ur transition to the fandom was smooth!!! i had a trouble once with transitioning to a fandom bc while i was frothing at the mouth at the idea of writing about them, i had so little grasp of accurate characterization that it ate me up and i just gave up so fast hdjsjhssj so hell yeee that u didnt go through that <333

and omg?? thank u so much hhhhsh i dont see myself a pro in terms of writing for toji but holy fuck thank you. AND THANK YOU again oh my god im so soft rn, my heart’s so full and hhhh im so happy to see that im able to convey the affection i have for both toji and my readers in my works!! you guys make it so worth it to write yk? and toji’s this amazing character thats so dynamic and complex and theres so much opportunity to world build. ugh i love him sm

i am a number one supporter of making toji soft as fuckk. my man deserves to be loved and to love just as kindly. and he can be the gruff dilf that he is but also still be soft and gentle and warm, yk??? he deserves to be that!!!

im laughing at the hwb comment omg shdjejd im still so happy that it is still getting interactions and that it leaves impression on readers 🥹 thank you for your guys’ pain teehee

no bc one of my friend came up to me n said they couldnt even pick up the manga bc they hated toji and omg i was like “nooooo hes not just an asshole u have to understand!!! hes just a human and sometimes love doesnt work out” and she was like “THATS EXACTLY WHY” and i knew that i accomplished my goal <33

but yea! thank you so much mirto for your message, pls dont apologize for it!!! i loved reading every sentence babe. and pls dont mind how long my response has gotten omg i just tend to ramble. take care darling <333

hello jess <3 ... here i am again 🧍

sorry i havent been able to message you lately since i've been in and out of the house and hospital for the past few days (im fine btw! i just need physical therapy for an injury) but man do i have a lot to tell you about moonmates and jealousy, jealousy ...

ok so moonmates... alpha chan *trips over chair and eats cement*. im so SERIOUS when i say that there is nothing hotter than provoking the instincts of an alpha. for once jisung's ideas were on the money, even if he did lose. the scene where minho got y/n pinned on the door and basically making her succumb to her own desires in turn makes chan succumb to his OWN. THE DOMINO EFFECT WE ALL NEEDED. he deserves the winner title so much. literally frothing at the mouth thinking about it again. the two eldest are so hot HSHSH.

moving onto jealousy, jealousy. im ngl i feel y/n so much when i say i HATE being made fun of about my feelings because it's something very vulnerable and i don't like feeling small about my emotions. but the way minho reassured her without really letting go of his smug attitude. he's so so insufferable in the best way possible that you end up craving when he shows a fraction of his affection for you. when he admits that he loves making her a mess HDHDHSJ 🤸 one day i'd love to see y/n put him in his place PLEASE I'D GO NUTS. assert your dominance, y/n! go crazy! i need my dom!y/n content! 💳💥💳💥

anyways, ily jess i hope ur doing well. thank u for feeding us pack!skz content once more. 🫂

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STOPPPPPP. This is me reading your messages.👆🏻

I cannnnt. 😭 YOURE SO SWEET AND DETAILED AND WHEN I SAY YOU MAKE MY DAY BABY I AINT LYIN!

Ok. Okay. Deep breath.

Number one. First and foremost. I hope you are doing all right and taking care of yourself! Please know I’m always here if you need anything! Xx

Second, WE LOVE A GOOD ALPHA INSTINCT MY GOD. I’m a brat (thus why y/n is also a brat, weird huh 😂) and I hate being told what to do but if Chan or Minho’s alpha told me to sit ID SIT MKAY. 🥵

Third thing, minhooooooo. I can’t with that man. He’s a damn menace and I secretly love it. Doesn’t have an actual mean bone in his body but can sure play the part. He’s surly, but I think his stubbornness could be matched by y/n. 👀 she’s probably the only one besides Chan that he’d let “put” him in his place ifykwim. 😏

Once again. Thank you thank you THANK YOU FOR THIS LOVELY FEEDBACK ILY SM 💜💜💜

OMG WHAT ?? 😡 I cant believe tumblr deleted my ask from you :( that’s so rude !! thank goodness I sent in another one ! ^_^

I’m doing very well, n’ tysm !! n’ small update; I’ve been well, I actually just finished my classes so I’m officially on summer break !! >.< I have so much time on my hands I just don’t know what to do ! wbu ?? how’ve you been ml ! 🫶🏼 AWE TYY !! I managed to get sm inspo and have 3.5k words ! I have to continue writing later today ! >.<

OMG YOU SHOULD !! Im glad you’re getting motivation again ! hopefully you can write something soon !! I’m rooting for you !! 🤧 I’m sure whatever you come up with is going to be amazing esp since you have free time !! ^_^ 🎉 oh yes !! so, it’s called “fanfics and the boy next door” it’s not finished yet sadly cause I was super preoccupied with school ! but now that I’m also free lol I get to hopefully finish it soon !! ^_^

YES I DID OML !! IT WAS LITERALLY THE BEST NIGHT OF MY LIFE 🤧 I miss her sm it was literally insane !! 🤧 n’ TYYY !! It was a surprise from my sis, my sisters and I went together !! It was all vv fun !! oml, I saw that ! resale prices went up to like 3k, it was like so crazy ! 💜 THAT REMINDS ME ! so, once it got to the rep era of the concert the whole stadium was literally SHAKING ! and I mean SHAKING !! it was scary but honestly so much fun LMAOO 😭

OMG YAY THATS SO EXCITING !! 💗 have you found a job that you’re interested in yet or do you know what you want to work as !! 🫶🏼 ooo that sounds nice !! I hope you enjoy your trips n’ pls make sure to be careful !! <33 AWE :( maybe you guys can meet up whenever you can ? even though college is over that doesn’t mean you have to stop being friends !! ^_^ 🫶🏼🥹

hm ! well, I don’t have any plans sadly lol !! I’m thinking of maybe focusing on writing and editing this summer !! I am supposedly going to the beach next Saturday though ! so that’s something to do ! 😅😭 but I guess we’ll see what happens !! 😭🫶🏼 how’s your day been so far ?? anything fun happen ?

(cont.) OMG ALSO !! tysm for liking my theme 🤧🫶🏼 I forgot to thank u for the compliment lol !! your theme tho > it’s so iconic and I will forever love it 🥹

I KNOW I WAS SO UPSET WHEN I TRIED TO POST IT AND THE RED LINE SHOWED UP <//3 AND IT WOULDNT EVEN LET ME RETRY POSTING IT LIKE WTHHH TUMBLR

also im so glad you're doing well !!! and congrats on finishing exams and i hope you're enjoying your summer break to its fullest !! 🥰💖 maybe you can take up a hobby :o like crocheting HAHAH learn how to crochet with me 😌 i was making a shirt and it turned out rlly cute actually :') OMG YAYYY i hope the writing's going well >:)) 3.5k phewwww i see you 😮‍💨 and i've been doing good !! school definitely burnt me out this year so the break is nice HAHAH but getting back to work omg.... i was so tired all the time last summer so we'll see how it goes LOL

omg do you think you're gonna finish the fic soon?? :o i hope it goes well !! ALSO IM GLAD YOU HAD FUN AT THE CONCERT did you like "speak now"? 💘 i am not a swiftie but my friends really liked it :')) OHH YEAH REPUTATION IS A TOP TIER ALBUM im sure it must've been insane to see live !!

there are a few roles im interested in but im also telling myself i need to work my way up to higher positions since they're more mid-senior level positions 🥲 i will be all good tho !! 😌 job hunting SUCKS i hate when entry level positions require years of experience like girl that's not entry level anymore HAHAH also yes!! i think we will be fine since we all live relatively close ,, it's just gonna be so nostalgic thinking back to when i was free to do whatever in college LOL

ooo that sounds fun !! 🥰 i hope you had a good time at the beach <33 my day's been pretty slow ngl 😩 yesterday i went to my friend's party and then tomorrow i think im going to a movie with a few friends but we'll see 🥲 today tho i have been watching gose throughout the day at random HAHAH

dont take it like im trying to pressure u or anything i just wanted to say i miss ur art sm. like u were the first artist who actually inspired me to keep going with my art. at the time i was really depressed and s/icidal and discovering ur art and also marina thru u made me so happy, your art and her music always made my days better 💗💗💗 and i also miss being like 15 and being obsessed with total drama and everyone being active on here. sorry i just saw some total drama edit on instagram and felt nostalgic 🥺 anyway love u always 💗

WHY DID IT TAKE ME A LITERAL YEAR TO RESPOND TO THIS I'M SO VERY SORRY (IF YOU'RE STILL OUT HERE ON TUMBLR DOT COM) i haven't really looked at my askbox a ton the last couple of.............. years honestly oh gosh

you have no idea how much it means to me to hear this, THANK YOU!!!! (´;___;`) 💗💗 for as far as i know i've always been Just Some Person sharing my fanart online because of my love for the shows i was drawing, and it always filled my heart to the brim whenever people were able to find enjoyment in what i created❣❣❣ (˶ ◜꒡◝ ˵) and the thought i even INSPIRED you to keep going with art is more valuable to me than anything else!!!!!!!!!!! i really hope you are still making art and expressing yourself through it, it's such an amazing medium and i know for a fact everything you create has to be so wonderful!!!!! 🌞💝

ALSO I'M SO GLAD I GOT TO INTRODUCE YOU TO MARINA HEHE THE QUEEN!!!!! OUR QUEEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 💖👑💖 i truly feel so grateful to know i was able to play a part/help with making your days better!!! you definitely brightened mine with this message❕❕ 🥹💙💙 it's interactions like these that honestly make me miss posting art online the most... it's such a shame i had a very unpleasant experience primarily in my last year of art school, which left me with an art block that lasted YEARS. i really felt like i had lost a part of myself back then because of it, which i've been slowly trying to rebuilt since, and i think i'm finally getting to a point where i've regained my ability to derive true joy from art once more! i've been thinking about uploading art again, i guess right now i also just feel kind of hesitant because of the rise of AI art & the chance that my works might end up being used to feed some computer program (as has happened to so many other artists, without their consent :( ) but we'll see!! cause i definitely feel inspired to start sharing more of my love for fashion online too, which for me at this point is very intrinsically tied to my art :D i'd like to get to a point where i can draw/design any piece i adore and then sew them irl as accurately to the original drawing as i can :>

"i also miss being like 15 and being obsessed with total drama and everyone being active on here" GOD I RELATE the old deviantart/tumblr days used to be so fun... well, i've heard they unfortunately weren't always fun for everybody (we were all teens with many feelings & opinions & not so much social grace), i think i'm somewhat "lucky" to have always been kind of a Neutral(??) party cause i honestly never truly knew what was going on between people and was just blissfully sharing my art... therefore i'm still able to look back at those times and remember them fondly 💙💜 i'm happy to hear it's the same for you!!! nostalgia is such a lovely feeling! AND we must always remember that there are still so many many more lovely memories to be made in the future that we have yet to experience (◍ˊ•͈ ᗜ •͈ˋ◍)!!!🎔

anyway, i hope you are doing well nowadays!!! I LOVE AND APPRECIATE U TOO, ALWAYS 💗💗💗💗

sammy, sammy, SAMMY!!! I just read act 1 of heart of the flame and im absolutely in love😭😭 i genuinely just love your writing so much and how clever you are with the dialogues and making connections and full circles in them. like at the beginning when tae’s like ‘you’ve known my name for the past nine years’ and then oc says it at the end??? i genuinely love that sht sm and it makes me smile so hard whenever i read those kinds of moments! you’re an absolute genius with how you make things connect throughout your writings. im absolutely terrible with explaining things and im not doing you any justice, but i also hope that im making sense 💀 and also just like in general with shows or any books that i read, i LOVE when things do a full circle like that so to see my favorite author incorporate them into her writing??? like your writing is 1000% my style and right up my alley. im so glad i found you omg😭 it’s like i was meant to read your work 😭

NOW SHALL WE TALK ABOUT THIS FIC???? HELLO!!! first off, absolutely in LOVE with firefighter tae. hes soooo hot, my god😭 i absolutely love his playfulness and smugness. he has so much character and i just love him so much. he’s also so kind?? like he really just offered his place to oc when she had no where to go and is going out of his way to take care of her and make sure that shes safe too??? i want him. i really want him😭 like listen, i absolutely hate driving bc of how much it stresses me out, and my heart did somersaults when tae was like “im picking you up after work” LIKE??? WHERE CAN I GET MYSELF A FIREFIGHTER TAE??? SAMMY YOU’RE REALLY RAISING MY STANDARDS IN MEN WITH EVERY FIC THAT YOU WRITE OML!! ALSO!! i was snickering so hard when tae was saying that he wanted to reveal that he was firefighter in a cool way, only to actually be the person saving oc 💀💀 MY MANS HAS JOKES TOO LIKE HES PERFECT!!

i love their dynamic so much and will be reading act ii as soon as i get off work tomorrow AHHHHH!!!! i am super curious as to why oc pretended not to know tae though. i was thinking in my head like itd be so embarrassing if tae actually does recognize her and knows that she’s putting on an act ONLY FOR IT TO COME TRUE BUT HE HANDLED IT IN THE SEXIEST WAY EVER MY LORD. also!!! my heart melted when he came back an hour later to return pride and prejudice and kept coming by everyday to see oc, not once, but twice a day😭😭 and when he said he used his lunch time to see her despite being super busy and probably not being able to get a solid meal in😭 *slams hand on table* I WANT HIM!! AND WHEN HE GOT HER COFFEE AND REMEMBERED OC’S FAVORITE SANDWICH AND GOT IT FOR HER??? *REPEATEDLY SLAMS HAND ON TABLE* I WANT HIM😤😤 firefighter tae is so dreamy and cute, i just wanna shove my face into his chest and climb hi- *train passes by*

AHHH OKAY THATS THE END OF MY TANGENT HEHEHE!! I genuinely love this series already and wish i had the chance to read it sooner!! my favorite author has done it YET AGAIN and proven YET AGAIN that she never misses, its true!! COME COLLECT YOUR PEONIES BB I HAVE A WHOLE GARDEN PREPARED FOR U 💐💐

p.s. i hope your first day back on campus went well!! i can’t offer much advice bc i only spent a little over 3 semesters on campus before covid hit and have been home ever since, but i hope that you’ll have so much fun on campus and make the most out of your time there!! i just know you’ll make such amazing and fun memories with your bubbly and amazing self :) im sending you all of my good vibes and hope you have an amazing and safe experience back on campus! 💜💜

p.p.s christmas tree was playing right when tae walked into the library and it was so fitting🤧 “in this moment, i see you” and oc’s just gawking at tae. it was so fitting and i just had to share hehe :)

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Saturn anon ik you sent this a few days ago and I just... I've been in complete AWE at your response!!! GOSH THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS!! I'm so so happy you adored the way I made connections in this fic hehe, i truly wanted to hit the nail on the head with those and so seeing it pointed out feels way too amazing! AND YES WE WERE MADE FOR EACH OTHER BUBS I CAN FEEL IT IN MY VEINS!! NAUR ME TOOOOO idk why i find it super hot when men drive?? like its the most simple, mundane thing in the world that I find hot and especially when a man goes "i'll pick you up" DNEOWIDNE MY P*THY FLUTTERS A LITTLE YOU KNOW? FIREFIGHTER TAE REALLY IS THE PACKAGE DEAL!! YES YES I SHALL COME TO YOU FOR THE PEONIES!! Gosh you're just the sweetest saturn anon, I really appreciate this ask so so much and i truly love you for always being so supportive <33

And yes omg!! uni has been WILD but great so far hehe, i'm only three days in and you're right my annoying ass has already met and made so many great friends, it's a chaotic ride that keeps getting better!!

Ahhhh!!! Aditi I'm soo sorry for being so late but Happy birthday dear!!! (Or belated happy birthday?? I dunno😭😭)

But I hope you have a wonderful time and all your wishes come true!! And you get to meet Jaemin. You're such a sweetheart you deserve all the best things in life!!! I love you 🥰🥰🥰

Happy birthday once again🥳🥳💖💖💜❤️💞❤️💞❤️🧡🧡💕💕

NODHSHD OML IT’S ALRIGHT DW <33 gah thank you sm rewa :(( AND N O Y O U >:( (yeah that’s right i’m pulling the uno reverse card again‼️) ILYSM AND TY AGAIN :(( i hope you’re having a great day, sending all my love <3 😚

Wa aleykoum assalam, thank you soooo soo much for your kind reply it made me tear up, you’re so sweet for even reading through and yet you’ve even made such great effort in giving such beautiful advice, may Allah bless you and love you abundantly, i’m so grateful and it really gave me a boost. 💜 My heart hurts so much each time i think of hijab bc I know that it’s only due to my weakness and insecurity that I’m not wearing it. I feel u sm on the style part this is also something I’m scared of, I usually wear wide pants and jackets which cover my body for the mosttt part but switching to abayas seems so hard I was never super feminine and this is also my biggest insecurity, I feel so uncomfortable in dresses and abayas seem so unfamiliar to me even when I like their look in dark colours, and my face isn’t pretty (objectively) so the hijab even though its significance is so so wise and beautiful, makes my face stand out and I dislike seeing myself, my insecurity is like a disease in my heart and I’ve even bought hijabs and khimars and tried them on for months but somehow I’m blocked, I feel like a coward and can’t seem to get used to it, i’m also scared of dying uncovered but this fear only pushes me further into the thinking that I’ll never be like the real muslim girls who cover so correctly, I’ll never be pious enough to wear it bc even tho it’s an obligation bc I feel guilty but still won’t wear it, only hypocrites behave like that :( I’m sorry again if this is burdening and I feel ashamed to complain but Idk how to dare take this step, and I’m sorry to only talk abt myself even tho your story already helped me into believing that I might get used to it, may Allah bless and preserve you and your family and grant you life long health and well being and purify your heart and soul, I can already tell ur such a sweet person mashallah

Ahh Allahouma ameen I’m wishing the same for you! I’m happy to hear that my response was good for you and I hope it will be beneficial as well in sha Allah. ❤️

I don’t know where to start! Sub7anAllah first thing maybe: I think you’re so hard on yourself. First of all, there is already such a good good thing which is the fact that you feel the urge to wear the hijab and you really want it! See it as a positive thing Alhamdoulillah!

I’m not sure if you have hijabi friends… but if you do talk to them about this… about you needing to find your ‘fit’ or ‘style’ etc. I think it’d be good to have someone help you so you feel less insecure. I feel like once you have negative thoughts about your own appearance, you will really need to tell yourself the opposite cause before you know it these thoughts are all you have about yourself and honestly it’s unhealthy and also unfair to yourself. If you follow a lot of influencers that are known for pics of their beauty, unfollow them. Seriously I have unfollowed ALL of them and it helped me a lot. It will unconsiously give you a feeling of them being the definition of beauty and everyone else not. A couple days ago i saw this vid of people talking about this, and damn they were saying how online people look extraordinary and beautiful in a way that’s just…. not real lol, and if you look at people in real life we really are all beautiful. So basically, talk to yourself in a beautiful way. Make yourself love the way you look! Once you do, it will make you shine in ways that are maybe unimaginable right now, which will show confidence as well, which is also a beautiful thing!

Honestly I don’t think it’s the hijab that might feel so difficult… it really is your insecurities and lack of self love and honestly I think it would be healthy for you to work on your self love! sound sooo cliche but it’s so important! What you said about hijab making your face stand out and you not liking that… subhanAllah I swear that I had the same thing in the beginning. And it took me some time, but Alhamdoulillah I really don’t have that anymore! I feel like you’re scared of things that might just need some time. Try out different hijab styles, cause I PROMISE you different styles make the face look different! Some work for some, and some really don’t. I wear it tight! As clean as I can. I have a very tiny head and small face features, so wrapping around a bigger hijab with more fabric would make my face almost too tiny haha. Also I wear my hijab under all my layers of clothing, over my bra. And I cut it so it’s not too long and there’s not too much fabric. Girllll I promise you it takes practice and try outs haha. But in the mean time, please don’t forget why we wear it! It’s for protection and don’t forget that Allah SWT really is with you. The harder it is for you, the more effort you give it, etc. the more hassanaats in sha Allah.

So, try to do this step by step. It’s impossible to immediately go for the endgoal. You mentioned dresses and abayas being unfamiliar to you. Maybe make a decision for yourself to - for example - always make sure your shirt or blouse or jacket is covering your ass. At least! Then for you, for then, this step is getting used to the hijab. Over time, when you’re used to it and you feel good in it, then you might think of an extra step, but don’t think about that now! It’s unhealthy and unreal to focus on the endgoal rather than your steps.

You can easily be a hijabi and cute tomboy! I am haha. I was so uncomfortable wearing dresses and I would never. Sorry but step by step really is okay! You really don’t have to wear a abaya immediately! Somehow, right before last summer I randomly wanted to be more ‘feminine’ (whatever that may be). Whenever I saw a pretty dress or skirt, I would buy it and then consciously wear it on friday. But it took me some time to be able to do that, cause I was so uncomfortable in dresses and skirts. I did it whenever I felt good in it. Now, sometimes, outside of friday, whenever I feel like it I just wear a dress or skirt. And on fridays I always do. But I literally still wear a bomber jacket over it lol. And honestly because I’ve spent so much time looking and trying out different ones, I really only wear dresses and skirts that I feel beautiful in, so not just a random or easy thing. Like I’m doing it because I feel good in it - and yes Alhamdoulillah I’m covering myself more. But I’m not pushing myself to wear it even tho I’m uncomfortable, you see what I mean? So don’t stress yourself out at all!

Be nice t youself. Truly, you deserve it. You are beautiful. And we are all beautiful haha and we should not let social media and all this fake bs get to us.

Also I just want to say that I recognise sooo much of what you’re saying from myself years ago! Everything, about insecurity with your face, the unfamiliarity with abayas and dresses, the tomboy look, etc. And sub7anAllah I’m not even close to my endgoal but Alhamdoulillah looking back at where I was then, and the things I struggled with, Alhamdoulillah I can say I am proud of myself. And you can be too in sha Allah! First step is to not be harsh to yourself. I could talk to you for hours! If you live in the Netherlands you better let me know so we can hang out and be beautiful together haha <3 You can literally still always contact me however you want. On anon is also good. If you need it, I honestly just want to be here for you. Sometimes we need each other and if there is any way I can help another woman, I really want to! ❤️

Tag games x 2 🎉

Hey everyone! Short and simple: I compiled three two tag games in one post to avoid tagging a lot of people/the same people over and over again 😅

As usual, it’s okay if you don’t feel like doing it!

That being said, let’s go:

URL tag! 

I was tagged by the best laundry detergent brand aka @strawberryboo thank you sm and sooooooo sorry for the delay 😁💙💜

Rules: Spell your url using only kpop songs and then tag 10 people 

Wish I had a longer url but a8, here we go: 

Sign - Got7  Lotto - Vernon Arario - ToppDogg (a jam) You better know - Red Velvet Incomparable - Monsta x No f.u.n - Seventeen Growl - Exo

see? it’s more interesting with longer urls 😅

Tagging people with long urls just because 😈: @kaypopruinedme @northisland-southernpeninsula @swimmingfool @ihatethisrunawayspy @wanggaeprincegae @bouncyjongup @diamond-encrusted-sebongies @princeofchinajunhui @officialkangdaniel @insecure-trash-bag

                                            💐 🌷 🌹 🌻 🌼 🌸 🌺

Questions tag! 

Tagged by the queen of good eyebrows aka @ilyjs, thank yoooou 💖 So basically these are two different tags but both have very similar questions so I put em all together and yeah, here we go 

1. Nicknames: Cloud, Cloodoo, and I think that’s it 😅 2. Gender: female 3. Star sign: Scorpio 4. Height: 1,65cm/5'4 (I’m p sure it’s more but ye) 5. Time: 3:31am 6. Birthday: November 16th 7. Favorite Bands/Groups: Suede, Paramore, Tokio Hotel and Seventeen (exo and got7 are in my top 3 fave kpop groups but they aren’t on the same level as the ones mentioned previously maybe exo should be there but ye) 8. Favorite solo artists: I’ll go with the queen of the universe aka Grace Jones and ahh, I hate him but I like Park Kyung’s solo stuff (did I just say that wow) 9. Song stuck in my head: dance with me by alphaville because that’s a jam, kpop wise? power because I love that song 10. Last movie watched: Suicide Squad because it premiered on tv 11. Last show watched: does the Simpsons count? Old episodes ofc. If not then idk 12. When did i create my blog: June 2010, a month before the World Cup 13. What do I post: it depends really. Main blog: shows, movies, shitpost, all that jazz. s-lay-ing: kpop. brltpop: music. 14. Last thing googled: what does Gashina means (it sounds like chicken in Spanish so 😂) 15. Do you have other blogs?: already mentioned above 😜 16. Do you get asks?: at least once a month 😊 17. Why did u choose your url?: because all the good urls were taken and I have no creativity 😁 18. Following: around 390 19. Followers: between the three blogs? 😨 20. Favorite colors: black, red and teal 21. Average hours of sleep: 9 - 10 22. Lucky number: 16 23. Instruments: ouch 💔 can’t play none 24. What am I wearing: pjs 😴 25. How many blankets I sleep with: like six 😂 26. Dream job: a musician 😭 27. Dream trip: Greece and the Maldives 28. Favorite food(s): Italian and Mexican food 29. Nationality: Chilean 30. Favorite song now: as in right now? Power by exo 31. Name: Claudia 32. Orientation: asexual 33. Fave fruit: melon/cantaloupe and pineapple 34. Fave season: autumn (fuck spring and fuck allergies) 35. Fave book: it variates 36. Fave flower: honestly? I don’t know 😋 37. Fave scent: cinnamon is life 38. Fave animal: f e l i n e s 🐱🐯🐅🐆🐈 39. Coffee, tea, or hot chocolate: hot chocolate or tea, fuck coffee 40. Cats or dogs: 👀⬆️⬆️ 41. Fave fictional character: Bucky Barnes, Natasha Romanoff, Skywalker twins, I can go on and on 42. Number of pillows you sleep with: 3 43. Song you’re listening to right now: take it all by marion cotillard Blog created: I know I already answered this one but my main blog was created on June 2010, s-lay-ing was created on January 2016 and brltpop on August 2016 😛 

Tagging new people to know them better!: @eunki-ing @cottonjae @kthwolf @rellyuta @min-yoongle @hiraethtears @singercheol @wonwoq

Have a great week! 💐🌷🌹🌻🌼🌸🌺