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formereldestdaughter · 1 month

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ok wait i need to hear more of your thoughts on peeta owning a bakery....

This is one of those rare times where I’m pretty sure this anon isn’t someone I know personally bc I’ve subjected anyone who will listen to my rant about the Peeta Bakery Headcanon. Anyway, you’re gonna regret asking this anon bc there are fucking Layers here.

I know this is probably a controversial take based on the number of fics where I’ve seen it, but I simply do not think that Peeta would open a commercial bakery after Mockingjay!! Like on a metatextual level, I don’t think it really fits with the point of the ending of the series. It actually sort of fascinates me that it’s just such a common headcanon because the ending of Mockingjay is exceedingly vague. I think that vagueness invites us, as readers, to imagine a better world post-revolution. A world where Katniss would feel confident that her children would be safe from injustice, where she’d feel confident that her children would never know want the way she did as a child. A just world. A kinder world. Can a capitalist society ever be just? Is a capitalist society where a disabled teenager has no other means to subsist himself (or feels like there’s no other way he can be a contributing member of his community) really the post-revolution world we dream of? Is that really the best we can imagine?

(This got so insanely long I’m adding a read more lmao)

I get that showing a better world is not always the point of post-mockingjay headcanons/fics. Like there are plenty of really great post-mockingjay fics I’ve seen where, yeah, part of the fic is that society like ISN’T all that different or all that much better. I’ve seen that really well done! Hell, I’ve written them myself! It’s easy to imagine how a lot of aspects of society would not get an overhaul, a lot of the same structural inequalities would continue to exist. One headcanon that really stuck with me (I can’t remember which fic it was from) was that Peeta sells basically mail order baked goods to people on the Capitol, sending them iced cakes and pastries by train, because there are still people who were “fans” of theirs during the Games. And idk this doesn’t actually have much to do with my point lol but I liked it because it’s kind of fucked up and like! Yeah! It makes sense! If he needed money that would be a good way to make it! War often makes people rich, often for horrible reasons, and often it’s people who already have capital in the first place.

Anyway, more about the hypothetical bakery because alright. I bring up the fact that “yeah society not being all that different post-revolution and still being an unjust capitalist hellscape” could be a reason why Peeta re-opens a bakery because that’s actually never the types of fics where I see the bakery headcanon. Fics where Peeta opens a bakery are usually trying to make the exact opposite point. Like. Things are getting better, now he can open a bakery! Look at how much better the world is now, plus he’s got a bakery! Peeta is healing, that’s why he can open a bakery now! And I am so, so sorry to inform everyone who’s never had the grave misfortune of owning a family business, but there is truly nothing further from the truth lmao. Like just putting aside the immense amount of emotional baggage that Peeta has about his family, running a small business is an insane amount of work in any context and being a baker especially is physically grueling and involves early hours (and long hours) that aren’t really the best fit with the multiple ways that Peeta is disabled now. (I could go into this more because I have a lot of thoughts. But I will spare you.). I also think it’s seen throughout the books that Peeta is someone who needs time to pursue creative outlets to process his feelings and someone who values leisure and values quality time with his loved ones. And having grown up in his family’s bakery, I think he’d understand the reality that running a bakery wouldn’t leave much space of those pursuits and wouldn’t leave much space for him to have the things that keep him healthy and stable. I think he’d know that the way he is now— after two Games and the war and unspeakable torture at the hands of a dictator—isn’t compatible with the lifestyle necessary for running a commercial bakery.

And tbh with that in mind, I don’t think he’d push himself to re-open a business (one that would be a constant reminder of his dead family and his complicated relationships with them that got no closure) that would require him to sacrifice his physical and emotional well-being. Like I think he might look into the possibility, I think he might even start trying to open a bakery out of a sense of obligation/duty, maybe harboring some idea that this is who he was supposed to be, who he would've been without the Games, or that it’s this last piece of his family that can live on, or that it’s this last connection to his family so he can’t let it die too. But ultimately, I think any attempt to open a bakery wouldn’t get very far. Maybe he'd start wading into the logistical nightmare that is small business ownership and realize it's not for him (because it's probably also true that as much as him and his brothers were involved in the business, there's almost certainly parts they weren't involved with and didn't see, i.e., filing taxes). Or maybe looking into opening a bakery— how triggering it is, the stress of it— causes a downward spiral. Maybe he hates how much he's worrying everyone by unraveling. Maybe having a breakdown from the stress of just trying to open a bakery makes him realize, yeah, maybe in another life he would have ran his family’s bakery but the way he is now just doesn’t work with running a bakery, not without great sacrifices he's not willing to make. I just can’t see a bakery coming to fruition.

I know a lot of fics include Peeta deciding to reopen a bakery as a big step in his healing or include him rebuilding a bakery as part of his healing process but honestly, I think the opposite would be more true: I think Peeta either trying/failing to open a bakery or ultimately deciding not to open a bakery would be hugely healing for him. I think it would be a huge part of him accepting the way he is now as a person, his new limitations but also his strengths. I think it would be a huge part of him accepting the way his life his now and accepting that he likes his life the way it is, that he’s satisfied with his life without needing to own a bakery. I think it would be an important part of him coming to terms with the loss of his family. I think he knows he can never have things back as they were and I don’t think he would try to recreate them, especially because his family’s legacy isn’t a business. I think he’s emotionally intelligent enough and self reflective enough to realize that what mattered to him about the bakery— taking care of others by feeding them, being integrated into his community and being actively involved in it, brightening people’s days with delightful things whether that’s beautiful cakes or hearty food or delicious treats— and the things he learned from his family through the bakery, are things that he can carry on in other meaningful ways.

(Do you regret sending this ask yet, anon? Because if not, you will soon. I’m not done yet. There’s more.)

I wasn’t really sure where to put this next part in what is rapidly becoming an essay because it sort of combines the points about like “what do we imagine a post-mockingjay society to look like” with the practical difficulties of starting this bakery but here’s another thing: do people really think that the Mellarks owned the land the bakery was on?? Like, sure, the merchants are the petit bourgeois of Twelve but I still don’t imagine they really own anything. In a society where houses are assigned to people upon marriage, where property ownership and capital are so closely interconnected with citizenship (as shown by the Plinths who, by having immense capital, are able to leave their District and become citizens of the Capitol) do people really think the Mellarks would be allowed to own the land their bakery is on?? I always imagined it sort of like a tenant farming situation: the Capitol gives them the raw materials for the bakery and in return the bakery give them some absurdly high portion of their profits, or the Capitol sells them a year’s supply of raw materials at a premium on credit and at the end of the year the Mellarks have to use the money they made with those materials to pay it back, except it’s never enough to turn a profit so they always have to buy next year’s materials on credit and the cycle continues.

We (understandably) get a really skewed view of the merchant class through Katniss’s perspective so I can see why people come to the conclusion that his family owned the property and, as the last surviving member, he would’ve inherited it. I’ve seen the inheritance thing in fics a lot or a hand wavey “well Twelve was decimated to no one owns anything anymore so it can be his” or even like an almost sort of reparations type situation where he’s entitled to the land as a surviving refugee of Twelve. But I don’t know. I guess I don’t think it fits with everything else we know about Panem that the Mellarks would’ve owned that land and I think the question of whether the government would’ve let him take ownership of the land post-revolution brings up a lot of issues about the structure of society post-Mockingjay that I find more interesting to explore in other ways, especially when, from an emotional perspective, 1) I find the idea of Peeta not opening a bakery more compelling and 2) I don’t think it really fits his character arc by the end of Mockingjay to reopen a bakery, as I went on about at length above lol.

On the flip side: literally who cares!! Do whatever you want!! Headcanon whatever you want!! I get why people go for the bakery!! It’s fun, it’s wholesome, it’s a built in bakery AU that isn’t even an AU. It doesn’t matter if it’s practical or realistic!! It doesn’t need to be practical or realistic!! It’s fanfic of a dystopian YA series!! My unfortunate affliction is that I grew up in a family that owned a restaurant and that I have multiple degrees in the social sciences so I can’t see the bakery without being like “What about the overheard? What about the start up costs? Who’s spending long nights balancing the books? Is Peeta covering shifts when an employee calls in sick? Is Peeta the sole person working there until the bakery is open long enough (often a year or more) to start turning a profit? How does that sleep schedule work with his nightmares? How does that work with Katniss’s nightmares? What happens when he has an episode and suddenly needs to take the day off before he has any employees? Does the bakery just remain closed for the day? Can the profit margins withstand regular unexpected closures? Can the supplies withstand regular unexpected closures?” And if the answer is “Elliott none of those things matter he’s not doing the bakery because he needs the money but because he wants to”, then my question is why does he want to? Does he not get the same sort of satisfaction out of feeding his loved ones? Doesn’t Peeta seem like someone who would rather give away baked goods than sell them?? Doesn’t Peeta seem like someone who would prefer to make cakes for people’s special occasions upon and then when they insist on paying him for it, he only lets them “pay for the ingredients” which actually cost significantly more than he says they did??

So yeah my point is that it’s a matter of personal taste! It doesn’t fit the way I see the series but that doesn’t mean it’s like wrong, I’m not an authority on Peeta lmao.

It’s also a matter of personal taste in the sense that I find the themes that most resonate with me at the end of Mockingjay (and the end of Peeta’s arc specifically) more interesting to explore in other ways. Grief, living with loss, relearning yourself, finding hope, figuring out your place in a dramatically different world when you don’t even know who you are anymore, healing, building a new life after such complete and total destruction of your old life— those are all things I find compelling about the end of Mockingjay but for me the bakery isn’t the most compelling way to explore them.

Not to say I find the concept of the bakery totally uninteresting. I have this fic about Johanna that I’ll probably never finish where the point sort of is that, yeah, her life really isn’t all that much better after the war. It’s been years at this point and she’s still miserable and she doesn’t know how to be a person but by the end she’s trying to figure it out. And towards the end, Peeta tells her that he’s spent years sort of passively, half-heartedly trying to figure out how to inherit the land his family’s bakery was on, only to find out it was never theirs in the first place. They’d been renting it the whole time and he’d never even known as a kid. So he sort of passively, half-heartedly went on another wild goose chase to find the owner and now, finally, after years of writing to various government agencies and being sent in circles and things being barely functional, he’s managed to track down the owner. Now it’s owned by the daughter of the man who owned it when he was a kid because the original owner (who was likely up to some sketchy war crime shit) died during the war and she inherited it (the irony…). He got in contact with her and asked how much it would take for her to sell it and she told him she’s not interested in selling but in light of the situation, in light of the fact that he’d have to build a new building in order to operate a bakery, that she’d cut him a deal— she’d only require 50% of the bakery’s profits as rent instead of the 80% his family used to pay. And of course Johanna is outraged, that’s not right, the owner shouldn’t be allowed to do that, they should do something about it, they should fight back. And Peeta is like. Not interested. He was actually sort of relieved that opening wasn’t very feasible. Getting the answer was a lightbulb moment where he saw that over the years of trying to look into this, he’s built a life that he likes— one where he’s stable, where his loved ones are stable, where he’s cared for and can care for others— and he doesn’t really want to change it drastically by opening a bakery anyway. He just needed an answer, one way or another, before he could get some closure and move on. (And the point of the conversation is Johanna is having her own lightbulb moment that it’s okay to move on, it’s okay to change, it’s not a betrayal of the people and things she’s lost but that’s not my point here!!).

But anyway. That’s obviously not about running the bakery— it’s about the choice to not run one.

Anyway!! Anyway… are you satisfied anon? Is this what you wanted?

Lastly, here is my most important qualm with the bakery headcanon: must Peeta be gainfully employed? Is it not enough for him to be Katniss’s boytoy? Can’t he just paint and garden and bake and hang out with his girlfriend all day? Is that really too much to ask?

#peeta mellark #thg #the hunger games #the hunger games meta #anyway wow this got so long and I literally read it through one (1) time so uhhh sorry if this makes no sense!!#as I was doing my one read through and realized that one of my other thoughts on this is that yeah I can much more easily see the #headcanon that peeta like sells baked goods (probably at cost with no profit) out of his kitchen because that’s much more flexible #and I think that would work a lot better with what like I guess I’d call his psychiatric disability post mockingjay #and how he’d certainly want to take care of Katniss too #like that sort of flexibility makes a lot more sense for him and it’s like. if he doesn’t bake for a few days or however long then it’s fin #it’s not a formal brick and mortar business #it’s just something he’s doing because it’s a way to be involved with people and a way to do something he’s passionate about #without there being waste and while covering some of the costs #and he doesn’t have to like keep books or do payroll or any of the things I can’t see him being very passionate about #as far as like bakery management goes Lmao he can just bake!!#but then I started getting into this whole thing about how that quote-unquote ‘running a business’ like that (informally from your house)#is actually a really common practice for people living in poverty so probably something that Katniss and peeta would’ve been familiar wirh #anyway and then this whole rant about how the emphasis on the brick and mortar bakery often goes hand in hand with #this widespread fandom thing of having a fundamental misunderstanding of how rural poverty works and what it looks like #but then I was too deep into it and said you know what? never mind! and deleted it lmao

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lightbluedevil · 3 days

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Spoilers for Arlecchinos story quest!!

Just wanted to share some of my thoughts

Prepeare I have a lot of thoughts

So we get to hang out with Arlecchinos dead girlfriends (Clervie) six year old spirit so that we can set her free

Clervies nickname for her was ”Perrie”, I can’t with this doomed yuri 😭😭

”Friend” you mean girlfriend??

I loved how Arlecchino and Childe just casually trash talked about the other harbingers

She is very good at leading the conversation where she wants it to go, although she doesn’t lie, she just leaves information out and twists words but never straight up lies

She is not from Fontaine, like not born there, but I suspected that already, she might very well be from outside of Teyvat, I have to read her character story to learn more about her

Neuvillette let her kill evil men, she deserves that right

Arlecchino suppressing your emotions is not the way to go, but I have been thinking if her emotions are somehow tied to her curse and powers, especially anger and sorrow

Her battle was scary aaaa, but she looked so cool, the name ”Cinder of two worlds’ flames” also could mean that she is from outside of Teyvat? Maybe, idk

And whats with the crimson moon??? And I’m just wondering about the X in her eyes, usually it means that someone is dead but she isn’t sooo?

She doesn’t like to wear dresses, I have to analyze more about her being really lesbian coded lmao

She wants people to have false beliefs of her, so that people will think she is worse than she actually is, not sure why yet, she is pretty powerfull so she doesn’t need people to be afraid of her. Maybe if people think she doesn’t care so much about her children it can’t be used against her.

She is proud of Lyney 😭😭😭😭

She doesn’t want the children feeling like they own to her for rescuing them, she wants them to choose to stay. She feels really strongly about family, not related by blood but by choise. Found family really.

And she told us what Clervie said to her; "For the last sixteen years of my life, I've done everything I can to fight for freedom. But now, I realize that the only freedom I truly possess is the freedom to choose to die."

So Arlecchino did kill her but out of her request

Ok great just lovely

#arlecchino genshin #genshin impact #genshin #arlecchino #peruere #clervie #the knave #the fourth harbinger #lyney #wtf really

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karingu · 9 months

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Chapter 474 made me want InuKag to break up (temporarily)

There's something that always bothered me about this chapter, but I finally have the words to explain what it is. (This is the one with Kaou, the weird sadness eating demon that made Inuyasha have a dream of Kikyo and cry blood and stuff.)

Sigh. I don't agree with how the ending of this chapter was written (sorry, Rumiko). It made me, an InuKagger, feel devastatingly frustrated about InuKag's relationship for the first time... specifically for Kagome's dignity.

Okay, so Inuyasha's thoughts basically got blasted on speakerphone in the previous Ch:

UM, HI? Kagome is RIGHT FUCKIN' THERE. God, at that point, for Kagome's sake, I had had enough of it. I love InuKag, but in this moment, I don't give a frank fuck what Inuyasha has done to prove he loves Kagome, or what he truly thinks — for Kagome to hear that is so. damn. hurtful. And you know those words had hurt her: they echoed in her mind in a later panel. And she cried.

Up until now, Inuyasha had been reaping the benefits of Kagome's patience. But Kagome is HURTING as much as he is, and she keeps choosing not to show him that side of her because she feels sorry for him… GAH!

KAGOME, I LOVE YOU!!! BUT CAN WE? NOT SPOIL INUYASHA TOO MUCH? PLS...

I don’t mind that it took a villain like Kaou for Inuyasha to find out how much Kagome was hurting because of him. Pretty gnarly. However, I'm upset that Kagome herself didn’t fully admit to Inuyasha how hurt she got. And she shut up Kaou before he could say that the "cause of her pain"... was Inuyasha.

I get it — her reasons were personal. But I cannot express how FREAKIN' disappointed I still was about that. Let Inuyasha find out, DAMN IT!!!

I know; Kikyo had just passed on. Kagome was trying to be considerate, and Inuyasha's guilt toward Kikyo was probably made raw again — so I'm not faulting him for his feelings at all. Truly, I understand he's having hard time. AT THE SAME TIME, REALISTICALLY SPEAKING, it is clear it was not healthy for him to be in a relationship with Kagome at that point. And likewise for Kagome.

I wanted Kagome to stand up for herself. When Inuyasha told her that he dreamed of Kikyo, I wanted her to tell him something like, "Hey, I know she's on your mind, and that's okay, really, but... I just don't think I can endure it right now."

How would Inuyasha react to that? He’d probably be disquieted, but I think he’d try to accept it.

Yes, I guess it could come off as "selfish," because Inuyasha is grieving and having a hard time. But look... Kagome is hurt. She had been withstanding it all this time... she had been selfless enough. It is not selfish; it’s an act of self-love. She is her own person, no? She's entitled to look out for herself too, regardless of the circumstances.

Strength is also knowing when to retreat.

Instead of this chapter ending on a jokey note, I truly wanted Kagome to put a pause on their relationship. Have a lil’ time-out. Let Inuyasha grieve for Kikyo properly. Let Kagome be free to feel whatever it is for herself, with no strings attached.

Then, they can reconcile later when they're both at a better place.

From a writer's standpoint, WOOWEE that would've been a great cliffhanger. Tune in next week! LOL (Ok tbh Inuyasha prob wouldn’t last more than 3 days or something before he wants to get back with Kagome LMAO… but at least he knows how Kagome truly feels.)

No matter how much I love InuKag, I recognize a bad situation when I see one. I really... wanted Takahashi to make Kagome take a stand for her own well being. Just this once. JUST THIS DAMN ONCE.

It may seem important to put others first… but man, give yourself some love, too, Kagome.

Sorry… maybe I’m getting too carried away. (I’m seeing too much of my past self in her here.) And who knows? Maybe Takahashi didn’t have time for them to break up, or did this to show that Kagome, still a teenager, doesn’t always make perfect decisions. At any rate, I think Kagome's weakness is being too understanding sometimes :(

#kagome #kagome higurashi #inuyasha #inukag #inuyasha x kagome #kagome x inuyasha #inuyasha anime #inuyasha manga #my:posts #my:inumeta

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miyuecakes · 9 months

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some light rambling about designing personifications and by extension area studies from an outsider perspective

since i created my own SEA designs in like 2017, i truly do think the “””””community-based”””” (LMAO) approach is the best way to design countries in which you are an outsider to. as outsiders, we obviously must do research to be respectful but i think there is a culture of either trying to act like an expert or treating outsiders AS experts.

obviously, 15 year old me was not thinking so deeply, but when i designed SEA they were intended to be designs anyone could use if they were unable to design their own and/or disliked maybe some of the other popular interpretations. designing SEA was a way for me to not only reclaim and connect with my SEAsian heritage but to also include and simply make funny content with many of the friends i had at the time (who were SEAsian). however, when i tried to actually take over the direction of their designs, that was when my weaknesses were exposed. i ended my old sea ask blog early because (1) personal irl stuff (2) SEA is not homogenous. my knowledge was incredibly centered on malaysia-singapore-brunei because that is my background. but that means i couldn’t answer as well for philippines, thailand, etc. i struggled to write good responses and even with the research i’ve done there will always be a sense of doubt by virtue of my outsiderness.

the majority of my characterization for non malbrusg SEA came from talking to people from those countries and letting them write the characters. in fact, even with malbrusg, i got help from interacting with people directly from those places (i must mention that these interactions were not predicated on research but a shared interest. we spoke as friends on equal grounds.). now you might think this is lazy and an excuse to not do research, but i would tell you -- as someone who does this type of research in my degree -- that no matter how much research you do -- you will still struggle to answer questions that are not only extremely nuanced, but culturally-specific. for example, i struggled to answer questions about historical figures because when i researched them and form my own opinion about them -- i wouldn’t know the popular discourse surrounding that figure in their own country. you would be surprised to know how many historical figures that may seem overall impressive are actually popularly despised in their own countries. and so we have that gap of knowledge that will always exist on part of being an outsider.

beyond this, i think trying to act like an expert can accidentally lead to... objectification? it’s like the same problem with many so-called egyptologists, sinologists, etc. ... i don’t deny that they’ve done their work in researching and analyzing artifacts and whatnot -- but they often lack empathy. or their interpretation and translation of the culture can fail to capture context-specific nuances or just. straight up be tainted by biases. it’s misrepresentation, basically.

LIKE IDK WHERE I’M EVEN GOING W THIS POST LMAO I JUST HAVE A LOT OF THOUGHTS I WANTED TO GET OUT. idk idk idk i just often feel like within this weirdo niche space there’s a lot of elitism, unironic braggadocio from outsiders being like “i am sooooo well researched! i know everything!”, and people looking up to outsiders as experts while shirking people from that community (which can also be mentally taxxing on the part of the outsider as well).

btw side note. i’m not saying you have to kowtow to everything someone says (i’ve actually rectified some of the ideas that people from a community have added)... TLDR; i think we need to be more explicit and aware of our own limitations as outsiders ok bye

#not art #disk horse #NOT REALLY?#IT'S JUST. ???#rant #.....kinda?#me when i don't commit to the art part of the term art blog and just vomit word salad

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imaginespazzi · 2 months

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Hey pookie,

First off, since you achieved your goal of keeping part 2 shorter, imma try to do the same with this ask! So here goes my thoughts on part 2:

I should have already known as soon as I saw the lyric/song you chose that this was gonna hurt bad, but I still was not prepared for how bad. Side note: I listened to Happier while I was reading it for the second time – I do not recommend if you don’t want your heart to break even more.

I know I said I wanted Paige to suffer… WELL I TAKE IT BACK- my favourite blonde has suffered enough 😭

Her entire drunken monologue about what she would have done if it was her that took Azzi on a date- fuuuuuck I can’t- but oh man it was so well written and so heartbreaking.

And then oh- that last part and when she realised that it wasn’t her that Azzi was looking for (although I still believe that subconsciously, it was a certain blonde that she was searching for in the crowd)

ZOE WHEN I CATCH YOU 🫵 (you did nothing wrong, BUT STILL)

I did let out a lil giggle tho (In between my crying) at blondie running into a wall cos she was so desperate to get away 🤭

Side note: the first scene was top tier; I just love Paige and the Fudds interactions and Azzi and Drew interactions 🫂

Side note 2: Angela being chosen as one of the menace teammates, I see the vision truly, she would be that girl lmao

Favourite line/quote: “she’s who you were supposed to be…” 💔

So overall, my heart was as cracked as paige's screen protector was by the end of it, and I just want blondie to finally get to take her bestie out on their dream date. BUT I do love angst so maybe I can handle just a tiny bit more suffering (I guess I’m taking back my earlier takeback), sorry paige 🙈

Thoughts on what’s to come (potentially):

I know I said in a previous ask that in my mind, summer breaks are when it gets especially messy and seeing as we’re up to a summer break in the timeline, oof bestie I can’t wait to see what you have in store for them (and us).

Also, the first meeting between Zoe and Paige- I know that would be explosive, like Paige would just be constantly trying to prove that she knows Azzi best 👀

“you don’t even know the things I said to her before she left for LA. And she’s still here” – another teaser of that fight, ugh I so desperately wanna know, but also not know, what she actually did say that night.

As always, thank you for this incredible story. I was so prepared (well, not really but I could have been) to wait at least a couple weeks for this part cos ya know we never wanna pressure you and I know you still got actual life to deal with, so the fact that you put this out ONE WEEK later - we don’t deserve you, truly. 🥺

Ok omg lemme wrap this up now, and ignore the part where I said I’d try to keep this ask short(er) because I’m pretty sure this is my longest one yet? I’m sorry – the key word there was obviously: try.

Much love always 💗

-🙋‍♀️

Hi bestie <3

Please I love your long asks, don't ever stop.

Fun fact I was torn between using Ed Sheeran's Happier or Oliviia Rodrigo's Happier (does she mean you forgot about me) but also kind of wanted to use The 1 (if my wishes came true, it would have been you).

I KNEW YOU (and everybody else) WOULD FLIP THE MINUTE I GAVE Y'ALL SAD PAIGE like y'all love her too much (me af) 😭

We're gonna come back to Azzi and her searching the crowds during the game next chapter (also just gonna add here, the anon asking if Azzi knows Paige was at the game, she doesn't...yet)

WAIT okay, do we want Zoe to be a good kind gf or no? Cause I have two ways this could go lol

Poor Angela caught some strays. It was between her and Emily Bessoir and I was like nah Angela fits better, so I'm glad you agree babe

Aww babes I'm sorry to break you like Paige's screen protector 💀 (is this a bad time to tell you that it very much is not getting better anytime soon so hopefully you can handle a lot more than little)

SUMMER BREAK I'M SO EXICTED (muahaha)

Mini confession, I also don't actually know what the argument before Azzi left for UCLA actually was...very much a work in progress oops-

Let's see if I can actually stick to my weekly timelines (hmmmm)

Love you always pookie 💗

#ask #fic talk #UCLA ANON LOML FR <3 #the way i genuinely could end this fic in a way that would have pitchforks sent my way 👀

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teethearts · 1 year

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·˚ ༘ ddlc boys x m!reader hc’s ( sfw + nsfw )

·˚ ༘ moniko sfw

- now, a lot of people have known moniko as a character for being a ruthless, brutal, and an unempathetic person for deleting his own friends — but in reality if you just picked him he would’ve never done that (but you literally couldn’t because the game didn’t allow it but wtv)

- so, here’s what he would’ve acted like if you picked him ..

- of course he’s like madly in love with you

- would make breakfast for you every morning no matter what

- would write poems and other literature about you

- cheesy romantic

- LOVES pda, even if you don’t like it he’ll still sneak a hand around yours

- likes to exercise, so he would try to get you to exercise with him

- and even if you don’t exercise he wouldn’t mind doing a bit of yoga either

- likes cuddling

- always remembers things you like + don’t like — he has a book full of your interests and hobbies 😭

- overall a very sweet guy

·˚ ༘ moniko nsfw

- he doesn’t really have any major kinks

- or kinks in general

- sounds basic but yk

- something he does enjoy though that could be labeled as a kink would be a size kink

- i don’t know .. like before you guys were dating and if you’re like a super big buff man he would always comment on ur muscles and say like “hey can you help me w this??” and it’s something he can easily carry on his own but he just wants you to help him to see your muscles flex

- and he definitely jerks off about it at home later

- but !! if you were smaller than him, he would like the advantage

- grabbing you and moving you out of the way would be something he’d do a lot — before and after you both were dating (just more sexual when you guys date lol)

- before, he would be like “excuse me!” and slightly move you to the side with the palm of his hand pressed against your waist

- while after you’re dating he doesn’t even say anything and just picks you up and places you out of his way

- it REALLY riles him up to think of you kind of like a doll — not something he can toy with but something he can control and that you love him for it

- of course that goes the opposite way too, he LOVES it if you decide to sling him around like a doll — head pushed deep into the covers while you brutally fuck his tight assh—

- ok i’m done LMAO .. that’s saved for a fic later

·˚ ༘ satori sfw

- yay!! you picked him!!

- he would’ve never guessed a guy like you would pick a guy like him — (everyone would’ve guessed a guy like you would pick a guy like him)

- SO sweet .. like genuinely probably the sweetest one out of all of them

- constantly clinging to you, no matter if your public or private i swear he’ll always be hugging your leg like a lost puppy

- will immediately tell the club you two are dating, he can get a bit jealous ..

- not in a bad way though!! like he wouldn’t yell at you or anything for something someone else did , he’d just get sad

- speaking of sad, PLEAASEEE take care of this baby bro

- he’s the sweetest person on planet earth but he’s really struggling with personal issues

- aka depression

- and he probably doesn’t tell you about his depressive episodes because he doesn’t want you to worry about him

- of course you can see when he has them (he’ll get grumpy or sad)

- so pleaaseee when you notice them take care of this baby boy cause he doesn’t deserve to have sad thoughts — you truly light his day up too, so please do everything to make him happy 🙏

·˚ ༘ satori nsfw

- omg.

- wow.

- like … WOW ..

- he can be anything you want him to be, he’ll do whatever you want him to do, etc.

- like seriously do whatever you want to him — if it pleases you DO IT.

- he also doesn’t have any kinks, not really

- he doesn’t really think about sex a whole lot either LMAO

- so ur probably gonna have to be the one to initiate anything, and if he’s in the mood — he’s def on board

- he’s more of the submissive type but wouldn’t mind domming from time to time

- but if he does dom he’s a very soft dom

- honestly likes sucking you off more than you actually fucking him

- he likes to please you, so he’ll mainly be trying to do something that doesn’t really involve fucking you cause he’s not into the one fucking the other person — he likes to get fucked

- but he mainly wants to please YOU, so here’s the blowjob king everyone

- he’s definitely a pillow princess

·˚ ༘ yuki sfw

- actually like so nice

- just quiet

- also he’s like super possessive

- but not abusively possessive just like .. i need you all to myself RIGHT NOW

- it all comes from his low self esteem though

- he’s really insecure so he’ll think that someone is trying to take you away from him like 24/7 so he’s stuck by you 24/7

- like even if you’re with your friends and he’s not included at all he’ll literally just stand by you and be dead silent which could be considered creepy but he’s really just looking out for you LOL

- loves reading with you, before and after you guys start dating

- but when you guys start dating he’s like 10x closer to you, practically sitting on you or you sitting on him type thing

- of course it’s always on the floor cause he just likes it there (we know the true reason when it comes to the girls)

- he’s scared to try new things but if you show him new things he won’t be as scared anymore

- like you’re the only person that he trusts

- so .. a little bit of a tw for the topic i’m about to bring up so beware!!

- so we all know yuri the character tends to cut herself due to stimulation — which is like this sexual kink thing or wtv

- with him, it’s different, he does it when he’s overstimulated and it’s a form of calming down for him (that’s what i’m doing)

- and maybe it isn’t but idc cause i’m not making it the same cause it’s weird and fuck monika/moniko for fucking with the characters and making them have weird problems like these

- anyway!! he has a lot of scars on his arms and you noticed it once and asked him about it

- he immediately got defensive and was like “i don’t do that!!” but u reassured him and helped him with remedies and solutions to his addiction

- he slowly got better overtime but if u ever caught him doing it u would stop him and help him again — he’s mainly doing it due to him being like overstimulated and he’s just scared

- never does it when he’s with you though, so that’s good

- overtime he’s completely done with self harm and he’s finally growing as a person along with his possessive nature!! yay!!

- you’re very proud of him and you tell him that everyday and he just shyly smiles and says “i couldn’t have done it without you” 😊 (i love him)

·˚ ༘ yuki nsfw

- WOW …. just …. oh em gee …

- fuck him till he can’t walk anymore and he has heart eyes

- okay so i know the other characters don’t really have any kinks but he does

- (yes they’re healthy, no i’m not gonna make it weird)

- he loves to get fucked by you while he’s doing something (aka reading, making a snack, cleaning, etc)

- that could go the opposite way as well — although the prefers to be dominated cause of his shy nature, he wouldn’t mind domming either

- he’s definitely domming if he sees someone flirting with you, prepare to be butt fucked so hard later

- he also really likes aftercare, just being held makes him feel really loved — even if it isn’t sexual just hold him pls

- oh and roleplay, obviously not a lot — but he would like to act out like celebrity and bodyguard, prince and peasant, maybe even helpless victim and burglar (IF you are into that — but if not then dw he won’t force it it’s just something he wants to try out)

- just cause he’s shy and quiet doesn’t mean he isn’t screaming your name while you brutally fuck him into the sheets and being a perv most of the time

- literally staring at your ass constantly even when people are around, embarrassed if gets caught though

- he also thinks it’s pretty hot if he’s like taking a shower and he catches you watching him — other way around too

- ESPECIALLY if you’re like touching yourself and watching him he’ll like immediately get hard at the vulnerability

- again, other way around — he doesn’t like the thought of being a perv or anything, but sometimes he can’t help but peak around the corner at you if you’re changing or taking a bath/shower

- also did i tell you this man jerks off like all the time?

- like jesus christ he is always jerking off!!

- and it’s never to porn, or some other person or character — always to you

- the thought of you alone can rile him up pretty easily

- he also has a massive dick, bigger than all of the other members (yk yuri has big boobs? yeah his cock is a good 8.9 inches, extremely girthy too) if you outbeat him he’ll be drooling immediately

·˚ ༘ naruki sfw

- AWWW I LOVE HIM

- now i know that a lot of people make him super flirty because he’s a guy and he isn’t tsundere like natsuki which i do see!! but he definitely becomes tsundere after you guys start dating

- likes pda but gets embarrassed for liking it

- like if you try to kiss him he’ll be like “okay whatever” and then he’ll melt into it and then you’ll be like “hey you liked it” and then he would be like “uh no!! your breath stinks!” (it does not stink)

- surprise cupcakes and cookies for you

- expect this super cool customized cake for your bday

- has a super good memory but acts like he doesnt — especially if you notice that he remembered something you liked and you’ll be like “you remembered !! how sweet” and then he would be like “nah you’re just dumb and this is dumb so it reminded me of you” or something stupid like that

- you know, the usual

- hates it when you flirt with him but could flirt with you all day

- “hey hot stuff” he would say, winking in your direction — and if you reply back with some flirty comment he’ll get mad at you and look away, blushing

- but if you get surprised and you look away and blush he’ll just smirk and look like a smug puppy dog

- almost always reading manga with you, and actually takes the literature club really seriously so if you catch him writing a poem he’ll get embarrassed cause he doesn’t wanna look like he actually cares about something for once

- always shows you his poems first before the other members — he trusts your opinion the most

- and don’t be afraid to be blunt with him, he’s blunt back

·˚ ༘ naruki nsfw

- this boy literally can’t be a dom for shit

- like seriously he’s almost always submissive

- he’s like a dog with no bite, he’ll be barking at you for days just to get fucked so hard he wouldn’t even be able to bite at you even if he tried

- has the biggest size kink known to man

- also one of his strange kinks that he probably won’t ever admit is to get fucked in the club room closet

- like do you remember that scene where you and natsuki are getting manga off the shelves ??

- you both would be doing that and he would probably see you just staring at this ass or whatever and he’d like look around and be like “wanna eat it??” LMFAODHAOXO

- something corny like that i can’t think of anything decent

- also likes food play (duhhh)

- lick whip cream off his dick or something and his thighs would be shaking from pleasure

- “oonngghhh!!! fuuckkk!! ohhh yeaahh…” as you’re fucking him with like pocky in your mouth or something

- anyway he’s just like super cute and submissive but can also be a brat so make sure you put him in his place

#teethearts #teethearts writing #ddlc #ddlc headcanons #ddlc imagines #monika #sayori #yuri #natsuki #doki doki literature club #genderbend #moniko #satori #yuki #naruki #ddlc genderbend

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mariailoveyou-guerin · 1 year

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I told y’all jiara was never and would never ever been planned bc that’s lesbian girl and gay man lmao so jj being jealous in s1 when pope kissed kie was bc jjpope planned like we been saying since day 1 jjpope the planned ship like can’t wait for s4 to come and they can spill it cuz we waited 2 seasons to know this plot! Took 2 years before they let us know this so god knows when they gonna start saying jjpope was indeed the planned ship since day1 like it was so obvious from the second jj took the blame for pope like the jiara forced fan service is! the pates putting together everyone on the planet before ever thinking about jiara will forever be the funniest sh*t like they thought about rarry jjcleo before the thought jiara ever came to them and it wouldn’t even have if it wasn’t for 12 year old yt girls ok tiktok! Gotta thank them so hard for jiara fanservice bc we got popecleo truly biggest win of my life. the one time the pates had some brains n should’ve cooked this bc it makes so much sense having the two people who’s in love with pope easily fall in love with each other trying to get over him! Like the way that would ate would jumped on it if I wasnt jjpopecleo popecleo truther for once gotta thank the 12 year old tiktok kids bc enough with having my sisters end up with the yt loser of the gp when theres fine smart bipoc boy right there enough with swirl ships y’all never be the one and only swirl ship that matters shawnagela so dont even try it no more

it’s everyone but jiara plz truly the biggest fan service ship since stydia not one person thought of those two ad ship until fans aka the 12y old kids wanted to self insert themselves as lie to be with JJ! honestly so happy we didn’t get jjcleo even tho they already solo jiara

not me thanking jiara fanservice bc I escaped another swirl ship that would’ve had the internet the black community/girls in ch*ke hold like what have I become can’t believe I’m actually thanking jiara fanservice winning bc I could not handle another swirl ship hold on the internet!

my mutual the one jjcleo shipper girl losing right now can’t believe she lost jjcleo to that nasty no chemistry ship I feel so bad for her! stay strong bestie you deserve better let me go find them and see how she’s doing!! she lost so bad

STYDIA GET UP JIARW TAKING UR #1 biggest fan service ship ever it’s insane beating stydia in a forced fan service ship jiara demons are real

no but kie a girl kisser bc her jb never went further, her pope, it didn’t feel right I want something else! if it weren’t for this fanservice ship! + jjcleo planned in s2 before they found out jj was to gay coded and in love other pope then that fan service ship sticked him too!

never did I think I would ever see another fanservice ship after the way stydia ended up so badly but nah obx said let’s try this just to have them end up worse then stydia at least it didn’t take 6 years to turn into the nightmare of ship it is just took 1 szn well done pates!

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e-dubbc11 · 8 months

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400 Follower Celebration | Song Lyric Prompts

*You know I'm a sucker for a good song lyric game. XD

Muse: Donald Pierce Song Lyrics: "I turn my back and you're messin' around. I'm not bein' jealous. Don't like lookin' like a clown." -Joan Jett & the Blackhearts ;)

If not that one, then here's another encouraging nudge from yours truly… ;)

Muse: Quinn Mckenna Song Lyrics: Runnin' just as fast as we can, holdin' onto one another's hand. Tryin' to get away into the night and then you put your arms around me and we tumble to the ground and then you say, "I think we're alone now."

LMAO! I couldn't resist. I figure that whole scenario would make for a great getaway scene that could lead to something hot and heavy with Quinn endin' up on top of the other muse or somethin'. LOL! Either way, I have absolute faith in your abilities to tap into both muses, sweetheart! Just have fun with it and go for whatever gets those juices flowin'! Happy 400 Followers, darlin'! *hugs tight and smooches yer cheek* MUAH! <333

DAX!!! Thank you so so much for following me and I know we haven’t had any lately (I’m sorry) but I love our little chats, they always make me smile 😊 I send you all the hugs and smooches right back to ya! ♥️

And thank you for sending in this prompt and being a part of my celebration . I chose Pierce for this one (maybe I’ll do Quinn too at some point) but I wanted to get this one out for you. But please be gentle, this is my first time writing for him. I hope you like it ♥️

I Hate Myself for Loving You

Photos are not mine. They are courtesy of Pinterest/Google.

Pairing: Donald Pierce x F! Reader

Warnings: A swear word or two, bit of angst, fluffy bunnies and unicorns

Word Count: 2k-ish

Summary: Your new job at Alkali-Transigen has you crushing on the head of security

A/N: This is my first time writing for Pierce, I hope I did an ok job. Thank you for reading!

You accepted the job at Alkali-Transigen because it was the only place willing to hire you with little laboratory experience but you also hoped it would be temporary. You were very familiar with what they did there.

Yes, they were mutants but they were children. They didn’t have families, they grew up inside the facility, treated like science experiments, and were designed to be used as weapons.

But they were just kids and they deserved to grow up in a place where they could just be…kids, not in a holding room or being watched by armed guards outside their rooms.

Even though you didn’t work directly with the kids, you did everything you could to make them feel like someone cared like by bringing them candy, little toys, coloring books, and crayons.

You just felt bad for them and always wished you could do more.

Donald Pierce was head of security and leader of a militant group called the Reavers and when you saw him on your first day at Transigen, you were smitten even though you knew you shouldn’t be. Everyone told you to stay away from him but you didn’t listen.

You had heard he dated a couple of the nurses at Transigen that didn’t end well. And he was also the one they sent out to bring back anyone that tried to run, so you did your best to keep your head down and do the job you were hired to do.

Temporary…it’s only temporary.

He found you working on a Saturday morning in the lab, finishing up some paperwork you didn’t get done the day before.

“Oh…I’m sorry, darlin’. I didn’t know anyone else was here.” He said.

God, his accent was sexy. You played it cool though.

“Oh it’s alright, Mr. Pierce. I’m just finishing up and I’ll be leaving soon, if you need me out faster I can just—“ You stated before he cut you off.

“Now, now I didn’t say you had to leave. You just took me by surprise, is all. That’s not easy to do either. And Mr. Pierce is too formal for someone like me, so please call me Donald or Donnie is fine too. It’s nice to meet you Miss…” He trailed off.

You were hypnotized by his sly smile and southern charm but you snapped out of your trance long enough to answer him.

“Oh! It’s y/l/n…y/f/n y/l/n. I just started a month or so ago.”

One side of his mouth curled up into a slight smile.

“Oh no, I remember. You had your hair pulled back in a low bun that day and I noticed you had a little skull and crossbones pin on your lab coat there.” He said. “As you can see, I’m a fan of the skull and crossbones also.” Chuckling a little, he pointed to the tattoo on his throat.

His memory was impressive. There were a lot of new hires that started that day and he remembered you.

“You have a good memory Mr. Pierce.” You said, completely forgetting that he said it was alright you call him by his first name.

“Well, I never forget a pretty face.” He said with a warm smile, flashing his gold tooth.

Heat rose to your cheeks and warmth spread across your chest as you felt yourself turn different shades of red which is when he asked you to go out for a drink with him. It was the first of many dates with Donald Pierce.

He definitely did not look like Prince Charming, however he could be VERY charming and sweet. That slight southern drawl when he’d call you “sweetheart” or “baby,” made you weak in the knees. The bad boy type always enticed you, gripped you tightly and never wanted to let go and Donnie was no exception.

It was difficult to explain why you were attracted to a guy who had a mechanical arm, a throat tattoo, and a gold tooth but he really was handsome and his bad boy persona made him irresistible to you. He couldn’t be all bad though, could he?

But you weren’t the only one who found his bad boy image irresistible.

It seemed like everywhere you went together, women found Donnie attractive and they never tried to hide it either but what really upset you was when he would flirt back. Who knows what he did when you weren’t around. Maybe you were starting to regret not taking the advice from your co-workers, they did warn you after all.

You wondered if any of them had developed deeper feelings for Donnie so they hated seeing him with you and you hated the fact that you might be in love with him. Was he husband material? Or were you just having fun?

He hasn’t said what his feelings are toward you either so maybe it was just a fling and that’s why he flirted with other women. There was never talk of being exclusive and Donnie did seem like the guy you used as a fling between boyfriends rather than being an actual boyfriend.

He seemed to really like you too though.

“You haven’t run screamin’ for the hills yet but I’m not exactly the kinda guy you bring home to meet mom, ya know? The things Transigen has asked me to do…you don’t know the half of it, sweetheart. But I have to be a strong leader and I relay the orders I get to the Reavers. I can’t appear weak. I’m just not a good guy. I promise you, I do my best not to hurt them when I bring them back after they run.” He told you.

“I know the kind of work you do. I tell myself that ‘it’s just his job, it’s not all that he is’. You’re not a bad guy, Donnie.” You told him.

It scared you to think of telling him how you actually felt about him. He said he was surprised that you didn’t even flinch a little when he touched his mechanical hand to your skin. It was something that he was always a little ashamed of and it surprised you that he actually shared that with you.

“I’m not whole, darlin’.” He had said.

You had touched his mechanical hand, held it in yours and told him that it was just a part of him. It didn’t make him any less of a person in your eyes but he worried. He worried about hurting you, if he gripped your skin too tightly there wasn’t any sensation in his hand so he didn’t know how much pressure he was applying.

“I know you’d never hurt me, Donnie. You never have.” You had said.

But that was a lie.

True, he had never hurt you physically but emotionally, it hurt to watch him flirt with other women though and more than you cared to admit to. It wasn’t necessarily jealousy, it was just humiliating.

And it all boiled over one night when you met him out for dinner and drinks at your favorite local bar. Earlier on the phone, he said he was having a rough day and that he just wanted to relax with dinner and drinks with “his girl.”

As you stepped into the crowded bar, you scanned the crowd for Donnie and found him sitting at a low table in the dimly lit bar area. A wide smile stretched across your lips as you got closer to him but that smile disappeared when you saw the beautiful blonde in a short tight dress sitting across from him.

“There she is. Hey baby.” He waved and turned to the blonde and said, “you’re in her seat, darlin’.”

Your cheeks flamed with anger and your tightly clenched fists rested at your sides with your knuckles showing white.

You couldn’t take it anymore.

“Ya know what? I’ll go. You can have dinner with “legs” here.” You said, turning on your heels and heading for the door.

You heard him call out after you.

“Baby wait! Y/N!”

Suddenly, you felt cold hard metal wrap around your wrist and then your body was being pulled into the coat closet.

“Let go of me, Donnie…NOW!” You yelled.

He shook his head and pressed his lips together in a straight line before saying, “No, I’m not letting go until you tell me what the hell that was all about, sweetheart.”

He gazed down at you with his sky blue eyes, standing close enough to you that you were sharing the same air and because he was holding onto you with his mechanical arm, he couldn’t feel how hot your skin was from the pent up anger you’ve been holding on to for awhile now.

“I don’t like lookin’ like a fool, Donald! How do you think that makes me feel when you flirt with other women like that? And that’s not the first time!” You said, sternly.

Still holding onto your wrist, he replied, “They flirt with me, baby. I don’t wanna be rude. Are ya jealous?” He asked calmly.

“I’m not jealous, I’m embarrassed and I am mad at you and I hate myself for it because it’s not like we’ve ever talked about being exclusive or anything, so I know I don’t really have any right to be angry or jealous but...” You said trailing off with tears burning the back of your eyes and turning away from him so he wouldn’t see the tears that were about to spill over and streak down your cheeks.

He let go of your wrist and with his other hand turned your head toward him and tilted your chin up so you were looking into his eyes.

“Baby, I don’t want you to feel that way. Why would you say that you hate yourself?” He asked.

You inhaled sharply before letting out a long exhale.

“Because…I’ve fallen for you, Donnie.” You whispered. “And I’m afraid you don’t feel the same way because of the way you are always flirting with other women in front of me.”

Your tears had spilled over.

“Well, number one that’s no reason to hate yourself, I am pretty easy to fall for. It’s the accent isn’t it.” He said with a smug smile on his face as you rolled your eyes. But his tone changed as he said, “I really don’t mean to flirt back, I am just tryin’ be polite, darlin’ but I’ll do better because…I’ve fallen for you too, Y/N.” He said, brushing the tear away from your cheek.

Shaking his head, he said. “I don’t hear the L-word very often. But that is what you meant, right?”

You snaked your arms around his neck and gave him a warm smile.

“Yes Donnie, that’s what I meant.” You said and gently pressed your lips to his. “I do love you, ya know when you’re not sitting with hot blondes in tight dresses.”

He let out a little laugh.

“Your ass is the only one I wanna look at in a short tight dress. I love you, sweetheart.” He said.

You pulled him into a tight embrace and Donald winced in pain.

“Easy darlin’, I got shot today.” He said with a slightly wicked smile.

Your mouth dropped as you lifted his shirt and saw the bloody bandage on his oblique but it didn’t look bad.

“Is this what you meant earlier when you said you had a ‘bad day!!?’” You asked with concern in your voice.

He captured your lips again, his were warm and firm as his tongue parted your lips to tangle with yours. The bristles of his beard lightly tickled your cheeks, causing you to giggle. His mechanical hand gripped your waist tightly, pulling you flush with him while his other hand tangled in your hair.

He winked and gave you a sly smile, showing off his gold tooth. “It’s just a flesh wound, baby. C’mon, I’ll tell ya all about it over dinner.”

Tagging: @munsonownsmyass @ilovewhiteroses (I know you ladies love Boyd also) feel free to ignore 🤣

#ericca’s 400 follower celebration #lovely friend Dax #donald pierce #donald pierce x reader #logan 2017

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cyncerity · 5 months

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hi everyone! little bit of an update!!

to those of you waiting for the next part in the store shifter au: it’s almost done, i swear.

the rest of this is a lengthy explanation cause y’all know me, i can’t write something short. tldr will be bolded at the bottom if you don’t wanna read all this.

i wanna explain something real quick: in my early years of middle school, i was into creepypasta, which pipelined into Marble Hornets, which pipelined into a ton of other slenderverse series. If you don’t know what that is, it’s an ARG with an emphasis on characters being stalked or hunted by Slenderman. All of them are really really good in their own way and do interesting things with not only Slendy, but adding their own new big bad’s and lore and i’d highly recommend watching one if you haven’t yet. (i may make a separate post about which you should watch based on what kind of content you most enjoy cause i really want to indoctrinate more people into this)

My favorite slenderverse at the time had a very big emphasis on early November, specifically November 11th. So i started to have a little tradition of watching those videos every November 11th even after the hyperfixation had faded just for a bit of nostalgia.

Fast forward to now- it has snowballed to the point where every year for over half a decade now, November 11th rolls around and I am thrown violently headfirst back into my slenderverse phase. I cannot control it. I’ll be like “ok this year i’ll be normal about it, after this long, surely watching one video won’t spiral me again” and it always fucking does. No other hyperfixation i’ve ever had has functioned on a calendar cycle so idk wtf this is. This is the 6th year of this. I cannot escape.

So yeah, per how it’s been since middle school, November-January my main hyperfixation will be slenderverse. It could be shorter, it could be longer, but that’s the general pattern i’ve noticed over the years. After that i’ll pretty much be back to normal.

Don’t get me wrong, i’m not taking a 3 month hiatus or anything. I promise i will do my best to get the store shifter au part out before fucking 2024. But if you’ve sent me an ask recently and i’ve ignored it, i’m genuinely so sorry, but i can’t force myself to work on new stuff right now when mcyt g/t isn’t my main interest. I’ll do my best to get to it eventually when the hyperfixation comes back a bit more, i do read and process and think about every single ask i receive and it always makes my day when i get a new ask, but yeah. For the next few months i’m probably only gonna be working on and posting stuff that’s been in the works, are from asks that we’re given to me like a year ago and already have wips in progress to answer them, or art that i just haven’t given you yet.

on the other hand, if you’re reading this and you like creepypasta or slenderverse stuff, i’ve created what i think is literally my 5th fucking blog! @cynningly <-i’ve been spamming this for like 4 days cause i refuse to be normal about slenderverse stuff, but follow there if you want horror stuff and so far just a bunch of really shitty edits of internet arg sexyman villains. Also yes all of my blogs have to have “cyn” in the name somewhere, that’s how you can tell it’s me lmao

tldr:

my hyperfixations switched up again, im really into slenderverse (slenderman-centric args) at the moment and likely will be till January. This is a cycle that’s been going on for years now. made an alt for it -> @cynningly

I will still be working to post mcyt g/t stuff, but only stuff that’s a wip or has been in the works for a while. to anyone who has sent an ask recently: sorry, but i can’t take on making new stuff when my focus isn’t purely on mcyt rn. I will do my best to get to it eventually and if you’re one of the people who’s sent a story request or ask recently i truly, truly appreciate it. y’all make my day. but, yeah, that’s what’s going on with me lol

#cyncerity #cynpsa #mcyt gt #mcyt g/t #<- using this tag so my mcyt g/t followers and moots see this #not g/t

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persephoneflouwers · 9 months

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i truly didn’t believe you when you said that harry would not be going anywhere after this tour ended. there was just no way in mind that after over two years of crazy touring, two movies, an album, the worst stunt of his career (imo), being over exposed by the media, and everything else in between that he wouldn’t want to take a break for at least a year. no way that he’d keep going and possibly have another project up his sleeve (tbd for now but looking more and more likely). no way that he enjoyed all of this so much that he wouldn’t rest and instead, just wanted this same cycle to continue… so, i just wanted to say that you were right, and it’s honestly been difficult to cope with that reality because it does change some things that i thought were true about who he is. and that feels harsh saying because at the end of the day, it’s my fault for creating this image in my head of who i thought he was. but there’s also parts of me that feel a bit led on or maybe even lied to (idk??) just certain things that gave me hope or that i justified but can’t anymore. it’s not his management or label and it’s definitely not because of his closet either. it’s him making these decisions for the purpose of his career and influence and money and i just hate that harrystylesTM is blending with the harry in my mind. and making me question how genuine some of the things he’s said and done actually were. you know if it makes him happy then ok, i get it. if he thinks all of this is justified then ok. but i just can’t bare to see him make these choices and then be miserable while stunting or try to gay/larry code or make music videos where we’re supposed to feel sorry for him. i still will tbh because god, i really do think he needs some better friends, a hug, and some help, but you make your bed and you lay in it. it’s his choice, and he chose the direction that even a week ago, i would’ve never predicted. so all in all, just wanted to say you were correct and it’s definitely made me think about things differently…

Ouch this is a difficult ask to respond to because the risk is to sound like an ‘I told you so’ kinda person (which I absolutely am but don’t want to now).

So mh, I think most people fall for the marketing and brand not just in this fandom, it’s about the current publicity and media distribution, when in reality that thing is full of crap, delivered by smart people whose job is literally selling things to you.

In US consumerism, the lesson n1 is ‘make it sensational’. The minimum most average thing becomes giant, incredible, out of this planet. When they put tickets for the last show last year on sale, they didn’t mention the ‘final show’ thing. This was clearly planned for later on, when there were two big zones in campovolo that weren’t sold out yet, they put on the final show label. It was smart because people bought the tickets in the fear of ‘Harry styles not going on tour again for years’ and for a fandom that is used to consume him like I consume tomatoes everyday even when I have tummy ache, this was unimaginable. I personally spoke with people from Brazil, Miami, Minnesota. They made it an event.

The end of an era, fandom called it. And of course, FOMO is real for this generation lmao

But I also speak always about the power of words, right? I think your brain chooses words automatically to convey a state of emotions and that is something that all the media training in your life can’t hold back. I am still pretty sure Harry knows that power too, since writing songs is his job I would expect he knows the nuance that lays in the difference between every word. And there words that have been said in a peculiar timing that made neurons in my head spike like fireworks. I didn’t rewatch what he said that night and I’m not a forensic language expert lol but there were moments where you could feel like you were living the Truman show experience.

I am sorry you feel like this, though. I know it’s harder here (unbearable on twt) because it seems nobody is matching your feelings, but I hope you will make peace with this.

My two cents is to let it go, let him go.

Another album, another tour who cares? They will feed it down your throat, everyone and their mothers will pretend to like it because that’s the easiest thing that gives you 1M views on tiktok and they will made up new achievements purposely crafted ad hoc for the whole picture.

Trust me, when I say I don’t like being overstimulated too, that’s why I don’t engage with his content and the only things I know is what anons tell me in the inbox and that’s okay. I just know that if I close my phone, none of this matters anymore in my life cause it’s soooo far away from what I do daily. It’s comforting in a way.

The ryan air motto “sit back, relax and enjoy your flight” is what life is about. Take care of yourself.

#casella di posta numero 32 #long post #discourse #tw last show

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idkfitememate · 24 days

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I can finally talk about my brainrotting traveler headcanons! Yayy!!

Ok so—traveler’s true and untrue self is defined by who or what they are around. An npc? True self, meaning traveler isn’t influenced by the elements’ emotional embodiment (justice, freedom, stability/contracts, wisdom) and their actions/reactions aren’t as decided by the player/need for plot. Someone is offed in a world quest? True traveler doesn’t bat an eye. They’ve seen it and done it all before on their travels. In a main storyline? Untrue self is flabbergasted. They can’t see why someone would do such a thing. Reactions are more controlled.

Basically True self traveler is really just how they actually react or think of something.

I’ve always headcanon that Traveler doesn’t truly have the shape of a human. Their form changes based on the most common/likely to not rouse suspicion form. A world ruled by lizard people? Traveler turns into a lizard person. World full of humans? Hey I’m a totally normal human now.

So what would the Traveler’s original form be? It definitely has the wings from the start of the game. Maybe…they’re a seelie. Or some primordial star god. Who knows. :)

If I sound confusing it’s because I’m having trouble putting things into words 🥲 so let me know if you’re confused

🦌 anon

Not confused at all, I get it!! I tried a long time ago to draw out what I personally thought they looked like but I gave up lmao might try again-

I enjoy your thoughts!! Please share more when you get a chance!!!!

Me personally, I believe them to be like an organism surrounded by organisms. Like what you said, their form changes via world their on currently, but I say lure more because if something travels through space it’s either itty bitty or fucking huge, and I love me huge monsters-

Idk if I can word my thoughts rn but I’ll definitely come back when I can lol

#asks <3 #anon <3 #🦌deer anon <3

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thebonerpit · 10 months

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So... even though I never made a comment about it, I feel like I have to apologize for ever doubting 9-1-1 Eddie/Buck fans.

Let me explain.

I kept seeing this show on my dash & FYP, and usually in the form of Eddie/Buck content. I poked into some of the tags and I was bombarded by not only enthusiasm for the pairing but also quite a lot of people clamoring for it to actually happen in canon and that the creators were doing some serious queerbaiting. Now, I am a fandom grandma. I've been around the block, seen a lot of accusations of this exact thing, and if I'm honest 90% of the time the fans were truly just blowing things out of proportion. I've even done it myself! It's often really easy to pick out tiny details and say it's ~proof~ that your ship is meant to be. I fully assumed that was what was happening here too.

Then, I actually watched the show. And holy hell you are all right.

It's... it's kind of insane?! Not only do they just have ridiculous chemistry to begin with, but there are COUNTLESS moments that are absolutely there to hint at them maybe being more than friends. But of course, the show never actually goes there because ha ha what no the fans are crazy they're just reading into things too much. If I didn't know already, I would have been SURE that the beginning of season six was setting them up to be canon. It was just that on the nose. WILD.

And now I'm fucking invested and it's awful because I know it's never going to happen lmao. I'm letting myself be queerbaited and loving/hating every second of it!!

(OK but aside from that I'm honestly surprised by how much I enjoy the show as a whole. I mean it's not award-winning television lbr but Angela Bassett?? Hell yes. And I've had a lil crush on Peter Krause since 'Six Feet Under' so it's lovely to see him again. They do a fantastic job with the core cast in general.)

#9-1-1 #buddie #expect to see some of this on my dash soon... my queue is so ready lol #'there's nobody in this world i trust more with my son than you' JUST FUCKING DECK ME

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annikuh · 2 months

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uh oh Annika’s rambling abt Panathir again, jeez louise‼️

(putting it under the cut bc it’s truly a ramble/thinking-out-loud type of thing after I went back thru my game notes)

doing some Panathir work & I’m VERY indecisive about how magically inclined he is. I’m looking back at the notes I had taken when he first appeared in the dnd game & he was like…very strong. like a true blue sorcerer.

however, this makes zero sense in my canon now bc Jax has zero magical ability, and they were both created and trained to be the same, which means they were both created to be dual-wielding melee warriors. like I think he could’ve honed some magical ability, but I don’t think it would be enough to be doing all the craziness he had done in the first encounter. man was like earth bending and shit LOL.

however however…it’s so fucking cool. like he kidnapped one of Jax’s friends and psychologically tortured him by like slowing down time and altering his reality and stuff, & he had set up his lair in the sewers with trap doors and invisible doors. and it was really fucking scary in the game. like he slowed down time and made it seem like the friend had been there for two weeks, but it was only like an hour in real time, and there was a scary ass moment where he was shaving the friend’s face with a knife very gently & me and all the players were sitting there like 😬‼️

but then again I did have him doing some really crazy rune and soul magic that I refuse to take out…but it also is very inherently nepherit since they do deal in minor soul magic already to switch bodies. but also the villains he’s working with are only using him bc they believe he is a necromancer…which he isn’t LOL. but I would assume he’s honed his magic more intently since then, right????

and if he can do all that psychological torture magic, part of me is like “well he wouldn’t use it on Jax bc he respects them and wants their genuine love” but another part is like “ok well he literally fried an entire family just to get Jax’s attention, so he’s not a particularly clear thinker” and also “if he’s already manipulating them, then it’s not particularly genuine love, eh?” but who’s to say he recognizes that. I don’t think he does.

it is tricky to adopt a character, esp one that was kinda made based on cool vibes LOL. like my partner did a lot of DM’ing on the fly in the moment and occasionally it would not add up; this happened often with Panathir imo LMAO (sorry to my dear partner). also technically I’m his third owner, but when he was first created for a one-shot by one of the players (hilariously the same one who was tortured by him later), he wasn’t intended to be a nepherit. he was just some guy & then my partner yoinked him and put him in the real game.

ALSO another weird fun fact is that he said his name was Burlin—the original name he was made with by that player—and at some point that I entirely missed like years later, my partner changed his name to Panathir & I have no idea why. like it’s better than Burlin, but idk why he changed it LOL. like i kinda know why he goes by Panathir in my canon (when the nepherits were free, they started choosing real names. some were based on their nepherit code, which is what Jax had done, but since they both shared a similar code [J4X-11 & J4X-115], Panathir went his own way [hashtag mgtow] and wanted to separate himself from that forced comparison). he’s a character of many names ig!

#annikuh’s speakin #Panathir

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qqueenofhades · 1 year

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About Ayn Rand philosophy: you are right and you should say it: it is ME ME ME. It’s soooo weird to just discuss things with a person and then suddenly you are met with “ah but you see everything that I’ve done is FAIR and I’ve DESERVED IT, but everything that I don’t have is NOT FAIR and I NEED it”. I’m not shitting you, the other day I had to listen to a girl tell me (a person in academia) that people in academia deserve small salaries because they don’t bring money to universities. I shit you not. This is what she said. I had to stop and explain to her, that a) this is not how universities make money, b) there would be no universities without the academia, and it felt like talking to a brick wall UNTIL she remembered that her dad was in the academia and was like oh ok.. my dad deserves money. Took her an embarrassing amount of time too.

And I was participating in this bonkers conversation and suddenly it fucking hit me that she was being Like That TM because in my estimation of what kind of salary a dean should have I named a number that is higher then her own salary and of her husband and she found it unfair. UNFAIR. Like the idea that someone who has a different lifestyle from a frankly unimpressive young coder for a minor firm might get the same amount of money as her, or, gasp, more, seemed unfair to her. Because when she was deciding what to do with her life, she chose the most profitable option for her and god forbid if someone makes another choice and is happy too

But still I do think that a lot of people are straight up misinformed about the far right, or think that when they vote for a racist it won’t have a lot of consequences. At least where I am from it is very easy to see that most people don’t care or are very neutral, but don’t like “icky” stuff. And you can paint for example LGBTQ+ as something that is other and scary, but it’s hard because they are just people. Abortions are also very trivial and you have to work hard to print it as something scary.

But violence? Violence makes people uncomfortable, even those who don’t know much beside violence.

So I do believe is that people are stupid and not rational at all, yeah, but violence scares them a lot. And maybe this is why they sway towards the most violent movement, to give it what it wants just so that it would shut up.

Indeed. As a fellow person in academia who has often heard the "LMAO HUMANITIES DEGREES ARE WORTHLESS OF COURSE YOU SHOULDN'T EXPECT TO GET PAID" and other such nonsense, it's truly amazing how much people feel that everyone else is definitely out to scheme and steal from them and take what is Rightfully Theirs (and yet, somehow never seem to say this about the billionaires and other resource hogs who actually ARE sucking up everything that belongs to everyone else). It is also part of the "only people who Deserve It should access social services" or "of course I want there to be money for/programs for social services, but they need to be used only in the Right Way." Which, of course, doesn't make sense at all, but is often how they explain it away. Then suddenly whoops, they need those services too, and yet they've consistently voted to take them away from other people who didn't "deserve" them. So now they aren't there anymore. Womp womp.

I do think you have a point about the violence, unfortunately. As we have seen re: the war in Ukraine and many times before, when someone is acting in a violent and threatening way, the response seems to be just "give them what they want and hope they go away." If people still resist the violence and try to make it stop in other ways (such as, you know, fighting back) they often get blamed for not just rolling over and giving the aggressor what they want, as if the situation is their fault for continuing to resist. So yeah, the appeasement mentality still runs DEEP, even if it has never once actually worked, and only leads to an even worse situation than before.

#anonymous #ask #politics for ts

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