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#ok im proud of myself for not waiting w this#i just called them nd talked to them. and the woman on the phone was actually not rude at all so it made it easier#she said that since i have sm pain i can get an emergency/urgent appt. but i have to call tmrw at 7am#nd hopefully i'll be able to get an appt for tmrw!!!!#and my wellfare worker has said that urgent dental care will be approves as long as it says on the receipt that it was urgent care#so hopefully this can be resolved. it hurts sm constantly nd i cant focus on anything. cant rlly chew either :((#i rlly dont wnna be poor anymore tho lol i want a job nd be able to take care of myself !!!!! T-T#dont wnna feel helpless anymore#anyway i have to keep enduring it for now but hopefully i wont have to do that for long
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I’m sick of the feeling that I always have to have enough pictures for a photoset to post anything. So. I’m rebelling against that stupid fuckin feeling and just posting this chara stand alone! There’ll probably be a frisk to go w it eventually! But! U’ll just have to wait lol
#undertale#chara#chara dreemurr#ut#doodles#started this yesterday. finished it like an hour ago. and posting it fucking now. no waiting to draw more shit to go w it ghghg#also. I’ve put this in the tags of another chara picture before. but that was a long time ago. so. reiterating just to be safe:#yes. I have drawn chara in a skirt. their pronouns are still they/them#idk if that needs to be said! but. just in case..#cuz I remember. specifically on deviantart. there were a few ppl who rlly liked misgendering the humans on my art of them ghgh#I don’t think that’s as much of a thing on tumblr. but still#but anyway yeah! chara! I drew this completely on my phone too!#and I took my time w the details and coloring and shit! I didn’t rush thru any of it!#im proud of myself ghghg#also. this was an attempt to solidify a chara design I like. cuz I felt like. the last one I drew. for the honey pie animation meme#was ok?? I liked it. but I was also like. shit. their hairs too messy and long they look too much like Kris#so. I wanted to try and fix that lol#we’ll see if this design finally sticks!#…for the once in a blue moon occasion I draw Undertale fanart ghgh
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giggling kicking my feet twirling my hair screaming into my pillow !!!
so i walked to the food spot wearing his jacket nd he brought me a small bouquet of daisies with these mini flowers n leaves around them !! we ended up getting noodles (he gave me an extra slice of his pork cause i said how good it was :(( !!) and talked for a couple hours before i told him i had to get ready for work soon..
nd omg omg.. he walked me to his bike where not one.. but TWO helmets were locked on and he helped fit it on me (it was a lil loose cause it was another one of his but its ok !!) and helped me onto his bike teehee...
i was lowk so so scared cause it was one of my first times on a bike but i trusted him cause it seemed like he had lots of experience with bikes (i mean who has several helmets, tattoos, muscles for months, and a sports bike without at least a few years biking) so i just clung onto him rlly tightly
AND HE WAS LAUGHING AND HOLDING BOTH MY ARMS WITH ONE HAND WHILE THE OTHER STEERED US...
nd he drove pretty slow cause he knew i was scared :(( i directed him to the building i live at and he waited outside while i got ready for work and then drove me there :(((( ND THEN CALLED ME OVER SO HE COULD ORDER SMTH :(((
"gotta make sure 'm your first customer"
IM GONNA WAZZ MYSELF...
OH MY GOD MY LOVE THATS!!! OHFKSJDOR
(ok so my response got too long wow im sorry)
THE BOUQUET :((( OH MY GOODNESS!!! tiny flowers with little petals? omgomf are they babys breath?? or or forget me nots? WAIT IDK ENOUGH ABOUT FLOWERS TO BE ASKING THIS BUT AWW SWEETHEART THEY SOUND LOVELY
HIM GIVING U THE EXTRA SLICE OF PORK BC U SAID ITS YUMMY IM COMBUSTING THATS SO ADORABLE
ok whew so now that the lunch is outta the way, THE BIKE? THE TWO HELMETS?? I WAS HOLDING MYSELF BACK FROM SAYING THIS BUT YOU TWO MIGHT JUST BE READER X BIKER!SIMON FR MY GODDRD IM SO GIDDY FOR U MY LOVE
i think u all probably got it from my many many posts of biker!simon but the two helmets and being the backpack is always what gets me :(( because not only does he wanna drive u around, but he put effort into making sure ur safe!!! im a puddle rn, petal. literally a melting w the rain ahhhhhhhhhxhshs
HOLDING YOUR HANDS WITH ONE HAND WHILE HE DROVE- oh sweetheart im so choked up im giggling so hard
but yes!! riding a bike first time is quite daunting n im so proud of u for trying but also so happy that u were w someone who was very diligent in making sure ur first ride was going to be safe <333
n then when i thought it wont get any better-
he wanted to be ur first customer AAAAHHHHHHH my goodness what a charming man!!!!
i cant even begin to explain how envisioning this alone got me smilin so wide, my cheeks are strainin or smthn!! i hoped that he will spoil u and pamper u and be silly w u and then he did!!! oh sweetheart if i could, id hug u so tight and spin u around bc im truly, genuinely, so happy for u!!!
im bouncing on my feet rn giggling to myself and i might look like a fool to other ppl but!!! i cant contain the burst of joy yk??
it sounds like u had a blast, petal!! heres to more dates w mr pink leather jacket!!!
teehee take care <333
#pink leather jacket anon#ask#putting my response under the cut bc some might only wanna see the update n thats fine!! i ramble sm qnxjjsjd#the update we truly needed!!#truly what makes me believe that love is real ‼️
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My typed reaction of Vegas BA bc everyone’s asleep
I love the guy who checks us in
Oh um don’t call me pet
Ermmmmm
Okay don’t like it so far
aw shucks i missed you too boo
no i will not come closer
ew no go away
oh nvm ig we are
wait so are we the dog or is he
okay this is getting boring
can we fuck now
oh wait nvm this is hot
oh WE’RE the puppy
that’s um
okay
is he calling me special
no i’m not ready to play VEGA.
i have a feeling we’re not alone
or we are
idk
okay we got some vouyers
that’s erm
okay
don’t call me pet
weirdo
excitement? no honey i’m scared
yes fear
ok can we fuck now
damn he talks a lot
stop echoing
oh don’t call me pup
oh this is some like
kinky kinky shit
how big is Vega
just in general cuz i thought he was like
6,1 and scrawny
um no my breath is oxygen not yours
this is definitely um
yeah
correct circumstances?
wardrobe?? bitch what is this Narnia
DONT CALL ME A PUPPY THATS WEIRD
i’m kink shaming
I am not getting on all fours what the fuck
oh nvm ig we are
this is uncomfortable
TAIL????
this is some furry shit
UM ..!
NO I WILL NOT CRAWL
WHATTTTTT
ASS?
SLUT???
this would be hot if i wasn’t a fucking dog
don’t shush me bitch
are we still on all fours
that’s mad embarrassing
i am not yours
weirdo
I’d rather you not take care of me
this is very um
interesting!!
Do we have dignity
STOP CALLING ME PUPPY YOU FURRY
do we have any pride at all like oh my god
GRINDING???
Don’t slut shame me bitch
arching????????
oh my god.
CUM HUNGRY LITTLE BITCH????
if he says puppy one more time i’m killing myself
if he puts a fucking collar on me i’ll jump
stop
STOPPP
Dog tag is crazy
“property of vega” NO.
Stop vega this is not a joke
DO WE HAVE NO SENSE OF DIGNITY
OH MY GODDDD
PROUD??? I AM NOT PROUD
OWNER???
I’m jumping off a ledge
MY HOLE?? WHICH ONE I HAVE LIKE 3
Okay stop slut shaming me Vega
ROLL OVER???
i’m insanely uncomfortable
by the way guys i made chicken alfredo today
Anyway
i hate his fucking tone
don’t take that attitude w me bitch
DO NAWTTT CALL ME A WHORE EVER AGAIN.
oh wait he called me pretty nvm
this is insane
it’s 2:30 am i cannot handle this
okay so we archin
PUT WHAT IN
WHAT IS GOING IN
this is strange
CALLING UR DICK A TREAT IS WILDDD
oh my god no
stop.
A TAIL???
NO
NO NO NO NO
NO
NO
no wait cuz there was this one kid who wore a butt plug tail to school it was crazy bc a guy pulled it out
anyway
This is some furry shit
not that there’s anything wrong w that live ur truth
STRETCHING???
the plug is insane
stop
i’m actually sobbing this is NOT OKAY.
what position are they in im so confused
SHAKE WHAT ASS
UMMMMMMMMM
this is peculiar
Vega is a furry
i hate this
i hate this sm
I STILL HAVE 10 MINS LEFT
LORD SAVE ME
okay no need to take that tone Vega😒
bitch we can’t breathe wtf
no i wont whine around that tootsie roll u call a dick
AHHH THE NOISESSS
okay can u not choke me
don’t call me a slut you cunt
oh my god hurry up vega
ew
I don’t love anything about this
this is insane
NOT A PERSON????
RUDEEEEEEEE
okay adjective king
ew don’t call me that
i am not licking the floor sir
i am not licking your boot either
lick your own fucking boot
this is actually pissing me off he’s annoying
are we almost done
Do we have no sense of shame
like at all
second hand embarrassment
okay are we done
no? okay
ew don’t call ur self master
that’s not..
okay
um
the growling is insane
damn right i’m divine
ew don’t call the that
not the baby voice
stop this madness
what do you want from me WHAT DO U WANNTTTT
okay are we done
TWITCHING?????? INSANE.
That was horrible
#sorry for kink shaming but omg this was painful#redacted asmr#redacted audio#redactedverse#redacted audios#redacted vega#redacted BA
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i know i haven't been really active (to be fair, i am on hiatus LOL) but i hope you all have been well... ive been taking steps on fixing some health issues ive been dealing w for 2 years now and it's rly scary but im proud of myself !!!! it's all fixable so im very happy about that....!! been feeling very emotional and grateful the last few days, but i know everything will be ok
anyways, just wanted to say im rooting for all of you and i cant wait to see what you guys all come up with involving the new pack <3
#mwah mwah mwah#im going to be getting my ffxiv sub back in july so im rly excited to play again#personal
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Ellie Bear! Hiiiii..I hope you're doing well and taking care of yourself. You know getting rest and drinking lots of water. Oook so I'll try to keep this as short as possible. Since the very first time I read your work I was hooked. You truly have a way with words. Even your random unhinged posts make me laugh anddddd sometimes fill me with concern. Yeaaa I've seen some of those Gojo posts 🤨. Anyway when you posted that you had lost the saved work for Kickoff I completely understood your frustration but I knew it would be just fine because you're an amazing writer. You really are super talented. Your recent posts about this chapter feels like you're stressing a bit about it. It might not mean much coming from me but there's no need to stress. I would bet everything in my wallet...the whole .75 cents that it's gonna be another phenomenal chapter. You know why?? Because you're writing it! We're ok with waiting...anyone acting like they can't wait doesn't matter. Don't let anyone stress you about your work. Work at a pace that's comfortable to you and drop the chapter when you're ready. You've talked about asking for updates already and I'm pretty sure it's in your rules not to ask anyway. If the chapter comes out today, great! And if it doesn't that just means you're taking a little more time to make the chapter what you want it to be and that's great too. Thank you for even giving us this story in the first place. So no more stressing ok. You've got this! *pats your head aggressively but lovingly*❤❤❤
bakuhoethotski queeeeennnn u have no idea how much this ask means to meee rn 😭🥺💕 im literally sitting at my desk cryinf SJSLKDFH (but happily and with love)
tysm 😭😭 yes i think i have been so stressed ab kickoff recentyl,, i think ever since losing my notes, i just felt really discouraged and it didn’t really help me move forward,, but your words make me so happy bc u make me feel i can conquer anything i want for the story with or without my original notes n thats so encouraging for me im literally gonna reread this ask whenever i need to feel proud of myself omg u say it might not mean much coming from u but in reality it means the MOST,, im so lucky to have you as a lovely reader of my works 😭😭
and tysm for the comment ab taking extra time w the work :”) that really helped me reframe my thoughts ab the chapter. kickoff is such a passion project for me n something really close to my heart, i think that’s why i’ve been really particular w the chapters n i don’t think thats a bad thing…i just have to figure out a system that works so that i can write for myself, but also share w others
I LOVE U SO MUCHHH OMG I WISH I COULD HUG YOU BUT I HUG YOU THROUGH MY SCREEN <333 also thanks for being concerned ab my gojo posts ☺️💕 concern meaning u like them right ??? right???? ahhahahhahh (joking)
#i was literally crying n then i said BAKUHOTHOTSKI QUEEN out loud and it made me giggle LOOOL it never fails#love uuu :’)#bakuhoethotski#bakuhoethotski queen
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mahito is my most hated character of all time. but maybe mei mei ... is she dead LMFAO i don't keep up with the manga anymore but she's a goner once i get my hands on her.
i am also an armin from aot hater... has nothing to do with erwin btw i just think he's annoying :D
lastly zeke jaeger my most beloathed. levi had his little moment and im glad for him but if he hadn't beat me to it zeke would've been dead on sight.
when i asked you this rylie i didnt expect to find my new best friend..
THESE ARE THREE OF MY TOP 5 FOR REAL RYLIE
i am not upto date with the manga but my friend tells me mei mei is still floating about somewhere and when i see her it is ON SIGHT
zeke yeager. no excuses that monkey is dead but i would bring him back just to kill him over and over again. i think myself to be a nice person but i would very gladly indulge in torture when it comes to that thing.
AND ARMIN. IF ARMIN HAS NO HATERS IM DEAD ICL sometimes when i say this out loud i get… looks and im like. sorry, i dont have a genuine reason - he’s just one of the ones that are annoying™️ for no reason. objectively when it comes to that syringe, erwin would have been just as bad of a choice (the way i see it his whole character was fueled by his ego and need to be right) but thats just my opinion. im an armin hater just coz im a hater and im proud LOL
THIS IS SO FUNNY HAAHHA IM SO GLAD YOU RELATE. omg bye of all characters why is mei mei still alive .... gege when i catch u. also yeah i feel the same way about armin like he just annoys me for absolutely no reason HSDHFSH. i feel bad too sometimes bc did he do anything... ? no he just makes me mad T-T ok.... wait. i honestly did not love erwin as much as everyone else. like he was cool but in the first season i literally HATED him HAHA bc he just did not gaf about anyoneeee. he grew on me in s2 but yeah i agree w u !!
who are your other two ?? i feel like i missed other characters that i hate but i could nottt think.
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ZADIE LOVE AHHHHHHH i kid u not i was on the edge whenever i saw ur wc update literally went "OMG OMG ITS HAPPENING" am i ready to actually start reading? no ill never be but i am also soSOOO invested in what happened between hoonyn i HAVE TO BRACE MYSELF
ok enough yapping and onto to the actual chapter 👉🏻👈🏻 im actually gna start crying yn was probably the sweetest little girl ever surrounded w her loving family im so happy she had her maternal aunt at the very least 🥹 she even saved up money to get her brothers' gifts she's so precious 🥺🥺 NOOO LITTLE HOONYN WERE LITERALLY EACH OTHERS CONSTANT SUPPORT IM SO BROKEN 😭😭😭 THEY WERE TOO PURE TOO GOOD FOR THE CRUELTY THAT IS THE WORLD
yn's gift is in a little box? a jewellery mayhaps... STOP OMG HOON'S HER SECRET SANTA!,!/&;&&: SKDJAKSJS (icb they nvr gotten each other b4 tho 🧐) WORLD PAUSE SUNGHOON WANTED TO DO WHAT NOW?:!/& someone hold me i feel faint. we've COME SO FAR IM LITERALLY ABOUT TO BAWL 😭😭😭😭😭😭 "not only show you how over the ongoing war between you two he is, but also one he could use as a way to maybe win you over again" IM IN TEARS. THE WAR IS ENDING 😭😭😭
im actually so proud(?) of hoon for accepting his feelings like to go from saying the meanest things 24/7 to a person to actually admitting that you still want to have that person around takes alot of courage and he has my respect for that!
ok so he chose a sentimental gift... A SNOWFLAKE NECKLACE?:!/$ MAYBE?? 🤔 IM LITERALLY ABOUT TO START BOUNCING OFF THE WALLS WHY AM I SO NERVOUS 🤕 HE FAWKING WROTE HER A CARD IN JAPANESE. yep im out. 😭🤣😭😭😭😭😭😭🤣🤣🤣😭😭 STOOPP ITTT HE GOT HER A RING W HER MOTHER'S BIRTHSTONE?:!/!/ IM ACTUALLY IN TEARS THAT IS SOOOOOOOOOO PRECIOUS IM GONNA START BAWLING he's so 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 & yn now knows its from hoon 🥺😭🥺🥺🥹🥹🥹
THE FUCKING DOORBELL. THE FUCKING WITCH. WHEN I GET MY HANDS ON HER IM GNA FUCK HER 🆙 !!!!!! no but can we talk about how yn stood up to her MY POOKIEPIE MY LOVE 🥹 she's so strong for that ❤️🩹 & riki n hoon 🥹 coming in to stand w her 😭 hoon just standing behind her supporting her, ready to step in anytime ❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹
oh im soo fucking that bitch up im filing my nails as i type rn im gna scratch her face and no one can stop me. its the fact riki still calls her mom and she goes and do shit like this. i just cant phantom how people like her call themselves parents. yn making that decision whilst she was still so young 💔 no one really should have been in that position in the first place
i know uve alrdy shown us this part in the wc update but it still HITS ME SO HARD "of all people in this world, it was your hands he had put his tiny heart into because he knew you’d always keep it safe and protected, only for your absence to scar him forever" im actually broken. & OF FUCKING COURSE ITS THE FREAKING WITCH THAT HAD SMTH TO DO WITH THE LETTER NOT REACHING HOON.
ill say it time and time again but the friendship dynamic u create in everyone of ur fic is so precious and beautiful 🤍 all of them will fight and stand by each other through the darkest of times 🫂
ive actually teared up reading this chapter 🥺 this was everything, u always amaze me with the ideas u have and the way u execute them 🤍 this chapter was worth its wait <3 i truly enjoy reading every single update and idk what else to say other than thank you for sharing the masterpiece that is cold hearts with us all 🤍🤍
have a very very good night zadie <3
oh my sweet souled lia 🥺
thank you SO much for this ask. i never know what to say when you guys send me messages like these because im just baffled by how much love and attention and support you guys not only send me but my characters. i think it's safe to say that i will keep this so close to my heart. it's such an honor to receive such amazing reactions to the things my characters experience and ik im rambling but like, seeing you all so invested in this smau makes me so happy and im so grateful for everything. thank you baby. i love and appreciate you so much 🥺🤍🩷☀️💐🌷
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ok this is so stupid but i really want to see neris and reader interactions,, like the small things, the comfort, the protectiveness,,,, ughh love what you've done w the story man, desperately waiting for the next part fr. (go on your own pace tho) glad to know i've shifted you a little bit on a azriel thing (devious smile) - ithink he's a good character for most people because he barely had a personality in the books and so we can usually make up stuff yk, like he's mostly just broody in the books and we're told stuff abt his personality but not shown it. can't wait to see what happens next! ohh also the dragon interactions!!! i wanna see those too!!! eris has hounds right,,, it wld be cute for them to protect nes and r tooo,,,, ahhh sorry this is literally just me ranting lol, obv feel free to ignore the reqs,,, i really want to let you know that your writing is good bc you seem to get less interactions than you should!! and a weird amt of hate lmao like whats w the people being rude about ialtpwf and wanting guys my age so badly, like i enjoyed it despite not particularly liking the daddy kink partbut like. really,, why so rude??? want to see how reader fares in front of beron too, i assume word of her power will reach him too/. anyway, how long are you planning on pushing the beron overthrowal thing (im being curious not being like ugh when are u plannign on ending it,, in case thats what it sounded like,, idk man im overthinking). oh also! want to see court relations with all of them after berons gone. before berons gone. all of it, i want them to be better leaders/people to the court people yk. oh!! also lucien-reader friendship!!! love that!! we havent seen much of it but hes def the kind of guy to tease r abt eris when they start actually flirting and getting near a relationship yk. eris-lucien brotherhood too tho, obviously. also the lady of the autumn court!! watching them bond w her!!! ahh jfoisfkjmdofikndfvg ium sorry have a great day today1!! hope you rest well after that long ass shift. oh yeah i agree w you on the feyre thing, she's def just mostly like a pawn to rhys yk, i think she was better as a char when she was w tamlin tbh, altho obviously i dont want her to be with someone who kind of abused her without any groveling at least/ cant wait to see more interactions fr!!!! oh when i said in the story, i meant the actual books, well and yourss but the actual books mainly! anyway i think you've managed to be realistic w all of them in a way that is good. bye! oh same anon as last time. should i give myself a name, is that fine,, i'll choose * anon. sure.
i can’t wait for you to see more of the neris x reader interactions! you’ll love it. i feel like i’ve done a decent job of their dynamic so i’m super proud of it so far.
Azriel’s journey is one i have planned out - it’s going to be complicated because yk he’s been loyal to rhys for 500 years and that’s not suddenly going to change, but he will continue to play a role.
you’ll see more of the dragons for sure! and the hounds will be involved too so fear not ;)
yeah idk why people got so weird about guys my age like i’m glad they enjoyed it of course but i kinda did everything i wanted to do with that fic so i don’t feel i have anything else to add to it if that makes sense
beron will play a bigger role soon! as far as them overthrowing him, prob within a couple chapters maybe a bit longer. im still playing around w the details of how exactly it’s going to happen
expect a LOT more lucien and lady of autumn in the later chapters! i love love love writing for lucien so i’ve got special stuff for him planned hehe
tons more interactions to come. more lucien, azriel, gwyn and emerie, cassian, etc. thank you for your message angel and NEVER apologize for rambling - nobody has taken the time to say this much about my fic so far in one go so i LOVE reading these. send as many as you want <3
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wait im literally still bored and my fav thing to do is answer questions !!! so imma do that even tho nobody asked
used a random question generator, linked here
maybe i'll be sneaky and turn it into a tag game bc WELP im feeling like a menace
tagging my mom @thevampywolf just for shits n giggles
what have you created that you are most proud of?
bro this sounds cocky but a few things, i love them all equally so i'll list them:
my over 70,000 word novel that i've written with one of my best friends
my skateboard, which i spent hours designing the back of, i used posca paint pens to create a comic strip design with a custom character i created!
one of my first and fav kpop album redesigns...i was so excited and happy w how it turned out!!
have you ever saved someone's life?
sort of, in a way. one of my old friends (she now goes to a new school and we don't talk as much anymore) had pots, which is an illness that causes unprovoked fainting/seizures. she would faint, and be unconcious for up to 20mins, and sometimes would have seizures after fainting. other times, she would have times where she would faint multiple times, but only be unconcious for less than a minute, but would faint frequently (maybe 5-10 in an hour). because she was in our class, i did feel a lot of responsibility for looking after her. the teachers knew to call the nurse and the ambulance during her long faints/seizures, and i would go with my friend to show the ambulance where to go. we got so used to running to the school office that i swear our cardio skills built up. we have dealt with one of her faints outside of school too though, without any adult support, which was much scarier, but we managed ok. so i think a bit?
what's your favourite piece of clothing you own?
again, cannot choose. my wardrobe is my baby; she is a collection that is never ending and eclectic and so, so me. she's what i spend most of my money on (other than kpop concerts) and i love her sm.
some of my favs are:
my dungarees
my miniskirts (denim y2k style one and my beige pleated one that i sewed myself are my absolute favs)
all my pastel knitwear, most of which is secondhand!
other things that arent rly clothes but i love anyways are:
my clompers (platform doc martens)
my star hairclips (a personality trait)
legwarmers
what's something you wished you figured out sooner?
the fact that mf orange juice fucks with my adhd meds. like thank you mum for telling me TWO MONTHS AFTER I STARTED MY MEDICATION like i swear one month is 30 days right, and x2 is 60, and i literally know that at least 20/60 days i SWALLOWED my pills using orange juice. NO WONDER THEY LITERALLY DIDNT WORK
also that you don't have to please everyone
but mainly that orange juice fact bc THAT RLY WAS A FUCKING SHOCK
what's your go-to dance move?
i mostly listen to kpop meaning i mostly do the proper dances so i'm just gonna list my fav kpop dances i break out into even when the song isn't playing:
yes or yes by twice
talk that talk by twice
thunderous by skz
unkpop:
slut drop (im a menace i already told yall)
if you had to change your name, what would you change it to?
ive thought of this question every day of my life and i have a few ideas
so first is yuri (pronounced more like yu-li) and it's literally the direct japanese translation of my name, and i think its so cute. another would be star, bc i've grown to love it so much, and another would be hana bc that means flower in japanese!
random ass questiontime be like
ok love yall
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hello moonie :] i listened to the songs u gave me and !
i really really luved 'how soon is now?' by the smiths and i definitely need to listen to them more !!! im so obsessed w how he sings certain lyrics it sounds So nice (literally listneing to the song rn as i type lol)
u were right abt me enjoying 'crybaby' by destroy boys a lot as i already know that song and its one of the 2 or 3 songs i know from them lol . its really really good
i Immediately added 'saturnine' to my main playlist once it was over !! the chorus is So nice to listen to i really luved it !
i had forgotten u said u were going for the vibe of floating in the ocean and when listening to 'andromeda' i literally thought 'this song feels like floating down a river or something' . the way she sings 'let me in if i break / and be quiet if i shatter' was So. gah . its good.
as for my recommendations:
summertime - my chemical romance
heaven, iowa - fall out boy
unpunishable - ethel cain (the chorus of this song is Everything)
so far so fake - pierce the veil (1:30-on, but especially 2:25-~3:00 is Beautiful. i . luv guitars .)
and bonus song because its all that stuck in my head currently : bury me in black (demo) - my chemical romance . very different from the other ones lol .
ok that is all i think :> i hope your week is good and not stressful and that any writing block u may have is broken <33 also do not worry about answering this quickly i am So ok w patiently waiting until ur able to answer please do not feel bad if it takes a while ok byebye ily
yes omg ok i am such a fan of the smiths . which is probably my biggest red flag LOL but i cant help it !!!! theyre so good !!!!! and i think half of it is just how morrisey sings some certain words . he is such an asshole but Damn it if he doesnt make his songs unique .
i think u already knowing and liking the song is so crazy but also . i am kind of proud of myself for guessing right on ur taste :D
im honored !!!! and yes i have a whole playlist about just . songs that feel like floating around on some mystical beach, its based on this freaky dream i had but . if u ever want it ...
ohhh i should say . i am in fact an mcr and fob fan LOL . i have already listened to both those songs, summertime is sososoooo good but so is the entire album, and ive been loving the new fob album :D i think my personal favorite is maybe . well ok i have three LOL "love from the other side", "heartbreak feels so good", and "i am my own muse" ofc . i feel like i picked the most popular ones 😭 theyll probably change ! also . completely unrelated omg but ive been . kind of . crushing on a specific white man ok and specifically ethan hawke and then imagine my surprise when i see him on the album ??:W?? what the hell was that . what the he lll . anyway .
ok i listened to unpunishable and i love love loveeeeed the section after 3:30-ish . like it was soo like . metallic sounding with her vocals and the ringing guitar and it was just so everything . it made me want to write something crazy so badly, it was amazing !!! ive only heard a few songs by her but this one is definitely top three for me i think . wow
i did have . a pierce the veil phase for like fiveseconds in middle school LOL but i enjoyed this one !!! i got flashbacks to 2018 but i really did enjoy it :D i think ill always like their sound, its always so . indulgent . i did really like the bit at 2:25-3:00, i didnt even realize u commented on it LOL i was like Wow . wow . it was so so good
oh i loveee bury me in black . that entire era will b so close to my heart forever i think and its just so . good . oh my god . the brash guitar and drums are soooo . i need them permanently playing forever and ever
ok sorry for giving u a whole essay 😭 i just had a lot to say i think LOL
but here are mine !!!!
if u liked how he sings certain lyrics then u would loveeee "a rush and push and the land is ours" by the smiths . the way he sings rush and push . oh boy
are u a fan of p!atd ? i think u would like them even tho i am brendon urie's biggest hater . but ryan ross ... loml . anyway . "new perspective" is so underrated and one of my favorites, very reminiscent of the 2000s pop punk scene !
also a more like . "weird" sounding song but its so so good . "girls & boys" by blur ! its one of their more popular songs but it holds up so so well
and . in honor of me purchasing a radiohead poster . i think u would love radiohead . i recommend . "just" . a popular song but i think u would absolutely enjoy it and My Bad if u have already heard it before . if u have i would not be surprised !!! i think it trended on tiktok for a second ? idk
anyway . thank u so much for being so so patient, it means everything to me :) i adore the songs u recommend me and i was kind of itching to answer this to get some more recs LOL . ok byebye ilyt !!!!!!
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GREAT IDEA ALERT
OKAY SO I HAD A REALLY GOOD IDEA
SO IF YOU ARE A DOWN BAD SIMP FOR KAEYA LIKE ME YOU WOULD PROBABLY LIKE THIS
IM GONNA MAKE A STORY (maybe series???) WHERE THE READER GETS ISEKAIED INTO GENSHIN EXCEPT GENSHIN IS A NOVEL (or it can be based off the manga idk)
SO A FRIEND TOLD READER ABT GENSHIN AND WAS LIKE "omg my fav is diluc hes the protagonist, i love him. he has the saddest backstory :( but he's the prettiest!"
AND THEN READER WAS LIKE "ok yup mhm" CAUSE THEY DIDNT KNOW ANYTHING ABT DILUC OR GENSHIN. AND THEN THE FRIEND IS LIKE "oh my gosh dont get me started with kaeya, hes so inconsiderate yada yada" AND READER IS LIKE "ok" AND THEN BOOM ISEKAID LATER ON
SO THEN THEY MEET DILUC AND KAEYA WHEN THEY WERE KIDS AND THEY WERE LIKE WAIT IS THIS GENSHIN?? CAUSE A SYSTEM THING IDK SOME STUFF I DIDNT THINK THAT OUT
AND READER WAS LIKE "i better side with the protagonist to stay safe" BUT THEY MISTAKE KAEYA FOR THE PROTAGONIST CAUSE THEY THINK HES PRETTIER AND HAS A SADDER BACKSTORY AND THEY DONT REMEMBER ANY OF THE NAMES(lets just pretend theres a window next to him showing his name, age, backstory etc.) SO THEY BECOMES FRIENDS
BUT LATER ON READER REALIZES "wait, was kaeya the antagonist??" BUT ITS AFTER KAEYA GETS HIS VISION AND KAEYA IS KINDA OBSESSED W/ READER AND BOOM BOOM.
you can tell ive read too many manhwas but im so proud of myself on this one. also if you wanna use this idea you def can, just give me creds!! :) lmk if you guys want this?? ill still make other updates tho, dw!
#genshin x reader#genshin imagines#genshin impact#zhongli#hu tao#venti#genshin spoilers#genshin childe#genshin venti#genshin xiao#xiao#kaeya ragnvindr#genshin kaeya#kaeya alberich#kaeyagenshinimpact#genshin impact kaeya#diluc#genshin#rosaria#diluc ragnvindr#albedo#kaeya x reader#kaeya x you#isekai#genshin mondstadt#reincarnation#reincarnation au#genshin impact manga#lisa#jean
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I guess its the Summer Solstice so here we are again! 6/21/23
Wow I knew I neglected my last pot but here we are back even later than the last one! Like i say everytime it is wild to see how much has changed in my life the past couple of years. Ups down and everything in between I come back to this spot everytime and see the growth I’ve made. All by myself. All for myself. I cant always see it but moments where I read back on the past I am brought right back to those moments and never lose sight of how I felt in the past.
I keep seeing on TikTok that today is a Summer Solstice meaning it is a great opportunity for manifestations so lets try this out why not! I guess I’ll start by giving a quick synopsyis of my life from the past 10 months or however long (wow sorry I abandoned this for that long!!!!)
Lets start with Work. I am still at the same OI job and feel like I have grown sooo much. I cant say im perfect at my job, but I know I have made a shit load of progress that i’m very proud of. I shifted off of working with my mngr which has made the biggest impact on my happiness at the job. I was going from having weekly panic attacks to not even having to review a single email anymore. I am really proud of myself for treading through the mud and getting to the point where I am at now. Now for the manifestation segment. I am going to get a promotion soon. This SUMMER! I FEEL IT. I am such a hard worker and really have gained the experience to move up in the company. I am confident it will happen in the next couple months. I cant wait to come back here and tell you all about it. It will be my first real promotion at a job which is something that I’ve really wanted to achieve since I havent gotten to this point at any of my previous jobs. You got this Case.
Now for relationships. Tricky subject and yep you guessed it D is still around. I have tested a coupe other relationships with E and A and C... but somehow D makes it through the motions of every single season. I do want to touch on E for a sec. I have grown to build an amazing relationship with him, but I havent seen him for a few weeks and I feel like the relationship is starting to fade. Im sick of getting 100% and then a week later not even 1%. I am fully aware it has nothing to do with me and more so his own struggles, but I do need to realize at the end of the day that its ok to want more from someone and he cant give me what I need as much as hes shown me how I can be treated in a healthy way. He’s the boy Ive always dreamt of how someone can treat/care for you, but this story just isnt ours at this point in time. Who knows what the future holds. Now D. Oh boy. As we all know its been a fucking roller coaster. I have felt the highest of highs w him and the lowest of lows. I do hold love for him (but not so sure ive ever been in love... idk what that even is lmao). We’ve gotten to a point where I feel like I have been holding my power for quite some time now. I don’t have the same anxieties as I had for him in the past and i don’t prioritize him over others. We’ve tried not speaking (jan 2023) for a couple weeks and ultimately he just came back and I allowed it. I cant cut him out of it killed me. It’s so fucking hard. I am working on figuring out his place in my life and how we can carry on without hurt, but I feel like I am slowy falling back in the trap/cycle. We had a really nice day together the other weekend and I felt those anxious attachment feelings creeping in... I need to remember the things that have happened and try to prepare for the worst, but is it crazy to say that what if we are meant for each other? The other day I was able to imagine being in a relationship with him and it shocked me how I felt so good the whole day. Idk prob the worst thought ever but.. idk.. why are we magents to each other?
Lastly I wanna touch on friendships and new york life. My friends here are still the same (but Karina now lives in Miami) and I love them so much, but I’ve been feeling myself longing for my relationships in LA. There are many weekends where my friends here are out of town and I feel left alone many times. In LA I would have the comfort of my family when friends arent around, but theyre 100s of miles away from me. I really miss them so fucking much it hurts. I think the longer I am away the more and more I realize how special my family is. I especially feel bad being away from my mom. She asks me nearly everytime we talk when I’ll come back and little does she know I’ve been toying with the idea of returning once my lease is up. If not that I think I have 1 year left in me. It still shocks me to say it and feel confident in that, but I really miss my family. Thats truly the only thing pulling me back bc I love this city and who I have become here so damn much. Im not putting too much pressure on the decision as I still have 10 months on my lease, but it is in the back of my mind. I feel like I’ll lead myself to the right choice soon though. So much would change though. I told D the other day about the idea and he said he would be so sad which kinda surprised me. It would be the end for us if I did move back which im not sure is a good or bad thing. Sometimes I tell myself the love of my life is not here and I wont meet them till I move back lol. Im not sure where the future is gonna bring me, but im confident in myself to do what is right for me. Leaving my friends here would also be horrible, but at the end of the day if they are the friendships I believe them to be, we will still be as close as ever and planes exist!!
I guess thats kinda it for now. But this is still the start to an amazing summer with so much fun in store I can feel it!!! I have a trip to the shore coming up next weekend and then im going back home for my bday end of july - aug. Later in the summer I am going to portugal with my family!!! and something BIIGGGG is gonna happen in the fam :o Cant write it in words here till it happens. Until then, I love you. Im proud of you. and life is always working out in my favor. <3
Love,
C
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Just thoughts.
Dad died on October 18th. A lot more people showed up to be there, then i thought would of. Lots of people from his church, and his brother n his wife- n some cousins I haven’t seen for years, and my moms sister. I think the worst part was when they turned off the ventilator, and he started to make noise- and that’s the moment it kind of hit me what was happening. Wasn’t fun hearing it, wasn’t fun seeing my mom sob over him and my sister cry.
Will be having a service for him at his church, in November. The church is paying for it all n providing food- which we can’t thank them enough for. Expecting a lot more people then I expected to be coming- I had no idea how many people loved him.
And it kind of just. feels weird. Had a small memorial for him at the church w his bible study friends, and they were sobbing, and telling fond stories about him- n talking about how kind and sweet he was to everyone. And it kind of just hit me how: it feels like we’re mourning two different people.
Because I don’t understand: hw he could treat them so kindly, and care for them- and then come home and treat my family n I so horribly. I know he loved me and I know he cared about us, but I don’t kno w why we couldn’t get that too. I don’t know why he couldn’t of treated us like that and told us he loved us at home, and told me how proud he was of me when he was here, instead of all the times he called me useless to my face because I forgot to do the dishes or something.
I hear about how he talked about us all the time, and we meant so much to him and its just. feels detached and like I’m hearing about someone else's dad n not mine. I know he loved me, he told me as much the last time i heard him speak. Told me he was proud of me, told me he just wanted me to be happy, and do something with my life- and all i could do was nod and cry because I don't know why he couldn’t of told me that before it got to this.
Told me the last time i heard him talk, that I'd always be his daughter even if I ‘wasn’t anymore’ and i wanted to tell him I’m not- but didn’t seem right. And in a stupid sense I wish I could of been that, and my mom says he never cared, and he loved me all the same: but I just don’t know why he couldn’t of said that instead of That- or why he couldn’t of Told me that Himself.
And I feel mad- because I don’t know why we couldn’t of had that dad those people from church love so much, and talk so fondly about- and I hate feeling like this because its not like I can ask him! I just gt left all this and I don’t know what to do with all of this now.
I just kind of feel numb and detached from all of it, and everyone. yes I’ve cried but I don’t think its been enough- because my family keeps asking me if I'm ok, n when i say im ‘fine’ they give me weird looks. I don’t think I should be fine, i should be inconsolable, i should be sobbing, my dad just died but I rly can’t.
Kind of feels like everything's falling apart, but it probably has been for the last several years, this is just the thing that might bring it all down around me n im just kinda too tired to try and pull myself out of the way. Feels like I’m jsut sitting here- waiting for something horrible to happen, like the next: awful thing to happen because things just keep getting worse.
Anyways. it feels like the universe hates me. so just.
#||Dnt Reb/og plz||#Cade.vnt#just me rambling. about things. n feelings.#n i didn't even go on about shit w the church but whatever i'm too tired 2 type more n theres alrewady so mch shit on this post
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got this ask on my main but im going to answer it here @owlfacenightkit
ok im picking jane cause im objectively correct about this guy in every single way
1: the lesbianest lesbian to ever lesbian but she takes So long to figure it out. shes having a crisis and everyone else is just sitting there like bestie... You Are A Womanliker.
2: i don't have any really big ships for him but janecallieroxy is cute as shit and we Know roxy thinks hes hot asf
3: JANE AND DIRK JANE AND DIRK JANE AND DIRK if they have one fan its me if they have no fans im dead etc etc. to quote my literal most popular post on this site: Dirk wrote Detective Pony. Jane read it. MAN. they understand each other on a level that none of the other alpha kids have they admire each other so much but dont idolize each other even when they're having stupid teen love triangle drama they still love each other soso much. When they're talking to each other on their godtier beds waiting to die and they're so so devastated about how they've acted but they just talk through it and. AUGH THEY LOVE EACH OTHER THEY LOVE EACH OTHER SOOOOO FUCKING MUCH
4: janejake. pretty basic opinion but yeah. ive also seen romantic janedirk on occasion and im like???? no??
5: he's bigender and uses he/him and she/her pretty equally and he is So proud of it. it actually took him way less time to figure his gender out than his sexuality lmao -> he is voted most epic and cool looking god of earth c seven times in a row his fashion sense is impeccable (its actually Roxy's fashion sense. Roxy shows up to Jane's house at least once a month with outfits for him and Jane has so much fun w it)
6: this exchange:
7: she reminds me so much of myself as a little kid. she doesn’t know how to help her friends and doesn't understand whats messed up about her own life yet but she just so badly wants to do right and be happy. shes also very uptight in the same way i used to be and it hurts a little to watch her let out her silly side. but like in a good way. have i mentioned i love her
8: oh god hes so embarrassing about jake. i dont fault him for it cause god knows teenagers in love are embarrassing and ive Been There. but it makes me die a little inside
9: SHE IS A FUCKING CINNAMON ROLL! SHE'S A SWEET AND CARING KID AND POSTCANON DOESNT EXIST.
#jane crocker#homestuck#ask game#owl the depths of my jane insanity are insane#actually i think if i had to kin assign you a hs character itd be jane and i mean that in the nicest way possible.#shes not popular but she's so cool and theres so much potential with her#also shes my one exception for posession arcs making me like a character less
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this is the second time i've had to type this bc as i finished tbis it got DELETED ;-;
1. what are 3 things you'd say shaped you into who you are?
uhh one is definilty when i discovered you tube for the first time and promptly got sent down a medical rabbit hole, leading to my intense fear of rabies, seeing a dedication video to a dead child by their parents who were convinced he was jesus incarnated (as in, actual jesus, not a metaphor for being an angel), and the little part of my brain that diagnoses me with every disease i learn about
another would be kneeling on the landing next to my sibling late at night, watching my parents watch tv. you could just about see into the living room from there, and we often snuck down the first set of stairs to watch tv once we were sent up to bed bc we were bored children and didn't want to sleep. i always felt to proud whenever we heard my dad stand up (he has knees that click like a horse) and ran upstairs giggling before he could catch us out of bed. looking back we obviously made a lot of noise and were definitely not as subtle as we thought
lastly i'll say getting lost in this museum when i was like 5. there was this mini gift shop half way through the museum and i got distracted with an etch-a-sketch (it was the first time i had seen one) and fiddled with it for a while (i was trying to figure out how it made lines), and then i looked up and i was alone in a massive room. i must have cried a little, but i stayed where i was and waited for my parents to find me (despite wanting to go further into the museum to find them), and eventually they came back for me :D i can't remember if i went to an employee and told them i was lost or not but it was very scary at the time
I just remembered what i put originally for one of the paragraphs so u get an extra one. one time i read the part of the huger games where Rue dies 3 times a day for a week to make myself cry just to prove i could. i can't tell you a reason past i would still do this today if i used my kindle more
2. show us a picture of your handwriting?
3. 3 films you could watch for the rest of your life and not get bored of?
i must confess i almost never rewatch anything - my ability to watch films ourside a cinema is almost non existent anyways lmao
the only time ive rewatched any film is The Old Guard where i needed to show it to all my friends but could only hang out w them on different days, leading me to watch the film 5 times over 2 weeks.
maybe i'll say the mama mia films bc ive only watched them w friends and it's just fun to sing along
4. what's an inside joke you have with your family or friends?
ok, do not question me with this but "arson" being a code word for incest
i will not explain more than telling you lockdown was a weird time and a conversation that starting with immortal fairies having dna lead to this
it's very funny thoigh when i randomly hear the word and this specific firend and i make eye contact, trying not to laugh at a joke only we know
5. what made you start your blog?
i saw so many tumblr posts screenshotted in instsgram, and i finally caved and got in on the action :D
6. what's the best and worst part of being online/a creator?
best - making friends :D i love being able to talk to people all over the world and just ask how they are and see their opinions. @ ing ppl on posts that make me think of them is an unmatched joy :D
worst - the discourse. i get upset rly easily and also am still working on my critical thinking skills so it's easy for me to get caught up in drama and let it affect me emotionally. i only rly. price it when im offline for a few days and go: wow i feel so normal
7. what scares you the most and why?
death, mostly. i used to stay up late at night and cry silently because i was so scared about not existing anymore. simply my mind being gone and not being able to do anything about it. but i just don't think about it anymore and it's all good :D
8. any reoccurring dreams?
like 30% of my dreams are reoccurring actually. all my dreams are incredibly vivid and nonsensical (more random plot points being put together like a game of madlibs more than anything else)
i guess i'll say the one about being stuck in a water parkour course in a pair, (with the aesthetic of fire bot and water girl) and finally climbing up a vine with my partner after being faster than everyone else, and getting to attend a lesson on how to have lesbian sex - in a room like my local gym (and worrying bc i wasn't out in this dream)
9. tell a story about your childhood
i got to play moshi monsters for the first time on my mums red laptop on the island counter at age 9 i think - but i had to stand up because my foot was in a blue container filled with salt water because there was a splinter the length and width of my pinky stuck in the bottom of it
i later went to a&e to get it taken out after a day because it took that long to convince me to go to the hospital (i was terrified of pain and medicine and wouldn't let anyone touch it). the doctor that saw me was very nice and used numbing spray (very cold) and got it out in under 5 seconds. to this day the only time ive been in hospital bar being a baby.
10. would you say you're an emotional person?
oh 100% - it's a meme amongst my friends at this point. i was assigned those greyhounds that jenna marbles has that look like they're crying all the time , for reasons you can guess
i also feel things very intensely, happiness anger and fear are all very overwhelming to me and it's only in the past few years ive been able to get them partly under control
#wiggles asks#hi yue :D#ask game: oo numbered questions#this took me like an hour rip.#enjoy the wiggles lore ig.#tell me ur reaction to each story pls i'm curious lmao#i probably should tag wiggles overshare bc wow. rereading tbis and that is a lot of detail no one needs#apologies :(
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