#oh. OH. i was rooting for 51 too.
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Kim Dokja & You, The Reader: A 51% Kim Dokja Character Analysis
Disclaimer: this is mainly an analysis of my own personal feelings while reading the epilogue, although I’m sure this is also applicable for other ORV fans too.
51% KDJ is our narrator. It’s the part of KDJ that loves Ways of Survival, and KDJ first and foremost is a reader to us; that’s how he introduces himself, after all, in the very beginning of ORV. That’s the whole premise, even. One man manages to successfully navigate the apocalypse all because he’s read a book about it. 51 feels genuine and authentic to us in a way that the third-person narrator 49% KDJ, who has lost all interest in TWSA, doesn’t. 49, in comparison, feels like a pale facsimile. 49 can’t be the actual Kim Dokja, because the Kim Dokja we know is on the subway narrating the book to us.
And so as the reader, when 51 is stuck on the subway, it feels like the real KDJ has been left behind. 49 is just an avatar, after all. The actual KDJ isn’t there to experience life after the scenarios with his companions, and that’s why it’s so heartbreaking. Surely, after everything he’s gone through, doesn’t KDJ deserve to be happy?
Here’s the thing: even before falling into the coma, 49 being able to spend time with KimCom still doesn’t feel like a happy ending. There’s a falseness to it; it doesn’t sit right. During the picnic, Yoo Sangah has a conversation with Han Sooyoung; she asks HSY if she really thinks that the other companions haven’t noticed that something is off about Dokja. But then she continues:
“That person is also Dokja-ssi. Doesn’t matter how much percentage he is made out of, there’s no doubt that he is Dokja-ssi. Dokja-ssi who journeyed together with us.”
Yoo Sangah asked her. “Is there any meaning in deciphering which one is really him?”
(Chapter 521)
This raises the following question: who really is Kim Dokja? YSA makes a good point here; 49 has all the important memories that KDJ shared with them, and it’s impossible to truly know 100% of a person, so isn’t it enough that they still have the 49% that matters?
But as a reader, you’re left feeling unsatisfied like HSY because you know that the 49% avatar isn’t really him. Of course it isn’t enough. The 49% of him that’s there isn’t the same KDJ that we know; that one is stuck on the subway.
But that’s not quite right either. Because the KDJ on the subway, as genuine as he feels, is still only 51% of him. We as the readers are like YSA in that respect; we can’t truly know all of KDJ either. KDJ the first-person narrator is different from KDJ the companion, and as the reader, there’s this fundamental distance between our world and his that we’ll never be able to comprehend.
So you’re left looking at 51 thinking, “This is the one that matters! Come get him off the subway!” If you’re me, you might even be looking at YSA thinking, “How can you be happy like this?! This isn’t a happy ending!”
But in reality, you’ve fallen into the same trap. The only part of KDJ’s story you can really know is the parts that he tells you, and as an unreliable narrator, you know he’s leaving things out. Sure, you also know his backstory and his internal monologue. You might even think you can comprehend him the best as his reader, but really, there’s this line between character and companion that we can never fully understand. This line mirrors his own initial experiences with Yoo Joonghyuk; at the start, YJH is only ever a character to him until he learns to see him as a person.
Basically, what I’m trying to say is that we don’t know 100% of Kim Dokja either. In the epilogue, Kim Dokja is split into two parts: 49, the part that his companions know, and 51, the part that we know. The part that’s been telling the story. ORV is so brilliant because it engages with us, the reader, as part of the story too. We further its thematic arcs through engaging with it; KDJ is to us as YJH is to KDJ, and that line between character and personhood is further exemplified through this. There’s a sort of hypocrisy there, in criticizing YSA, if, like me, you really only wanted 51 to be happy again.
HSY and YJH’s character arcs make me go wild because they recognize that nobody can ever truly know 100% of a person. They don’t care; they want all of him back anyway. This is all just to say ORV truly is the greatest found family love story ever written.
#orv#orv spoilers#orv epilogue#omniscient reader's viewpoint#kdj#orv character analysis#meta analysis#kim dokja#this was all brought on by me saying ‘hey isn’t it sad how 49 basically just accepts that he’s just an avatar during the group regression?’#‘like he’s still 49% of him. everyone’s trying to get 51% of him back when that 49%’s right there.’#‘but isn’t he kdj too?’#and then it hit me.#oh. OH. i was rooting for 51 too.#49 never really felt like the real kdj to me either. 51 did though.#but wait. isn’t that one still only 51%?#OMG I FELL INTO THE SAME TRAP etc etc#i hope this made sense#i typed this out when I should’ve been sleeping#it might be incoherent rambling my bad
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Prompt #51
"Stop pulling."
For a second there was a blissful silence. For one second.
The villain's hands got tugged away from them once more, the sharp sound of chains rattling bouncing off the walls of the room. They snapped their head around in an instant, gaze catching onto the root of their annoyance as they witnessed the hero making yet another attempt at escape - tugging on the manacles that bound them together.
"Hey!" the villain snapped, the hero pausing in their actions at the outburst. "Stop pulling that. When you pull the chain you pull me - what about that don't you understand?"
A beat.
The hero's eyes narrowed, their grip tightening fractionally. The villain noted the way their jaw twitched too - a telling sign they knew all to well...
"Hero," they said slowly. "If you pull that chain one more time I swear I--"
Tug.
The villain shut their eyes and took a breath. Then another.
"Oh, you are so going to regret that."
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I don't know if I want to write a massive essay about this, but they missed the whole point with all the characters, especially Ye Wenjie. I'm assuming everyone who said this portrayal is accurate and a raging angry Ye Wenjie is good is because they either never read the book, or non-Chinese, or both. (Or maybe projecting their own views on Maoism). Ye Wenjie received higher education during a time period where it wasn't common for women. She believed in science, she believed in people, but time and time again, the people in her life let her down and never showed any signs of remorse. What I've gathered from the text is that she isn't fuelled by rage, more so she is dead on the inside, she has lost all hope in people. Her decision to reply is not because she wants to destroy, she believes that a civilisation from a higher standpoint could save humans, and this roots in the fact that she is educated. She's not some crazy rage driving women who would ever say "time is a motherfucker", not even a Chinese equivalent.
I'm not sure why the writers decided to write Ye Wenjie and Yang Weining's relationships out of the story...Oh so she is rescued by a white man later on hmm??? (Coincidentally, all the characters driving the plot are also non-Chinese in this). Ye Wenjie marrying Yang Weining and giving birth to Yang Dong gave her a glimpse of light in the life from which she had lost hope. Spending time in Qijiatun also gave her a bit of warmth. When she pushed Yang Weining off the cliff, it marked another significant point, she was calm, cut the rope with no hesitation. She did not care to get herself entangled in romantic affairs. Making her have a child with Evans is laughable. They also dumb down Yang Weining, to the extent that Ye Wenjie had to explain 43+8=51 to him. Mind you, he was a real proper engineer. (Weirdly with all the diversifying, they did not keep a single male Chinese scientist in the main team huh)
Anyways, before I go on a tangent. The writers have fast tracked everything and left out the finer text about the characters in the book. I'm not sure if they missed the point or that nowadays the audience are ruined by fast media, something like the tencent version are simply too slow for the people in the west. Any of my moots and followers who watch cdramas will know that the real good stuff is all in the build-up. It's all the little text that adds up to a fleshed out character. If the culture difference is too much for Netflix, leading them to change all the characters and most of the plot, why not just buy a western ip. There's plenty of good western sci-fi ips.
I can't help but think they want to do this because they wanted to film the scene where Ye Zhetai is beaten to death. Have an excuse to turn Ye Wenjie an angry woman. We all know why. If they really cared about showing a true China during that time, they would have spend some care with the Red Coast details as mentioned above (we did not have screens in 1960s that display Chinese text!!! And definitely no simplified Chinese characters on computers!!!!). Instead of having her snog Bai Mulin off - unrealistic since people were a lot more conserved back then, they would not have done this and it's ooc for Ye Wenjie. Falling in love with Evans - a real blasphemy. I guess the 3 Body Problem here means 3 bodies pounding at each other. Jin-Raj-Will also seem to have their own 3 body problem going on too.
(One last tangent) Ye Wenjie and Yang Dong(Vera) as scientists not believing in god but having monks at her funeral ??????????? Not even a typical normal Chinese funeral will have monks. The stereotype enforcing is real.
#okay i did say im not writing a massive essay in sentence 1 but i got carried away#3 body problem#three body#also changing the game to a mongol background - as if it isnt obv enough what they are trying to do#i cant help but to think that this adaption being bad is what they intended#typical viewer will not care to read the original they'll pass this as bad chinese media and leave a bad impression on china overall
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smart ass - M.S pt 5
synopsis - matt’s not doing to well with his schooling but is determined to get his degree and pass his classes. one essay which is a huge part of their grade haunts him with a bad mark, luckily y/n is willing to help him
notes - NOT PROOF READ, lowercase intention smut near the end, aftercare cus thats what matt specializes in, cuddles
a/n - uhm idk if yalls could tell, or if u knew but i’m a virgin and have never kissed anyone so 🫣
leave some suggestions for chris or matt fics for me to write pls as well :3
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present day a few days after their second study session
y/n pov
matt s 🐼
hey message me when ur leaving ur house. 8:46
btw we r ordering food to the house cus i dont wanna get gas. 8:47
text me what u want from CFA. 8:47
you
what in the flying fuck is CFA? 8:49
matt s 🐼
uhm hello? kid, how do u not know what CFA is???? 8:49
you
abbreviations like this is what's wrong with our generation… 8:50
matt s 🐼
kay ur so weird omfg. 5:50
CFA clearly means chick-fil-a smartass 🙄. 8:51
you
oh well then 😋. nuggets and waffle fries please 🛐🛐. 8:52
and sunjoy btww. 8:52
matt s 🐼
ew u like sunjoy? 8:53
you
u like rootbear don’t talk to me ✋. 8:52
and let me in pls im already outside :). 8:52
read at 8:52
i sling my bag over my shoulder and leave my car, waiting outside the large house with thrilling anticipation as i wait for matt to open the door. I see the fluff of his brown locks and a sweater similar to the one i’ve seen him wear before at school. i dont know why i get giddy when i see him, i dont know how we went to only speaking when madi was around too greeting each other whenever we see each other in the halls or cafe or even in our shared classes.
matt and his brothers were some of my closest friends now, after madi introduced me to them at a party, both of us got insanely drunk and made me call off crazy drinking ever since. all i remember from that night was the way matt took care of me while i was in a very vulnerable state and didn’t take advantage of me. i haven’t told anyone but madi about what happened to me when i was younger, and i’m glad she’s still taken her promise to heart, the only thing that telling her about my past shit did was make her and i closer.
i see matt in full view after he opens the door, “hey!” i say with a cheery expression despite how late it was for me.
“heyyy, thanks for coming by the way, even though you had a shift earlier.” he says sheepishly, before i left for work he messaged me begging to have another study session because he had more questions about the essay part of the exam. “oh hey lemme put your stuff in my room, just chill on the couch before the food gets here.” i pass him my backpack and laptop as he begins to walk down a hallway to make it to his room.
i move through the small entryway and become more apparent in his brothers view, “heyy y/n” nick says moving up to me for a hug, i take in his embrace.
“hi nick!!” i say excitedly. other than matt, ive hung out with nick a lot too, madi always has him over at her apartment, and even the three of us have made it a plan to meet up at our favourite bakery and talk for however long we want too a couple times a week. out of the little over a month i’ve know the triplets, nick has made a huge impact on me, and i felt safe around him, as well as chris and matt.
he lets go of me while i walk over to a slumped over chris on the couch, when he realised i was here he sits up on the edge of the couch. “sup chris,” i dap him up doing a little bro half hug with him.
“always nice to see you y/n,” he says as our arms unfold from the middle of us. i take a seat next to him with a comfortable amount of distance between us. matt returns not too long after i greet everyone. He sits down between chris and i and nick returns from the kitchen with a pepsi, root beer, bottled water and a lemonade, passing out everyone's drink knowing what each of us would ask for. matt and i give nick a thank you as he nods his head after.
nick stationed himself on the elongated part of the couch settling in with his fluffy blanket, he puts on a stranger thing episode and we all sit watching the tv. it only takes another five minutes of the episode for the doorbell to ring through the house. nick gets up immediately scurrying to the door with his fluffy blanket wrapped around him as he talks to the delivery man, thanking him and making small steps to see the rest of us. he comes back with two large bags of food planting them on the coffee table in front of all of us, before grabbing a tray of drinks after going back to the entrance.
“thank you for paying matty,” chris says, rubbing up again his brother with his lips pursed and now shoulder to shoulder with his older brother. i giggle at the sight, copying chris.
“mmmmh thanks mattyyyy” i say resting my head on the peak of his shoulder, pursing my lips as well and copying chris’ weird voice.
“you’re a fucking weirdo chris,” matt says in a disgusted voice flicking the other head that was very close to his face. “and you're welcome y/n.”
i laugh at chris’ overly dramatic reaction to what matt did to him. still giggling a bit at the sight of matt completely ignoring his brothers reaction, I say “just tell me how much i own you.”
“eh, don’t worry about it, it’s on me, plus save up for that new laptop you were talking about. i know how much you want it,” i blush slightly.
“aww thank you then,” i wrap my arms around him and squeeze him, he hands me the food that i asked for and retract back onto the couch.
“by the way, what time are we planning to stay up till? i told madi that i��ll tell her when i was heading home.” i saw looking at matt.
“well its kinda late so if you wanna stay in the guest room, im fine with that.” matt says, moving his head towards me, then breaking eye contact with the tv screen.
“im ay okay with that if you wanna stay over! plus you know your way around the house,” nick says giving his approval to matts idea of staying over.
“mhm im chill with it,” chris simply says.
“uhh yeah then, i'm down, thanks!”
we eat then say goodnight to nick and chris before we go to matt's room for some studying.
i lay down onto his bed as he walks over to his bathroom to change into some comfier clothes. while hes in there i start to think about our first study session when i found out matt had a crush on me. i thought it was very cute, but it made matt awkward on our last study night. i’m glad that he's eased up now, i just acted like i didn’t know anything and didn’t want to push on how he was feeling because I knew it would make his anxiety worse.
i come back to my senses seeing matt reappear from the bathroom door. we stayed on track for studying for an hour and a half before we eventually put on brooklyn 99 on in the background and talked.
“so, the retake is in a couple days, you think you’re ready?” i was hopeful he would be good by then because tonight felt very productive. I quizzed him on a couple of important ideas while he was playing with a baseball, throwing it up and down in the air. i learnt that he understands stuff better when he is doing something with his hands, it keeps him focused.
“hm, i’m not too sure, maybe another study sesh the day after tomorrow so by friday i’ll have all the stuff we went over fresh in my mind.” the baseball still gets thrown up and falls down in front of his face, with his hand waiting to catch it before it smacks him right on his nose. “thanks again for this,” i hear him catch it one more time before he moves his hand away from his face and looks at me just to the right of him. i'm hovering over him slightly, his eyes glow the brightest in the slight illumination from the lamp we always use when we study.
“yeah of course matt, you're my friend anyways.” our faces mirror each other, his eyes roam my faces while his hand holds the side of my face.
i toss my hair to the side of my head to lean down to kiss matt, he immediately returns the kiss enveloping my bottom lip with his. i moan into his mouth feeling him push me down and dominate me. one of his hands rests on my hip keeping me down as i pull him down with my legs letting him top me. most of his body is pressed down to mine, i lift my hips to give myself some kind of sensation i desperately crave for.
“fuck, i’m sorry are you okay with this?” matt says when he disconnects us.
i cup his chin bringing him a little closer, “i really fucking like you matt, please don’t stop.”
a smirk grows onto his face, “i really fucking like you too, you’re lucky i do.” he becomes more unserious pecking little kisses amoungst my face making a very loud “mwah” sound with each of he presses into my skin.
“matttt” i say through my sour looking face while he shows his affection.
“okay, okay, i’m done. but uh, how about we kiss again, didn’t get a good feel of it the first time.” he says with a knowing smirk on his face. i use my hand to weave through his brunette hair pulling him towards me again, we share a more passionate kiss, with knowing and love rather than lust.
it doesn’t take us long till things got more serious, his lips attach to my neck instantly sucking multiple hickeys into visible spots on my neck, moving down to my collar bone and eventually to the full and plump part of my boob. this is where my dream stopped last week, ive been trying to ignore it for the longest time but being in the moment now after thinking about it in my head makes it feel even more surreal.
his hand sneaks to the bottom of my fresh love shirt that i took from matt’s drawers when i found out i was sleeping here his fingers feel the hem of it. “is it alright if i take your shirt off?” he says with a quiet voice, almost afraid of what i’ll say.
i quickly nod in reply but that doesn’t seem good enough for him.
“words smart ass, i need words.” he says with a little bit of a condescending tone to his love tainted words.
“yes matt, you can take my shirt off too.” i say with a small giggle following after it.
he lifts the fabric to uncover the same white lace bra i was wearing while i slept over at his house by accident. “mh, i’ve been dreaming about this for a while ever since i saw you in it that morning,” he kisses the lace that travels to the small connecting piece of fabric between the two cups of my bra.
“and i know you heard what chris said to me that morning, yet you still acted like nothing was wrong.” he moves his hand to my upper back placing his hand onto my bra strap, “hey, can i take this off?”
“mhm,” my lips sealed trying to conceal my response to the amazing feeling of his hands on my body, he undoes the clip on my back with skill and purpose. the touch of his fingertips grant goosebumps to my skin in a very arousing manner.
he pulls the dainty clothing article off my arms and throws it to the floor benign absolutely amazed by my tits, they weren’t much but it seemed like matt was under a spell, he latched his lips just above my nipple to give me more hickeys, he sucks and soothes repeating this multiple times before he eventually dips down to my nipple, i feel the rush of arousal arching slightly off the bed.
i moan in response to the new sensation, i’m not exactly a virgin, but i haven’t done anything like this in a while, let alone at all for god sake. he massages the other boob, playing with the nipple with his hand the opposite of the one his mouth is very focused on.
he finally comes up for air after a little bit teasing, my thighs rub together and sits up to rip his shirt off to match my level of revealing skin, off goes his sweats as well leaving him in just his boxers, “matt, oh my god” i'm out of breath and very needy.
he continues a trail of kisses down to my clothes pussy, he looks up at me while holding the stretchy waistband of my pants, i give him a vigorous nod knowing what he was asking for.
he slides them completely off leaving me in just my underwear. he plants another sweet kids over my clothed heat which milks another desperate moan from me. “matt wait-“ he immediately comes up from my bottom half and lays beside me listening to me.
“hey we don’t have too if you don’t want too, i’m down if you just wanna go to bed in the other room, or even if you just wanna stay here and cuddle for the rest of the night.” he says before i can go ahead with what i was thinking.
“no, no i really want too it’s just, i haven’t really… done this before.” i tell him, he seems almost fully unaffected by my words.
“that’s fine, i’m here to make you feel good,” he places his hand nearing my core again, he rubs my panties over my clit moving down to feel the very apparent wet spot. “wow i’ve barely touched you and your so worked up,” his voice was sultry with a hint of a condescending tone.
“m-matt please” i struggle to say feeling the pressure he's putting down onto my throbbing clit.
“i’m gonna take these off now, okay?” he says with his fingers wrapped around the thin string of my thong that’s barely covers anything.
he slips them off admiring the sight in front of him, i almost get self conscious wanting to cover myself up with his blankets. his head dips and his hands pant onto my hips and one on my inner thigh. his tongue makes very sudden contact with my clit, he sucks and swirls his tongue around it, feeling the very heavy pressure i arch my back slighting leaning forward into his face.
his finger creeps and teases my hole before he fully plunged it into me. i heavy moan escapes my lips, “quiet now princess, can’t let nick or chris hear you.”
he continues his movements stimulating both my clit and hole at the same time, “more, please” i say with a pleading tone. he removes his finger from inside of me and replaces it with his tongue and mouth. he absolutely devoured my pussy giving me as much pleasure as he could, his mouth moving back to my clip and he slid his finger back into me moving it at a moderate pace.
i don’t try very hard to conceal my very loud moans, as soon as matt enters a second finger into my dripping cunt, i release with a pornographic moan, squeezing his head between my legs. “holy shit matt,” he licks up all of my hot cum and comes back up to kiss me.
“mmh you did so well for me, you ready for me now?” i say a needy yes while he goes back to sit back on the his headboard. he removes his boxers with such haste letting his cock spring out with a bead of pre-cum leaking out. “i wanna watch you ride me, you control the pace and how deep you wanna go.” he whispers into my ear.
he lifts me on top of him, kissing him passionately while i grind down onto his twitching cock. he lets out a guttered groan “okay, let’s do this cause i could bust just from looking at you.”
he lines himself up and holds my hips while i sink down onto him. his so thick and long, i feel him in ever existing crevasse in my cunt. “fuck yes” i say letting out a heavy breath.
“holy shit you’re so tight-“ he says between his monas and hard breathes. i begin to move myself up and down slowly, whatever pain that came at first quickly moved to pleasure as i speed up my movements.
my tits bounce every time i move up or down, my movements are set at a constant pace, “matt, i think- i think i’m gonna cum.” i say, feeling his dick twitch in my pussy again.
“come for me baby, give it to me,” he says, taking me by my love handles and moving me up and down a little faster. i came hearing his words letting out a couple of breathy moans, he follows soon after me. i feel his thick long ropes of cum fill me up and come back down dripping onto his cock.
matt does a couple of slower pumps in and out of me to ride both of us through our highs. he picks me up as if i weigh nothing and puts me down beside him laying down onto the bed.
he goes into the bathroom to retrieve a small cloth and comes back to wipe me down. he does a couple of strips to pick up as much extra cum he could. i feel him hit my clit and i whimper loudly, “oh god, i’m sorry, i know your still sensitive.” once he’s finished he goes into the bathroom and cleans himself up.
fishing his boxers from the ground he slides them on and grabs my underwear and a large t-shirt from his closet. he hops onto the bed putting on my underwear and pulling me up to put on the shirt.
“mh thank you,” i say tired and groggy.
he plants a kiss onto my forehead “anything for you smart ass.”
he comes under the covers and wraps his arms around me, intertwining our legs. we sleep peacefully until the morning
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Do you guys ever think about how many times CLAMP tiptoe around the word "death", in Clear Card? (you: what kind of question is that???)
Because it's an awful lot.
The actual verb 死ぬ (to die), the classical one, is never mentioned* to indicate "death", and I totally see the reasons why: mainly target and "world view" of the series (lord, if there's something I learned during these 8 years of observing the reactions from the JP fans is that the 世界観, the "world view" is EVERYTHING and if the authors dare doing something that goes against it, they won't forgive them. Especially for a series rooted deep in everybody's childhood).
* (Actually, it is used in chapter 43 in a funny skit with Kero, Suppy and Nakuru, where Kero says "I thought I would die!!!" because he's too embarrassed by the SyaoSaku scene he had to forcefully witness hidden in Sakura's bag 😂but it's a foolish scene)
I think the first time where they actually start to dangle it in our faces is in chapter 28, when they make Momo scream in panic: "If you rewind that far, the repercussions will be immesurable!!" and then Kaito confirming right after "Time magic shortens the caster's lifespan". 命を削る indeed means "to shorten one's lifespan", and what else does that mean, if not that he's killing himself little by little, by using time magic? Sure, magicians have a longer lifespan, but...
Another instance where they make us "sniff" the smell of death but they don't serve the actual meal is in chapter 33, when Kaito goes out in the garden to counter the attack coming from the Association. He condescendingly says 力不足と己の身が滅ぶのを恐れて, mocking them for not including time magic in their collective attack because they're afraid their power won't be enough and they'll literally wreck their bodies in the process. Kaito doesn't straight up say "they're afraid to die", but the verb 滅ぶ means "to perish, to be ruined, to be destroyed" and we all saw what effects time magic had on Kaito's body. He's basically calling them p*ssies, yes.
And excuse me, but the most apparent one....when Kaito (or the Clan) says multiple times "Her soul will break", should Akiho write on herself more power than her body can sustain....isn't that just a very generous way to avoid saying "Akiho WILL DIE" to not scare the young readers away? Because, think about it...if her soul breaks...what is left of her? What is left of Akiho, as we know her? Yes, just a shell, a corpse for use and consumption of the Association/Clan, exactly.
And what to say about the scene of chapter 41 when Nadeshiko is trying to mom-talk Kaito into reason and the guy answers "I guess it's because I'm getting closer to become the same kind of entity as you", meaning, a ghost??? Hence, he's basically saying "I'm about to die"? I always snicker when I read that part because I'm like "OH COME ON, CLAMP, MAKE HIM SAY THE WORD" 😂
Another instance where the characters dance around the concept of death is in chapter 51, when Momo gets to have this very mom-son talk with Kaito (yes, exactly, Kaito set into motion several mother figures throughout the story - Lilie, Momo, Nadeshiko herself - that should tell you SOMETHING). Momo is trying to make him understand that he's literally betted his life away when he made the contract with her, so that should give him an idea of how important this mission is to him, and for whom he's doing this for. She says "When you made the contract with me, you revealed your true name. We could say I hold your heart as magician in the palm of my hand". Here Momo is basically already mentioning the concept I've been saying time and time again when Kaito revealed his true name to Akiho in chapter 80: in CLAMP works, revealing your true name to someone is like placing the most vulnerable part of yourself in their hands. The "imagery" Momo suggests here is actually pretty disturbing: the word 心臓 (heart) is the one commonly used to indicate the actual organ, more than "heart as core of the emotions", and so what she's suggesting is that at any moment, without notice, she might close that hand and crush his heart, basically killing him. Of course Momo would never do that, but she wants to remind him of what damned situation he's put himself in, how far he went for the person he still isn't ready to recognize at this point of the story.
I think the closer they went to say the "forbidden word" was when Lilie in chapter 72 explained to Sakura the extent of her premonitory dreams: "I know things that will happen shortly ahead...things way far ahead in the future...and even things that will happen when I'll be gone".
Another instance where they TOTALLY dance around the real situation (that is, Kaito should've been dead-dead-dead by then) is in chapter 80 when Eriol explains to Akiho what Kaito had been doing: I'm not sure if it's Eriol who sugarcoated it in his speech, or Akiho herself while recounting it to Sakura, but she says "He messed with lots (of dangerous magic), so his condition wasn't supposed to be that good", another polite way to say "he should've been dead by now". In fact, what's keeping him alive is literally the fact that the pocket watch (and therefore, his time) is frozen for now.
And sometimes I wonder if the "unhappiness" or "grief" that Yelan foresaw for Sakura, in the eventuality she couldn't gain control of her own powers, included....death too....NAAAAAAAHHHH
(well, I mean, who didn't think of THAT when they made Kaito say that he could see Nadeshiko because he was close to dying?? Well knowing that Sakura could suddenly see her too?? they did that on purpose jfc)
#card captor sakura#ccsakura#clear card arc#just very randomly musing about stuff#I've been keeping tabs of how many times they've danced around the concept of death in this arc#and it's surprisingly a lot#lmao I feel like Barbie asking THAT question while they're dancing in the movie#but fear not cause even like this the arc never crosses the line#it's like saying well it's time for children to get accustomed with the concept and we'll gradually start to introduce it#gently very gently#but it's useless to keep avoiding it forever#I mean we got someone who was literally throwing his life away as one of the main characters and themes in this arc#sooo...
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I read prompt 51 in Reggie’s voice, so please - with whoever else you think!
- @anotherfantom
Set in the Cat!Reggie and Sugar Salmon!Daddy verse.
Reggie was lounging on Caleb's bed, waiting for the guy to get out of the shower. He kind of regretted not joining him, but he'd still been in Cat Mode when Caleb got home, curled up in the middle of the bed in the perfect pool of sunlight, and he'd been too cozy to move.
It wasn't like he lived here, or anything. It just wasn't like he didn't live here, either. Caleb had installed a magical cat flap that only let him in, and he had his own drawers in Caleb's drawer, with fancy outfits Caleb had gotten him, and a toothbrush in the bathroom, and all his cat stuff around the house. But he was free to come and go as he pleased.
He just happened to like to be here at times he knew Caleb would get home. Especially if he was going to be naked. So sue him. His boyfriend was hot.
He perked up when he heard the water shut off, changing back to human so he could fully enjoy the view. He was still in the cozy patch of sunlight, except it only covered part of his back. The light on bare skin was different than on his fur, but also nice. He was just wearing some cute cotton shorts Caleb had gotten him as he lazed on his stomach, kicking his feet in delight when Caleb came out of the shower, still toweling off his hair.
"Hello, Kitten," he said, leaning over to kiss Reggie.
"Hi," Reggie said, a little breathless after the kiss, and the view. "How was your day?"
"Oh, simply awful," Caleb said, as he rooted around his drawers for some comfortable silk pants. Reggie enjoyed the view while it lasted, though Caleb in silk was also nice. "The Council is all up in a tiff because apparently the pixies that have roosted in my Club are 'illegal' and 'not supposed to be there'."
"You don't mind them?" Reggie asked, making grabby hands at Caleb until he sat back down on the bed. Okay, so he only did it to put on his socks, but he was still shirtless. Jackpot. Reggie draped himself over the man's back, enjoying his warm, clean skin against his own. Caleb happily leaned back.
"No, if you give them something to do they're actually quite helpful. Also they've been ah, deterring staff who keeps trying to use my props room as a make-out spot, which is ever so helpful."
"So how are you going to gaslight gatekeep girlboss your way out of this?" Reggie asked. From Caleb's rants - he did them less when Reggie was human, but he loved grumbling about it when Reggie was a cat, especially when they hadn't yet officially established Reggie could be human - the Hollywood Wizard Council were pretty much sticklers for the rules they themselves made up.
"How am I what?" Caleb asked, turning to him. He looked adorably confused, which was a new expression on him. Reggie kissed his nose, and he wrinkled it even more adorably. And handsomely.
"It's a thing," he shrugged. "An internet thing."
Caleb turned to kiss him properly. "It's a good thing you make me feel so young, darling, because you just made me feel very, very old."
"Oh, I'll make you feel young, alright," Reggie grinned.
The silk pants came off again, and they had a very, very nice evening. Later, when Reggie was curled up on Caleb's chest, feeling like he'd be purring if he was in Cat Mode, he looked up. "Okay but how are you going to get the Council off your back about the pixies?"
Caleb looked down. "Oh. I drew up a contract and had them sign it. They're now officially employees of the Hollywood Ghost Club, paid in room and board and one shiny button a month. They negotiated hard for that last one."
"You do have a lot of nice and shiny buttons," Reggie mused.
"Is that girlboss gamer gatelight of me?" Caleb asked, and Reggie laughed so hard he accidentally turned back into a cat.
#julie and the phantoms#calebxreggie#fanfic#cat!reggie#sugar daddy au#AUs are awesome#I wrote a thing#you know that Reggie keeps all his normal clothes at home with the guys#but the stuff at Caleb's is like Expensive Fancy Longewear and Sex Kitten stuff but also a few really fancy outfits#for when Caleb wants to take him out on the town#also like 4 different lint rollers and cat hair removers lol
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Royai week 2023 fic recs
In honor of Royai week in the Fruits & Roots server, I chose to highlight some of my favorite Royai fics I gathered these past years (not many years, since I've been on AO3 for 2 years and a half only). Each day, I'll recommend a few fics in a particular setting
Day 1: Sleepless nights / Last words - Canon-compliant fics
Chaste Kisses by Pen_n_Notebook / @royaidaydreams, rated T
Roy and Riza kiss during difficult times in their lives. The kisses are soft and tender, reminding each other they are still alive, still beside each other, and more often than not, an apology for tragedies they could not prevent.
There's angst, there's fluff, there's so much tenderness!
Reminders of You by Poppy Pelican / @poppy-pelican, rated G
Riza hits her head and temporarily loses her memory. But oh my, her commanding officer is really good looking…
This is a fun one!
we speak the language/no one understands us by onelargecoffeepls / @onelargecoffeepls, rated T
Roy and Riza say "I love you" in many different ways. A Royai love languages fic.
Fluff and angst along with canon
Someone to Watch Over Me by nightofnyx8 / @nightofnyx8, rated T
To: Amestrian Military, Eastern Command
To Whomever it May Concern: Please excuse Colonel Roy Mustang for the next three days. He is being forced to stay in the Eastern City Central Hospital as he cannot expect to lead an investigation two hours after being shot. For further information of his stupidity, please refer to Lieutenant Riza Hawkeye.
Signed, Dr. James Henry Kallen, MD
An outside POV on Roy Mustang, with some funny moments despite the canon events
Don’t Say ‘Farewell’ by goneadrift / @goneadrift, rated G
The rest of the team has already left the office, leaving her and the Colonel alone.
Such a similar situation and yet tonight Riza can’t find comfort in the solitude of their office. She realizes that it is the last time they spend evening together like this and it is just wrong.
Mutual pining, light angst, and the upcoming threat of being separated make a great setting for a delicious fic!
The Royai Mixtape Drabbles by klainelynch / @klainelynch, rated T
Alexander Hamilton may have written 51 of The Federalist Papers in 6 months, but I wrote 47 fics in 3 weeks, so your move A. Ham
47 times where 100 words hit right where it should
When I least deserve it by herebedragons14 / @herebedragons14, rated G
Roy was staring at the ceiling from his hospital bed. At this point, he had memorized every little detail from the uneven texture of the faded white paint but he was glad for the alone time. According to his calculations, it should be around eight o'clock, based on how much time had passed since Havoc left for his therapy session and him not being back yet. He could fetch his watch to check, but he wasn’t sure of what drawer of the small nightstand it was in and it felt too much of a bother to search.
There were more troublesome matters occupying his mind. Too much had happened the previous night and he was still digesting it. The homunculus, the possible involvement of the Central Command, Havoc’s injury, Riza’s defeated words… They should be considering themselves lucky for making it out alive, all of them, but how could he truly believe that when one of his men had ended up paralized from the hips down and he nearly lost the other one?
The days after the events of the Third Lab bring much introspection and hurt. But also comfort and promises
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Story #51, Winter Ficlets 12/26
Under the mistletoe
Read it on AO3
Scully sits behind the microscope studying the samples from their recent case. She’s in her white lab coat with her hair in a low ponytail, adjusting the lens now and again and checking the data on the screen next to her. She’s all business now, and when a heavy hand lands on her shoulder, she, by all means, should be alarmed and panicked; regardless, she doesn’t even stir. Having worked side by side sixty hours a week for six years straight makes her recognize Mulder with her eyes closed by his smell only. She smirks, not even bothering to tear her eyes away from the task at hand.
“Hi, doc,” he greets her and immediately begins to massage the knots in the back of her neck. He acts casually as if he does it all the time, and Scully doesn’t allow herself to read anything into his actions. It’s a mere comfort rub for a friend who’s been hunched over the substance analysis since the early morning as a favor for him. He’s just being grateful and attentive.
“Hi yourself,” she sighs contentedly and bends her head lower, so her chin almost touches her chest, granting him better access. When he stops, she smiles at him and nods at the paper bag that rests on the desk next to a big cup of coffee. She’s fairly positive both weren’t there before.
“I see that you came with gifts.”
“Well, I thought since I’m the reason you are stuck in the lab, it’s the least I can do to cajole you into helping.”
“That I won’t argue with.”
“So I bore gifts, now you bear tidings.”
“I do have something for you. Look here.” Scully hops off her stool and motions him to come closer to look at the sample she was studying before. As Mulder is about to take a step, he almost jumps at the booming voice behind him.
“You gotta kiss her!’ He pivots and scans the room for the source of the sudden dissonance. At his right he spots Marcy, grinning ear to ear, a lab technician, who Scully once labeled as both her savior and wingman when it comes to lab work.
“Huh?” Mulder murmurs, acutely aware of the crowd staring at them.
“Mistletoe”, Marcy points somewhere above their heads, and both Mulder and Scully raise their eyes up to see the proverbial green leaves with a red ribbon tied around.
“Oh, come on, Mulder, don’t be shy,” someone else goads, whose voice, let alone the name, he doesn’t know.
He can feel his face flushing and notices that Scully’s pale cheeks turn all pink too. She probably curses her Irish roots now, but he secretly loves it. Not like he’s ever going to tell her that.
For about a minute, he contemplates giving her a chivalrous way out, but as soon as his eyes land on her mouth, he dismisses that thought. The pink tip of her tongue runs over her lipstick-clean lips, an unconscious gesture of nervousness and excitement at once. She’s biting her bottom lip, and in a matter of seconds, he finds himself leaning closer and catching that plump beckoning lip briefly between his teeth before locking their mouths together. Swaying, she lifts her arms and wraps them around his neck, and Mulder grabs her by the waist to steady them both. It’s a chaste kiss that lasts only a few seconds, and Mulder wishes he could kiss her again, and then some more, without all these people whooping and hollering. He can’t help but suppress a smile, and as Scully’s eyes flutter open, he notices that she is smiling too.
“Wow,” Marcy whistles.
She pats Mulder playfully on the back, then steps in between so no one else can hear the three of them and whispers surreptitiously. “Get a room, guys.”
Taking a step back, Marcy waves at the crowd “OK, everyone, the show is over! Get back to work.”
While Mulder is reaching up to clear the space above off a green-leaved and red-ribboned offender, Scully gathers her wits and slips back into her full agent’s mode. She grabs a coffee he brought earlier and hides her burning face behind the cup. She takes a sip, clears her throat, turns back to the microscope, and then gestures for him to join her.
“Well, getting back to the blood sample you asked me to check, there’s something I wanted to show you.”
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Saturday Afternoon Reggae Show
DJ LeBaron Lord King [email protected]
March 9, 2024
saturdayafternoonreggaeshow
4:00 PM Alton Ellis - Pearls
4:02 PM Inna De Yard - Row Fisherman
4:05 PM Jah Bouks - Angola
4:09 PM Sara Lugo - High & Windy
4:13 PM Earl 16 - Walls of the City
4:17 PM Chezidek - All Ive Got
4:21 PM Trudi Harrison - Black Voice
4:24 PM Peter Tosh - Bush Doctor
4:31 PM Burna Boy - Last Last
4:33 PM Jo Mersa Marley - No Way Out
4:37 PM Kabaka Pyramid - Mr. Rastaman
4:40 PM The Wailers - Guiltiness
4:43 PM Kabaka Pyramid - Well Done
4:47 PM Groundation - Jah Jah Know
4:54 PM Khalia - Double Trouble
5:00 PM Damian Marley - Wanted
5:04 PM Dezarie - Not One Penny
5:08 PM Alborosie - Journey to Zion
5:13 PM Black Uhuru - Guess Who's Coming To
5:19 PM Lee Perry - Bird In Hand
5:22 PM Stick Figure - Old Sunrise
5:27 PM Tappa Zukie - Judge I Oh Lord
5:31 PM Yaadcore - Say That You Love Me
5:35 PM Yaadcore - Sufferation
5:39 PM Lila Iké - Dinero
5:41 PM Jah Izrehl - Culture
5:44 PM Libianca - People
5:47 PM Rocky Dawuni - Shade Tree
5:51 PM Cedric Myton - Not Counterfeit
5:54 PM Maxi Priest - Should I
5:58 PM The Wailers - Forever Loving Jah
6:03 PM Burning Spear - Jay Kingdom
6:06 PM Carlene Davis - Ism Schism
6:10 PM Alton Ellis - Girl You Can’t Be My Wife
6:13 PM Tarrus Riley - Guess Who
6:16 PM Roots And Tings - Dangerous
6:19 PM Stephen Marley - Hey Baby
6:24 PM Baba Ras - Real Vegetarian
6:29 PM Aleighcia Scott - Oh Mama
6:32 PM Dennis Brown - Run Too Tough
6:36 PM Damian Marley - My Sweet Lord
6:39 PM T.Natty - Spread Love
6:42 PM Jaqee - Take a Stand
6:46 PM Joseph Benaiah - We Nah Give Up
6:51 PM Anthony B - What Dat
6:54 PM Nature Ellis - Woman
#kpooradio#reggae#reggaemusic#sanfrancisco#oakland#bayarea#california#jamaica#america#reggaeville2024#mylifeisreggae#kpoo#kpop#californiaroots#worldareggae
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Watch Only Friends Ep 3 with me
Spoilers Ahead!
P1 3:00 Don't give him hope Ton! Poor Nick babie.
4:18 Punched in the guy with some truth. He's definitely into someone else Nick. Sorry. 😢
6:03 Looks like Ray is another clingy boy.
7:03 The wise snark master Sand!
11:17 That's right Nick. Use him to get what you need done too.
13:21 Oh they're pretty cute at the silent disco. Too bad I'm not rooting for them. 🥺
P2 2:47 Oh everyone knows Ton. 😏
3:56 Ray is always drunk. I know this but damn.😐
6:14 Love Sand and Ray!
6:59 You're not fooling anyone Ray. Of course you want Sand as your boyfriend. If you don't, you should. No one takes better care of you than he does.
8:35 Oh no! Here comes Top the guy in the photo you're obsessing over Nick. 😐 Someone is getting hurt tonight.
P3 0:51 Ooh, now you're getting personal Nick.
1:52 Look at Ton being sweet. I wish he would stop giving Nick hope. 😕
2:40 I love how antagonistic they are too each other. Flirting through teasing is one of my love languages.
4:07 I love how done Ray is with the two of them being lovey dovey.
P4 5:45 Rude! Don't answer the phone when you're all hot and bothered Ray!
9:24 So Top cheats first. Unless Mew already has? I do not trust that guy. Glad to see the bubble burst on the whole Mew is innocent. What else is he lying about?
This show is wildly entertaining and feels very real.
#bl drama#thai bl#thai bl series#asianlgbtqdramas#only friends series#only friends the series#topmew#sand x ray#sandray#bostonnick#firstkhao#forcebook#neomark
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100 of my favorite non hip hop releases from 2022. I made a seperate list for hip hop already which you can find here if you’re interested. 2022 will go down as a memorable year for me not just for the sheer quantity of great releases, but also because i feel that all my of my favorite genres had a chance to shine. I started returning to my hardcore/punk/metal roots within the last couple years and 2022 was the first time in recent memory where I really felt like I was fully tapped in. There were so many highly anticipated releases from a ton of different artists last year, and the majority lived up to the hype for me. Grindcore, Mathcore, and Post-Hardcore seems to have been making a huge comeback with some incredible new efforts from modern genre staples like Wormrot, Callous Daoboys, Brutus, Greyhaven, Birds in row, Knoll, and Cloud Rat. Not to mention the much welcome return of some legendary acts including Gospel, Sawtooth Grin, and City of Caterpillar. I’m sure there’s plenty of stuff I missed out on too, so feel free to hit me with any recommendations you might have or just let me know what projects you enjoyed the most last year. Oh and you can also click the titles of any of these albums and it’ll take you to the bandcamp or spotify page where you can check them out if you’d like. Peace.
Chart with album titles
1. Wormrot - Hiss
2. Alvvays - Blue Rev
3. Brutus - Unison Life
4. Cloud Rat - Threshold
5. Weyes Blood - And In The Darkness, Hearts Aglow
6. Gospel - The Loser
7. Natalia Lafourcade - De todas las flores
8. Massa Nera - Derramar | Querer | Borrar
9. Messa - Close
10. Soul Glo - Diaspora Problems
11. King Gizzard & The Lizard Wizard - Omnium Gatherum
12. Cult of Luna - The Long Road North
13. tricot - Fudeki
14. White Ward - False Light
15. The Callous Daoboys - Celebrity Therapist
16. The Sawtooth Grin - Good.
17. Ultha - All That Has Never Been True
18. Joel Ross - The Parable Of The Poet
19. Autonoesis - Moon of Foul Magics
20. Knoll - Metempiric
21. Joyce Moreno - Natureza
22. Birds in Row - Gris Klein
23. Artificial Brain - Artificial Brain
24. Wake - Thought Form Descent
25. Tómarúm - Ash In Realms Of Stone Icons
26. Greyhaven - This Bright and Beautiful World
27. Sudan Archives - Natural Brown Prom Queen
28. Nilüfer Yanya - PAINLESS
29. Mary Halvorson - Amaryllis
30. Celeste - Assassine(s)
31. Naked Flames - Miracle in Transit
32. Elephant Gym - Dreams
33. Cave In - Heavy Pendulum
34. Silvana Estrada - Marchita
35. Tomas Fujiwara's Triple Double - March
36. Imperial Triumphant - Spirit Of Ecstasy
37. Blind Girls - The Weight of Everything
38. Chat Pile - God's Country
39. fleshwater - We're Not Here to Be Loved
40. Fievel Is Glauque - Flaming Swords
41. Melody's Echo Chamber - Emotional Eternal
42. NEPTUNIAN MAXIMALISM - Set Chaos To The Heart Of The Moon
43. King Gizzard & The Lizard Wizard - Ice, Death, Planets, Lungs, Mushrooms and Lava
44. An Abstract Illusion - Woe
45. Sigh - SHIKI
46. City of Caterpillar - Mystic Sisters
47. Big Thief - Dragon New Warm Mountain I Believe In You
48. Conjurer - Páthos
49. Kali Malone - Living Torch
50. Krallice - Crystalline Exhaustion
51. Aeviterne - The Ailing Facade
52. Scarcity - Aveilut
53. The Comet Is Coming - Hyper-Dimensional Expansion Beam
54. Makaya McCraven - In These Times
55. Misþyrming - Með hamri
56. Loraine James - Building Something Beautiful For Me
57. Knxwledge. - 家.V1
58. Hylda - Juniper Pyre
59. Gillian Carter - Salvation Through Misery
60. Beach House - Once Twice Melody
61. Angles - A Muted Reality
62. Hatchie - Giving The World Away
63. Daniel Rossen - You Belong There
64. Pyrithe - Monuments to Impermanence
65. Otoboke beaver - SUPER CHAMPON
66. The Orielles - Tableau
67. Sunrise Patriot Motion - Black Fellflower Stream
68. Blut aus Nord - Disharmonium - Undreamable Abysses
69. Helpless - Caged In Gold
70. Immanuel Wilkins - The 7th Hand
71. Mizmor & Thou - Myopia
72. The Wind in the Trees - Architects of Light
73. Daniel Avery - Ultra Truth
74. Rolo Tomassi - Where Myth Becomes Memory
75. Show Me The Body - Trouble The Water
76. Sault - 11
77. Bríi - Corpos Transparentes
78. Sweet Pill - Where the Heart Is
79. Vein.FM - This World is Going to Ruin You
80. Ravyn Lenae - Hypnos
81. Disheveled Cuss - Into the Couch
82. Aoife Nessa Frances - Protector
83. Niechęć - Unsubscribe
84. Elder - Innate Passage
85. Raum - Daughter
86. Viagra Boys - Cave World
87. Chalk Hands - Don't Think About Death
88. Boris - fade
89. Nouns - WHILE OF UNSOUND MIND
90. ANNA SAGE - Anna Sage
91. Nu Genea - Bar Mediterraneo
92. JYOCHO - Let's Promise to Be Happy
93. Black Country, New Road - Ants From Up There
94. Waajeed - Memoirs of Hi-Tech Jazz
95. Petrol Girls - Baby
96. DIM - Steeped Sky, Stained Light
97. lilien rosarian - every flower in my garden
98. Work Money Death - Thought, Action, Reaction, Interaction
99. A.A. Williams - As The Moon Rests
100. Vital Spirit - Still as the Night, Cold as the Wind
#music recommendations#aoty 2022#alvvays#brutus#wormrot#cloud rat#weyes blood#messa#massa nera#natalia lafourcade#king gizzard#tricot#soul glo
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If I can ask, what do you think about Dana and Denise Harlow from RH 51-52?
oh i love them and i loved rh 51-52 in general! it's probably the only part of the series that i truly enjoyed, and i can't wait for martinbrough to come back – i really hope for some development of both these characters and jason too.
i'm a huge proponent of the belief that the only way to tell a meaningful story about jason atp is to end his period of narrative banishment from gotham and let him go back to his roots. so jay going back to the east end and the introduction of characters that are so tightly connected to it – and to his past! is the best course of action i could imagine.
also, you might have noticed that i talk a lot about jason's isolation and nearly complete dependence on bruce in his robin days, and the picture that rh 51-52 paints fits this reading quite neatly. it seems that jay has not had many opportunities to catch up with friends from the neighborhood as a civilian ever since he left it. which leads to another point, namely, that the new (old) location and the very specific institution of the neighbourhood watch now puts him in a position where he has to confront what vigilantism means in general – and the two issues were already a great set up for it!
in a way, the tension between dana and denise mirrors jason's internal conflicts too. for example, the fact that jason intuitively agrees with denise about dangers of vigilantism? the way he becomes the voice of reason when addressing misdeeds that he has committed himself before? it's brilliant.
moving aside from what they mean as background characters in jason's storyline specifically, any civilian (though it is arguable if dana can be counted as a civilian i guess) characters are dear to me and they seem to be dear to martinbrough too. they breathe true life into his depiction of gotham and the hill specifically, and while they were introduced with pretty one-dimensional sentiments, at least for now, there's soo much potential. i hope they're back soon.
#listen. asks about specific books are my absolute favourite <3 so thank you for asking!#i have both dana and denise present in some of my wips btw.#if you read semantics then it might be of your interest that they appear in the series#outbox#dc#jay.zip#jay.txt
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5,44 and 51?
Ahh these are fun ones! :)
5. When did you get into TK?
I'll just tell the full story of how I discovered them haha! So basically in like late 2016/early 2017 I rediscovered some old karaoke videogames for the Playstation that I used to be obsessed with as a kid, and they had some Killers songs on them (Human, Somebody Told Me, WYWY and Mr Brightside). I saw them and was like, 'oh, I remember these songs from my childhood, I've not heard them for ages'. So every time I would play those games I would choose to sing those Killers songs. The music videos were on the games too, and while I was singing I would watch them and find myself thinking, 'Hmm, Brandon Flowers is kind of cute', lol. But at that time for some reason, I thought that The Killers didn't make music anymore, so I thought there wouldn't really be a fandom for me to join (I was very wrong lol).
Then in June 2017, when The Killers did their secret set at Glastonbury, I was watching the festival on TV like I do traditionally every year. I sat down on the sofa to watch whatever band was on, and it was an interview with Brandon Flowers. And I still vividly remember seeing him on the TV and thinking he was the most beautiful man I'd ever seen in my life haha. I was like, 'Omg, who IS this?' And then the interviewer said he was Brandon Flowers from The Killers and I was like, " Wow, the guy I was obsessed with from those music videos is still making music and he looks even better now?" :o
Then after that, I slowly joined the fandom. It took me until like November to join the Killers fandom fully, because at that point in my life I'd just left some toxic fandoms and was having a break from the internet and social media in general. But then in November 2017 I saw another performance The Killers did on TV, and I was just like, 'no, I want to be involved with this, I love this band'. And then that was when I fully fell down the rabbit hole of falling in love with them. The first full album I listened to was Battle Born, and I have a vivid memory of listening to that album for the first time too. I remember hearing songs like Flesh and Bone, Runaways and Miss Atomic Bomb, thinking, 'Wow, I didn't know music could make you feel like this'. Then I listened to their entire discography and Brandon's solo music, I watched every video and interview on the internet, and I became obsessed with learning every fact I could about them. I went to my first ever Killers concert in July 2018 on the Wonderful Wonderful tour and it was genuinely life-changing.
I've been in this fandom for six years now, and The Killers are such a big part of who I am and my life. They've got me through so much and I'll forever be grateful that I found them when I did. <3
44. Do you ever want TK to collab with anyone?
I would love a Taylor Swift and Killers collab. Taylor and Brandon have so much in common and are very similar artists (country singer roots, having distinctive 'eras' in their career, lyrical themes of being from a small town/struggles with religion/not fitting in, etc.) Taylor and Brandon's voices would sound great together, and if they wrote a song together it would be genius. The only reason why I might not be sure about a Taylor and Killers collab is that Taylor is a huge artist, and some Swifties online can be really unkind sometimes towards artists she works with. Brandon is quite sensitive and I know he would take the comments to heart if people were mean to him, so I don't know. :/
Also, you know I would love a Killers/Hurts collab <3 They often work with the same producers so it could happen... Or just Brandon and Theo writing a song together. That would actually end me lol.
51. Favorite lyrics?
My favourite Killers lyric of all time is, "Should I just get along with myself? I never did get along with everybody else." from my favourite song of all time, This River Is Wild. This lyric literally speaks to my soul, I relate to it on a spiritual level and it means so much to me. <3
I literally have so many favourite lyrics, everything Brandon writes is my favourite really, but here are a few more:
"And if they drag you through the mud, it doesn't change what's in your blood." (From Be Still, this entire song is some of my favourite lyrics though)
"Sometimes it takes a little bit of courage and doubt, to push your boundaries out beyond your imagining." (From Imploding The Mirage, the title track)
"These streets weren't meant to house jet-fueled engine dreams." (From Boy)
Literally the ENTIRETY of the album Pressure Machine, because every lyric on that album is poetry and means the world to me. <3
#this was kind of long haha...but i love answering questions like this#i love talking about how i discovered bands and hearing other people's stories about that too#the killers#brandon flowers#ask
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PiB 2 rambles compilation post
hi apparently ctrl+enter sends a post, whoopsies. attempt 2.
*kicks down the door* I JUST WATCHED PUSS IN BOOTS 2. & how can I return to my furry roots without returning to my tumblr roots.
! Spoilers ahoy !
OKAY SO: I SMILED LIKE SUCH A MANIAC DURING THE WHOLE WOLF INTRODUCTION WHICH IS PROBABLY NOT THE INTENDED EMOTION BUT IT WAS SO HYPE!! I WAS GRINNING BC IT WAS SO COOL!! I'M NOT WEIRD!! BE ON THE VERGE OF DEATH LESS COOLER IF YOU DON’T WANT ME TO BE HYPED. [I did calm down when he got seriously afraid though, dw i’m not that crazy]
Obviously i knew Kitty was gonna be in it but I was like HOW. WHEN. WHERE ARE YOU. and it was such a smooth and "of course!! of course she'S IN THE BOX" way to show up! I just saw the eyes and was like “:D!!!!”
(Also does anyone else remember when DW said Kitty wouldn’t be in a sequel and the whole fandom was like “well then idc” DHSAJS)
ALSO MARRIAGE??! furry marriage is such a funny concept like. what are you gonna do- wear a flowy dress- apparently yes according to the dialog at least. IT'S JUST FUNNY MAN
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Fun German Dub Things:
“savage” from one of the two sisters in response to the unicorn horns was translated to “Geiler Scheiß” which literally means “hot/sexy/awesome shit” but I JUST DON’T EXPECT TO HEAR “GEIL” IN CASUAL ANIMATED MOVIES Y’KNOW- then again I think it was also said in Strange World??
“that’s a dog in a cat costume” - “oh yeahhh- you tricky little shitter/fucker”
Me: spits
“dogpiles don’t work on cats” -> “what are you doing? sleeping off a hangover” (hangover and puss are the same word in german) The fact that they not only adapted but it also works so well because he takes a sip at the end of that line is so!!!! GOOD JOB
All the "P" signatures were changed to "K" even in the animation?? I can’t prove this but once german ver is on something I’ll def compare the animations!! so much international effort holy shit... I was like "K??? for what does that stand?? KILL???" and then I was like "Kater??? [Puss] NO WAY WHAT"
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there were a lot of cool transition cuts but one that stood out to me was after the scene with the lives singing and his silhouette shifted to two cliffs or something of the like-
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Obviously the wolf is extremely cool and all his scenes slay so hard, but I also like how they played up whether he was real or not. I was tending to yes bc where he grabbed Puss on his coat there was actually a tear and I just thought it'd be hard to make a fight climax if he wasn't real, but I still like how they played that up BUT GOD THANK YOU I'm a little tired of things not being real (CoUGH IDV COUFH)
friend: Also have a close look at 4:51 [crowd shot of the extended preview]
me: HOLY SHIT
HOWEVER, WHEN HE STARTED BEING LIKE "I was always there" i just sat there like. no. no you're not going to make me remember the STUPID EGG FROM THE FIRST MOVIE I WAS SO SCARED THEY'D GO INTO ANOTHER GOOFY MONTAGE!!
I do think it's cool they kinda... made a parallel in that but I DIDNT WANT TO REMEMBER!! BEGONE
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very fun movie. most fun cinema experience I've had for a while. I'm really glad I went to see it in cinema bc the heartbeat sound in surround sound was def grasping and like. obviously the bass and everything!
Also kinda got kicked by like... nostalgia too?
I don’t really think of PiB as often as fondly as I do of KFP so it really surprised me that I got that happy to see them again. It definitely helps that the movie genuinely slayed.
it's what I want to feel for KFP but !! UGH THE CRINGE sahjads
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I really enjoyed it, it definitely deserves all the hype it’s getting. go dreamworks!!
I will watch bad guys soon i promise i’ve been meaning to but A
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vro0m’s rewatch - 80/298
2011 British GP
Round 9 then? Lewis said last race they would struggle here too if I remember correctly.
(Also, jetskis ??!)
Prince Harry is in the Redbull garage today.
Quali report. It's all about downforce, created by using the car exhaust gaz (?) the FIA wanted to ban the practice but the teams wanted to keep it and there was a lengthy discussion about it. If I understand correctly it was restricted for the weekend anyway. It was raining. Alonso went in the gravel but didn't crash and got third place on the grid. McLaren did indeed struggle as Lewis had predicted. They were relying on the exhaust thing to make up for their inherent lack of downforce he was already complaining about in valencia. Lewis is 10th and Jenson is 5th. That's bad. Lewis is fatalist about it : there's probably a couple people in front of him he's faster than but overtaking is really hard so he's just stating it's another bad weekend. Di resta is 6th. Redbull said they would be disadvantaged by the rules change but Webber is on pole and Seb is second.
Anyway it's still raining it seems.
Lewis and Jenson went to meet jet ski world champion Jim Goodchild in London for a challenge : beat his time on a course in the docks (41 seconds). David Coulthard is also here. Lewis complains that it normally takes him a long time just to get in a swimming pool lol. David dives just beside him to spray him and he howls as the water is going down his back inside the diving suit lol. It's Lewis' turn as Jenson joins them.
Lewis is having the time of his life while Brundle and Coulthard watch shaking their heads. "We have no chance." 45.9 seconds.
Coulthard is next. Lewis gets a revenge on him by throwing him to the water as he did to him earlier. 51 seconds and he fell from the jetski. And Lewis throws Brundle in.
Martin gets 42.7 but he cheated. Lewis goes for another round, also cheating, and gets 41.7. Now it's Jenson, but he falls and gets hurt. He tries to play it off but everybody is worried about him, poor guy.
It's starting to rain slightly and most drivers went out to the grid on inters. Harry says he's rooting for Jenson and Lewis even though it's gonna be difficult for them today. He's there with soldiers from a charity or whatever everybody is rooting for Lewis and hoping for rain to help McLaren. Jenson says half the circuit is on inters and half the circuit is on extreme wets so it's a tough call for the start. Sir Patrick Stewart is here, he's rooting for force India this year though he also likes Jenson. He's excited about the rain. Perez already went on the grass and hit a barrier on his way to the grid and will have to start from the pitlane.
Oh my god it's Daniel Ricciardo's first race !
Formation lap.
And they're racing!
Jenson up in 4th, Seb overtook Webber, loads of spray, Lewis up in 7th! And now he overtakes Di Resta for 6th. And he overtakes Jenson now! Crazy! Weren't they supposed to struggle??? Kovalainen retires. Oh he's gone wide but he keeps his position.
10 something laps in the pit stops for dry tyres begin. Jenson is in. Lewis’ tyres are done, he'll have to stop : he overtook Massa but couldn't turn and lost the position. Massa had no grip but he had to stay out because Alonso was in. Seb pits from the lead. Lewis is ahead of Massa. It’s messy, I don't know what the standings are anymore. Jenson gets fastest lap. Investigation for unsafe release for Sauber. Alright let's see. Seb is leading, still ahead of Webber, Alonso, and Lewis, who's ahead of Massa. Jenson is sixth. But not for long as he attacks Massa, while Lewis attacks Alonso just ahead. Here you go, Jenson is through. Schumacher gets a 10 seconds stop and go penalty for a collision. And Lewis gets alonso! Gooooo boys!
10 laps later it's Alonso attacking Lewis though. He's struggling. Yep. Alonso takes the position. Lewis goes in for the soft tyres. Oh god then Seb and Alonso stop but Redbull fuck up and Alonso is ahead! As well as Lewis! But Seb gains on Lewis so fast damn.
But Seb pits because he can't overtake Lewis. And Lewis follows. Seb has to make an amazing out lap now. And yeah. He's ahead now. Webber pits from second. Alonso pits from the lead. Jenson pits. Everybody pits. Oh no! Jenson slows down and stops right at the exit of the pitlane, there's been a problem. Oh! The front right wasn't bolted in! Ahhh.
Lewis is third, then, not far from Seb but also Webber is not far behind. Yeah Webber overtakes him with the DRS. Shame.
Last couple of laps and Webber and Seb are racing each other now. It’s tense! Massa is racing Lewis for 4th too. Aaaaaaaaaaaaah. What's it gonna be?! Team orders! Horner tells Webber they need to maintain the gap. Alonso wins, Seb second, Webber third but it's not over because massa is through but Lewis makes contact with him they're wheel to wheel in the last corner Massa goes wide and Lewis keeps the fourth place but this is definitely going to be controversial! We're gonna need a replay. In any case,
it's the end of the race!
Yaaah we see the replay and its shady af.
Lewis says "it was as close as it was gonna get" (but he does this thing where he scratches behind his ear when he's uncomfortable so he definitely knows it was a bit too close)
but first of all the team did a great job with the pit stops. Of course he talks about the support they have here in Silverstone and how massively thankful he is for that.
He had a good start, made some places up, unfortunately at the end he had to save fuel massively so he had to give position to Mark and then he was told he could push but that was too late but he wouldn't let Massa past. He says it's a bit frustrating yeah he also asked for more info at some point and it's a fine line to walk but he did the best job he could and he says thank you for the support again. For that last fight he was struggling massively the brakes temperature had dropped because he’d lifted up to save fuel so he had basically no brakes which is why he kept locking up in the corners. He tried to keep himself on the inside and Massa closed the door earlier than he could turn so they came together (that's actually coherent with the images). He says "I hope I was ahead, I think I was, wasn't I? (he looks at the McLaren PR with him) thank god".
Lee says hopefully he and Massa won't be visiting the stewards later. He jokes he has a platinum card for the stewards so he expects to be going.
Lee says "you can probably use the lounge now" Lewis says yeah and he's actually gonna go there straight from the media pen and wait there instead of going back to McLaren and then being called in. Ahshsgwhw. He's in a good mood though and smiling a lot.
Let's see if he was called in or not then. Well first off McLaren got a 5000€ fine for releasing Jenson while his front right wheel wasn't bolted in. Sauber got a 20'000€ fine for releasing Kobayashi while Maldonado was in the pitlane : Maldonado teared off some of Force India's stuff off the garage by avoiding him. It doesn't seem anything came out of the Lewis-Felipe incident though.
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#5
Why am I noticing right now that Ram also takes parts of the spiked whip in his hand.... so Bheem is not the only one bleeding
......kill me why don't you
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#4
third time watching hill house and i just noticed some things:
luke's "treehouse" wall has the number plates of all the important cars: the plate of the funeral home van that brings back nell's body, nell's car in la and steve's car and so on
the Tall Man came into Luke and Nell's room because he was "checking up on his kids after they fell asleep" and then he found the hat
the names of the actors show up in the start credits only when their respective statue shows up. like, carla, victoria and everyone has a specific statue when their name appears and that statue is linked to their characters
the Tall Man and Poppy Hill had met in a mental institution and Luke and Joey met in a rehab
When mom was sad, she made the sky hail, and what if one of the siblings had made it rain the day that lady's husband died in the ravine?
steve protests in the two storms episode that "why do i need protection from the truth" while he represents Denial that is technically a mechanism of protection from the truth
Nell sees Vance at the bottom of the staircase before she dies, just like Hugh sees Liv wake up from the dead as a ghost and walk away thinking it's all a dream. the bottom of the staircase, after all the spirals of life, might be where your loved ones stand, waiting for you
I'm—
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What I loved about this moment was not just Ace literally risking his life because he trusted Nancy and wanted to eventually bring justice...
But that Nancy stayed rooted to her place while everyone else jumped in various degrees of shock.
Like, "Oh shit this adorable himbo that I thought was tagging along with me... He actually trusts me? AND HE WOULD HAVE DIED IF THAT WAS POISON!"
Her widened eyes say it all.
Beyond horrified at what Ace did, she's also spellbound by his trust. She felt responsible for him in a new way. That guy would be stupid enough to run into a dilapidated poisoner-housing building to be with her. That guy would be stupid enough to drink poison because they might share the same drive for justice and facts.
For me, that's when Nancy actually knew she could trust him too.
Of course Maybe she liked him before that but this is when she knew.
SHE KNEW.
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My #1 post of 2022
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