no amount of criticism could ever make me hate the kenobi series. seeing obi-wan be so broken down and defeated felt so real. he was this incredible jedi, a warrior. he was such a believer in the jedi code and the order was entire life. to watch him become a hermit, to hesitate to help people in need, to be afraid, broke my heart.
i bet he never thought there'd be a day when his saber felt unfamiliar in his hands. a day when his body didn't carry him through a fight like a dance. a day when connecting with the force didn't come to him as easy as breathing.
the way he looked so shattered when vader's mask cracked and he caught a glimpse of anakin. what was left of anakin. what was left of anakin after what obi-wan had done to him.
i just love the stark difference between obi-wan kenobi and ben. I love how his depression and ptsd was handled. I love love love the kenobi series so much.
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Counseling AU Anakin hacking Obi-Wan's records (again) and learning that the chest pains are from loneliness/sadness and losing what remains of his sanity. Obi-Wan wakes up and their apartment contains half the creche, Ahoska, 3 new pets, the Council, and - in the noblest sacrifice of all - Bail and Quinlan.
Obi-Wan, blustering when anakin confronts him about being diagnosed with “lonely” and “inappropriate attachment to former padawan” by healers: you hacked into my medical records again????
Anakin, unapologetic and boundary-less: our records ❤️
Couples counselor: ok so. so much to unpack here. thanks for bringing this up five minutes before the session ends.
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ok but listen. i know hes too stubborn and independent as a knight but im a SUCKER for 19 yr. old padawan anakin who’s entirely devoted to his master. obiwan who can do no wrong, he wants to level mountains for this man, he’ll follow his every order sloppily but he’ll do it with enthusiasm. i just love enthusiastic obsessed anakin and strict but doting obiwan. LIKE in so many ways, he’s practicing his forms in a class and obiwan publicly keeps reprimanding him, keeps correcting and is strict on him and when anakin gets frustrated and says his master is biased and only hard on him, obiwan says its because he’s the only one in the room worth paying any attention to. obiwan giving anakin strict orders on how to take him, and anakin is so good at following them until his master edges him for so long that he completely snaps and takes him hard and fast and sloppy and obiwan WANTS to be mad but he just cant be. anakin apologizes profusely after but obiwan is too sore to move.
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I’ve always been curious about Obikin, because it never felt right to me, but it isn’t exactly a pro-ship? I can never really tell. On one hand there’s the “you were my brother Anakin” on the other theres the headcanons. I just wanna know what the appeal is from someone who ships them. /gen
i’m not the best person to answer this bc i really don’t care at all if a ship is problematic or proshipper or whatever lol, i mean the first thing i did after watching the kenobi show was to look out for art and fics of vader nonconning obi-wan 🤪 and even if anakin and obiwan were siblings (which they aren’t let’s be real) i’m all for the dead dove ngl!! also it’s fiction… have a little more fun cuz this shouldn’t be that different than playing with our barbies when we were 4 and making them kill each other or have orgies together lol
but to answer your question, first i found their cat-and-mouse dynamic in kenobi really hot. vader obsessing diligently on his old master who he claims he doesn’t care about anymore was crazy. however, i think obikin is a beautifully complicated relationship. it’s canon that both anakin and obi-wan’s entire relationship is built on duality: master and apprentice, dark and light, love and hate, two halves of the same coin. this is some soulmatism shit that i fuck with and i was never into the whole soulmates tbh. i also think obi-wan is a heavily repressed man in terms of love and attachments and following the code to the core, and ofc struggles with his love for anakin: he cannot control him in any way for the force against humanity that anakin is (he’s such a momboy) plus he had the chance to kill him a couple of times and yet he couldn’t bring himself to do it and finally free him from the misery of being darth vader, bc of his love for him. he even spent his life in exile and probably didn’t kill himself just for the sake of anakin’s children. it’s not a coincidence that he decided to finally die and join the force when luke and leia were reunited and he guaranteed their safety
and then you have anakin who is anything but someone who subdues his feelings: he thrives for love, love is was fuels him and the reason he Fell on the first place, he pushes and pushes like the way he did to get padme to love him. i simply love how their own approach to love complements each other so well and i cannot get enough of it, bc at the end of the day they are both each other’s most important person. like look at this extract of this novel where anakin finally joins the force after ROTJ and how obi-wan has his own whole sentence from the other ones (even from padme!!!! or shmi!!!!)
idk man i just love them so much
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(Force ghost Obi-Wan visits Anakin at the moment of his death)
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Vader is slipping away, fading into the ether. Obi-Wan can feel the end of it in the Force. And yet even as he watches, Obi-Wan rages against it. He cannot let him.
Obi-Wan had come to terms with Vader and his past a long time ago. He had accepted his part in it and let go. He was a Jedi, and he had forged ahead and put his faith in the boy. In Luke. But he had never expected this. Vader–Anakin–to come back. Not after so long. It was less that he'd lost faith in Anakin, and more that it was necessary for him to be able to move on. How cruel the Force was then, to give Anakin back only to take him away again.
Obi-Wan cannot let him.
As his last words leave his mouth, taking with it his last breath, Obi-Wan rushes to his side. It would take a miracle. He, Yoda, and Qui-Gon, had all had to receive extensive training to maintain their consciousness after death. He had but mere minutes. But Anakin was the Force's son was he not? He was the Chosen One. And oh he'd believed it was Luke. And it was in a way. But also Anakin. Always Anakin. So if anyone could do the impossible, it was him.
"Obi-Wan?" Anakin's eyes widen. He has no mouth to speak anymore, caught in death's grip. Yet still his voice rings true. "Master I'm sorry! I'm so sorry I–"
"Hush now and listen carefully. We don't have much time."
Indeed, even now he could feel the way Anakin was merging back into the Force. Gone forever. Just like when he'd fallen to the Dark. Except now it was worse. Because now Obi-Wan would truly never see him again. He has no heart nor any body yet it aches. No please, he begs silently. One last time. One last miracle.
"You're in the netherworld of the Force. But I can teach you how to revisit corporeal space and retain your consciousness. A path to immortality."
"But…why…?"
Confusion and remorse burst through. Luke hugs his dead father's body to his chest.
"Never mind that! Do you wish this path, Anakin?" He cannot keep the desperation from his voice.
Anakin looks up at him. "Yes."
Obi-Wan has no breath but he feels his chest heave anyway. "Right, let us begin quickly…"
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Yoda and Qui-Gon had manifested beside them as Anakin grew stronger and more grounded in the Force. Their voices helped steer him away from the wave which would have swept him away.
After all is said and done Anakin stands before him. Anakin, as he was. As he used to be. Obi-Wan almost cannot believe it even with the proof in front of him.
"Masters." Anakin looks around him, overwhelmed and teary eyed.
"Anakin." Qui-Gon smiles proudly. He moves to hug him. "I was watching you always. You did it. I knew you could."
Ankain squeezes back.
Yoda nods at him, a smile on his old face. Obi-Wan yearns to hold him too, but he hesitates. Unsure how to anymore or if it is even welcome. It's been so long. And there is so much to say. He's sorry he gave up on him. He's sorry he didn't try harder. He's sorry for causing him so much pain.
There is no shielding in the cosmic force. It is all open and bare. Anakin feels all of it. He is frozen in place. In turn Obi-Wan can feel Anakin’s own remorse. His guilt burns alongside everything else. But above all his soul aches for Obi-Wan's just as well.
Oh. Oh Obi-Wan wishes he could hide himself away like before. Put up a wall and meditate this away. This is too raw. Too open. He is gutted and speared and on display.
But so is Anakin.
"Obi-Wan."
They fall into each other. Their souls intertwining finally. There is love. Love. He is made of it. He radiates it. He'll never let this go again. Not ever.
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The party lasts far into the night. Luke gives them a smile and turns away to rejoin his friends. Anakin smiles proudly at him. Yoda has already returned to the Force. Only he and Anakin remain to watch the festivities a little longer.
Obi-Wan turns to observe him. Anakin is as radiant as he'd been at 23. Curly hair, his Jedi robes in place. He looks exactly as he had been. Obi-Wan feels so old standing next to him. His eternal boy. It didn't seem fair, but Obi-Wan wouldn't have it any other way.
Anakin shifts to peer down at him as if taking him in for the first time. His eyes wander his face and wrinkles.
"What?"
Anakin reaches up to drag a hand through his white hair. Obi-Wan bristles at the touch, leaning in without meaning to. His soul has always reached back for Anakin.
"Nothing. Just looking at you I guess."
His ephemeral form makes a valiant effort at blushing. Then Anakin opens his mouth and completely obliterates any chance he had at saving face.
"Can ghosts have sex?"
They were both of and in the Force. Anakin was him and he was Anakin. It was the closest they'd ever been and ever would be. But instead of saying any of that Obi-Wan touches his beard and strokes the memory of bristles.
"Can't say I've ever tried."
Anakin grins.
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