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The Push and Pull

Catra x Reader Oneshot

Tw: Slightly heated arguing, swearing, kiss, make out scene, abandonment issues, softer Catra so debatable ooc but ya know how it be, self doubt from reader and Catra, comfort and reverse comfort, first sudden kiss, second with consent.

I huffed as I harshly closed the door behind Catra and I, "Alright, what the fuck?" I hissed at her, "What's with the attitude today?"

"I told you, I'm fine, now leave." She replied coldly. I suppose her nonchalant response should've calmed me, but it didn't, it just made me more upset.

"No!" I declared with a stomp of my foot like a child. "I'm not leaving until you give me a good reason why you've been so cold all day!'

I threw my hand out in frustration, "I mean, yesterday you were all sweet and soft in my bed, and now you're acting like you don't even know me."

"You said you wouldn't tell anyone." She reminded.

"I didn't!" I swore and held my head in my hands. "I don't know..." I trailed off for a moment, "I don't know, I guess maybe I thought it meant something."

Just as it always did for me, my anger desolved into salty tears and broken words. "Did-did it mean something?" I hated how my voice shook, and how unlike Catra and most others in the horde, I was never good at hiding my emotions. They spilled out in waves, especially when about someone I love. "Or...or am I just...am I just a replacement while you wish I was someone else?"

"Who else would I want?"

"Adora..." Despite the fact that I'm sure we were both thinking of her, my assurance in calling out her name seemed to shock Catra as she physically took a step back. "You...want me to be Adora...don't you?"

"Y/n, that's not--"

I couldn't even give her time to finish as the tears and agony poored out on me like a broken faucet. "Well, I'm not! Okay?"

I cried, "I'm not Adora! I'll never be Adora, okay? I'm not Shera! I'm not perfect! I'm not a great soldier or leader, and even though my heart flutters every time you say it-" through teary eyes, I looked up at her, "I'm not a princess..."

"I'm just me!" I finished. "I'm weird, okay? I'm messy, I'm too loud, and I feel too much, and I care too much, I'm too much and I get it! But I love you so fucking much Catra-!“

I shook my head and wiped my eyes before holding myself tightly in my arms. "-but you're so focused on Adora you can't even see that. That I would do anything for you, hell I would shake mountains for you..."

I bit my lip harshly, the words feeling like downing alcohol, "but...I won't be your second choice, Catra. I won't be your replacement because you can't have her."

I looked up at her once more, a challenge and determination a flame in my eyes, I knew cause even I could feel it. "So make your choice, Catra. Either you can stay with me, you can let me love you, and...love me back, or you can keep chasing after a women who left you alone. Make your choice, because...I don't wanna keep playing games."

I watched her for a moment as she turned to face her wall and leaned down with her hands on her desk.

I shook my head, and silently began to leave, and it wasn't until she heard the click of the doornob did she finally say, "Scorpia left..."

I turned from the door quickly to face her, "What?"

I noticed her body and voice begin to tremble, "S-she was right..."

I stepped closer with my hand stretched out, "Kitten?"

"...I'm a terrible friend," She went on, "to Adora, to Scorpia..." It was only when she turned her face slightly too look at me did I notice her own tears gliding fast down her sharp face, "...to you."

She bit her lip harshly and it drew a bit of blood which she quickly wiped away. "She didn't even say goodbye..." She growled, "all she left was a stupid letter!"

I didn't know what to do, or what to say. I knew Scorpia was beginning to crack under the weight of Catra's burdens, and while I don't blame her for leaving, I wish she would've told us; I wish she would've told me.

"C-can I see the letter?" I asked her softly.

Though I didn't understand at first, Catra's face went a pinch red and her eyes widened a bit. From her desk drawer she pulled out a clump of shredded paper and handed it to me and brought her free hand to the nape of her neck nervously. "Sorry..."

Should I have been upset? I couldnt tell, but I wasn't, in fact I couldn't help but laugh and look up at her with a smirk, "This is uh...yeah this is confetti."

We shared a soft laugh as I put the shredded pieces back in her drawer, unsure if she wanted to keep it for whatever reason.

For a moment we stood silent, until I whispered just loud enough for her to hear me, "I know you don't really like hugs, but uh...I think I could really use one right now."

While true, I also knew Catra would never admit to needing such comfort, at least not yet, so if anyone asked us: I needed a hug and Catra just happened to be in the hug zone and unable to escape.

She seemed to not know what to do, her arms going up and down aimlessly. I laughed and thought, "you'd never guess this woman was such a dork underneath."

To guide her, I grabbed her arms and wrapped them around my waist, and wrapped mine around her neck. As we found our place, we each pulled the other closer to the point where there was no space in-between our bodies.

I sighed, a few soft tears running down my face. "I know it's scary," I assured her, "losing people, but sadly that's just a part of life."

I gently played her long brown locks between my fingers, "People grow apart, people break each other's hearts, but that's the only way we learn to move on..." I couldn't tell you what possessed me to do such a thing, but I gently kissed the flesh just below her ears, "...you can't keep holding on so tight, if you do you'll just hurt everyone involved including yourself, you have to let go..."

I pulled away slightly enough to look her in her beautiful multicolored eyes and whisper once more, "You have to let go..."

For the first time in a very long time, I saw Catra's eyes soften, and her take a deep relaxing breath. Her tense shoulders eased, the crease in between her knitted brows let up, and her grimace softened to a small pout. She looked so cute, so adorable, so beautiful when she allowed herself softness, I wished I could give her more.

She lightly shook her head, "I...will never understand you, will I?"

I giggled childishly, "Nope!"

She laughed and then brought her clawed hand to the soft skin of my cheek, but believe it or not, I never once felt afraid.

Catra was rough surely, but when she wanted to be gentle she was the softest, kindest person I've ever known.

I sighed and nuzzled into her hand and closed my eyes.

It was quick, almost so quick it could've easily been mistaken as a hundred other things, but she pulled me in by the nape of my neck and kissed me firm before pulling away.

Both our eyes were wide, Catra brought her hand to her mouth with a deep blush. "Y/n, I'm..." By the look on her face, it was easy to see how nervous she had made herself, as she quickly stumbled through apologies and backslides.

But, I couldn't quite process her words on the cloud which she had set me on. Gently bringing my hand to my lips, touching them gently as though I was afraid of smearing a delicate mark she had left on me.

My face flushed, and I looked up at her with a grateful smile. "That was..." She looked up at me, her eyes still wide and roaming my figure and face as though she was desperately trying to read me, "wow..."

I laughed at my inelegance, as my heart danced in my chest and my stomach fluttered. She seemed to ease a bit, though she still kept her eyes on me.

"I should've...I don't know...asked...not done that-"

"You should've asked," I interrupted what was sure to be a strangely uncharacteristic ramble, "but...I'm very very happy you did that..."

I smiled softly to myself and bit the inside of my lip, "do you...do you maybe want to do it again?"

Her ears and tail perked up at my request, before her ears fell again, and her tail began to wag by the tip. Her brown skin seemed to glow with her blush as she rubbed the side of her neck nervously, "I don't know...I...I shouldn't," her eyes found mine once more once again searching for something in me I wasn't quite sure of, "should I?"

I laughed at her the strange nervousness she exhibited, stepped up to her, and took her hand. It was strange, it seemed we had somehow switched our places. It wasn't common place for me to be taking the lead between us, but I would be lying if I tried to say I didn't enjoy it.

"That's not quite what I asked you, is it Force Captain?" By her hand I pulled her back into me, and inquired with lidded eyes, "What was it that I asked you? Hmm?"

Her breaths seemed slightly heavier as she brought her bottom lip to her tounge, "If I wanted to kiss you?"

Trailing my fingertips up her arms until I brought my arms back around her neck, I teased her with a simple, "Well?"

I knew she did, but this might be the last time I get to see this shy, anticipated, and flustered Catra, and I wanted to enjoy her for as long as I could.

She brought her hands to my waist, and held me tightly in a way that made me think she wanted to go in for a kiss but then hesitated.

I laughed and swayed in her arms, "Catra~? You gotta tell me what you want~"

"Stop being a brat and just kiss me!" She hissed making me laugh even harder though this time she joined me.

I brought my hand to her cheek and gently guided her lips to mine. As I closed my eyes to melt into her I brought my hand back behind her head and let my fingers dance in her burrnet mane.

Not more than a few moments later I began to notice her kisses becoming more open mouthed and her purrs rumbling between our bodies.

I sighed into her, "Damn you for being so good at this-" she smirked into the kiss with a sly chuckle, "-but at least now you know...you know..."

I broke our kiss with a small hiss of disapproval from her, and began to kiss her cheeks, the tip of her nose, and slightly down her jaw, "you just gotta be honest with me, Kitten, no more pushing me away," I returned to her lips with a mischievous giggle and pressed myself against her, "cause I'll just pull you right back."

"You're the worst." she teased and rubbed the tip of her nose to mine.

I hummed, "yeah, but you love me anyways."

She scoffed with a smile and tucked a loose strand of hair behind my ear, "Whatever you say, princess..."

"... whatever you say."

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