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elviehun · 6 months

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yeah yeah 🦇 happy halloween and all but I can't actually FUCKING believe she's already two years old🥹🥹

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE 😭😭😭

#the amazing devil #ruin #tad ruin #tad #joey batey #madeleine hyland #my life my love my safe place #long live the third #and the first and the second ofc🥹#ruiniversary 2

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clowndensation · 1 year

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louis, lestat, and their single bed as a motif louis puts into his own story, but refuses to explore, is literally one of the sexiest parts of the show. it speaks volumes about a level of fulfillment and freedom that louis feels by being with lestat that he rarely explicitly comments on when he's relaying his story to daniel, which feels extremely relevant to his overall reluctance to examine the parts of his relationship with lestat that he really enjoyed.

because louis is a character who's hyper aware of how he presents himself. he's lived his entire life projecting a certain masculine, heteronormative image, and he's aware of how deviating from that presentation has implications that impact how people view him - from enjoying the opera, to the presentation of his nails. the fact that he moves in with lestat and neither of them ever put a second bed into any room in the house as a level of plausible deniability is so huge and oversight by so cautious a character, it can only be read as deliberate - especially when the conspicuous lack of a second bed is pointed out to them by both antoinette and a literal police officer. in an existence where you don't sleep in a bed, the bed becomes a symbolic object more so than a practical one. it's louis choosing to deliberately transgress against the societal expectations he lives out when he leaves his house, a bit of presentation that actually amplifies his truth as a gay man living with his partner, rather than masking or hiding himself, like he does for the outside world.

#literally imagine the satisfaction and euphoria in having one place where you can purposely present yourself as gay #where you can look at your own personal space and go 'it looks like a gay man lives here' and feel safe and accepted in that #i feel similarly about the way lestat touches louis tbh #especially as viewed through claudia's diaries #there's an openness to the way louis and lestat behave around each other that their status (of being rich and being vampires)#grants them that louis hasn't really gotten the chance to explore before #and they still can't be blatant about their queerness obviously #but they get away with significantly more than louis has ever allowed himself in his human life #there is an incredible amount of relief and joy in having a partner who isn't ashamed to touch you #and you can see louis feel that #it's one of my favorite pieces of the narrative threaded through the entire story #rarely commented on but still blatant for how encompassing queer love can be #iwtv

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necromeowncy · 4 months

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#*pokes my head in* hi #I'm taking a hiatus from my main on Twitter #I guess I'm only kinda taking one here? not sure yet #Tumblr has always been a safe and welcoming place for me for the most part so I'm trying to be a little more open here ♡ ;w;#so to anyone reading these tags #I've been going through a very rough patch in terms of fandom/personal life/XIV Twitter/the wolgraha sphere in general #Mainly my perception on social media #but since I started my hiatus from public twitter I've been doing SO much better mentally #been writing and gposing every day and it feels nice to create again #creating for myself and my own very specific tastes feels good so I will keep doing that! :)#so here you go! some bathtime AedRaha #I'm very in love with AedRaha and always will be #thank you for reading these tags if you did <3 sorry if I was a bit vague lol I've had a lot going on lately #wolgraha #wol x g'raha tia #aedric vaillencourt #elezen #gpose #my poses #g'raha tia #AedRaha

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mrs-snape5984 · 3 months

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“You're my guiding light, when there's no guiding light left inside…”

“When comfort and warmth can't be found, I still reach for you.” (“Guiding light” by Muse)

Dealing with ME/CFS in my case means also struggling with social isolation. I’ve never been the type of person with a big circle of friends…and yet I lost some of them due to my new reality in the past 1,5 years.

My inability to answer text messages and phone calls because of my overstimulation - sometimes over weeks or even months - had left me in solitude in my dark room for most of the time.

That’s why I’m overly grateful for the few people - no matter if they’re from my old life or if they’re new online friends 💚 - who are still sticking with me! Thank you for spending some light to make my darkness become brighter on some days!

The one light, I’ve been clinging on for more than 20 years now, is my beloved comfort character Severus Snape. I’ve commissioned the lovely @alinearthp again for another piece of her art, which is soothing my troubled heart and soul so ultra-reliably every time. Thank you for this beautiful drawing, Aline!

And even when my whole world crumbles in front of my eyes, Severus will always be my guiding light.

🖤 Severus & Julia 🖤

#i love severus #severus x oc #fuck me/cfs #mecfs #he’s my safe place #he’s my guiding light #severus snape #i love snape #pro snape #snape love #pro severus snape #snape #i would protect him with my life #snape content #snart #severus fanart #fanart severus snape #sverus snape fandom

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spacedlexi · 10 months

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it honestly frustrates me when i see people reduce the ericsons cast down to "just some teens in the woods" acting like theyre no different than any other group of lone teenagers from other existing properties and treating them like an overused trope

it is sooo important to acknowledge the "troubled youth" aspect of the whole equation. theyre not just some random teens in the woods clem stumbles across. these kids were abandoned by their families for their various "difficulties" and fucked up by The System before the outbreak even began. and then once zombies started roaming the streets their familes never came back for them and the adults that were in charge of taking care of them just left them there to rot in that old boarding school (except for ms martin who was like their lee 🥺 the only person who ever saw them as the scared traumatized kids they were and died protecting them)

the whole aspect of them already being fucked up by the adults that controlled their lives is like.....kind of important when discussing the whole "delta is stealing kids to force them to fight in a war they have no real part in and want nothing to do with" aspect of the season. and its important when comparing them to clem and her journey of also suffering at the hands of the adults around her forcing her to become self reliant. AND its important when discussing the "just trying to build a safe home (and future) worth fighting for in this world that wants them dead" aspect of the season as well

these kids were forced to come together to survive. and a Lot of them didnt... theyre the only family they have left and you can tell that even when they argue with each other theyre still a close knit group who looks out for each other. theyre a Real family before clem even gets there (and its why what really happened with the twins and brody and marlon hits them all so especially hard)

all of this is what REALLY makes ericsons such a perfect home for clem. its a Real community of her True peers. theyre not Just teens. they mightve had a layer of safety clem never had by at least having walls to keep them safe. and having the benefit of the school being hard to find. its the only reason theyre still alive when clem shows up. but theyre also some of the only people who can Truly understand where clem and aj are coming from. and its why it hurts so much when they vote to kick them out. but its also partially why she merges back into the fold so easily when she returns. plus the fact that shes Really the only one who has any idea what shes doing. shes their rock and she makes them feel safe because underneath it all theyre still just those scared traumatized kids ("EVERYONE is scared, clem..." vi was Definitely including herself in that 'everyone'), and on some level, so is clem

they saved clementines life. and she saved theirs. "the school was supposed to help them with their trauma, now they help each other" its about the LOVE the COMMUNITY the SUPPORT!!!! and thats the shit that makes good zombie media honestly 👌

#it speaks #twdg #there i go again writing another essay but i will Always defend the ericson cast theyre one of the strongest out of all 4 seasons #complaints ive seen about s4 typically include mentions of the teens as a trope being overused and im like.......did you even pay attention #the fact they were branded “troubled youth” and basically thrown away by everyone who was supposed to take care of them is SO IMPORTANT #these kids are Fucked Up but theyre Trying to make a kinder world #nobody talk to me i fucking love the ericson cast 😭😭😭 theres not a single one of them i dont like im serious #them using poor pilgrim of sorrow in ep3....ericsons is heaven to clem 😭 all the comments she can make about feeling safe there 😭😭#clem being everyones rock but violet being clems rock back 🥺😭💕 waaaaahhh thats why it was over for me when vi stood up for them in ep 2 #vi having the courage to stand up to her group for aj........... yeah she had me in a vice grip after that. she fought for them so hard #and if it wasnt for her advocating so hard for them to stay they ALL would have been taken or killed #vi cared about clem so much she undoomed them all #and aj loved clem so much he undoomed her :')#s4 is just the perfect ending to clems story truly itll make me happy for the rest of my life im so happy for u clem 🥺#tfw the media you like gets a good ending and the main characters are respected and it feels like it was made from a place of love #instead of being like...actively hostile to its fanbase and destroying its own characters for the Laughs #and when i say “good” i dont necessarily mean “happy” i just mean “competently written"#i wouldnt call it perfect but it survived both a cancellation AND the financial collapse of a major game studio. its perfect to Me #for what it is (and what it originally almost was with the clems house plot) we truly lucked out so fucking hard #truly a return to form of season 1 but with less despair and more hope which i appreciate :')#all the things ive liked over the years that were destroyed for me by bad or weird writing decisions... clutches onto twdg like a lifeboat #god i love s4 so much nothing has ever been More Specifically Written For Me Personally

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glitterghost · 4 months

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Sometimes tumblr feels like your childhood home & all the neighborhood friends you grew up with/made slowly move away without you knowing, with no forwarding address. You miss them, think of them often, but then other people begin moving in. New neighbors to new friends and their joy makes the sting of losing the others just a bit less.

#listen to me i miss so many people i talked to throughout the years here #idk where they are but i wish them well #and i love all the people ive talked to since that have helped continue to create this place into a warm and safe space #i hope this makes sense #ive never forget all those mutuals and people i chatted with #thanks for some of the best moments in my life #those memories are locked in forever

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scftm1ttens · 1 year

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#valorant #valorant neon #evie loves neon #neon is the love of my life #lesbian #lesbian safe place

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elytrafemme · 2 months

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i can't recall if i ever explicitly stated this, but last thing about me (then i have to race to make it to class): one of the major reasons that i stopped being on tumblr within the last few months, and why my tumblr/discord activity is scattered overall, is that as trauma resurfaced i found my real life friends a safe haven to rely on. i am obviously still here for you all but especially after all of this, i am going to be leaning on my folks heavily as i have been to keep me centered.

but again, even though i rarely check discord and tumblr, if any of you all need anything please don't hesitate. i will try to check them more regularly, but i know how immensely triggering these online spaces can be when you're a victim, and the complicated emotions you may be going through. i love you, and i hope you are taking care of yourself, and if you need to talk to someone i am here. you are loved. i love you. i love you so much.

#ineloquent i apologize as i am a little out of it #but i just. i know i am here infrequently but if i never explained why i have stopped talking to you all as much #it's for this reason. but i want to be here for you all in some capacity #so i will try. regardless i love you all and i hope you are doing okay #i think and speak of you fondly with my real life friends and even if the internet is no longer a safe place for my emotionally #i hope that you all know that none of you caused that

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silentplantt · 10 months

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Lose yourself in books, in art, in the haze of new horizons. Lose yourself in curiosity, in knowledge, in passion. Lose yourself in feeling it all, lose yourself in the world, in the stories and the lessons it has to teach you, but never lose yourself in love; never lose yourself in another person. You are your own home-please don't ever forget that.

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deuteragonist1 · 1 month

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I was going through my gallery when I accidentally scrolled almost all the way up and glimpsed a picture I took of one of your books, while I was at your house. It made me realize just how long we've been reunited, even though I can still remember all these years, most of my years, without you, and how well we've used our time together; how it would seem to an outsider looking through my photos that we were never even apart. It pleased me. You've become a fixture in my life again. My world is healing, a little.

#ez #this is for you #and about you #obviously #i love you #it doesn't matter how the time flies or in what direction you go #i need you to know that even at your worst #no matter where you are in life #there's someone out there who loves you and wants you safe and happy #and that you always have a place where you belong #by my side and in my photos and in my heart #happy birthday

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mrs-snape5984 · 3 months

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“I wanna get lost with you…”

“It's the only thing I wanna do. Get out of my mind with you…” (“I wanna get lost with you” by Stereophonics)

Since I’m living my days in the darkness of my room, isolating myself from everything, that could overstimulate my mind and my body (and that’s almost everything at this point of my life with ME/CFS), I’m impatiently waiting for the night to come.

At night, I can step outside to my balcony, embracing the silence and the soothing darkness around me. My life isn’t, what it was meant to be…but when I’m thinking about all the things, I’ve lost due to my disease and my disability, I might go insane.

So, instead of letting myself fall into an abyss of despair, I’m sitting here on my balcony, closing my eyes, feeling a cold breeze brushing over my face…and then I’m escaping from my reality…and as always, Severus is my companion!

One of my favourite dreams, which I’ve brought to paper already multiple times in order to cope with my struggles, takes place on the Astronomy Tower of Hogwarts.

Severus brings me up there at night…making me feel safe, when he’s holding my hand, whilst I’m balancing on the railing. He makes me feel free from the strings of misery, which are dragging me down. He makes me feel happy again…escaping my troubled mind.

21 years ago I fell head over heels for Severus…and since this time, he never left my side. As my comfort character, he helped me through some very rough times…and now he’s my guiding light through my daily hell with ME/CFS.

I’ve commissioned the very talented and kind artist @wookiecookiesfactory to make my dream come true in a drawing…and wow! I’m absolutely in love with this beautiful piece of art, my dear! Thank you so much for everything!

🖤 Severus & Julia 🖤

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boxwinebaddie · 7 months

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sooooo is peppermint ever updating like...lmao....

woah.

wooooooah.

okay, like maybe i'm being sensitive, but i do NOT fuck with this energy. do not come at me with this passive aggressive bs. thx! <3

jokes aside, i'm sorry for being unprofessional, but this message feels very meanspirited and not chill to me....please take several seats.

so, no one asked me to, which is fine, but since about april, i have written over 100k, which is about the length of two novels. i wrote very detailed plot journals, meticulously planned my fanfiction out, did extensive research, nearly destroyed my fingers formatting, spiraled mentally several times, cried several nights over peppermint, self isolated, frightened several people in my life, ate and slept so infrequently that i developed a bacterial infection, and nearly failed my finals trying to put peppermint out every single week without fail.

and i do it for me...but mostly...

i do it for all of you.

because i love and cherish you all very much. ( even you, ominous energy anon who is currently polluting my hot girl vibe palace. )

a lot of you have expressed to me that my fanfictions bring great joy, that you feel seen in them, that they positively influence your real lives, that you get excited about my updates and like my writing style, characterizations and storytelling. that gives me great purpose.

recently, the tags have been dry as hell, the sp fandom feels almost nonexistent, my faith and inspiration is fading, but i am doing my very best to hang in there because even though sometimes i get stuck, or my fingers hurt or i feel inadequate or uninspired, it is worth it to me...to make you happy. making you happy makes me happy.

but this...this is really not cute.

and i have had a lot of self doubt and struggles with writing and wondering what the hell i'm even doing and if it's worth it and stuff like this...this energy...really makes me want to irish goodbye! lol!

i do not know when my fanfictions are updating. i wrote old chapters 11 and 12 under a lot of stress, pressure, with no planning, just because i was anxious about keeping you all waiting and i have never felt worse or more embarrassed about something i've written.

so those chapters are gone. because i care about quality. and i cannot rush to produce quality or i will produce garbage which benefits no one. i care about you all too much to half ass my shit.

i don't like to write when i don't want to. and this....really does not make me want to, so thank you very much! feeling the love, bestie!

but to my friends and dear devoted readers who have been kind to me, patient and supportive of my journey as a writer/whatever twists and turns i may make, whether i stop or start, take off or take breaks. i love you very, very, much and i really do write for you. ily, ncu. <3

so when rm 4 drops ( if it does ) and new pep 12 ( if it does ), it will be for all of you kind, lovely, wonderful people and it would be my honor.

but as for you...my friend.

...clearly, there is something hardening over your heart.

something in your life....something you can't process...something that you're projecting onto me...whatever the case...

negativity is a disease, darling,

and from the very bottom of my heart,

i hope you heal. :)

-uncle nina

#sorry for being kind of intense but this...respectfully kind of pissed me off #i do not exist chained to my writing desk no food no drink no sleep writing #and to be honest! i did that! it was very unhealthy! it sucked! my work sucked! and im still reaping the damages #i got so unhealthy writing pep that i literally malnourished myself worse than kenny and got a bacterial infection #i already felt like going into hiding and never posting again bc i was frustrated and felt tired and lost #but this message.....to quote u 'lmaaaaoo' does really not make me want to write ever again!#like i licherally write because i love you guys and u light up my life and i want to give u a safe happy place #but when u pollute my safe happy place with this whack ass energy...its a no for me...#for the people invested in my stuff and kind thank u so much im excited abt my fics its just hard to write multiple chapters #its tedious for me im tired i just want yall to know the plot details the tag is dead its taking so long...ugh #but when theyre out they will be my platonic love letter to u #hopefully this anon was just weirdly worded but if not...please kick rocks and maybe never read my fanfiction again lmao

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lunar-years · 1 year

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Selfie night is back? Uhhh here’s my most recent one + bonus one from Halloween :)

#tsselfienight #:)#enjoy the forehead now growing the fringe out is driving me nuts so I think I’ll retreat back to my safe place soon #(aka bang era) (I have been in it 80% of my life)#nice to see all your lovely faces on my dash

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thesandisfalling · 11 months

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my official take on the moon/qibli/winter love triangle is that winterwatcher is a much grander, epic romance, and moonbli is a much more level, sweet-and-simple romance, but ultimately i think it was a better decision to have the latter be the canon romance in a series primarily marketed towards children and teens than fall into the "bad boy" romance trope, and instead romanticize the earnest, genuine, sweet relationship

obviously there's way more nuance to this involving internalized/unconscious bias, and winter doesn't even REALLY fit into the "bad boy" archetype, but purely based on genre conventions, the gruff, rude, brooding, tortured hero VERY often falls into that category, and at the ages of 7-14 most of us were very LIKELY to be romanticizing that archetype, which again is very often treated as interchangeable with the "abusive bad boy" trope, and while i might have a few gripes with the writing of moonbli and i ENJOY winterwatcher a whole lot, i DO appreciate the more gentle, "safe" romance being treated as the ideal, rather than the tense and angst-filled nature of the alternative

#i could talk about this way more but im in the middle of rereading dod so itll have to wait #what i DO have to add is like. something something the ideal romance being the calmer safer one and how - for me at least -#those years of my life were so complicated and difficult and i made this image of romance out to be this massive painful epic tale #of heartbreak and passion and huge declarations of love and everything #but ultimately; imparting the lesson to children that a romantic relationship should be SAFE - it should be your comfortable place #where youre happy and content and feel warm and secure - is MUCH better #than pressing upon them the idea that it should be this epic battle of tension and painful pining and everything #(whether its something simply overlooked in the writing or not; the fact is winter also DIDNT ever apologize to moon for #all the hurtful things he said or did - which isnt to say hes a BAD GUY i love winter so much -#but i think romanticizing those kinds of dynamics - which is tricky but CAN be done - is better saved for works marketed towards #more mature and emotionally intelligent audiences than i think wof might be meant for)#ANYWAY I HAVE LOTS OF THOUGHTS #god im so glad i got back into this series. the literary love of my life #mine #wof #winter #moon #qibli #wings of fire #winterwatcher #moonbli #meta

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meangreenmulletmachine · 5 months

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If you don’t mind sharing more, what happened in the relationship that caused it to end so suddenly? So glad you are safe and well, sending love xx

Hey there anon <3 thank you!

Well to make a long story short- you can't help someone who won't help themselves.

The long version- My ex partner was wrongly diagnosed and medicated for a mental health condition. When they found out they had been misdiagnosed (after months of extreme mania) they cut all their medications cold turkey- which made them spiral into a psychotic break.

I had gotten them in for emergency help but they refused to take advantage of the resources provided or go to follow up appointments, and never fully recovered. As I see it, the person I thought I loved is no long here. Someone else entirely now takes up residency in their body. I have had to mourn the loss of somebody who is still technically alive.

#they were getting very physically and verbally abusive during and after their break #and there's also this whole other part to the story where they were emotionally and financially taking advantage of me #i believed they could be better #i tried to give them a safe place and person to figure their shit out #they never did #and i lost everything #They also confessed to doing some honestly disgusting things to me over the course of our 7 year relationship that I couldn't forgive #i owe my last landlord thousands of dollars both in back rent and because they l i t e r a l l y #tore the house apart in fits of rage #i honestly just feel stupid #but love is blind bla bla #im seeing someone else now #life is cool lol

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mariatesstruther · 5 months

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i was today years old when i found out some of y’all dont like ellie’s studio-shed situation. confused

#someone come into my inbox and give me your opinions pls #im shocked frankly #i think its so cool #and she obviously still has a place in joels house #so whats wrong with her having her own space?????#i love that she has a place to just be and operate her space according to her own rules #shes NEVER had that opportunity before #the only reason she even had her own room at FEDRA was because she lost riley #i think she deserves an opportunity to have her own room and space and express her personhood through the way she lives #especially because i headcanon ellie as autistic #i think it would be so hard for her to self regulate and have a safe space if she was living with joel tbh #like yes ideally we’d like her to forgive him but she shouldnt HAVE to #just as she shouldnt have to live with someone that broke her trust #its not even about the saving her life because i cant blame him for that #but i can be mad at him for lying and so can she

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