let me ask you a genuine question. idols have no obligation to tell us any personal info whatsoever and their privacy is #1. i have tho, read mark saying multiple times over the last few years that there is still a part of him that he doesn’t love yet/doesn’t know if he will ever love/accept. and it struck me so deeply because i used to say the same thing. what do you think he means by that?

oh hello. so. here we are. this is the most awful thing i can say, but i have often noticed that he and i are very similar in some topics. and theme about self-dislike i feel especially acutely. in all the years that i've been following mark, he still seems to me to be a very insecure person. this was especially intensified after he confessed in the documentary. the one where his parents had more hopes for his brother than for him. and i think this is one of the reasons, although he will never blame his family, this is one of the important components of his life. but the first place we find ourselves is our relatives, and unfortunately, especially when it’s a younger child, they don’t believe in them so much. and i am sure that he will always not do enough for himself. no matter how he kills himself at work and almost breaks down like a toy. that he works little, labors little and tries to do more to be accepted, to be seen. he is his own biggest enemy, as are his thoughts. as it seems, he takes too much responsibility upon himself. he was used to being alone, like a person who left home in early childhood. and i was always really sad that mark didn’t believe in himself until the end. that it’s as if he doesn’t find a place in himself. but the funny thing is that he is most confident on stage. and perhaps the fact that he became an artist saves him for the most part. but in another he sees his whole fate and the trauma of a child alone as a nightmare and that he is still alone, a canadian who moved to korea.

but now i would like to raise a slightly different topic. when he says he is a bad person. that he's really not that good, even though we all know he's not. everyone in the industry loves him and almost everyone in the group mentioned that they are grateful to mark for everything. and i always wondered why there was so much uncertainty in him that he was a good person, but he had such a big heart. the same mark who is in love with the sky, a hopeless romantic and a great team player. and every time i asked myself this question, it was as if I was both so close and so far from the answer. because we each have our own reasons for considering ourselves a bad person. from attitude to other people, to life, to fans. and most importantly to yourself. and i don't think cark can't take sides because of the type of artist he is. or let's say appearance. or family. because he is growing and growing, perhaps he is overcome by frustration about advancing in two units, but also. his family is always close to him, and everything seems to be smooth with his fans. i think this is something that sits deep within him and is part of him.

if I don't love and can't accept myself, then how can I move on.

'you’re normal. you’re doing fine. sometimes you’re doing better, sometimes you’re doing worse but at the end, it’s you. so, i just want you to have no regrets. i want you to feel yourself grow and i just want you to also love yourself' but I began to notice that after child it began to rise especially often. that he wants to grow up and love himself. perhaps this is not only his appearance and his creativity, where he is still trying to find himself, or an internal conflict due to character, but something deeper.

the only thing is, I don’t want to bring up the topic of religious guilt/trauma, as well as sexuality, because i never want to speculate on such things on the internet publicly. but personally i have this. that sometimes I still cannot accept some things on this basis, my bisexuality in particular. i can’t understand who I am and finally understand myself 100%. because everything would be easier if I were different.

thank you for this interesting question, if there is anything else to discuss, you can write to me or ask another question. I hope that I got at least a little into the reasoning. i will write more later. <3. p.s. i also don’t like myself and will never be able to accept some things. and it's because of the way i treat people, they see me too as a good person, but i never have been and never will be.

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

Saying this as an Irish person since the new Hozier album just came out and there are lyrics in Irish; it’s Irish or Gaeilge (pronounced “gwhale-ga” or “gale-ga” depending on region), not Gaelic or Celtic or any other name people come up with.

It’s just a normal language that people speak in their everyday life. We learn it in school in the republic. People like myself are bilingual in Irish and English. It’s not a “fairy aesthetic cottage core leprechaun” language.

Please respect it. Our language is a touchy subject seen as how England tried to erase it by forcing English on us and severely punishing those who spoke Irish.

At the same time that does NOT mean it is a dead language. Our (in the republic) road and safety signs are in both Irish and English, same with legal documents. Our politicians speak it, and we are trying to preserve the language!

Anyways enjoy the album!

when they said in Dune that they needed spice for space travel i thought it was used as some sort of fuel but no apparently it's just because your pilot needs to be hight out of his mind to be able to safely navigate big ships into space

Kim Kitsuragi, Apollo Justice, and Chilchuck Tims are all part of a subcategory of men you very clearly have an attachment to. Short men with queer tendencies who are very, very tired from having to be the only one with their act together. Men who just want to Do Their Job but the curse of a dynamic plot haunts them and their desire to just be normal. They’re all part of the same triple Venn diagram.

i remember getting this in my askbox and laughing so hard while reading it because of how it was worded very as-a-matter-of-factly and also: i was read very thoroughly DFGHDJ thank you mystery anon for sending this bc YEA... YEA .. YEA. WHAT ABOUT IT......

bc of this ask i wrote like, things to put in their venn diagram a while ago so take this venn diagram i concocted when it was like 2 am and i was having trouble sleeping FDGHJD

my og one piece goof

I can't tell when people are flirting with me I'd rather you just pin me to a wall and tell me how badly you want to make out

on the agency of puppets

He won an award. Good job you little snot. /affectionate

Yall my pokemon is looking weird

trust nobody, not even yourself

Waterdhavian Vernacular 🗣️

And a bonus (drawn by my dear oomf @micchiyt )

as much as i love sam knowing about destiel before dean does, there's something about "i mean yeah my brother and his angel best friend are really weird about each other, live together, co-parent a kid, nearly kill themselves every time the other is gone, stand too close and stare at the other's mouth while they talk, but i mean to each their own i guess??" that's so special to me

i feel like people are sleeping on the occam's razor situation of how buckwild it is to outright accuse a guy of being a clone of your friend even if you DO have a lot of circumstantial evidence. there's other options is what im saying. they could just be like. a guy. that's a sensible deduction. you should explore that deduction. ignore my shirt that reads I <3 RED HERRINGS.

i still think odile has the correct theory on lock but she's smart enough to know it needs like... a real smoking gun to be able to bring it up without sounding insane.

anyway. (mirabelle voice) i know its rude to speculate but has anyone else noticed the grieving? they seem to be grieving. does anyone have any thoughts on the grieving? i have some thoughts on the grieving.