Won't you be not afraid my neighbor? (inspired by @mellon-calling's tag in response to my own)

Characters to expect coming up in Batman Chronicles #1, out July 20th!

Batman (Bruce Wayne)

Clock King (Temple Fugate)

Alfred Pennyworth

Robin (Damian Wayne)

Lucius Fox

Lois Lane

Superman (Clark Kent)

Batwoman (Kate Kane)

Batgirl (Stephanie Brown)

Troia (Donna Troy)

Ragman (Rory Regan)

Hot Spot (Isaiah Crockett)

Mister Miracle (Shilo Norman)

The Atom (Ryan Choi)

Midnighter (Lucas Trent)

Batman (Cassandra Cain)

Oracle (Barbara Gordon)

130 Number One Hits of the ‘80s (1986-1987)

I recognize most of these songs and/or artists. Some favorites, some standards, some over-played, some “oh I remember hearing that get sampled”, and “oh that’s a cover song, nice”.

Why am I posting it here? I don’t quite know. I’m cleaning out some bookmarks, and there’s stuff here I want to listen to later. I’ve already added ‘em to my “batch listen” playlist, but I thought I’d post the main vid here. Then, if/when I post those later, I can say “hey, this is where I re-found the song”. I guess? Idk.

Track list below the cut, presented in alphabetical order:

1. A-ha - The Sun Always Shines on TV 2. Atlantic Starr - Secret Lovers 3. Atlantic Starr - Always 4. Bananarama - Venus 5. The Bangles - Walk Like an Egyptian 6. Bee Gees - You Win Again 7. Belinda Carlisle - Mad About You 8. Belinda Carlisle - Heaven Is a Place on Earth 9. Ben E. King - Stand by Me 10. Berlin - Take My Breath Away

11. Bill Medley & Jennifer Warnes - (I've Had) The Time of My Life 12. Billy Idol - Mony Mony 13. Billy Ocean - When the Going Gets Tough, the Tough Get Going 14. Billy Ocean - There'll Be Sad Songs (To Make You Cry) 15. Billy Vera & The Beaters - At This Moment 16. Bob Seger - Shakedown 17. Bon Jovi - You Give Love a Bad Name 18. Bon Jovi - Livin' on a Prayer 19. Boris Gardner - I Wanna Wake Up with You 20. Boston - Amanda

21. Boy George - Everything I Own 22. Bruce Hornsby & the Range - The Way It Is 23. C.C. Catch - Soul Survivor 24. Chris de Burgh - The Lady in Red 25. Chris Norman - Midnight Lady 26. Cliff Richard and the Young Ones - Living Doll 27. Club Nouveau - Lean on Me 28. Cock Robin - The Promise You Made 29. The Communards - Don't Leave Me This Way 30. Crowded House - Don't Dream It's Over

31. Cutting Crew - (I Just) Died in Your Arms 32. Cyndi Lauper - True Colors 33. Desireless - Voyage Voyage 34. Diana Ross - Chain Reaction 35. Dionne and Friends - That's What Friends Are for 36. Doctor and the Medics - Spirit in the Sky 37. Duran Duran - Notorious 38. El DeBarge - Who's Johnny 39. Eros Ramazzotti - Adesso Tu 40. Europe - The Final Countdown

41. Falco - Rock Me Amadeus 42. Falco - Jeanny, Part 1 43. Falco - Coming Home (Jeanny Part 2) 44. Ferry Aid - Let It Be 45. Frankie Goes to Hollywood - Rage Hard 46. Genesis - Invisible Touch 47. George Michael - A Different Corner 48. George Michael & Aretha Franklin - I Knew You Were Waiting (For Me) 49. George Michael - I Want Your Sex 50. George Michael - Faith

51. Glass Tiger - Don't Forget Me (When I'm Gone) 52. Gregory Abbott - Shake You Down 53. Heart - These Dreams 54. Heart - Alone 55. The Housemartins - Caravan of Love 56. Huey Lewis and the News - Stuck with You 57. Huey Lewis and the News - Jacob's Ladder 58. The Human League - Human 59. Icehouse - Electric Blue 60. Jackie Wilson - Reet Petite

61. Jan Hammer - Crockett's Theme 62. Janet Jackson - What Have You Done for Me Lately 63. Janet Jackson - When I Think of You 64. Jennifer Rush - The Power of Love 65. Joe Cocker - You Can Leave Your Hat On 66. John Farnham - You're the Voice 67. Kim Wilde - You Keep Me Hangin' On 68. Kylie Minogue - Locomotion 69. Level 42 - Lessons in Love 70. Lisa Lisa and Cult Jam - Head to Toe 71. Lisa Lisa and Cult Jam - Lost in Emotion 72. Los Lobos - La Bamba 73. Madonna - Live to Tell 74. Madonna - Papa Don't Preach 75. Madonna - True Blue 76. Madonna - Open Your Heart 77. Madonna - La Isla Bonita 78. Madonna - Who's That Girl 79. MARRS - Pump Up the Volume 80. Matia Bazar - Ti Sento

81. MC Miker G & Deejay Sven - Holiday Rap 82. Mel & Kim - Showing Out (Get Fresh at the Weekend) 83. Mel & Kim - Respectable 84. Miami Sound Machine - Conga 85. Michael Jackson - I Just Can't Stop Loving You 86. Michael Jackson - Bad 87. Modern Talking - Brother Louie 88. Modern Talking - Atlantis Is Calling (SOS for Love) 89. Modern Talking - Geronimo's Cadillac 90. Mr. Mister - Kyrie

91. Nu Shooz - I Can't Wait 92. Patti LaBelle & Michael McDonald - On My Own 93. Pet Shop Boys - West End Girls 94. Pet Shop Boys - It's a Sin 95. Pet Shop Boys - Always on My Mind 96. Peter Cetera - Glory of Love 97. Peter Cetera & Amy Grant - The Next Time I Fall 98. Peter Gabriel - Sledgehammer 99. Prince and the Revolution - Kiss 100. Pseudo Echo - Funkytown

101. Richard Sanderson - Reality 102. Rick Astley - Never Gonna Give You Up 103. Rick Astley - Whenever You Need Somebody 104. Robbie Nevil - C'est la Vie 105. Robert Palmer - Addicted to Love 106. Sam Cooke - Wonderful World 107. Samantha Fox - Touch Me 108. Simply Red - Holding Back the Years 109. Spagna - Easy Lady 110. Stacey Q - Two of Hearts

111. Starship - Sara 112. Starship - Nothing's Gonna Stop Us Now 113. Status Quo - In the Army Now 114. Stéphanie - Ouragan/ Irresistible 115. Steve Winwood - Higher Love 116. T'Pau - Heart and Soul 117. T'Pau - China in Your Hand 118. Tiffany - I Think We're Alone Now 119. Timex Social Club - Rumours 120. Tina Turner - Typical Male

121. U2 - With or Without You 122. U2 - I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For 123. Vanessa Paradis - Joe le taxi 124. Wang Chung - Everybody Have Fun Tonight 125. Wham! - The Edge of Heaven 126. Whitesnake - Here I Go Again 127. Whitney Houston - How Will I Know 128. Whitney Houston - The Greatest Love of All 129. Whitney Houston - I Wanna Dance with Somebody (Who Loves Me) 130. Whitney Houston - Didn't We Almost Have It All

Most of these are vicious earworms. Steve Winwood’s “Higher Love” has been eating at my brain for the last week or so.

Greatest Pro Wrestlers ever

I try to make a ranking of the nost successful (best) wrestlers of WWF (WWE) and WCW (maybe NWA/ Crockett Promotion too):

1. Bill Goldberg

2. Hulk Hogan

3. The Undertaker

4. Ric Flair

5. Diesel/ Kevin Nash

6. Bret "The Hitman" Hart

7. Triple H

8. John Cena

9. Booker T. (King Booker)

10. The Rock

11. Randy Orton

12. Sting

13. Lex Luger

14. Dave Batista

15. Macho Man Randy Savage

16. Shawn Michaels

17. Mister Perfect (Curt Henning)

18. Owen Hart

19. Andre The Giant 

20. Brock Lesnar

21. Roman Reigns

22. Kane

23. Razor Ramon (Scott Hall)

24. Stone Cold Steve Austin

25. Chris Benoit

26. Eddie Guerrero

27. Jeff Jarrett 

28. Yokozuna

29. King Kong Bundy

30. Bam Bam Bigelow

Notable mentionings: Scott Steiner, Rey Mysterio, Irion Sheik, Big Show, Rowdy Roddy Piper,  1-2-3-Kid, Braun Strohman, Jerry "The King" Lawler, Ultimate Warrior.

"These mountains are older than anywhere else. When the rest of the mountains in the world were just born hills, these mountains was ancient. I understand your science, how it says there's nothing in these hollers that can't be explained rationally. But listen close, mister. That ain't the wind moanin through the trees, and it weren't no thunder what rattled your door last night. Nobody knows quite what it is, some kind of nature spirit. The native folks call it... Well, best not to say it aloud, but I've got it wrote down here some-ha! It comes for strangers, folks new to the area, those without family to miss them. Eats bone and soul, leaves nothing but a sack of living meat. It can't hurt ya so long as you keep your lights on. Walls can't stop it. If there's shadow, the creature can get in. If you have to go out at night, bring a stone from the river and a gun. When it catches you outside, and it will, read that name on the paper and offer it the stone. Unless it's hunting, it'll take the stone and leave. If it's hunting, and you see it first, use the gun on yourself. Better to die than waste away."

The man turned on his heel and stumped off my porch without another word, leaving a crumpled slip of paper in my hand as he walked away. He'd come out of the woods surrounding my new homestead without warning, dressed like Davey Crockett, and immediately launched into his speech. They say word gets around in a small town, but we hadn't met anybody from the area, yet. We'd bought the property sight unseen at a bank auction, and only arrived two days ago.

I glanced down at the paper in my hand, thinking about the sudden thunder last night that had nearly knocked the rickety front door off its hinges. "Apochtala" the paper said. Reaching for my phone in my pocket, I yelled for my husband

Crockett Marcel + Ethan Choi in “Who Knows What Tomorrow Brings”

Characters on the Black superpower breakdown list

Hunk (vld) Static [Virgil Hawkins] Black Lightning [Jefferson Peirce] Kwame (Captain Planet) Storm [Ororo Monroe] Strag (Magi-Nation) Chur (Magi-Nation) Sistah Spooky (Empowered) Aqualad [Kaldur'ahm] Bronze Tiger [Benjamin Turner] Black Panther [T'Challa] Bumblebee [Karen Beecher-Duncan] Nubia (DC comics) Cyborg [Victor Stone] Taranee Cook (W.I.T.C.H.) Spawn [Al Simmons] Alex Wilder (Runaways) Blade [Eric Brooks] Brother Voodoo [Jericho Drumm] Falcon [Sam Wilson] Empress [Anita Fite] Green Lantern [John Stewart] Lightning [Jennifer Pierce] Pantha [Rosabelle Mendez] Tunder [Anissa Pierce] Vixen [Mari Jiwe McCabe] Agent 355 (Y: The Last Man) Prowler [Hobbie Brown] Prowler [Aaron Davis] Spiderman [Miles Morales] Rocket [Raquel Ervin] Icon [Augustus Freeman] Cassie (Animorphs) Anansi the Spider (Static Shock) She-Bang [Shenice Vale] Kipo Oak (Kipo and the Age of Wonderbeasts) Zak Saturday (The Secret Saturdays) Catwoman [Patience Phillips] Frozone [Lucius Best] Erik Killmonger [N'Jadaka] Black Manta [David Ray] Holocaust [Leonard Smalls Jr] Tombstone [Lonnie Thompson Lincoln] Killer Croc [Waylon Jones] Deadly Nightshade (Marvel Comics) Ebon [Ivan Evans] Baxter Stockman (Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles) Monica Rambeau (Marvel Comics) War Machine [James Rhodes] Steel [John Henry Irons] Cloak [Tyrone Johnson] Queen Bee of Bialya (DC Universe) Hot Spot/Joto [Isaiah Crockett] Alan Albright (Ben 10) Mal Duncan (DC Comics) XS [Nora West-Allen] Tempest [Joshua Clay] Star Boy [Thom Kallor] Kid Quantum (DC Comic) Jet (DC Comics) Jakeem Thunder (DC Comics) Slipstream (Static Shock) Boom (Static Shock) Tamara Lawrence (Static Shock) Hyde (Static Shock) Kangor (Static Shock) Brickhouse (Milestone Media) Madelyn Spaulding (Static Shock) Puff (Static Shock) Onyx (Static Shock) Replikon (Static Shock) Osebo (Static Shock) Mmoboro (Static Shock) Onini (Static Shock) Allie Langford/Nails (Static Shock) Miranda/Mirage (Static Shock) Adam Evans/Rubber-Band Man (Static Shock) Garnet (Steven Universe) Ruby (Steven Universe) Sapphire (Steven Universe) Bismuth (Steven Universe) Doc Saturday (The Secret Saturdays) Kilik Rung (Soul Eater) Tsume (Wolf's Rain) Blue (Wolf's Rain) Manny Armstrong (Ben 10) Bow (She-Ra and the Princesses of Power) Netossa (She-Ra and the Princesses of Power) Numbuh Five (Codename Kids Next Door) Cree Lincoln (Codename Kids Next Door) Paninya (Fullmetal Alchemist) Jerso (Fullmetal Alchemist) Scar (Fullmetal Alchemist) Darui (Naruto) Killer B (Naruto) A/3rd Raikage (Naruto) Karui (Naruto) Omoi (Naruto) Muhammad Avdol (Jojo's Bizarre Adventure) Silver Sentry (TMNT) April O'Neil (Rise of the TMNT) Sid Barrett (Soul Eater) Usopp (One Piece) Spyke [Evan Daniels] Talon (Gargoyles) Winston Zeddmore (Ghostbusters) Wolf (Kipo and the Age of Wonderbeasts) Black Racer (DC Comics) Bloodwynd (DC Comics) Coldcast (DC Comics) Gravedigger (DC Comics) Mister Terrific (DC Comics) Blue Marvel [Adam Bernard Brashear] Night Thrasher [Dwayne Taylor] Jo (Kid Cosmic) Philly the Kid (Cannon Busters) S.A.M. (Cannon Busters) Amalia Sheran Sharm (Wakfu) Kaz Kaan (Neo Yokio) Dr. Facilier (The Princess and the Frog) Raven Baxter (That's So Raven) John Henry (Folktales) Darryl (Mercyverse) Asil the Moor (Mercyverse) Hork-Bajir (Animorphs) Ashio (Magi-Nation) Gogor (Magi-Nation Duel) Rayje (Magi-Nation Duel) Strom (Magi-Nation) Sugar Hill (Sugar Hill 1974) Thunder (Soul Eater) Fire (Soul Eater) Miruko (My Hero Academia) Rock Lock (My Hero Academia) Ogun Montogomery (Fire Force) Manifold [Eden Fesi] Yoruichi Shihōin (Bleach) Yasutora Sado/Chad (Bleach) Gantenbainne Mosqueda (Bleach) Zommari Rureaux (Bleach) Shuri (Marvel Comics) Alya Césaire (Miraculous Ladybug) Nora Césaire (Miraculous Ladybug) Max Kanté (Miraculous Ladybug) Razahir “Raze” Khemse (Underworld) Jermaine (Xiaolin Showdown) Piccolo Jr (Dragonball) Koen West (Cleverman) Xavin (Runaways) Goo (Foster's Home for Imaginary Friends) Wilt (Foster's Home for Imaginary Friends) Tobias Whale (Black Lightning) Zak Monday (The Secret Saturdays) Dion Warren (Raising Dion) Hex (Ben 10) Charmcaster (Ben 10) Annabelle Cane (The Magnus Archives) Oliver Banks (The Magnus Archives) Khalil Payne / Painkiller (Black Lightning) Issa Williams (Black Lightning) Perenna (Black Lightning) Giselle Cutter (Black Lightning) Brandon Marshall/Geo-Force (Black Lightning) T.C. / Baron/Technocrat (Black Lightning) Domino (Deadpool 2) Clayface/Ethan Bennette (The Batman) Ironheart (Marvel Comics) Silhouette (Marvel Comics) Fish Mooney (Gotham) Valerie Gray (Danny Phantom) Hack (DC Comics) Peek-A-Boo (DC Comics) Madam Slay (Marvel Comics) Alex (Totally Spies) Olivia (Pokemon) Abra Stone (Doctor Sleep) Tia Dalma [Calypso] Allura (Voltron) Raphael (RoTTMNT) Donatello (RoTTMNT) Leonardo (RoTTMNT) Michelangelo (RoTTMNT) Bebop (TMNT) Zack Taylor (Power Rangers) T.J. Johnson (Power Rangers) Aisha Cambell (Power Rangers) Jack Landors (Power Rangers) Tanya Sloan (Power Rangers) Scott Truman (Power Rangers) Noah Carver (Power Rangers) Joel Rawlings (Power Rangers) Will Aston (Power Rangers) Katie Walker (Power Rangers) Ethan James (Power Rangers) Max Cooper (Power Rangers) Cestro (Power Rangers) Damon Henderson (Power Rangers) Zane (Power Rangers) A-Squad Green Ranger (power Rangers) Kevin (Power Rangers) Shelby Watkins (Power Rangers) Zayto (Power Rangers) Hayley Foster (Power Rangers) Aisha (Winx Club) Flora (Winx Club) Catwoman [Selina Kyle] Rodger (Dino Squad) Koki (Wild Kratts) Darla Dudley (DC Comics)

209 characters thus far. If ya fave superpowered negro ain’t here, leave a name, pic, and list of their powers

A list of black heroes because im tired of people acting like they don’t exist..

DC COMICS:

* Black Lightning

* John Stewart

* Simon Baz

* Cyborg

* Mr.Terrific

* Steel/John Henry Irons

* Icon(Augustus Freeman)

* Blackwing/Charles Bullock

* Batwing/David Zambive

* Batwing/Luke Fox

* Signal/Duke Thomas

* Orpheus/Gavin King

* Batman/Wayne Williams

* Val-Zod

* Lucious Fox

* Kid Flash 2/Wallace West

* Kaldurahm aka Aqualad

* Jakeem Thunder

* Amazing-Man/Willaim Everett Sr.

* Amazing-Man/ William Everett lll

* Amazing-man/Markus Clay

* Manhattan Guardian/Jake Jordan

* Mal Duncan

* Bloodwynd

* Static

* Coldcast/Nathan Craig Jones

* Tyroc/Tony Stewart

* Freedom Beast/Dominic Mndawe

* Hero Cruz

* Firestorm

* Bronze Tiger

* Hardware/Curtis Metcalf

* Black Halo/Quentin Taylor

* Big Thunder

* Hotspot/isaiah Crockett

* Kid Quantum/James Cullen

* Mister Miracle/Shilo Norman

* Wonderboy/Bobby Barnes

* Starboy/Thom Kallor

* Tempest/Joshua Clay

* Lucius Reynolds

* Gravedigger/Ulysses Hazard

* Connor Hawke(biracial)

* Northwind/Norda Cantrell

* Vixen

* Bumblebee

* Rocket

* Natasha Irons

* Thunder

* Lightning

* Pantha(afro latina)

* XS(Jenna Ognats)

* Nubia

* Naomi

* Powergirl(Tanya Spears)

* Amanda Waller

* Onyx Adams

* Darla Dudley

* Catwoman(Patience Phillips)

* Empress aka Anita Fite

* Julia Pennyworth(new 52)

* Huntress(new 52, afro scillian)

* Maxine Gibson

* Starblossom aka Peony Mcgill

* Honor Guest aka Silencer

* Sojourner Mullein

* Skitter

* Catspaw

* Crimson Avenger/Jill Carlyle

* Holly Ann Fields aka ‘The Movement’

* Danica Williams aka Flash

* Voodoo/Priscilla Kitaen

* Kid Quantum/Jazmin Cullen

* Flashback/Sara Quinones

* Computo/Danielle Foccart

* Strix/Mary Turner

* Betty Clawman

* Jet/Celia Windward

* Skyrocket/Celia Forrestal

* Phillipus

* Wyldheart/Gillian Wahrman

Keep in mind, this is just the tip of the iceberg. This isn’t all of DC’s black character (including heroes and villains) and I didn’t include any Marvel Ones. So before acting like black heroes don’t exist, how about trying to learn about the ones that do exist and appreciate them? Just a thought.

Little Green Monster

Pairing: Crockett Marcel x (female) Reader

Word Count: 1341 (Sorry it���s so short)

Author’s Note: Another request! I get so happy every time I get a request but also super nervous because I just hope whoever requested it likes it. I hope this is close to what you were looking for, I was trying and trying to think of a situation where he’d be jealous, so instead I went with it being a few times.

Trigger Warning(s): Jealousy, bad words (nothing worse than what you hear on the show though)

Disclaimer: I don’t owe nor am I affiliated with any of the Chicago shows, I just like to play with the characters

Summary: Crockett and Y/N have been together for almost a year now, he’s completely in love with her but worried that she’ll find someone else, causing him to get a little jealous. This goes on until she’s finally had enough and confronts him.

Y/N = Your Name

Y/LN = Your Last Name

(Ignore the text on the gif)

Your entire relationship was very lowkey to say the least, which didn’t really bother either of you. You met after you transferred hospitals and started working at Gaffney, you were an outsider and he was the first person to really make you feel welcomed.

After that your relationship skyrocketed, sometimes making you wonder if the two of you were moving too fast, because not even a full year after you started dating, he asked you to marry him.

Of course you said yes, because you were completely in love with him. But there were moments when you began to worry that you were moving too fast.

Not many knew that the two of you were together, it wasn’t like either of you were trying to hide it, the two of you just didn’t want everyone knowing your business.

However, that wasn’t exactly true.

Little did you know, but your dear fiancé wanted everyone to know that you were off the market.

It started at the coffee shop.

The young man, Dylan, behind the counter was there quite often and made a habit of chatting you up. You never thought much of it, having been a waitress in the past and knowing that brought in the tips, but apparently Crockett took issue with it.

“Hey Y/N, how's the doctor life going?” Dylan asked you with a grin on his face.

You laughed and shrugged. “Same old, same old. What about you, how’s barista life treating ya?”

Dylan mimicked your shrug, still grinning. “Better now that I’ve seen your pretty face.”

“I’m so sure.” You laughed, then felt Crockett’s hand on your lower back, causing you to look over at him before looking back at Dylan, who straightened up and became more serious after that.

“You want your usual?” Dylan asked, clearing his throat.

“Yes please.” You answered him, trying not to seem too confused by the whole situation.

“And for you sir?” Dylan had asked Crockett.

After the two of you had your beverages, you headed to Crockett’s car.

He opened the passenger door for you, like always, and you got in. You waited until he was settled in the driver’s seat to look over at him. “Okay, what was that all about?”

Crockett looked over at you. “What are you talking about?”

You frowned slightly and narrowed your eyes at him. “You know what I’m talking about.”

“No idea.” Crockett replied, slowly shaking his head before he pulled the car out onto the street, heading towards the hospital.

The second time it happened you were at the bar, and once again it was a little harmless flirting that you paid no mind too. This time you wrote it off as a friend just messing around with you, because you both were in relationships and you both knew that.

Kelly slid into the seat next to you. “What’s a pretty girl like you doing in a place like this?” He asked you, causing you to smirk as you sipped your drink.

“Better be careful, Severide.” You warned him teasingly. “Your girl’s not too far away, might hear you and get jealous.”

Kelly laughed. “Stella knows we’re just playing, I’d say I have to worry more about your guy than I do my girl.”

You raised a brow, confused by his statement. “What do you mean?”

“Well if looks could kill, the good doctor would have murdered me by now.” Kelly informed you, dropping his voice a little lower and leaning closer, looking over your shoulder at who you guess was Crockett.

Your suspicions were right because within a minute of your friend saying that, you once again felt Crockett’s hand on your back, this time in between your shoulder blades.

“Lieutenant.” Crockett greeted him and you could hear the edge in his voice.

“Doctor.” Kelly replied, a smirk playing on his face, he wasn’t intimidated, but out of respect for you, he kept his cool. “I’ll catch ya later, Y/N.” He patted your arm and got out of the seat, returning to the table Stella was at, talking to Cruz.

You turned to look at your fiance with a raised brow.

“What?” He asked you, taking the seat that Kelly had just vacated.

“You know what.” You replied, huffing a bit.

“No idea.” Crockett replied again, ordering another drink.

The third time actually happened while you were working, which was where you drew the line.

You pulled him into the doctor’s lounge and practically cornered him, arms crossed. “Okay what the hell was that?” You asked him.

“You’ll have to be more specific.” Crockett answered you, crossing his own arms.

“You know what I’m talking about!” Try as you might to keep calm and keep your voice level, it just wasn’t happening and definitely raised a few octaves above your normal tone. “What the hell was with you in there, you were a complete ass to Halstead!”

“I didn’t like the way he was talking to you.” Crockett answered you simply.

You faltered, trying to figure out just what the hell that meant. “What the hell are you talking about?”

“He was flirting with you.” Crockett couldn’t believe you hadn’t noticed.

Then it dawned on you and you laughed, any anger you had dissipating.

“It isn’t funny.” Crockett huffed.

“Yes, yes it is.” You laughed more as you took a seat in one of the chairs, running your hands over your face out of exhaustion. “You’re jealous.” You stated.

Crockett didn’t reply, but you could tell by the way he pouted that you had hit the nail on the head.

You shook your head, all laughing long gone now, replaced by a seriousness. “You have nothing to be jealous about.” You spoke softly, watching him.

He didn’t reply again, didn’t even look at you.

You got up out of the chair and walked over to him, taking his face in your hands, causing him to look at you. “You have nothing to be jealous about.” You repeated, voice even softer this time.

His eyes softened some and he sighed. “I’m sorry.”

You shook your head. “No, I’m sorry.”

He frowned. “Why are you apologizing?” He was genuinely confused.

“Because apparently I gave you a reason to be jealous.” You sighed.

He shook his head. “No you didn’t.” He sighed now, uncrossing his arms and putting his hands on your waist. “I just know you could do better than me.”

You looked at him in disbelief. “What?” You asked softly before shaking your head. “No, you’re wrong.” You whispered.

“No I’m not, darling.” Crockett told you, sighing as he leaned his forehead against yours carefully.

You pulled back slightly, wanting to look at him. “No, you are.” You informed him, leaving no room for argument. “I love you and you love me. There’s no doing better when we both love each other like we do, Crockett.”

He smiled slightly at you, pulling you closer to him and kissing you.

You pulled back. “On a different note, I understand getting jealous over Dylan at the coffee shop. And even Kelly at the bar. But Halstead? Really?” You asked with a laugh. “Do you not remember how much of an ass he was to me when I first started here? And for no reason too.” You laughed more, shaking your head. “Not that either of the other two stand a chance, they don’t, but at least they were never downright rude to me.”

Crockett chuckled, shaking his head and pulling you into a tight embrace.

“And another thing, mister.” You started, but allowed him to hold you to him. “I’m marrying you. I had to agree to that, so why would you think I’d just up and change my mind?”

You felt him chuckle again, your head now on his chest. “No idea what I was thinking.” He answered you softly.

“You have nothing to worry about.” You added softly, still leaning into him. “I love you, Crockett.”

“I know.” Crockett breathed out, kissing the side of your head. “I love you too.”

I haven't had another episode, except last night was touch and go + Mr Crockett

Episode | Crockett Marcel

Excerpt from a psych!AU I’ll never write; Crockett is an inpatient in the psych ward and he has therapy with his favourite Psychiatrist

Prompt: “I haven’t had another episode, except last night was touch and go.”

Word count: 1797

CW: Psych ward, talks of depressive episodes, brief mention of dermatillomania, schizoaffective disorder, child death

***

“Mr. Marcel?” the voice at his door made Crockett groan, recognizing the voice as the nurse who always disturbed him at ridiculous hours. He wanted to have a talk with whoever decided pill time would be at six in the morning, how was he supposed to “heal” if they never let him get any sleep?

“Maggie, can’t you let me sleep for another hour,” he rolled over and sighed when she shook her head. Medication and vitals were a morning routine, every day before the sun even thought about rising completely. Routine was good, they told him, a routine would help with figuring out what was reality and what was his mind playing tricks. He didn’t think so, nothing would stop the fact that he saw his daughter clear as day despite the 5th anniversary of her death steadily approaching.

“Up and at ‘em, mister,” the nurse mused as she marched over with his tray and the cart carrying the monitors. He obliged because he had no choice but to do so, even though he hated the way the pills made him feel. Antipsychotics were something Crockett hated, ever since his diagnosis back when he was just twenty-one. They made him feel incorrect, as if he was floating through life with blinders on. He knew they were supposed to help, to show him what was really there, but he couldn’t help but think it made him more miserable.

“You have one-on-one therapy today,” she reminded him as she watched Crockett take his pills and then checked under his tongue to ensure he wasn’t hiding them. He had tried that a couple times and sometimes it worked on the younger nurses, but not Maggie. She knew all, especially these kinds of tricks, and Crockett wasn’t about to risk mandatory IV medications for another month just for one day without the drugs.

“Oh lovely,” he muttered, “Not that Charles guy again, right? He’s insufferable.”

Maggie laughed, “Oh please, Daniel is just fine.”

“Insufferable,” he restated with an eye-roll, still complying when she held out the pulse oximeter to clip it to his fingertip. Maggie just hummed, watching the machine for a moment before speaking.

“I’ll pretend you didn’t say that. If it makes it any better, though, you’ll be seeing Doctor Reese today.”

That brought a smile to his face, though it was one that never quite reached his eyes. Maggie wasn’t sure if she had ever seen a genuine smile from Crockett, certainly not since Harper’s death and the worsening of his illness. Still, if one thing made his days more bearable it was sessions with Doctor Reese, who Crockett had started to consider more of a friend than a physician by that point.

“Our Sarah,” he hummed as she took the device off his hand, “She’s lovely.”

“She is,” the nurse agreed, “Now go get ready for the day, Crockett. You’ll be expected in the dining hall by 7:00 and I certainly won't have you slumming around in your pyjamas all day; you know the drill.”

***

By noon, Crockett was ready to go back to bed. Breakfast had been as dull as always, with his friend Ava in solitary for the next two days he didn’t have many people to speak to. Well, Natalie liked to talk to him but, if he was being honest, she could be a little much. She was just excited, Maggie insisted, but she tried to get Crockett to talk about his hallucinations far too often for him to be comfortable.

Jimmy sat with him that day, though. He didn’t talk much, or ever really, but he was decent company. They played cards together sometimes and always partnered for the team-building exercises in group therapy. Crockett didn’t press for verbal communication and Jimmy never judged him for his episodes; it was a friendship built on silent respect and they were both pleased with that arrangement. Still, Crockett often preferred to be alone, and that day was no different, so he retreated to his bedroom the second they allowed him to.

When nurse April arrived at his door with her tablet in hand, Crockett had been staring blankly at the TV. It wasn’t on, never was, but he watched it as if the most riveting program was playing. He wasn’t focusing on a delusion, though, and he promised April that when she asked if he was okay. The meds got rid of most of his visual symptoms, though the auditory ones were still a frequent occurrence with or without the drugs. He just liked to look at the TV, letting his mind wander to a time where he could actually enjoy television. It had been about five years by then, the last movie he remembered watching being the Princess and the Frog. Harper had loved that movie and talked excitedly of visiting New Orleans to see where her papa and Princess Tiana were both from. She never got there, unfortunately; the cancer taking her before her dad had the time to buy plane tickets.

“Come now, Crockett. Sarah is waiting in the conference room for you.”

He let the nurse lead him down the hall, silent because his head was still miles away. He was alert and lucid, that wasn’t the problem. Today it wasn’t delusions that plagued Crockett, instead it was the memories that had started to hurt him the most. Sarah would ask about that, especially once she saw the semi-lunar marks along the inside of his wrists, turning to scratches that curled up towards his biceps. Maggie hadn’t seen them because of his long sleeve shirt that morning but Sarah would check, she always did. It’s not as though Crockett did it on purpose, but when he couldn’t sleep at night and his skin was crawling all he could do was dig his nails in and pray for it to stop. The bugs weren’t there, Sarah always said they weren’t real, but his skin felt wrong and nothing would stop it. He had to scratch, he would tell her; it was the only way to make it stop.

“Crockett,” she greeted him cheerfully the second he stepped into the room, “Have a seat.”

“Hello, Sarah,” he replied as kindly as he could, though he was a bit distracted. His mood had been pretty low all morning, which was probably evident in his posture and demeanour.

“How have you been doing?

Crockett just shrugged, occupying himself with studying Sarah’s name badge. She had gotten a new one, the piece of plastic now boasting “psychiatry fellow”. She had been his secondary therapist since she was just in her second year of residency, so it was nice to see her climbing the ranks. It was well deserved, of course; Sarah had been the one constant in his most recent stay that kept Crockett relatively sane.

“Crockett?”

“Fine, I guess,” he muttered, “I haven’t had another episode… except last night was touch and go.”

“How so?” She was always so patient, not pushing too much, but she did need answers. If he was still having episodes on his antipsychotics, they may need to adjust the dosage again. He hoped she wouldn’t, though, because he hated the constant brain fog that came along with high dosing.

“A low, again.” he was fidgeting with his sleeve, not able to make eye contact at that point. His depression was a topic he never liked to discuss, since it was an aspect of his disorder he hadn’t been aware of until after Harper. Before it was just schizophrenia, a diagnosis that came about after a paranoia episode landed him in handcuffs in the security office at his university. However, when he hit a major low after Harper’s leukaemia was found, his primary psychiatrist noted that his diagnosis may be more than they expected. Schizoaffective disorder with the depression variant, he was told, and that was probably a factor in why he didn’t respond to the medications in the beginning.

“I see,” Sarah typed something onto his chart before looking up at him with gentle eyes, “Do you want to share how you felt?”

“I miss her,” he admitted softly, “It’s hard.”

“I know, I’m genuinely sorry, Crockett. Harper must have been so loved, I’m sure she misses you.”

“The meds…” Crockett huffed, “I can’t see her anymore.”

“Crockett, she’s not there,” Sarah’s words were gentle but still firm, as if he needed a reminder that his only daughter was dead before she even got to live a proper life. That reality was something that never left his mind, a nagging feeling that haunted him every single day. Meds or not, it was hard, but without seeing Harper daily, Crockett began to feel like he would forget her.

“Sarah, I need to see her.”

“I can’t do that, you know how unsafe it can be to take you off such a high dosage. I know you are upset but we can talk through this, okay?”

“No!” he was getting frustrated, even though he hated to yell at Sarah. She didn’t understand how important this was. He didn’t care if she was dead and she claimed the delusions weren’t real, he just wanted his daughter back. Even if it wasn’t the proper reality, maybe Crockett didn’t want to live in one without Harper. He told Sarah that much, upset that she would claim that she isn’t there anymore. She is always there; sitting on his bed and playing with her stuffed bunny, singing songs from those Disney shows she adored so much. Crockett saw her, held her close when the bad feelings returned and he felt like he was drowning. His baby would never leave him, she couldn't; Harper was all he had left.

“Hey,” Sarah spoke quickly when she recognized his agitation, “I’m sorry. Tell Harper I didn’t mean any harm, next time she’s around, okay? Can we start over, please?”

He frowned, knowing what she was doing, but nodded all the same. He didn’t want to fight with Sarah, she was one of the only staff members around here that he properly trusted. She didn’t want to upset him and she didn’t want to take his daughter away, it was just hard to recognize that sometimes. She wanted to help, to understand his mind, and maybe it was time for Crockett to let someone in again. It had been far too long.

“Start from the beginning,” she prompted as he slowly relaxed again, “How long ago did this low start?”

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MARVEL

@theonceandfutureloki​ { Loki, including some variants; main } @siehattenkeinennamen { Erik Lensherr }  @morethanashield { Steve Rogers } @abidinganger { Bruce Banner; main } @timeslidingsonuvabitch { Cable } @toavengedefeat { multimuse for Marvel and DC characters } @veritasxomniaxvincit { Sigyn }

STAR WARS

@untilnolongerprofitable { Hondo Ohnaka; main } @lightinhersmile { Salju } @nowandtilthespire { multi for residents of Black Spire Outpost }

[ There are other Star Wars, but these are the loudest at present. I also have several OCs, Cobb Vanth, Migs Mayfeld, Maul, Kit Fisto, and several others. If you have any interest in any of those, just let me know as they may perk up with plotting! ]

ONCE UPON A TIME IN WONDERLAND

@lovebeyondproof { Alice & Cyrus }

PRIDE & PREJUDICE

@onlytolerable { Elizabeth Bennet } @perfectlyamiable { Mister Bingley }

MISCELLANEOUS DISNEY/DREAMWORKS

@roidestruands { Clopin } @heretherebedevils { Captain Hook } @neverhadafriendlikeme (under construction) { Genie } @bewarethepatientwoman { Megara } @alivingdarkness { Kozmotis Pitchiner / Pitch Black } @ohfieryautumn​ { Lady Pitchiner / The Autumn Spirit } @fullxofxwonder​ { Nicholas St. North } @hopeandnewlife { E. Aster Bunnymund }

TOLKIEN, MYTH, and FANTASY (canon and original worlds)

@naughtbutdreams { multimuse for original and Tolkien muses; main } @beautymarred { Thranduil } @whoshallbeking { Thorin } @ofthedeathdance { Tristan of Arthurian Lore } @glamglitterandgoblins { Jareth, the Goblin King }

QUEEN OF THE SOUTH

@violenceistheanswer { James Valdez; main } @notagamblingman { Taza } @beingacabronisachoice { Boaz Jimenez } @theheartbeatofnola { Marcel Dumas } @hernameiswar { La Reina } @heknowssomebody { miscellaneous characters } @whosthecaptainnow { King George }

MISCELLANEOUS CHARACTERS

@amonstrousphantom { The Phantom of the Opera } @buscarparamivida { original character } @ariverofdarkness { Sonny Crockett and Ricardo Tubbs of Miami Vice } @menofresolve { miscellaneous characters from film and television } @thelegendarywest { multimuse for Wild West characters } @demmedxelusive { Sir Percival Blakeney, baronet / the Scarlet Pimpernel }