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mamasplat · 2 months

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Well.....you said calem's mom could be abusive. Hit us with your worst because I'm so invested in calem right now.

(This is referring to my past discussions on Calem’s parents and this post specifically)

I’ve been workshopping this idea for a while as in my read and characterizations of the kalos cast I had one important question, “why is rival Calem so shut off?”

He’s afraid and defensive with any signs of his own vulnerability, he has the pride and ego of a damp masquerain, and he’s shown to find an odd sense of solace in characters like AZ, Emma, and even Lysandre because of it.

And while it’s easy to blame it on a societal system and naturally bred misogyny from his environment that makes him such a mess emotionally, I wanted another possibility. His father who is an npc you can speak to when in snowbelle city, sings nothing but jolly high praises of the boy…so i started looking at the other veteran trainer, his mom.

(Continue on below the cut at your own discretion, I’m not talking about anything too intense or explicit, but I am talking about abusive tendencies in parental bonds.)

Calem’s mother isn’t evil, she doesn’t hate her son, but she’s the furthest thing from maternal and when his father starts traveling again there’s no one to balance out his moms more…negative behaviors.

She’s a strong battler, entitled and not accepting of anything lower. Even from her own son when he was learning to battle. From his childhood to his late teens she’s a fearsome force buzzing in his ear. Hands gripping at his chin in his moments of simple losses, nails biting into his skin, making him look her in the eye. Making him admit failure with the phrase “boys don’t cry” muttered through gritted teeth as he bites his tongue to not admit she’s hurting him. Don’t make a fool of yourself, don’t fail me, don’t ruin our happy family because you can’t counter your type disadvantage. It pushed him to get better yes, but at a cost.

He never learns that it’s okay to lose, he never learns how to lose. His first loss in years comes by the hands of Serena, it makes him feel unaccomplished and defenseless, ready to write off every excuse for his earned loss he’s caught off guard when she smiles at him and truthfully says he fought well. Words he’s never heard when on the losing end of a battle.

His mom is an entitled woman, her kindness rarely seen nor earned even by her own bloodline. Without her husband, Calem’s father, by her side to help Calem grow and mature; she guides with a hand that’s far too heavy and leaves marks and bruises in its wake. Forming a depressive insecure shut in of a son who’s only true reason for going on his journey was to meet his neighbor and perfecting his tactics.

But he’s just a boy. A human boy. A human boy who should never be punished for losing or learning. And he learns that having feelings or expressing weakness is a bad thing that will only get him chastised and punished with no good reason.

As he finds some semblance of peace and self worth on his journey in the patient hands of his friends, he finds him and his mother may never see eye to eye. As she will never admit fault for his fragile mental past nor his dependency on winning for his life to have meaning. He was a sore loser heading down a path of shame before a graceful twist of fate sent a neighbor his way perfect to patch the void his upbringing left. Even if he often finds himself relapsed into old tendencies.

His father knows his mom’s hard on him, he tries to make up for it by spoiling his son at the drop of a hat. his mom wears the pants in her relationship and it’s likely she may never change.

If you hug Calem and tell him everything is okay there’s a solid chance he will break- he always strikes me as touch staved since he refused to let anyone truly get to know him until starting his journey.

#OP is reaching into a story that gave very little in ways of explaining its story and somehow keeps finding stuff to work with #messy rambling my bad #veteran trainer catrina #calem’s parents #trainer calem #parental abuse #tw: parental abuse #headcanon break down #kalosshipping implications #headcanons #character study #veteran trainer louis #this can fit with or without trans masculine Calem headcanon #or maybe even trans fem calem- I’ve never tried that one-#kalosshipping

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gravitysoda · 11 months

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Relief.

#mobile suit gundam #mobile suit gundam the witch from mercury #gundam witch #gwitch #sulemio #suletta mercury #miorine rembran #the last few episodes were messy as fuck ngl #but hey at least sulemio are canon married #just wish the series had done a better job of establishing its stakes near the end #like they never really even explained what was so bad about quiet zero #or what it would do in general #the giant space laser was just pointless and ultimately affected nothing #i kind of expected spirits in the data storm also #but would have liked to have seen notrette more than el4n #anyway here’s my ramble in the tags #overall good show just wish the end hadnt been so messy #soda art

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foxaoxarts · 1 year

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BEE KISS TOMORR- *dead* /j

If anyone wants to watch me drawing this like a little victorian child then the timelapse is below the cut 🤣

(FLICKER WARNING. It's all through out so be careful!👍 )

#RWBY #Bumbleby #Blake Belladonna #Yang Xiao Long #Foxarts #YOUR HONOR I HATE THEM (that's a lie actually)#I'VE BEEN STARING AT THIS FOR 3(?) DAYS NOW AND I'M SICK #Technically this doesn't contain spoilers but let me know if I should add the tag!#In reality I think cloud scene will happen episode 7-ish BUT being delusional is what being a bee fan is all about-#This is the first time I've actually tried drawing a kiss sooooo hope it turned out ok xDD #I am the one who looks away when anyone kisses for more than 2 seconds so.#Kisses aren't very photogenic that's all I'll say (I had 3 tutorials open and 5 references pulled up)#This was so messy- I forewent line art because I hate it and I thought it wouldn't be bad to just clean up the sketch. I was kind of right.#Watching back the recording is funny because I've always known I'm disorganized but just watching it play out is hilarious.#Enjoy my little notes and doodles 😌😌#They're so soft I want to scream.#I SURE HOPE I DIDN'T FORGET ANYTHING 😭#Risking my livelihood for these stupids since 2020 *strikes pose*#Anyways that's enough of my rambling.#HAVE A NICE DAY Y'ALL!!

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mcwexlie · 19 days

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why is there not enough discussion on saul and skyler’s relationship… they should’ve interacted more in canon but like. think abt it

skyler is this competent blonde woman who’s extremely smart and good at scamming (and pretty! and associated with blue!) and she has the biggest dipshit husband ever.

saul who is oh so desperately trying to keep his unloving sleazeball act up is failing bc. my God does this woman remind him of kim in the saddest way possible (ntm they start interacting more post gale death, when shit i’d argue really starts falling apart… Hmmm). he still acts like a dick to her but… in a protective way i feel. like he doesn’t want her to be nice to him or get close to him but still showing he has her back in his own fucked up way

and saul being soooo pissed that walt bagged this perfect woman and he’s still being a disrespectful shit like saul might be misogyny queen but even he was weirded tf out w walt…

#also they should have like the saddest sex ever #nsft tags #like im being serious they both hate themselves and their lives and i’d see it as like. the whole ted thing but even worse somehow #at least ted seemed kinda nice a bit even if he was a bit stupid and weird but saul? my god #also i live the idea of walt saul homoerotic hate tension alongside saul’s very obvious unresolved feelings for kim manifesting in the #feelings towards skyler. like this shit is so messy and if i was a good enough writer i would write this bc it would be good #im putting this out here for the good writers make my weird brba nightmare … love triangle if u can even call it that…. true #/j but yknow #mepost #brba #breaking bad #brbabcs #hf #si #rambles #mtags #brba spoilers #bcs spoilers

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milkpieces · 4 months

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Chronic shipper brain disease aside, my greatest hope for the HD re-releases of AJ, DD, and SoJ is that it reels in some more naruodo enjoyers / tolerators.

Not shippers, per say (although that would be nice), but at least people who see their fun broken-but-then-mended hero worship dynamic across all three games,

look at the fan art and fan fics made about it, and go, “It may not be my thing, but I get the appeal,” instead of picking up their metaphorical pitchforks because of an 11-year age difference between two unrelated adults who met as adults.

#ace attorney #spoilers #<- just in case #naruodo #hobopollo #neopollo #justwright #my ramblings #my second hope is that the ‘new’ trilogy finally gets some love instead of more backhanded compliments #like yes it’s messy and all over the place #but considering that Shu Takumi — the series’ main writer — was busy with other projects…. what came out without his lead wasn’t half bad #aa 5 & 6 are still a lotta fun to play despite all the plot threads it had to drop from 4 #besides it’s just sweet seeing Wright pass the torch (sort of lol) and act like the mentor Mia was to him to Apollo and Athena now #plus you can’t sit there and tell me Athena’s mood matrix shtick isn’t the coolest addition to the series #anyway #all this to say I’m having a great time replaying the 3DS era of ace attorney on my switch ^^

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smokbeast · 5 months

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genuinly feels really sweet when yall like my ocs or messy sketch pages;;

#thank you so much it really helped me feel a bit better rn about it #i always feel bad posting my ocs lkdfgjh but its really nice that you guys like them #same with messy pages or my silly hcs on fandom stuff but my oc stuff really hits a nice spot thankyou weh;;#i always read tags and i always love answering them or asks its my favorite pF;;#love and kisses <3 #smoki rambles

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messenger-of-stupidity · 9 months

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They watered the plants that sat in the bay window, soaking up the sun that peeked through the clouds - as if playing peekaboo with the world below.

"Grow little ones. I want Anton to be able to come home to a place that is lively." They whispered gently, a finger stroking the verdant sprouts in one of their more fresh plants they had purchased from the nursery.

Anton would probably need the life around him if he came home.

No. When. They needed to stay hopeful. They would see their lover soon. They could be patient. They blew a kiss to the plants before moving to the other window where more plants waited to be watered. They didn't see the the dying fronds of the love fern as they went.

#you cant tell me that anton and his listener dont have a love fern #for those who dont know what a love fern is:#its a fern you get when you start a serious relationship #its considered bad luck for the relationship if the plant dies #since plants need an emotionally healthy environment when domesticated #hehe domesticated plants #messy rambles #redacted asmr #redactedverse #redacted audio #redacted anton listener #redacted anton #i fucking hate typing on my phone #i always make way more typos

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313i · 5 months

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> fmab band au babbles!

a few notes before i get started:

this is TERRIBLY MESSY!! i apologize in advanced as this is a long ramble meant for me to help organize my thoughts :p

modern highschool setting

very much centered around ling. i like him and think he deserves more content.

features edling (ed x ling), a broken up edwin, royai, and al x mei. mainly edling

i’m not very good at aus. sorry

i made a(n) [iffy] playlist where i slapped a bunch of songs onto for this au. here is the link if you’d like:

enjoy my ramblings below the cut! vvv

ling has always been an outgoing and friendly person, but has struggled to keep relationships due to his own insecurities. lan fan was one of his first official friends because she’s helped him snap out of his negativity and has pushed him to be the confident person he should be

> ( she looked at him and went. “damn bitch. u really live like this.” and decided to help him like he was a stray dog left out in the rain )

the insecurities in question were of him wondering if he was really worth anyone’s time as a lot of people seemed to get annoyed of him (people thought him to be cocky or too much of a “pick-me” personality)

he was also battling with his own identity as he realizes he likes Men (and women!) + wants to experiment more with his fashion (he wants to try on black nailpolish)

> ( think ling would also resonate with prom queen by beach bunny )

her encouragement led to ling being able to pursue his passion in music and arts, ending up in him creating music

the two of them were able to find their own respective talents regarding instruments and basically created a two-man band ( ft. fu funding their creative projects )

ling broke into the band room after hearing someone going ham on the drums (someone being ed) and recruited him and all his friends to join

he was really enthusiastic about this and did not even bother to ask for their names or if they could play an instrument

al is the first person to agree because he’s just as excited as ling is. he really wants to show off his years of piano skills to someone other than his tired old brother and an equally tired winry

winry joins shortly thereafter thinking she could get someone to coach her on how to play the guitar better (she picked it up recently because she wanted to accompany ed and al on their musical journeys)

ed is the last to reluctantly agree because he thinks ling is a bit strange at first. he ends up caving in because two people in the room keep staring at him with big puppy eyes in attempt to convince him

> ( this random kid he considered popular just invited him to join a makeshift band. what. )

as months fly by, everyone’s grown to be good friends

ling can proudly say hes got a good group of friends who’ll gladly make music with him. he’s perfectly happy and content with his life :p

until he realizes he Might have a little crush for the drummer boy

the little crush is not so little he actually has a huge fat crush on ed lmfao

the two have especially been spending a lot of time with one another during and out of school—they seem to have eachother in a lot more classes than they thought!

this makes things a little messy as ling starts writing more romantic songs (not very typical for him) and his band mates question his weird actions

basically this backfires right in ling’s face. he asks al about his brother’s relationships and he tells ling that ed and winry have some sort of relation going on

> ( little does he know: ed is currently going through the same exact thing he’s going through as he questions his sexuality )

ling ends up heartbroken because he assumes that ed is straight (He has piercings, ripped jeans, and black nail polish.That boy is homo!) and starts to fall back into his old habits

like a harsh wound, his insecurities reopen once more to make ling question if all the time they spent together was a lie

> ( was it all really one-sided??? ling could’ve sworn he saw ed look at him with love in his eyes. or maybe that was just his imagination??? )

ling grows distant from ed and refuses to communicate with him out of fear that 1. his worries are true 2. he’s homophobic 3. he himself is admitting to not being straight (like everyone thought he was)

though he notices, ed is stuck on two different worlds and can’t make a decision. he likes both winry and ling too much and doesn’t want to hurt either of them. but in order to make a choice, he must

al is practically the only one happy at this point because he meets mei somewhere along the way and they’re going great :) i don’t want to cause alphonse any pain

lan fan is stressing out over losing her friends and the band that she knows ling worked hard to put together

fu doesn’t have any idea what’s going on

that’s what i have so far x

in short everyone is in pain (besides al and fu) and it’s a confusing teenage love story about kids figuring out who they are and what they want (and don’t want) in life

this concludes my tedtalk. thank you for coming to my show (bows)

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chewysgummies · 10 months

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Okay, I'm just randomly making shit up. But I thought about if they were to make killbot 86 into a toy, they could maybe use the Betty spaghetti type of toy for him? Especially since I noticed how he's had squiggly arms and limbs and how he bent them.

Like something like this with his arms and legs but with his body shape and mold his limbs a bit bigger to match how it looks in the cartoon instead of making them skinny like the picture shown below:

They even stand like this in a somewhat similar pose: (Also yes, I have to use a sailor moon figure cuz it was the only thing I could find that stands in the somewhat same position.)

Random as fuck post, I know. I just really want a toy figure of him to exist and I just thought that maybe his type of toy can be based on this noodle-like, bendy model.

#chewys notes #killbot 86 #woy #wander over yonder #toy model #betty spaghetty #Just a thought #just random ramblings #I wish i can make one myself #maybe ill go look up a video and see what material they used for the toy #Also my bad if this format is messy #just wanna get my thoughts across

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technicalthinker · 4 months

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CONSPIRACY THEORY TIME FOR SONIC PRIME S3'S PACING ISSUES+ MISSING 8TH EPISODE

Maybe they had another final act planned for s3, taking place after the big fight against Nine in the Grim (for example fighting the council), but they ended up cutting/rewriting it. So instead they expanded on the battle to pad out the season but still had to cut a whole episode. Thats why we only got 7 episodes.

Alternatively they had to cut an episode bc of outside forces - couldnt do the ending they wanted, fluffed up the middle instead. Maybe it happened late enough in the production so they couldn't do massive rewrites.

#amanda rambles #sonic prime spoilers #sonic prime #sonic blogging #IM HALF JOKING BTW. PLS TAKE THIS LIGHTLY.#and dont wanna sound like a 'secret episode' conspiracy theorist FOR REAL take this very lightly #but from my experience with weird media is that more often that not production is messy and things dont go according to plan #so it can be fun to lightheartedly theorize #BUT #FOR THE RECORD:#i think it's very likely they just wanted the biggest battle + bad writing #like this is not the most flawless best paced show of all time even before s3.#like sometimes it is just bad writing (sherlock s4) and it is what it is #but this would MAKE SENSE TO ME. LIKE IF THIS IS THE STORY EVERYTHING CHECKS OUT 100%.#if the battle was like 1 ep shorter and it ended with nine and sonic reconciling #the council steals the finished prism and they have to fight them in new yoke maybe at the same time as Sonic is partially fading away or s #like i cAN SEE THAT BEING AN EARLY DRAFT and then they ended up squeezing it all together for some reason #maybe it was some characterization they didnt like or whatever and so they had to rearrange stuff a.k.a domino effect

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circusislife · 1 year

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you know what? I am hyped up because training went well and the show in this sunday. I managed to get a good video of the sequence for my Number with the Diablo and I am freaking proud and want to share It!!!!

(ignore the ending. It was spinning too fast and I missed to catch the rod and Lost control 😅)

@someluwritingghost @astral-catastrophe @luckybyrdrobyn @hyperfixatezz

Congratulations! you four are the ones i decided to bother to vent my excitement!

those are almost all of the tricks I'm going to use at for my Number!!!:D

want to know the coolest thing?!?!? The Number Is with lights off!!!

there are a few glow-in-the-dark tools in storage, like juggling balls, bolas, holahoops, and a few Diablos!!!

Both the Diablo and the rods are glow-in-the-dark, but the stringa isn't!!! It's going to look amazing!!!!:DDDDD

And since mine Is the last number, everyone enters the scene aswell at One point of another with One of the other glow-in-the-dark tools and!!! It Will be Just all those pretty moving lights all around!!!! Appearing to be suspended in nothingness!!!!

Gcddjvfifjgjfkgjgcfgdbhfg🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩

#random #rambling #circus ramble #(more like Circus gushes about circus)#(ignore the hair. It's tied up weird and messy. But the last thing you need Is to not see something and trow stuff at people on accident)#(jugglery might be fun)#(but being hit/hitting oneself with the out of control tools sure isn't!)#(i would't normally post anything with my face)#(but the quality Is bad enough)#(and this Is probably going to fade in the background never to see the light of day again before tomorrow)#(By the end of training my right arm was freaking sore from overexertion)#(but It Is so worth It!!!)#(that thing isn't as light as It looks)#:)#imma save this for later #Goodnight!!!

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mamasplat · 16 days

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Going off real world counterparts- pasio likely takes from unova law as unova would have one of the highest drinking ages at 21, compared to hoenns age of 20 or kalos with 18.

Therefore it’s easier to abide by the higher age as an artificial island. Pasio is treated as its own entity not under any other regions government (or at least until Lear tells us whatever kingdom he’s in-) and unova is a big supplier of tourism anyways.

And if I’ve put Courtney at age 20 (20-23 but I tend to stick her at 20 during ORAS) this means she’d be able to drink back home in hoenn…but not on pasio where she’d have more reason to drink.

#alcohol tw #I have a reason for this post i swear #messy rambling my bad

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hazukiyouka · 1 year

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Personal Impression on DMMD Flashback 2023

First of all, even though I could pass through the region block thingy, but I had to set the video quality on auto or else the buffering time would drive me mad. So the result was, sometimes I got a super clear images then suddenly could switched to blurry ones. Which is kinda annoying cause I couldn't focus on their faces. 🙃

Anyway, I'm not really good at writing in Tumblr, so probably I'll just straight out pointing my impressions. Yes, this is my personal take after watching Virus & Trip route live streaming. I'll try my best not to spoil everything. 😄

Nothing really changed at the first part of the story. It just brought back the memories. Except that it wasn't Seichan as Aoba. 🥲

I should say both Seichan and Nao had their hit-and-miss parts. And strangely I feel like they can complement each other. Like, there were some parts where I thought Seichan did it better, or vice versa.

Everyone who were back to their respective roles really upgraded their game. Since I was watching this route, I think Tominaga Yuya really brought out the "quiet madness" of Virus.

(A bit) SPOILER ALERT: this ViTri route covered their Re:connect bad end story. Yes, most of it.

The second part where the story branched was really DENSE!! It felt like they try to squeeze the entire ViTri bad end into a single scene. Well, of course we just couldn't ask for more "detailed scenes", are we? 😌

Even so, I think Nao did well in this. I want to praise him for his courage to go...... uhmm.... shirtless.... on stage.

The interpretative dance at "those scenes" was appealing to me. I mean, it felt delicate and kinda suppressing. I like Nao's expressions here, especially when his eyes started to went dead. Uumm, please excuse my do-S part... lol

The ending was just like the game where Aoba was resigned to his fate. After that, we got all casts dancing to EVIL MASCULINE song (in which we can see it roaming around Twitter).

Overall, I'm quite impressed with this new route and how they performed it. As for the casting, I still think that Nao will be more suitable in portraying Sly Blue. That boy is surely sharp. While Seichan was softer, but I felt that he was a little bit overdid in some parts.

And finallyyyy! Though I'm, myself, still quite biased to Seichan but so sorry that I won't tolerate any slanders toward Nao. He had worked so hard and did a great job in this. Thankfully, he seems pretty calm and stays positive. So let's be kind to him~ 💙

#dramatical murder #dmmd stage #dmmd flashback 2023 #dmmd stageplay #dmmd livestream #virus & trip route #personal impression #tsuchiya naotake #nagata seiichiro #bad end story #sorry it's bit messy #or rather really plain :))#dramatical murder stageplay #aoba seragaki #my rambles

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todayisafridaynight · 1 year

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Kiryu's trying so hard to be a good dad for all of his kids while Kazama very clearly only favored Kiryu. Do I think this was an intentional writing decision? Probably not but it's interesting

intentional or not, its a good perspective and helps explain why kiryu Is Like That. especially if we want to look at the case of nishiki who was given too much power before he was ready to handle it (and around the same age as daigo too if not a little younger), kiryu wants to make sure daigo doesnt similarly crumble under that pressure that nishiki did. we know nishiki's death haunts him for at least five games after the fact- it's no wonder he's so hyperfocused on making sure it doesn't happen again

the problem lies in that, just like kazama to nishiki, kiryu was the reason why daigo got that much power in such a short amount of time anyway. we know he acknowledges this, which is probably why he tries so hard for the tojo despite wanting to distance himself from the yakuza world. kazama did the bare minimum- if anything- for nishiki. and while we know kiryu respected kazama immensely, i want to hope over the years he's realized that leaving a young man in a powerful position unprepared isn't a good idea, esp after mine rubbed salt in the wound and called him out for abandoning the tojo- ergo daigo, so now he especially feels like he has to make it up to him.

if he couldn't help nishiki, then the next best thing he can do is help someone he considers his son- as if trying to right the wrong kazama did and be a better father, whether he can admit or not to kazama failing to take care of nishiki

but the follow up problem to THAT is he's neglecting his other kids when he does go to help. it wouldnt be a problem if RGG remembered the ryudo family and they could watch the kids while he's gone or something, but since they don't we just have to assume haruka's unfortunately been left to act as big sister to all these kids, and THAT has undoubtedly bred a great burden of feeling responsible when she's only a kid. it's really unfortunate that while kiryu apologizes to daigo repeatedly, he never apologizes to haruka for leaving her alone and in charge so many times (i actually thought kiryu's letter in Y6 was supposed to go to haruka at first). it's made her feel as though she has to take care of everyone and she has to be the strong one for the family when kiryu's away, and because of that we get problems like Y5 and Y6

in all of this, and in a terrible twist of irony, in trying to prevent one of his loved ones from enduring a similar fate as nishiki, he's now jeopardizing his relationship with his other kids- he's now unintentionally putting haruka on the back burner because he's so traumatized over what happened to his brother. he might have prevented another nishiki situation, but haruka had to be collateral as a result

#snap chats #of couse it wasnt just kazama giving power to nishiki that was the problem he was obvi dealing with his sister too #but we get what im saying right #honestly i hadnt even considered all of this until you pointed it out anon and im really glad you did #it really helped shine a light and explain things to me #again i dont think kiryus doing these things with bad faith- hes doing it for the exact opposite actually #he's just so wrapped up on preventing the past from happening again he's not focused on everything else around him #like poor haruka i feel so bad for her but i also cant hate kiryu because i know hes trying #again its a complicated situation no one's 'evil' here- irresponsible and neglectful sure #but it's not like kiryu's happy to punt haruka to the side to catch a flight to tokyo #like again kiryu please daigo's a grown man he's gona fumble the bag a bit but please trust him #i know after Y4 it's hard to do that but trust him #honestly he seemed to be alright until majima 'died' in Y5 THEN he felt like he actually had to do something #oughhh kiryu i love you.. i love how messy you are #but haruka makes me so sad she reminds me of my brother sometimes #love how Y4 and Y6 is like. Hi Kiryu You Ready To Suffer The Consequences Of Your Actions #but yeah theres my monthly Kiryu Is A Dad ramble of the month thanks for indulging me

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the-girl-who-barks · 9 months

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Everyone say hi to Jerry!

He's the only angelestial of his kind (as far as he knows since his creator abandoned him). Hes a curious, pranky, funny fella.

Since he was born and left alone in the void, he learned to create creatures thorough his magical god like powers. His tears or bits and shards of his soul bend the void into existence, however they are not sentient, only alive.

He craves attention and also desire to find or create like minded beings. Beings like the ones from earth, which is right next to his dimension.

Jerry is not allowed to touch or go to earth, there is a barrier that prevents him from leaving the void he was born in, leaving him stuck alone with his souless creations.

His creator never returns for him, he assumes his creator had also created that blue thing. The blue thing releases souls, and they fuse together with his souless creations.

He created his first soulful being, one that would be his best friend and close companion. Together they continued to use earthly souls for their own creatures and beings. Jerry began creating a world of his own. He wonders if his creator would be happy with him.

As time goes on, he gets glimpses of the future, a very scary future. He knows something terrible is going to happen, however he refuses to believe it to be true. It's just a nightmare he keeps having. He just doesn't want things to end. He doesn't want to be alone ever again.

He hides his true anxieties behind a mask of prankery and sillyness, but his subordinates can tell there's something wrong.

He will never tell though and it would be too late anyway.

#dreamcrest ramblings #dreamcrest #oh it is on baby i hope yall enjoy the little excerpts im going to just spit out here and there #because i want to create a world. create a story. i have so many characters.#its gonna be messy but its our mess.#jerry #anyways jerry is a great guy. its too bad though... his kindness and silly nature will be the end of him.#this ref is old but it is up to date #i love his plush design #if i had to be honest.#jerry reflects me. and that is terrifying to acknowledge.#I create to distract myself from the inevitabilities. he is more human than he thinks and he desperately tries to be human.#hes just my silly little god guy.

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mbat · 9 months

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okay, im gonna say something and i dont know if itll make sense to anyone but me but. us finally getting to see angel crowley as compared to current crowley... it reminds me of trauma

i mean, angel crowley was so expressive and full of joy and life, like nothing could go wrong!

and current crowley is stoic, sarcastic, jaded. its hard to believe theyre the same person, though even that part is up to debate depending on what you think about crowleys memories

and it makes me think of me and others ive known whove gone through stuff and how much it changes you as a person, and it makes me wonder just what the fall was like. i mean, at the very least it was an utter betrayal and terrifying, right? life changing, most of all to someone like crowley whos only """wrongdoing""" was asking questions, and not even bad ones.

i dont really have a point, im just sad. like, obviously we all love crowley in any form and such but its like... wow, he used to be so beyond happy and now a real smile from him is rare, and universe knows he likely will never smile the same way he used to ever again. all of this for asking questions.

plus like, the way that he just keeps getting reminded of it in every single way, especially the way that people from above and below wont just leave him alone to live his life.

it also makes me think of that whole last thing with him and zira. he didnt want the fate of a demon but sure as hell he isnt going to return to being an angel after what they did to him. i wonder if aziraphale even knows what it was like. has he ever asked? would crowley even actually answer?

#good omens #this is a messy ramble sorry #i just cant help but think about it now when i see angel crowley #he reminds me so much of me before my life was kinda ruined man #its just harsh #also if anyone says anything bad about zira im going to kill them <3 just saying #and yeah i know crowley like fought in whatever that dumb war thing was but like #do we even actually know much about that aside from 'it happened'#my post #i have so much thoughts and feelings about this show rn but im even worse at words rn than usual idek why #im also not saying its intentional on the part of the writers for it to be like trauma idfk whats intentional or not but like #its just how i read it as someone with my own trauma #ignore me

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