ranting about i can fix him (no really i can) for a minute cause
i was dating this guy and he so this song. the stupid jokes that i didn’t laugh at and the way everyone told me he was a great guy and told me later what he did to his last girlfriend.
the entire time i was fighting my morals but people thought i was crazy cause he was nice but i felt like i was betraying myself but i was like ‘i can fix him.’ WRONG.
he laughed it off when i caught him doing stuff he knew i didn’t like and I JUST LET HIM. like a fucking doormat.
and that literally turned out to be the least of my issues cause he literally cheated on me and got mad at me for being mad and broke up with me two days before prom while i was literally at the nail salon. i had already spent around $350 on a freaking dress and shoes and i could still have gone, technically, but my schools tiny and everyone loves him so i knew i’d spend the entire night being made fun of for showing up. my parents said they didn’t care about the money cause they wanted me far away from him lmao.
the worst part was his mom and sisters, who i loved, are totally on his side which feels like an even bigger betrayal.
so if you think you can fix him, DON’T EVEN TRY IT.
no really you can’t
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Since some people might want a Mac, I'll offer a Mac equivalent of your laptop guide from the perspective of a Mac/Linux person.
Even the cheapest Macs cost more than Windows laptops, but part of that is Apple not making anything for the low end of the tech spectrum. There is no equivalent Mac to an Intel i3 with 4 gigabytes of RAM. This makes it a lot easier to find the laptop you need.
That said, it is possible to buy the wrong Mac for you, and the wrong Mac for you is the 13-inch MacBook Pro with the Touch Bar. Get literally anything else. If it has an M2 chip in it, it's the most recent model and will serve you well for several years. Any new MacBook Air is a good pick.
(You could wait for new Macs with M3, but I wouldn't bother. If you are reading these guides the M3 isn't going to do anything you need done that a M2 couldn't.)
Macs now have integrated storage and memory, so you should be aware that whatever internal storage and RAM you get, you'll be stuck with. But if you would be willing to get a 256 gig SSD in a Windows laptop, the Mac laptop with 256 gigs of storage will be just as good, and if you'd be willing to get 8 gigs of RAM in a Windows laptop the Mac will perform slightly better with the same amount of memory.
Buy a small external hard drive and hook it up so Time Machine can make daily backups of your laptop. Turn on iCloud Drive so your documents are available anywhere you can use a web browser. And get AppleCare because it will almost certainly be a waste of money but wooooooow will you be glad it's there if you need it.
I get that you are trying to help and I am not trying to be mean to you specifically, but people shouldn't buy apple computers. That's why I didn't provide specs for them. Apple is a company that is absolutely terrible to its customers and its customers deserve better than what apple is willing to offer.
Apple charges $800 to upgrade the onboard storage from a 256GB SSD to a 2TB SSD.
A 2TB SSD costs between $75-100.
I maintain that any company that would charge you more than half the cost of a new device to install a $100 part on day one is a company making the wrong computer for you.
The point of being willing to tolerate a 256GB SSD or 8GB RAM in a Windows laptop is that you're deferring some of the cost to save money at the time of purchase so that you can spend a little bit in three years instead of having to replace the entire computer. Because, you see, many people cannot afford to pay $1000 for a computer and need to buy a computer that costs $650 and will add $200 worth of hardware at a later date.
My minimum specs recommendations for a mac would be to configure one with the max possible RAM and SSD, look at the cost, and choose to go buy three i7 windows laptops with the same storage and RAM for less than the sticker price of the macs.
So let's say you want to get a 14" Macbook pro with the lowest-level processor. That's $2000. Now let's bump that from 16GB RAM and a 512GB SSD to 32GB and 2TB. That gets you to $3000. (The SSD is $200 less than on the lower model, and they'll let you put in an 8TB SSD for $1800 on this model; that's not available on the 13" because apple's product development team is entirely staffed by assholes who think you deserve a shitty computer if you can't afford to pay the cost of two 1991 Jeep Cherokee Laredos for a single laptop).
For $3000 you can get 3 Lenovo Workstation laptops with i7 processors, 32GB RAM, and a 2TB SSD.
And look, for just $200 more I could go up to 48GB RAM and get a 4TB SSD - it costs $600 to upgrade the 14" mac from a 2TB SSD to a 4TB SSD so you could still get three laptops with more ram and the same amount of storage for the cost of one macbook.
I get that some people need to use Final Cut and Logic Pro, but hoo boy they sure are charging you through the nose to use products that have become industry standard. The words "capture" and "monopoly" come to mind even though they don't quite apply here.
"Hostile" does, though, especially since Mac users end up locked into the ecosystem through software and cloud services and become uncertain how to leave it behind if they ever decide that a computer should cost less than a month's rent on a shitty studio apartment in LA.
There's a very good reason I didn't give mac advice and that's because my mac advice is "DON'T."
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‘Mac should get a boyfriend for the whole season!’
‘Mac should be pissed at Dennis for at least a few episodes for the Johnny thing!’
Have we all forgotten ‘the gang dines out’ incident? Mac is not gonna be able to be mad at Dennis for three consistent hours before Dennis goes batshit insane and serenades him again.
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Today was hard.
Today I had a headache because I had another panic attack last night.
Today I woke up crying because I miss my cat.
Today I looked at my calendar, saw all my commitments, and felt anxious because I carry a heavy load in my daily life and I have been low energy and depressed for months.
Today I looked at my bass and realized I haven't touched it in over a month.
Today I looked at my WIPS and felt guilty for not having the energy or inspiration to write my projects.
Today I looked at my askbox and felt guilty because I haven't been interactive even though I want to be.
Today I wondered why people bother wanting to talk to me.
Today I felt like I let things slip through the cracks in my real life and let people down.
Today I felt alone because I feel guilty trying to talk about my problems, because more often or not I get dismissed, and just put my head back down and go back to work.
Today I felt sad because sometimes I feel like I hold space for others and their emotions, but the same is not often offered in return.
Today I had my first hate anon.
Today I wanted to run away and not come back.
Today I feel guilty for continuing to vent and not be able to get it together.
Today I felt grateful for my friends, but still guilty for not keeping my problems to myself.
Today was hard.
I hope tomorrow will be better.
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