lady furina, you precious precious prey animal oh how you were maded to be hunted

whenever someone asks me for help or advice i want to beam all my lived experience and advice that helped me through it directly into their mind to try and spare them as much pain and stress as possible, but because i cant actually do that what ends up happening is i dump everything i know related to that topic hoping something helps them like

"if we make america worse and more of a dictatorship that will be even harder to unravel and make it the way we want the country to be, maybe then everyone will join our Glorious Revolution!" bb girl you cant even be in the same room with someone who thinks you should vote, how in tf do you think you're gonna unite people to fight in The Revolution with you? it's gonna be you and your 5 friends, i hate to break it to you.

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for all my grievances with tangled the series, one thing i cannot criticize them for is their songs, i mean, sure, not all of them make sense in context (let me make you proud comes to mind), the songs are spectacular, from the vocals to the instrumental, all of them are a joy to listen to, whether they are just incredibly goofy, like the buddy song, to heartbreaking, like waiting in the wings, whether its a solo, a duet or a group, they are wonderful to listen to

Okay I love Dallas and all but that mans version of a "love song" would just be Chew Toy by Bloodhound Gang

having a very "oh I should've just killed myself in 2020" moment.

it's a damn shame no one has made a daredevil edit/animatic for "you're crashing, but you're no wave" by fall out boy because it would go really fucking hard

i dont understand what about this is so difficult for people to comprehend:

i just kinda want my thoughts on opinions on MY OWN HEALTH to be entertained instead of immediately disregarded

like. im 17. i shouldnt be having back pain so often. i shouldnt be having such severe leg pain. i shouldnt be dealing with such shitty hand joints. but FUCK ME i guess i dont get a say in jack SHIT about my own health!!!!! because what i say means fuck all!!!!! ok man!!!! whatever i guess!!!!!!!

I don't call myself a physically violent person but someone said I didn't understand mac and mks dynamic/characters and I'm now fighting them to the death

props and mayhem is very charactercoded ... hrmm... perhaps its best if i dont discuss this

LOVE ME THE MOST THE MOST YOU POSSIBLY CAN!!!!!! LOVE ME THE MOST I NEED TO BE THE ONLY THING IN YOUR MIND

:D

god i am so fucking frustrated

feeling so emotionally drained, i had to leave my dnd group :( i kept assuring the DM that i was fine and enjoying the campaign (which is true!) but she was CONVINCED i was upset, and wouldnt believe me when i said i was fine, and created this whole paranoid scenario in her head to the point where i was getting so stressed out.

it felt like when, as a kid, you're telling the truth and the adult keeps trying to get you to tell the truth, and tells you they KNOW you're lying but you're not lying and nothing you say will convince them of that

she kept saying "im bad at reading you" and "i cant read you" and i realize now that she cant read me because she was looking for angry, mean subtext that simply didnt exist. she wanted me to be upset with her, and couldnt accept that i wasnt.

im just tired, i spent months trying to get this girl to like me and walking on eggshells to prevent problems with her bc my other friends have warned me that she can be difficult, and since she couldnt find a problem with me, she MADE one. i cant win. im so tired. i had one (1) bad session on friday bc i was running on low sleep, had a rough time at work, was physically tired bc i went ROCK CLIMBING the day before, and in her mind it HAD to be because of her and i HAD to have it out for her. in reality i was just dissociating with a RBF 😩😩😩 i left the discord call abruptly bc i was TIRED and wanted to go to bed, but she assumed i was pissed at her! (not even abruptly, i said goodnight guys im really tired!)

anyway i exited the campaign bc the communication was just not happening. she kept saying our communication styles dont match, which is true, but ALSO every time i tried to communicate clearly and effectively, she simply didnt take me at my word w it. so there was no way for me to keep going and not be CONSTANTLY misinterpreted and CONSTANTLY trying to please this one girl. like im supposed to have fun and instead im spending the weekend trying to placate her...im tired!!!! im tired and im gonna find a dnd group that is Fun to play in

anyway im ranting i am full of emotions <3 i hope my exit from the campaign is best for everyone in the end, i want them to be able to finish their story how they want and get the ending the party deserves <3 its just sad bc i was really having fun and very invested in my character, and it seems like the DM just wanted to find and poke at flaws in my personality instead of just playing.

ofc she does somethings that annoy me sometimes, doesnt everyone! no one is perfect and immune to that! but im able to get past her flaws and know that she doesnt always mean to take things out on me. i can regulate my emotions by myself when i have an Off time in a dnd session, and by the time im ready for next session i have handled it without any lingering resentment. i give her the benefit of the doubt whenever she snaps at me (which honestly isnt an insignificant amount!) but i know thats just how she communicates and that its not a reflection on me as a person

God FUCKING dammit I give up.