#liking niche characters and having niche kinks is hell
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the urge to post about the character currently giving me brainrot (canonically fat, hot, bi-coded) vs. the fear of recognition (they are niche enough that people in separate circles would recognize me here if I talk too openly about said character since there are few quite as obsessed about them as I am)
#liking niche characters and having niche kinks is hell#too scared to talk too openly and the h/orny content i want to see isn't already out there? man...#i could absolutely write about them but again. fear of recognition. there might be some workarounds worth looking into though#(like anon posting on a/o3. that i might do.)#something something be the change you want to see in the world#anyway i also have to say that while watching bloopers from the show said character is from there is an outtake where they burp and uh.#i stumbled across that completely by chance and i did not expect it at all. thank goodness i was alone bc i lost my fucking mind.#it sounded so satisfying too... like damn they were already hot for many reasons and that made them like 5000% hotter#londarling
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Fic things I will never have enough of/get over:
“Oh no, they’re hot.”
“Great, now there’s two of them.”
See above but with more swearing and feelings of dread and impending doom
BAMFs with swords
Old wise person causing 90% of the chaos
“They’ve never met in canon.” “Actually, they’re dating.”
“They’re mortal enemies.” “Actually, they’re married.”
The keeper of the braincell
Sharing one braincell but they lost it
The cinnamon roll goes feral
Tiny feral child and their supportive, enabling, non-parental background adults
“I’m your problem now”
“Welp, guess I’m a parent now”
Accidental world domination
Competence
Competence kink
Calmly sipping tea while everything behind them is on fire
Trying to be a good, supportive adult but you have no point of reference so you end up giving a sword to a ten-year-old
Time travel
Person A and person B start dating and when they tell everyone persons C-Q are confused because haven’t they been dating for like three years now and persons R-Z thought they were already married
*does something previously thought to be impossible* “What, like it’s hard?”
Platonic besties that will help hide the bodies
Fake dating
Accidental baby acquisition
Accidental baby acquisition but they’re a middle-aged to senior adult with like five thirty-something-year-olds that are now their children
Crossovers that shouldn’t work but do
“I need help” “I’ll grab the shovel” “Not that kind of help”
“I didn’t know where else to go.”
Well-written non-canon pairings for characters that have other firmly established canon pairings. Like, fully alters the entire story line non-canon pairings. But done in a way that feels like a reasonable possible outcome.
A protagonist with a million problems to solve still taking the time to be kind
Forehead kisses
Time traveller going apeshit and fixing everything preferably in as Mary-Sue a way as possible
OP character who is oblivious to the fact that they are indeed OP
Character who spouts off increasingly concerning details of their life while not realizing everyone else’s growing concern or the fact that they’re probably about to be mother-henned for the next decade
Character who chooses a parental figure and informs said parental figure of this new development with little to no forewarning
Strong, stoic character is actually the most chaotic one there
Everything in the chaotic portion of the alignment chart
Getting back at a bad guy in as petty a way as possible
Time travel with two or more time travellers who don’t realize they’re not the only time traveller
The guy everyone thinks is going to beat up all the bad guys sitting back and watching the person previously believed to be as strong as an uncooked noodle absolutely demolish them
Any situation where characters play hot potato with a position of great power. “Congrats, you’re king now.” “Not if you can’t catch me, I’m not.”
Unexpected language skills
Unexpected skills in general, particularly if they’re as niche as hell
Two extremely competent individuals who lose all brain cells when within a close proximity of each other
Fixing problems on accident
Fixing problems on accident while actively trying to cause problems on purpose
Surviving primarily due to spite
#a non comprehensive list#fics#fanfic tropes#ao3#batman#batfam#and all the other fandoms I end up in#several of which I wake up in not sure how I got there#but then I stay for a little while#and then suddenly I’m invested#I think there are only two or three fandoms I’ve ever purposefully sought out#the other couple dozen just kinda happened
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Hello! This is a NSFW Confessional Blog!
This blog was created for all those of us who may have some nsfw thoughts about characters from the Texas Chainsaw Massacre movies and wish to talk about them anonymously.
This is a NSFW 18+ blog. DNI if you are a minor. Please block!
Not all confessions need to be nsfw specifically, but should be catered to cute and romantic or suggestive material at least.
All of the Texas Chainsaw Massacre movie characters are open to confession. From the Sawyers to the Hewitts, to the final girls and the victims between.
Not accepting TCM Game character confessions. Sorry.
No ship confessionals, please. This blog is mainly for users' personal fantasies or ideas about a singular character - whether that be what they wish they could do with a character, or what their nsfw headcanons are about them.
No hate. No judgement. Let people want what they want. Even if you disagree or find it "distasteful" or whatever. We all have our own attractions and our kinks. Let's all be civil here.
Follow tumblr's guidelines. No r4cism, h0mophobia, p3dophilia, abl3ism, anything like that. Highly doubt there would be, but still want to write that out.
This is not meant to replace or overtake any other confessional blog that exists, it's just a blog to fill a specific niche I'd like to fill: NSFW specifically.
Please feel free to confess! Any message helps this blog survive!
Whether you simply want to confess that you really want to kiss Bubba on his face or that you really wanna see his thang, or hell, you just want to talk about what that might be like, all is welcome!
Sometimes other NSFW or suggestive fanfiction/art/etc. for tcm will also go here and will be tagged as:
📷(photo), 🎨(art),✏️(text), 📽️(video)
#Howdy folks!! :)#Future posts will be tagged notsafe (explicit) or suggestive (non explicit) as tumblr is garbage about showing content at all otherwise#suggestive#texas chainsaw massacre#tcm#texas chainsaw#The Texas Chainsaw Massacre#tcm 2#the texas chainsaw massacre 2#tcm community#slasher community#slasher fucker#leatherface#tcm 1974#confession blog#MDNI
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Why making any concessions to puritan rhetoric is a bad idea
(note for the uninitiated: 'anti' is short for 'anti-shipper', 'anti-ship', or 'anti-fan'; in this context it refers to people who get very vocally militant about opposing dark kinks/problematic ships in media, especially creative fandom spaces. Proship is simply the opposite, people who vocally believe people should be free to make/indulge in whatever as long as a line is drawn between fiction and reality.)
(note 2: this was written for cohost, i cbf rewording it lol)
I very often see people - both websites and individuals - making a concession to the people who come up to them yelling about problematic kinks and guilt by association and 'why didn't you block this person' blah blah blah. It's happened with a few BNFs (big-name fans) in the UTDR scene lately, I've seen it from artists I respect, from friends, hell I used to be in this camp myself. And, of course, it happened to this website about a year back, and the conversation has come up again recently due yet another tumblr exodus.
It makes sense. The most common stuff that antis go after is stuff very few people are into: lolisho/cub, ferals, heavy gore, heavy noncon. It's niche, the real-world applications are unquestionably vile, it's very easy to just say 'I also find this icky regardless of whether I really believe that all people into it are secret criminals, so, I'll just block the people who they say are bad and move on.' I can't tell you the amount of times I've seen someone respond to proship/antiship discourse with "I'm an adult with a job." Going to bat for this content is high risk, low reward. You're not going to make friends, you're going to lose them. YOU WILL LOSE SUBSCRIBER, etc. As a result of all this it's very easy to assume that anyone defending it must be into it.
But I'm not. I'm a writer who often deals with darker subjects, but most of the first-on-the-list anti stuff, I'm not into at all. I'm not into ferals or gore period, noncon I like purely as character exploration, lolisho I can enjoy from the perspective of what I call 'trauma repair.' There's probably a proper term for it. But the tl;dr is I've never been actively aroused by any of these things, not in fantasy and especially not otherwise. Whenever I write them, it's just fascination or character analysis. Whenever I have a 'this character can be any age you want' fic, in my head, they're 18+. Writing noncon is a weird challenge for me because I'm constantly battling with the alternate ending in my head where the victim breaks free, beats the shit out of their captor, etc. This isn't me trying to claim virtue through this, just stating my position.
So… Why do I go to bat for these things? Why do I get annoyed when websites block lolisho, when artists have 'proship DNI' in their bio, etc? It's lost me a couple friends, it's certainly cost me followers and general reach, it's gotten me blocked by countless people I respected the work of. It's earned me a few callout posts, multiple with 1k+ followers, and one particular obsessed stalker who tells anyone who will listen that I actually groomed a child (despite all evidence otherwise). It's caused me a really significant amount of trouble. Why die on this hill?
The answer's kind of simple, when you boil it down: fictional fantasies either affect reality, or they don't. This is why I go to bat for things I'm not into, but it's also why whenever you see someone making concessions to antis, it's never enough. Cohost banned lolisho last year (I believe it's still banned?? Unclear), but the antis still make constant callout posts about this site and its owners. Some of the team have even gone out of their way to state very firmly that they're against these things, they've gone above and beyond just 'ban the bad thing' and broadcast their views about the morality of it. You'll frequently see artists write some huge apology or clarification when a callout post hits, usually involving some variation of 'I do not condone x y z and think it's disgusting.'
It's never enough.
But it makes sense, when you think about it. By drawing a line, you have essentially agreed with the core angle of the people screaming at you: that a fictional fantasy affects reality. That it's dangerous. You will, by necessity, now have people start to work down the list. Incest, ferals, gore, noncon, sure. Any relationship with any kind of skewed power dynamic. Sibling-coded, minor-coded, postminor nonsense. All of these things are less easily agreed to than lolisho, I've seen countless porn artists concede with the core idea that lolisho is immoral, then they act like it's unreasonable that people just keep going until they're being told that a knot on a furry is bestiality, or a 23 year old dating an autistic 21 year old is pedophilia. These are genuine examples of things I've seen people dogpiled for. Seriously look up "postminor" if you want to see how bad this can get, on top of being absurd it's one-for-one the kind of gross ableist shit that Autism Speaks gets into.
But YOU AGREED TO THEM. You agreed with the core concept, that the fantasy must reflect reality. Of course they're going to keep demanding more; by the logic you used to agree with them, you are doing immoral things. If fictional lolisho is immoral, so are the rest of them. It's way easier to look at your average pic on baraag or inkbunny and go 'oh, eugh, vile,' but at the end of the day the cutesy played-for-laughs sleeping kiss, the dubcon bondage that you don't call dubcon, or the meet-cute where they're a bit too drunk, they're all immoral fantasies.
That's not even to get into non-sexual stuff. If the lolisho fantasy is wrong, so is running down civilians in GTA. Suddenly your notifs are full of 16 year-old Jack Thompsons with rainbow flags in their bios.
This really is an all-or-nothing debate. If fictional fantasies affect reality, then even the immoral fantasies that you're personally comfortable with, the cutesy coy playful ones, must be immoral. If fictional fantasies don't affect reality, then even the ones that make you uncomfortable, the ones that have you scrambling to close your browser in case the feds are looking, must be fine.
It should have become very obvious over the last decade that you cannot fence-sit on this. There's a huge internal disagreement going on among progressive/queer/compassion-minded people, on whether these kind of things affect reality, or whether they don't. You can learn to apathetically dismiss stuff that squicks you, or you can learn to sanitize everything you ever make so there's not a trace of contentious theming left. Immoral fantasies are immoral, or only immoral actions are immoral.
You're going to have to pick one.
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Thinking about a character who is, like, more of the standard, "I am a Satanist, because I'm agnostic/atheist, and think religion shouldn't have control over people's bodies, science, or the government." who, when asked by the more religious/church worshipping clergymen, if they believe in Satan, is just like, "...Why would I?"
They're the type who sees the religious side of Satanism more as a means of pointing out the absurdities of larger religions and so forth, but some people are really into that side of it, and they're like... they're fine with it?
Like, at no point do they go, "You shouldn't believe in/do that-" because they think it's fine for people to have their own beliefs, just so long as they don't cause harm or are used to oppress others.
"I don't have the authority to dictate what you do, just don't kill anyone over it and we're all good."
They're just kind of doing it for the "Hell" of it really.
They don't think they're going to be honored or granted some great paradise for being a "good little devil worshipper" when they die.
They're very much a non-believer all around.
...However.
However.
They do have to admit they like the aesthetic.
They're a photographer, and their sort of niche for their work is religious iconography and symbolism, and the overall aesthetic of churches and so forth.
People look at their photos and think, "Oh, God, I can feel the faith." or something deeper like that, and they assume the photographer is highly religious or something.
No.
No, they just have a "thing" for this kind of stuff, and they aren't sure exactly how far down the rabbit hole they can go before it becomes obvious that their art is closer to, "I would fuck a priest given the chance." or "I would desecrate the altar in this church with cum." than, "Oh boy, I sure love Jesus."
Some people have figured it out though.
Copia, in particular, has a collection of their works, which he purchased from their online print shop, and they're hanging around the abbey here and there, and it's really obvious in those particular pictures that, "Yeah, the artist clearly has a kink, but look at the composition and lighting-"
Point is...
I'm working on another Ghost OC.
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oh goodie, glad to see someone who appreciates brainfucking. ive been looking for a while for a good fic of a character getting their ear penetrated and having their thoughts scrambled, but goddamn if it isnt apparently a hell of a niche kink
no it's such a good one i think it should be more popular than it is! it's like the perfect combination of ear shit, hypnosis, and just a little tiny bit of gore. it should not be that niche imo
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I love your fics so much. You’re doing the Lord’s work writing all these messed up niche kinks. Monster fucking, cannibalism and Salamancacest? Hell yeah! I get exited every time you drop a new fic.
I’ve got to ask, have you ever considered writing an emeto sick fic? Either Lalo, Nacho or both sick miserable and throwing up?
Totally okay if that’s not your thing, but I’d love to see a Lacho sickfic. It could be something sweet (one is sick and the other takes care of him) or totally fucked up. For example in your cannibalism fic, maybe Nacho does something to his meat and gives Lalo bad food poisoning. Bonus points if all the Salamancas get sick. It would be a small victory for Nacho but at least he’d be making them miserable for a while.
Either way, I’m in love with your stuff! I can’t wait to see what you come up with next.
hey there, thanks for the long nice ask!! I'm glad you like my fics!
as for emeto, that is also something I'm interested in! big shocker, right?? but I do enjoy the helplessness and drooling and loss of control that comes with a character throwing up. I love the idea for the guroverse! might have to incorporate it sometime!!
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ohhhh mhm! then other than Character/ Reader death, angst w/o comfort, or unrequited love do you have something else that you personally won't write that is too niche to actually be placed in the rules? Since you said you are picky (I totally get that TvT) maybe you have thought of an idea but then was like nahhh i dont wanna write this part of the fic cause of reasons.
Ohhh interesting question!! Let’s see……
♡ Certain Twst characters - For Genshin and Spider-Verse, I only write for my biases. As for Twisted Wonderland, I might do the same due to fading interest. I have fic ideas which were never written bc I didn’t have the motivation to write for my least favorite characters :<
♡ Male-receiving oral - As soon as I see it in a fanfic, I’m out. I can’t stand reading about it, even for ships. Fem-receiving oral (for Reader and Character) is perfectly fine, though.
♡ The following kinks - Voyeurism, public sex, necrophilia, piercings on intimate areas, etc. Thinking about it now, I might have to add more paraphilias to my rules since I’m now writing for What in Hell is Bad? *sighs*
♡ Certain ships - There are a lot of ships which I like/ dislike, but I didn’t include them in my rules since it would be a long list.
Also, I rarely write for my favorite ships bc I’m already well-fed by the fan art + fanfics of other creators. So Al Haitham can rest easy knowing he’s been spared from a longfic where he gets his back blown out by Kaveh ^o^
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it's the BG3 fic writing 2023 summary meme!
just doing this for fun because I've seen a few writers taking part!
What are your Ao3 stats? How many words written, how many hits, kudos, and comments?
For 2023,
words: 24608
hits: 19414
kudos: 2115
comment threads: 97
oooh, statistics!! now let's do a regression or something. ("on what"?? i don't know. could do something with the fic-by-fic data i suppose on comments vs kudos vs hits or whatnot)
I'm happy with these stats, and the comments make me happiest -- I had so many great reactions to my fics that really made me smile to read. (Or laugh, in some cases, which might be even better).
Did you have a favourite canon character to write?
Gale. gotta be Gale. I love doing Astarion's dialogue too tho because he has SUCH a fun voice.
Did you have a favourite OC to write?
I’ve written very little OC stuff, only a single Tav/Gale fic. So Vierlin, the morally deficient enchantment wizard and fellow nerd to Gale, wins by default in Suggestion!
Which fic was your most popular?
That's nor heaven peep through the blanket of dark, the Astarion/Gale sussur flower fic! IMO it's only the most popular because it was posted in September.
Which fic was your personal favourite?
Hm, I think oh, rotten little thing, just because corrupting Gale makes me horny :) my upcoming gortash/gale fic will be. very much about that
Was there anything you wrote that was a surprise to you? Why?
in full honesty no I'm not surprised. I'll write anything. I did do a very overtly niche-kink-driven fic tho for us feeders/fat fetishists, catalyst!
What is your favourite piece of description you wrote? Why do you like it?
It's hard question, but one of the most fun is this section with ascended!Astarion in At Knifepoint:
Astarion's face was cruel and angular in the half-light of the darkened library, stark shadows cast across his features, lips curled into a teasing smile. The Dispel Magic spell rushed over him faster than he could answer it, dark and sour like a sickening wave, and the invisibility curled away from his body like the burnt edge of a newspaper.
lots of tasty sensory detail and imagery!
What was your favourite piece of dialogue you wrote? Why do you like it?
the Conversation Full Of Lying between precanon gort and durge in Grim Trigger was just fun as hell to write:
"What, as an arms dealer? If I were to judge you by your victims, I would hardly be willing to set foot in the same room. But the cattle you so devoutly dismember are not me-- and the politicians and power-brokers that come under my influence are not you. Our relationship differs fundamentally."
The Dark Urge was silent for a moment, but Gortash saw by the set of his jaw that he remained very much unconvinced.
"What is it you imagine I would do to you?" Enver said.
"You'd like to hear that, wouldn't you?" the Dark Urge answered, his lips curling into a cruel smile. "With the blessings of Bane it's only become easier for you to have anything you please. An ordinary mortal falls apart underneath you so dreadfully easily-- and you wish I would go down just as soft and easily, swallowed up to satisfy your urges."
“You confuse your condition for mine, Bhaalspawn.”
Gortash felt the air thicken with the thoughts coalescing in the Dark Urge’s mind.
"You are not as different from me as you imagine."
"I'll take that in the complimentary spirit I'm sure you intended.”
What was your overall feeling about your writing in 2023? What were you proud of? What were the highlights?
I feel positive about it! The biggest highlight is just that I'm happy I started writing again-- I'm glad to be banging this stuff out instead of letting it languish in my head until I forget it.
What would you like to explore more in 2024?
A Lot. Possibilities include:
- several pairings I want to write but haven't yet (or at least haven't posted yet), especially Gortash/Gale or Gortash/Durge/Astarion
- a longer fic or two
- more and worse kinks (things i currently have at least in the back of my mind? hypnosis, sexual coercion/blackmail, some stuff that is fetishizing the political corruption in baldur's gate lol, forced impreg and misgendering, some medical play...)
- perhaps additional originals/non-bg3 works as well because i do still enjoy writing them!
i encourage anyone who sees this and feels like it to do this too! it was fun to reflect on the past year of fanficcing :D
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Look, it's late and I don't know what it is I can say or if I should say anything at all, but it's one of those nights where I feel like there's a lot swimming in my head and mucking up the whole show so...
I want to say thank you. For accepting me as I am, warts and all.
(Woe, lengthy rambling on my history to follow)
Look, I'm not part of some like- magical old internet old guard. I haven't been doing- or rather- sharing- art for that long. I really only started out a couple years ago, and before that all I really did were doodles, class assignments before I stopped doing any sort of art for a few years when I lost a close family member. Before I really started... getting into the furry scene, being open with who I was and who I am, I was a confused, scared little people-pleaser who would bend over backwards to please folks, to feel like I was part of something not by my own merits, but by virtue of having people to fill the silence- no matter who they were.
Can't tell you how often that hurt me- not a way of living I'd recommend anyone.
Anywho. On a whim, I started doing art again a couple years back, when I first started posting to twitter, and it was through that I started to become a part of the community, as it were- I wrote, then I drew, and I kept drawing. Kink stuff, mostly, because well, that was what I wanted to draw. But I found a community, friends, people who liked me not just because I gave them something, but because I was being myself, a person who, yeah, was a niche member of a niche group in the wide world of internet subcultures, but these were folks who saw me, the unvarnished, not-putting-on-an-act-for-once me and they... liked them.
This was also around the time I really started to address some ooooold traumas through therapy, so needless to say, it was a hell of a time. Anyways.
I can't really describe how much... just, learning I did these last few years. Learning who I was, learning what made me tick. Coming to terms with being ace and that being acceptable, then with being nonbinary, what definition of "me" felt comfortable, felt right when for so long I had neglected even... having a sense of self, hating the idea of thinking about "me" and not my characters or my stories. And all through it, I had friends who were there for me, who didn't simply tolerate, but encouraged through thick and through thin- through them, I learned that the best possible me I can really present to the world is just... me as I am. All my strange contradictions, all my weird little quirks, all my arcane trivia and hungry world-building and little fantasies and dreams and just... all of it.
Goodness knows I'm not perfect. I'm someone who frequently speaks without thinking, acts without speaking, who only sorta grasps decorum and how to at least present a... veneer? of neurotypicality (is that a word? I think it's a word?)- I'm sometimes blunt to a fault, sarcastic to a greater one, and I have a pretty low tolerance for things that emotionally exhaust me- I also don't know or really care to organize a blog so, y'know, my bad there.
But I hope y'all understand that I present myself as I am, as a person who spouts frequent 1 am non sequiturs, a person often hyper-focused on weird little niches, as a kink artist who frequently isn't, simply because... that's the only way I know how to present myself anymore. This is my truth, and to live any other way is just... baffling to me. I know people will do things in some ways, will cut the more... saucy...? elements out of their main account to spirit away on some sideblog, but I present everything as part of one big, messy whole not because I'm trying to deviously foist my interests on others, or... I dunno, deceive people- but because I don't want to live with a mask, pretend I'm something I'm not.
I tag art that isn't to everyone's tastes as best I can, try to respect folks' own comforts and not... muddy the waters(?) so to speak, because I'm fully aware that not everything I do is for a general audience. Hell, it's a big part of why I don't take requests or anything like that, and only depict my own OCs- I know what it's like to be forced into uncomfortable positions by someone not respecting my boundaries, and I think I'd be mortified if I did that!
And sure, part of me wants to justify how I interact with kink art- that I feel it's an avenue to explore my own wants, my own body goals, my own comfort, that, as someone not really... comfortable with a lot of physical affection it's a pretty personal exploration at that, but... at the same time I feel like- well, I leave people alone, why would I need to justify what I choose to share on my own blog? Hell, if you're looking for saucy, I'm sorry to say my art ain't it! I wouldn't know "sexually charged" if it hit me with a fish!
But I think that's broadly beside the point. I guess all this is to say... I'm acutely aware and frequently self-conscious about where I sit in the wider world, that someone out there might get the wrong idea, that I'm interested in anything but continuing to explore my own, odd little brain as I've been doing these past few years with the encouragement of some amazing friends, but broadly speaking, Tumblr and the community here have been awfully welcoming and kind, and I'm just... grateful for that.
I know the internet as a whole can be a really ugly place, an increasingly-corporate algorithmic hellhole, so when there's small bits of good in it, genuinely kind people out there, I feel like I gotta point to it and go "oh hell yes, more of this please!"
So... I'm gonna do that. Thank you all for being the strange, wonderful community you are <3
#fey's drabbles#general talk#lil' venty#but like#positive venty?#i will never use tags right i'm sorry to say
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I mean, I get that I can only really speak for myself here, but I think if you have some ideas for fic that you really want to pursue and explore then you should go for it. Even if it's not what people tend to currently think and talk about with regards to certain characters/dynamics, that doesn't mean a lot of us won't still enjoy seeing a fresh perspective, and hell people might like the newer takes so much they incorporate it into discussions and ideas in future. But even if not it's still healthy and refreshing for their to be some variety and exploration in fan made works imo
As far as kink goes, hey if it's not for some people it's not for them, and if it's niche there is always a chance you make some people *very* happy because they just assumed they would never see it in any works
I guess what I'm saying in a very rambly way is that I'll personally look forward to writing whatever you most feel like writing and that I think you shouldn't be afraid to take risks or explore new ideas that others haven't covered before because I have no doubt you'll make them interesting and do them justice 🩵
Oh, thank you!! I think the problem is 50% hormonal, and 50% being stuck in editing hell. This wip is coming out closer to 50k and it's taking me forever to get through and remix some stuff and then weave in other stuff, and being critical of your work every day, for 2+ hours a day? A recipe for self hate tbh. I now understand why pros pay for editors.
And actually the wip involves some stuff I'm slightly self-conscious about anyways (i never see daniel get to be in charge and i think that's a crime man) and so the cycle continues.
But I think you're totally right, you have to write what you want and trust the reader, and know that somewhere out there someone will be excited for it. And usually I'm so good at that but there's just something in the water right now I guess.
Anyways yes. Thank you, you're so kind!! 🥹 I'm going to sit down tomorrow and work on something totally different and hope I feel excited about it by the end.
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Thank you to @variousqueerthings for tagging me!
Rules: List five things you never get tired of writing. it can be tropes, themes, characters, phrases, whatever brings you joy. then tag five people!
In no particular order:
Rarepairs (a non-literal interpretation of the "pair" part of this being used here that includes ships that involve more than two people). In most of my fandoms I usually end up getting more and more niche over time. I have had pretty good success with dragging people down into rarepair hell with me though, so that's always great.
Witty™ dialogue. Dialogue is my strongest suit in writing, in my opinion, and I strongly prefer a comedic tone (or at least a comedic tinge, which can be ironic, in more dramatic pieces), so the combination of these two things is my sweet spot as a writer.
Unironic "issuefic." This is a term that's used derogatively in a lot of fandom exchange letters in my experience, but I genuinely love writing and reading about The Issues™ (including, but not limited to: disability theory adjacent themes, trans headcanons, depictions of characters being very deliberate and careful about consent, unironic depictions of characters talking like they're trying to get a good grade in therapy, examinations of the broader social context of the settings of various fandoms, middle aged men trying to be kind). To paraphrase an old fandom adage: your id is not my id and that's okay!
Themes relating to ageing. Can be wistful, melancholic, or not. Sometimes I just write about Garak's wrist clicking after fingering Lwaxana Troi for a long time.
Stuff about pregnancy. Including, but not limited to: cloyingly fluffy family fic, breeding kink (and/or risky sex), overly scientific details about pregnancy (real or speculative/sci-fi) itself.
This got a bit "I'm not like other fic writers, uwu" but, y'know, I do like a lot of things very much that many people vocally dislike so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Tagging: @wiewioreczka, @benicebefunny, @jazzypizzaz, @autisticandroids and @trinityofone, but obviously no obligation
#re: number 2 on this list‚ I once saw someone say something to the effect of#'literally nothing tagged Humorous on ao3 is actually funny'#and I felt personally attacked
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Since 2008, I've worked with time clocks. You know, the antiquated hardware installed on the wall in your local grocery store or factory or fast food restaurant that employees punch in and out on so they get paid for the amount of hours they were there. I deal with the software installed on those things. Yes, it's just as exciting as it sounds.
Back in 2016ish, our company acquired another company, and the new devs used HipChat as their messaging system. Because it wasn't interfaced with the pile of other messaging systems we already used, I got to pick my own chat avatar, and since devs generally don't give a shit about professionalism, I picked this guy:
Don't Hug Me I'm Scared had been out for several years at that point, but in contrast of the 46M+ views it has today, it felt pretty niche internet at the time. I was pretty confident nobody I worked with directly would have any fucking clue what he was from, even if they happened to be based in the UK. I really wanted to lean into my "clock girl/queen" image by choosing an avatar that was the personification of rotting away in a job I didn't like.
Even when we were forced to transfer to Slack back in like 2018, I kept him. He's very jaunty.
Also, yes, I know how the nick names sound. I didn't create or encourage them.
Seemingly unrelated, I've been on tumblr since 2012 but I haven't been on tumblr in the same way people outside of this community assume a user of this hellscape would be because I was a millennial with a mortgage. Sure, I've seen the magical hat post, and I was aware of superwholock, but I learned about dashcon by watching retrospectives on YouTube. My tumblr experience was Mad Men gif sets, nail art, and Wil Wheaton posts until I peaced out from the navigation page entirely when it started promoting cute chibi drawings of the Columbine killers because - and I cannot stress this enough - fuck off with romanticizing that bullshit, jesus christ, get some help.
That said, when I come across the opportunity to learn about obscure tumblr artifacts like the Pandom, I dive in to absorb whatever the hell I missed. A bunch of teenagers swooning over an emo-looking Disneyland actor seemed pretty par for the course, until I was surprisingly shocked to my core when Ashley Norton casually mentioned Pan fell in the "tumblr sexyman" genre, and when citing examples of a tumblr sexyman, my main man clocky flashed across the screen.
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Uh wut.
I quickly find out that the DHMIS clock's name is Tony, although his full name is up for debate. His sexyman status is not a joke. He's shipped with other characters from the show. This irritating clock that represents the existential crisis we experience when confronted with the unrelenting progress of time aging our decaying bodies is now a grumpy-but-lovable, well-dressed British man who cuddles with his boyfriend. And leaves hickies all over his body.
Look, I'm not here to kink shame. If you want to write Padlock fanfiction, more power to you. The world sucks, and as Tony very astutely points out, we're all going to die one day. As long as it doesn't hurt anybody, pursue whatever brings you joy.
I just want to remind you all that I've had Tony as my work avatar for like 7 years, and there is a possibility my colleagues may associate me with a fandom that sexualizes a wall clock by drawing pictures of him spooning with a coffin because they're in a romantic relationship.
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Well, I like to be able to tell these stories now. As I've said, if I mention anyone by name, it will only be good things about them, and hey, I have great things to say about the people I used to know. They were very fun to be around, and I'm sad that I will never have that again, so I like to reminisce on the days long lost.
So I used to be super obnoxiously and openly anti-bottom!Bradley (because my fucked brain construed any top!Mav = sexual predator!Mav; and Mav was my favorite character, so I was like, waaaaaahhhhh, I don't want my favorite character to be a sexual predator, but you know - whatever - live your sexual predator truth now, Maverick, I have written it, and I support it). I was so stupid that it got to the point that I was scared of Lake's and Brenda's fics, and they write the most normal, innocuous versions of it. (I was terrified of Lake's thigh-fucking fic - that was how goddamn dumb I was.) I legitimately believed that any time a Tom Cruise character's penis went near a Miles Teller character's butthole, he was being a sexual predator. I was stupid as hell. And now that I spell it out, I think that could have very well been construed as anti behavior, so I see how they feel that way about me.
But innately, I still had some sort of self-awareness, so I would feel bad about being annoying and draw these "penance Bradley" pics (ie: little dick!Bradley, bottom!Bradley). Ngl, I think that was just my excuse to draw them, lol. I've always been fascinated with it (but in deep denial), and I don't think I've ever felt the need to draw the type of thing that I already see done 100x over by other people. I like fulfilling a niche! But of course I loved doing it because of nice comments I would get from my (former) friends.
I'm sad I won't ever be able to see it again, but Fopps freaking out over my little dick!Bradley pic was one of my favorite memories, lol. She was a great cheerleader. I know she probably thinks I dislike her because our kinks are basically the exact opposite (even in regards to bottom!Bradley, lol - man, I knew it was going to be like this), but no - I still think she was funny and entertaining as hell to be around. I just used to be boring and hand-wringy as shit. I'm sad that now that I'm actually a fun person, I don't get to be around (a lot) of fun people again, but that's my fault for being a complete dingus.
But I like to fondly recall these things before I forget them. I just don't want to pretend that eight months of my life didn't happen, and I am not going to. This will be my sad little Roosmav memorial, and it's rather cathartic being able to write these things out, finally, as opposed to huddling away in fear like I did this entire year. I want to be open about my mistakes, and I also want to be open about all of me and what I had lived through.
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✨Rules✨
-- 18+ only. I post smut, I don't want children interacting with it, if you don't have an age in your bio I'm going to block you for both our sakes.
-- I have social anxiety, big surprise nowadays, but it means I don't reply often. It's not out of malice or me wanting to ignore you, I just have a hard time with 1v1 conversations. If I don't reply, and you REALLY want a response, you can gently poke me about it. If you're rude, you will either not get a response or I will flame you in front of everyone, it depends on the day.
-- Officially, I will not do requests. If you have an idea that you think you can't write yourself, you CAN ask and if I can manage it, I'd be happy to try and write a little drabble or concept for you.
However, on that note, if you have an idea in mind that you want to see brought to life, I would suggest you do it yourself. It doesn't have to be "good" or published, it can be just for you. If you don't like it, write it again. I love the idea of having a concept that you want to see written so badly you can't help but do it yourself, and I would love for other people to look at it that way too. Bring your own idea into the world, it may not be the same as how you wanted it, but it will be beautiful because you wanted it so badly that you had no choice but to do it on your own.
Write what you want to see, it's why I started this blog to begin with.
-- I post dark content! It will probably get darker from here! I love exploring dark fantasy, and I've been really tentative so far, but I'm sure once I've found my medium it's only going to get worse. I won't be offended at all if you unfollow or don't like what I post! I never want to upset anyone with what I'm writing.
On that same vein, though, I do have to add that if you don't like that sort of content, don't tell me about it LOL because as valid as your feelings are, I'm not writing it for you. I'm writing it for the people who do, because it's hard to find stuff like this that's written in the specific way I like. Having a niche fantasy is really fuckin' difficult in a creative space because it's so easy to want to limit it, and it's even easier for the people who don't like it to want to shut it down. It sounds mean, but I have to say it again.
If you do not like dark content, that's okay, I am not writing it for you. Do not tell me how much you dislike it, because it's not for you. If you don't like blueberries, I'm not gonna listen to you tell me how much you don't like blueberry jam, y'know?
But if you do like blueberries, and you just don't like MY blueberry jam, that's good too! Tell me how I can make it different, if you can keep it respectful. I may not listen, but I'm down for constructive criticism.
-- HOWEVER. Even I have my limits. I will not write underaged characters, or scat, or gore. I'm sure there are niche kinks out there that I am also not willing to write for and I just don't know the names, so if you don't see something here, don't assume that means I will write it, I'm just not good at lists.
-- This one should be obvious, but I feel like it should go here anyway. Don't repost my stuff, I only post my writing to tumblr and Ao3, if I catch it anywhere else I'm gonna hunt you down in your sleep and put sharpie all over your face forever.
Also, if you feed my (or any) fics to any AI then I will call you very mean words and make you feel bad about yourself, cause that's exactly what you're doing to EVERYONE ELSE.
-- If you are a hateful or meanspirited person, I personally don't want you here. I'm gay as hell, my gender is a big fucking question mark, my friends and loved ones are all different shades of gay and our group has every gender color under the sun. If you're not okay with that, you won't be okay with me, you won't be okay with what I write, go somewhere else.
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