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"But you're so successful without it."
Content warning: This post contains mentions of suicidal ideation.
I got a message earlier tonight that I'm not going to post, but I did ask the person involved if I could talk about what we subsequently ended up talking about in DMs because I feel it's important.
Basically, it was along the lines of "My kid got diagnosed with ADHD and really wants to try meds. I know from reading your blog that correct treatment for ADHD can be really beneficial, but I just don't think she's severe enough to need them."
The message then went on to ask me, as someone who is unmedicated with ADHD, for some tricks and tips on how to be successful without medication because clearly, look how well I'm doing without them. I mean, look at my blog, look at my book(s)! Surely if I can do all that without ADHD meds, other people can too. Surely there's a trick. A skill. Something you can learn if you just try hard enough...
This is not the first time I have received a message like this. In fact, I probably get about 2-5 messages like this a week.
Usually from other people who also have ADHD/suspect ADHD but don't want medication because they don't think they need it/don't want to need it, and yet can't figure out why they're struggling so much, and ask me how do I do the thing(s) and cope so well and get so much done, etc., etc.
So I'm going to tell you what I told this person tonight in case it helps someone. Yes, I have ADHD. No, I am not medicated due to severe health complications, and yes, I get a lot done. From the outside, I am sure it looks incredibly productive and successful. But I'm going to let you in on what that success feels like.
It feels like dying.
It feels like my brain is on fire; every nerve in my body scraped raw; every part of me wired and exposed to the noise of the world. There is no quiet; there is no calm. And even when my brain does fall silent, it's another kind of death. The inside of my head is sludge, flowing uphill like treacle, weighing me down, pulling me under in the riptide of my inability to focus. I can see what needs to be done, I can see it so clearly, yet sometimes it's like I don't control my own body. Not enough dopamine. Not enough brain chemicals for the message I'm screaming in my head to make my limbs do the simplest of tasks. Like, feed myself. Take a shower. Answer that email. Text my friends back. Go to bed when I'm tired. Write a best-selling novel...
A novel that almost killed me and not because of my other ailments, but because of my unmedicated ADHD.
I didn't realize it at the time, but I was already operating at critical mass when I went into final rewrites/edits. Every coping mechanism I had fell apart. Like training wheels falling off a tricycle, leaving me to wobble unsteadily until the main wheels fell off, swiftly followed by the handlebars until all that was left was me peddling frantically trying to keep my balance and not getting anywhere. I didn't realize it then, but I was heading towards a complete mental collapse. And even when I dragged myself across the finish line with the above and beyond help provided by my friends and editors, I was so burned out I couldn't enjoy my success. Worse, my success made me suicidal.
It took me until very recently, almost two years later, to be able to read Phangs without feeling suicidal. My brain associated it with the trauma of experiencing complete ADHD burnout but having to complete a monumental task anyway.
I had to go into intensive therapy to recover. I am still in intensive therapy for it.
It took me even longer after that to be able to sit down and write without harming myself. I still struggle with it, and I tell you this in all honest sincerity in the hope it makes you realize what it costs me to be "successful" and unmedicated.
And this wasn't the first time I've had to deal with this, either.
I struggled all through high school, all through college, all through every career job I ever had, knowing there was something wrong, but not quite being able to put my finger on it because hey, I still got stuff done, so it couldn't be that bad, right? Surely everyone went through life feeling this way? Right?
...right?
It wasn't until I got my ADHD diagnosis as an adult that I realized what was happening. Why I struggled so much. Why life was so hard. In many ways, it was like the sun coming up. An internal dawning of realization and acceptance, but also rage.
So much rage.
Rage at how much I'd had to struggle because no one noticed because I was quiet and undisruptive. Rage at a system that forced me to learn in ways that were not intuitive to my brain. To always being told, "doesn't apply herself" while it felt like I was clawing my brain apart trying to do what people wanted from me. To a work-life balance, that rewards all the things that make ADHD actively worse. Rage. So much rage it hurts. And to top it all off, I can't be medicated for it. I finally know what's different, I finally know why my world feels raw and turned inside out, and I can't take any of the medications that might help me.
Do you know how angry I wake up every day that there is a possible solution just within my grasp, but my health conditions prevent me from trying them? Do you know how much it hurts? How much I grieve for the person I could be if I was able to have help beyond therapy and coaching? How much happier I could be...
Not productive. Not successful. Happy.
So ask yourself, what do you want more? A child who has to go through all of this and resents you for prolonging their suffering? Who winds up hating themselves by internalizing the false concept that if they just try hard enough, they can do whatever they set their mind to.
Or do you want to help them?
Or if this is you, why are you afraid to help yourself?
Please, don't use me as an example to harm yourself or others. Yes, I am successful without medication. But the toll is high. Too high.
Rid yourself of the idea that you need to suffer more to be allowed help. You don't. They don't. No one does.
#adhd#adult adhd#actually adhd#chronic health tag#suicide mention#suicidal ideation#long post#mental health#I am not for you to bludgeon other people with#kindly desist
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a soldier making their rounds after a big battle comes across a wounded, but alive, enemy soldier in the wreckage.
seemingly abandoned by their comrades, the weak and feverish enemy soldier can only look up at them with pleading eyes, silently begging for help.
#whump#whump prompts#military whump#soldier whump#mine#i like to think that the soldier brings them back to base and nurses them back to health#leaving whumpee struck by the fact that this person meant to be their enemy is treating them more kindly than their former comrades ever did#they don't know each other and under different circumstances would have likely shot each other on sight#but caretaker holds their hand and gently mops their forehead while they're delirious and whimpering in pain#brings them news from the warfront when they're more lucid so they can stay in the loop#whumpee is a POW on paper but they're not treated like a prisoner#and caretaker's superiors would happily hand them over unharmed if their comrades came for them#but they never do. so whumpee stays#i am now imagining whumpee fully recovered and meeting their former comrades on the battlefield while wearing their former enemy's uniform#they've fully switched sides.#the drama of it all
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oh earthen peak, we're really in it now
#dark souls 2#dark souls#pls kindly pretend you dont see the missing health#one of the pyromancers fuckin got me bro :[#also this isnt actually from inside earthen peak its from the area just before it with the poison fog#im such a fraud
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#gil#are you Aus or just rlly into auspolitics#either way is good#but you need to be careful before the Americans see this
@miki-meh
I'm not Australian or even close to Australia, but I think the batshit auspol are so fucking funny and I feel some kind of kinship since Spanish politics are as insane
Consider: We have Royalty in Spain and things do get silly real quick
#and the previous king was a fucking joke#he had to abdicate because he was so hated and fucked up so much that when his health declined he was kindly advised to Give Up#also the one of a terrorist cell put a bomb on some politician's car and he flew to a nearby roof and we joke he's spain's first astronaut#joking about this event can get you banned in twitter btw
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Oh, poor thang!
#moe tag#sorry i won't shut up about it but you gotta understand. this is the most eventful thing that's happened in like months#also i just really wanna apply what i learned about it to moe. torture the creature some more#BUT ALSO... LIKE..... i think about writing refs and health/safety refs and also best practice#ESP when treating a patient or being a caretaker all the time.#before the disability disabled me LMFAO i really wanted to go into working to help people w disabilities#i was so high masking and 'functional' (but like. still very much on the spectrum) that i had each foot in both worlds kinda#i wasn't exactly sure what line of work but i very much wanted to give back the way the people who believed in me did.#esp as a kid. i had so many behavioral issues. teachers actively dreaded and feared having to deal w me.#the few and far between teachers/social workers who saw me though. believed in me. treated me kindly. stuck forever#unfortunately i really don't think i'm cut out for that line of work esp after covid changed The Vibes of everything lmfao#i would love to give hope in a hopeless world. but i fear i've slipped through the cracks.#my art
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i think potentially the funniest thing i'll be doing with this degree is going and living in the woods about it
#between the state of my health and what brings me feasible joy#i just want to be rural again#working at my local library#last semester i had energy for masters and secondary degrees but for the time being i just want to be#not in a city and not stuck in western academia#when i think about what i want to be doing when i die#it's being in the woods. it's working locally. it's making local impact#and maybe after a few years of this if my health plateaus kindly for me i'll rethink more degrees#maybe go online and do the online BEd program#but rn#it's woods and library#idc that i'm good at this or wanted for their masters programs it's wonderful and a joy#but i'm also great in the woods. and i'm great with kids. and i'm great at working in libraries
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there is no real distinction between "girl dinner" and a single dad's "grocery shopping"
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We are heading into 2023 not 2016, but I encourage you all to join me in embracing my inner Meghan, and no matter what goals and resolutions you have for the year ahead, to make sure to live room for magic! ✨
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"folkpunk is so #goblincore #trashcore its all grimy grody men with slimy guitars" cool. actually i think this genre mostly populated by poor, poc, and/or queer people shouldnt be associated with. grossness. actually.
#as someone who grew up poor and queer i need rich white queers to kindly fucking Stop please?#i love folk punk. i love how. real it feels compared to other genres.#and id . really appreciate it if people stopped treating it like a silly funny life to be in.#most folk punk or midwest emo or whatever you wanna call it is very clearly about growing up with a Struggle.#most songs youll find in the genre are about struggles with mental health#growing up poor facing abuse facing homo/transphobia#the hardships you face being a minority#and . i dunno. the people calling it like . gross and grimy feels. really. bad#when i was little id write songs. in my rat infested almost condemed house. i struggled a lot with duh being poor i was young and autistic#i was a lesbian and i struggled with it. i was expieriencing delusions bc i couldnt handle my reality. i was being abused and neglected.#and music and poetry were my outlets. and i dunno. imagining myself look that little girl in the eye and telling her shes gross. shes grimy#and stinky shes a little trash goblin what the fuck ever. that kind of genuinely makes my skin crawl.
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I think transference has the potential to do some Fucky Shit to one's relationship to their own body
The ability to leave your body behind and join a consciousness in another one. The knowledge that even when not in your own body, you are still you. Combined with the healing/on-demand intangibility/possible immortality that the Void grants
My thoughts on this yeeted Speficially towards North and boy are they indeed weird about it
They don't consider their body as intrinsically theirs as they maybe should. There is a disconnect there
It's not possible to sleep with transference active, but it is possible to Rest, the same way you can lie down and close your eyes without actually sleeping. It requires a lot of trust and a comfortable environment and just a whole lot of Knowing The Other Person so you don't jump to awareness at every lil thing, but it is v possible and North does it frequently bc it's Cosy. But if sleeping during transference Was possible, they Would do it frequently, bc it's comfortable to leave their body behind, retreat from the senses of Higgins', and just rest
If they're in enough pain that they cannot just soldier through it (which is A Lot Of Pain), then there's transference for that too, taking the pain down from mind-numbing to a mild, disconnected discomfort. It's not a Good idea, their body heals slower when they aren't properly inhabiting it, but it's a disconnect and an escape
It overall makes it hard to see their body as Really Theirs and not just. a vehicle they're inhabiting. Something not quite disposable but maybe not entirely vital either. It's not like they can Die it seems like, so what's there to worry about?
And Yes this results in North being horrible at self-care. Y'know, in case the general depression, timeloop trauma, and autism weren't enough
There is also dissonance in that Higgins Does Not Agree, which makes North uncomfortable and Higgins' opinion is "deal with it you bastard"
If Higgins is looking at North's body while North isn't in it, North will usually withdraw from visual input/do the transference equivalent of looking away bc it Feels Weird. And Higgins treats North's body the same whether they're in it or not, e.g. if North falls asleep on his shoulder and so he decides to carry them to somewhere nicer to sleep, that's done with the exact same care as when North uses transference and leaves their body somewhere uncomfortable. They just don't know what to do about their body, which to them is not that much Part Of Them and is instead Somewhat Disposable and Inconvenient, being treated with the same care and respect and affection that their mind is
#higgins treats norths body the same whether theyre in it or not to push back against norths unhealthy disconnect from it#but also just bc he cannot make himself do any different#to him that disconnect isnt there! to him that body is part of his best friend!#he cannot treat it in any way but kindly#kata's chatter#oc: drifter north#oc: higgins#also north doesnt much care what they look like anymore#not in the neglectful way. they just dont care to do anything thats extra effort#or to make any changes#and they dont look in mirrors Ever so its a lil ironic the duviri hallway has a mirror >:)#i am looking forward to this changing actually once they start getting better in terms of mental health
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i hate knowing exactly what i need to do but being unable to do it :(
#i hate being mentally ill!!!!!!!!!!!!#but it’s ok i know how i need to go about my life for it to actually be liveable#and i just need to fuckin implement the things instead of playing fast and loose with my own health and stability#SO i’m going to have a shower and drink some water and see what the plan is for the day#if i have time i’ll start writing out shit 4 my assignment and if not then i’ll do it tomorrow <3#i’m going 2 get something to eat and i’m going to treat my body and mind kindly and i Will survive being back in this city and i Will#survive being with my family again !!
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it’s so weird when mental health is ur priority cause people around me will be like “yeah this last year I graduated & got an internship in my field!” or “I got a good job with benefits & moved out!” or “I’m getting married & we’re planning our next steps into family life!”
and I’m like “oh wow that’s great!! oh, what about me? Well nowadays I can leave the bathroom without needing to rush out before the flushing sound ends & I can turn lights off before fully exiting rooms! I also don’t have to apologize to god in my head when I swear, don’t have to repeat a phrase in my head when I get scared, and most of the time I don’t have to knock on wood to try & prevent things from going wrong!!”
#but like I’m so genuinely proud of those things too#More developments over the past few years: I can go places alone!#I can occasionally correct people that misgender me!#I can play music when I’m in the shower even when other ppl are home#I can sing out loud when I’m home alone or home mostly alone w/ my brother sleeping#I’m getting a lot better at recognizing my repetitive behaviors & being able to stop them when I notice them#I’m pretty good at speaking to myself kindly most of the time#I’m improving at being able to make phone calls#I’m getting a little further in the steps to getting a drivers license#made an appointment for a driving lesson next week :)#and I chose majors after several years at community college undeclared!#that’s a lot of what I have to show for the last couple years lol#mental health#tw compulsions#obsessive compulsive behavior
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i've been blocked by this person so they will likely never see this, but in cause they're still looking - i sent you a real apology, that i meant, privately, after i'd had time to make sure i was able to approach it in an adult manner, and you responded by refusing to accept that my apology could be genuine. i don't know if it was my phrasing (i will apologize, and genuinely, for mistakes that i make, or posting things that wind up being cruel or unfair, but i will not participate in the 'grovel or you aren't really remorseful' culture that exists on sites like these. i am sorry that i shared something that hurt you. if i could have had a longer conversation with you, i would. my apology was real, and that is why it was not performative). BUT. because i can now no longer message you, i've decided if i have any chance of reaching out to you i will have to do it in public. if you do wind up reading this, i realize that you likely still will not believe me, or accept my sincerity. that's the nature of online interactions, i guess - we don't really ever know each other well enough to accept good faith from one another when we're mad.
#the funny thing is. i unfollowed this former mutual some time ago because our differing positions on therapy#were becoming detrimental to my mental health#but i didnt rant in the messages first or having done so refuse to accept any attempts at reconciliation#i just quietly.........unfollowed. and i never had to worry about that specific thing that upset me again#i would be willing to delete the post i made that upset this person. IF we could have had a civil interaction about it#but we didn't. you told me that my 'remorse was not genuine' and then blocked me without giving me the opportunity to ...#i dont know. how did you want me to apologize? what would have done it right for you? because ultimately i would like to give people#what they want. i dont like upsetting people and i'm disappointed in myself for having done that#but i've seen what grovelling as a response to accusations does to people on here also. and i will defend my right to be spoken to kindly#just as i should have been kinder in the things that i shared
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Today remember this; even in the times you may feel alone,
I promise you ; you aren’t.
We are all in this together.
You are worthy, loved, appreciated & on this earth for a purpose 🤍
Never forget this.
#tumblr#mentalheathawareness#mental health#mental health day#quotes#quote#you are not alone#worldmentalhealthday#reachoutworld#check on your friends#self care#self love#worthy#valuable#appreciation#be your own inspiration#be there#speak kindly to yourself#be kind to yourself#be kind to people#be kind to your mind
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