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artharakka · 2 years

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🕯 Candle 🕯

#swordtember2022 #swordtember #sword #candle #just so you know ⚔🕯

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awritingcaitlin · 9 months

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Thea ~vibes~

I get brain rot over Thea so bad.

Thea (7)

🌃A quiet night in the city 📃Thinking of all the plans you’ve made 🚬A quiet smoke 💨Watching the smoke drift away like the lives of people 😏Well, most people anyway ⏳Thousands of years and you still struggle with patience 🌏The world is so different now

🗡Being born as a weapon 🔥Never knowing peace because of it ⚔The training never stops ⛓Others use you to further their own ends ⁉But what about your ends? ♟Playing your own game 💥Let the rage flow through you

🃏Always a wildcard 🎯Your antics made you a target 💔Fighting the hardest fight: mother against daughter 💀The fight should have killed you 🤕Hiding your scars ✔Being resolute in your convictions 🎲Are you on the right side?

✊🏻Committed to the cause 🌏Wanting to fix the world 🌹Your language never fails to persuade ⚫Feeling your morals are always above ground 🔪Knowing that sacrifices must be made sometimes 🎭Play the part, the time for your machinations to come to fruition is not far off

🕯Magic, magic everywhere 📃Keeping track of all the machinations 🔆Furthering the Lady’s will 🩸Blood on your hands, blood on your name ⚖Carrying the weight of your sins 🧝🏻‍♀️Do you even recognize yourself anymore?

✍🏻Subordinates always making more work for you 🤷🏻‍♀️They just don’t seem to understand the greater needs 💅🏻You’ll use whatever you can to your advantage, however 🖊Someone must control the stories

⛰Not recognizing where you grew up 🙁Seeing an old friend but knowing you two have grown apart 🙏🏻Trying to make amends about something you're not truly sorry about 😏Bending the rules to fit your needs 💥More powerful than you look 🌟Your body can't hold the magic

#my characters #thea

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mtnkat3 · 1 year

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11.26am. Yes my loves..... I. Am. Yours . . . . .

I will always be the good shepherdess. Even when I have listens to learn daily. But loving & protecting you . . . . .

The most important pieces of my days is

to make sure you . . . . .know just how much I love every single piece of you . . . . . & want to make sure you feel my love for you . . . . .

That you feel like pooh bear in his pool of honey... ecstatically happy.. euphorically so...

the honey of my love saturating every pore & sleeping deep into your souls fires...

so when I look deep into your souls eyes I see the fires happily clear

of the worlds clogging you up.

I crave to soothe your souls.....

More than each breath I take.

Every part of each piece of you . . . . .

Peeking from behind my paws.. tucked into my favorite hidey hole within a stand of magnificent & gorgeous trees surrounding my waterfall hidden glen...

Whispering softly...blushing shyly...

I am here for You . . . . .only.

My priceless treasured Gift of my Bears Angels . . . . .

I. Am. Yours.

Lick. Nibble. Bite. Mark. Growl. Chuff. Purr.

Yours . . . . .

~Tijgeress kat Phoenix .✝️☸⚓🙏🤲👣🐾

🌂🔗🐯🦉🐢🐐🐛🥧🍋🥤🥨🥩🍳🥓⛓🧰⚙🔍🥾🧤⛏⚒🏔👩‍🏫🕵️‍♀️👷‍♀️🏋️‍♀️🧗‍♀️🧘‍♀️⚖🔐💡🗽🛠🏗🌱🦋🌺🌳🌹🌻🌷🌳🧶🧵🧣🎓🏰🛡⚔🥧🥮🍯🍼🍫☕🍦🍎🍑🍒👩‍🎓👩‍🌾👩‍🍳👩‍🚀🤰🥳😻⌚🌟⚡🌠 🗝🔱⚜💝🐻🦌🧩♠️❄💫♾🧭🕯

Th.2.2.2023 11.58am. Gr. .. 🙇‍♀️🙈🙊

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dxncingwithastrxnger · 2 years

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Alex’s Christmas Sleepover 2021 [CLOSED]

Heyyyyyy, guys!! I decided to do a little sleepover type thingggg. This will be my first one ever, so I’m really excited for it!!

So, here’s how things will go. Below, I’ll have listed the characters that I’m currently comfortable writing for, as well as different symbols relating to christmas and whatnot. You get to choose if you want a moodboard, story, or both, as well as what character or characters you’d like in it. If you want a story, you get to choose what type of story (smut, angst, fluff, comfort, etc. as well as any combinations) as well as if you’d like a shorter story (Around 500-1,500 words) or a longer story (Around 1,500-3,000). You then get to also add in any of the christmas symbols that I list and voila. I shall create something for you 😌

I do ask that you go through this whole post in order to create your request. Also, if you want a specific version of a character (ie, Emo!Wanda, Civil War!Bucky, Blonde!Nat, etc., etc..), then please let me know!! You can just fill out the information below and let me fill in the blanks with whatever comes to my mind or you can give me a specific scenario along with the other things as well, it's entirely up to you!!

Duration: 12/20/21 - 01/03/22

Type:

📖 - Character(s) x Reader

👩 - Female, Transfemale

👨‍🦱 - Male, Transmale

🏳️‍🌈 - Enby, Other (Please specify)

🚢 - Character(s) x Character(s)

Characters:

✪ - Bucky Barnes/The Winter Soldier

⍟ - Steve Rogers/Captain America

⎊ - Tony Stark/Iron Man

⧗ - Natasha Romanoff/Black Widow

४ - Loki Odinson

🕸️ - Peter Parker/Spiderman

➳ - Clint Barton/Hawkeye

ᱬ - Wanda Maximoff/Scarlet Witch

⩔ - Sam Wilson/The Falcon/Captain America

For:

✍ - Story

Length:

📈 - Long

📉 - Short

Type:

😘 - Smut

🥰 - Fluff

🥺 - Comfort

😔 - Angst

💀 - Dark

🗡 - Mafia

😊 - Cute

😍 - Flirty

🌇 - City

🌄 - Country

🏖 - Vacation

💒 - Married/Wedding

💍 - Engaged

🐹 - Pets

😝 - Silly/Weird/Crack

😴 - Sleepy

🤒 - Sick

🥳 - Party

🤰 - Pregnancy

🍼 - Baby/Kids

⚔ - Era AU (Specify which, please, 1800s, 1860s, 1940s, 1980s, etc.)

🏍 - Bikers

👻 - Spooky

🦇 - Vampires

🎒 - K-12

🏫 - College

These were all the ones I could think of, but if you had others in mind, that's perfectly fine as well!

🖼 - Moodboard

📸 - Number of Pictures

🌈 - Color Theme

🧱 - Background Color

🚫 - No Background Color

Christmas Symbols:

🎄 - Decorated Christmas Tree

🌲 - Non-Decorated Tree

🎁 - Presents

🎅 - Santa Claus

🤶 - Mrs. Claus

🧑‍🎄 - Elves

🎶 - Caroling

🕯 - Christmas Lights

⭐ - Stars

❄ - Winter

☃️ - Snowman

☘ - Mistletoe

🔥 - Fireplace

🍽 - Food

🍪 - Desserts

🦌 - Reindeer

🛷 - Sled

🧤 - Gloves

👒 - Hats

😌 - Blankets

👕 - Sweaters

Again, if you can think of any others that you would like to use, I am perfectly fine with that!!

I am about to go to sleep as I write the end of this but once I wake up in the morning, I will be diving right into any requests I get!! If you decide to participate in this, then thank you!! I don't expect many people, but I shall hold out hope for at least a person or two to participate in this with me 😌

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mtnkat3 · 1 year

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9.17am. Good morning my loves..... my precious beloved Bears Angels . . . . .

I hope you . . . . .each piece of you..... slept alright.

It's cold & nippy here. Well...

It's gotten up to 29°F! Which is cold to ne GA! Especially in the last 30 years of changes to the weather. And then it was over 60°F just a couple of days ago. So.... headacheville. Sigh.

I want you . . . . . I don't care where.. what the climate is.. or even what we do. As long as I'm with you . . . . . I will be happy.

Just praying for each piece of you . . . . . as I feel those pieces are needing something from me. And the only thing I can think it is... me getting out.

So. I'm about to use my huge ~30oz mug & drink hot tazo latte. Get myself warmed up so I can work!

[I even slept in jogging pants & thermal.shirt & tank last night. Along with my usual tank, panties, socks & toboggan. Just so flippin cold!]

Ok. Sigh. I love you & I miss you . . . . .

I hope alllll of each piece of you . . . . .is ok... & knows...

I love & adore you beyond measure . . . . .

Always have. Always will.

I am

Yours . . . . .

.

~Tijgeress kat Phoenix. ✝️☸⚓🌂🔗🙇‍♀️🙏🤲👣🐾⛓🧰📋📆👩‍🏫🕵️‍♀️👷‍♀️🏋️‍♀️🧘‍♀️🧣🧤🥾🏔⚒🛠⚙⚖🔐🗽🏗🧱🏰🛡⚔🥧🍋🥤🥨🥩🍳🥓🐯🦉🐐🐢🐛🦋🌱🌺🌳🌹🌻🌷🌳🧶🧵🎓🥳👩‍🎓👩‍🌾👩‍🍳👩‍🚀🤰🥧🥮🍯🍼☕🍫🍭🍦🌰🍎🍑🍒⌚⚡🌟🌠🚀🗝🔱⚜💝🐻🦌🧩♠️♾💫🧭🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯

Su.1.15.2023 9.53am.est.

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mtnkat3 · 1 year

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9.22am.

Good morning my loves..... my beloved Bears . Angels . . . . .

I pray that you . . . . . slept good & solid & got some rest. Oh & great dreams too! Grinning.

My sleep bot app actually said I got 8hrs! Woohoo! Lmao! Oh I didn't but anyways. I know my dnd is set to go off at 7am I think. Or is it 5a. Huh. Gotta check that. So I wake with a smile when I hear you . . . . . Even as I'm fighting off the morning sunshine streaming across my bed. &...hide my head under the pillows to hide from the sun & fall back to sleep. D'oh! Giggling softly. Yawn. Opps. Gotta work on that.

I love you . . . . . SSSSSOOOOOO much..... ya know that right?????

I just wanna wake up & kiss you . . . . .first thing!

Grinning.

I am!

Yours . . . . .

~Tijgeress kat Phoenix. 🌺✝️☸⚓🙇‍♀️🙏🤲👣🐾🌂🔗🤓👩‍🏫🕵️‍♀️👷‍♀️🏋️‍♀️🧣🥾🧤🏔🍋🥤🥧⛓🧰📋⚙ ⚒🛠⚖🔐🏗🧱🏰🛡⚔🥨🥓🥩🍳🥮🥧🍯🍼☕🍫🍭🍎🍑🍒🐯🦉🐐🐢🐛🦋🌱🌺🌹🌻🌷🌳🧶🧵👩‍🎓👩‍🌾👩‍🍳👩‍🚀🤰⌚⚡🌟🌠🗝🔱⚜💝🐻🦌🧩♠️ ♾💫🕯🧭🥰😘💋

Tu.1.10.2023 9.53am est.

Oh! h has started waiting to leave until I get up. It's weird. Totally throws me. 🙄🤦‍♀️🤷‍♀️yep. Asshat.

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mtnkat3 · 1 year

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10.26am. Oh my loves..... you . . . . .are the reason I'm able to be a happy lil smiling tree even when feel achy, splintering & bent.. You . . . . . mend me. You . . . . .are every one of my favorite flavors of donuts..... You . . . . .are why I wanna get dressed up pretty & go out.... You . . . . .every piece of you..... & yes, that's chocolate, caramel, maple, honey, cinnamon, apple,..... all those delicious yummy flavors. But ne'r a pepper in site. Grin. Spices. Not spicy. Unless ya mean sassy.. wiggling my eyebrows. Then...spitfire. I get it honestly. Just like... you . . . . .wanna help me...or watch... you'll..... have to catch those moments. I've been contorting & fending for myself my whole life. No one's ever helped..like that... I learned to ... find happy zip places & wiggle..until done. Don't know what it is to be given help.. but I long to dress pretty again. Whether that be my Sunday dresses, or a date night ensemble. Or getting into & out of exercise clothes..geeish louise talk about contortionists! But I so love...strappy. slow lickin lips grin.

Classy sexy. Lady. Always.

Just as I am always Yours. . . . .

From every smile..

to every scream... just as I'm about to figure out how to take a shower .. guess my cane goes in the tub with me. Cannot easily put my left foot down. Twisted. But I'd rather be a cinnabon than a pretzel right now! Grin.

I ABSOLUTELY love & adore you!!!!!

Words are paltry though. I only use them so that you. . . . .know what's going on with me. What I'm doing. And right now...how I feel like a snail with a cane.I think there's a cartoon like that..🤔

But my thought.. I know how to carry extra weight.. so maybe I already know, at least partially, what it is to carry a wee one.. hm. Other than having my organs shoved outta the way.. but. That's up to God. No matter what any doctor thinks or says. He is the Creator & knows what He has Planned for me.

I am His daughter. I serve His Will. Not my own.

I also think about singing.. laughing.. loving.. dancing.. being a joyful soul.

Who I am when I think of you . . . . .

How I wanna wrap you . . . . .up in my love & lick ya like a piece of butterscotch candy. Yum....

Blushing grin. Giggling softly.

Swat. Move it t!

Yes my loves.....

I am.

Yours . . . . . .

~Tijgeress kat Phoenix. ✝️☸⚓🙇‍♀️🙏🤲🌂🔗⛓🧰📋🤓👩‍🏫👷‍♀️��️‍♀️🐐🦉🐢🐛💸⚒🛠⚖🔐🏗🧱🏰🛡⚔👩‍🎓👩‍🍳🥧🥨🥓🍳🥮🍯🍼☕🍫🍎🍑🍒🦋🤰🌱🌺🌹🌻🌷🌳🌲🧶🧵⌚⚡🌟🌠🚀🗝🔱⚜💝🐻🦌🧩♠️♾🎯💫🧭🕯💋

M.1.2.2023 11.11am est.

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mtnkat3 · 1 year

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Struggle. Forge.

8.35pm. It's so hard sometimes my loves..... to talk..here. when I just wanna look at you . . . . . & talk without words..voices.

it's so hard to be in so much physical pain that it's only by force of will that I move. I don't understand why, but I can only assume it has to do with the abuse. That my body is demanding to be removed from this environment. But when it hurts to stand up, my hips & lower back, to bear weight. It's excruciatingly difficult & painful.

But I keep reminding myself that if I take short breaks, but keep moving, & getting things done. It's better. But today... very difficult. I am dragging my own body. Just to do simple things.. cat litterbox, going down to basement to do a load of laundry it's pissing me off. But having the left side ache like this.. holding back tears, screams, pain, fear. What the hell is happening to me!?!?!?!?!? Sob.

But as I keep reminding myself. I am ready to make the steps to get myself out. Stop the fear. Stop the pain.

💡🤔physical pain can be a manifestation of the stress I'm under too? Well that just sucks. And not something I'm gonna tolerate from myself. So if I look like a lil old lady walking, or hear me scream, moan, cuss in agony. It's temporary. Cause I'm taking off this fatsuit just like I'm cutting hog outta my life!!

You . . . . . Oh my loves..... I pray everyday that you . . . . .are never in pain of any kind. Whether that be physical, emotional, mental. Life struggles or remembered pains. I always think about how I want to help you . . . . .

So yes my loves . . . . .

My thoughts are on you . . . . .

But I'm also writhing in pain, unable to be comfortable. My body is betraying me. I am not ok with what's happening to me.

So I am fighting. With all I got.

So...may I request we show each other love.. compassion & kindness & help? Even if that's we hobble off together into the forest to get the help of mother nature..

I will do anything for you . . . . . Including give my life.

Just the way I feel.

So hard to write right now. Especially when I can't think straight.

All I know...

I believe in you . . . . .

I have faith in you . . . . .

I trust you . . . . .

I want to be my best self for you . . . . .

Which means being honest.. raw.. open.. sharing.. even here. When I feel vulnerable & exposed here differently than with you . . . . . I want & crave to be with you . . . . . The world. Meh. Not so much. But letting you. . . . .in. that's what I have been doing... chewing my lips.

I hope you . . . . .are ok.

I just wanna hold you . . . . .

I wanna take care of you . . . . .

My beloved Bears . Angels . . . . .

I love you . . . . .

I am. Yours . . . . .

~Tijgeress kat Phoenix. ✝️🌺🐾🐯☸⚓🙇‍♀️🙏🤲🌂🔗⛓🧰🤓👩‍🏫👷‍♀️🕵️‍♀️📋📆⚙⚒🛠🧣🥾🧤🏔⚖🔐🗽🏗🧱🏰🛡⚔🐐🦉🐢🐛🦋🌱🌺🌹🌻🌷🌳🌲🧶🧵👩‍🍳🤰⌚⚡🌟🌠🚀🗝🔱⚜🐻🦌💝🧩♠️ ♾🎯💫🧭💋🕯🕯🕯🕯🕯

Su.1.1.2023 !!!!! 10.29pm est.

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mtnkat3 · 1 year

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Good morning my loves .....

I miss you . . . . .

Still feel outta the loop but I'm trying to keep thinking about it positively. Rather than let the doubts that the adversary is throwing at me.. just.. when pieces of the puzzle aren't happy.. I feel each & every piece..... & it twists me in pretzel knots to think I'm getting any part of this...wrong. Hard to explain that I feel both happy, & upset. I know that you.....understand. and that's all that matters. So know... I'm listening closely & trying to walk correctly. But I need to make all the pieces happy for me to be happy. Otherwise...not a very good mate am I. Yeah, the learning curve is steep. But with God & you..... when I'm Guided by You Lord, & the mates You Created for me... I can only go wrong when I don't listen. So. I am. And praying. And walking on my tippy toes. I need Your Light Lord. I need Your Light shining thru my soul's mates . . . . .I need to see my Bears .. my Angels.. happy. I cannot be happy with myself if I am not getting this..... right. Knots. Just freakin tugboat knots... twistin in my guts.

I so need my mocha cappuccino chai tea latte yumminess warm & soothing..

I don't need crickets.

I need you . . . . .

Hhmm... maybe some warm googey cinnamon bun too.....?????

I just...

I love you . . . . . Wherever & whatever the heck you are doin!

Are ya'll up to mischief again.....?🤔🤨🙄🧐🤭🤦‍♀️

Please.....?????

Guide me? Love me?

Just... don't... disappear... reject.. abandon.. me. Please.

Sigh. Slumped in my chair. Gotta go take meds & eat something. Then get to work. Since wh won't be back from church/lunch with bf til 2~3pm. I got chores to do & might be able to get a play & tasks in there too.. I just.. chewing my lips.

I love you . . . . .

.

And with God as my witness.. I am putting everything I am into getting my life right & stepping carefully to get this.....right.

Humbly bowed.

Chewing my lips.

~True love never dies & true love always waits.~

Your confused, frustrated, scared, insecure, but listening closely, carefully, & quietly daughter.

Your complex quirky warrior queen daughter.

~Tijgeress kat Phoenix. ✝️🌺🐾🐯

☔😥😖🙊🙇‍♀️🤓👩⚓🙏🙇‍♀️🌂🔗

⛓🧰📋🗓⚙⚒🛠🔐🏗🧱🏰⚔⚖🗽🦅🕊

🥧🧣🧤🥾🏔🍋🥤🥨🥓🍳🥮🍯🍼☕🍫🍎🍑🍒🐯🐾🐐🦉🐢🐛🦋🌱🌺🌹🌻🌷🌳🧶🧵

⌚💡⚡🌠🗝🔱⚜💝🐻🦌🧩♠️♾🎯🌎🧭🕯

🎄🎅🤰🤴

Su.12.4.2022 9.58am est.

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mtnkat3 · 1 year

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I love you .

And yes.. I peek.. I get glimpses..

but I know...🎶 stay strong.. as I hold on..

As God & you Guide me..

as God Creates our castle..

a fortress to withstand the tests of time..

I just.. miss you . So badly! But I know, every gif I've ever posted, every exposed thought or feeling I've ever shared ..here.. is to you . Is about you . So.. know.. I'm crazy about you . Don't be stupid.. I love you! 🎶

I adore you .

Always have. Always will.

I believe.

As I work on our castle & await upon our cliffside..

~True love never dies & true love always waits!.~

Your complex quirky warrior queen daughter!

~Tijgeress kat Phoenix. ✝️🌺🐾🐯

🥰😍😌🤓👩⚓🙇‍♀️🙏🌂🔗⛓🧰📋🗓⚙⚒🛠🏗🧱🔐🏰⚔⚖🗽🦅🕊🥧🍁🧣🥾🍋🥤🥨🥓🥮🍯🍼☕🍫🍎🍑🍒🐯🐾🐐🦉🐢🐛🦋🌱🌺🌹🌻🌷🌳🧶🧵⌚💡⚡🌠🚀🗝🔱⚜💝🐻🦌🧩♠️♾🎯🧭🕯🎶💋

Fr.11.25.2022 10.45am est.

[Carrie & Shania.. ]

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mtnkat3 · 1 year

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9.50am

This morning.. I don't know how to feel. I am confused.. feeling gut punched.. not knowing whys.. totally out of the loop.. hurting.. sad.. devastated.. not knowing what to do, if anything, or just keep working & be quiet. I feel like I've got flickering candles around me.. some barely there anymore.. others taking some of the slack.. not sure how to be called His warrior queen when I just feel like being curled in a ball.. hidden in a dark corner. Guess that's the kat sub side that's just needing to hide from the world & beg..what did I do wrong... yeah I feel.. gobsmacked. So all I can do right now is know that God knows what's happening .. I believe that my soul's mates do too. And that He is being careful with His glimpses & little by little because .. I am floored. Using my emdr skills but also.. what is my responsibility.. & not knowing.. it's having a devastating effect on my soul. Which is where I need to get back to reading. Because that's not what God wants me to feel. I gotta trust Him.Be encouraged by His glimpses. Not let myself spiral . And say thank You, because several favorites were under "writing" in gifs. Rather surprising. Little things. God is holding me in His arms & stroking my hair as the tears begin to fall.. thank You Lord for loving me. For Creating me exactly how You want me. A marshmallow soul that pays attention & is brought to tears when You reveal even the smallest of glimpses that things are gonna work out. That I must continue to be patient even when I am struggling to understand any of the whys.. losing.. I just.. flummoxed. Jaw dropped. I just.. peace.. Your Love & Encouragement. Please.. help me Lord??? To step righteously upon my life's path. Time to read..before I fall apart. I pray you .. do know.. just how much I love & miss you daily. That I have no expectations because the truest of love by ones soul's mates isn't easy nor is it about only making dreams come true. It's about making the dreams come true the way we want them to.. together. & wanting to be together until the God Given last breath is drawn. It's about wanting to see my loves .. happy.. inspite of me or my wants. I love you . And pray my Blessings are to be happy together. Chewing my lips. I will work whilst I await.Because I won't ever give up. ~True love never dies & true love always waits!.~ Your humble bowed crying cold sad scared devastated but calming to listening quietly closely carefully ..

Your complex quirky warrior queen daughter. ~Tijgeress kat Phoenix. ✝️🌺🐾🐯

☔⛈🌬💔😥😖😔🙊🙈🙉⚓🙏🙇‍♀️

🌂🔗⛓🧰📋📆🔐🏗🧱🏰⚙⚒🛠⚔⚖🗽🦅🕊

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Su.11.20.2022 10.50am est.

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mtnkat3 · 1 year

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Pizza & milk.. lol.

Slow naughty mischievous wicked eyed cheeky kat grin ..

I did some of my reading, wrote a bit.. ahem. Then took a nap.

Before blood sugar nosedived & woke me to take care of it. That's what cgm is good for. Catches it at 65 then keeps blaring until I do something before it reaches 50. I know what 25 feels like at 3am. Don't wanna do that again!

Then got pizza. [Not a little cesars fan but..] kinda ridiculous that to eat that pizza I needed to mop it then drink milk! 🙄🤨🤦‍♀️🤷‍♀️

I used to make pizza. Think I wanna make my own again.. when I'm in my place.

Hm.. Maybe drive you crazy with my favorite way to eat ice cream.. well... milkshakes are my favorite... basically a sundae .. blended. Grinning.

But really all I'm thinking about is you .

Being with you even when I'm reading & being quiet & just wanna cuddle up on a cold November night next to you.. to feel you .. right beside me. That's what I long for. You .

I miss you .

So badly I ache..

I love you . I hope you feel that.

I'll work .. God will tell me with His "little by little" when I've gotten my life on track.. & keep giving me glimpses. Because the unknown.. it's disappointment & discouragement that He doesn't want me to suffer. that's the adversary tricks. No! God wants to encourage & strength me! As He does everyone!

I don't have a give up bone in my body!

I work as I await.. on my cliffside.

~True love never dies & true love always waits!.~

For you .. eternity.

Your tired, cold, listening closely, carefully & quietly.. complex quirky warrior queen daughter.

~Tijgeress kat Phoenix.✝️🌺 🐾🐯

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mtnkat3 · 1 year

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Cabin

[Debated this one. Cause heard the chorus in my head. But maybe I need to shake myself up too.]

And yes, I tend to like big dogs. Even sweet but absent minded Samosas. I'd adopt my neighbors dog in a heartbeat, well not here.

And not with my elderly cat. I'm just praying she makes it. But preparing myself too. After, I'll find puppies & kittens to raise together.

Guess just thinking about the cold weather having now & my own outdoor cats. But I have them a corner near garage interior door, near freezer compressor [heat], & beds & such to keep them warm. I'd give them warning houses too but they are more interested in cardboard.

Sigh. Just.. an animal lover. Keep thinking about the huge rotty that I bonded with but wasn't mine. Broke my heart when I learned she'd passed away!

I'd have acreage just for all the cats & dogs in shelters to come & live & not worry about living! Food, water, shelter & love. Why I hate seeing ascpa commercials, I wanna put the people in those conditions! Argh!

[I have given insulin to cats, nursed several thru life & death. I'd do the same for dogs & others too. Just me. Warm, marshmallow heart.]

Time to think about the day & stuff I need to do! And pray for You Lord to protect all the animals! And get my cat to move off my lap.. makes me feel so guilty. 🙄🤦‍♀️🤷‍♀️

Anyways.. not sure why I was supposed to find, or write this/ these today. But God knows..

Guess to shake me up a bit. Chuckling.

Well.. wherever.. whenever.. whomever.. you .. are... I love you . And pray every moment you are ok.. safe, happy, smiling & know.. I miss you .

It's in God's Hands.

His Time, Plans, & Will.

I believe.

I work as I await. On my cliffside.

For eternity I have waited.

And shall continue until the moment arrives.

Beyond 1,000 lifetimes, beyond 10,000 years.

~True love never dies & true love always waits!.~

Your listening quietly closely carefully daughter.

Your complex quirky warrior queen daughter.

~Tijgeress kat Phoenix. 🌺🐾🐯✝️

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Th.11.17.2022 10.32am est.

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mtnkat3 · 1 year

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Oh my loves .. good morning! I hope you got a good nights sleep!

Well..cause I kept waking up.. thinking about you . Then well..got kinda uhm.. happy when I looked.. & all kinda thoughts running rampant.

But I think I was ...a cat around rocking chairs because that tumblr game last night. It happened too close to bedtime & think I was fighting spiralling in sleep. The thought you don't want me.. scared the crap outta my soul! Makes my heart jump & skitter & drops my tummy to the floor.

That one.. oh my loves .. it kinda smacked me back into focus. Which my precious Beloved Bears Angels mates to my soul knows.. all too well.. both makes me blush.. & makes me superbly happy.

Yes I feel vulnerable & exposed. I wanna be looking up into your eyes when I lay my soul bare. To read the nuisances of your body's & soul's reaction to how I'm feeling.

All I keep hearing.. God.. you .. Soon. Soon.. I pray this means before Thanksgiving! Whimpering sob. Christmas? Because I am about to make some pushes into the trailer I need, & the things I still need to get to move. Then I'm gonna start scheduling with apartments to view. Money spending time. Sigh. But. For the best purpose of all..

Making my way to you .

Because that you are gonna give up on me scares me more than me stepping out the door. It's my biggest fear. Losing you .. my soul's mates .. that would make me the biggest failure in the universe.

It's the biggest catalyst to push.. inspire.. motivate me. To keep going. Not let go. To not give up.

I think it's why God had things happen this way. I needed the Guidance, Teaching, guiding hands, Wisdom to help me keep going & give me the Strength & Perseverance.

As much as its sucked for us to be separated, it's also been vital in my growth as a woman, a Christian & a friend.

I am worthy of your love.

You are more than worthy to have the best of myself I have to give!

But you also know .. me.

The good, bad, ugly.. the wild crazy maverick kat.. the scared lil girl that wants to hide all my darkness & fears. The warrior queen that's armored to protect the marshmallow parts of me.

God & you alone will know the depths of me.. even the imperfect parts I reveal by these writings cannot truly describe .. me. I've just lost .... the poet.. the author.. the artist.. the musician parts of my soul. I want me back. I want to share me.. with you .

That's way more important & vital to me than complacency!

I am nervous. But I will not wait for my life to be my own anymore.

The big difference.. wh wants to control & demean & belittle.

You have always made me feel like I'm flying!

Ok. Tucking my soul back into my furry self & hiding myself back from the world. Time to close this.. pray to keep working my path right so when I see your eyes.. I can soar in them!

I love you .

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I believe.

I will work as I await you on my cliffside my precious Beloved Bears .. Angels ..

~True love never dies & true love always waits!.~

Your humble, frustrated, impatiently patiently waiting, listening closely, carefully & quietly.. Your complex quirky warrior queen daughter.

~Tijgeress kat Phoenix. 🌺🐾🐯✝️

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Su.11.13.2022 10.36am est.

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11.26pm my loves ...as I sit here with original "wonder woman" on low ...

just thinking about you ... love, life, what I need to do to make things happen.. to make our dreams come true..

This week. I know it's gonna be difficult. But it's gonna be important too. I'm so nervous. But I also am calm, & excited. Sigh. I really am balancing eggs these days. But I know.. patience.

I want to be me. I want to be with you . More than I want to breathe another breath in this place.

Actions. Time to shut up & prove myself. Gonna be a difficult week..

What I think about...

You .

& how I wanna get my hands on you ..

& never come up for air.

Oh & my lips.. tongue...teeth... oh all my bits! Slow grin.

I want more than sexy messages.. well.. unless like a business trip or something. No I want you . In my arms. I wanna bury my nose in your neck all night long...

Yes my loves .. wake me up.

Anytime...

I love you .

That isn't something I throw around. It's for you alone my soul's precious Beloved Bears .. Angels ..

I love you .

And God as my witness my butt is getting out of this place!

My soul awaits..

~True love never dies & true love always waits!.~

Your frustrated, nervous, listening quietly, closely, carefully ...

Your complex quirky warrior queen daughter.

~Tijgeress kat Phoenix. 🌺🐾🐯✝️

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Su.11.13.2022 1.01am est.

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Tu.9.27.2022 11.24pm

Dear Lord,

Thank You for today!

You woke me to get the truck to the shop for much awaited repairs, although still need rear tires, & a new windshield. I was able to get errands run. Got cobra settled, now pay in blood. Sigh. But You reminded me the truth of wh by having my fingers go numb holding the chicken handle in the 911 because he was so pissed off & screaming driving & acting like a maniac multiple times today. Such a douchebaggery asshat jerk. Sigh. But then You shined on me! You have been giving me calm today! I was able to get some laundry done, & I finally got an appt with counselor on Monday! Yay! Now, to get to work! But most importantly, a former sis/law is kind to me & wants to help! Was even willing to have a meal with me sitting at a local park! Such a God send to me! That I have people in my life that want to be in my life, even when I need to turn to them when my world implodes & my anxiety takes over. They rallied for me. And every time I praise You for them Lord! Not one of them had to do so & I know this well! My few friends are Christian, care about me as a person, have treated me with kindness, love & support. Even though I know everyone is extremely busy with life, family & their own difficulties. They have each helped me to not feel like a burden, not feel like I'm unwanted, unlovable. But rather I have stumbled & perceived things.. well. You know Lord. And whomever is the Mate of my soul , You know that too. I no longer know .. I give it all to You Lord. Because whether my gut instincts are right, ...whatever the truth is.. whatever the future holds... You Lord know. And I believe that the one ...or whatever... that You Created beside me already knows I exist. I must do the work to earn that love. I want my soul mate to love me, but also respect me. Heck, even like me! Which I struggle with. It is the depth & core of my insecurities & anxiety. To be loved, & wanted, for me. But I need to learn to love, & truly like, myself. It really is a tragedy that childhood is fraught with.. feeling unsafe. But I know this. I am not crazy. I am a good woman. But You Lord needed me to learn this year. And to turn into Your arms. Your Love. Your True Love Waits on me. And You are jealous Lord. I know this! I must give my soul's lifelong loneliness for the mate I have felt.. to You. I must remember to come to You, to not deny You. To give You Alll my faithfulness, devotion, adoration, loyalty, fidelity & love. And when You are ready for my soul's Mate.../s whatever, sigh to come to me... well..then I guess I will truly feel Blessed beyond measure then. I just don't know anymore Lord. I only know this.. I feel my soul's mate presence surrounding. And I know I love that soul. No matter if I have known, or that is far onto the future.. I don't know anymore. But. I believe in magic. I believe in You Lord. And I believe in Your Love. And I believe in Mate.../s to my soul. Whomever.. wherever.. he.. sigh.. may be.

I don't know anymore! God help me... please??? I know that I love but what the heck!?!?!? Why Lord??? Why??? & yeah, You know I'm struggling with the whys! I only pray to know the truth. Someday? Please Lord??? God help me...please??? Sigh. Giving my trembling scared kat soul into Your care Lord. Cause You know Your Plans for my life! [Jeremiah 29.11,13] please give me the strength, wisdom, courage, & guidance to persevere for You Lord! That I be a good daughter & woman for You!

Because I believe.

~True love never dies & true love always waits.~

I will wait Forever.

I will never stop.

I will get my life right!

God, help me...please???

Your scared, humbled, listening carefully daughter,

~Tijgeress kat Phoenix.🌺

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W.9.28.2022 12.25am est. diary .42a

God, please, lessen Hurrican Ian & its devastating effects. And protect all the people along the gulf coast! In Your Name, Jesus! Amen.~t.🌀⚓🙏🙇‍♀️

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