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darnell-la · 2 days

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dom billy smut, cnc where he chases you in the woods <3

note: this story will contain CNC. Do not interact if you’re under 18 OR these situations make you uncomfortable.

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3rd person pov

“He’s been weird lately, like angrier,” Max said as we sat on Will’s couch. “He’s always angry,” Dustin said, making us agree. It’s not like he can get any more angry than he already is at this point. He’s bitching every second he gets.

“Oh shit, that’s his car!” Max said as she ducked behind the couch, making us duck with her. “Shit,” Sinclair said once as Will, Mike and Dustin repeated it.

“Relax, I’ll go scare him off,” Steve said, making me stand up and walk towards the door and outside with him to meet up with Billy at his car.

“Well isn’t it Steve and the bitch,” Billy already started his harsh words. “Well isn’t it muscles and his hot car to make his dick seem bigger,” y/n said, making him chuckle. “Don’t need a car for that,” he looked the girl up and down.

“What do you want, dick face?” Steve asked. “Heard my sister was here. Need her home asap,” Billy said. “Well, she ain’t here, so buh-bye,” Steve lied, making him chuckle again.

“Go get my sister before I cause hell,” Billy looked towards Y/n, thinking he could scare her to do what he said. “She ain’t here,” y/n said plainly.

“Oh, really, then who the fuck is that in the window?” He asked, making me and Steve look back and see the kids duck their heads behind the couch. God, they’re no help.

“Look man-“ Steve tried to speak as we turned around until he was cut off by Billy throwing a hard punch to his face, causing him to be knocked out instantly. “Fuck,” I said as I took off to the house.

I quickly made my way inside before closing and locking the door behind me. “Basement, now!” I yelled at them, making them all get up quickly and run to the basement that had a way out from the back.

“You guys get to the next house, say some stranger is harassing you guys and you need the police I’m going back for Steve,” I said as they all nodded then took off running down the basement stairs.

“You little shits!” Billy shouted after he kicked the front door open then slammed it shut with a smirk on his face as he saw me close the basement door.

I quickly locked the door and slipped the key under it so he couldn’t get to them.

“Oh, you’re smart,” Billy chuckled in anger as he rubbed his face. “But not smart enough,” he said before speeding over toward y/n. She went to get away, but Billy was too fast.

The strong man had connected his hand around Y/n’s neck and slammed her into the basement door behind her.

Y/n slapped and kicked at the man, but he wasn’t budging. He watched her. Watched her struggle and gasp for hair as he tightened his grip.

“Should have gone with them. You’re not untouchable,” Billy leaned close to y/n’s face, only a few inches away from her lips.

“Fuck you,” y/n got out as he smirked and looked down at her lips. “Pretty bitches like you shouldn’t have that language. Maybe I should teach you a lesson for that and for getting in between me and my sister,” shouted a word as he pulled me off of the door just to slam me back, causing me to hit my head hard.

“Oh, stop that cryin',” Billy moved his face close to y/n’s face again, but before he could say anything, she kicked her leg up, colliding it with his balls hard.

“Fuck!” Billy yelled loudly as he dropped to his knees in pain. Y/n quickly ran away and out of the house to get Steve. “Steve! Steve!” Y/n shook her friend, trying to wake him, but he was out.

“You’re in for it, y/n!” Billy yelled from inside the house. She panicked and got up to run. She ran into the woods, knowing the road was nearby and maybe some cars would help her.

Billy needs to be locked up with the way he treats people. He’s assaulted Steve more than once and always grabs Maxine harshly. Now he’s chasing y/n.

“Don’t run because if I catch you, you’re fuckin’ dead,” he threatened, but she kept running. She knew she could make it, but what she didn’t know was the stamina Billy had.

“Can’t believe you think you can get away from me. Maybe you aren’t that smart,” Billy said, seeming so close to y/n, making her panic.

Y/n kept her head forward, seeing the road ahead and cars drove by. She felt hope until she was tackled to the ground, causing her knees to scrape up and the wind to be knocked out of her.

“Come here,” Billy laughed in my ear as he began tugging at my clothes so quickly. I tried fighting back and yelling out for help but it’s useless.

“Aw, don’t fight it, baby. It’ll be over soon,” Billy said as he finally got y/n’s shorts to her mid-thigh. “Stop it, Billy!” Y/n yelled as Billy pulled himself out, ready to ruin her.

“You don’t tell me what to do,” Billy said before pushing into y/n, causing her to whine loudly at the sudden pressure. He’s huge.

“You think I was gonna let this run away from me? Never. Couldn’t miss out on this tight cunt,” Billy groaned in y/n’s ear as he snapped his hips hard against her ass.

“P-Please, Billy,” y/n begged him, feeling her heat wet and the knot in her stomach grow. “Why should I? You’re sucking me in like a cock lovin’ slut,” Billy growled in her ear, bowing y/n’s mind.

“Can’t tell me you don’t want it when you’re this wet. Does being hunted down and fucked in the woods turn you on? I fuckin’ bet,” Billy chuckled as y/n’s legs shook.

“That’s it,” Billy spoke as y/n’s sobbed loudly, cumming around Billy’s cock and doing as he said, ducking him right back into her.

“Yeah, that’s it, baby. Fuckin’ cum on my cock, fuck,” Billy pounded into the weak girl as she kept cumming. She couldn’t stop herself. It felt too good. How does it feel so good? This wrong!

“Gonna take you back to my place. Maybe then Maxine will come home,” Billy said. “Fuck her honesty. I truly only came here for you,” Billy whispered in your y/n’s ear as his seed leaked into her cunt, filling her until she couldn’t take anymore.

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mirrology · 8 hours

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Can I ask a boothill with an adopted child/teen reader that's hps (hyper sensitive) and also has parental trauma

(You don't have to do this if you feel uncomfortable 🐧)

ノstar .ᐟ ʚɞ

୨୧ No matter that love's gone, We just see it shining. We've traveled very far, I'll keep a leftover light burning. So you can keep looking up, Isn't that worth holding on? — star, mitski.

boothill & gender neutral reader. platonic | wc: 1.6k

tags/warnings: decided to go with hc's for this one since I didn't know how to write it in fic format T_T. teen reader, reader is a galaxy ranger and really well versed in technology. they can fight pretty well, reader also hates the ipc. boothill is a bad influence. mentioned child abuse, child neglect, reader has a "mom" and acts a little like blade when near her.

notes: aaaa sorry that this is so late! Hopefully, this is what you meant by "hypersensitive." If not, then just let me know, and I'll change it, ALSO HAPPY PRIDE MONTH

— The two of you met when you were beating up some IPC goons on a planet that they had recently wanted to take over. You had been there gathering materials to set sail to your next destination, you were on the hunt for a certain IPC employee. One who you once knew.

— You couldn't just stand back and watch those IPC scum send that planet into spiraling chaos. So, of course, you beat them up without breaking a sweat. That's where Boothill had found you, he was impressed that someone so young had such skill in combat.

↳ You huffed as the remaining IPC personnel ran away with their tails between their legs. A slow sound of applause came from behind you, causing you to turn around, a deadpan evident on your face. You were met with a man with dual colored hair and what seemed to be a metal body, “I'm not gonna lie, you've got skills, kid.” He had said, a smirk on his face.

— Once the both of you got to talking, he found out you were also a galaxy ranger and that you also absolutely hated the IPC, you both really had many things in common. You had asked him for help in getting to your destination and he agreed pretty easily, claiming that he had “some time to spare”

— Although you had spent little time together, you felt comfortable around him, he never pushed your boundaries or forced you to do things you didn't want to. Boothill’s vocabulary surprised you, instead of cursing normally his words were censored. You would have offered to try to fix his synesthesia beacon, but just the thought of touching someone made your skin crawl. The ghostly touches of people who you once considered family etched onto your skin.

— Once it came to part ways, you didn't want to do so. You shyly admitted to Boothill that the thought of not seeing him scared you a tad bit. He looked surprised but then gave you a bright smile and told you that you could join him on his adventures, and so a strong bond between the both of you was born.

— When Boothill infiltrated the IPC headquarters you're the one who hacked into their system. With your experience, it was relatively easy, although Boothill would not let you go inside with him. He couldn't risk putting you in danger, even though he knows you can put up a fight.

— When the both of you escaped the headquarters after causing absolute chaos, Boothill brought his hand up to your head as he tried to ruffle your hair. He was surprised and slightly hurt when you tensed up and quickly moved out of the way.

— Boothill thought he had made you scared of him somehow, even though you had no reason to be afraid. You noticed his downcast expression and you quickly told him that he did nothing wrong, it was just…

↳ Your heart pounded in your chest, your hands were sweating. You reached up and gripped a strand of your hair in your hand as a sheepish expression painted your face. “I'm not the best with physical touch,” You blurted out, albeit bluntly. “Whenever someone touches me — even if it's just a brush of their fingers, it feels like needles are being stuck into my skin” You huffed, clenching your fist and your eyes downcast. Boothill's expression softened, his once frown lifting into an understanding smile. “Thanks for telling me, bud.” He nodded, his fingers twitching at his side, as if wanting to reach out to you. Yet he respected your space and refrained from doing so.

— Now that Boothill knew about your hypersensitivity he made no attempts to touch you, preferring to give you gifts instead. Whenever you do something that makes him proud as a father would a child; he takes you out to get your favorite food as a treat. Of course verbal encouragement is also a thing he does, giving you a “I'm proud of ya’ kid!” and a pointy grin.

— It's canon Boothill is pretty wealthy from all of those bounties that he hunts and he doesn't exactly know what to do with it. So he definitely spoils you at every chance he gets. Want a nice Keychain you saw in a shop? He's handing it to you right now. How about a nice piece of clothing or a cultural food from the planet that you're visiting? He's got the clothing in a bag and is urging you to try the food.

— Even though you both have your moments of happiness, the both of you still have purposes you stick to. You had gotten a lead on where that person was and you were going to do everything to catch up to them and make them get what they deserved.

↳ “You.” You hissed walking towards the woman in an IPC uniform, kicking another unconscious employee away. You gripped your weapon tightly in your hand, the woman widened her eyes in terror at your sudden appearance, she fell on her bottom, scooting away from you as you approached her. As she backed away she didn't go far, her back hitting a wall not too long after. Your unhurried footsteps resonated through her ears, making her breath pick up as she clutched the dirt underneath her in an attempt to ground herself.

You stopped in front of her, eyes full of unbridled anger. “(N-name)?!” She squeaked, putting a hand out infront of her to reach out to you. “What are.. how are you-” She was cut off as the back of your weapon slapped her intruding hand away. “You don't get to say my name.” You glared at her, your tone icy cold and unforgiving. She tried to speak once more but was once again cut off, “You left me to die! If it wasn't for my quick thinking, I would have been dead by now!” You said in a firm tone and pointed your weapon straight at her, leaving her no room to move or else you would attack.

The woman tensed up and a bead of sweat ran down the side of her cheek, “Honey… I had no choice! You would only weigh me down, you have to understand!” She had the gall to call you “honey” this woman no longer had the honor of doing so. The words stung, even though you no longer felt any affection for her… they brought back memories that you would rather forget. You clenched your teeth and watched as she rambled on and on about how “it was for your own good” and that “you should try to understand her situation” before she would get another word out, you sound your weapon, officially slicing her throat.

The blood splattered onto your stoic face, you watch as she choked on her own blood, eyes wide and filled with panic as if her life was flashing before her eyes… you hope it hurts.

A set of footsteps came from behind you, judging by the jingling of metal and their heavy footsteps you could tell who it was. You reluctantly turned around to meet Boothill's concerned gaze, “Er.. ya’ okay kiddo?” He scratched the side of his face as he pointed out the tears that prickled at the corner of your eyes. You stared at the ground and slowly nodded “I don't entirely hate her, but she didn't deserve to know that… even in her last moment” You muttered as more salty tears filled your vision.

— You and Boothill headed back to your ship, all while you were still occasionally shedding tears. Boothill, seeing the state you were in, offered you a warm, fluffy blanket and a warm drink; hot chocolate.

↳ You sniffled and held the blanket that was over your shoulders to your chest. You were sat on a cushion on the floor of yours and Boothill’s ship, knees tucked towards your chest in an attempt to stop yourself from crying. “Heya kiddo, I got ya’ some hot chocolate…” Boohill plopped down next to you on a matching cushion and held out the mug that was in his robotic hand. His hand was placed below the mug so when you reached to get it, you both wouldn't accidentally brush fingers.

The both of you sat in a pregnant silence and you occasionally sipping on the warm drink provided to you. Boothill stared at you from the corner of his eye, your gaze was focused on the window, giving you the view of the vast space. “She was my mother, you know” You suddenly broke the silence with your blunt words, Boothill’s eyes widened a significant amount, yet you continued.

“Even though she claimed to love me, her actions hurt and her words even more.” You put your mug down beside you and snuggled further into the blanket. The cyborg's face softened into something different, almost sad, distraught. His teeth clenched in anger at the thought of you being hurt by that woman, something ugly bloomed in his mechanical chest.

“But now she's gone,” Boothill started, making you turn your head to look at him with a surprised expression. “She can't hurt you anymore nor anyone, not when I'm around” He grinned, his shark-like teeth out on display. Something in your chest felt warm, it was different but not unpleasant. You offered Boothill a small smile then took a deep breath and raised your pinky up, “Pinky promise?” your voice a bit shaky, but your eyes were filled with determination.

Boothill slowly brought his pinky up, gently intertwining it with yours. They were barely touching but it was progress, “Promise.” The cyborg nodded firmly.

Tears pricked at you eyes, not in sadness nor anger, but relief.

“Thank you.”

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ericshoney · 2 days

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Mini Matt gets drunk ~ Sturniolo Triplets

Warnings: partying, alcohol, throwing up, underage drinking (don't do it!), being forced to drink underage, spiked drinks, protective!triplets, platonic pet names.

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It was supposed to be a normal party. One of your friends wanted to celebrate their following on TikTok by having a large party. You agreed to go, hoping to have a good time, however Nick, Matt and Chris didn't go as they didn't really know your friend. You understood and didn't force them to go, but how the party was going now, you really wished they were there.

The party started a couple hours ago and it was going well, until a few guys arrived with bottles of alcohol. Your friend knew these guys but you didn't and started to feel uncomfortable.

"Hey girl! Come join us!" Your friend shouted from the kitchen. You were in the living room, watching all the drunk people grind against each other.

You sighed and held your root beer tightly, as you walked into the kitchen, seeing the same guys with many shot glasses and cups set up.

"What's going on?" You asked.

"We're going to play a game and your joining!" Your friend cheered, pulling you over.

"I'm not drinking alcohol." You stated.

"Oh let loose!" She whined.

"I'm nineteen!" You exclaimed.

"Who cares!" One of the guys shouted.

You sighed and watched as they started playing a game, the alcohol quickly flowing. The small group then turned to you.

"Come on, just one shot!" Your friend shouted.

"Yeah don't be a pussy!" Another shouted.

You sighed as the group laughed and teased you. You could hear Matt's voice in the back of your head telling you not to do it, but when a shot glass was placed in your hand, replacing the root beer, you sighed again. You quickly downed the shot, making the group cheer and holler.

"See, that wasn't so bad!" Your friend screamed.

You shook your head and stood against the counter. One of the more quieter guys passed you another root beer. You gave him a small smile as you took a sip, not realising it was spiked.

Another hour went by with you sipping your root beer. You could tell it tasted different, but you brushed it off as a different brand. However, as the alcohol started to sink into your system, everything got kinda fuzzy.

"Hey! You okay?" Your friend called, seeing you swaying slightly.

"I'm great! But I want Nicky and Matty and Chrissy!" You slurred your words.

"Fuck. Where's your phone?" She asked, the guilt setting in quickly.

"Here dumbass!" You screamed, waving your phone around.

"Okay, let's get you outside and I'll call them." She said, gently guiding you outside.

You giggled as you stumbled around, your friend quickly calling Nick, who was already shouting at Matt to drive.

Ten minutes later, the familiar car pulled up, all three got out the car and rushed over to you.

"The fuck happen!" Chris shouted, seeing you pouting as you struggled with your shoes.

"I-I accidentally let her drink." Your friend lied.

"No! You, fuck! Didn't you forceeed me!" You exclaimed, ratting her out.

"It was one shot!" She shouted in defence.

"This root beer tastes funny!" You whined, waving the cup around.

Matt grabbed the cup from you gently and sniffed the drink, his nose scrunching up.

"It's spiked." He said.

"I'm so sorry." Your friend said.

"Maybe don't invite anyone underage if your planning on having alcohol." Nick said, the three of them gave her a disappointing look.

She sighed and apologised again as the guys helped you in the car, Matt driving home quickly.

"Nickkkkk." You whined, the boy next to you rubbing your back as you laid on him.

"Hmm, yes sweetheart?" He called.

"I'm sorry." You mumbled, your eyes closed.

"No bub, don't be sorry, it wasn't your fault." He said.

"I gave into pressure." You admitted.

"It's okay, petal, none of us are mad." Matt called from the front.

"Yeah, kid. We're worried about you." Chris added.

"Never drinking again." You muttered, making the trio laugh.

"Good." Nick said.

You all soon arrived home, Nick helping you out of the car, however as soon as you entered the house, you rushed to Matt's bathroom, throwing up in the toilet. The guys rushed to you, all looking at you with sympathy.

"Oh sweetheart." Matt cooed, rubbing your back as he held your hair.

"I'll get some water, Chris go grab a bowl with cool water and a face cloth." Nick instructed.

Chris nodded and rushed off as Nick went to the kitchen, grabbing a bottle of water. Matt continued rubbing your back, whispering to you gently.

"It's okay bub, we're here. Don't worry, let it all out." He said gently.

After you emptied your stomach, you sat back against Matt's legs. He rubbed your head, brushing any stray hairs out your face as Nick helped you drink some water and Chris patted the sweat off your forehead.

"Sorry." You whispered.

"Hey kid, we already told you, you don't have to be sorry." Chris said.

"Yeah, just relax okay." Nick said.

You nodded, your eyes closed as a headache started to set in. You knew you'd never probably drink again, unless it was a few years in the future.

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usermarquez · 2 days

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Saw a video of Marc post Sepang 2015 press conference and he literally looks like he’s about to break into tears and have a panic attack, like Valentino Rossi I’m in your walls for what you put him through bullying a 22 year old at your big old age if 36 just cause you weren’t getting your way and Marc never got that reputation that he lost back like Marc probably couldn’t have filed for defamation and won with the way he was dragged because of valentinos delusions. And know he’s passed it on to his academy kids. Marc still talks about the effects of that to this day, like we will never now just how bad it got like people still regularly say they hope he dies even straight to his face, like I know people joke about it in a fantasy rosquez senario but irl what he did to Marc and what his fans did to Marc is disgusting and somehow he’s praised for it. He also told the media what they were saying to ianonii was wrong and in the same breath turned around and did it to Marc like I heard that he even accused Dani of riding him hard and that he expected people to get out of his way because he was in the lead of a championship like if you can’t do hard racing maybe you don’t deserve the title you say got stolen from you. I’m kinda glad Rossis last years of MotoGP was kinda his worst nightmare Marc Marquez dominating and doing it on a bike that wasn’t the best in the field something Rossi never did cause even if the 2004 Yamaha wasn’t the best bike he rode it was one of the best of that year and let’s face it his crop of actual rivals that’s could challenge him was basically non-existent whereas Marc won 2019 which was the most competitive season ever based on statistics and won it with 18 podium including 12 wins.

ALL OF THIS !!! ALL OF THIS !!!! As I said, I treat Rosquez and Post 2015 Vale as concepts in my head because otherwise if I think of Vale as a real person I might be tempted to deck him if I ever have the chance.

I think what Vale and Uccio had done at the time was completely disgusting, and no amount of RPF-fication of either of them can’t undo or change those facts.

“Oh, he’s just in his silly little mood.” Oh, fuck off, maybe focus on beating your teammate instead. And for people who came at Marc and like “You should’ve been a bigger person.” Well, fuck you. How mature could a twenty-two years old person be after hearing himself booed for something he didn’t even know. I know I would be plotting for the one responsible for it.

Also, what do you mean Vale could pull Dani aside, accused him from riding him too hard AWAY from the cameras, but Marc couldn’t get the same courtesy and instead dropping it in the middle of a press conference watched by millions of viewers. Disgusting. Completely unnecessary.

And the whole telling people off reeks of hypocrisy because when asked if he would tell fans to stop after his fans booed Marc and Jorge in Qatar 2016, all he could say was that was beyond his control. Which I know that in the end fans do as fans like, but the fact he could do that for Iannone but not Marc and Jorge was just disgusting to me I can’t find any other words than everything Vale did then as disgusting and vile.

Also, people romanticize that he passed the Marc hate to the Academy riders is so weird to me. The implication that Marc is sharing a track with people who personally hate him makes me feel so uncomfortable, I don’t want to go down that road. But, whatever.

Anyway, I don’t care if people stan Vale and Marc but I do have problems when people treat everything that happened to Marc like it was a fiction. This is something Marc has GONE THROUGH in real life. This is a real person who suffered the backlash because someone couldn’t keep his ego in check, because he couldn’t handle the realization that he couldn’t overtake IANNONE while Jorge and Marc were having the duel of their lives.

Rosquez reconciliation only works for me if Vale goes on his knees in front of international broadcast, grovels and begs Marc to forgive him, and posts the clip on all his social medias. Otherwise, Marc shouldn’t even look at that man for longer than one second.

Anyway, wow this suddenly looks like it’s turning into an anti Rosquez rambles which sounds I hate them but I actually don’t (?) I just think that sometimes Rosquez posts romanticising Sepang and 2015 and the fallout a lot and as someone who lived through it AND DID NOT enjoy it, it’s just so disconcerting. Hearing someone saying “Wow, the narrative is compelling.” knowing that that was the most unpleasant time, and did nothing except ruining a lot of people’s enjoyment of the sport…….. I didn’t even dare say I like Marc because someone would wish him dead and called me stupid.

#sorry pls look away i’m going on a frustrated rant #💌💌💌#.anon

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taylorswiftstylequestions · 2 days

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Hi Sarah! I'm sorry to be leaving something so negative in your inbox—it's unfair and I apologize, I just trust you to engage with it in a thoughtful way that'll broaden my perspective (if you choose to engage at all!)

I'm let down by TTPD, for a lot of reasons, but mostly I think it's just how unsympathetic Taylor is on this one? I recognize it was the point, but it doesn't work like it did on other self-critical songs like "Dear Reader" or even songs like "Getaway Car" or "Ivy." It just lacks in self-awareness—writing a song calling fans pearl-clutching "vipers" for not supporting the awful things MH did, taking shots at decades-old enemies and bringing their kids into it, responding to (some very fair!) criticisms on "Who's Afraid..." by blaming everyone else for "making her this way" and then doubling down, the jabs at OR... it's just an incredibly difficult album to empathize with. I know she said it was meant to capture what it feels like to be in that space, but you can do so without lashing out unnecessarily at very founded critique and/or people who had nothing to do with it. The highlights, IMO, are the songs where she balances gray morality or chaos with the self-reflection she's always been known for, i.e. "I Can Fix Him...", "Guilty as Sin?", "Florida!", or songs like "Clara Bow" and "The Smallest Man..." which aren't punching down. Idk. I've been reading fan takes and hoping it'll grow on me!

Hi! A note that this is from around release week, just had it floating in my drafts for a bit as I thought of ways to respond.

First off, I so appreciate you coming into this space in good faith and in the hopes that I'll be able to engage with your thoughts in a way that can perhaps, as you noted, broaden your perspectives and thus having the impact of changing your mind.

As a disclaimer, if you don't like certain songs or find certain things hit too close to home or are sensitive or they make you uncomfortable - that is okay! That is your right to feel that way. You're not obligated to like all or any of Taylor's art. It isn't imperative that you like this. At all!

That said, I'd say Taylor is making her art as brash and honest and uncomfortable on purpose because she's a complicated person. We as humans aren't always palatable all the time. We can be ugly and complicated and unflattering. I understand the desire to, but we also can't dictate her art. We can't ask her art to expose her pain — but with caveats.

Be vulnerable, but don't make me uncomfortable. Cry, but don't ruin your makeup.

To me, this album is ugly and it's ugly on purpose. And not to be annoyingly cliché but I really do think that's beautiful.

I can certainly share my thoughts, but it isn’t my intent (nor is it my job / goal) to change your mind or “make” you like it. I promise you can continue to have a weird / squiggly / not okay / uncomfy / dislike relationship with this art if that's where you're sitting!

In case it does matter, I don't think "But Daddy" is swiping back at people for not liking / not approving the person she was dating. We can critique and have opinions about her choices, but the song is not about wanting your approval - it's the opposite! It's saying that she doesn't care about your opinion and as a grown woman she has the right to make whatever decisions she wants to without a nameless mass of people thinking they are in a position where they can dictate those choices. If she's going to make a mistake, she is going to make it.

Imo, Taylor can bring up 2016 as many times as she wants to. I'd even make the case she hasn't talked about it nearly enough. As she continues to unpack and deal with that time in her life, she's allowed to realize things anew about how those situations had a long-tail impact on who she is as a person now. We even see that in a completely different way on "The Manuscript". Given Kim has recently shared content of her and her children dancing to Taylor songs I don't think the implication was out of pocket. It was Taylor saying I hope that in the small ways in your daily life like going out for a walk or making your kids lunch or sitting at a stop light that you're inescapably reminded of my legacy. And that kind of annoying jab is the I-hope-you-stub-your-toe-everyday petty remark feels very Taylor to me and not malicious or implicating her kids in a derogatory way.

All in all I really do hear you about wanting desperately to find something softer and more empathetic and pleasing about this album so that it doesn't feel like you're stretching uncomfortably to like it. But I'd just say that (and I really do mean this with sincerity) you don't have to! You can dislike it! You can critique it and find the things she's saying not oaky by you or that you disagree with how she's characterizing herself and situations. The thing is that she's writing from her POV and how things felt for her. And what's hard is that she doesn't have to be objective or fair about her own storytelling. She can put herself in the best light if she wants to - even if she's wrong! And it's so so so okay for you to not like that and to say, well ... no!

Again, I love and appreciate you feeling like TSS/Q was the safe space for you to come to to talk about this and try to find a new level or something to unlock and perhaps feel things over. Or, in the very least, just to share the difficult spot you're finding yourself in listening to this album. I'm grateful you wanted to share that in this space of all spaces.

#this is another note but i also don't see what people are talking about re: olivia #opinion #tss ttpd party

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swaglet · 3 days

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Hey swaggy I wanted to ask you for advice.

You are a very cool person with a lot of cool sounding friends and I wanted to ask as a fellow autistic person... how do you do it?

I always feel so uncomfortable in social situations and around new people, but I want to make friends, because I'm lonely.

What advice can you give to an awkward and shy lady?

hi anon i have been thinking about this for a few days, sorry it took me so long to respond + sorry if it gets rambly! it's gonna be REALLY LONG (it was accidental) so i've put it under a cut but anyone is free to read this ^_^

i have had a lot of trouble over my life with the process of keeping friends; not because i fight with them or anything or do anything to make them stop liking me, i just really struggle with maintaining regular contact and "knowing how" to be friends with people. for every one friend i currently have now, there have probably been 5 more in the past where i just didn't know how to reach out to them or connect and we drifted apart because of it. i really wanted to be close to people, and be close to them like all the time, but i just really couldn't figure it out. and honestly i still really have a hard time with it to this day. from a really young age, i've really struggled with things like:

"how often should i talk to them? how do i know what's correct?" "when we hang out, what should we be doing?" "when i do talk to them outside of hanging out, how should i initiate it and what should it be about?" "how do i connect with them in ways that aren't exclusively superficial?"

mostly, i struggled (and still struggle) with the barrier that divides people into the categories "someone i enjoy the company of and who enjoys my company, but we are really just acquaintances who cross each others' paths often" and "someone who is definitively my friend that i invite places, talk to regularly (by my metrics), and intentionally seek out the company of." i'm not really sure what criteria draw the line between those two categories. i've had people who i considered best friends think we were acquaintances, and acquaintances who thought i was absolutely enamored with them and obsessed with them or something. navigating what it means to "be friends" with someone is so hard for me in my day to day life but i think i've just learned to live with it ngl.

all i know is that i absolutely adore spending time with my friends but the anxiety and fear of "what do i do with them and in what timeframe?" is always there. most of my close friends are also autistic or are very close to someone who is (like a family member or childhood friend), or we have known each other since we were wee little kids and they just got used to how i operate in friendships, so that brings down the anxiety quite a bit because they are experiencing the same thing and there are no expected rules to be followed. i didn't actively seek out autistic friends or anything, it just kind of happened, i think we gravitate towards each other for comfort in a world that is crazy insane to us.

onto the concrete advice !!!

if there is any possible way you can get yourself into regularly visiting a location or function where part of the location or function involves conversing with people who very likely share the same interests as you just by being at the function, DO IT. i hope this makes sense but this is where most of my friends came from; i participate in something i feel very strongly about, i talk to the people who are there by association because the situation requires or suggests it, and then we bond over shared interests that brought us to the function, then we become Friends. and then, those Friends you've made may introduce you to other Friends. here's my example:

i have always been in love with music since i was a little kid, so when i started 4th grade (the year my school let us join band) i joined band. it was an everyday type of thing so we all saw each other every single day and got to know each other in that 45 minute window for 9 years. it gave me a chance to bond with my classroom acquaintances over a shared interest (even just asking/telling them the fingerings or talking to them about what we learned or practicing together in practice rooms or sharing rides to concerts or gigs), and it also gave me a chance to talk to people who i may have never talked to outside of band. i still regularly hang out with a lot of the people i was in band with in high school, especially since some of them came to the same college and continued to do band, and/or they stayed local like me. i really really REALLY care about music so when people wanted some advice about it, needed help, or just wanted to chat about something shared, they would come to me and talk to me and i would be polite and engage with them and whatnot. now because of my reputation of being the Band Girl, i'm the student in charge of band and choir, i work for the music department on campus, i'm the president of a related honors society, so everybody comes and talks to me for all that stuff. sometimes it's overwhelming but i do get to talk to a lot of people i really enjoy the company of.

honestly, if there's anything u can take away from what i'm saying, treat socializing almost like networking if that makes sense? networking comes easier to me than socializing so like, if i put myself in a place where people are encouraged by the social rules to talk to me about something i'm interested in because of the shared function, and enough people talk to me, eventually i will find people i click with. i used to be very shy and awkward because people would tease me for being loud and outgoing and excitable but i stopped giving a fuck because life is too short and now everyone is obsessed with me. if you are more laid back i think this will also work just fine because there are just as many people who dislike how boisterous and outgoing i am, it's just different for everybody. normal human person things.

but srsly things like band have been my clutch. college classes are also helpful because as you get older and into higher grades, your classes become more specialized to your major, and if you go to college for a major you're obsessed with (for me it's specialties under conservation ecology and music as a minor) you will run into people with the same interests as you just based on your classes. clubs have also been important to me; feminist club, recycling/eco friendly club, creative writing club, and all the other clubs i'm a part of. for most of them, you have to attend a certain number of meetings to be considered a part of the club, so that gets me out and about and introduced to the people in it. they have events very very often that are held for all of campus and i try to make myself go to all the ones i can possibly make it to, even if i don't have anyone to go with. worst case scenario, someone will either see me alone and pity me and accompany and maybe we'll find out we like each other, or i'll end up staying alone for the event which honestly isn't bad because i prefer doing things by myself and i already intended to be alone anyway.

i also visit a lot of local shops and get to know the owners and the workers, and i attend their special events too, even if it's like a local diner with a 20% off breakfast weekend. it gives me something to do and i can chit-chat with the waitresses and maybe there will be other people there. i also like going to places like goodwill because sometimes there are people who will just like. Talk to you randomly. like an npc dialogue option but they're real

other people may say go to the club or the bar but i am NOT a solo bar or club goer especially as a woman. i will just sit at the bar and talk to the bartender if they initiate contact with me and drink my little drinks. i know that people go to those places almost exclusively for the chance to socialize but it feels almost intrusive since i don't know them. it may be different for you, it most likely isn't, but the bars and clubs are PRE-EXISTING FRIEND ACTIVITIES ONLY for me.

there's a bunch of fun little businesses too. we have axe throwing, kayak rentals/kayaking lessons, and stuff like that. i do those as often as i can and offer my advice to the people i meet there if they seem like they need it, or i engage with them if they talk to me. i've run into a lot of people while kayaking on the river who just like to chill and sit back and drink their beer and chit chat with you.

the weirdest place i have made a friend was the drive-thru at starbucks. she had the CUTEST star-themed outfit, i'm talking like she had clips in her bangs with stars on them, star-print glitter on her cheeks, hairties with stars on them that held her braids, and a bunch of space themed pins on her apron. i was like "idk if this is weird or not but i just could not drive away without saying anything, i absolutely love your vibe and i wanted to ask where you got some of that stuff and just tell you you look stunning i LOVE it" and then we almost got in trouble because we ended up having a full blown conversation after she gave me my food and before i left she handed me a paper with her snap on it lol. we still talk regularly even tho she lives like 3 towns away. if it's someone you may never see again ever, just shoot your shot even if it's weird becos u rly have nothing to lose. most ppl don't care about being weird because they themselves are weird deep down, and everyone loves compliments, and everyone loves someone who isn't scared to randomly compliment strangers in public (<- at least in my experience. maybe some ppl hate that)

if there are any clubs (like book clubs or interest clubs), any local bands like a county band if you play an instrument (we have one in my county where musicians can apply and then they play a few concerts every year and when i graduate i'm applying) OR instrument lessons anywhere nearby, maybe a local coffee shop or diner that hosts local artists every so often, stuff like that is always good. or local theater productions! you don't even have to be good at acting, i just did it because i wanted to be friends with a few of the people i met after seeing a show, and it worked. local theater is always so extremely fun because it's average people from around your area. i also go to the same spots to birdwatch often and i've met some random people through there.

a lot of it can seem scary but it's good to do things while scared to build your tolerance and also build some life experience and figure out what you Do like and Don't like in the process !!

most of my friends i have now were either close childhood friends or people i met at college, but a lot of ppl don't go to college and there are plenty of other places i have met people so i wanted to list as many i could think of. and someday i will no longer be in college so i will have to find other ways to make friends. teehee.

ALSO!! if your friends offer to introduce you to their other friends or bring you somewhere alongside their other friends, and you feel comfortable enough doing it (it's ok if you have to push yourself out of your comfort zone just a teeny bit but don't go overboard), definitely do that !!! that's honestly how i met my boyfriend AND my closest college friend i have rn.

i also feel very awkward in social situations, but i'm the type of person where i start to YAP when i get nervous instead of getting quieter and stop talking. i will say literally anything just to fill a silence and that's how i've always been. i think u have to become okay with being a yapper to some degree, even if it takes a while, even if u have to do the other steps first and get familiar enough with someone to start yapping at them. in my friend group, my favorite thing to say to the other 3 is "there's shit in my butt rn" and one day we were at a cafe for a college event and i was talking to a friend of my friends and while she was in the middle of saying something i looked her in the eye and said "there's shit in my butt rn" because i forgot to turn my body and head in order to say it to my friends instead of directly at her. it did not go terribly at all she actually laughed so hard that she doubled over and now we all say it to her when we pass her in the halls or she comes by in the dorm or smtn.

Basically, you could be the weirdest person on earth, but as long as you do it with confidence and pride then there are soo many people who will fuck with it. people tell me my strangeness and awkwardness is part of my appeal

also internet friends can help as well!!! it sucks because they aren't always the same as irl friends since sometimes they are so far away but one of my best friends ever that i've had since i was 9 is an online friend of mine and we talk all the time. he and i are closer to each other than we are with ppl irl. i find that socializing online is easier sometimes because you can just yell shit onto an app or website and then people might say something back and there's nothing personal initially involved.

i am out of Things but this is what i thought of over the past few days, i rly hope this helps at least a little bit, and feel free to send in any more asks if u want to talk !!! my msgs are also open i don't mind. godspeed anon 🫶🏻

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sometimes-men-need-help-too · 2 days

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“Stranger Things”' Gaten Matarazzo Says 'Woman in Her 40s' Confessed to Having a 'Crush' on Him as a Teen: 'Upsetting'

(I'm not putting the whole article. Just a the relevant parts)

Stranger Things skyrocketed Gaten Matarazzo into stardom. However, fame has also come with some unwanted attention.

On Michael Rosenbaum’s Inside of You podcast, Matarazzo, 21, recounted a recent creepy fan interaction he had with a “woman in her 40s,” who said, “I’ve had a crush on you since you were 13.”

“I was like, ‘That’s upsetting!’” the Honor Society actor said. “[I thought] like, ‘I’m sure she just meant, ‘Aw, this kid’s cute,’ but then she doubled down. Like, ‘I’m aware of the age difference,’ and then I was like, ‘Alright.’”

Matarazzo noted that the woman’s daughter witnessed the uncomfortable ordeal, even interjecting to say to her mother, “Mom, what the f---?”

“I swear to God, this girl must have been like 13,” he recalled. When Rosenbaum, 51, asked how he reacted to the exchange, Matarazzo said he “couldn’t” laugh. Instead, he looked over at his mother, who was sitting next to him.

Rosenbaum and Matarazzo also discussed fans touching them inappropriately in public, with the latter adding that he’s “had a few butt grabs for sure.”

I will say majority of the comments expressed disgust and called her out which I was very happy to see!

However, there were some comments in defense of her that we gotta talk about

He has a right to speak about it. I've seen other comments bringing up how middle aged women behaved towards Justin Bieber, Taylor Lautner, etc. It's not something he should have to keep to himself, especially when it clearly made him uncomfortable

I don't know why this is so hard to believe? If you've been in any kind of fandom or in the comment section on social media, you'd see some really nasty things that were being said. Yes, even to minors

It matters because there are other celebrities like Gaten who had people saying creepy/sexualizing things to them. It should be called out, not dismissed just because she didn't 'do something about it.'

And I'll be honest, if you look at this and think that calling out this behavior is 'regulating" people's thoughts, then I don't have a good feeling about you

Teenagers having crushes, even if it's on someone much older, is way different than an adult having a 'crush' on a child. What makes you look at someone that young in that way in the first place??

Some people were convinced that she hadn't meant it the way that it sounds. The second to last commenter is really trying to make us believe that. But we know what people mean when they say they have a crush on somebody. The woman even said that she was aware of the age difference so she has enough awareness to know that it was wrong

How exactly are we supposed to take those words? Even if she just wanted a "deeper friendship" with him, it's still creepy to say that to a 13 year old when you're a grown adult

There's just some things we shouldn't take lightly. Automatically assuming it's innocent when it's something like this isn't fair to these child actors. They shouldn't have to deal with these inappropriate comments only to have other people to make excuses for them. That's how people get away with it

#double standards #gaten matarazzo

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puppyeared · 4 months

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mascot

#this isnt vent dw!!! i dont smoke either i was just kinda going for some sort of vibe #i know its usually played for laughs or like. dark humor whenever ppl draw mascots without their heads and u can see the actor #but i always found it fascinating and a little sobering. ever since i was a kid ive always been hyperaware of ppl in costumes #like. even if i tried to block it out id be thinking the whole time 'its not real. theres a person in that suit who gets paid to do this'#it used to be an uncomfortable nagging feeling but now its like. oh yeah theres someone with a whole life story doing this. idk #i think when i tell ppl im not conscious of my body its like. im not dysphoric or experience dissociation but. at the same time #it feels like my physical body doesnt fully outwardly represent me..?? like some sort of costume #i like to phrase it as being a giant hairless mecha and inside theres a very tiny puppy piloting the damn thing #and the other thing is. when i draw my sona i dont really see it as what i /wish/ i looked like or how i want people to see me #its like being in a costume and just. fucking around with some sort of barrier between myself and others #plus mascots arent allowed to talk and i dont really. engage with other ppl in public spaces that it kinda feels like ad lib #i share a lot abt my life but ironically im also a private person..... i guess it just gives me some sort of control over my identity #my art #myart #my oc #sona #mascot #furry #??? is this furry art????#twinkle #puppysona #edit: had to outline it bc i just realized it looks really weird on dark mode -_-

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waterberry-strawmelon · 2 months

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just gonna go ahead and say this in advance—

if Riz does indeed come out in junior year, and he says, “I’m ace” or “I’m asexual” when referring specifically to his lack of romantic attraction, aromantic people are allowed to be upset about it.

#because yes of course some people irl say ace to mean both bc that’s how they personally identify #but in fictional media the distinction is necessary. especially with how few canonically aromantic characters even exist in ANY mainstream/#popular media.#I assure you I’m not invalidating anyone who is ace and they mean that to include lack of romantic attraction.#But to look at this from a MEDIA PERSPECTIVE its irresponsible to do this w/out clarification that they also know the word aromantic exists #because otherwise that’s just a conflation of asexual and aromantic without any nuance #and an erasure of aromantic people who are not asexual.#Plus—name a single fucking time a character in mainstream/popular media has said the word aromantic.#Because I can name several instances where they say asexual. But I can’t think of ONE where they say aro or aromantic.#(Maybe that Isaac kid does in season 2 of Heartstopper? But I haven’t seen it so I’m not 100% sure.)#anyways.#the way this fucking fandom—and ANY fandom with a canon aro character—discusses the aromantic spectrum #is blatantly just to remove their own personal guilt for shipping that character with other characters and erasing their orientation.#because yes aromanticism IS a spectrum!! But when people talk about fabriz and say ‘he can still be ace!’ (Which is aro erasure) or #‘he can still be aro!’ They never SHOW riz still being aro or having any kind of complex relationship with romance.#I’m angry and I’m allowed to be.#I get that a ship you liked may be hard to let go of or something #But I’d be much less mad if all the fabriz fans said ‘yeah I know Riz is aro in canon and he and Fabian would never get together.#I just like to imagine it sometimes in fiction/fanon!’ Then that would be a WHOLE different conversation #Because then they’d at least be acknowledging that riz doesn’t feel romance in canon. That fabriz is something that actively #Goes against the canon characterization of one of those characters—and that’s fine. Just fucking ACKNOWLEDGE IT.#But most of these people either WANT fabriz to be canon/believe it WILL BE canon #OR I guess feel uncomfortable confronting the fact that they ARE erasing riz’s aromanticism so they don’t even acknowledge it at all.#fhjy #fantasy high #d20 #dimension 20 #riz gukgak #aromantic riz gukgak #fhsy

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coulsonlives · 9 months

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I just had to share this video because holy shit, it hits the nail right on the head! So well spoken. This stuff needs to be circulated more, esp with the growing number of people thinking they have this because of misinformation, or just outright faking it.

#it's painful because i knew someone who personally faked this stuff (or has convinced herself she has it i can't even tell)#she had spent all her time on tiktok and i know for 100% sure that's where she got the idea. it's TRAGIC how fast things went downhill #i'm legit horrified at how many people (esp young kids of 13-14) think they have this too. or are just pretending #i've been neck deep in hardcore research (and i'm talking pubmed sciencedirect etc only) for months #and those kids definitely don't have did.. if they have trauma and are dissociating it's going to be something else like dpdr etc #the number of stupid 'you have did' answers i see for totally basic questions like 'i got dizzy what's wrong w me' is insane too #it's like googling 'muscle twitch' and then thinking you have some rare 1/billion familial cancer thing despite other obvious explanations #but worse.. in these cases the information is being fed to them. they don't have an opportunity to explore other possibilities #and the worst part is they don't even know to CHECK THE VALIDITY OF WHAT THESE PEOPLE ARE SAYING. they don't have info literacy #like i'll say this once: did is so rare that it's STILL contentious about whether it even exists #and it only happens in the most unimaginably traumatic experiences. think of the worst possible things you could do to a child #where even just thinking about it makes you uncomfortable. THAT'S the kind of trauma that leads to did. the truly evil stuff.#i'm not even gonna start on the BITE model shenanigans that are happening in the 'did' communities either #or how the people who used to be in them (and got out) always equate them to self-harming cults that celebrated not finding real answers #they got told they were 'perfect the way they were' despite having OBVIOUS psychological issues they needed help for #(it just wasn't did)#they were assured their 'did was valid no matter what'. toxic positivity ig? it just delayed their real diagnosis and ability to get help #but now you have gluts of people like in the video 'talking to themselves' and people on tumblr posting one-liners of 'alters' talking #one after the other within seconds. and i want to fcking cry because it's the same exact shit my friend did before she cut ties #the did/tourettes/ftlb stuff has literally been called a 'mass sociogenic illness' in multiple academic studies #but like qanon believers they seem to immediately discredit anyone who mentions this with 'you're just ableist' so anything you say is poo #aka you're part of the problem you're an 'ableist' so your legit info even though legit isn't valid/acceptable/real/whatever. i'm tired fam #did #dissociative identity disorder #osdd #ddnos #munchausen syndrome #mass psychogenic illness #ableism

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feral-radfem · 1 year

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Oh my God I'm so surprised that super persistent but consistently flawed debater on Tumblr is actually a child. I never saw that coming.

Look, there's things that adults shouldn't say/ topics we shouldnt bring up around children and should be able to create spaces away from them. If I'm being completely honest, radical feminism almost entirely falls in this category of 18+ content. We are constantly talking about sexual violence and other extremely adult topics that aren't appropriate for developing minds to be constantly bombarded with. It's bad for your young minds and it's bad for the movements that you seem to think you care about.

If you want to be a child activist then volunteer for your local community, don't get in online spaces with adults. It's simply not safe for children and creates an unproductive environment for adults. Children will learn better skills and build more fulfilling relationships and achievement doing local community activism anyways.

If you're a minor you need to put that shit somewhere so that we can tell that we're talking to a literal baby. I really don't enjoy this increasing trend of purposely not telling people when y'all are minors because you think that it's going to make people dismiss you, when you having limited life experience is a legitimate limitation on your analysis. You're being deceptive because someone placed a social boundary that you don't want to respect. It's high key gross.

On the same note, different tune, I hope this serves that is a reminder that people can literally be lying, either outright or by omission, about everything they claim about themselves on here. We, people in general, have created the online culture where it's completely normal to lie about important identifying features about ourselves for social clout/elevation. While I know there are some of us that may not participate in this practice, I know plenty of radfems do. We've caught a few doing it red-handed and all they're doing is breeding distrust amongst us in these spaces.

Can y'all not just act like normal honest people?

#I really thought you were a stupid attention seeker who everyone just gave way too much attention to in her mid/early 20s #just an adult with way too much time on her hands who knows how to act the same questions and chronically online #so I'm actually very happy to learn that you are actually a child. because I spent like 2 years thinking you didn't know how to read/argue #however #I do disagree about lying about your age by deception or omission. you knew that most people on here thought you were an adult #though that was definitely their own dumbass mistake #you should have been honest with your age in the bio because you knew it would have given people context to judge your content better #I'm really sick of y'all pretending to be adults on here until it is convenient for you not to lie anymore #you get more leeway for the stupid shit you say when I think you're a kid but I also don't think kids should be actively in politics #adults don't want to talk about adult topics with children it makes us uncomfortable and it stops us from being able to have open debate #lily responds #really this is why I encourage you to get offline and join local political movements #okay I'm done ranting I'm just so tired of figuring out after the fact that y'all are liars especially about your age #I also just don't like feeling like I've been lied to so maybe I'm taking this more personally than I should be

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