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tasberry · 1 year

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Marichat, for me at least, was never sinful.

I like them together because it's based around the trope of falling in love with your best friend. Where you get to know a person with all these quirks, all these flaws and complications, and go "Yeah, I love all of those too."

Where someone can annoy or upset you, but you talk it out and still choose each other. You love them at their best, you wanna lift each other up, but there isn't a pedestal because you climbed up together.

Chat Noir isn't Adrien's "true self" he just compartmentalizes. He breaks himself into little peices that he thinks people will like depending on the situation he's in.

When he's transformed he doesn't need to worry about looking foolish or getting chewed out by his father for inappropriate behaviour. It's still him, Chat Noir just gives him the ability to explore how he presents himself in the world.

The same can be said for Marinette as well. In fact, I'd say Marinette is a clearer example on how the true selves idea is painfully missing the point?

Marinette doesn't have the awful family life Adrien has. If she messes up, there isn't any of the disgusting, manipulative, abuse that we see from Gabriel Agreste awaiting her at home. She has a supportive family that encouraged her to be herself even before she got the earrings.

She was much more passive, but Chat Noir and Alya inspired her. They helped her be a better Ladybug, and grow into a more confident Marinette. There's more...persona bleed with Maribug. She doesn't refer to Ladybug as a different person the way Adrichat did. She knows one persona has more social power and she'll utilize it if she feels like she needs to. It's not an identity issue with her the way it was with Adrien.

Up until Adrien started to realize that Chat and Adrien are just..both aspects of him as a person thank you Plagg ily, Chat Noir was more of a character he got to play around with. This is what he thought he was doing anyway. I don't think his actions as Chat are disingenuous in anyway. He just didn't feel safe or accepted enough to let those two parts of himself stop being sectioned off until recently.

TLDR;

This episode was adorable

Marichat and the true selves thing is BS

These two fictional children are going to murder me with these adorable, heartbreaking shenanigans

SEND HELP IM USED TO LONGER ML HIATUSES WHAT IS THIS

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justalilpearlie · 3 months

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Introduction/Fun Pearlie Facts

Was abt time I did one of these.

Hello everyone, my name is Pearl, Pearlie or Sam/Sammy if you're feeling like it. Friends also call me Martini sometimes.

I am a minor, my labels... we dont talk about them (fem presenting ftm gay/mlm + trying out gendervoid and verinix + bigender??) uhmm and I go by He/She, tho mostly He/Him by strangers- I can She/Her myself and close friends/mutuals are allowed! (I also go by neos: Void/Moon/Sweet/It/Fluff/Love/Fizz/Paw)

I'm from Argentina, born and raised, never moved. Speak fluent english and spanish.

I got the 'tism and the adhd, aswell as BPD and a few other things I wont list right now! But yeah I'm psychotic (ooo scary word.. lmao)

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I'm an IRL of many, mainly c!Pearl (mcyt), Samuel Emily (fnaf [games canon]) and Shin Tsukimi (yttd). If you don't like it you can leave, block me, or whatever, cause you aint gonna change my life or how I am. I'm in therapy, which unlike random hate and harrassment online, does help me :)

I like to roleplay, draw, sometimes make playlists or moodboards.. And my biggest interests right now are Life Series (+ evo + new life), Empires1(+ a bit of e2) and FNaF! (i dont rlly like the books tho lol..)

I use kin tags for reach cause I'd love interaction from any fellow lifers or empires ppl, hermits aswell!! Tho I havent finished s8 or s9 yet...

Fictionkins, therians and traumagenic systems all welcome!

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DNI prefferably:

- Basic DNI criteria (proshippers, homophobes, transphobes, racists, TERFs, ableist, etc)

- Endos/non-traumagenic "systems" DNI. block me if u want, i wont argue abt it in the comments/reblogs. or interact if u want but im not gonna follow u back or anythin shrugs.

- reality checkers or anti-IRLs DNI. I aint "romanticizing" shit, I'm existing and living my life, if thats a problem to you too bad cause my psychologist aproves of what I'm doing, since I aint harming anyone and I myself am doing dandy.

- anti-kin also DNI cause most of my friends are fictionkins and if you talk shit abt my fellas idk i wouldnt like having u around much

CCs interact at your own risk. This is my domain, cyan man & moon lady. /hj

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"Disclaimer"

- I talk about MajorMoon (Scott x Pearl) a LOT, if u didnt notice by the acc theme. These are my romantic memories, its a gay ship, not woman/gay man, so if it makes u uncomfortable or u hate it or whatever then ur probably not gonna like my content lmao. COUGH, consider joining us if you do like what you see... /nf We're a small comunity of supporters.. just me.. and a few of my peeps... that was a joke, sir. /ref

- This isn't roleplay, its my main acc where im ""unapologetically"" myself, but if u do wanna rp life series/empires u can always shoot me a dm and maybe I'll give u my discord.

- I talk about myself (c!Pearl) using 3rd person in many posts tagged with main fandom tags. This is to cause less confusion to casual fans slash ""normies"" (lhj) that well.. don't know what IRLs are! Also that way I feel safer and don't have to worry as much abt getting harassed and such for my identity.

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Special People Mentions!! fps = * (1 or more.. wouldnt say in a priority sorta order but. more or less yea)

Family! <3 🌼@pehpurr* SISTER!! super duper cool, her art is great and you should check it out!! YOU. You're the brightest little girl (i say like ur not older than me) I'VE EVER MET ACTUALLY! You're so passionate and loving I freaking adore you!! I love you so much Scar, you're one of the best things to ever happen to me, Kanny <3 ⚙️@gentlexmadman DAD!! you are my daaaad, you're my dad! woogie woogie woogie! ANOTHER amazing artist! mr "I know that guy-", very funny, Henry "Autism" Emily... the copper king, my father. Speaking to you is always comforting. Love you so much papa, you're amazing :)

Simply special <3 ☕@insomniac-coffeehouse** You're all simply so very special to me. I love spending time with you guys and playing stuff together, you mean a lot to me and I'm so glad I met you. I hope we're still close for this year and many more! You're incredibly talented, not only at art, at everything you do. You spark joy in my brain and my heart <3 From the bottom of my heart, I'm in love with the hope you bring to this world. 🍊Jack***, oh my dear Jacky, where do I even begin, sport... you really are my other half. Mi media naranja if you will. haha.. I love every second we spend together, I love your voice, I love your eyes, I love your smile, your laughter. I love your use of words, the way you speak, your humor, your seriousness and goofiness. You stiff fuck, you were made for me and I was made for you, and I wouldn't have it any other way. You're my everything, mi vida, mi luz, mi estrella. Mi amor, mi mundo. <3

New friends! 🍓@strawberrystarfield I know we met fairly recently but you're all incredibly fun to talk to, your art is also amazing, your accent is real pretty (cough for a bri-💥), you're real sweet and I love reading all your thoughts and critiques about things :} (love ya Aspen /gen) 🏜️@fagdykegtws My right hand man! I know we just met through the rarepair server but oh my god we're in the same brainwave!!! You're so fun to vc and chat with and you got the best ideas ever fr fr, love ya Chewy, you're real sweet even w how lil i know you ;)

That's it folks, love yall and see you around!

#intro post #introduction #c!pearl irl #sammy emily irl #delusional attachment #fictionkin #fictkin #fnaf irl #life series irl #empires irl #mcyt fictkin #mcyt fictionkin #mcyt kin #system friendly #endos dni #mcyt irl

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ceasarslegion · 2 months

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Not keep sulking about it because i cant actually say what happened in a public forum but this shit is why they keep losing the good officers. This extreme response to every little non-safety issue mistake is why everybody who actually gives a shit about security instead of customer service and following a list leaves within 2 years. Thats why these airports are left with shitty reputations of officers who dont actually do anything but harass people over stupid shit that doesnt matter, because those are the ones that stay, because those are the ones who care more about what the book says than what actually keeps people safe.

This industry has become so fucked from the inside out. I really dont mean to sound like im bragging because im not but they are losing a good officer who primarily cares about peoples safety when i decided that im on borrowed time here now. The amount of times that i get stationed facing the public because passengers have said that im non judgemental and accommodating of diabilities and different cultural and religious and miscellaneous identity needs when they fill out surveys and how i made them feel like it wasnt this big huge deal that other officers would make it at other airports if they said it was too uncomfortable to walk through the detector and id just ask if they wanted to sit for a pat down instead. How many said that a simple question of "any uncomfortable spots i should be careful around before i touch anywhere?" made all the difference.

But that just rewarded me with more abuse from the shitty passengers who would throw things at me and then go on to claim (to the news on one occassion) that i kicked them out because of their race. Yeah, it was because of your race. When you threw your things at me and said youd come back on a certain day to hurt me. I kicked you out because of your race. Thats why. Management would help me drag those people out but other than that would just go "go back to your position now" no mental health support or even a "you wanna take a walk for 15 minutes after that?"

Fuck this place man. You try to make it better but you cant fix a broken system from the inside. Theyre losing somebody good thats just gonna make the place a little worse

#vent post

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gingerjolover · 2 months

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hi ging i know this is totally not the place for unsolicited asking for advice so totally ignore this ask if it’s the wrong place to be doing this BUT in short i’m having an identity crisis yay!!! up until very recently i though i was just a very very supportive ally, eg when homophobic things were said around me i was personally offended but was just like noooo i’m just a huge ally i’m not gay!! i love love munagenius, and not just in a “i wanna be friends with all of them!” way, i’ve had crushes on girls irl, but have just pushed them deep deep down and i’m attracted to them and i would date a girl and AND I KNOW THAT SOUNDS SO GAY LIKE I SHOULDNT EVEN BEEN QUESTIONING BUT FOR SOME REASON IM IN DENIAL. it’s like i almost don’t feel gay enough? literally nobody knows because i like men (unfortunate i know) and have been in “straight” relationships all my life. i know nobody but me can tell me if i’m queer or not like this is my shit to deal with but maybe i just needed somewhere to dump my feelings anonymously :p

hi baby!

this is a safe space, you’re always allowed to ramble in my inbox (that goes for all of you!)

i can’t, in earnest, sit here and write, “well if you like girls and you would date a girl, you’re queer,” because i know first hand that it’s not that easy

i was right where you are not that long ago, and i hope i can use my experiences to give you some guidance?? without making it sound like it’s all about me??

we had very similar experiences, i’ve ALWAYS had crushes on women but never realized they were crushes, i was like “no i just want to be their best friend” or “i admire them soooo much,” or “i wish i looked like them” — and while those are totally normal thoughts to have, i also actively was pushing down the idea that i, as in me ginger, could be queer, i didn’t know what queer meant and i didn’t even know that bisexuality was a thing when i was young

i had a MAJOR identity crisis actually like right before i started posting on here consistently, if you look at my tumblr in the very beginning it was literally all “insert male celebrity x reader” because i did not allow myself to look at content that i was not “queer enough” for

denial is something i ALSO went through, i can’t tell you how many times my best friends (both queer) had to talk me down about WHY i was getting so worked about about labeling myself or feeling confused about liking girls, trying to find the root of why i wouldn’t allow myself to say i was queer or even curious about my sexuality

obviously accepting yourself is hard, right? it’s challenging an idea about yourself that is different from what you’ve always known yourself. i struggled so much with this because, like you sweet anon, i was always straight and nobody knew otherwise

self acceptance/no longer being in denial is also hard because there’s so many factors. one of the biggest factors for me was i was living in an environment at the time where queerness was NOT fully accepted, i know that i was going to be unsafe (mentally, emotionally, spiritually) if i had come out. (i eventually did to one of my family members and it worked out but most of them still don’t know)

one of my other things when not feeling queer enough was like “well i haven’t had a lot experiences with women so i can’t really be queer,” and my best friend literally was like “do you tell children who identify as queer that they aren’t because they haven’t kissed anyone?” and i said “of course not!” and he sat there and let me think about it… and then was like “well yeah, see how stupid that sounds? you’re not LESS queer because you don’t have experience, like maybe it’s more intimidating for you, but it doesn’t make you less”… and it’s something i still think about all the time

i know i’m rambling and i’m kinda jumping around but something you need understand and sit with is you don’t HAVE to label yourself! the biggest reason i hadn’t come out (combined with above) is because i couldn’t label myself, i didn’t feel queer enough for any label.

i ended up (after truly months) coming out as bi (not even officially, i just started referring to myself as bisexual and posting stuff on instagram and creating my own lil community) because like you anon, i unfortunately like men😪 (even though i am actively only dating women/nb at the moment, don’t dissect this too much i am still in my identity crisis)

i guess what i am trying to saaaaay is be patient with yourself, you are queer enough, even if you’re just questioning (although it sounds like you were where i was and you’re def not but i can’t tell you that). as long as you are entering this space respectfully and your intentions are pure, you have nothing to worry about sweet anon.

working to get over the “my whole life is going to change” and turning it into “my whole life is going to change!!!” is a way to help with this identity crisis. any change is hard, change is super scary, but as long as you’re in a place where you are safe and healthy, living authentically, even if confused, is so much better than feeling trapped and trying to work through it alone.

i hope this makes sense, i am obviously oversimplifying a lot of the issues of coming out or identifying yourself, i am very privileged that most of my life hasn’t changed since i have come out, and i know it’s not always the easiest/safest for people

i love you sweet anon! my inbox is always open - so are my messages :)

#anon cutie #idk even what to tag this #coming out #maybe?#like #discovering sexuality #queer discourse #gingy talks too much

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strawberrycircuits · 9 months

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hi hi hello! my name is strawberry (or strawb)! (i also use the name roz sometimes!) im queer, trans, 19, and neurodivergent, and this where i scream about robots and gay little nintendo characters. i use he/him, it/its, ze/zem/zeir/zemself, and co/code/codes/codeself pronouns! itd be so so sooo cool if you could please interchange these. thanks!

i dont know what my gender is and honestly i dont care (and neither should u)! just dont call me 'she' please! if i had to label it id say my gender is whatever the hell nintendo was doing with all those see-through consoles in the 2000s. look at these sexy sexy boys

my art tag is #strawberryscribbles, my tag for cool art made by friends or made for me is #talented ppl tag, and thats about all i consistently tag anymore (aside from content warnings. if you need something content warned, lmk!). my art blog is @strawb-artfolder and my oc blog is @cultivatingyourfuture (though that project is on an indefinite hiatus due to signifigant rewrites, lol). im not great at art but i like growing and improving and showing you all that process, so im going to keep posting it anyhow! cringe culture is dead and its decomposing slowly in my backyard.

heres some things about me!!

my main interests are computers, old electronics, adventure time, portal 2, and nintendo (particularly mario, splatoon, and the legend of zelda!). i also reblog half life, tf2, and mlp stuff from time to time. i am, in fact, critical of all of my media interests. fuck nintendos business practices and fuck the way they fetishize arabic cultures 👎👎👎

send me asks!!!! about whatever!!!! it makes my day every time!!!!!

im not a linked universe fan or a linkverse fan in general. i might engage with that content because i like the designs and want to support artists but dont ask me about it i dont go there lmao (bonus links fucks hard though i will say that)

i dont tag spoilers. sorry! youre free to unfollow or block me at any time :)

wanna know what music ive been listening to? heres my main playlist! maybe youll find something new!!! (and if you shoot me an ask saying u found a new song u like bc of me.... tell me! itll make my day!)

ive had people ask me a couple of times, so let me go ahead and say-- i like to refer to characters i have specific pronoun headcanons for WITH those pronouns! i usually garner confusion about this when i talk about oot zelda (he/she), botw link (she/he/they), and oot link (she/her). theres not really a reason, i just like to! (when i talk to people about their specific interpretations, i use whatever hcs theyve assigned them instead). if you wanna know how i hc any other characters, 🔫 me an ask!

im not going to sift through every blog that interacts with me or apply widely misused terminology to give an idea of what i do or dont want in my circle. im just going to say these things outright. i believe in radical queer acceptance (yes, even for whatever "weird" identity youre about to pull out as a gotcha), all transgender people and asexuals and aromantics and xenogenders and neopronouns are all valid, otherkin/therians are cool as hell, objectums are my friends, i want all pedophiles to die by my hand, youre weird as shit if you romanticize incest or pedophilia in any context, and i believe in reclaiming words like queer, fag, dyke, and tranny, which i will not content warn for. ok cool 👍

im a stupid broke college student and i can barely afford to feed myself most days so if you wanna help out heres my CA.

ermm i think thats all. heres a bunch of people i think are so so cool that you should go visit: b0nkcreat down-thedrain seagullcharmer syntheticspades trashedump basillica-gel dykevirgo cherrylavendertea localvoidcat thebleedingeffect gardnwater our-reality mackthecheese angstyvylene-i three-bunnies-in-a-trenchcoat unironicallycringe idiot-synergy michpat6 korokposting effervescentleaf pidgefudge avidcollectorofdust merriclo

#pinned poast

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transgender-png · 7 months

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i didn't wanna tack this on my last reblog bc its so long and i didnt wanna take away from ranboos speech either but. theres some specific parts my brain has latched on to from that.

first off being bazoingas, them acknowledging how busty their vtuber and people's art of them was hilarious. i love seeing him explore his identity more, i love that he's comfortable enough to do that. it gives me hope and courage to do the same, and i see a lot of myself in ranboo in terms of gender identity and expression. and something about the phrase "young queer kid" and how we helped that queer kid makes my heart sing. like. they were a young queer kid. they were scared at one point. just like me. just like a lot of us. but if he can make it this far, maybe we can too

and although the whole thing is mostly addressing what the community has been doing wrong recently, i melted when he mentioned how much he appreciates us. bAcK iN tHe dAy, before live streaming and especially twitch became so popular, there was always such a big barrier between the content creator and their audience. you knew your favourite CC appreciated you, sure, but you were always aware of that barrier and how it would always be there. now tho, for better or for worse (thafs a different topic that im too migrainey to tackle rn) that barrier has become a little.. transparent? i guess? it's more like glass now. it's still there, and you're still aware of it, but it has become so much easier to make a real connection with your audience as a creator, and vice versa.

seeing ranboo talk about how he has fun with chat and appreciates us.. it makes me happier than i can accurately describe. ranboo always seems genuinely excited to meet fans and is so active in their own community. it's one of the things about them that charmed me when i was first getting into their content, is how much they clearly loved their community.

but it also makes me sad how much he's been having to correct the community lately. i wont pretend im not part of that issue at all, bc im not perfect and ive definitely broken a rule or two or crossed a boundary once, intentional or not.

but ive been stepping away from ranboos content recently. part of it was not being into their new content as much, as im not a huge fan of horror (but that has been steadily changing for me) but a lot of it was the community. ive watched a lot of great fandoms and communities go sour because people cared too much about the wrong things. i don't want that to happen to something/one that has helped me so much.

but i don't want to end this on a bad note. one of my favourite parts of being a boober is the community (and the name). ranboo fans are some of the most creative, supportive, passionate (even if the passion is misplaced) and welcoming people ive met. even though its easy to forget, especially with what's been going on lately, i try to remind myself and others that there are good people in this community. they can be funny and witty and talented and inventive and observant and so many other things!! this community is filled with good people!!

and at the end of the day, we're qll here for more or less the same reason.

we like ranboo. we enjoy his content and his personality. for a lot of us, ranboo has helped us through some dark times, and led us to make some great friends. some of us are here from the old enderian-platonic-husband days and some of us are here from generation loss and some of us are here for the variety horror games and some of us are just here for minecraft content and a million other reasons. ranboo has charmed their way into the jearts of me and many others. some of us consider finding ranboo to be one of the best things to ever happen to us.

ive never been good at wrapping up these things but ig ill end with. remember where we all came from, and why we're all here.

whether you're a long term fan, a new boober, or have stepped away as the content has shifted, we all were impacted in some way, hopefully positive, by this creator. he's helped a lot kf us, whether it's with mental health, starting our own content creation journeys, inspiring us to make art or mess around with how we present ourselves, or just made us laugh with their jokes and offhand comments, we're all here because of ranboo.

and idk about you, but the fact that so many people can and do come together all because of one person.. that's pretty fucking beautiful to me.

basically, live, laugh, love ranboo. <3

#ranboo #ranboolive #generation loss #gen loss #boober #bazoingas had me wheezing tho #love how artists have been making ranboo sluttier every day (/pos)#all the while hes holding popcorn and clapping #it's great #i love ranboo

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talking-bigender · 7 months

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Hi

So ive been thinking about it for ages and i think im bigender. Pretty sure about it, feels nice, female and male bigender. The problem is i want to come out to my friends but for some reason im super nervous about it.

Like, i know they will understand, one is non binary and the other is trans, ive seen how my non binary friend reacted when my trans friend came out, so i know they will be supportive, so i kinda feel a little stupid for keeping it to myself even though i wanna tell them.

Do you have any advise or ways or anything for coming out?

It's valid to feel nervous or hesitant to come out to even the most trusted of people in your life, so I definetly don't fault you for that. If the task seems too daunting, then usually my advice is to break it down into smaller steps and try tackling each one at a slower pace- in this case, it can be coming out to one person at first in private, building up your confidence to come out to others as you go along - or, you can come out with stages of information, such as saying you want to test out new pronouns, then lightly suggesting you may not be cis, then confirming you're nonbinary, then specifics, etc. But sometimes it can also feel hetter to go the other way, and figuratively "rip off the bandaid" by diving in head first and coming out before you can think too hard about it. I learned that at times, all my overthinking is what's stopping me so harnessing my impulsivity can help me jump that hurdle. Whichever way you choose to address it, also think about what you want your friends to understand from this information- whether you want this to come with a name change or pronoun change, a change to the way they refer to you, or maybe you just wanted to confide them this info because they're your friends and you like their support. I like to think that good friends always want to give you the best experience possible and give you the comfort you deserve, so they'd want to know of any changes so they can support them and your identity. Hope that helps!

#wanted to once again apologize for my radio silence Ive been busy!

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dont-justdont · 2 years

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okay so im rewatching all the parts with louis and daniel (so present time) and are the little things ive spotted (phrases or things that seem weird/like they have a deeper meaning)

- in a setting of my choosing (is it?)

- the room we shared (did they fuck? it sounds like they fucked)

- editor doesn't know where he is (that sounds like a great opportunity for later)

- wasn't sure he'd remember louis? (i feel like louis made him hallucinate something at the end of the first interview/daniel doesn't remember it all)

- louis isn't transparent with the whole emirates thing (someone else is behind it?)

- we don't hear the end of the tape (im calling sex, or louis just scared him but made him think he bit him and someone else did)

- contradictions in the story

- doesn't quite remember what happens?

- truth and reconciliation (between them? between louis and lestat?)

- he already signed an agreement (this isn't super sus or anything but we don't see it)

- daniel doesn't want to be seduced, he wants facts (he's racing ahead as louis says)

- meeting at a gay bar

- drug abuse before and after the interview (after seems more intense)

- last sunrise he saw and yet he can see the sun now with the whole technology window thing

- the vampire is bored (present tense, louis is bored right now because? that's why he's doing the tapes?)

- he cries when he talks about lestat turning him (i cant remember in the book but i know that in the movie the only time he cries is when claudia dies)

- marius' painting (it's not armand? weirdly?)

- the noise of the building (why mention it? is it covering something?)

- serving a god (kind of reminds me of the druids or the weird dude in the mountains)

- we forget, it doesn't (again, daniel doesn't fully remember, something happened in that room in 1973 and i wanna know what it is)

- the farm (i feel like they will explain it later)

- louis feeling rushed (i 100% remember lestat trying to let louis feel everything because he was rushed himself)

- daniel's fixation on sexuality (closeted?)

- i got in that coffin on my own free will

- louis describing vampires as lestat does, the whole detachment, hand in the divine plan, seeing the life in its entirety is 1000% lestat's pov on it, not louis'

- book is a warning (to humans? other vampires?)

- daniel underlining/scratching (???) something he wrote about the whole "yes sir" thing

- louis stops killing in 2000 (what happens?)

- the great conversion (i need more info on that, like what is the state of the vampire world in 2022?)

- those first years (i know it all goes to shit please dont remind me dont do that to me)

- the weird eye thing when he says the earth felt liquid (he looks? agitated? it's not the right word but the acting is there and i dont know why)

- lestat being an artist in giving death (again, lestat's words, not his)

- maintaining the thread with humanity (louis says the last human part of him dies when he turns madeleine, at least in the movie but i remember it being similar in the book)

- botched vampire

- louis has been to pariiiiis (of course we know that but i love the foreshadowing)

- nuanced vs rehearsed (which parts are true, what is he hiding)

- he talks like lestat was his soulmate (based on louis' expression im gonna guess they either get in a relationship between 1973 and 2022, or he's trying to win/bring lestat back with compliments, but if so whyyyy????)

- louis admits to lying in 73, is he lying again?

- i will continue to support my theory that daniel actually wanted to keep the tapes and take them out of the trash once louis left

- daniel calls bullshit on the whole story

- you're lingering rashid (why does he disappear)

- louis still struggles with his vampire identity

so overall... something is weird about why louis is doing the interview again and it probably has to do with lestat, something happened in the first interview and idk what but we will see it eventually, louis is an unreliable character/lying? (why?), louis uses lestat's ways of thinking and words to describe things which definitely means he's seen him since 73

anyways thank you if you made it this far i know it's really long but i thought it could be interesting

#vampire chronicles #vc #daniel #daniel molloy #louis #louis de la pointe du lac #iwtv #iwtv series #interview with the vampire

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singularsoldier · 9 months

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One of my biggest complaints about lesbianism on this site is that I haven’t seen a remote whisper of similar discourse surrounding gay men.

Heads up, a lot of this is ranting/venting so im probably gonna repeat stuff or not make a ton of sense in some places:

Like, a man was married with kids before realizing he’s gay. Okay, cool. You’re still gay dude. A man dates a boygirl person. Still gay who cares. He thinks a female celebrity is stunning. Duh! Look at her! But the second a lesbian is inserted into those exact scenarios, its a race to micro label and argue over what she can call herself.

Previously married with kids, dating a boygirl, thinks a male celebrity is hot, all of these are used against the lesbian identity and can be boiled down to elementary “eww you have BOY cooties” which leads into terf territory. Its a rehash of gold star lesbianism and ultimately shames lesbians who were unsure of their identity or found themselves in comphet relationships for safety/lack of support. Hell, its shaming lesbians for even thinking a random person is objectively hot bc they ID as a man.

Moving on, a similar thing happens when someone who previously ID’d as gay/lesbian realizes they’re attracted to multiple genders. Even if its just romantic for one and sexual for the other, the gay person is ultimately seen as bisexual. No further questions. The lesbian? Once again, its a race to label and argue.

This is where “bi” lesbian loses me. I don’t see anyone calling gay men bi gays for being in those previous scenarios I listed. A bi guy who only dates women and sleeps with men is bi. End of story. Not a peep about being a bi gay. I have, however, seen multiple definitions of bi lesbianism that include those exact examples. A lesbian got exposed to BOY COOTIES so now they can’t call themself a lesbian.

Or, rather, a woman only likes men romantically but since she isn’t dropping her panties for him, she’s still a lesbian. Is she only bisexual if she has sex with men? What if she only dates girls and sleeps with guys? Does that make her a bi straight? Once again, the second a woman enters the equation, everything goes out the door and we have to argue about Person Who Doesn’t Have Sex With ____. Why is being bisexual regardless of how it presents a bad thing? I haven’t seen anyone give a solid reason other than “i dont wanna be bi” or parroting some kind of terf rhetoric.

Adding to that, in a lot of the discourse, it honestly feels like bigender/multigender people are being used as a gotcha. Like I said before, a gay guy dating a boygirl is just a gay guy dating a boygirl. A lesbian dating the same person? “They identify as a boy!!! You clearly like men!!” which, ultimately, ignores the full scope of that person’s identity. They aren’t just a boy in the same way they aren’t just a girl. I guarantee no one would jump down a gay guy’s throat and say “ummm ACTUALLY she says she’s a girl so she makes you not gay”.

The same gotcha issue comes about with trans people. It’s as if saying “I’m not attracted to men” equals not calling a trans woman a woman. I only ever see terf accusations float around when a lesbian makes that statement. Never when a gay guy says he isn’t attracted to women. If your first thought when hearing that is “well they MUST be talking about trans people” then you have a problem, and anyone who actually refuses to date someone bc they’re trans is the actual exclusionist.

Gay and lesbian have a region of gender identity that falls out of bounds. A lot of people do. Yet the level of discourse over everything I mentioned is drastically different between them. God forbid a lesbian say “oh I dated a gay once but realized I wasn’t attracted to men”. They’ll get called a terf, an exclusionist, and every name under the sun. If a gay guy said the same about a woman? Two notes and its gone.

#vent #rant #lesbian #lgbtqia #gay #lgbt discourse

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goremet-chef · 10 months

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guhh im so bothered rnn (vent/rant)

so... i? idk. ive been out as trans in my house since 2020. my mom doesnt call me dom (sometimes she does if my sibling encourages her to, but she defaults back to my deadname anyways) and ive learned to accept it. i dont think she ever will and its sad for me, the reality that once i start my transition, ill need to just.. leave a lot of my family behind. they think its some rebellious choice like i hate all of them but im more worried about them hating me

my mom says shes supportive but is actively right wing, shes having an inner battle with her ideologies, i know that. i can tell by how she talks about homeless people vs how she talks about us being queer

so. whatever. thats my mom i guess. but for a long time, i wasnt out to my moms husband. i despise him and ive never intentionally started a conversation with him, let alone come out. ive started to not care about what he thinks. i know what he thinks, he thinks gays should die, said it straight to my gay siblings face. okay, cool. doesnt concern me, moms bf is absolutely fucking nothing to me.

to remedy this sort of like... we didnt wanna DEAL with what he might say if he heard both my siblings calling me dom, cuz both of them do, so whenever theyre around they would just refer to my deadname, but i saw it made them cringe, so now everyone calls me 'that one child'

that one, other one, etc etc

no one even calls me my name anymore

it makes me feel so hopeless. ive EXPRESSED it makes me upset but my younger sibling doesnt care (the one most guilty of it), because they dont understand why it upsets me, i guess thats enough reason to keep going

its so dehumanizing to be reduced to actually nothing. i ALREADY have heaps and heaps and HEAPS of identity issues. sometimes it gets so bad i start having crazy ass delusions, sometimes im not even present and its a different part of my mind in my body

its hard enough as is!!! now my family wont call me anything at all

it makes me feel less bad about leaving, but i dont think ill ever leave at this rate

need to start T, change my name, get a job, all in that order. starting T seems impossible at this rate. i.. dont know what to do. i cant keep LIVING like this, because im not living at all

i never leave my house because im too ashamed in how i look, i cant BEAR the thought of anyone else perceiving me as female, i cant fucking do it!!! im so tired. my house is like a prison for me, genuinely.

and my family dont get it, obviously. they think its my choice, im some kind of hermit who doesnt care about being outside because i have internet. they are so fucking wrong. i miss going out, i miss being around people, i miss existing like everyone else, but i just cant do it man. not like this

so it becomes a waiting game, when am i gonna bring up starting it? how do i even move forward once i do? what if she says no? id have to do it on my own but i cant.. i cant even order things for myself without freezing like shutting up will get me out of there, i cant fucking do it

she doesnt even know!! we were in the car together and she was like yknow theres people who cant even make a doctors appointment. what losers.

IM losers, would she have said that if she knew? does she know and decided to say it anyways? i dont know, but its just.. everything seems so hopeless at this point. i want to just give up, accept im not gonna be who i truly am, but man i cant stand being any more miserable

it makes me wanna cry, the only time i get to feel myself how i think i should be is either if i draw something fictitious, or if i spend hours in the mirror making sure i look masculine, my mustache is convincing, etc. AND FOR WHAT? literally for fucking WHAT, because i dont leave the house anyways!!!!! dolled up like i have somewhere to be, like my appearance will get me what i want, when im stuck at home! i got nothing to prove to them, they think what they think

its fucking dreadful. im so scared of my life passing me by, and here i am wasting away in my bedroom for the last 3 years. no progress, nothing. at first, i was scared about even starting T because theres a higher risk of heart disease, but. i dont fucking care if it KILLS me. i dont care!!! if it kills me i dont fucking care im not living the life i want to live anyways. the risk of death is worth it at this point, i mean that so seriously

idk. im just tired, is all. i wish everyone could perceive me the way i dream they would. only time that happens is online, or when im not with my family at all and instead with my friends. but we only hang out like. once in a blue moon

and yknow what? im not even safe then. i remember we were at my friends house for halloween last year (we always meet up). i had my full leatherface costume one, my face was touched up to make it look like the mask. and still. dressed that way, when my friends mom asked me what my name was, i said dom and she was immediately like. "oh, dominique?" no. my name is fucking DOMINIC.

i didnt say anything besides correcting her, but it was such a blow, man. the only time ill be happy is if im closely monitoring every single thing i do, to make sure i dont appear feminine at all. no matter how i look, now matter how deep my voice is. miserable. why would anyone think that id choose this

#tw transphobia #tw dysphoria #tw queerphobia #tw misgendering

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genderoutlaws · 2 years

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yooo anon who said the thing abt “theyfabs” i accidentally deleted yr message 😭 i still wanted to answer tho bc i feel like it’s increasingly misinterpreted n another example of trans womens language being taken out of context, so its a convo worth having. bc while i get yr discomfort with any kinda insult towards a trans person mentioning their agab, when this term first started popping up in trans fem circles like it was a pretty specific phenomena of the like usually white, tme nonbinary person who stakes their identity in their birth assignment, constantly mentions being afab, and in a way fueled by transmisogyny to distance themselves from trans people assigned male at birth. like if yall have never met a ~nonbinary t/rf~ you’re so lucky but they are truly out there. and even ppl who aren’t full blown, u will see a Lottt of this casual transmisogyny n transmisogynoir totally unchecked

so i think it still has a use case to talk abt womens experiences from within the community. i Do get what u mean tho that sadly now the further it gets from the original source, you do have ppl who are just using it to mean like “any nonbinary person who was afab that i wanna dunk on” n are using it as a tool of transphobia rather than a means of calling out transmisogyny. but i don’t want to give any weight to this idea of “binary privilege” you bring up because it’s just not a material reading of the facts. its the same logic that gives us concepts like “monosexual privilege”, lumping the oppressor in with the oppressed. trans women are not oppressing nonbinary people on a systemic level, and trans woman and nonbinary aren’t two inherently separate groups anyways. pushing distinctions between binary and nonbinary trans people as, ironically, another binary really makes me uncomfortable tbh. i know many trans ppl who would not describe themselves as either one, who operate under different perceptions of gender altogether.

i do want us to be a strong community joined in solidarity but it worries me that a large faction of tme trans people do not seem committed to putting in the work of unlearning and dismantling transmisogyny, like that concerns me a lot more than trans women being kind of rude online yknow what i mean ? bc like if a girl on tiktok calls me a theyfab for whatever her own reasons to view me that way are, its gonna sit with me for a day maybe, and probably cause me to do some honest reflecting on how im moving in trans spaces. but the ~theyfabs who put all their energy into calling out and harassing trans women out of communities and safe spaces for perceived slights or deeming them predatory because of their birth assignment, doxxing them, cutting them off from support, that is going to last a life time. if not in material consequences, in terms of being able to trust at least. like idk this is a little rambly but yall understand what im gettin at here i hope.

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kiruliom · 2 years

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outdated intro post, new one's here [link]

important!: my blog is not safe for people sensitive to bright colors or eyestrain!! its not (just) an aesthetic thing and Im so sorry for the inconvenience!

greetings <3

you can call me Darling, Archie or Kiru

miaspec queer, he/him, it/it's, kie/kir

I have no titles but dont mind them being used so if you wanna use them you can use "the horror", or just anything you think that fits me, just keep in mind I dont like titles that make me seem superior personally

send me these emojis in my asks and Ill give you something!!

🐙 (octopus emoji): random animal fact (you may choose the animal if you wish)

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heres my carrd (link)

my main blog @kiruyeen

flag in banner: PINKsongic (link)

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flag making/identity coining: closed!!

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term searching: closed

character headcanons/avatars: closed

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I have every right to deny a request for any reason, I wont ever ignore requests though, Im just super slow sometimes

what Im okay and not okay with

getting alternative flags made of my coins (credit would be nice, would love to see them too so dont be afraid to tag me!!)

being @'ed to reblog an identity

transcripts/image IDs being added to flags where I forgot to add one, reminding me to add an eyestrain warning to posts that need it, making desaturated alternatives for the flags I make, anything that makes it more accessible to people with disabilities, as I screw up sometimes and am very bad at noticing it after

NO purposeful recoins of my terms (if you have any problems with me/my terms, please talk to me about it directly)

TBA??? feel free to ask

before you follow

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Im a fan of: homestuck, boyfriends (webtoon), MLP, FNAF, vocaloid (esp. MARETU and kikuo!), monster high, cookie run, danganronpa and MCYT (NOT dsmp, I dont like dsmp), however I am critical of every media I consume

I am poly'type alterhuman + voidpunk, along with a furry, I support every 'type though am critical of factotypes

I identified as pansexual homoromantic for the longest time (I no longer do but I have no beef with people who are) so if youre not comfortable with that please leave

antiship, anti radqueer, anti transid, anti contact harmful paras, Im both radinclus and critinclus

I identify as a femboy, despite that I recognize and am careful about its negative relation to transfems. (no hate towards people who do use rosboy or maiboy etc. though you guys are cool as fuck)

Im a singlet, and would therefore prefer not to engage in syscourse at all, its just not my place to comment.

I am disordered and disabled. I have the right to not elaborate any more, just be patient with me, I make mistakes sometimes. and tone tags/elaboration when talking abt a specific post etc. help a lot

no DNI, I block liberally, you can ask me about why I blocked you if it worries you that much

#xenogender #xeno coining #lgbtq #lgbt #trans #neopronouns #transgender #autistic culture #actually autistic #autigender #autism #mogai friendly #mogai #mogai positivity #mogai blog #mogai community #mogai identity

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hanasnx · 6 months

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hey guys i just had a friendship anniversary with both @6september and @xstarkillerx in the last couple days and i just wanna say it’s been such an honor running this blog and the new friends i’ve made along the way. both are exceptional people that i would never have had the pleasure of meeting without this blog tbh it made it possible. it reached for me, and im just enjoying the spoils. the fact that both of these people aren’t just internet friends to me, it’s like i’ve met them in person.

already it’s been a year of taking this account and my passion for fanfiction seriously and giving it a real shot here and i see all the good thats come out of it. i love this blog, i love writing, i love seeing everyone’s support. thank you so much for enjoying my content, it makes all the difference in the world to me. it’s hard for me to be vulnerable like this, it’s hard for me to be vocal about what’s important to me without feeling like it’s performative. but this is my blog, and this deserves to be on it.

mel, you reached out to me saying you wanted to be my best friend. neither of us could’ve known how true that would be, how well we’d meld together. i appreciate you and who you are as a person. all our facetimes and our world building over text is a bonding experience i cherish and think of so often. i think of you and how loving you are. you have such a great capacity for love, mel. so much so it overwhelms you, spills out of you and touches me. i’ve opened my home up to you man, i trust you. i remember how nervous i was when we’d decided to show each other our faces, how worried i was that you’d see me differently bcos instead of an entity on the internet i now had an identity to you. we couldn’t hide behind screens anymore, but i’m so glad we decided to go for it. you’re so beautiful, i love your smile. all i do is try to make you smile. i love the pictures you send me, the efforts to show me where you live and what you love. i remember how the first day you reached out, we’d talked every day since then for months. didn’t take long at all before we exchanged personal numbers bcos of how much trust was there already, how we’d built it up over that course. i felt so comfortable with you, something about you puts me at ease.

donnie, i was so drawn to you and your energy just from anon messages you’d send me. i adored your shamelessness, how unafraid and unapologetic you were. i was ecstatic to see you made a blog of your own to reveal to me so i could interact with you more directly. i remember how i played it so i didn’t come off as obsessed with you and was trying to gain your friendship in an organic way. but all along you were doing the same with me in a funny little dance. i care about what you say, i love the way your brain works. you influence me, and you inspire me. the safe space we’ve created together to let our minds wander has been a creative license i would not trade for anything. pushing me out of my comfort zone even if you don’t realize you do it, all because you give me the space to do it. history has been made and altered in our discord chats, teaching me a level of nuance ive since added to my own writing. the power of subtext is a gift you’ve given me. and the power to know i’ll be understood when saying so little because you understand me past words. the laughter we share every time we talk means the world to me. you make me laugh so much. one of the first real times we talked was a phone call that lasted 25 hours. that was fckn crazy.

idk. just. friendship anniversaries are crazy to me. i feel like i met you both just a couple months ago

#indy overshares

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faeflowerz · 2 years

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Happy Birthday, Leona Kingscholar 🦁

Alright. Let's do this. Imma snatch this man's wig. Drag him for filth. I've been waiting for this moment.

It's only fair I get his out before I play catchup with everyone else. Im primed and pumped. Let's get these jokes off.

Leona bothers me. Its not just because hes a grown ass man trying to stay in school. It's because he does it on pawpouse. He's playing 4D chess with everyone and found a way to stay in school rather than do ANYTHING ELSE. Leona values his school life more than his future bc hes afraid of what comes next.

Unlike Mal + Lilia who can pop back into school every half a century, Leona will have to go out into the world and stay there. He knows that whatever comes next, he's not ready for it. He's expressed his dislike for his home life and being a prince seems like it's more trouble than it's worth. Leona wants to be free to do as he pleases without someone breathing down his neck. I get that. Adulthood is scary as fuck and I don't blame him.

But what will happen when the people he's grown attached to moves on? He's got a revolving door of students in his dorm and even he will have to leave too. It's fragile just like the dust he makes. And that’s what I'm curious about. Is his family okay with this arrangement? Do they appreciate not having to deal with him? Because then this all makes even more sense. He justified that he has ppl to do shit for him at NRC, but whatever he wants can be done at home too. And since he's the second son, he could fuck off even more, right?

While he's not easily stressed, his emotions can get the better of him. His chapter is pretty mid, but Lilia’s taunts set him over the edge. He's most likely been ridiculed all his life as the second one. He doesn't have an identity back home. If someone taps into that nerve, it breaks him. Leona aint figured out who he is as an individual and as a prince he won't get it. His friends and "subordinates" treat him as Leona and not the prince of the sunset savana. But um, hes an asshole!

Yeah hes a gd asshole and I'm not letting it go. Leona is surrounded by people who love and support him and yet he brushes it off. He won't tell you how he feels and it is annoying. Like, bro, stop trying to prove a point and tell your friends that you give a shit about them. Especially Ruggie. You nearly killed him and yet he still helps you. Hes not even the vice dorm leader so he could just tell u to fuck off. Scar fell because he neglected the people he promised to support. He made false promises and didn't deliver on them when it came time to return the favor. And while Rome wasn't built in a day, his chapter didn't do any favors for him.

I said his chapter is mid because like Vil, the stakes were low and stayed low. Riddle's behavior affected the QOL of everyone in his dorm. Azul was damn near a slave owner. Jamil (while limited to just Kalim) could have gotten himself killed if word got back home. Vil and Leona didn't have high enough stakes until they inflicted their magic onto someone (which still bothers me that he went for Ruggie who hadn't provoked him).

His plan of breaking everyone's legs was dangerous. I think that puts his story higher than Vil's (which had reasonable demands most of the time). But if they rearranged some shit so that Savanaclaw students just went "fuck off leona, we're tired of this shit" and ruggie is the final one to go "I'm tired of it too." Then he would snap and we would get it. He wants control over everything in his life and now that he's pushed too many buttons, he will value the people who love him a little bit more.

To me, Leona first came off as a lazy son of a bitch who didn't want to get his hands dirty and blamed everything on everyone else. And while that may be true, I also think that his chapter should have made his charm more obvious. Or maybe that's the joke? All of his fans have no reason to like him!

You wanna know his appeal? Hes tsundere. That's it. His lines about MC are the most obvious but the ones about his dorm mates solidify it. Everyone loves an ass who can't tell you how he feels up front. But also people want to fuck cats so it's that too.

But I think Leona needs to ask himself: does he deserve it? Does he deserve to be a leader and does he deserve his position? I would venture to say he doesn't think so. He's not as self-deprecating as Idia, but his flaws can be pretty stifling for some. So to compensate, he asserts himself a little more while picking which fights he goes into.

WHICH BRINGS ME TO HIS REASONING FOR POMEFIORE. okay look. I appreciate a good surprise but Leona has another thing coming if he's sure he could take Vil. Their relationship is already frustrating for Vil because Leona doesn't put forth his best efforts all the time. Leona wants to reap the benefits with no work. He's spoiled. And that pisses Vil off because Vil is always on his grind. Type A vs Type B. And I agree. Leona's passiveness is frustrating especially when he looks down on people who could reasonably beat his ass. In terms of winning over the students, it's a tie. They're both attractive, persuasive and…fuck theyre so hot. But who will keep everything stable? Vil. Leona's good in Savanaclaw bc they value "the fittest" and follow whoever wins. All dorms could reasonably work like that that, but I think the application of Vil's UM could fuck Leona over. If he tested Azul or Riddle, he could win because their UM is easier to deal with. Mal is up in the air and Idia…probably would put it in a stalemate (see their chess battle). Plus, Leona hates stuffy clothes and would probably get annoyed by Rook long before he could actually enjoy anything Pome has to offer.

I get why he wouldn't want Diasomnia. Mal has that shit on lock. Scarabia would probably be easier than he thinks. Kalim and Jamil work in tandem so if he just gently pushed them both out the way, it wouldn't be too hard. Plus, Kalim already seems to like Leona. Jamil doesn't vibe with him, but what's he gonna do about it?

He could have just said pome to balance out the choices everyone made. I think i saw a chart floating around with everyones dorm pick so they probably didn't have enough Pome. Oh well.

Ok before I go, I wanna talk about his relationship with Ruggie. I said that Ruggie has no dimension to him because he's only got Poor and Leona as his defining traits. And I still believe that. Fun fact. At the time of writing this, Ruggie has about 7 lines that mention Leona. Leona has 5 mentions of Ruggie. Do with that what u will. For real tho, i like their relationship for some reason. Ruggie doesn't take shit from Leona and Leona just lets him say shit with thin threats. And Leona has a lot of faith in him too. Ruggie seems to underestimate his abilities sometimes which is why Leona pushes him. After all, what good is a servant that sucks at his job?

Going forward I think I want Leona to…not be an ass. Easier said than done lmaoooo. But for real hes definitely scared of adulthood because it means going back to a life where he is constantly shoved into a box and limited in his individuality. It's kind of the system that fucks him over the most. He's got his smarts but it kind of seems like mages are valued past just what you know. Soz, dude. Sucks to be you!

Happy Birthday Leona! 🦁😊

#leona kingscholar #twisted wonderland #faes character reflection #writing

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stitchthesewords · 1 year

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I hope you know this new au is never leaving my head. Seriously. It's rotating so hard it may explode

-🍂

YOU AND ME BOTH SO,,,LET ME,,,GIVE YOU MORE THOUGHTS TO ROTATE

HotGuy: Skilled with Archery, I do think of him similarly to hawkeye though im honestly not familiar with him because the only MCU thing I've even seen beside the spiderman movies is The Avengers. So. Take that as you will. He has a bow and crossbow, along with gadgets that function similarly - a lot of wacky arrows like nets and smoke bombs and suction cups. He's got a small limp from an old battle that they counteract with his boots. Of the duo, he is definitely meant to be mostly Offensive when they fight, relying on CuteGuy for anything that isn't 'shoot the enemy in the face'

CuteGuy: Uses a gun, though the Lab SAYS its a pellet gun and not a 'real' one [a lie.] Mostly as a backup weapon, however, as his main area is support. His gun is, similar to HotGuy's arrows, equipped with the ability to take multiple kinds of bullets. He has to be very careful to be sure that he's shooting the right one - think sort of like how the supports in Overwatch work, since my main is Baptiste, so he has like - healing 'bullets' which obviously arent really bullets, and then real bullets that actually do damage. I think there are also things like sleeping bullets, maybe electrified ones. He carries most of the utilitarian gadgets for their team too.

The Evoker: Think somewhat similar to Iron Man. It's a full body mech suit that Scar uses to walk around. It can fly, give him basic data about an area or someone, has weapons built into it, and later on Mumbo retrofits it with its own abilities like boosts to Scar's strength and speed. There's a voice synthisizer to hide Scar's identity, because he doesn't know WHY CuteGuy would stay with the Lab, but he can't trust him with any knowledge.

The Watcher - Blind. Literally. His powers partially compensate for this, but it's not like actually seeing with his eyes. And the transformation process to become the Watcher was INCREDIBLY painful for Grian, waking up in total darkness [which, to clarify, the blindness Grian experiences as the Watcher is not ACTUAL blindness. It is instead like they are blocking out his sight while still giving him...sight? I suppose? Like holding something in front of his vision, but they can take the blockage away at any time because he'll be more powerful. Like training with weights and then taking them off for a fight.] The Watcher's abilities let him 'see' things are outlines, or something simply sense they they are there. It's like having 360 vision but having no instincts of how to read it. He also can get flashes of the future, who allows him to do things like avoid bumping into people, or guess when Mumbo was trying to trap him with a net. But these future flashes are only correct some of the time, not all the time - the future can change in an instant after all. And it is NOT like having visions that go far into the future, more like a premonition of something happening seconds away. This allows Grian to live his life as though he could see but means that during his downtime, when he can't use his powers due to motion sickness and other illness, he has no idea how to navigate the world at all. He's been trying to get better, but the Lab doesn't like him NOT using his power, so it's incredibly difficult when he's being watched himself. Grian relies on his old methods of fighting, using a new gun and also, a sword, something he trained with before he became HotGuy's sidekick.

and as a bonus I wanna talk about the NHO guys bc,,,,, I love them.

Bdubs aka...I'm not really sure yet. We'll get there - He only had a brief stint as a powerless hero, most of his work was very lowkey in a team. He takes the experiment for powers because he wants to monetary boost - He's given plant powers [kind of like poison ivy?? I think] and they seal him in a sensory deprivation tank to get his powers to work. Did the Lab actually know that would work and wasn't just a form of torture? You decide!

Etho - not a Hero. He does, however, work for the lab as a spy. And hitman. Semi-military. Whatever they need him for really. He has his own redstone knowledge that he brought with him so he often messes with his own gadgets and helps their engineering teams out when he doesn't have a job. The Lab faked his death, because they needed him to be able to do his job without being tracked.

Beef aka The Butcher - He does not have powers, he instead in a melee-based fighting hero from around the same time that HotGuy and CuteGuy were active. He has a bulky full face mask he wears with a voice modulator built into it to conceal his identity.

Doc - Not a Hero. More like a hostage of the Lab - passive mob hybrids naturally exist in the world [Avians, sheep, etc.] but not neutral or aggressive mobs. Doc was part of the first round of experiments that were trying to make superpowers - and their first attempt was to fuse people with aggressive mobs [This is also where Tango comes from]. This plan failed - most people died, and those like Doc [and Tango] that didn't die were not what the lab needed. However, the evidence of what they'd done was far too obvious, and so the surviving hybrids are kept locked up deep within the Lab. Doc is an engineer who designed or improved most of the Lab's gadgets, which is how the NHO met - Doc is the one who makes all their gadgets.

#Asks #Anonymous #🍂 anon #Superhero AU #NHO #Mumscarian #Hermitshipping #<- not really in the post but it WILL be so

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SO RIGHT and whenever I hear ppl claiming that idols will be sadddd if we dont give their company moneys :'-( I cant help but feel like they are infantilizing them. the idols in question are grown people they will survive a boycott... its like these fan view idols and their companies as a monolith completely removing any sort of agency or identity from them. the loonas have said themselves they wanna leave so what more do these ppl need.... if their idol career ends that fucking sucks but being an idol at blockberry isnt the only job in the world. and they can always join a new company afterwards I mean look at wonho having a relatively successful career after he got booted. its bc he has a dedicated fanbase. If these fans really wanted to support these idols they would boycott and advocate for their release and then promote the idols future endeavors

ok tea. like. im p sure these idols know what's best for them so to see them WANT to leave and then say shit like 'i know they'll be sad if i don't stream' is fucking insane. like loona isnt being paid, they're either over worked or left in a basement, and if you try to do anything for yourself they'll kick you out and slander you. how is that a company you WANT to give money to? when ppl say shit like 'but theyll be so sad' it reeks of seeing idols as a product only and not ppl cuz theres no way someone who actually cares would still want to support a comeback when like 9 of the girls filed to LEAVE. theyre not seeing a cent of the money fans pump into bbc like supporting a comeback makes 0 sense in any way

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