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dairy-farmer · 1 year

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hi! i have posted a few batcest fics but i was wondering if u had any tips on getting more involved with the community, mostly on twitter. i don't have a twitter acc dedicated to it yet but i follow some accs on my priv (yours included obviously) and the way people add onto threads and talk to eachoter abt it is really exciting. i'm nervous tho because i've never had an acc for something my irl friends aren't into and idk how to get mutuals or if it's okay to reply to tweets from people that don't follow you. i hope this made sense i'm just really scared abt reaching out to ppl

hi!!! first, i want to say it's so touching that you'd come to me for advice ❤️❤️❤️ 🥺🥺🥺. i'll do my best to give you the best advice possible!!!!

ive actually only been active on the batcest side of twitter for a few months (august was when i got more active and started following accounts)! before i got into batcest i didn't really go on twitter but so many talented people are on there and make such amazing tweets and au's i basically go on there once a day now haha 😄! that's probably because outside of places like discord there's really no concentrated communities or places to interact with people who like batcest in a way that feels more...active? on tumblr you can go weeks or days without every directly interacting with someone. tiktok is hostile to anyone with a brain plus it can show your videos to complete steangers outside of your intended audience which can be....yeah. instagram isnt bad but it would definitely be a weird way to interact. ive heard that facebook groups can be fun but how that pans out with 18+ content is...

from what i can tell most batcest accounts are pretty chill however i'm only speaking from the perspective of tim centric accounts. in terms of things such as "etiquette" there's only a few things most accounts do to sort of identify and differentiate each other.

- if you're following nsfw account or making nsfw tweets be sure to include that in your description whether that means having 'minors dni', 18+, 🔞, your age and an nsfw warning' it varies.

-you don't have to do this, in fact i don't even do it but it might make it easier to find mutuals, and that's to include your favorite ships in your bio as well! mentioning things like jaytim, jaydick, brutim, brudami, etc. a lot of batcest accounts have multiple ships that spread over different characters so them listing it makes it easier for people to see what they're about!

-inluding the link of your ao3/linking your twitter in your ao3 fics is a good way for people to follow your work! a lot of people might recognize your fics if they click on your ao3 fic and you can become mutuals like that!

in terms of how to interact with other accounts i get being nervous!! i definitely was when i first started posting my tim tweets!!! even now when i interact with mutuals i've been interacting with for a while I still get a little nervous sometimes!

but i do have some tips that I think have helped interact with others and keep it fun for everyone!❤️❤️❤️

- if a tweet talks about 2 specific characters or a specific ship and you really like the idea but don't care for the ship don't directly reply to the person saying something like "THIS but with x- instead would be so good!". i know wanting to give recognition for an idea is tempting but it's rude to try and change the intent of someone's tweet.

instead: you can make your own tweet and include something like "just saw someone on my tl talking about x-topic and now i can't stop thinking about y+z in that situation-" that way you're acknowledging the outside source but also not changing the tune of someone else's tweet

- if a lot of people on your timeline are all talking about the same idea and they're all coming out with their own spins and you have no idea who started it that's okay! twitter can be a bit of an echo chamber sometimes and no one's going to go through all their mutuals and find who tweeted what first. plus the very nature of art is that it often repeats itself.

if you want to join in: you can say something like "my tl is full of people about x and let me just say that-"

- emojis are your friend! i use them a lot because i have a hard time reading tone from text and think everyone else might too. when you're reading something it's hard to pick out whether someone is joking or saying something sarcastically without any indicators (ex. /joke /sarcasm at the end of a sentence, wrItInG LIkE tHiS tO MakE suRe someone knows they're being mocked/made fun of).

adding an emoji can really help change the tone of what you're saying making it sound less like you're stating a fact or making a demand or some other misinterpretation.

ex:

he deserves it.

he deserves it 😈

he doesn't deserve that!!!

he doesn't deserve that!!! 🥺🥺🥺

you just like torturing him don't you.

you just like torturing him don't you 😭😭😭

you can tell there's a few tonal differences between the statements which helps ease the slide of interaction (at least I think so!) by making it clear you're joking or being humorous.

- it's common to see people adding onto each other's threads and while you may be nervous about who is okay with it at first, the general rule of thumb is that on twitter anyone can add on to anyone's thread or respond whether you follow them or not (i don't think anyone will even notice who is following who) but if it does make you anxious you can click on their profile and look at their replies to see if they've replied to other people's threads or been replied to.

you can reply even if two people are already having a convo, you can just split off and start a new one! ive seen and had multiple split off convos with different people from the same original thread who all had different ideas or things to add on.

ultimately a lot of conversations on twitter are people prodding each other's brains for their shared interests and mutuals come about from people seeing that someone has similar interests and is talking about them and so follow because they also like that thing and would love to see more of people talking about that thing!!!

try following people who share a lot of your interests in terms of ships and characters.

mutuals may take a little while (in some cases ive done two scrolls of a person's account and immediatly followed them back without any interaction because we both clearly had the same interests) if you want exact steps of how that might happen you could start with

a. commenting on people's threads. telling them you loved it, reacting to it, sending emojis. etc.

b. send tweets about your thoughts, headcanons, aus, etc. don't feel discouraged if no one likes them yet you're just starting!

c. after you've gotten comfortable with commenting with an account you can start adding more to the interaction, adding on, proposing a direction for the tweet, etc.

these are just a few of the things ive learned and seen and nothing here is fully concrete either so if you feel more comfortable doing something else then feel free!!!

besides in the first conversation i ever had with one of my current mutuals i revealed to them that i'd secretly written an entire fic about one of their tweets even though we'd, until that point, never talked even once 😭

i guess what I'm trying to say is: go for it!! you never know, it might go a lot better than the worst case scenarios you may be thinking of!! ❤️❤️❤️

#answered asks #asks #anonymous

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plague-of-insomnia · 1 year

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hm idk how ur gonna feel abt an ask like this but i do want to get smth off my chest & u seem p safe. feel free to delete if u want

i saw a post recently talking abt how "gay" got used as a slur a lot more than people acknowledge. and it got me thinking of my school years & how often it got thrown around.

thing is. and heres where my train of thought goes off the rails. i actually experienced the word "incest" as an attack more than the word "gay"... which. ill explain. but it really got me thinking on this whole purity culture & demonising of incest depicted in literature & yknow taking things too far with whats considered incest.

bc at the end of the day. the reason incest is illegal (mostly) is to prevent inbreeding & the health issues that come along with that. if ur not blood related then theres no problem.

and like. the reason i got called incestuous and generally ostracised was bc i was close with a boy in my year. like we dated for a week as 14 yros do. and at some point i discovered that hey. his last name is the same as my aunts and lo and behold hes my 2nd cousin thru marriage or smth. so. not incest at all.

anyway that p much ruined our friendship (& it was a friendship. i broke things off before i even knew we were related bc i just didnt feel the same way and we stayed friends for a little bit) all bc some kids couldnt let it go that we had the vaguest relation to each other. he got bullied for the rest of our school year & ive felt horribly guilty for leaving him bc i wanted to be "cool" & ended up without any close friends like we were.

sorry if thats a weird thing to put in ur inbox.

Hey, anon. I don't mind this ask. I hope you don't mind me replying publicly. (In future if you don't just say so.)

This post will be a bit long, so I'll go ahead and put it under a readmore.

TW for discussions of "gay" used in a negative way, and discussions of the use of the word "incest," and its association with child sexual abuse, though there's really nothing terribly bad here as I'm not going into detail on any of thse topics. (If you need something tagged, though, let me know.)

Now, I'm old as dirt by tumblr standards, and I remember VIVIDLY the word "gay" being used in a negative light. As a kid, I didn't really see it used as a "slur" per se, but it was used to mean something was bad.

Like, if you saw a movie that sucked, you'd say "Man, that movie was so gay." It meant something like "lame."

So obviously, it wasn't a good thing, and when I got a bit older and was explained why using the word was bad, I stopped, and fortunately most other kids did too and it mostly faded from use (in that sense) at least as far as I noticed.

(I'm not saying gay hasn't been used as a more nasty slur/word ofc, this is just my personal experience with it.)

Granted, keep in mind when I was in high school, our LGBTQ+ club was just the "Gay/Straight Alliance." Back then, it was basically, you were gay/lesbian, or you were an ally. We never talked about trans people or nonbinary people or ace/aro people. Ofc every one of those identities/kinds of people existed, but as far as my world went, they didn't. Most of my circle of friends was queer in some way, but many were closeted or semi-closeted for various reasons.

Anyway, sorry for that detour. Now, as to your incest situation. I'm sorry that happened to you. It definitely wasn't fair. You didn't have any way to know if you were related, and if/when you did it was "easy" to end the relationship. But kids are kids, and they always love to find a way to single people out, and they probably didn't really care what the actual truth was.

Even if you'd discovered having a similar name was total coincidence, I'm sure they'd still have bullied you for "incest."

I wasn't bullied for it, thankfully, but I did have a classmate in high school with the same last name as mine. My name is very common in some places, but where I lived at that time it was not, so everyone assumed we were fraternal twins. He was a nice enough guy, but I really didn't want people to think we were siblings. But no matter how many times we both explained we weren't related, no one believed us.

Sometimes, once someone makes their mind up about something, there's no changing it.

As for "abandoning" your friend because you didn't want to be left out and regretting it, I get that too. There was a guy I dated when I was around 16, and we were very passionate, but I think honestly I entered a major depressive episode and lost all interest in everything, including him, and... anyway, I regret how things ended between us even today, many, many years later. I wish I could shake my 16-year-old self and tell them not to be so cruel, but we can't change the past, only learn from it and move forward.

With regards to antis/purity culture taking incest so far, I do agree it has gotten ridiculous. As you said, the reason incest is taboo is because of inbreeding, because if your (general you) DNA is too closely related, you increase the chance of having major/significant diseases due to a lack of genetic diversity. But antis tend not to understand the WHY's behind things (since they also believe pedophilia is bad bc it's disgusting, and not because it hurts children, who become real grown adults).

But I have seen some really wild takes called incest. Like a ship from one fandom where the male and female characters are friends. A lot of people consider it "problematic" apparently, because they have a "sibling-like" relationship. They did not grow up together, they aren't related, and yet that's "incest" according to antis.

I do want to mention another reason that incest can/is considered so bad, and it's because, despite what antis may think, most sexual abuse of children comes from someone close to them in their lives, often a family member or close friend. So for a lot of people, when they think of "incest," they closely associate it with sexual abuse of a child. It's possible that's why antis get so upset about it. I don't know. But that is another aspect to it. (Ofc for you, in your past situation, you were both around the same age, so that's not the case, but that association is there.)

But, in the end, in fiction, it doesn't matter, because there are not actual children who can be conceived or harmed, and so the whole purpose behind why incest isn't allowed in many places in modern times doesn't exist.

I hope you're doing OK now, anon. Don't be to hard on yourself. A lot of people have done things when they were young teens they regret and wish they could "undo," but as long as you learned from that experience so you could become a better person than that 14-year-old version of you, I think you're doing OK.

Sending you some hugs. <3

#poi answers #not kuro #anon

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circular-bircular · 2 years

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(This accidentally became a whole rant, you can delete if you want lol)

endo-stance anon, thank you. it just sucks because most blogs are either very pro endo or anti endo. i prefer pro endo spaces because, in my experience, they're a lot kinder (and oddly don't invalidate trauma as often as anti-endos do) and allow for questioning of system origins.

then again, current close friends are either anti-endo or singlets… it sucks. we want to engage in conversation that's pro-endo but we can't outside of reading posts tagged with pro endo.

there's not a lot of DID/OSDD resources that are loudly pro-endo also, or at least pro-endo-safe. there's... one full site that i know of that's good. we saw a few anti-endo posts that were slightly informative. a handful of pro-endo posts that were good. but most "resources" are by singlets going "hey, fellow singlets, isn't it weird that these Systems™ have ALTERS that have ROLES??? and INNER WORLDS?? like wow!! crazy i know!!" and not like.

actual advice on how to construct a good innerworld, how to deal with system feelings on media (especially introjects), what are good apps to talk with your system mate, is [x experience] normal or common at all in systems, etc etc. stuff systems can talk about, engage with and debate about and share experiences.

also, sometimes i DON'T want to talk about trauma shit. sometimes, we just want to be ourselves. defining ourselves as just traumatic split off parts limits ourselves and we'd prefer to be... "normal" people. with everyday problems. to struggle with simple, non trauma things and ask about them. like "we are struggling to decide on who should eat the food" or "how do we decide what our systemsona should look" or whatever.

like. just... so many DID/OSDD specific posts are either like "luv u did/osdd systems! endos / supporters fuck off!!!", or vents like "we dissociated earlier today :( i hate having multiple people in my brain" and very few resources or talk about just. existing. and even being happy about your system

also, we did see a post that validated feelings we got, feelings that we've experienced before but doubted because "only endos and fakers do that, that's a sign of faking". unfortunately the post that validated those feelings was from an anti endo, we talked about not interacting with them, and then got an anon calling us an "endo / singlet". n it sucks.

just... bleh. rant over. - tired traumagenic / adaptive system

I'm glad you got to rant. It's important to get these feelings out. I'm sorry you got the anon invalidating you - that's horrible.

I'm very lucky to have found a discord server of very accepting anti-endos, who are happy for me to exist with them. They gave me a safe place to believe and advocate for endogenics, a place to process my trauma, and a place to rant about my Undertale fanfictions!! It's a great shift from when I first joined the community and from how I was treated by anti-endos back then.

I've joined pro-endo servers before as well, but sadly, I couldn't find a place for my trauma there. They just felt very... stifling, in that regard. I didn't feel like I could be a traumatized system. I could only be a System(tm). If I used parts language for myself, people would shout at me that it was dehumanizing (even though we prefer thinking of ourselves that way). Meanwhile, in the anti-endo server I'm in, you can just. Talk about your system in whatever way is most healing, so long as you aren't spreading hate or misinformation.

My suggestion might be to branch out of tumblr spaces. Discord servers, I've found, have been far more accepting and less hateful.

#syscourse

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wigglesforsquiggles · 2 years

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1-10 >:]

this is the second time i've had to type this bc as i finished tbis it got DELETED ;-;

1. what are 3 things you'd say shaped you into who you are?

uhh one is definilty when i discovered you tube for the first time and promptly got sent down a medical rabbit hole, leading to my intense fear of rabies, seeing a dedication video to a dead child by their parents who were convinced he was jesus incarnated (as in, actual jesus, not a metaphor for being an angel), and the little part of my brain that diagnoses me with every disease i learn about

another would be kneeling on the landing next to my sibling late at night, watching my parents watch tv. you could just about see into the living room from there, and we often snuck down the first set of stairs to watch tv once we were sent up to bed bc we were bored children and didn't want to sleep. i always felt to proud whenever we heard my dad stand up (he has knees that click like a horse) and ran upstairs giggling before he could catch us out of bed. looking back we obviously made a lot of noise and were definitely not as subtle as we thought

lastly i'll say getting lost in this museum when i was like 5. there was this mini gift shop half way through the museum and i got distracted with an etch-a-sketch (it was the first time i had seen one) and fiddled with it for a while (i was trying to figure out how it made lines), and then i looked up and i was alone in a massive room. i must have cried a little, but i stayed where i was and waited for my parents to find me (despite wanting to go further into the museum to find them), and eventually they came back for me :D i can't remember if i went to an employee and told them i was lost or not but it was very scary at the time

I just remembered what i put originally for one of the paragraphs so u get an extra one. one time i read the part of the huger games where Rue dies 3 times a day for a week to make myself cry just to prove i could. i can't tell you a reason past i would still do this today if i used my kindle more

2. show us a picture of your handwriting?

3. 3 films you could watch for the rest of your life and not get bored of?

i must confess i almost never rewatch anything - my ability to watch films ourside a cinema is almost non existent anyways lmao

the only time ive rewatched any film is The Old Guard where i needed to show it to all my friends but could only hang out w them on different days, leading me to watch the film 5 times over 2 weeks.

maybe i'll say the mama mia films bc ive only watched them w friends and it's just fun to sing along

4. what's an inside joke you have with your family or friends?

ok, do not question me with this but "arson" being a code word for incest

i will not explain more than telling you lockdown was a weird time and a conversation that starting with immortal fairies having dna lead to this

it's very funny thoigh when i randomly hear the word and this specific firend and i make eye contact, trying not to laugh at a joke only we know

5. what made you start your blog?

i saw so many tumblr posts screenshotted in instsgram, and i finally caved and got in on the action :D

6. what's the best and worst part of being online/a creator?

best - making friends :D i love being able to talk to people all over the world and just ask how they are and see their opinions. @ ing ppl on posts that make me think of them is an unmatched joy :D

worst - the discourse. i get upset rly easily and also am still working on my critical thinking skills so it's easy for me to get caught up in drama and let it affect me emotionally. i only rly. price it when im offline for a few days and go: wow i feel so normal

7. what scares you the most and why?

death, mostly. i used to stay up late at night and cry silently because i was so scared about not existing anymore. simply my mind being gone and not being able to do anything about it. but i just don't think about it anymore and it's all good :D

8. any reoccurring dreams?

like 30% of my dreams are reoccurring actually. all my dreams are incredibly vivid and nonsensical (more random plot points being put together like a game of madlibs more than anything else)

i guess i'll say the one about being stuck in a water parkour course in a pair, (with the aesthetic of fire bot and water girl) and finally climbing up a vine with my partner after being faster than everyone else, and getting to attend a lesson on how to have lesbian sex - in a room like my local gym (and worrying bc i wasn't out in this dream)

9. tell a story about your childhood

i got to play moshi monsters for the first time on my mums red laptop on the island counter at age 9 i think - but i had to stand up because my foot was in a blue container filled with salt water because there was a splinter the length and width of my pinky stuck in the bottom of it

i later went to a&e to get it taken out after a day because it took that long to convince me to go to the hospital (i was terrified of pain and medicine and wouldn't let anyone touch it). the doctor that saw me was very nice and used numbing spray (very cold) and got it out in under 5 seconds. to this day the only time ive been in hospital bar being a baby.

10. would you say you're an emotional person?

oh 100% - it's a meme amongst my friends at this point. i was assigned those greyhounds that jenna marbles has that look like they're crying all the time , for reasons you can guess

i also feel things very intensely, happiness anger and fear are all very overwhelming to me and it's only in the past few years ive been able to get them partly under control

#wiggles asks #hi yue :D #ask game: oo numbered questions #this took me like an hour rip.#enjoy the wiggles lore ig.#tell me ur reaction to each story pls i'm curious lmao #i probably should tag wiggles overshare bc wow. rereading tbis and that is a lot of detail no one needs #apologies :(

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tddyhyck · 11 days

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I’M SORRY THIS IS LIKE 700 WORDS, i don’t know how to shut up 😭😭😭😭 ok first. i didn't mean to make u feel bad for not replying “quickly enough”, just got worried that i might’ve said something weird ejsjdkwjsa. i’m glad that was not the case, and i am sorry i projected my insecurities onto u and hurried u 😭 that said, ur replies brought much joy. 😌

i have not seen the recording yet 😭 i’ve barely been able to watch anything 😞 i’m sure u’re more than “okay” with it, wink wonk, and yes omg,, truly so nice. U’RE EVIL… the “you” was such an unnecessary attack, u knew what u were doing with that 😭😭 (unless u don’t nd i read too much into it, like i often do 🫶🤪) our fruity fighter 🥺 our fruity fighter protecting us 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 why r u getting me so soft for him!

re: renjun. change ur mind from what.. am i forgetting something 😭 i love this though 🥳 i was reading something the other day and it went like “do u like renjun? are u a masochist?” and aurgh that hit,, idk what it is about him but something about him is so !!!!!!! 🥵 CAN’T WAIT TO SEE THE PATTERN… NGTAHGHHGBGRGGAABNHNHNN i’m so normal. that’s such a gigantic brain idea u have.

i screamed when i saw u say “i don’t make the rules but i will enforce them” because in a totally unrelated thought i was thinking yesterday about how i’m the type who may not make the rules but follows them (sfw thought LMFAO) and it was so amusing to read what u wrote. BUT YEAH U’RE SO RIGHT… normalise panty stuffing ‼️ 😠

u can change font size by selecting the text and going through the million options tumblr gives, the little <s> button 🥰 but wahhhh okay i’m glad 🥺❤️

NAURRR the anime lover in me thought of that too when trains got mentioned 😭😭 except like. a cute version of that, let’s say hjsgshrjba. jeno doing god’s work <3 thank u for sharing ur beautiful thought with the world though, the song hasn’t left my head LMAO i haven’t even heard it in… 8 years?!

RIIIIIIIGHT U GET MEEEE, “doing everything to make u cry” RIGHT RIGHT… so many thoughts. like he does it because it makes him hard (going with ur headcanon of him) but he also does it cus he just wants to be mean so bad at first and not let u think he’s nice or anything… taking out all his anger on poor u. then he makes u cry because he wants to convince himself that he’s not falling for u. then he finally admits he’s whipped for u and both of u are crying lmaoooo

“he’s all grown up and obnoxious and breaks my heart 😭😭” WHY IS THIS SENDING MEEE 😭😭😭😭😭😭 the way u worded that is SO funny. also idk what u’re talking about because i read mean dom chenle in 2022 and i never went back to normal after that 💗🦋 i’m kidding, i get what u mean. he’s positively adorable in the best way. i keep having my dream phases every single year the past 4 years before i stop keeping up? (some context; i’m also rlly bad with consuming content from my favourite groups. more context; none of my friends are super into them so i just never get to Talk about them) but i feel i might finally be ready to commit 🤩 because i like this album so much and it made me feel A Lot.

re: lipgloss. that was NOT the image in my head but it is definitely an image i can work with 🤩🤩🤩🤩 he gives u a little kiss on the lips right after that.

thank uuuuu i’m doing okay 🥹 i hope u are too, and work isn’t being too tiring ❤️ (random but ur cousin post was so cute. u’re a nice cousin 😔 i hope ur cousin appreciates u! and they’re a funny little kid for the permission thing.)

~🪄

omg you didn’t rush me!! do not fret 🫶🏻🫶🏻

i hope u get to watch it soon it’s so good like one of my fav things is the recording bts jeno’s part ,,, was saur good ,, maybe i did add the you 🤭🤭

LOL i just meant if i thought of renjun and dumbification on a random afternoon i would be a changed person 🤭🤭 DO YOU LIKE RENJUN ARE U A MASOCHIST LMFAO,, those go hand in hand tbh thinking he has an album on his phone with just pics of your skin after some rope activities…

i miss him sm my little babie 🫳🫳🫳

omg anime lover i must know what you’re watching currently 🧐

oK but fwb!jeno who never gets mad so he keeps his anger all pent up and takes it out on you when you fuck,,, and it’s the best sex of your life lbr,,, like maybe he has a shit day at work and spilled his coffee and missed the bus and he texts you to link up and ,,, just ruins you GRRR but then he realizes he really goes over because you make him feel light and comfortable and it’s easy being with you,,, but he isn’t ready to admit it yet 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

he’s just annoying and pretty and obnoxious and talented and i want to enemies to lovers with him fr omg i know what you mean i have 1 kpop friend and she isn’t super into nct but she kinda keeps up for my sake but not to the point i do lol,,, def time to commit i am team commit to dream 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

he SO would smooch and pat you on the head 😵‍💫

work isn’t too bad! it’s our event season so a little busy but that’s better than being bored lol,, my cousin is so funny he’s 10 and i think he thinks i am too 🤣🤣

#tddyhyck ask #🪄<3

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gnomewithalaptop · 2 months

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Ok, finally getting to those other Asks I wanted to do. So the TAU blog reblog of ur "The last time I saw you (you were so young)" fic post, u said this: "'LISTEN I know I’m meant to be working on that one longfic but my mother told me a story about my deceased grandmother & then I just blacked out and wrote this idk what to tell you", I thought for a sec, u were talking about: "The Man Who Knew the Future You" (I love the idea of Alcor meeting a past Mizar; prob. so weird for both, lol), 2/?.

(Continuing on from my Last Ask(s)): , but then I realized u were prob. talking about "Cue the Sun" instead actually, which I found out from the Ask from toothpastecanyon asking: "What is cue the sun? 👀" (having trouble linking links), & now, I am obsessed w/ that idea/it. Like, a civil war, a R!Ford Mom having a R!Gideon (of all people) Troubled teen of all people (it's also cool to see more Ford & Gideon stuff in TAU & R's of them too), trying to find something to win the civil war 3?/?.

(Continued from Last Ask(s) again, sorry for how many Asks): , but then them finding like a 2016 (I think it was 2016) Gravity Falls and meeting a skeptical and/or sus. Stan (Stan meeting reincarnations of his brother and enemy and/or past enemy, man, oh man) and the OG Mystery Twins (Dipper and Mabel, right? Awesome. That/This should be very fun), and they all think it is 2016, and not, 7098 (man, the year differences is gonna be strange &/or confusing for everyone), &/or etc. 4?/?

(Continued from my Last Ask(s) again): Like, sign me up for "Cue the Sun"! And it is gonna be a longfic (probably)? Like, even if it wasn't, I would still be interested in it, but it being a longifc is even better (as a Gravity Falls, TAU, and/or etc. fan even more esp.). The map(s) u did for "Cue the Sun", & the thought u are putting into "Cue the Sun" is amazing. 4 or 5?/?. The next 1 should hopefully be my Last Ask. I didn't realize the/my Asks would get this many.

(Continued from my Other Asks. Just 1 more after this): Is there any more "Cue the Sun" posts besides that Ask I mentioned in my other Ask(s)? When I try searching up "cue the sun" on ur blog, this is all I get "Sorry, no results for cue the sun". I didn't even get that Ask I talked about, that literally has "cue the sun" in the Ask. Tumblr's Search can be so bad sometimes. Anyways, really excited for "Cue the Sun", whenever that is. & I love ur other TAU fics and posts too! 5 or 6?/?.

(original cue the sun post)

Oh dude. Dude. Never apologize for sending too many asks -- getting this in my inbox literally made my day. To your first question: yes! The longfic in question is Cue the Sun -- I'm still working through it rn, and I'm hoping to start publishing sometime this summer/fall -- woot woot graduation time! Right now, it's looking to be about 6-7 long-ish chapters? Which is def a longfic in my book lol (I'm trying to get it all written out before I start posting -- that way I can keep with a consistent update schedule)

I am SUPER excited about it though -- I've been having a blast working through the twists and turns of it all and making sure all the pieces fit together (and dropping Easter Eggs to as many other pieces of TAU lore as possible lmao)

But yes! OG Mystery Twins are 16-17 y/o Mabel and Dipper Pines, Stan is extremely sus (but lbr that's par the course for him), and Olya and Fatima (r!Gideon and r!Ford) are about to have the worst week of their lives.

Featuring: dead sisters who haunt the narrative, utopian society models gone wrong, weapons of mass destruction, the long-term effects of magical radiation (i.e. what happens when you stick a Chernobyl disaster inside Gravity Falls), and narratively significant golf carts

FINALLY: you can find all my writing posts under #this-is-gnomes-writing-tag, but since you're the second person to express interest in this fic, I'll start tagging Cue the Sun stuff with #cue the sun. Right now there isn't really much there (read: it is a barren wasteland) bc I tend to just vague post about things, but I'll make sure to tag any future excerpts/asks/milestones

#cue the sun #this-is-gnomes-writing-tag #give me two weeks and I'll post an excerpt. gotta give me a hard deadline #also: The Man Who Knew The Future You was (unfortunately) one of the many casualties of writing fic on the now defunct family desktop 😭#the price of being fifteen at the time i'm afraid 😔#ok but fr tho I just counted and there's like. at least two dead sisters haunting this narrative. four if you squint #who are these women. how did they get in here. what do they want from me #asks #chatxkilluaxnoir

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hiya!!!!! i really enjoyed reading chapter 3 of misdial omg like when i saw the master list was updated i literally squealed LMAO it was such a good chapter!!! i’m really interested to see how mark is gonna be introduced later on :]]

OH ALSO r u aware that a couple of the tags u used for chapter 3 (and maybe 1&2 but i didn’t check) are like…. formatted (??) wrong or smt? like i’m pretty sure the ‘x’ in the “nct x reader” tag and a couple other tags is a different character so it’s not showing up on the feeds of people who read check the tag. if u did it on purpose u can just ignore this entire thing aaa

i don’t mean to be rude or anything !!!! it’s just ur writing is really good and i think it really deserves more recognition from more nctzens on tumblr

THANK YOU FOR LETTING ME KNOW ABOUT THE TAGS!!!! i'm still kind of new to how the tags and algorithm and all that works, not to mention i dont have all my tags saved somewhere so every time i post i have to re-figure it out again 😭 i'm going to look into fixing it for good before i post ch4!!! i wouldn't have known the tags were weird if you didn't tell me so thank you <33333 you're not being rude at all, this was a very helpful thing to know and i think i'll actually be better off bc of it 😭

and also mark will make his grand appearance in ch4, so we'll get to see just how different/similar he is to mc's perception of him v v soon ;-) thank you for reading my friend

#anon #dojun talks #dojun answers #i hate the tags how to i figure out the tags aaaaaa #but i'll make sure to fix it before ch4!!! thank you again beloved anon

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liltaz-asatreat · 1 year

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5, 6, and 29 for the ao3 asks :O?? thank u -ise

ao3 wrapped questions here!! <- send some in? :D

(tagging you so you'll get the notification lol @barry-j-blupjeans )

5. What work of yours got more feedback than you expected?

Honestly, both Broken Trust and The Screams Came Back

Broken Trust I literally wrote in the span of like, 2 or 3 hours after taking a really late night shower where the idea grabbed me by the throat, and I had to bang it out even though I could barely keep my eyes open lol And then when I finally remembered it existed and to go over it again to clean it up a bit and post it, it didn't take very long, and I was honestly kind of worried it would be a little out of character because the whole idea of fixing yourself for something that isn't necessarily your fault and blaming yourself for other people's decisions is a very me thing to do, and I didn't know whether or not I was over projecting in a moment of needing to vent in the moment for some reason? or if it was something Taako really would think and feel, and we'd share that in common. Also, most of the last few fics I had published before then I spent more time on, some of them a lot more time on, and wrote more carefully, and most of them got a fair amount of feed back, but it wasn't really as much as I was expecting for how much I worked on them. So I kind of thought it was going to be one of those that wasn't necessarily going to bomb because again, it's not like I spent a whole lot of time actively working on it so it can't really bomb lol but like, it wasn't going to reach a lot of people, and I was okay with that

And then it became one of my most popular fics on tumblr with the ratio of people reblogging it leaving comments being one of the highest its ever been, and it's done decently on ao3 too in regards to my average amount of kudos, and a lot more people left comments on there too than people usually do on any one of my fics lol Pretty much all of them expressing pain in some way, and I still cackle like an evil scientist every time I read them or get a new comment lol

And as for The Screams Came Back... well. That was the most vent fic to ever vent fic that I've written, and I posted it on tumblr at midnight and didn't bother to reblog it to promote it or really say anything about it because it's kind of a fucked up fic and I was feeling really fucked up but like, needed to have someone read it and know that everything I was experiencing, even though I wrote it in the context of taz and applied a thin layer of fiction to obfuscate reality, was not just trapped in my head like it has been for years and year and years.

Of course, only one person saw it on tumblr, and they checked in on me because... yeah.

But I also posted it on ao3, and granted, I only got one comment on it that honestly, I didn't understand what they meant? But I thanked them for reading anyway because that's what I always do, and by the time that happened and I had the mortifying realization that I had posted something really vulnerable, multiple people had left kudos on it? And like, I also did feel a huge sense of relief that it wasn't just me anymore? I tagged it with everything that could possibly be triggering and put a warning at the top saying it was going to be fucked up, so like, the people who read it and left kudos knew what they were getting into and liked it enough to click the button, so it kind of felt weird to take it down?

It's honestly one of the fics with the least amount of feedback, but I was also expecting no feedback, so yeah lol

6. Favorite title you used

It's gotta be A Witness of Corruption lol It just sounds really cool and was really easy to come up with and works on like, multiple levels lol Magnus witnessing the effects of the Hunger while inside it? Corruption. The seven them having a really hard time getting along because of the struggles they're going through and snapping at each other a lot more than usual? Bonds getting corrupted and strained. Magnus hacking up black ooze while Merle tries to heal him and bring him back from the brink of permanent death after the Hunger got him and tried to overtake him directly? That's corruption baby lol

I'm sorry I said baby, that's not me, Griffin McElroy (I think? I honestly don't remember where I got that from) took me over and I couldn't fight it and don't feel like changing it lol

29. Favorite line/passage you wrote this year?

Oooohhhh that's a tough one. Um... I gotta skim what I wrote this year because there's a lot of good ones lol

Ugh, okay, I couldn't narrow it down, so it's all going under a cut lol

There's this bit from A Witness of Corruption (Though I really like how that whole conversation went down, and I think that's the best I've ever done balancing a conversation between more than two people, especially as many as seven people.):

Davenport puts both of his hands on the table and leans forward angrily, raising his voice slightly as he does so. “Magnus, as your friend and as your captain I cannot allow you to risk your neck to do this insane thing! I'm not going to let you get eaten by the Hunger, you can't!”

Magnus abruptly stands up from the table, knocking his chair backward as he slams a fist on the table. “And as someone who is sick and tired of fucking running, I'm not asking for your permission! Davenport.”

John experiencing eternity in The Man Who Became the Hunger:

“Show me,” John demands, getting angry now. “I need you to show me what you mean.”

As you insist.

His vision goes black for moment before it comes alive again as images fill his head.

First he sees an empty white space, but he has the feeling that he's not alone. There's people somewhere with him, but they seem to be in a direction he hasn't heard of yet. He doesn't have the time to think on that too long, however, because a white light, brighter than the surrounding blankness, flashes intensely in front of him, and he gets sucked into it.

Now he's floating in a vast sea of black filled with circles of different colors zipping around him and expanding outward very quickly. Eventually the circles begin to group themselves together, and as they do, white threads of light sprout from them and connect them with each other rapidly until there are so many threads between them, it makes it hard to see anything else. The circles in these groups begin to orbit each other faster and faster, and the groups become encased in balls of translucent silvery light. Then even more white threads sprout from these spheres and connect with other spheres all across the sea of black.

He zooms in again into one of these spheres and then into the middle circle that the other eleven circles are orbiting and then into a large cluster of galaxies, then into a smaller cluster of galaxies, then a single galaxy, part of the galaxy, then into a single nebula. He watches baby stars form and grow and die over and over again before he's whisked away to a baby solar system where rocks and gas collide as they orbit a baby star. Eventually everything settles to a few planets and asteroid belts, and he's brought onto the surface of one planet where he watches life begin to form and evolve and die over and over and over again until the star expands and consumes the planet entirely.

He's brought back out again to watch the star die before he's brought to another solar system where the cycle repeats itself. And then another and another and another. At one point, he flies out of the Material Plane and that reality entirely before he dives back into another reality to experience the same things over and over again. Then he's brought back out to witness the ever expanding existence as realities drift even further to fill up more space, and they seem to multiply as they do.

And the vision repeats with no end in sight. This is eternity. And as a part of it, John will have to exist, alive or dead, through the fullness of time, and it never stops. It never ends. And even if when he dies, his soul ceases to be, that would mean the end of him completely for forever and ever and ever, and he can't take that.

“Stop! Please, that's enough!”

The vision slows to a stop before slowly fading away, and John is back in his office again, his whole body shaking with fear and anger as he fights off tears. He breathes heavily and wipes at his eyes before he looks back over at the Light.

“Why would someone do this? Why would someone make this miracle without there being an end point? Why would they drag other people into it who don't want to get caught up in the entanglement of infinity?” he asks it with a trembling voice.

Because it is a miracle worth inventing. The Light says. Someone made my creator's existence, and they loved life and existence so much that they wanted to extend that joy of creation to others.

“They had no right,” John says, voice low and deadly. He grabs onto the armrests of his chair and grips them so tightly his knuckles turn white. “I want to meet them. I want to destroy them. Once everyone knows what they have done to us, they will all want that too.” He takes a breath to try and steady his voice. “How do we leave existence to confront this creator?”

The Light of Creation remains silent for a moment. I am built to be used for whatever my master's will is, so if you want to take me home to meet my creator and the creator of your existence, all you need is to say the word. We'll get the word out to everyone in this plane, and with my help, you will be able to lead a revolution that will lead to the destruction of existence itself.

“That is my plan,” John says, eyes narrowed and his heart pounding in his chest. “And I will destroy anything that gets in my way.”

John's final speech before turning into the Hunger:

“Thank you all for coming to meet me on this very important day,” John begins. “Last fall and throughout all of winter, I told you about the cruelty of the creators of existence and the laws and limitations they forced upon us without us knowing it. I told you about the weight and burden of eternity that we all must bear without having chosen to take on the burden ourselves. And I told you about my plan to find something bigger than those limitations and eternity can box us into. To break free from these bonds and chains that hold us down and force us to be compliant to these creators' will and not the wills of our own. To find these creators and overtake them and show them what it means to be oppressed by the laws and decisions that they had no say in creating. I come to you now on this day to tell you that today is that day. Today, we will begin our revolution and take our power back!”

The crowd erupts into uproarious applause, shouting, and cheering. A chant starts up from somewhere deep within the sea of people and spreads until everyone is shouting it together as loud as they can.

“TAKE IT BACK! TAKE IT BACK! TAKE IT BACK! TAKE IT BACK!”

John puts up a hand to quiet them again, and eventually the noise dies down.

“Today, the Light of Creation has told me that the bonds that make up this reality have weakened severely. This gives us an opportunity in which, with its help, the Light will transform our plane of existence into something new. Something with enough power to escape this reality and consume enough worlds to one day escape this existence and destroy the masters pulling the strings behind our suffering.”

As he talks, the sky begins to darken, and the grass and trees begin to wilt and turn gray. The colors in everyone's clothes and faces begin to drain away, and little strands of light of different colors appear in the spaces between people, showing their connections and bonds before they get pulled up and ripped away as they are sucked toward the platform.

John's heart hammers in his chest and his blood rushes in his ears as he holds up the Light above him for all to see. The Light grows brighter as the bonds get sucked into it, and it begins to emit ribbons of bright red, blue, green, and golden light that travel through the air, weaving around each other and spreading outward to reach through the entire plane.

“On this day, February 26th, 3074 AW, we begin our march across existence.”

The world rapidly begins to turn inky black as more bonds are sucked into the Light, and the people, including John, turn as dark as the darkest shadows too.

“On this day, we begin the end of existence itself!”

And for wip quotes:

The last exchange between Kravitz and one of his bounties:

“Alright,” she says, rolling her eyes as he laughs. She laughs too, and it takes them a few moments to calm down. When they do though, the smile slips off her face, and she looks at him seriously. “Kravitz, before I die– or, leave this vessel I guess, I need you to do me a favor.”

He raises an eyebrow. “I mean, I probably already broke like a hundred different rules by gambling with my job and getting this information, but sure, I guess.”

She smiles a little. “It's nothing too big.” She pauses for a second, and her gaze gets kind of far away. “When you hunt your other bounties in the future, please show them the same kindness you gave me. I would have been a lot more at peace with my death, I think, had I had someone to play one last game of baccarat with me or just showed me I didn't have to do this alone. That I wasn't just another soul to be herded like cattle into the sea of sheep.”

Kravitz's expression goes soft, and her eyes focus back in on him as she smiles a little sadly again. “I promise I will, Annamarie.”

She nods and stands up from the couch. “I guess it's time for me to go to bed one last time. Will you be there with me while I go?”

Kravitz nods. “Of course.”

She leads him into Luna's bedroom and lays down in her bed. Kravitz helps pull the blankets over her and tucks her in, and Annamarie smiles up at him one last time before she closes her eyes.

A small white light floats out of Luna's chest, and she gasps before her breathing settles down back to a steady, slow rhythm. Kravitz catches Annamarie's light and gently places her in his soul bag. Then, as Luna starts to wake up again, he brings out his scythe, tears open a new rift, and steps through it back to the Astral Plane.

The end of the conversation between Kravitz and the Raven Queen before he leaves to hunt down his lich mother alone:

“Using multiple spheres is a waste of resources, but I'll keep the idea of extending the time the field would be up in mind,” the Raven Queen says. “However, that does not change the fact that I will not allow you to go after her.”

“What if I offered you a deal?” Kravitz tries desperately. “I'll stake my job on this. If I bring her in, I bring her in, but if not, you can fire me or put me back in the Stockade. That's how sure I am that I can do this. Please, I'd do anything.”

The Raven Queen stands up to her full height, and she adopts a much sterner voice. “Kravitz, I'm not going to say this again. I don't need you to stake your job on anything, and I'm not going to throw you in the Stockade. I also, will not, let you go after her, and my decision is final.”

Kravitz blinks back angry tears and clenches his fists at his sides. Fine.

“Now, tell me where I can find Jaclyn, and I'll send a team of Reapers there immediately.”

He hesitates. “She's in a small town by the Sword Mountains. The new mining village that popped up called Phandalin.”

The Raven Queen stares him down, and he stares at her right back. Then she sighs and sits back down in her chair. “Thank you for your honesty.”

That one simple sentence jams a knife of guilt in his constructed heart that he largely tries to ignore. “Can I have the rest of the day off? I... don't think I'll be able to concentrate on any new missions while I'm still upset.”

She looks at him for a long time. “I suppose you can.”

He does a short bow. “Thank you, my queen.”

He makes it halfway across the room before she stops him one more time. “Kravitz?”

He turns to look at her questioningly.

“If you find yourself in need of... company, I'll make sure Thune and Nokal are free for the rest of the night.”

Kravitz swallows the sudden lump in his throat. “Thank you.”

The Raven Queen nods.

And Kravitz briskly makes his way to the supply room.

And this scene from Double Troubles alskghsldgkhsdgldkhs:

The four of them make it into the train station and walk up to the ticket counter where a human man is sitting reading a newspaper. He lowers the paper as they approach, and Meadow does a double take when he sees who it is.

“Hello! Are you here to pick up tickets or to buy–”

“Tom Bodett?” Meadow asks incredulously.

“Yeah,” Tom says slowly as he sits up a little straighter. “How did you know my name?”

“We were just with you at your house doing a sprinkler party!” Merle says. “How the hell did you make it here before we did?”

“At my– Oh! I see what's going on here. You must have met Tom Bodett the Narratively Convenient.” Tom says with a smile. “He really likes materializing in the vicinity of people who need him. I'm not him though. My full name and title is Tom Bodett the Booking Clerk! Despite my title, I also give people their reserved tickets too if they bought train tickets in advance.”

The four of them stare at him for a second before Taako covers his mouth with his hand as he snorts, Merle does a mixture of a snort and clearing his throat, and Magnus and Meadow look at each other before they quickly look away as they cough.

“So you two have titles huh?” Taako asks with a strained voice. “Couldn't separate the two of you without having that kind of distinction?”

“Well, yeah!” Tom the Booking Clerk says like it's the most obvious thing in the world. “This whole town is full of clones of Tom Bodett the Original, so we all needed titles to be able to tell each other apart.”

Meadow coughs again and bites down on their lip hard. They cannot laugh. That would be extremely rude.

“Anyway, are you four here to buy tickets, or do you already have some reserved?” Tom asks.

“Uh, yes! I'm here to pick up my ticket!” Merle says. “It should be under Leeman Kessler.”

“Oh, yes, Leeman Kessler! I believe we're also holding some cargo for you, give me just a second.”

Tom ducks his head under his desk and pulls out a shimmering, platinum-esque ticket. He slides it under the teller window for Merle to grab. “Here you are, Leeman, and are these three going with you?” he asks as he gestures to Meadow, Magnus, and Taako.

“Uh, yes! These are my retainers, Bo,” Merle points at Taako, “Diddly,” he points at Magnus, “and–”

Taako steps on Merle's foot. “I'm Leon Kessler!”

Merle winces and glares up at him as Tom blinks at him slowly. “You're Leon Kessler?”

“Yes! He's– he spells his name with two– with an O! 'Cause he's Leon, and he's my twin brother–” Merle babbles, but Tom interrupts him.

“You're twins? But... you're a dwarf, and he's... an elf.”

“Twin brother-in-law,” Meadow quickly corrects. “Leeman married Leon's twin, so they're in laws.”

Tom looks at him in confusion. “So... are you his twin?”

Meadow lets out a disbelieving nervous laugh. “What? No! I mean, I know I look more like an elf than other half-elves do, but I'm not an– yeah, I'm not related to any of–”

“He's adopted!” Merle says quickly.

“Yes, I'm adopted,” Meadow agrees.

“By... Leeman and his... spouse?” Tom asks, looking between all of them.

Is Merle old enough to be Meadow's dad? Meadow is 34, but he doesn't know how old Merle is.

“Cousins,” Meadow says in a panicked, strained voice.

“Yes, they were adopted into the family as a cousin!” Magnus says. “And so was I! I'm Diddly Kessler!”

“Okay,” Tom says slowly. “So, you're cousins with– wait, what's your name?” he asks Meadow.

Meadow freezes. “Uhhh...”

“Tom, I'm so sorry, but I lied,” Taako says as he attempts to hide a snicker.

“You lied about being his brother-in-law? Or–”

“Oh no! I'm his brother-in-law for sure, but I lied about my name! My real name is Flan Bodett!”

“Alright,” Tom says as he folds his arms across his chest. “I really hope this isn't a ruse you're all trying to pull on me–”

“No...” Magnus cuts in, but Tom continues over him.

“Because that would be extremely bad, and you're all not even doing a very good job at it, so we're going to try this again.”

He points at Merle. “You're obviously Leeman Kessler.”

Merle nods. “Yes, that's me!”

Tom points to Magnus. “You... You're name is...”

“Yes?” Magnus asks with a smirk.

Merle elbows him slightly. “Come on, Leroy! Tell–”

“No no no! I'm Diddly Kessler!” Magnus says, trying not to laugh. “I was brought into the family with Leeman's wife whose name is...”

“Chalupaa!” Taako says. “My sister's name is Chalupaa Kessler!”

“Right.” It's barely 10am and Tom already looks exhausted. “And your name is...?”

Taako puts his hands on his hips and gives him a shit eating grin. “Justin.”

Tom puts his face in his hands as Meadow brightens up and stands a little straighter.

“And my name is Phoenix!” Meadow says triumphantly.

Nailed it.

Tom looks up at them between his fingers before he sighs and brings his hands down. “I'm sorry, but I'm going to need you all to wait right here–”

As he reaches to the side for a Stone of Farspeech, Taako whips out his umbrastaff and waves it back and forth a little in a zigzag motion as he says an incantation, and then the tip of his staff glows pink at the same time as Tom's eyes glow pink for a second before it fades, leaving him looking dazed.

“So Tom, about those tickets?” Taako asks with a small smirk.

“Oh yeah! Of course! Anything for you, Justin; I'm just... so charmed by you.” he says dreamily.

“Oh, Justin! We have tickets though!” Magnus says as he slaps his hand against his forehead. He takes the tickets out of his bag and shows them to Tom who nods with a smile.

“Alright, well, Leeman and friends, since you have a high security item stowed away in the safe on the train, it's my job to walk you through our security protocols before you board, so please give me a moment to get out of here...”

Tom stands up from his chair and walks out of the booth door before he gestures for them to follow him. “Please step this way, but first–” He looks thoughtful for a moment before he looks back at Taako. “Do you want a kiss?”

#in the last one; Chalupaa is also the name of Taako and Lup's aunt (which I stole from you lol) so that's why he remembered it #and Lup is rolling in her grave (see umbrastaff) at the idea of being married to Merle aslkghslgkshdglskh #thank you for sending this in!! :D #ask game #Double Troubles

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scuopsie · 2 years

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i usually keep my freak outs in the tags! rarely do i comment on the post directly in a reblog. i understand both sides though. for me, as a fic writer, i love feedback and reading someone’s thoughts. it doesn’t matter where they’re shared. this is the first time i’m hearing about accounts being blocked for this though. wow :o but valid. freedom to block whoever you want. i’m also not sure why i said reblogs specifically because sometimes i’ll make my own posts and end up talking to myself lol.

also, there’s definitely been a change with reblogging. it’s so evident and sad tbh. i’ve been on tumblr since 2014/15 and started writing fics in late 2016. however, i wrote for two other fandoms before discovering kpop, so i totally saw everything you said about interactions, discourse, huge accounts, relationships between mutuals etc, but in other spaces. it’s also interesting to read what you wrote about people heading to twitter. i’ve see the exact kind of posts you mentioned there, but i didn’t consider they might’ve left tumblr. the shift is also obvious when you see someone in your notifs who doesn’t have any reblogs. do you block those accounts? i never have, and idk if i should.

(that is another can of worms indeed. i used to be active on the shawn mendes side of tumblr (yikes lol🥴) and i remember feeling so intimidated by certain blogs. i feel that way a little bit now, but it’s no comparison to how it used to be)

cheers to all those anons. y’all amused the hell out of me. i still see some with similar energy these days… oh nostalgia

please... don't even get me started on fics... i never posted my fics on tumblr (onyl links to them) but even on Ao3 it's pretty much dead... if i didn't love writing so much I would never waste a second of my life writing with the number of feedback ppl nowadays give to ff authors. which is very little. yeah... some blogs were really weird about it. believe it or not one time a blog vague posted about me because I had tagged someone under their post (it was fantaken pics) and then they went on and on about how tagging ppl under their post messed with their notes. they were so rude... I ended up blocking them. like nope. i do not want that energy on my dash idc how many followers u have. but yeah personally I don't think that's something anyone really has the right to be mad about. this is a free website and people are free to do whatever they want (so long as it doesn't include any female body parts ofc *clown emoji*) and even if it mildly annoys me I never get that heated up over it and I definitely don't block bc of it slflsd

yeah I remember how intimidating big accounts used to be... and it feels like a lifetime ago when u think about it... maybe some people just... idk, grew out of the phase? I don't want to believe that ppl who used tumblr for years would move to twitter. it makes no sense. there are definitely people who just found other interests and left and thats normal. what's not normal is those people not being replaced... this stuff usually happens in a cycle. some people leave and some more join but I don't see anyone new around here. seriously, do u know a stan account who is new? literally everyone I know here has been here since I joined this fandom if not earlier.

edit: I forgot to answer to this one!!! abt empty blogs, I don’t usually check the blogs in my notes unless they look really sketcy (/are obv a p08n bot) but ive definitely seen blogs that are completely empty and even have the default icon and stuff. i usually leave them along and give them the benefit of the doubt. maybe they’re fans who don’t want to be active and post stuff and just want to consume and keep up with their faves.

#there's no way to know how many of ur followers are still active sadly #but i can confidently tell u that I got at least twice as much interaction last year when i had about half the amount of followers as now #if u go to my archive last year and filter 'ask' tag there will be A LOT of asks in each months archive #now? maybe 2-3 a month #and it's not like our ult aren't active #when i was a vixx stan blog vixx were active for about 2-3 months in totall in the 2 years i stanned them #and we still had a TON of interactions with our moots and the big accs #starlights would make content from old videos even when there wasn't any new content and we always had so much to make discourse about #monsta x too has so much content that if they stopped releasing content right now we'd still have years worth of content to talk about #they have SO MANY VARIETIES ITS INSANE #as i mentioned the other day i blame this on streaming culture too #people literally don't know how to have fun #they think everything they do has to in some way benefit the artist and that is so messed up #ask #anon

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OH !! That's exciting heh it's not everyday you see ppl interested in playing 12 but I'M ALL HERE FOR IT. Despite some things and few characters that can feel annoying at times, it's a final fantasy game so I'm sure you're going to like it. I'm made of final fantasy memories and so is my WOL so she's almost too heavily inspired by fran, because despite 12 not being like my top 3 ff, fran is my top 3 female character lol so I reeally recommend it!! The world building is actually really nice, and you will fall for like at least 50% of the main party (and despite what most ppl think, I do like vaan. He's just quirky dude and that's okay.) But yeah you really should give it a try!! Balthier was like one of my first video game crushes ever, so I'm not going to sit here and ignore your interest in this game!!! Go for it, I'm sure you will have a great time ♡

AND YEEEEESSSS ABOUT PRAE!! I adore the thought of WOL and Thancred being just like "oh she/he hot" at first but when Thancred/Lahabrea thing happens the WOL goes "oh shit why do I care that much?" And you cannot tell me Thancred isn't like starstruck for the first time when the WOL saves him in Prae. I adore the idea of him acting weird on the very first days after it bc he's still embarrassed lol but yeah, everything about how protect Thancred is actually speaks to me in a emotional level. He's also one of my faves, and I always think about his relationship with the Scions a lot and the thought of him caring so much for them vs starting to have feelings for the WOL has so much potential angst, I love it. He lost so much and all he has now is them, he couldn't really bear to make a mistake of loosing her too you know??? IDK I JUST LOVE EVERYTHING ABOUT IT. And when u play ffxii, think of them when you meet fran and balthier would you? It's the sole image of power duo I hope him and my WOL has — even before being together. I went for a whole ass essay there but I just love them a lot, and IN MY DEFENSE, I picked the gunblade before Thancred. Because, like I said, me and my WOL are made of final fantasy memories so I saw something that reminded me of ffviii and I had to. So yup !! I main gunbreaker just like that mf, and they are a very happy gunbreaker couple tyvm (in case u didn't know, I was the one that sent u the hades ex ask few days ago!! I walk around proudly with my odune dude!!)

Also I woud LOVE to show you my WOL, she's my pride and joy and VERY similar to Fran but you should expect heh I'm kinda shy to post her on tumblr tho 👉👈 mostly bc I'm not the most gposer person ever hahah so I only have in game screenshots! I can sent u them in a separated ask tho if you'd like !! Together with another ask ofc lol and then you can answer just the one without the images so I don't expose too much of it lmao

And just for the record: your feelings with Thancred is exactly how I feel about Estinien. He's a good boy and everything you talk about ur WOL and him I just go "yes, he deserves it." Because *taps estinien's back* this bad boy can fill so much love in it!!

From what I saw here it looks like ff12 has a medieval setting and the animations look so beautiful too. I will definitely try it if manage to get it on sale. I love games with good stories and well written characters.

It seems like you really found the ONE for your Warrior of Light considering how you have lots of thoughts about both of them dfghfjdkf. I really feel happy for you. And I agree with your points about Thancred we saw how much he cares about his loved ones after the Ifrit questline, how much he regrets not being there with the Warrior of Light... After that, the game always separates both of them -Lahabrea possessing him, bloody banquet, Thancred staying behind when the Warrior of Light leaves for Ala Mhigo AND he is the first Scion that Exarch pulls into the First-

Also, both of them being GNB is so cool because after you send this ask I searched how Thancred learned to be a GNB, and Our job master Radovan's friend taught him??!!! IT IS SO ROMANTIC IF YOU ASK ME. Both of them teaching their art to this power couple and their legacy passing to your Warrior of Light and Thancred...

And I understand you perfectly about not wanting to show your Warrior of Light to everyone. I won't answer that ask if you would send me a picture of her and delete it after looking. And thanks for your Hades EX ask too. I might do that trial soon and get my own Odune or Eleos. Wish me luck (I have none when it comes to drops in this game)

#i will definitely think about them when i am playing ff12 anon #shb spoilers #shadowbringers spoilers #stormblood spoilers

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starylust · 3 years

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Do Your Best Atsumu☺

✧ M I Y A A T S U M U ✧

genre: fluff duhhh

WORD COUNT: 927

atsumu is up next to serve. he needs the crowd as quiet as possible to concentre on his serves. he raises his hand indicating for the noise to silence. what happens when your screams echo throughout the gym when it was suppose to be filled with silence?

The loud roars coming from the crowds echoed throughout the gym.

Standing by the railing on the bleachers you watched the Inarizaki team had just scored a point.

The drummers drumming created a vibration you felt on your feet. The spirit you felt from everyone around you was so bright and energizing.

Miya Atsumu was up next to serve as everyone in the crowds cheered loudly. Atsumu was handed the ball as he took six steps away from the serving line.

Getting to the spot he needed to Atsumu raised his hand and formed a fist. The loud roars and drums went completely silent after his hand raised.

Taking the moment in Atsumu dribbled the ball a couple times. You were still standing by the railings as you remembered what Atsumu had told you before hand.

'Cheer for me and scream my name as loud as you can.'

You took a deep breath in as you bent over the railing a little bit. Taking your hands you cupped around your mouth to make sure Atsumu would be able to hear you.

"DO YOUR BEST ATSUMU," you yelled as loud as you could.

Everyone in the crowds looked at you and each other with such confusion on their faces. They wondered why you would ever do something like that when Atsumu made it clear that he wants everyone quiet when he serves.

Gasps came from each sides of the gym as more eyes began to gaze at you.

You didn't think much of it as it was Atsumu's instructions for you to do but no one else knew that.

Atsumu tossed the ball up and did he approach for spike serve. He has a confident smirk wanting to impress you with the best serve he was going to perform that night.

His serve sore through the air in such fast speed no one could comprehend what was going on.

Barely hitting the line of the right side of the other court cheers roared once again as he just got a service ace for Inarizaki team.

The game went on as normal with each team scoring points here and there. You stared at Atsumu and loved the look of concentration on his face.

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You were standing outside the gym waiting for Atsumu to get out of the locker rooms. Inarizaki won 2-1 winning the last set with 25-18.

Eyes lingered on you as everyone remembered you as the girl who screamed during Atsumu's serve.

The boys from the other volleyball team were eyeing you as you were just standing there waiting.

You were wearing Atsumu's other jersey with light blue ripped mom jeans. You were on your phone as you looked up to see if you could spot anyone on the Inarizaki team.

Wondering what was taking this so long you felt a pair of arms wrap around your torso. At first you panicked thinking a random person came up to you but relaxed when you realized it was Atsumu.

He let you go so you could turn around and face him. In a swift move you were now facing him and see an adorable smile of his face.

His arms wrapped around your torso once more as you put your arms around his neck.

"Good job today Tsumie," you said into his ear.

"Well thank you love. Did you see that serve I did for you?"

"Yes, you were so cool," you said while smiling. You both let go from the hug and Atsumu bent down to your eye level to look at you.

"I was the best player out there don't you think?" He said with a cocky smile on.

"Hm I actually think Osamu did pretty good," you said teasingly.

Atsumu scoffed while bringing his hand to his heart. "Ouch," he said forming a big frown on his face. He was now looking at the floor while still frowning.

You brought your hand to cup the left side of his cheek to bring his gaze back up to you.

"Joking Tsumie of course you're the best. You always the best." You saw a big goofy smile form on his face.

You pinched his cheek lightly and pulled on it before letting it go.

"Ouch that hurt," Atsumu said teasingly. He brought his two hands to meet both sides of your cheeks.

You closed your eyes preparing for him to pinch your cheeks as well but a few seconds passed and nothing happened.

You opened your eyes and saw him extremely close to your face.

"Hi beautiful," he said softly. Staring at your face so up close he loved admiring how beautiful you were. He swore he could've stared at you forever and never find a single flaw on your face.

"Stop staring babe you're making me nervous," you said while pouting a bit.

"I'm just admiring how gorgeous you are princess."

After he said that you swore there were actual butterflies in your stomach while your heart fluttered.

Staying quiet for bit Atsumu noticed how you were getting shy with him after he said that.

You both were still staring into each others eyes as your foreheads touched each other.

Atsumu leaned in as you closed your eyes preparing for what as happening next.

He softly kissed your lips for a couple seconds before moving his face away. His lips were so soft you thought.

He moved to the right side of you tucking your hair behind your ear.

"Thank you for cheering me on today baby, even if you did get weird stares from the crowds," Atsumu said chuckling quietly into your ear.

. ⋅ ˚̣- : ✧ : – ⭒ ⊹ ⭒ – : ✧ : -˚̣⋅ .

hi loves! i wanted to let everyone know i got the inspo for this from @luvbub on tumblr from her "atsumu being a softie" post! i know this story is a bit like oikawa's but i wanted to do something relate to how atsumu like the crowd quiet while serving but he loves you so much he will want you to be loud during his serves yk?

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#atsumu miya #miya atsumu x reader #miya atsumu x reader fluff #miya twins #atsumu x reader #atsumu x reader fluff #atsumu fluff #atsumu x female reader #atsumu serve #haikyuu fluff #haikyuu x reader fluff #haikyuu x reader #haikyuu atsumu

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forsworned · 3 years

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[✩] collegeau!anonymous admirer. {moniwa kaname x reader}

Genre: Fluff

Categories: F/M

Relationships: Moniwa Kaname/Reader

Word count: 1,412

a/n: hello dropping another oldie while i work on request, should b a student genya x reader that i got from ao3 but just a reminder that i don't do underage nsfw or anything nsfw or sexy themed cuz that's extremely weird, but if you wanna drop a request in my inbox please b sure to read my faq thanx

Every morning you'd wake up and check your tumblr to have a little message in your inbox from the seemingly same anon with a cute pick-up line. At first you thought that maybe you had reblogged something along the lines of "fill my ask", but it started to become a routine. It was never anything raunchy or lewd, just cheesy, cute one-liners that'd make you smile to yourself. Though, you had really appreciate whoever was sending them to you, you were starting to get really curious. Who could they be? Someone thousands of miles away or just around your area? It was hard to decide. You sighed as you shut down your laptop and slid it under your bed. You really shouldn't have been on your laptop at such a late hour. Finals week started tomorrow and you were beyond nervous. Sure you had studied but you always felt a bit on the edge during these five days. The thought of your anonymous admirer was the last thing on your mind before you drifted off to sleep. At least, they'll keep me positive throughout the week.

But you were wrong. It had been five days. Five days your inbox had been empty. Five days since they had last messaged you and you were actually beginning to feel a bit upset. Had something happened to them? Had you reblogged or posted something that they found offensive and possibly unfollowed you for it? You let out a groan as you spread your arms across your mattress and lay flat against your back. At least finals week was finally over and you could relax. Your phone made a small noise and you reached over your dresser to check whatever the notification you had just received. You almost jumped for joy when you had saw that you got a message on tumblr. Quickly logging on from your laptop, you clicked on your inbox, though it had a similar choice in pick-up lines it wasn't your typical anon. It was... "k-name?" You voiced aloud as your face scrunched in confusion. But then it hit you. You could finally find out who your anon admirer was! Your heart raced as you clicked on the icon and revealed the mystery person's blog. There wasn't much information, just a small quote on the bio: "Forever an Iron Wall" Hmm... That sounded a bit familiar. As you racked your brain for something that could connect to the quote, you hovered over the links and found the appearance link. Jackpot. Hurriedly, you had clicked on it but it was as if your laptop sensed your urgency and wanted to fuck with you because it was loading insanely slow. "C'mon you slow piece of shit." You muttered to yourself. A few agonizingly slow moments later, the page had finally loaded and your mouth dropped as you laid eyes on him. "Mo-moniwa Kaname?!" You exclaimed. Your face nearly burst into flames as you threw yourself back onto your bed and raked your hands through your hair, shaking your head in disbelief. No way, it just couldn't be him. You were dreaming. Getting back up again you scrolled through the many photos he had posted. Most of them with his teammates and some shots of him throwing the ball up into the air. Moniwa had been someone you admired from afar. His spirit and gentle personality is what attracted you to him, but being the shy person you were, you never approached him. You went back to your inbox and read over the pick-up line. How was heaven when you left it? And there is was again, that overwhelming feeling in the pit of your stomach whenever you saw him or were anywhere around him. How would you even begin to reply? You fingers hesitated over your keyboard before you hastily replied. Heaven is anywhere you are You slightly cringed at how cliche that sounded, but as you tried to click on the text box to undo it your mousepad had acted a bit out of sorts and pressed on the answer privately button. Oh shit. "NO!" You exclaimed, as you slapped your face and fell onto your side. What have you done?! Now you really ruined any chance you possibly had with your crush. That night it was safe to say that you didn't get much of any sleep.

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Waking up you felt as if you hadn't even fallen asleep at all. Your mind was murky as you washed up, dressed and got onto your campus shuttle. As you plopped onto the seat, you let out a small groan as your threw you head back and stared up at the ceiling of the moving train. "No sleep?" The voice resonated in your ears and you took a moment before you turned to the stranger. Though your reaction was delayed, you could barely believe who was seated right next to you at that very moment. "Mo-moniwa-san?!" You near shrieked, as you stood up straight and looked at him with ample eyes. His cheeks were tinged a rosy hue as he bit back a laugh. You turned a few grouchy college student heads due to your random outburst and you sulked a bit as you felt your cheeks warm. "I-I mean, weird seeing you here..." "Really? We've been riding the same train for the past three months." He replied. Your attention now fully on him as he looked down at the floor, expression slightly saddened. Had it upset him that you never noticed him on the same train as you? Well, of course you idiot. Who wouldn't be upset? He laughed a bit as he looked out the train window and you tilted your head to the side in confusion. "I mean, I guess that makes sense since I'm probably overshadowed by much better looking guys." He sighed and rest his palm on his chin as he wandered through his thoughts. "That's ridiculous." You said a bit too quickly. His feline like eyes shifted towards you and you gulped a bit as you continued on. The morning sunlight shone on his form, giving him a celestial glow and your lips parted in as you gawked at him in pure awe. Your mouth moving with your mind. "Heaven is anywhere with you." His breath seized as he realized what you had spoken and you clamped your mouth shut. The train had come to a stop and you grabbed your belongings and rushed through the doors. Shit. Shit. Shit. Had you really just fucking said that?! A far but audible, "hey!" could be heard though you didn't stop. A hand on your shoulder had given you quite a fright as your whole body tensed. Damn, you thought you had outrun him... "Hey..." He breathed out. You turned around seeing Moniwa out of breath, body slumped over as he let his arms fall to his side. "Jeez you run quick." He straightened up with one eye squinting as he looked up at you, as the sun beat down on him. "Aren't you part of the volleyball team?" You blurted. He chuckled. "Used to be. I'm getting out of shape. But damn, this is just ridiculous..." He mumbled the last part as he felt himself starting to regain his composure. "What you said earlier though," The blood rushed to your cheeks as you felt yourself shift uncomfortably under his gaze. "Uh, u-um--you started it with the cheesy, cute pick-up lines! And then you stopped for five days and it--damn it--was surprisingly pretty hard getting through finals week without having you send a dumb one-liner. I mean, at least I had something to look forward to." His eyebrows raised and his mouth open ready to utter a word, though he's speechless. Had he really developed that affect on you? "But--but they were so terrible I thought I--" You nervously scratched your cheek. "Well, yeah, but I really liked them. It made sense though, why you stopped. Our finals meant a lot more than just a meaningless message a day. I'll just be going now." You finalized and began to walk toward your campus, but he caught your wrist in time and you turned to meet his gaze. "You don't mean that." He spoke. "I don't." You replied, not bothering to hide your smile. A small pause before you spoke up again. "Let's talk about it over coffee, yeah?"

A large grin now on his face as he nodded. "I'd like that."

#moniwa kaname #hq moniwa #haikyuu moniwa #moniwa x reader #moniwa kaname x reader #hq!! x y/n #hq!!#hq!! imagines #haikyuu!!#haikyuu x reader #haikyuu imagines #haikyuu x you #haikyu x reader #haikyū!!#anime insert

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lemonadebloodsworld · 4 years

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Tw: ED (??), sh, depression, suicidal thoughts, abuse (??)

So yeah,

It feels weird to come back here even if it's a more recent account. The first time I made a tumblr account was when I was 13 and back then I was already really depressed because of trauma, my relationship with my parents and the fact that they were always saying that I faked being depressed and was just being dramatic and other shitty stuff.

Back then they thought I was a gay girl too but yeah I'm a bi trans boy and it makes everything so damn harder because everytime I try to talk about my mental health my mom just says that it's JUST because I'm trans and I should just be patient and wait to be 18 to start a transition while yes, dysphoria and the fact that my family isn't really supportive make me sad but my mental health has been getting so damn bad.

I've never really been a happy child, my parents divorced when I was 3-4, my mom found my stepdad who has always been an asshole to me and my little brother because we are not his "real" kids and would always yell at us and hit my brother and my mom has always been depressive and mentally ill (Ed, depression and trauma) so she is scared of him ig, anyways, she just never said anything about it, even when she noticed that we were really scared of him.

My bio father was supposed to take us at his place every weekend but after a year he stopped coming and dissappeared for 9 years. At the same time I started to get bullied at school by older kids and some kids in my class and I didn't have any friends because it was a shame for them to be friend with me.

At 11, I have been sexually assaulted by an older kid (he was 15 or something) leaving me with trauma.

At 12 I changed school and found friends, I was so unused to it and ashamed of my past that I spent my time lying to them so they'll like me and think I'm cool, I also started to smoke and drink in secret because I felt so much pain and the intrusive thoughts started to get loud.

At 13 my bio dad came back in my life because he owed a lot of money to my mom and wanted to use us to make my mom feel bad about it. I started self-harming lightly and depression started to settle in but I wasn't really understanding what was going on because the "hypomanic" phases and intrusive thoughts were getting more present causing me to lose the only friends I had and yeah I just didn't understand what the hell was going on. I tried to talk about my mental health to my parents but they told me that I was being dramatic and it's a normal thing to feel bad because I was an adolescent and questioning my identity (I came out as a lesbian back at this time) and decided to just punish me and take my phone away because I was spending too much time alone in my room and didn't do the chores.

At 14 I started to have a lot of anxiety and panic attacks while being in depressive episodes, I started an ed (feeling shameful for eating even a little amount of anything and purging, I don't want to give it any name because I have been diagnosed and yeah), I also began to self-harm more and deeper (still not bad, I don't want to lie for that type of stuff xd), I broke down one day and told everything to my parents (sh, depressive tendencies, smoke, suicidal thoughts etc) and once again they were like "yeah nah it can't be that bad, you just lie to have attention and have an excuse to stay in your room and just being stupid" but my mom saw my arms and thights and then was okay for me to go see a psychologist. So for a year I had the opportunity to talk with a professional who was really amazing, she prescribed me light sleep pills because of my insomnia while in depressive episodes and "hypomanic" (don't have a diagnosis but I have all the symptoms but then again I don't want to self diagnose because it could be wrong and be something else) ones but my mom always refused to give them to me. At the end of the year she wanted an appointment with my mom to talk about my mental health and the importance for me to go see a therapist to be diagnosed (bipolar disorder 2 (she was still questioning it) , anxiety disorder and depression or whatever, she just wanted me to have the help I needed) but then again my mom said no because I was surely just faking it all and I just had to make efforts to be happy. I was so tired of everything and just wanted to feel better so I started to steal my mom depression medication (mostly Xanax and calming pills).

At 15 I met my first serious girlfriend, I fell in love so hard with her and for the first month she really helped me to stop sh, pills, drinking and everything was great until she started to verbally abuse me using my dysphoria and fragile subjects I told her about (she would say that I'm annoying and selfish for always feeling bad and that u was too sensitive and not a real boy if I cried) once I wasn't agreeing with her, slap and hit me if I said something she wasn't okay with or when I would have anxiety attacks or talk to her about my suicidal thoughts while in depressive episodes and yeah she used me like if I was a dog, if she wanted something or think in some way I would have to give her or do whatever she wanted or I would get threatened, insulted or ignored for a long time or other icky stuff. After 6 months of making me feel guilty for not letting her touch me in a sexual way she one day decided to start taking advantage of me while I wasn't in the appropriate head space or without my consent and then making fun of my body and making comments about the way I look. She in fact, made me really anxious and feel bad and it made me start to binge eat, at the end of the year my weight was 78 kg, before our relationship I was 59 kg, people noticed it but just told me to stop eating and go on a diet.

At 17 (this year) I finally broke up even if she asked me to do it because she didn't want to be seen as the mean one for letting me while I was clearly depressed. It was hard but I could finally meet new people or get back with people she didn't wanted me to talk to (especially my amazing actual partner and my bestfriend) who helped me a lot realizing all the shit she did to me and they have been amazing at making me feel loved and cared for and to be honest I don't think I would be there if they weren't in my life right now.

Now my mental health is just fucked. Like I said when I broke up with my abusive ex I had gained almost 20 kg and it reminded me all the bully I've been through as a kid (they most of the time used the fact I was overweight to bully me) so I started to starve myself or purge if I felt like I ate too much (I started to count calories) I was at 78 kg at the start and in 2 weeks I was at 65kg, it was during quarantine so i didn't have any friend or people noticing what I was doing or see me fainting. I started to drink almost everyday and smoke a lot.

In June I got in a relationship with my actual partner and to be honest it's the only good point I can find this year. They (genderfluid) are an angel and I just don't know what I would do without them, they help me a lot even if they are struggling with mental illness themself and anyone has ever cared for me and made me feel so loved before. Today it's been 4 months officially and it makes me feel happy and I just want it to never stop. My mental health is at its worst, I've been having a lot of intrusive thoughts, i have a self destructive comportement, in September I started to sh again (a lot deeper) after 2 years clean, I often call them in the middle of the night (well in the middle of the day for them cause I'm in Belgium and they are in Texas) because of really bad dreams and suicidal thoughts, I am bullied and made fun of by the people in my class for being trans and having a different style (alt-grunge), I barely eat or purge if I try to have a meal, I have these "hypomanic" phases that make me getting really angry at nothing and do a lot of stupid shit because I feel invincible and better than anyone, almost godly and yet they never made me feel like I was a burden or like I should just stfu or like I was being dramatic and they are actually the first person believing me and not saying I fake everything.

I am struggling and it becomes so damn hard to live but I will do my best not to give up and just keep on fighting for them and maybe try to recover and seek for help when I turn 18. I already try to make little steps and stop self harming, drinking too much energy drink XDD so yeah let's just try and be positive I guess.

Sorry its actually so damn long hhh I don't even know if i will post It one day or keep it as a draft eheh I hate venting

#ed vent #vent text #tw depressing stuff #tw eating stuff #trauma #ventcore #traumacore #long ass rant #tw self destruction #self harrrm #tw self destructive behavior

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odissey061 · 5 years

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Tag: @humi-and-co

After a mounth I finally did it! Here u the first chapter of my fanfiction. I suggest you to read first some headcanon about him (so you can understand him better):

1) Scroll down my works (I'm an idiot unable to create Tumblr link)

2) my Ao3 works

Chapter 1: This freak won't have me!

Fandom: Ikemen Sengoku

Pairing: Motonari x reader

Words: +1k

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Suddenly I found myself in a burning temple. I looked around to find a way to escape when and I saw a sleeping man. Another person got closer to him, holding a blade in his hand and I screamed scared, waking him up. As the other man vanished, I took his hand and we escaped safely through the flames and the toxic smoke. Once out he started to say weird things like he was Oda Nobunaga, the one who reunited all the Japan under his rule and we were in the 1582. A few second later three men showed up and they introduced themself as others storical figures: Ishida Mitsunari, Toyomi Hideyoshi and Akechi Mitsuhide. The man I saved proposed me to become his mistress while he conquered the all the Country and I refused, but he didn't excepted it, so I ran away. He looked really determinated to keep me with him, even against my will.

Nope, this is not going to happen: I won't become the lucky charm of this freak. He won't have me so easyly.

I was really confused by the events: they presented themself as storical characters, the clothes were really similar to samurai's ones and the way they behaved (expecially the one I saved) wasn't proper of a modern man.

This is must to be a joke! I can't actually be in Sengoku period, not the day Oda Nobunaga died. I didn't go in the past!

But what otherwise what happened? I was in front of Honno-ji, where Oda Nobunaga died, the time I blinked and I found myself inside the burning temple. This wasn't a joke: for how much this could be absurd, I was five hundreds years earlier, in the place and the day in which Oda Nobunaga died and the sudden reality hit me in the face: saving Nobunaga I changed the history! I only hoped the damage wasn't huge as I thought. I also and Mitsuhide Akechi, the one who was supposed to be the traitor. Yet he wasn't the man who tried to stab Nobunaga inside the temple: the man was thicker and he had a really different aspect. But mayby Mitsuhide commissioned the murder and he presented himself to dispel all suspicions. Or mayby the history was wrong. Whatever it was, it wasn't a my concern: I wanted to come back in my time! I was so focused on my thought that I didn't see the man in front of me and I collided against him, making falling both of us on the ground. I was on him with my hand on his chest and with the moonlight moonlight I gazed at him. He was tall and his skin was kissed by the sun, his bloody eyes were in contrast with the white hair, and he wore occidental clothes. As he pushed me away, I smelled a salty scent. I drew back a little bit scared: his bloody eyes glared at me with hate and annoy and it looked like he wanted kill me, just because I collided against him. I apologised immediatly:"Sorry, it wasn't my intention hurt you. I just... Ran away". But he wasn't going to change his expression. I heard Nobunaga's voice, commanding to his subordinates to find me, and I added:"Sorry but I have to go. I'll see you another time". But before I could escape again, he smiled:"I'm sorry if I was rude earlier, but I dislike being touched. I'd like talk with you more, but It seems to me that you have to go. I promise we meet again, princess". He said a little bit ironically "princess", but I accepted his apologise.

I wake from my dream and I find myself in my room in Azuchi's castle. From that day it has been week and a lot of things happened. After I met other four people and one of them was the guy who came from my same time, Sasuke and then Mitsuhide found me and brought me in Azuchi castle. It has been a council between the Oda forces who decided to keep me with them (someone among them thought I was an enemy spy and wanted kill me). I greeted other men, Ieyasu Tokugawa, the spicy porcupine, and Masamune Date, the flirty man with a eyepach.

I'm going to leave my room to go to my first war concil about the attempt to kill Nobunaga, but the ceiling makes strange rumors and I immediatly reconize who his. "Hi Sasuke" I smile at him and he says hello too. "I came here to warning you: really soon a battle is going to start. It'll be really big and probably you won't be safe in this castle, so I suggest you to find a warlord able to protect you" he says serious. Find a lord able to protect me, huh? This is more difficoult than it look. I mean: the first night Nobunaga tried to kiss me and proposed me to sleep with him; the second day Masamune did kabe-don and asked me to become his mistress; Hideyoshi is still suspiscious of me; Ieyasu don't like me, I suppose and Mitsuhide... Well, he's Mitsuhide, only this is a good reason to don't trust him. The most nice since I came here is Mitsunari, but can I ask him to protect me?

"Are you going to battle too, Sasuke?" I question worried for him, "I'm Kenshin's ninja, so yes" he responds; "Then be carefull, please" I beg. He promises me he'll be aware of the danger and he left me. In the council we discuss about the culprit's identity, but we walk in the dark. "That night I saw a lot of people around the temple but nobody looked like the man who tried to kill Nobunaga" I say as I play with my kimono's hem. "Who did you see (y/n)?" asks Mitsunari and I respond:"I met four men: one had mismatched eyes and blod hair, another one was really tall with brown hair and the last one looked like a teenager". "The Uesugi and Takeda force, mhmm? I don't think they are the culprit: after all why Kenshin should kill me in a such fool and codaward way? That's not like him" suggests Nobunaga and Mitsuhide says:"My lord, my scouts discovered that Shingen Takeda and Uesugi Kenshin made an alliance to defeat us", then he asks me:"Did you see other person that night, little mouse?". I grind my theet: I hate that nickname. "No. I don't remind anyone" I replay, forgetting the white haired man. "Do you want start a war against them, lord Nobunaga?" guesses Mitsunari, "Obviously, Mitsunari. They are one of the few that still oppose me and I have to crush them all to reunite the Japan" he ends and with this the war council is close. I'm going to leave, but Hideyoshi stops me:"I'm going to go in Azuchi to buy something, would you like to join me? I'd like talk with you" and I confirm perplexed:"With pleasure, Hideyoshi."

Posted on: 29/9/'19

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