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Loving comes easily to me and I’m honestly seething with rage that it is a piece of me that was almost completely killed. I know I would’ve gone with it.
I love picking flowers and taping them into my sketchbook, I love drawing things I’ll never think about again purely because I love the act of drawing, I love creating things that become massive projects and things that never pass the stage of notes in the borders, I love my dogs, I love it when they annoy the shit out of me because it means they’re here. I love clear skies and rainy ones. I love watching movies. I love going swimming. I love doing a good job and doing a bad job. I love doing a middle-of-the-road job. I love starting, I love ending. I love day dreaming. I love music. I love eating from the pan before the meal is even finished because I love what I’m cooking so much, it all ends up in the same place anyway. I love failing. Miserably, even. So horribly it feels like I’ll never recover but I always do. I let myself feel that feeling till it passes because all things do pass eventually. I love how I feel grief and I love how I feel hope.
My spark, the thing that keeps you warm when nothing else does, it was dead for I don’t know how long and now that I’m gently bringing it back to life I am genuinely awestruck that I survived how long I did completely without it. The inertia and muscle memory could only take me so far and I’m glad I collapsed into a heap when I did.
I think the scariest part was that it came so slowly and carefully that by the time I realised where I was, it felt so close to the end I didn’t know what to do. I think smothered is close to the right word, like my innate brightness could only be met with ‘why are you doing that? You shouldn’t do that?’ I’m only sort of beginning to understand what happened, it was slow, nit picky, and near disgust. A quiet ‘oh’ and then I made myself smaller. It was a cutting and minimising act pretending to be refinement and discernment.
I seethe. And I seethe and I seethe and I seethe. It’s a kind of seething that builds and erupts into laughter because I can’t believe how stupid it all is at the end of the day. I’m allowed to play my favourite songs and dance in the kitchen, more than that, I should play my favourite songs and dance in the kitchen. Each time I scrape together the energy to do something purely for fun I am rewarded tenfold with the energy to do it again and something else too.
If someone sees me dancing or laughing, or picking flowers, or being joyful, digging out happiness from between the cracks in the pavement and enjoying my limited time here, and their first act is to point, scoff, sneer, and say ‘wrong.’ I will burn them to the ground with how much I love being myself. I don’t want people who enjoy picking at the happiness of others like a scab to find me easy to be around.
It’s not been easy to recover. It hurts to pick myself up when I am an engine with no fuel but I’m lucky and have people around me who know how to fan my flames. That’s what makes it so easy, even when it’s not easy, is if you have people who know how help works for you. Luck is part of it too, a good breeze can carry you far, and I’ve learnt that to get a good breeze you need to be in places where there is wind. So I dragged myself, at times kicking and screaming, into the tree tops and valleys and I let preparation meet opportunity.
I’m relearning to trust myself. Not in a blind way, importantly. In the way that when I feel internal resistance and terror I’m able to hold myself and move in the direction that I know in my heart and mind is the right direction. Failure and success are both big changes and I need about the same level of self care to deal with either.
I am a warm person because I seek joy like I’m starving and now I find it everywhere. I am hard to kill because all things give me life. I will never let someone leer down at me and my uncomplicated contentment and scoff at me for it. Never again. My sketchbook is full of flowers, my belly is full of food, my heart is full of love and anger and grief. I am alive and learning how to be. All I am is a human, and my god, what a thing that is to be.
#rant#brain dump#word vomit#my own thoughts#massive rant#the human condition#I got carried away#no idea what to make of these thoughts but they’ve been rattling around in my head SOOOOOO much#I had to get this into words#poetry#idk what to call this?#my post
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Zelda Ayla and link designs i made for a silly fan universe :^)
Zelda decided to change her name to ayla at the end! And link is a whole other story- (not an au btw!)
do not repost my art!
Reblogs ok!
#Onyx draws⭐️#loz fan design#Idk what to call this?#It’s not an au- its an entirely different link and Zelda#Loz#loz fanart#legend of Zelda#legend of Zelda fan design#My art#Link is a species that’s half dragon#And while yes he can transform to a hylian#He hates it
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EVERY SINGLE DAY there are MILLIONS of characters in their late 20s who get falsely accused of being father figures to teenagers when in reality the description of "weird older cousin" or "step-sibling that moved out before you were born" is 1000000x more apt
#talk tag#IT KILLS ME. REIGEN IS NOT MOB'S DAD. HE HAS A DAD. INGO IS NOT AKARI'S DAD. PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD CAN ANYONE HEAR ME#(not even necessarily to say that ingo is in his late 20s but still)#(even if he was a 30-40-50 year old no matter how old he is no fucking teenager is gonna call some guy they met as a 15 year old ''dad'')#GAI IS NOT A FATHER FIGURE TO ROCK LEE HE WAS LIKE 13 WHEN HE WAS BORN! PLEASE!!!!!!!!#one time i saw that a person wrote a fic where mario was like a father figure to luigi.#they are TWIN BROTHERS.#not what this about but idk where else i can say anything about this.#just horrible#also sometimes someone is just An Older Friend like no familial relationship just a friend or acquaintance who is a lot older than you
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anyone still remember this au idea I had? well I didnt (thats why it took so long) I wanted to do something with this au, so here :P
the next one :D
#goodtimeswithscar fanart#goodtimeswithscar#mumbo jumbo fanart#mumbo jumbo#grian fanart#grian#pearlescentmoon fanart#pearlescentmoon#tilly the dog#mcyt fanart#my art#Tilly the god au#idk what to call this au so im temp tagging it Tilly the god au bc dog backwards is god and I think that's funny
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she has no idea what just happened but she convinces herself it was the cruelest and most sadistic intentional prank anyone has ever pulled on her
#miraculous ladybug#miraculous#ml#ml paris#ml paris special#shadybug#toxinelle#claw noir#griffe noire#toxigriffe#shadyclaw#emonette#emoclaw#????????????#IDK WHAT EVIL MARICHAT IS CALLED#marichat#my art#ml spoilers#ml paris spoilers
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In front of the Journalists' Syndicate, Cairo, Egypt, on 15th January 2024.
The crowd chants:
مصر مشاركة في الحصار
معبر بيننا و بين اهالينا
الصهيوني متحكم فينا
طول ما الدم العربي رخيص
يسقط يسقط اي رئيس
عملوها احفاد مانديلا
و احنا فخوف و فعار و مزلة
عايزين المعبر مفتوح
Translation:
Egypt participates in this siege!
A crossing between us and our people!
Controlled by Zionists!
As long as Arab blood is seen as cheap,
Any and every president must fall!
Mandela's grandchildren have done it,
While we are seized by fear, shame, and humiliation!
We demand Rafah Crossing open!
#i wanted to say how huge this is#how we haven't had any act of open resistance to our regime in years and that i couldn't believe what i'm seeing#but i can't call it huge because it's the bare minimum#still. we haven't done the bare minimum in many years.#free palestine#idk if 'grandchildren' has any infantalizing connotations in english but he is saying it as an honor#maybe i should use descendant but i translated the man's words as accurately as possible and that's what he said
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Soap refuses to wear condoms, insists he's tracking your cycle and everything will be fine. Except when you text him: "Good news I got my period" and his immediate response is: "How's that good news?" you realize you misunderstood what he was tracking.
#cod x reader#x reader#john soap mactavish will try to baby trap you and I stand by that#he wants a big family and he want YOU#he's gonna make it happen#idk why he can't just do what Gaz does and date MILFs#soap mactavish smut#john soap mactavish#john mactavish x reader#soap mactavish x reader#soap mw2#soap call of duty#soap x reader
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by vhenan_virabelasan
original posts: x and x
#vhenanv#vhenan virabelasan#THEY ARE AMAZING!!!!!#click to enlarge#simon riley#simon ghost riley#cod#call of duty#cod mw2#cod mwii#cod mw3#cod mwiii#cod modern warfare#ghost#ghost cod#cod ghost#idk what else to add
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neuvillette is aware that he shouldn’t have let you get so close. but he did, and now he’s lamenting the fact that your hands are grasping at his soft horns — his fucking horns, of all places — and he might like it.
uptight and strait-laced, you’ve never known the chief justice to be someone so easily flustered. yet here he is with heat crawling up his neck, so warm that you can feel it against your palms as they ghost over his skin.
you can’t help but laugh at his current situation.
he was vehemently against you coming anywhere near his hair at first, grumbling about how his horns were on the sensitive side and he would rather not have to go into work feeling uncomfortably aware of their presence on his head.
however, you were hard to deny with that little smile on your face and such soft hands grabbing at his arms, tugging him closer. a sweet voice chanting, "please, honey? pretty please?"
neuvillette has never been good at denying you what you want.
it’s how he ends up sitting at your shared vanity. you comb through his long hair, watching him with amusement in the mirror as he huffs and jolts with every brush of your fingers against his horns.
the fact that he was letting you get anywhere near them was surely a testament to his trust in you. he was completely vulnerable here, at your mercy.
“sorry,” you mumble disingenuously, clearly enjoying seeing your usually serious husband falling apart with a simple action. you quickly tie off the end of his hair with a bow and he sighs in relief, thinking that the torment is over.
it's far from over.
he draws a sharp breath when you lean forward and press two gentle kisses on him; one on either side of his head just beside his horns.
neuvillette glowers at you in the reflection, disapproval written all over his face. "stop that," he scolds.
you do, but only because you're worried he might melt into a puddle before your very eyes if you continue.
it becomes a daily routine after that, with him sitting patiently in front of the mirror while you brush and tie off his hair. and you always end it the same way: two kisses, a soft "have a good day at work," murmured against him, and a mischievous little smile that makes him sigh.
he responds everyday with the same two words. "stop that," with a narrow-eyed glare.
the day you do stop, he's confused and irritated.
not only because you have the audacity to throw a wrench into routine again, which you know he hates, but also because he can't figure out why he misses your lips so much.
"what are you doing? i am going to be late."
"hm?" you peer up lazily from your spot on the bed, still half asleep.
"you have to do my hair."
"i thought you didn't want me to, so i slept in today."
your husband is eerily silent for a moment as he mulls over your words. then, he carefully perches himself on the edge of the bed, back turned to you expectantly and still wordless.
no, he would never admit he likes it just a little bit — the vulnerability, the trust, the feeling of your hands threading through his hair, the intimacy of it. hell no.
but neuvillette doesn't have to say a lot of things for you to understand; not when the way his skin heats up says it all; not when you're the first person to touch his horns in centuries; not when he’s saying stop that with such an affectionate glimmer in his eyes.
you give him four kisses that morning, two on either side.
© ALABOADOA 2023 — please do not translate or post my works to other platforms.
#— whispers in the wind ✧#not proofread i'm sorry#neuvillette my beloved my BELOVED my husband my lover my meow meow#he makes me insane#also idk if i would call those things on his head horns but that's what everyone else calls them#neuvillette#neuvillette genshin#neuvillette fluff#neuvillette x y/n#neuvillette x reader#neuvillette x you#genshin impact#genshin impact x reader#genshin impact fic#genshin impact fluff
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titania | an upper body tattoo. ⊹₊ ⋆
download | sfs (free, no ads)
TOU: do not reupload and never put this behind a paywall !
previews and more under the cut !
meet titania, my first tattoo (and ts4 cc) ever ! i’ve so enjoyed working on this little project and am already planning out the next one ! enjoy :)
psa the back tattoo warps kind of weirdly on certain masc frames, sorry ! also, there are 10 individual swatches per 3 opacity options, so technically it's 30 swatches overall
also feel free to tag me if u use these ! it’d be cool to see these in the wild 🫶🏻
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•☽────✧˖°˖ art by william heath robinson for shakespeare's a midsummer night's dream ˖°˖✧────☾•
#thank god i can actually call myself bibliosims yes this technically is from a book yes i’m counting it#ok very much obsessed with william heath robinson i wanna make tattoos with all of his illustrations#mine#my cc#my tattoos#ts4#sims 4#sims 4 cc#sims 4 tattoo#sims 4 tattoos#ts4 tattoo#ts4cc#s4cc#ts4 cc download#sim 4 download#stealing these tags from other creators idk what to put 😵💫💀
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ashes to ashes, dust to dust
#grian#mumbo jumbo#hermitcraft#waffleduo#waffle duo#hermitblr#咸鱼.jpg#tldr it wont make sense anyway - grian is not grian and mumbo is harbouring a fugitive: the au#idk what to call this au#maybeeeee this for now ->#ashes to ashes au#grumbo
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biggest painting of 2024 (feat. bigbeans, etho slab, and bdubs)!
#my art#fanart#hermitcraft#smallishbeans#ethoslab#bdoubleo100#idk what this trio is called#but here comes the pride parade or smthing to that effect
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doodle dump. give it up for WORLD'S WORST POLYCULE!!! (feat. my vox redesign)
you know how hermit crabs like form queues where they exchange shells from biggest to smallest. yeah these bitches do that but with shirts
#hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel fanart#hazbin hotel vees#the vees#hazbin vox#hazbin valentino#hazbin velvette#staticmoth#voxval#idk what the velvette ships are called :(#or the throuple ship#if anybody knows lmk!!!#my art#huge shoutout to anyone who gets the nerdy prudes must die references#this has been sitting in my drafts for like a week now. i guess i'll finally unleash it upon the world
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quick doodle of the pookies 💛🤍
#i only have my phone with me to draw with rn :(#anyways idrc if theyre platonic or romantic i just want them to stick together like glue#just an insane duo#hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel fanart#hazbin hotel adam#hazbin hotel lute#my art#guitarspear#? is that what ppl call this duo idk nfksjdk
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Edit since a lot of people seem confused - your "real" name is the name that you want to be referred to in real life. It doesn't have to be your legal name. So if you're trans and you have a different name to whats on your birth certificate, even if not many people call you by the name, it still counts as your real name.
Edit 2 : Holy shit guys please stop reblogging this post my poor inbox im getting like 20 notifs an hour asjfhkajshdkh /lh /srs
#FUN FACT : charlie isnt my real name :]#i decided to go with the name charlie because i didnt wanna use my real name and i like the name charlie#my parents were gonna call me charlie when i was born but didnt in the end#i dont really know why i dont just tell you lot my real name because its a super common name#another thing that using a diff name online has caused is me seeing “charlie” almost as a different person#theres “[wearegonnapretendiputmyrealnamehere]” and then theres “Charlie” and they are two different people in my mind#idk aksjffhkajsshdka#anyways this is the second poll ive made today what is my deal with polls#i should make a seperate poll tag for all my fucking polls that i make#I MAKE A LOT#ill tag all my polls when i think of a good name lol#anyways woah i got a bit rambly there#did i make a whole ass poll just because i thought you might find it interesting that my real name wasnt charlie?#yes. yes i did.#(DO NOT take this as me not wanting you lot to call me charlie i would prefer you use that name over anything else lol)#polls#tumblr polls#random polls
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There's something on this ship that's so bad the TARDIS ran away?
#doctor who#doctor who spoilers#wild blue yonder spoilers#14th doctor#donna noble#hey guys did we all have fun with the episode haha!!!!#im really proud of this u should reblog it. <3#cw body horror#cw scopophobia#im not sure this is body horror exactly but people arent usually that big and idk what else to call it#pats art#patsart#Doctor who fanart
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