I gave up on my life

Same...

If J were to magically appear on my doorstep and wanted me to go with him, I'd do it, no questions asked. Just get me the hell out of here.

happy new year everyone!! ~ may this year be kind to all 💕🥰⭐

I always think that it can't get any worse, and then some people prove me wrong...

I've been sitting on the pavement and crying for the past fifteen minutes and i can't get myself to move i hate this i hate everything why is nothing real I need someone

((I’m trying to gather the strength to tackle drafts... I have 14.. and two starters I owe now. But.. 2 hours of sleep? After a day of 4 hours of sleep and before that a day of 3 hours of sleep? I’m dyin’ scoob.

I go overboard. Burn myself to ashes to heat them up in cold nights.

I don't know how to preserve myself. How to do less. I cross every line that I traced just to protect, heal, please, love and give. To them. Always to them.

And more than often I catch myself tired. Feeling used. Feeling stupid.

So why I'm being consumed by the thought that I wanted to be needed by someone? Really needed?

Can I just stop being an adult for like ONE. DAY? No laundry, no cleaning, no shopping, no fixing, no dealing with any issue in the house, not having to occasionally deal with mold or bugs even though I'm cleaning every single week well and a little bit every day. No figuring out what to eat next, no taking decisions, no being responsible, no making appointments, NO NO NO NOTHING I can't do this anymore man and I'm only in my mid twenties what the actual fuck

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not mine

no shade but. @ [redacted]: why are you still here, exactly

i thought everything was going fine and then I'm unemployed, I have issues with my mom and with my sister and lots of things. my mind is going in circles trying to figure out how to fix it

"terfs like trans men!" "trans men don't have to worry about terfs!"

Oh I'm sorry wasn't there a big thing throughout 2020-2022 where everyone was all like "little girls are mutilating their bodies!", "what happened to our lesbians!?", "scared women are pretending to be men.", and so on? Wasn't there a literal book that talked about trans men, talking about them as if they were innocent girls who were lied to and thus were destroying themselves because of it, saying how we needed to 'save them from the hypnotization!"? Weren't there numerous bloggers/youtubers who made commentary videos in reaction to Elliot Page coming out, and proceeded to rant and rave how we are losing such beautiful women and lesbians to the "transgender agena"? What about the time where it was trending to fakeclaim trans people, whom most of the targets of this were trans men? How about when people called trans men 'dykes' because "well they're not actual men, they're just confused lesbians!"?

Do I need to add more, or do you guys understand?

anyone else have multiple traumatic memories associated specifically with holidays/family vacations? because that is a topic I never see discussed in all the So You Had A Shitty Childhood, Now What? self-help books i've been reading. but for me, it was a significant thing. and the more i think about it the more it seems like this would be an (unfortunately) common experience. would be grateful to hear if this matches other peoples' experiences...