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wongyuuu · 24 days

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Can u plssss make a husband mingyu fic of his daughter absolutely hating his haircut go from long to extremely short causing him to sulk and hate his own hair then y/n having to comfort him😭😭 this video legit reminded me of this instantly idek how

i'm not supposed to be taking requests but this was just something that stuck to my mind ever since i read it. so here it is! i hope you like it! i'm also just in time for his birthday

when he cuts his hair

pairing: mingyu x fem!reader genre: fluff word count: 769 warnings: slightly suggestive not proofread

You did your best to contain your smile, or at least tried to hide it, as your daughter cried into your shoulder, her small tears soaking your shirt and her hands balled into tiny fists in your hair. Under normal circumstances, you’d have taken her hand away but in that moment, it seemed like the only option to have her calm down.

Your husband sat on the couch, the blanket you kept on the back of it wrapped around his head and shoulder, as his eyes were two full moons in his face. Mingyu was a mixture of laughter and unwashed tears as he watched your daughter cry into you.

“I didn’t know” his voice came out in a whine, his hold on the blanket tightening “I thought it would be okay”

Mingyu had left the house that morning saying “I’m going to cut hair, I’ll be right back”. He had kept his hair longer for almost a year and it was probably one of your daughter’s favorite things about him — that and also the fact that Mingyu even existed. “Not only does she look like you the most but she also loves you the most” you’d half-heartily complain sometimes.

It became some sort of routine, if she fell asleep with Mingyu around, she’d most definitely have her hand in his hair. Logically and rationally you knew that Hanna wouldn't like the new haircut, but you also didn’t think that it would be that much of a big deal. What you also didn’t expect was for Mingyu to come back with the shortest hair you have ever seen on him.

You had known Mingyu for roughly twelve years and he always kept his hair on the longer side. While the sight was a fantastic one, Hanna didn’t seem to share the same idea.

She ran to the door excitedly the second she heard the sound of keys on the lock to greet her dad. She had the biggest smile on her face and then it just disappeared as she took in her dad’s new look. Her small features contorted and her eyes filled with tears and she ran back to you, hiding behind your legs.

Like he usually did, Mingyu kneeled to welcome the hug that always came but this time there was none.

You wished you had recorded the whole thing, the way Hanna started to scream her lungs out because “not daddy” and Mingyu was a few seconds away from crying.

“Hanna” you cooed “you don’t want to say hi to daddy? He missed while he was away”

She shook her head.

“Not daddy,” she said again, the new tears coming down her face.

It took you a good hour to get her to settle down and sleep. Her body still shook with sobs when you put her in bed.

Mingyu was in the living room, in the same exact position as before, the blanket still wrapped around his head. His eyes were sort of lost until he finally seemed to notice you were back. Once again his eyes were filled with tears.

“Babe, no, it’s fine,” you said, approaching him.

When you were close enough he pulled you to him, hands around your waist and his head resting on your stomach. Slowly you pulled the blanket away from him and ran your hand over his hair. There wasn't a lot to hold onto, there was barely any hair in between your fingers, just a little more at the top for a quiff.

“She hates me now,” he complained.

There were these moments when it was hard to tell who was actually the 2 year old and who was the grown man.

“She doesn't, she just needs to get used to it. You're her favorite person” you assure him “She's just surprised. When you left there was hair in your head”

Mingyu groaned at your laugh.

“I just wanted to try something different”

You held his face in your hands, forcing him to look at you. Mingyu rested his chin on your stomach, beautiful dark eyes looking back at you.

“Do you like it, at least?”

You bit your lips, trying to keep yourself from saying that maybe you didn’t like it as much, that your favorite hair was that middle ground between short and longer.

“You look younger” your words were slow, a little careful.

He groaned, pretending to cry, his arms getting even tighter around you.

“Both of you hate it”

You bent forward and placed a kiss on his nose and then his lips until his pout was replaced by a smile.

“At least there’s a little bit to hold on to”

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minhosimthings · 2 months

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Makeup sex with hyung line after a bad fight/ argument

Please Makeup sex is my entire life I LIVE AND BREATHE MAKEUP SEX also baby I'm legit so sorry it took this much time to complete this I LOVE YOU MOST MMWAHHH

More under the cut!

Heeseung is the type of man to tempt you into wanting him inside your cunt. Heeseung hates arguing with you, especially when the tears fall out, and if it's a really bad one, i.e one on which you tell him to sleep on the couch, he loathes it. So, being the man he is, he'd sneak up behind you while you're making tea or something to make you fall asleep, and trap you with his arms pressed against the counter. You're in his prison now and you couldn't escape. He'd start rubbing himself against you, creating friction through your shorts, which forced you to keep a straight face, and not look at him. But that wasn't exactly a problem for him.

He'd most likely fuck you right there, stretching your ass out nice and lovely from behind, providing you with that familiar fire in your belly which made you crave him in a more primal way. But judging by the way, he would be holding his hand against your mouth, preventing your moans from escaping, you were probably in for a much rougher no-cumming time.

Bonus: "I can't hear you princess, say "I'm sorry" louder for me hmm?"

Jay's the kind of person to usually never argue with you. But sometimes if he accidentally ever got irritated, he coud be scary, and after the argument, when you'd be curled up into a ball, sobbing your eyes out on the bed, he swore he could have heard his heart break. So sneaking into the bed, wrapping his arms around you and engulfing you into a warm fire, all the while pressing soft, chaste kisses to your neck, was the only solution to him. You melting into his touch, would be his signal, that maybe you've forgiven him atleast a bit. So he'd press much wetter kisses, trailing down to your collarbone, making you softly whimper at his fiery touch.

He'd stretch your eyes hole out carefully, slipping his length in just how you wanted it, while your fingers would be curling the stands of his hair. That would be the green light for him, that maybe you had forgiven him and judging by the way your mouth sang him praises as he raised your hips to press himself closer to you, you definetly had.

Bonus: "I'm sorry darling, I didn't mean to. You're doing so good for me yeah?"

Somnophillia. That's it. That is Jake's way of apologizing to you. After the argument, imagine you storm off and eventually cry yourself to sleep from all the exhaustion. Jake, like the rest of the hyung line, hates arguing with you, especially when it's to the point that you fall asleep just from crying. So when you're lightly snoring, Jake climbs onto the bed, and peels off your panties with delicate, experienced fingers. He wanted to wake you up. He wanted to watch your eyes roll back and tears leak out he fucked you hard into the mattress.

But for now, he'd slip a finger into your entrance, making a soft moan escape your lips. He'd keep rubbing his finger over your cunt, gathering all your wetness, getting drunk on your whimpers. Maybe you wouldn't forgive him, but he didn't mind, it was heaven to his ears hearing you cry out loud as you came hard and snapped your eyes open.

Bonus: "Shh baby quiet down, don't wanna wake up the sleeping neighbours yeah?"

Sunghoon. Park Sunghoon is another one for tempting you to fuck him. But unlike Heeseung, Sunghoon would much rather kiss you out of nowhere, slamming your back, hard against the kitchen counter. He knows he's strong enough to overpower you and he is about to use that to his full advantage. Sweeping his tongue across the inside of your cheek, Sunghoon knows how weak you could get just by the mere touch of his fingers, so obviously, he's about to touch you in places you didn't even know could get you going mental for him.

Starting with a little flick of your nipple with his thumb and going all the way down to your pussy, which he played with his fingers as if it was a toy, Sunghoon got you moaning his name in rough whimpers for him, never ceasing even you were on the verge of collapsing from the lack of oxygen. And finishing an orgasm? Don't even think about that.

Bonus: "“That’s it, fuck, that’s a good girl. Act like a brat and I’ll treat you like a brat, doll"

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lastoneout · 2 months

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I don't really know exactly why I'm posting this, I guess I just want to share my joy, but y'all...the nerve block worked. My migraine went down a little over the night so I was only at like a 1.5-2 but I swear to god the second they were done EVERY SINGLE PART of my head stopped hurting. The only pain I'm feeling rn is at the injection site and a smidge in my jaw, but that's not a huge deal bcs I know the steroids take a long time to do their thing and I usually have pain around the injection site when they do this in my back, plus I did already suspect something like 10% of my migraines aren't entirely due to my neck, but like...it worked. It fucking worked.

I've been living with chronic migraines my entire life, and in the last five years, they've gotten so bad that I can't work and have to cancel streams and hangouts with friends all the time. I have migraines more days than I don't and I've never been able to find out what my trigger is aside from not sleeping well and eating lays potato chips(rip I miss them so much) or gluten or being on my period?? and on some days I'm in so much pain I can't even feed myself or shower. 8-10 is the norm, they don't go lower on their own, they NEVER go away on their own, no matter how much time I spend lying in bed in the dark with icepacks on my face. My migraine rescue meds don't always work, or they work for a day and then it comes back, and I seem to be fucking Immune(tm) to Excedrin and ibuprofen. All that together has legit been ruining my entire life.

And I am not even a little ashamed to admit that once they were done and asked how I felt I broke down sobbing in the exam room because it WORKED. Instantly. Years of pain and agony and no help from my doctors, of blaming a medical condition that treatment hasn't fixed, telling me to limit screen time and lose weight, forcing me to try 50 different medications none of which help, of spending long nights in the ER hoping they can fix me even though it's typically a 50/50 chance....and now it's over. I don't have to do that anymore. They fixed it. They fixed it.

I'm crying right now as I write this. I never thought this was possible. Like I believed that it was my neck and my doctors agreed, but I was so worried that this would all be for nothing, I didn't think it would work, I know most disabled people dream of finding the One Thing that's causing all their problems even though most of us never do, but I guess luck decided to smile on me this day, this is what's causing my problems and it's treatable. It's over. I found the path out of this hell and it was the right one. I don't even know what to do, what to say. I'm so happy I can't even be happy, all I can do is cry because the hardest part is over.

There's still work to be done, but the path is clear. And honestly @ any gods that are listening, please grant this to my fellow disabled people. They deserve to feel this, we all do.

#personal #positive #medical stuff #cw medical stuff #ask to tag

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astraystayyh · 1 year

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Hello! I was wondering if you would be interested in writing a fic about felix? Hes my bias and legit the love of my life.

Prompt:

"Y/N being overwhelmed with either work or school and ends up falling asleep, maybe upset and crying. When felix, her boyfriend of many years, gets home, he finds y/n passes out in her room with tear-stained cheeks and decides to make the rest of the night about her and her self care. "

Scream!

Lee Felix fluff/comfort. Very unconventional way of cheering up hdhdhd.

I'm sorry it took me so long to work on this!! i hope you'll enjoy reading it <3

"Sweetheart, I'm home!", Felix shouts as soon as he sets foot inside your apartment. It was past 10, and he had been counting the seconds until he could finally come home to you.

He skips to your bedroom, stopping in his tracks when he finds you asleep on your desk, your face squished against your laptop. "Adorable", he whispers to himself, a lovestruck expression adorning his face.

But as he bends forward to wake you up, he frowns at the sight of your tear-stained cheeks and your deeply furrowed eyebrows. He looks over at the scattered papers on your desk, along with the three empty cups of coffee sitting there, and he figures this has to do with the big assignment you were working on.

Felix places a featherlight kiss on your temple, before grabbing a pillow from your bed. He gently lifts your face, replacing the laptop with the soft cushion, this way you wouldn’t strain your neck.

He quietly starts to clean your room, picking up clothes from the ground and putting back in place your disorganized products. He then heads to the kitchen, where he washes the dishes you had stacked in there from the night before. It was your turn to do them, but still, he knew that this would be a weight lifted off your shoulders. And he'd do anything to make you feel better.

When the dishes are washed, the countertop swept and the floors clean, he finally rejoins you in the bedroom. You are still asleep, so as to not startle you, he gently rubs your back, calling out your name softly.

You open your eyes lazily, instinctively smiling when you see your boyfriend in front of you. "You are here", you whisper and he grins back, "I'm here, baby".

You close your eyes, Felix's touch lulling you right back to sleep. But then, you snap them open when you remember that you most certainly shouldn't be asleep right now.

"Fuck", you gasp, "I should be working, oh god I will never finish this and-", Felix leans down and kisses you, effectively stopping your frantic rambling.

"Easy, love. What's going on?", he asks you, and his soft tone makes tears well up in your eyes. "I'm so so stressed out, I have this assignment due and my brain isn't cooperating".

Felix extends his hand towards you and you frown confused. "Come on, let's go", he urges you and you grab his warm hand tentatively, "Go where? Felix, I really shouldn’t-"

"Do you trust me?", he cuts you off and you reply instantly, "With my life".

"Then let's go", he pulls you up and you giggle lightly, "I'm still in my pajamas".

"Here", he grabs one of his hoodies and pulls it over your head, "Perfect".

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A short drive later, Felix parks in front of the beach. You stare at him inquisitively and he smiles cheekily in reply.

You step out of the car, closing your eyes and savoring the feel of the breeze ruffling your hair. Felix stands behind you, wrapping his arms around your waist and placing his shin on top of your head.

"The view's pretty", he comments and you nod in agreement, sinking further into his safe hold. When suddenly, Felix crouches down behind you. He holds your legs tightly and stands up- this time with you perched on his shoulders. You yelp, taken aback and he laughs, "How's the view up there?"

"Lix put me down!", you chuckle and he starts running towards the beach, ignoring your plea entirely.

You are laughing so hard, your stomach aches by the time he finally stops. Your cheeks are flushed, and the salty scent of the sea mingles with Felix's cologne. You haven't felt this alive in a while.

"Yn!", Felix calls out and you try your best to look down at him, "What?", you giggle and he smiles mischievously, "Scream, baby. Let it all out!"

You contemplate for a few seconds before nodding eagerly. "Okay! Count to three for me", you tell him and he chuckles, "One... two... three!".

You scream your lungs out, your shouts echoing around the empty beach. "Feels good baby?", Felix asks and in reply you yell again, letting out all your pent-up emotions. You felt as if you were on top of the world- sitting on Felix's shoulders while the sea drinks in your shouts.

Felix finally kneels down and you hop off of him. When your eyes meet his, you both scream together as if on cue, your hands holding his tightly. And then your shouts morph into barely contained giggles- you end up falling on the sand from how hard you're laughing.

When you both calm down, you high-five him and he smiles, lacing your fingers with his. "Did it help?", he asks, his thumb swiping back and forth on your palm.

"A lot. This was exhilarating".

"I'm glad", he grins brightly as he helps you stand up. You pull him in for a bone-crushing hug, wrapping your legs around his waist. He securely holds you to him as he walks back towards the car, “Let's go get ice cream, and then we’ll go home and cuddle. Sounds good?", he whispers, his lips grazing the shell of your ears.

"Sounds perfect", you smile, burying your face in the crook of his neck.

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As promised, Felix buys your favorite ice cream and you both eat it in the car, while blasting the playlist he once made you. He thinks you didn't notice but you know he took extra laps around the house, this way you'd get to finish the song you were listening to.

You also notice how the house is much cleaner than it was this morning. How Felix puts on your comfort show and places your head on his chest, because he knows the sound of his heartbeat calms you down.

You notice how he places a glass of water on your bedside, this way you'd drink it first thing in the morning. How he insists on putting on your skincare for you, gently massaging it into your skin. How he tucks your Bokkari plushie next to your pillow, this way you'd hug it when he has to inevitably leave for work.

When you both finally lay in bed, you kiss his forehead gently, and his eyes flutter closed at the contact.

"Thank you, for loving me", you smile, heart so full of admiration it feels like it will burst.

"Thank you, for allowing me to love you".

"Can't you just accept the compliment?", you giggle and he shakes his head no, pulling you closer to him.

"Tonight is about you, my love".

"Can tomorrow be about me too?", you tease and he smiles softly at you.

"For as long as you need it".

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pinkchrissysposts · 17 days

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🔮Just one more step and you're there🔮

💩 anon here.

Lately I've been thinking how much my life would be boring without LOA,shifting and void. I'm a student,I go to school,comeback home study,do few chores then lay on my bed all day procrastinating and scrolling through tumblr,reddit or twitter even though I know I just have to affirm.

Legit loa is what is keeping me alive at this point,without it I don't think I would be happy,I would live with limitations,worried about my future,but there is only one thing that WAS stopping me is my laziness,I admit I'm lazy,I'm gonna blame myself for having such a boring life,but not anymore ever since I last time send you ask I'm so so sooo thankful that I affirmed and along with you,those 10 hours were like a roller coaster to me,I started realizing instead of wasting my time here on tumblr reading same post again and again and again,I could've just enjoy a series or videos while affirming.

Today I install this app again which I deleted right after you replied to my ask last time,those few days I affirmed,affirmed, and affirmed. And my days start becoming more exciting,I don't just lay on bed and cry about the fact at I can't manifest,I watch series movies as I affirm which I enjoy alot it's way more fun then reading same post again and again you just have to tame that one step to affirm that's it.

First thing I manifested is my desired clothes,then I affirmed for watching movie with my family,we went to watch it together,i affirm that me and family have a fun and amazing life for 10 hours straight and now life is so exciting,and i also entered void last night eventhough i didn't opted for void,I just wanted to experience it.

-💩

Now that's some amazing news I got,I'm so happy you joined in my session,I wad actually waiting for your ask😭✨️so proud of you anony✨️

#void success #law of assumption #affirmation #robotic affirmations #manifesting affirm and persist #desired reality #neville goddard #joseph murphy

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hwanchaesong · 2 years

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ATEEZ when they cheat on you

Hongjoong

will be in denial for a few days, blaming you to hide the fact that what he did was really shitty, that was until you brought all of his gifts for you back to him.

"C'mon Y/N, wait up! Just listen to me!" Hongjoong grabbed your wrist, stopping you from speed walking out of the company.

Really, all you wanted to do was to give him dinner so he won't starve for tonight, but all you got was the view of him sticking his tongue down into some random girl's throat.

"What?!" you finally broke down, yelling at him in the hallway, not caring if other people heard you.

"Y/N, lower your voice, they might hear y-"

You scoffed, cutting him off, "Then so be it, let them know how much of an asshole you are!"

"Oh yeah? Maybe I wouldn't do this if you got more time to spend with me, y'know?" Hongjoong yelled back, but what broke your heart more is when he shifted the blame on you.

You were the one who always adjusts to his tight schedule, heck, you even sacrifice your precious sleep just to go see him in the crack of dawn as he always asked you to come because that is the only time he's free.

And now he says that to you? Fuck this shit.

You let out a bitter laugh, "Goodbye, Hongjoong." you turned around and left, this time he didn't follow you.

He returned to his studio, seething that you won't get his point. Hongjoong let things as they are, thinking that you'll come back to him either way.

Surprise surprise, after three days, a large box was delivered into their dorm. Upon opening it, his gifts and memorabilia for you are all placed inside.

His hands were shaking when he picked up a photo of you and him back when you had your first date.

Hongjoong knew he ruined a beautiful relationship that night but refused to believe it because of his damned ego.

Now, he had lost his muse.

Seonghwa

he will definitely try and get you back. he will legit do anything and everything even if it means that he needs to chase you until the world falls apart.

"You're here again?" you inhaled sharply, closing your eyes to contain the raging anger building inside your chest.

Seonghwa licked his lips, looking down in shame. The bouquet in his hands is crumpled because of the amount of force he's using to hold it.

"Y/N, I really am sorry. It was an accident." he tried to explain himself for the nth time, but you weren't having any of it.

"An accident?" you repeated before grabbing the bouquet in his hands, throwing it in the garbage ruthlessly.

"So fucking another girl in our bed is an accident? Wow, that's just pure bullshit, isn't it?" you rhetorically asked, knowing full damn well that he chose to do it.

Seonghwa looked at the flowers in the trash can, a pang in his heart is felt but he doesn't have any right to feel it knowing that your situation is worse.

"I know it's my fault, but I really do love you, please believe me." he begged once more, moving an inch closer to hold your hands, to which you disgustedly pulled yourself away from him.

"If you really love me," your eyes turned glassy, choking back the sobs, "then you wouldn't stab me in the back like that and leave me bleeding until I'm all out of trust for you."

You closed the door and willed yourself not to cry, leaving Seonghwa outside in the cold.

Yunho

he will tell you everything, he couldn't live with the guilt knowing that you're happily inlove with a cheater like him.

That's a lie right? Yunho, your ever loving, sweet, and kind boyfriend wouldn't cheat on you, right?

"Won't you say anything?" Yunho asked, looking at your face for any signs of crying. He is so ready to comfort you if you shed a tear even if the reason for your agony is him.

"Does she mean anything to you?" you finally replied, his words finally sinking in.

"No! Baby, she's nothing but a one night stand." he winced at his reasoning, that sounds more wrong than he thought.

You nodded your head, fully understanding the situation.

"She's nothing but she must also be something if it means that she's able to charm you into bed, huh?" you didn't realize that teardrops started falling on your cheeks until Yunho wiped them away.

"Y/N, can you please forgive me for this?" he cupped your cheeks, waiting for an answer.

"Of course I will forgive you."

You would do that, as you didn't want to harbor any hatred for the man that treated you like a princess for years.

Yunho was about to cheer, thinking that he still hasn't lost you.. but he's wrong. Your next words shattering his whole world.

"I forgive you, but I couldn't stay with you anymore."

Yeosang

he was caught red handed, and he was so torn when he saw your heartbroken face. the main finale though, is when you still managed to act normally.

"Yeosang?"

He went frigid when he heard your voice from behind him, not expecting you to be here as well.

"Yeosang? Why aren't you answering to me?" you asked curiously, and you began to think that you got the wrong person.

"Yeosang! Babe, look what I got!"

Well that confirms it.

A pretty girl came running towards him, clinging into his arms while she showed the piece of clothing that piqued her interest. Then the girl noticed you staring at them.

"Excuse me miss, do you need something?" she queried, and you had to put on your most plastic smile. Toughened yourself out to ask the question that will hurt you for a lifetime.

"Yeah, actually I wanna ask if this guy is your boyfriend?" you pointed at the tall man.

She giggled and forcefully turned Yeosang around, the sight of your fake grin is painfully visible, especially when your eyes are speaking the truth.

"He is! Do you know him?" the 'girlfriend' made a little chitchat, but you couldn't bear to stay there longer or else you'll have a complete breakdown.

"He is an acquaintance of mine." you answered with an artificial cheery tone.

Yeosang's eyes widened, what do you mean by acquaintance?

"Y/N." he called your name, making you gaze into his handsome face one last time.

"Glad that you remembered my name, here." you thrusted a paper bag in his hands, "Please do give that to my boyfriend and tell him that I won't be able to see him for a while. I'll be busy."

You bowed and waved goodbye to the couple, leaving both of them to enjoy their time together.

"You know her boyfriend? Why wouldn't she say that to him herself, that's sad." the girl sighed before continuing to blabber.

The rest of her words are completely muted in Yeosang's ears, his eyes are focused on your retreating figure that is getting smaller every second.

He watched you walk away, out of his life.

San

he will desperately hold onto you, not wanting you to leave him despite his infidelity. he was so ready to beg and be on his knees if it meant that you'll stay.

"Let go of me, San." you gritted your teeth, willing yourself to not look at him or else your resolve to leave will melt.

"Please, please, don't leave me! I couldn't live without you!" San pleaded, hugging your waist tightly that grounded you in your place.

He was too strong to fight off and too heavy to push away. The more you stay there, the more you want to give in, and that's a big no.

"If you couldn't live without me then you should've thought twice before hooking up with someone who isn't me!" you yelled, letting the tears that you are holding back fall.

It fell like rain along with your body, slumping down in the carpet as you cried your heart out.

All you did was love San, support him and care for him and what you got was him being unfaithful to you during their tour.

There you were, thinking about his well being and waiting patiently for him to come back. And there he was, having the time of his life.

It was unfair, so unfair especially when he does this to you.

San was unable to speak or do anything, watching you crumble into pieces is something that pained him down to the bones. He wants to tell you that everything will be fine, but how?

He carefully hugged you, and as selfish as it is, he still doesn't want to let go of you, "Baby, I'm here. Please, calm down and let's talk about this."

Mingi

he will cry, feeling like he is the worst man in the universe for making you feel like you weren't enough. the type to not forgive himself.

"Aren't you gonna slap me? Hit me? Curse at me?"

"I won't do any of that." you replied, looking at him intently and Mingi wants to hit himself.

He already got you, the best woman that god graced him with and he just had to ruin the relationship that you two built for years.

Why did he even agree to go clubbing, get drunk and make out with some random girl when he could've gone home and cuddled you instead?

Mingi groaned and stood up, repeatedly punching the wall out of frustration. He doesn't deserve you, he is a freaking excuse of a man.

"Mingi stop! You'll hurt yourself!" you immediately went to him, preventing him from further causing damage.

You lifted his arm and inspected his bleeding knuckles, you sighed and held his hand close to your heart, "I love you, Mingi."

Oh no, he is about to cry again.

"And I am willing to make this work. I have invested a lot in our relationship, I don't want to throw that away." you told him truthfully, giving him some relief.

"I'd do anything you tell me." his voice is desperate, knowing full well that he might lose you anytime.

"Give me more time to move on."

Mingi really doesn't deserve an angel like you.

Wooyoung

he wasn't himself at the time, and he repeats that lame excuse so that you'll accept his apology and give him a second chance.

You distanced yourself from Wooyoung's body when he went closer to you, trying to hold you in his arms in an attempt to calm you down.

"Y/N, baby, I was drunk." he reasoned out, making you roll your eyes in disbelief.

"I know a lot of people who got drunk and frankly, they never fucked another person who is not their significant other." you quipped back, having enough of his bullshit.

You were angrily throwing all of your items in your suitcase, keen on getting out of your shared house.

You have nothing to do with him anymore.

"Can't we at least talk and work this out?" he bargained, getting antsy at the thought of not having you in his life anymore.

"Listen Wooyoung."

It was weird on his part for you to call him by his name, and that is a big indication that you're not giving in to him this time.

"There is no more room to talk about, and the only thing that we can work out is the fact that we're done." you said with finality, zipping the case of your bag and getting ready to get out of this suffocating house.

"I'm sorry." you heard him mumble from behind you, and for a second you think that he's genuinely regretting what he did.

You shook your head and opened the door, ceasing for a moment to tell him a final message.

"Don't do this to your next relationship, Wooyoung. Improve yourself."

Jongho

he loves the thrill and he lives for it. not until you caught him, and now he's in big trouble, his usual cool attitude is washed down in the drain.

"I knew you're going to meet her again here." you commented, staring at Jongho like you're putting bullets in his brain and in your defense, you would've if you could.

Jongho halts all of his movements, it was too cold even if his jacket is thick as fuck. And he knew the reason why.

You're here, his girlfriend, at the rooftop where he meets his mistress every night.

"Say, this is quite the romantic place to commit a sin isn't it?" you sarcastically asked him, looking around the area.

The wind suddenly blew, making your hair flow in the air, and Jongho saw that scene.

You look gorgeous under the moonlight, you look like a goddess, and that reminded him why he fell in love with you in the first place.

He realizes that he made the biggest mistake ever, one that he will regret for the rest of his life.

"Is there anything I can do to fight for you? For us?" he gulped, expecting you to somehow be lenient, although a huge percentage of it is impossible.

"The fight should have never ended, sweetie." you replied, raising an eyebrow.

Jongho understands that everything is over and it somehow brings him waves of torment, knowing that he wasted a perfect woman like you.

You went and walked past him, stopping at his side to whisper to him the sentence that would haunt him even in his sleep.

"You grabbed me off of my solitude, yet you never offered me your companionship."

It was the truth he couldn't deny, and that itself made you believe that you deserve better.

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mangeretpain · 2 months

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Trade Proposals

Pairing: JD x TZ

Word Count: 1.2k

Warning for language and slight angst (I'm not sorry)

Trevor’s ears are ringing and the whole room feels like it's spinning around him. He’s in shock, he can recognize the symptoms well by now considering the amount of times he’s been injured on the ice. Jamie is still standing in front of him, looking like he’s trying to put on a brave face for Trevor’s sake. He finally shakes himself out of his stupor long enough to reply.

“What?” He asks, his voice barely above a whisper. Jamie sighs, casting his eyes to the floor.

“I said that was Verbeek. I’m being traded to the Flyers. My flight is early tomorrow morning, they want me in Philly for their afternoon practice.”

“No. No, they can’t do that. They can’t trade you! What the fuck, Jamie, they can’t do this!” Trevor knows he’s being unfair. He probably sounds like a spoiled little kid right now, but he doesn’t care. They can’t do this to him, to Jamie. They can’t trade him away, not when he’s finally healthy. Not when he’s finally back playing with the team after a full year away from the ice. Not when they just moved back in together, not when their relationship is still so new.

Jamie looks like he’s trying not to cry now, still not meeting Trevor’s eyes. “I know. It’s not fair. But you know there’s nothing I can do. Verbeek said it's been in the works for a while now.” Trevor wants to punch their General Manager. How could he possibly do this to Jamie? After everything they went through this summer with their contracts and now he’s just going to up and trade him out of nowhere? It’s not fucking fair!

Jamie steps closer, wrapping his arms around Trevor’s shoulders. “I’m gonna tell the rest of the boys, say my goodbyes and everything. Then we can head back to the hotel, ok? I need to get my stuff packed anyways. Just stay here and I’ll be right back.” He kisses Trevor’s cheek, giving his shoulders a squeeze before heading back into the pool hall. Trevor stands there frozen for another minute, mind racing. He doesn’t know what he’s going to do without Jamie. He’s been his rock for their entire NHL careers, the one person who always had his back. His best friend, recently turned boyfriend, his roommate, his linemate, the person he wanted to spend the rest of his life with.

An idea pops into his head. If he wasn’t in such a distressed state, he would probably consider it one of the dumbest ideas he’s ever had. At the moment though, he’s desperate and it seems like the only available option he has. He pulls his phone from his pocket, opening google to see if any places would still be open at this time of night. He knows he needs to act fast if he’s going to do this, Jamie’s flight leaves early in the morning, which means they only have roughly 12 hours before he’ll be across the country for good. Luckily they’re in Nashville tonight, a city with a crazy nightlife and various tourist traps that are open late. He finds exactly what he’s looking for after a few minutes, saving the address in his phone for later.

They’ve just walked through the door of Jamie’s hotel room when Trevor decides to spring the idea on him.

“We should get married.”

Jamie freezes where he was grabbing his suitcase from the floor. He turns his head to stare incredulously at Trevor.

“We should do what now?”

Trevor’s not backing down though, not after he’s already made up his mind. “We should get married. Tonight, preferably. Before you leave for Philly. I found one of those stupid Elvis chapels that’s open ‘till 2 am, they have legit marriage licences and everything.” Jamie’s still looking at him like he’s grown a second head. Trevor just smiles, trying to prove that he’s being completely serious. Jamie sighs, finally placing his suitcase on the bed and moving to grab his clothes from the closet.

“You want to get married? Tonight?” Trevor just nods, bouncing on the balls of his feet. “Why do you want to get married tonight?” Jamie’s avoiding his eyes, focusing on getting his clothes packed away.

“I mean why not? It’s a perfect night for it, we’re in Nashville, we have the time and the resources. I can get Mason to be our witness.” Trevor’s starting to get desperate now, he needs Jamie to agree to this, if he doesn’t he won’t be able to take it.

Jamie just sighs again. “Trev, don’t you think it's a little soon to be talking about marriage? We’ve only been dating for like, six months.”

Trevor frowns, “So you don’t want to marry me?”

“I never said that. I do want to marry you someday, obviously. But I don’t want to marry you just because I’m leaving tomorrow. When we get married I want it to be because we’re ready to take that step.” He finally turns to face Trevor, his face softening.

“It’s not just because you’re leaving.” Jamie gives him a look. “Ok, it’s a little because you’re leaving. But it’s mostly because I love you, and I want to marry you. I know it’s sudden, and I don’t have a ring and none of our families or friends are here, but I want to do this. There’s no one in the world I would rather be with, Jamie.” He steps forward, grabbing both of Jamie’s hands in his own. He needs him to see that this is for real, that he’s not lying about wanting this.

Jamie pulls his hands away, reaching up to cradle Trevor’s face. “Trev, what are you so worried about? I know you wouldn’t be suggesting this if you weren’t having doubts about me leaving.”

Sometimes Trevor hates how well Jamie knows him, how he can see right through him and all his insecurities. “I just, I just don’t want to lose you. I know people do long distance all the time, but I’m just worried it’s not going to work for us. I mean, we’re going to be on completely opposite sides of the country, in two different time-zones. Hell, we’ll only get to play each other twice a year. I just don’t know we’re going to do it, Jimmy.” He can feel the tears he’s been holding back climbing to the surface, threatening to spill over at any moment. He drops his head onto Jamie’s chest, trying to ignore the wetness on his cheeks. Jamie’s arms come up to wrap around him, holding him tightly.

“We’ll make it work, Z. I know we will. You aren’t going to lose me, and there’s no way in hell I’m going to lose you either. It’s only a couple months until the end of the season, and then we can spend the whole off season together, ok?”

Trevor sniffles, “If the Flyers make the playoffs and we don’t can I come live with you?”

Jamie chuckles, burying his face in Trevor’s hair. “Of course you can, I wouldn’t expect otherwise.” He places a kiss on the crown of Trevor’s head, tilting his chin up to meet his eyes. “Tell you what, if we can make this work until the summer, I’ll marry you.”

Trevor laughs wetly, “You mean it?”

“Of course I do. I hear California in August is beautiful, perfect for a beach wedding.”

Trevor just laughs again, tilting his head up to peck his boyfriends, or fiancé's, lips. “You’ve got a deal.”

#drygras #jdtz #tzjd #anaheim ducks #nhl #hockey #hrpf #hockey rpf

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taffycandyqt · 4 months

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Hi I’m the anon who requested the Casey hcs!! :) :) I rlly liked them :) and I’ve humbly come back for more since I’m a slut for (the adult) Casey Jones’s so can I uhh get hcs for cuddling with 03 Casey please…..I have the feeling the man would have the best chest to sleep on ever…..

And I love writing for Casey. I hope you know you are officially one of my favorites now.❤️ Also, I'll have you know I have gotten multiple 03' Casey requests since yours so, be prepared.

General Cuddling Headcannons

03' Casey Jones x reader

Fluff

When I tell you this man loves touching you, BRO, that is no joke.

His main love language is acts of service, so he sees cuddling not just as a comfortable way to be with you, but also as a way to protect you.

That being said he prefers to be big spoon.

He likes feeling relied on, trusted.

That's another thing about cuddling, your putting yourself in such a vulnerable position with him without a second thought. It makes him feel like YOU believe he can protect you.

Feeling like he's strong enough to protect what he loves is really important to him, especially after the situation with the purple dragons and his father's shop.

However, just because he likes protecting you doesn't mean he doesn't like being taken care of now and again.

Remember when he played up getting hurt to stay behind and get babied by April?

He is SO MUCH WORSE when you two start dating.

Has a small case of the sniffles?

Baby I'm deathly sick and need cuddles to feel better!

Gets some light bruising from sparing with Raph?

I'm so badly hurt I can't move off my bed, come cuddle me and kiss my boo boos better😢

PLEASE kiss this man's face randomly during cuddles.

It makes him feel so loved. will legit start crying the first couple of times

After you do it a couple of times he'll start doing it back to you and then, sometimes, your cuddle sessions will turn into kissing wars.

If he gets back from say, a long day of helping the turtles, he'll probably just want to sit and chill watching some random action movie before going to bed.

Sit on his lap while he does.

He's usually too tired to do much but you'll be able to tell how happy he is to have you there by how he wraps his arm around your waist and pulls you closer.

Casey never imagined himself having a future with someone so if you lay your head on his shoulder it will feel like the most domestic thing to him.

He'd consider popping the question right then and there, even without a ring.

He'd want to keep you with him like that forever of he could.

#tmnt 2003 #leo tmnt #mikey tmnt #raph tmnt #donnie tmnt #2003 casey #2003 casey jones #2003 tmnt #2003 Casey Jones x reader #Casey Jones x reader #2003 Casey x reader #X reader #Fluff

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carolmunson · 1 year

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vacation diaries - entry four

eddie keeps a journal while at the inn with you in northern indiana. a blurb series starting from the first morning after ’before there was a before’.

entries: one,two,three read steve's journal: here.

warnings: minors dni, 18+, adult themes, mentions of sex

what a fuckin minx.

jesus, i forgot for a minute what a solid fuck she is. i know that sounds gross but i am fucking reeling right now. she's in the shower and i just got the life fucked out of me. holy shit. i thought i came hard last night but holy god almighty. i'm never gonna get over this.

we didn't mean to fuck. i didn't mean to let it go that far, i didn't want this trip to be about that. but when she gave me that face when we got back upstairs how could i not? she's such a little tease. she was a little tease all day. the cutest tease i ever met.

she wanted to go to the dunes even though it's snowy and out to the piers and the light house. she swears she packed a warm enough coat but i can guarantee you that she's gonna have a cold tomorrow and then i'm gonna get a cold two days later. i can't even be mad at her about it though, her little frost bitten nose? i don't think i've ever met anyone i want to marry more than her.

we brought some kodak cameras with us to take pictures of everything, went to some tourist spots since we haven't been getting around as much as we want. gas is cheap out here which is nice. we saw some more christmas lights and went back to the diner. the waitress knows my name now so now i feel like i have to come here every couple of months so i don't lose the friendship. her name's marge. she reminds me of my grandma. she has a friend that lives at the women's shelter by the record store named sara-lynn but i don't think i've met her. i'll have to ask around and send marge's regards. she thinks it's cool that i play in a band and her nephew wants to learn how to play guitar but doesn't want him to get any tattoos.

but anyway, we got home after seeing the sights (she called them 'the seven wonders of northern indiana' because she's annoying) and dropping the cameras off to get the film developed, we were sitting in the common area again and she starts tracing my tatts on my arm and she knows how i love that. she's all 'don't listen to marge, your tattoos are unique' and i would obviously never listen to marge because my tattoos are metal as fuck but she can't be tracing them on my arm like that in front of the nice old people we played checkers with two nights ago. so i ask if she's tired and she wants to go upstairs and she basically runs so fast that the lady who runs the inn had to come yell at us for being too loud.

we weren't too loud when we fooled around but if i had it my way, they would've been able to hear her in canada.

i haven't really had her solo in a long time. solo like, not playing a game or a roleplay. just me as eddie and her as her. she tried to slip into calling me daddy at first and any other day i would've went along with it, especially since steve wouldn't hear, but i just wanted it to be us tonight. i told her i wanted to give it to her nice. i don't even think either of us could breathe while we were going at it. i hadn't felt more connected to her in my life. i kept telling her how much i loved her and it kept making her cry so we had to keep stopping and starting which is fine because i kept almost busting way too quick for it to be okay.

we came at the same time and both had to shove our faces in the pillows so we wouldn't get in trouble again. can't believe we didn't break the bed.

she just got out of the shower and came out with my t-shirt on. i think she wants to go again and i'm gonna fuck her brains out. she already fucked my brains out.

sorry i didn't talk about anything legit today but i'm only a man, diary. i'm only a dumb fucking man who loves his girl.

-ed

#the steddieverse #vacation diaries

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wongyuseokie · 1 year

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Dolphin Like | l.s.m

Summary: Your boyfriend once screamed like a dolphin, and you want to know if he can scream like that during sex, too, so what do you do? Overstimulate him until he does.

☆ 18+ minors dni |☀︎fluff | ♕ smut | ♥ completed works Word Count: 341 words Pairings: Lee Seokmin x Female Reader Genre/Trope(s)/AUs: Smut & fluff Content Warnings: Smut and fluff. Honestly, it might just be pure crack at this point. Idk. Smut Warnings: Smut, unprotected sex (don’t do this), mentions of a blowjob and overstimulation. Authors Note: I'm referring to this video where DK screamed like a dolphin because of Udon Noodles, and this ask by the lovely @onlyseokmins, and then Elv very kindly put it in my head that DK could very possibly sound like a dolphin in bed...and now I'm here. I would have rushed this for your birthday, bby, but here's a very belated one. Also tagging my fellow Seokmin simp @the-boy-meets-evil because, heh. Banner Credits: @classicscreations © wongyuseokie 2023. All rights reserved.

“Fuck, baby, I can’t,” Seokmin whined as your lips wrapped around the tip of his cock, suckling softly. Normally your boyfriend wouldn’t ever whine about you giving him head. He enjoyed it a lot and was too shy ever to express how much he liked it. But now? After two orgasms, he was very sensitive, and he could not possibly cum again, not like this. But you wouldn’t give up. You had a loftier goal in mind.

“One more Seok, just one more baby,” you mumbled against his cock, making him groan as his cock vibrated against your words.

“Is this to get back all the times I’ve overstimulated you?” Seokmin asked, his eyes shutting as he tried to endure the sensitivity.

“Yes and no,” you responded.

“What, why no?” Seokmin asked.

“So,” you started to say, moving his cock away from your mouth and sitting up to face him.

“So?” Seokmin encouraged, his breathing evening out slightly.

“You remember that one time you screamed like a dolphin because of a plate of udon noodles?” You asked with a grin making Seokmin narrow his eyes at you.

“Yes, it was a traumatic experience, but why is it relevant now?” Seokmin asked.

“Well. I wanted to see if only udon noodles elicited such a scream from you,” you replied slyly, with a smirk.

“No, of course not, hang the fuck on,” Seokmin said, realisation hitting him.

“Is that why you’ve been making me cum so much? You wanted to see if I scream like a dolphin?” Seokmin exclaimed, and you grinned at him.

“Yes, now get comfy again so I can get you screaming like an aquatic animal,” you said with a grin, making Seokmin laugh.

“What if I faked screaming like a dolphin?” Seokmin offered, and you shook your head.

“No, no, has to be a legit dolphin cry,” you argued, making him laugh.

“Only udon noodles make me scream like a dolphin, baby,” Seokmin cooed, and you pouted and then smirked.

“Seok?”

“Yes.”

“How do you feel about food play?”

#seventeen #dokyeom #seokmin #seventeen smut #svthub #thekpopuniverse #kvanity #dolphin like: l.s.m #indigo writes: seokmin

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littleoanh · 2 years

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hi love! How are you! I hope you're ok!

I have a small request for headcanons about the beloved bonten men helping reader deal with cramps!

A/N: Hello my beloved ପ૮๑ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ๑ აଓ. Tbh, I am exhausted from work again (╥﹏╥). I really need a vacation ... but I'm okay because you are such a sweetie pie and I love hearing from you ♡. This is such a cute idea and I uh ... kinda probably went overboard with silliness lol. I hope you still love me after this Σ(O_O).

Warnings: Talking about menstrual cycle (not in depth), cramps, cursing, crack humor, talk about killing Mother Nature lol, and Ran being horny lol.

Fortunately he can base his experience with his little sister, Emma. So he somewhat knows the basics of what to do. He’ll not have you do anything and make sure you are comfortable.

He’ll task Koko to call your workplace to excuse you for a week to recover. And since Mikey always has him do it, he marks it on his calendar to make calls ahead of time.

He makes Sanzu run out to buy you some medicine, your favorite chocolates and snacks.

“How are you feeling?” “Shitty and bloated.” “What do you want me to do?” “Cuddle me.”

Slides right into bed with you, carefully spooning you and will rub your tummy if you ask.

This man does not have the slightest clue about the menstrual cycle. Even though he has a sister, Sanzu never paid attention and possibly left the Akashi household before Senju hit puberty.

He legit thought someone had brought you harm because you’re groaning in bed and he was getting his guns ready to kill whoever did this to you.

“Babe, you can’t kill Mother Nature.” “Who’s Mother Nature?” “…Are you fuckin’ for real right now?” Poor Sanzu had to deal with your wrath and you crying because everything hurts and your bf is an idiot.

Of course, the next time you have cramps, he learned from the previous month what he needs to do. Not pissing you off.

He buys you ice cream, chocolates, a heating pad and jokes about what he should offer you for a “sacrifice”. Let's just say things are thrown at him.

This Angel boy only learned about the menstrual cycle through school. He knows this happens once a month and that it varies from 5 to 7 days.

His heart nearly breaks when he sees you in a fetal position and crying in pain. He didn’t know this cramps came with it.

“Baby, what-what should I do?” “Can you give me a heating pad and medicine?” “Of course! I’ll be right back!”

Boy, he drove to the store like he is a race car driver. He rushed to the pharmacy area and pleaded with them to help him. The pharmacist was nice to point out what medication and supplements would help. They also offer advice to maybe do some light yoga to help reduce the pain.

Once he’s back, he gives you some meds and tells you about doing light yoga and he’ll happily do it with you. Fortunately the light yoga does help, so this is what you two will do together whenever you have cramps.

He is the calmest of all the executives when it comes to cramps. He has a little sister and of course, dated a few women, so he is experienced on how to deal with it.

Notices immediately when you scrunch your face, curling in bed, and trying not to make it obvious you’re in pain

“Drink this and take this.” “What’s this?” “Ginger tea with honey. This will help with relieving your cramps. I’m turning on the heating pad. Make sure to use this body pillow to keep you comfortable.”

To help with your bloating, he would make some healthy snacks and make sure you are drinking plenty of water.

He stays close to you in case you need something or need help getting up to go to the bathroom. He is at your beck and call.

He has plenty of girlfriends and ahem fwbs before to know each woman is different on how they deal with cramps.

However, he notices one thing they mostly have in common is… they are usually horny when they’re on their periods.

“What are you doing?” “Aren’t you in the mood?” “No, I’m fuckin hurting over here.” “You know what would help? Sex.” You smash a pillow on his face and tell him to get the fuck out.

Obviously now he knows you are not one to do the dirty deed while cramping. Next best thing is buying you chocolates, ice cream, and if he has your consent and you’re not in a bad mood… cuddle massage.

He will massage your shoulders, your back, and rub your tummy. You have to remind him a few times to keep the massage rated G.

Unfortunately, this cutie doesn’t have the slightest clue about cramps. Obviously he knows that women go through a menstrual cycle once a month but that’s the only extent of it.

The first time when he saw you in pain, this poor baby panicked and freaked the fuck out.

“WAIT, DON'T MOVE! I'LL CALL 911!” “Wait, Rin don’t-“ “HELLO?! SEND HELP! MY GIRLFRIEND IS IN PAIN AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO! IS THERE A PERIOD DOCTOR?!!”

You and the 911 dispatcher couldn’t stifle your laughter. Rin couldn’t understand what’s so funny, you had to take the phone away from him and tell the dispatcher that you will handle him.

After explaining what he needs to do to help, you couldn’t help but to call Ran and tell him what happened. You best believe Ran will tease the hell out of his brother.

This man is prepared like he’s going to war. He knows the date of your next menstrual cycle. He will even remind you that it’s coming.

He has all kinds of sanitary pads, essential oils, heating pad, and the most comfortable clothes for you to relax in.

The god of massages, his hands have some kind of healing powers. Prepares your bed, puts some heating pad on your tummy and massages your hands, legs, and feet.

“How’s the pressure, sweetheart?” “Really good.” “Anywhere else you need me to target?” “No, you’re getting them all.” “Good, after your massage, I’ll bring you something yummy to drink.”

His drinks are out of this world, it helps you with your cramps and bloating. Like what in god’s name is this? I need it.

He is aware some women have cramps and some don’t. In his dating history, the women he dated varied between having little to no cramps (lucky…).

He wakes up to hear you whimpering and clenching your stomach, it takes him a few minutes to realize you are having cramps.

“Baby, do you need some tea or water?” “Not right now.” “Do you want some snacks?” “Maybe later.” “Do you want to go on a walk?” “I’m kinda in pain right now.” “Do you-“ “… Kanji, are you reading off a list?” Turning around and finding him on his phone and staring at you like a deer in headlights. “… maybe.”

You have him grab your heating pad from the drawer and want him to hold you. He carefully spoons you, making sure he’s not irritating you.

After the cuddle sesh, Mochi goes ahead to make you some tea and bring you several snacks in bed. He kisses your forehead and tells you he is at your service.

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lastoneout · 5 months

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you absolutely do not need to respond if you don't want to but how does the "everything feels worse because i'm finally healing" differ from "everything feels worse because things really are that bad currently"? i always wonder if there's a way to tell them apart. glad you're getting recovering!

Imo the difference so far, is that back when I was still in an unsafe place that was making my trauma worse, between the hysterical sobbing meltdowns I just felt so....normal. I would freak out and break sometimes, but after that I would feel weirdly fine. Or even at times like I didn't have emotions at all? It was like my brain was going "there is no war in ba sing se" to protect me and keep me from freaking out too bad, and like it kinda was! My major coping mechanism has always been ignoring my emotions and shoving them all in a box until they aren't bothering me anymore. And when I was in those shitty situations that was helpful, because I needed to keep myself alive and I wasn't going to be able to do that if I was a sobbing mess all the time.

Also, the one time it got really, really bad, like I was so deep in a traumatic situation it was clearly just completely destroying me, I really did feel like that part in Inside Out where Riley's console just goes dark and none of her emotions can press any buttons. There was this overwhelming sense of dread and misery, and I could barely take care of myself at all. I stopped going to school and showering and I barely ate anything, I didn't talk to my friends, and tbh I did some stuff that I am SUPER not proud of, bcs my brain legit wasn't working at all, and it wasn't until I got out that I started feeling like a person again.

The pain of healing never feels like that. Yes, I am in a bad mental space a lot of the time, I'm depressed and I have nightmares that make me legit so depressed I spend the whole day crying, but there's like...idk this undercurrent of function and focus that wasn't there before. I can keep doing things WHILE being sad(for the most part), instead of only being able to function when I am repressing everything. And tbh it really does feel like I don't have a choice in the matter, which sounds bad but it's kinda nice? Like my brain is done repressing things and isn't going to let me do it anymore. Every time I try it's almost like there's a firm but kind voice in my head saying "no, we can't do that anymore, you have to face this, it's okay".

It's kinda weird too bcs the deeper into healing I get the less my old coping mechanisms help. Hell most of them don't even work anymore. As an example my mom got into a car wreck recently and she was in the hospital for a while, and when I found out I tried to go into my "no feelings no nonsense we have to be strong now" mode, but it didn't work?? I spent the whole time I was there crying, and like!! I actually was happy I was crying!! Because I've never been able to do that!! It's such a weird thing to be happy I'm upset but like, it means I'm making progress.

And that makes every single moment of misery bearable because I know I need this. I've needed this my entire life, and it hurts and is scary, and sometimes I do have to just zone out and play video games or spend a day in bed being sad, but I just...know it's the right thing. Idk how else to explain it, I just know.

It also helps that now I know what a happy, safe life looks like and I know it's there waiting for me. I know this work is worthwhile because I don't want to live my life the way I used to. And I am in a happy, supportive relationship that actively inspires me to work on myself and be a better person. I know not everyone has that, but framing it in a way where I am trying to be better not just for myself but for the people I love helps give me that extra bit of strength I need to keep going.

Anyway this is kinda rambly, sorry, but I did want to answer. If anyone else has any advice for anon feel free to add it on!! I have to go to therapy now lmao but when I'm done if I think of anything else I'll add it!

#long post #ask to tag #personal #okay to rb

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Your last post is funny bc just TODAY I watched that season finally. I’m literally 2 episodes into season 5 right now. As someone who just watched that for the first time (and hadn’t noticed it WAS the season finally when I started watching it) I was losing my goddamn MIND watching those episodes. Just constantly 😯😯😯. I began watching 911 when I started seeing posts circulating about Buck being bi. At the time I had no idea who he was other than the occasional gif set but it made me intrigued and I have been HOOKED. Literally trying to get through as many episodes as possible so I can watch the episodes live. Questions for you (since I have no one else to talk to about the show); when did you start watching? Have you had any predictions while watching the show that didn’t/ did come true? Like for me when I watched season 1 and Abby went to the fire department for the first time I SWORE up and down that her and Bobby were meant to be endgame (was clearly wrong lol). But also after Chris got stuck in the Tsunami I called it that something would happy to Harry later on (just a feeling that no one was safe lol, not even the kids). I’m just so curious to see what the fandom theories have been over time lol since I missed out on it!

Yeah, no, watching suspicion/survivors for the first time is WILD. Like, imma be honest and bit oversharing, I watched the show for the first time in a depressive episode, so I watched everything up to 5x10 in like, 6 days according to the posts I made on Tumblr about it, so I didn't realize theorize about anything, I was just hitting next episode like my life depended on it. But I didn't know anything about the show, like, at all, I had just watched 911 lone star in a weekend because it was on the tv and there were only like, 20 episodes of it out it at the time and a network in my country was just showing all of them on a loop, and I opened the Disney app fully intending to rewatch grey's anatomy, and 911 was the first show on my recommended to you list, and I had liked lone star enough, and was like sure why not. And I legit couldn't stop watching. All of this happened the week before 5x11 aired on the us, so 5x11 was the first episode I watched like "live" (the first episode I actually watched live was 5x16) but I watched it in the same week, I think I finished on a Tuesday? And the episode aired on Monday. I can't really give you any theories I have witnessed so far because they would be spoilers tho, but if you wanna come back once you catch up we can talk about some of the madness that goes around here. But I had the same thing happen to me, I didn't realize it was the season finale, and I didn't know anything about the show, so I had no idea what was happening, and I thought I had learned my lesson with the tsunami arc, because I watched 3x01 at like 3 am fully saying this is the last episode I will watch and then I'm gonna go to bed, and then the tsunami hit, and I was like well fuck and then Chris fell in the water and next thing I know is 5 am and Eddie is making me cry at the end there. But I saw the 13 and didn't realize the season only had 14 episodes and then everything kept happening. I seriously cannot imagine what it was like to be forced to wait a week between those 2 episodes it was SO CRAZY. When Eddie got shot I legit froze. Watching that for the first time not knowing it's coming is SOMETHING. I do remember thinking that they were gonna kill Shannon but I didn't expect to be right, I also remember clocking that Jason was Doug pretty fast. Something funny tho, I remember posting that meme that's like "I've had blank for 1 day and a half but if anything happened to him I'd kill everyone in this room and myself" with Buck and I waited until I had been watching for a day and a half, that means I posted it while watching the season 2 finale. I hit post and the truck blew up and I legit went like ????????? and that is still the most ironic thing that ever happened to me while posting about 911 kspskspkspakapkapa (here's the post, I actually came back to edit the tags because I was in shock lol) and I laugh every time I remember that lol but I'm glad you're enjoying the show, you can come back to talk to me about it any time!;

#i feel very luck to not know whats coming never in this show #i mean #we did know a few things with promos and stuff but like #i never had any major spoiler going into any episode for the first time and i love that #anon 😌#i really need a tag for asks #911

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rocketturtle4 · 9 months

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The Eclipse Episode 11

I'm just straight out reacting to this one folks (it ended up super long like this whoops)

@grapejuicegay @wen-kexing-apologist @plantsarepeopletoo @thegalwhorants

oh god is this the cliff?

TEACHER CHADOK WHY IS HE HERE, were they actually together??

Wait did HE WITNESS IT?

Ayan is unpacking the brainwashing

"If I just disappear from this world..." DOESN'T AYAN HAVE ENOUGH TRAUMA

and CRYING

I gotta be honest Ayans silent tears get me even more than Akks vocal quivers

Oh if only it were that easy

Oh they in bed again: Cuteness ensues

I love it when characters have nicknames for each other, shortstop and Big foot are my beloveds

Oh if only

He's going in wearing Ayan's blazer this feels important.

So he's definitely getting the award? oof it feels worthless, boy's faith has been shattered

call back to the pin "It's my school pin that I pinned for you" GOD HES GOING IN WEARING AYAN AS ARMOUR

Maybe Thua wanted the award??? (I'm still trying to figure him out sorry Thua you don't make sense)

And we see the person the principal is answering too

Is no-one going to speak???

Oh Thua saw that

They're speaking, oh he got the award

SO CLOSE TO GETTING OUT OF THERE WIthOUT THE PROteStORS

AH NO THEY DON'T, HAVE YOU NOT BEEN PAYING ATTENTION?

oh no Ayan looks riled

FUCK

oh and Thua TOO

NO!! CHAOS

IT SHOULDN'T BE AKKS PROBLEM KHAN

Okay that teacher seems legit scared

OH GOD THUA

OKAY I DIDN"T SAY THIS AT THE TIME BUT I LITERALLY THOUGHT: THAT POOL IS CLEAR BOYS

Fuck he outed them

oh Thua is just laying it ALL OUT

AKK ADMITED IT, BOY IS BREAKING (Thua you got a point but I'm on Ayan's side here soz)

Wat is trying to HELP, Khan is helping too

and the situation is diffused

Oh Wat seems hurt

CRYYYYYYYING

Oh he finally said he's not okay (non-verbally but I'll take it)

(is he though? Who is he then?)

OH KHAN IS PISSED ABOUT THE LYING (Fair he totally believed in the curse)

"You guys must be dissapointed in me right" MY FEEEELINGS

Yeah Wat is pissed about the lying too

I'm still SCARED OF THUA

The last boss LMFAO

OH WOW AKK is letting it out!!

OH THEY WERE TOGETHER I KNEEEEEWWWW ITTTTTT

And now feckin Chadok is crying

But THEN WHY THE LYING????

Fricken pride flag phone case

THey were getting MARRIED???

Feckin Principal is a homophobe

So he WAS TRANSFERRED??

CHAIN OF YELLING FOR THE GODDAMN

OH MY GOD IT'S HAPPENING

I WAS RIGHT ABOUT EVERYTHING

HOLY CRAP

HE WANTED TO KEEP THE MOMENTUM

Dudes got a point but also Akk was breaking so that was the priority here

Oh poor Khan is so confused right now

Thua just wanted all the truth out oh boy this was not the way

Oh he went in prepared for the quencies

and doesn't want Kan to protect him because then he'd be a hypocrite (also more silent crying ouch)

He had genuinely thought it all through and decided it was worth it Oh Thua.

We're back at the pool I'm going to get emotional whiplash

is Namo just chill now? OH LOL KHAN THOUGHT THE SAME boy is pure worship I'm sorry Namo

ARE THEY ACTUALLY GOING TO DO THE FILM (YO I didn't expect to predict this much stuff am I dreaming now)

Oh we're being referential now (thailands soft power)

Back to the pool and now our other boys

GO KHAN GO (but maybe check with Thua first) oH Thua's on board

Dudes they're filming LMFAO

Of course Akk said it for the first time like that lol

OKAY gotta be honest everything came out in a neat little bow almost exactly the way I thought it would. And that was amazing but also less terrifying than I thought it would be. THe show didn't lie and it was well foreshadowed, I thought something would twist on me but it didn't (Except that Chadok was in deeper than I thought with the uncle) and I love that because the answers all made sense. I don't think we're done though, quencies gotta happen right?

Episode 12 come to me

#The Eclipse #the eclipse the series #rturts is wondering #roc reacts to the eclipse

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Since I decided the best way to make it through Our Skyy 2 with minimal damage is to drink my way through it, welcome to the second round of

CockTails in the Skyy!

This week's drink is Sun & Stars to celebrate my two precious Sunflowers (JOONGDUNK!) in Star in My Mind:

gin & tonic (to balance the bitter and sweet of this pair's dynamic)

pineapple juice (for that beach vibe)

elder flower syrup and vanilla bean sugar on the rim to add to the sickly sugariness I know I'm in for

"You are every shade of yellow for me, Daonuea."

I made it strong because I already know what happens for SeanMaithee, and with no further tears to cry, let's get this wedding party started, so I can be properly upset.

Bottoms up!

That was a very Lana del Rey's "National Anthem" beginning: "I love him. I love him. I love him."

"How many times did you make me cry? How many times did you break my heart?" <- gin & tonic was the right choice

Too much sweetness (pineapple juice), but I think it will sort itself out with the looks Daonuea is giving right now

The water bottles are blurred, so I'm taking that as a sign to only drink alcohol for these episodes.

Sean and Maithee are too hugged up with each other for this to go the way I know it'll go. I'm already bitter <-gin & tonic was the ONLY choice

The dental students stay doing the most. Mork in Fish Upon the Sky was basically a one-man EMT, Ana in Love Mechanics and Future is checking everyone's temp, and now Kluen is saving all the girlies. Where are the future doctors at?! Coasting?

Hold on! Is Typhoon a future medical doctor? I thought he was a dentist too? Still Dr. Typhoon, but why aren't the doctors doing their volunteer hours in any show ever?!

Min's friend is ON THE GROUND and she is trying to flirt. Priorities, my girl.

Hearing Maithee say he has a date WITH A GIRL, just to hear "O Come All Ye Faithful" right afterwards got me effed up. This is chaotic.

Daonuea is still wearing that sunflower bracelet! Thank goodness for the product placement, so I could see it.

Palm and Kluen both telling their men that they are all they need in life is some real water sign bs. Where are my fire signs?!

Oh snaps! The first episode is already done!

More Sun & Stars for episode 2

Since I'm already a Bitter Body, I went heavy-handed with the gin and skipped the pineapple juice for the second episode. Good choice.

The scene going from Daonuea and Kluen being all lovey-dovey immediately to Typhoon looking at them in his feelings felt like a personal attack. Alexa, play Sam Smith's "I'm Not Here to Make Friends" 'cause "I NEED A LOVER!"

I legit stopped the show so I could hear that song, and now Phoon wants to confess he has someone. Another attack!

The friend group being disgusted by these two is the only appropriate response.

Kluen is being a damn water sign again with his response about how he would feel if they never meet again. You are both 10s, sir! Start acting like it! I just need one of these Bl boys to pop off like Cardi B - "I'm a boss bitch! Who you gonna leave me for?"

There is ham and cheese in the spaghetti. Is that a thing?

"Why did you two stop fighting?" - Because they joined the music club and exchanged colors, duh.

I cannot be rational about JoongDunk. I CANNOT!

Prince was too busy talking to his time-traveling boyfriend in Midnight Museum to film a cameo, I see.

Everyone walking away from Pawin is why I'm a captain of the "Pawin's Milkshake Brings All the Boys to the Yard" step team

Daonuea saying Noel is hard to approach is SLANDER!

Kluen is salty like them Lay's chip GMMTV snatched from WinTeam and Between Us with all these boys in his room.

I'm so glad Typhoon and Daonuea can be friends too considering the violence that ensued last time.

God, I miss the (unnecessary) drama.

I noticed this on The Warp Effect, but Joong stays looking soft yet sensual.

Where is King's mom from Bed Friend to dunk on this ring? Because this ain't it, sir. Is the star a sapphire? Is the center of the sunflower a pearl? Diamond? ¿Qué es esto?

Rose petals are romantic and all, but let's stick to the theme. Where are the sunflower petals?!

What in the Blair Witch Project was that tree lantern thing?

Kluen saying he used up all his luck snagging Daonuea is so . . . he is a Cancer? A Pisces?! WHAT IS THIS?! He was not laying it on this thick in the show.

Oh, thank goodness, it ended right when I ran out of gin.

For the rating, the drink and the episodes were too sweet, yet somehow still very bitter because no SeanMaithee. I got JoongDunk, a proposal, and alcohol, so I'll take my wins where I can get them.

7/10 CockTails for doing its job but being bittersweet.

I'm going to have to make my Jack Nasty much stronger than I planned for next week's episodes of The Eclipse considering we are getting that strange teacher/student relationship.

"this is a god damn bitch of an unsatisfactory situation"

#Our Skyy 2 #Star in My Mind #episodes 3 & 4 #kluen x daonuea #Cocktails in the Skyy

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