Johnny as not being able to accept or react to anything normally.

He accepts things in breathless gasps, cold sweat tracing his spine, wide eyed and gripping his shirt in a frenzy.

He accepts love like a prayer, reverent and beautiful. Yes, yes, yes, let me see. Let me see all of you. Let me know that I am yours and you are mine. He loves with all his heart, gives his liking out scarcely. It eats him from inside out, the way obsession and possessiveness work. It’s a finniky thing, something soap always had trouble with. One day he could be in complete safety, knowing that he is loved, and he will love more. Others, he sobs in despair for all those who will never love again, for the love that he will receive that will never be enough, not enough, and too much. Two sides of his brain thread their fingers through his mind, grab on his hair and yank. It forces him to bear his throat, open and exposed, as if to say see? I will be vulnerable. Bite on me. Bite down. In hopes of the other trusting him enough to sink their canines into tainted blood.

He accepts joy with excitement, as if an addict returning into the safe embrace of its drug. A childish response, he guesses, but anyone would find themselves yearning to be happy as well. The highs are high, and the lows are real low. He knows when to accept joy on its own, pure form, and not think about anything else. It’s something sacred to him, precious and fragile as glass. But he knows no one needs his excitement. No one needs his explosive emotions and no one needs him. That’s okay. Soap has spent his entire life accepting that fact.

In the meantime, Johnny will wrap his hands around himself in a pathetic attempt at self-comfort, and repeats a mantra in his head. Less is more. Less is more. Less is more.

can we show more interest, love, and appreciation for plus sized lees????? thanks

I do wanted to get replies today but I had an eye appointment, and my vision is still hazy. My eyes are also aching. I’m gonna try and get stuff done tomorrow.

raise ur hand if u think i should quit my job where i am under appreciated and treated like absolute garbage? i have had a 2 week notice prepared for 2 years now… should i use that bitch this holiday season?

Hi lovelies! Long time no post 😝 sorry for being missing for the past week…I started a new job and work early mornings. So I’m trying to adjust because I’m NOT one to get up early. Hope everyone is well! I will start back posting every weekend since I’m working all week. ☺️ I’ll still be on here but my posts are going to be limited.

Welcome to all my new followers!

Also, for those that were asking or wondering, yes my forever in San Myshuno story is still happening. Just life is busy now that I’m working. 😩 anyway! I’m off!

Tomorrow I have a doctors appointment with the guy who’s been my doctor since I was 3 months old lol, and hopefully I’ll finally get some more answers about the diagnosis another doctor thinks I have.

When I have more answers I can start sharing more with both my irl’s and you guys, and start on working with myself mentally on how to best deal with whatever this is.

birthday girl

katara sees her brother and bff approaching something that can make them happy and says no interruptions

based on this photo from the live action cast

I’m so sorry for talking about my classes but if I have to be exhausted and awake and spending hours on hours doing homework, then I will be sharing my thoughts

her name is Tensai and she has a socmed dependence problem

mirabels bitch face !!

she’s so real

flirterers

Another doodle of my babygirl Shane 💕✨

I really wanted to see more of them tbh

I feel like now is a good time to announce that I’m in the process of moving blogs! Im doing so for a few reasons, the main one being paranoia, so for that reason I won’t be saying my new urls publicly so like please dm me if you’d like my new url so you can follow me there! I’ll be reblogging this post a lot so ppl can see it (so sorry if you get annoyed by that)!

I’m also remaking my discord account as well so if we’re friends on there then feel free to message me for my new username!

friends and mutuals please do reblog so shared friends/mutuals have a higher chance seeing it!

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