#i thought they were applied lol | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

meaningless-mayhem · 6 months

Text

Being asexual and possibly aromantic but also being a huge shipper and hopeless romantic is such a wild experience ngl. I'm always freaking out about my favorite ships and giggling internally reading ship fics, getting invested in characters finally kissing or reading about their pining and their love and I think "I want what they have!!"

But then sometimes you have a slamming realization that your sweet shipping scenarios you imagine in your head look totally different irl and that you are extremely aspec.

One time I went down a YouTube rabbit hole and stumbled across Vsauce's "Why Do We Kiss?" video and let me tell you. When I saw that stock video footage of two people kissing each other I was a little flabbergasted lmaooo

#i mean this doesn't apply to all aspecs obviously but like #that stock video footage #they were kissing but it was more sucking each others faces and i was like wait #do people actually do this #lmaoo #it lowkey repulsed me oops #it hit me so hard but it also kind of validated my asexuality a bit too lol #ace #asexual #asexuality #aro #aromantic #aromanticism #aroace #this also may be because i dont watch live action shows or movies that much but still #does anyone else feel like this #ill be hardcore shipping something but i see one minute of irl relationship stuff and feel extremely disconnected #idk if im making sense #id like to hear some thoughts #might delete later but just wanted to get my thoughts out there #someone's probably said something like this before #edit: adding tags #yeah for me imagination of my ships kissing 👍👍👍💖💖#vs #footage of irl people kissing/live action kissing scenes 🫠#fandom #fanfic #fanfiction #my rambles

910 notes · View notes

marshmallowgoop · 8 months

Text

I combined footage from my Detektiv Conan Blu-ray with audio from my Case Closed FUNimation DVD and made an HD English dub clip compilation for Episodes 57-58, "The Holmes Freak Murder Case."

#detective conan #case closed #video #funimation english dub script #i wasn't actually gonna post this video to tumblr because it's so long (because i have a lot of feelings about this case!)#but folks on discord liked it and i'm all about my funi dub propaganda so why not right?#the dub script here is just so fun--and does so well at making the dialogue *work* and sound natural in english #and has so much flavor! it does arguably too much in terms of creative liberties but things like #'can i really trust what a kid saw?' of the sub translation compared to 'and what were you smoking before you ran out there?' in the dub #are much more enjoyable to me #(other fun phrasings: 'the one who's always hangin' around you guys' (sub) vs. 'the little-bitty one with the great big brain!' (dub))#(and 'of course not! the reason i applied for this tour was 'cuz i thought i might find kudo' (sub))#(vs. 'who me? no no no. actually i signed up because i was hoping to run into jimmy here. but i guess i'm out of luck' (dub))#(and so many more! this script just has so much character)#and while it is a shame that the dub eliminated heiji's accent i do like the changed line ('i know it's you!')#'cause you've met shinichi *once* heiji lol #but yeah this is a fun case! i'm really happy to have finally hd'd the funi dub for it :')#one of my favorite things about the funi dub is that jerry jewell (shinichi's va) voices conan's thoughts #and it's so nice to hear *shinichi* and heiji deducting together (and the way they finish each other's thoughts and vibe... it gets to me)

334 notes · View notes

sysig · 6 days

Photo

Time Loops are they/them culture (Patreon)

Bonus of my little guy in ISaT style:

#Doodles #Pixel art #ISaT #Siffrin #Loop #And then I still don't have even a code name for smol and my time loop concept lol #I'm sure you can imagine my excitement upon seeing a time loop RPG <3 #Not to be silly but the thought of either of us picking up the wavelength and running with it is fun to me haha ♪#I...may or may not have developed brainworms about it it's fine lol #Good characters! Good story! I'm always a sucker for a tragedy with bright spots <3 It's hard to even call the ending bittersweet tho hehe #It's very sweet! Like sugar :) Hehe #Shock of shocks I - person who has done this how many times now - liked the dynamic between Sif and Loop best haha #Is it spoilers if it requires past knowledge of my faves hmmm inconclusive lol #These were just introduction doodles - not even Getting Used To doodles yet a step before that!#Fun designs :D I like Sif's hair a lot <3 The way it's two-tone because he likes black! Adorable! And cowlicks hehehe #And eyepatch hehehe Sif's design is so fun ♪#What no my time loop shop keep lad having a hat like that has no bearing! I'm completely unbiased! Lol #For the pixel art I did directly just use Siffrin's hat in shape haha I just added the belt and buckle ouò #Man it's been too long since I've played with pixel art it's still so fun <3 #Someday I'll get Aseprite. Someday #In the meanwhile it was fun to make their colour palette :D #I love that ISaT is in black and white canonically as well I think it's really cool ♪#Me when monochrome red 💕💖😭🤌💗#It is simply The Best colour palette out there I'm sorry others need not apply #Again my pencils and blood pen surely give away none of my biases because I don't have any lol #Hrmng I want SASASAP too pixel art cool - the glow up in ISaT is only strengthened by looking at the original closely!#Ah well I'll just admire at a distance until then <3

36 notes · View notes

sugarsnappeases · 3 months

Text

thank you for the tag @fxreflyes this is so cute, except the format is trying to hinder my propensity to ramble, so i’ve rectified this in the tags lmao

i’m over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i don’t often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / i’ve never dated anyone / i have a best friend i’ve known for over five years / i am an only child

no pressure tags for @static-radio-ao3 @inevitablestars @itsjaywalkers @carniferous @orbitfalls @transsexualpriest @futurequibblerjournalist <333

#i'm like 5'7 i think. fun fact i used to wear glasses when i was like 11 bc all my friends were getting glasses and i wanted some too so i #lied to my optician. lol good times. don't actually need glasses tho soooo.#this is me coming out as a natural blonde guys….. like my hair hasn’t been blonde in a good year or so and it hasn’t been my natural blonde #in like three/four years but still in my heart of hearts i identify as a blonde. like i get confused when people don't count me as one #i have my ears and nose pierced and i would love a tattoo but unfortunately i have both a fear of needles and commitment issues so.#not sure if that’ll ever happen… would be very hot and sexy tho. also i'm one of those freaks with green eyes lol it's appaza quite rare #my hair is currently like dark dark brown… have been getting the itch to dye it again tho like a kinda reddish colour idk yet we’ll see #i had braces for AAGES. i have freckles in the summer and i paint my nails whenever i remember to. rn they’re a very chipped lilac colour #i think i have a resting bitch face but i can never tell tbf like it might be more of a resting 'dead to the world' face lmao #okay technically i don’t play an instrument anymore! but in the past i’ve dabbled with the cello the oboe and the xylophone. singing too #spanish and italian baybee although ig if this means like fluently then that’s not me but this is literally my degree it’s my whole brand #yes i like to read but also the only things ive read in like the last few months have been either books in spanish/italian for my degree #literary criticism for said span/ital books and… fanfic. so. also i like writing but it's my worst enemy rn the thoughts aren't working :(#i have many best friends that i’ve known for years!!!! in fact i've known some of my friends for like my entire life it's very cute #okay sorry for rambling i can never help myself and i also literally could go on icl like there was Some restraint applied here #kara lore #bc there's quite a lot of it in this one lol #tag games

22 notes · View notes

shima-draws · 5 months

Text

I just finished Skypeia AGHHHFJHHHH it was so GOOD

#One Piece #My favorite arc BY FAR #It was really long! But it wasn’t Alabasta long!!#Also Noland’s backstory deadass made me tear up that shit was so sad #Idk this arc just really kept me hooked. Like there wasn’t really a point I got super bored #Even with all the fights going on #Also just realizing they mentioned Noland in OPLA too. Nami read Zoro the book while he was totally conked out #Anyway ANYWAY I really enjoyed it. Lots of fun character interactions #And Usopp actually getting to do stuff too?? MY MANS #Oh and Zoro’s look this arc. God he was STYLIN. I’m so weak for a man in goggles shut up.#Logically that should apply to Usopp too and you know what. Yeah.#G8 is next and I know it’s filler but I’ve heard nothing but praise for it #So I’ll probably watch it instead of skipping :’D #Shima speaks #Also I find it stupidly ridiculous and funny that YET AGAIN Oda said ‘Lol you thought x character was dead?? SIKE’#Wiper got electrocuted and died like eight times but he’s fine actually. Also Sanji and Usopp got electrocuted too and were out #for like a full day. And then Enel zapped them AGAIN and Usopp was back on his feet like two minutes later.#Silly anime logic. It doesn’t make sense and I love it

30 notes · View notes

moregraceful · 2 days

Text

someone cold emailed me to ask if i was going to a writer's conference in los angeles and was putting together a panel or caucus for queer poets or if i knew anyone who was...buddy you are severely overestimating how much i network with other poets (i don't) and how often i attend writer's conferences (never) 😭

#''do you know of any other poets going'' no?? bc i hate networking with other poets????#LIKE ARE THEY LESS ANNOYING THAN WHEN I WAS 23? IDK? MAYBE?#i feel like most things these days are less annoying than when i was 23 #or maybe i'm just better equipped to deal with annoying things than when i was 23 #yesterday i was talking to someone about my ethos wrt a class i ran last fall and he stopped me in the middle and was like #you're amazing. that class was a hot mess and you still had fun and found the good in it #like no i'm not amazing. i'm just in my thirties and it takes a lot more than other people's mental health crises to throw me off my game #he was pretty ticked off in the fall when i told him the like depth of crisis multiple students were in bc he thought i should have told hi #i was like idk it did not occur to me to ask for help. he was like you're doing daily check ins to make sure your students are eating??#idk!! it didn't bother ME my job was just to make sure they were still alive! i mean my job was actually to teach liberation theology but #like i was not good at that. but i DO know how to be annoying until people feel less like killing themselves and more like killing me #anyway all that to say i can't wait to see how much less bothered i am in my 40s #i hope i have reached such a state of zen by age 50 that my spirit is unruffled by anything and anyone #i hope i float through life in a fine mist of okayness #someone says ''oh my god kasper my life is falling to pieces'' and i say ok 👍 we can get through this together👍#what was this post about??? oh right networking #good networking: librarians bc you just go ''is your manager batshit insane'' and they go THIS PLACE MAKES ME SUICIDAL #and then you're friends for life #bad networking: poets (when i was 23) because all they do is name drop (when i was 23) and expect you to have opinions (i don't)#this post is wildly overconfident in my zen considering i'm so bored of being unemployed that i keep looking at teamworkonline #bhawks are hiring for a social media manager btw. imagine having that kind of access to mr 🥺. i'd literally only do paid advertising #to gay men #i'm not applying bc social media management would actually break my sobriety i am pretty sure #but imagine having connor bedard at your disposal and being like ok kid. we r gonna catfish some gays into caring about the bhawks #basically what i do with the cuda blog lol #ok ok ok i'm done. posting. goodbye. livejournal mode de-activate #fresno oilers.txt

11 notes · View notes

inkedmyths · 1 month

Text

It's not necessarily a knock on ppl but man there's something about being in a fandom and seeing people who's lineup of favorite ships are all the most. Like. Hetbait ships? You know what I mean?

And it's like one or two you can go "yeah I get it, there's at least some canon backing to it" but when that's all they're into and it leaves you going like. Where's your imagination dude these are all so... basic. Like it's not even necessarily that they're straight ships it's that they're the most surface level things you could come up with. And some of this is dependent on the way they treat their ships ofc but still

And its not even that they come across as anti-queer (at least outwardly) its just the general feeling that the idea of something that isn't a heterosexual romance even crosses their minds. They live in a little vanilla bubble, and you're watching them floating along, wondering how they can't be so so bored

#ink thinks #it depends on the fandom and the person tbh. like if the person only really ships one or two things and they happen to he straight #then that's a different situation than someone who is kind of a self-proclaimed shipper or whatever #and they show u 10 different ships in the same media and they're all straight. then u at least kinda go 'hm'#and its not even that its a lack of gay ships necessarily but the general impression also that #they struggle with just letting ppl of opposite genders be friends lmao #it's not Het Ships Bad it's. the heteronormativity of the way they go about it #and also the lack of variety. which is actually something i'll say applies to ppl who only show you m/m ships #where's ur women.#sorry. huge tangent. i just think ppl need to broaden their horizons and think its weird when they don't #TO BE FAIR YES this is me being queer and forgetting how many people still don't really grasp things outside a cishet mindset #which to me comes across as childish bc that was the way i thought before i was like. 13 and realized there were more options lol

9 notes · View notes

sapphicsnzs · 2 months

Text

im so grateful for this corner of the internet where i can just get my frustrations out

#self obs #i will delete this later but i just need to get it out #i told my two best friends about how i got rejected and they both were just like move on lol #like i don’t think they realize how awful i feel right now like literally that was my dream and im scared im never gonna be able to do it #i also somehow have to tell my parents and that’s a whole different problem #my parents are already up my ass about me quitinh my job for no reason #well basically i think they’re trying to get me to move home for the summer which doesn’t make sense to quit my job i’ve been working at #for almost a year to come back and get a job for a month #but like i can’t think of another reason that my parents would randomly want me to quit my job #so i’m stressed about that and now i also have to tell them i got rejected and now i can’t start the part of my degree that i need for my #fucking job and fuck i’m so stressed and don’t know what to do #and im just like so embarrassed and everyone is acting like its not a big deal even tho like if i apply again i probably won’t even get it #because i didn’t even make it past the interview phase and anyways im just so upset with myself and everything #i like actually thought my life was turning around and i was gonna be happy finally but nope #anyways this is just me sobbing and trying to let out my frustrations because no one will actually listen or validate that i’m upset #whatever im gonna go drink some wine and probably pass out on the floor of my room

7 notes · View notes

laufire · 3 months

Text

honestly it was completely unnecessary to give jason a temporary/casual love interest in what amounts to a flashback story that'll have zero repercussion on canon, and the way the writer goes about it is very generic and more proof to me of how little he knows jason tbqh (and thus might not be willing to do anything with him that might be too ~impactful). especially if you're gonna half-ass it, which is what it looks like. my only hope of being wrong is that her being a lawyer is actually used for something.

#even then: not the lawyer i was lowkey crack shipping him with lol #(i had a moment in tmwsl where i was like... i could go for jason/manhunter. just for kicks)#(kicks being ''milf? with issues? could bond about wanting to kill joker?'' those are elements i could do something with if i were so incli #(just sayin')#(this was also before realising rose and jason are supposed to be a thing at present time)#(but i'm gonna be real with you: although i like them in theory i wasn't sold on it there)#(<- applies to all other jason canon pairings i know so far)#talking to the void #my thoughts #dc #dc thoughts #dc comics #tuesday spoilers #red hood: the hill #jason todd

12 notes · View notes

ilostyou · 5 months

Text

*googles how to not be sad anymore*

#this isn’t even about depression lol though. same thought applies #how to not be sad about something without a resolution 😃 when you know you were wronged almost intentionally 😃#am currently a sad lump of clay in bed #even though i have so fucking much i need to be doing before tomorrow

5 notes · View notes

pepprs · 8 months

Text

i cannot express enough how damaging it is mentally and emotionally that i still live here 🤣

#purrs #the way everything is ALWAYS my fault! the way that my parents are gods who can never make any mistake or admit to wrongdoing and everything #they ever do is justified but then when i (a fully grown adult) also try to explain when i didn’t do anything wrong or when it’s not #actually my fault it doesn’t apply lol. the way i am asking for permission for things THEY SHOUKD BE ASKING ***ME*** for permission for LOL #the way i found out only recently (yeah.) that im still legally / financially a dependent 😍😍😍😍😍😍 awesome. lolololol. the way i can’t get out #of the quicksand until i get out of the quicksand but in order to get out of the quicksand i have to be able to get out of the quicksand 😻🙏🏻#delete later #btw i just finished my first homework assignment ive had to do in a year and 3 months and my first class is in 15 hours. what if i *** rn.#also it occurred to me the other day like. i have always thought of myself as selfish and imparient but also… these were things my parents #were telling me i was / treating me like i was as young as 3-4 years old as evidenced by the video tapes. and like. what if that’s not #actually how i was / am and everything i did and needed and do and need was valid and justified and what if all the bad things i believe(d)#about myself were / are because they told me that’s who i was and i was too little to know they were wrong. 🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯

10 notes · View notes

mariemariemaria · 3 months

Text

the people who think that christianity is the worst most problematic religion ever and the people who think that islam is the worst most problematic religion ever are two sides of the same coin to me

#mind blank no original thoughts no nuance #not actually caring about women and other people who are negatively effected by the religion.#if you don't care about all women who are oppressed by religion then you don't care about any women #like the ppl on here who criticise xianity all the time for being sexist or homophobic #but then refuse to do that for any other religion?? ok so u dont actually care about women and gay people beyond ur culturally xian bubble👍#meanwhile they refuse to recognise that xians are oppressed in many parts of the world alongside other religious groups like muslims #just completely western centric #this isn't to deny that christianity is oppressive like ofc there's valid criticisms of it #personally i think the catholic church should be dismantled lol #but it is not uniquely oppressive and to pretend it is is to position victims of religious oppression in a hierarchy #with xians at the top while ignoring other victims and refusing to build up solidarity with them #and u could say that this is an online problem but it's not. its so pervasive in the actual world bc ppl are either focused on their own #experiences (which is understandable to an extent but still pls look at the world around u lol) or they are so focused on defeating bigotry #that they ignore any and all criticisms of another religion. which also is not helpful and actually damages their cause #not to mention the people who are actively harmed by forms of that religion everyday #this doesn't just apply to these two religions obviously but unfortunately this dominates western social cultural debate #like i think you could definitely make parallels here with irish history and politics and how the liberalisation of both the north and the #south is a key part of the peace process. northern protestants became more at ease & trusting of the roi when it started to liberalise and #develop out of essentially being a catholic theocracy. northern catholics were more accepting of the existence of ni when protestant #domination and the protestant churches/o.o. could no longer decide government actions #a united ireland is more likely now because the republic has (largely) thrown off the shackles of the catholic church #like in the late 20th century northern protestants were generally fearful of the republic and considering divorce wasnt legal there until #the 90s it was with good reason. it wasnt all in their heads lol #idk i just think there's similarities there #posting this against my better judgement. please engage in good faith if you engage at all lol

3 notes · View notes

theflyingfeeling · 1 year

Text

stupid stupid stupid stupid I am so fucking stupid

(LONG rant in the tags. originally a little longer still but apparently there were too many tags so tumblr deleted the rest lol)

#ahahahaha so i applied for a (fixed-period) job that was like. right up my alley?#and i was one of the two applicants and they invited me to a Teams interview which was supposed to be last monday #but when i heard the other applicant is someone who's been working for them for the past semester i was like 🤡#hmmmm i do wonder which one of us they'll hire!! 🙂#and i was crushed because why can't things go my way for once #being a job-seeker in this area on my field is so stressful and depressing if you don't have the right connections #so i cancelled the interview with an email on the morning of the interview #because i just couldn't motivate myself to go even for practice. i just couldn't #i did consider calling the place and asking if the sitauation was like i suspected #but i didn't because i am not a fully functional adult ✌️🤷‍♀️#well. today i noticed that they have opened the position again 🤡#which means that for one reason or another they're not going to hire the person who's been doing that exact job for them before?#and now i'm crying because lmao what kind of impression i'll be giving of myself #if i call them now and tell them why i cancelled the interview?#''yeah so i stood you up because i'm a hardened pessimist and thought i had no chance pls hire me lol''#who's gonna want to hire a loser like this 🙃 a loser who couldn't even bother calling them like a normal adult would've #and also what if my employment agency finds out i didn't go to the interview? they could cancel my allowance ahahahahahAAHAHAHAHHAHAHAAA #god i hate being unemployed and i hate job seeking so much it hurts #my self-confidence is nowhere near it should be if you were actually to do well in job interviews etc.#''why do you think you'd be good for this job?'' I'M NOT! YOU'LL BE DEFINITELY BETTER OFF HIRING ANYONE ELSE!!#and some people's advice for job interviews be like ''just be yourself!'' like honey no #if i'm myself at a job interview absolutely no one's gonna want me ahaha #job-seeking is just so fucking crushing and humiliating #like. when you're studying and you have an exam? you can study for it as hard as you can and try to do your best #and you'll get the grade you deserve. if someone gets the highest grade it doesn't effect YOUR chance to get the highest grade as well #but when applying for a job? you can write a splendid application text and answer the interview questions as best as you can #but if there's another applicant that's significantly more qualified or experienced than you they WILL be hired over you #so you can try your best and IT'S STILL NOT ENOUGH #and that's why i didn't go to the job interview. because i wanted to protect myself from that heartbreak again #doing the best i can and still not getting the job

13 notes · View notes

potpiehead · 6 months

Text

ive been more depressed lately

#if you cant tell #during the summer i had some zest for life and felt actually happy lol but with the turn of the season it just disappeared.. so annoying lo #i keep having thoughts that boil down to "id be happier if i were happier' like lol #i know that spending time with my friends and family; always having something going on; engagine with my interests and keeping myself busy #all make me feel good and i think those things came easier over the summer #when im doing something of interest i just feel this whole world open up and everything feels lighthearted and easy and then when i fall ou #of those habits and start doing less everythig just feels dark #the depression i have now is 100x better than the depression i had as a teenager though. i didnt have the life experience to know that #things could be better #it does make me feel good to know that there are things that help #i just feel so mentally weak like there are times when i think of the thing i want to do but the effort it would take is monumental #and it stresses me the fuck out #i applied to a couple of jobs today because i just need a change of fucking scenery and i feel stagnant.#evereythig feels bleak and meaningless but i have moments where i feel everything open up. idk #i have hope for myself lol just that today in particular has been shitty like a concentrated version of the past few months #but i did apply to jobs which is something i was stressing about! and i bought some shit i needed to buy that i kept putting off #i often have so much on my mind and am so overwhlemed i cant even think of getting shit done. this shit is ruining everything #catastrophizing was my specialty in early high school ive been here before its just that being a young adult is a new frontier.#and i feel like ive been sitting in one place not moving even though i have been doing things i need to CHANGE things #i have moments of strength but i know that overall im struggling.#anyway thanks for reading. i have work tomorrow gn!

2 notes · View notes

milflewis · 7 months

Note

your dad saying kyle is your sugar daddy made me choke on my dinner lmao. why is that something you would say???

bc to my greatest despair and smallest comfort i am my father’s daughter and thank you for the reminder of that

#also. he said i thought u said kyle Wasn’t ur sugar daddy. there’s a difference #honestly i’m just glad he remembered the name . he has face blindness but insists this applies to names too #it doesn’t. he’s just lazy #he also has dyslexia and Refuses to spell words and when i was seven for like. five months i pretended to have it too so i could get out of #spelling tests bc they were boring and i hated standing up and then my parents were at my teachers parents meeting and my teacher was like.#why didn’t u tell us ur kid has dyslexia and my dad was like girl what. she spellchecks my work emails??#i got in so much trouble rip #idk why that memory just popped into my week lol #anon tag #niamh.asks

3 notes · View notes

bmpmp3 · 8 months

Text

although i guess a point to me being genuinely kind of offline is i once had a job interview and they asked me what i would make as reels for their corporate instagram and i had to ask them what reels were

#i applied to that job by accident and i didnt realize it was a social media manager position until like i was already in the zoom call #(this was like in 2020 or something) (in my defense the job posting was vague)#i didnt know what reels were!! i didnt know. i hadnt used instagram for more than like 20 minutes before orz #that job interview in general was a little painful i felt so so bad for the interviewers #i knew theres no way i could get the job nor did i want the job once i realized what it was #so i was just like okay sure heres a quick little practice interview then so i didnt mind #but i imagine those poor interviewers. imagine u get a candidate for like. a chef position. and they dont know what a knife is #they asked me if i used twitter much and i was honest and said not since a little bit in 2014 for a class project #they asked if i used instagram and i said once or twice. also for school #facebook? anything? not really. technically tumblr and dA and such but i wasnt gonna tell them that part LOL #also sorry im suddenly really chatty at midnight. i had a bunch of homework to do and i just finished #so now ur getting all the thoughts i wanted to blog about while writing some discussion posts about class topics hjkfdsjgdklfsgsfa

5 notes · View notes