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wist-eri · 10 months

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rapid analysis of what some of the descriptions/footnotes possibly mean

usually i wouldn’t put this on my main account, but since the other blog i would post it on is a little more in-detail on average, i decided why not (i think you know which blog i’m referring to)

so yep! i read some of the footnotes and added some personal analysis as to what some of them could mean. i’m positive the song used in the new DRDT MV will be “bungaku shoujo insane,” based on the similarity of the thumbnail as well as some specific footnotes, so a lot of my analysis will be based on that song and its lyrics

anyways

[1] In this situation, it is better to use full names over nicknames. Exclude our protagonist—he is not "that person." not sure what this means yet. we’ll have to see.

[2] Other examples include Drosophilia melanogaster and E. coli. don’t know if this is intentional, but drosophila is misspelled. (they wrote it as “drosophilia”) either way, both are often used in school experiments in order to develop a further understanding of genetics and genetic material (and how it’s transferred).

[3] From Title 17 of the United States Code. referring to copyright laws in the United States. the reference may be more apparent in the released MV, similarly to some other footnotes—after all, the original “Bungaku Shoujo Insane” video has some moments where they simply show excerpts from famous texts. this may be one of them that’s featured specifically in the DRDT version of the MV

[4] The practice of avoiding the number four; it is most common in East Asia. This superstition arises from the fact that the number four can be read similar to the word "death" in multiple languages. self-explanatory.

[5] As the translation has been intentionally botched in many parts, it should not be considered accurate. this could be a separate author’s note to one of the texts referenced in the MV—we’ll have to see.

[6] (Prayer) no idea but i don’t feel like searching the bible for this one /hj (i think there might be a prayer written in text in the MV though)

[7] Seven is considered an auspicious number in many Western cultures. Let's just skip it. also self-explanatory.

[8] 'Tut, tut, child!' said the Duchess. 'Everything's got a moral, if only you can find it. excerpt from Alice in Wonderland. don’t know how important that’ll be in the future—could be referenced directly in the MV?

[9] no respect for the classics smh hold on let me see if there’s a lyric mocking classic literature-

[10] The Roman numeral for 10 is X. imagine there’s an X with a footnote and it’s just this

[11] I admit to lying. There is no one named OOOOO OOOOO. I am, and always have been, an only child. a lot of theories about this, but regardless of whether or not this statement is true, it could be a reference to diana chiem, arturo’s sister, david himself even (i’ll explain later), etc. either way, this footnote seems to be more about one of the characters in the DRDT cast than anything

[12] "Majority rule" is known to be the fairest method of making decisions for a group. That's why murderers never complained when we voted for them to die. just a random question, but you know what a majority vote is? /ref this may also be a reference to this lyric:

rough translation + wiki info: to be, or not to be—i have no idea! but let’s decide, with a democratic method!

[13] 正 character that’s often used to represent something that’s “correct,” “right,” or “just,” speaking from experience. additionally, it’s sometimes used as tally marks in a few eastern countries (china, japan, etc)

[14] Hint: word length of 256 Hamlet’s soliloquy, which starts with “to be, or not to be—that is the question,” is exactly 256 words (at least, according to this source). Additionally, this soliloquy is also referenced in one of the lyrics in this song (see [12]—the first line is actually one of the more well-known Japanese translations of “to be or not to be.” additionally, a few lines from the text are actually shown in the MV at that point), so that may be what it’s referring to

[15] “Ignorance is bliss" is an idiom used to say that it is better to remain ignorant about certain harsh truths, in order to avoid causing oneself stress. The expression comes from a 1742 Thomas Gray poem ("Ode on a Distant Prospect of Eton College": "Where ignorance is bliss, 'tis folly to be wise." might be a stretch, but possibly a reference to this lyric?

(rough translation: things like the meanings(?) behind art, you’d be happier not knowing) (note: the word used for “art” here encompasses all types of media, which include dance, writing, etc.)

i feel like this is specifically referring to how it’s better to be ignorant of the meanings behind certain actions and words, than to be aware of the dark implications behind them. this is a stretch though. do what you will with it but i think this is referring to one of the characters and their actions + true meanings behind them *cough* david *cough*

[16] While it was originally intended to serve as a military march, today it is most commonly recognized for it's association with circuses and tomfoolery. the exact song that this footnote refers to is Julius Fučík’s “Entrance of the Gladiators.” This is a song that’s featured in Bungaku Shoujo Insane, and it can be heard in the interludes—in fact, this footnote is what pointed me to Bungaku in the first place

[17] Not a real word. Can't be found in any dictionary. this might be an actual translation footnote of the song, since it’s definitely not unheard of to have words in japanese that don’t have an english translation and/or words that don’t actually exist. whether that’s actually in the lyrics i don’t know but i’ll have to look into it

[18] A/N: soz not very good at drawing flowers lol!!! i find it weird how this one specifically has A/N (author’s note)

[19] A dialogue between two individuals that serves as a discussion of moral and philosophical issues. this is known as a socratic dialogue. not sure how this is important yet

[20] It is considered by many to be outdated, providing little-to-no insight on human nature. unfortunately i don’t know what this is referring to, but it will likely be made clear in the mv. my first thought was actually the enlightenment documents, since a lot of those discuss the inherent nature of humanity and how it’s “regulated” by society and government—but i’ve never heard it being called outdated, so that’s kind of a stretch.

someone said it could be an excerpt from one of Sigmund Freud’s works, which honestly, would make total sense-

[21] Deriving from the Latin phrase "Et cetera" : meaning "and other (similar) things", "and so forth", or "and the rest (of such things)" : abbreviated to etc., etc, et cet., &c. or &c

also pretty self explanatory. however, i have no idea how this fits in the MV

[22] The rest is silence.

no idea about this one.

anyways if you have suggestions please feel free to reblog with them 🫠 i have no idea what’s going on and tbh 90% of this is me trying to grasp at straws

#drdt #danganronpa despair time #despair time #i think y’all know who i am #especially now that i’ve posted this #but eh. it’s fine #it was obvious from the beginning anyways because of the way i type ghshghdh

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transmascissues · 5 months

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hey i know your post about your mom was mostly just a personal vent, but i have to say, do you realize that also happens with trans girls and their fathers? literally happened to one of my friends. i’m not trying to downplay your experience or something but i found it strange that you seem to think this is something that only affects transmascs

i have one question for you: so fucking what?

i don’t doubt that trans girls have experienced similar things and yeah, that’s bad too, but what the fuck does that have to do with me and the specific things i’m facing as a result of being a trans man? i never said “look at this thing that happens to ONLY trans men and NO ONE ELSE,” i just said “hey, isn’t this thing that happens to a lot of trans men, including myself, fucked up?”

i would also like to point out that what you’re talking about is in fact a different (albeit similar) thing. the way cis people treat trans people can differ dramatically based on the cis person’s gender because their commitment to gender roles is, like, a major part of problem. the specific way a cis mother reacts to her trans son’s transition is often going to be very distinct, while a cis father will likely respond to his trans daughter in a different but equally distinct way.

what i’m talking about is a very specific kind of ownership and control and self-victimization and total lack of boundaries masquerading as love and care and maternal concern that cis women (i would argue white cis women in particular) project onto their transmasc kids when we do literally anything to our bodies. i’m talking about a phenomenon which is closely related to the way moms often pass eating disorders onto their daughters (or children they view as daughters) because they see a body that looks something like theirs and project all of their insecurities and ideals onto it. i’m talking about a form of parental transphobia and projection that’s specific to the dynamic of a cis mother and her child who was “supposed to” be her daughter.

if you’ve never felt that, you’re not even remotely qualified to tell me shit about how i should be talking about that experience, and if you couldn’t recognize that experience when you read my post, i’m guessing you probably haven’t experienced it because the replies to that post made it very clear to me that anyone who has experienced it firsthand immediately knew exactly what i meant.

like, yeah, cis dads also project onto their trans daughters, but are they likely to have a reaction like running away with actual tears streaming down their face? do you expect them to passive aggressively make comments about how sad their kid’s transition makes them, how it’s such a difficult emotional time, how it’s so tragic because their kid’s body was so beautiful before? do you think their go-to transphobic reaction will be weaponizing their emotions? i’m sure there are some dads out there who are like that, but i think we can agree they’re in the minority because that’s not how cis men are taught to react and parents like this tend to be pretty damn committed to following the gender roles they were taught.

and even if i’m wrong and our experiences are exactly the same, let me reiterate that i never said this was an experience exclusive to trans men. all i said is that it happens to us. that’s just a statement of objective fact.

this started in my life when i got my hair cut short for the first time almost a decade ago and it has not stopped since. i’ve watched my mom cry over me changing my name and respond to being asked if my happiness matters more to her than my name by saying “i care about both”, i’ve watched her melt down in a mall over me getting a suit for prom and give me the silent treatment for days after, i’ve heard her plead with me to stop t because it “looks unnatural” and she’s just so “concerned for my health”, i’ve watched her stare at me post-op and say “my poor baby” over and over like she’s looking at my corpse in a casket. i’ve watched her turn herself into the victim of every single aspect of my transition. i’ve had to live with this for 9 years and spent the early years of the pandemic literally locked in a house with it. this has been my entire adolescent and adult life, and the question of if i’ll have to cut her off someday (and maybe never see my cat or my little cousins who i love more than anything in the world ever again as a result) haunts me every single day.

who the fuck are you to tell me how to talk about that?

#i hope you weren’t expecting me to take this in good faith and give a nice measured response #because just so we’re clear you didn’t have a chance in hell of doing anything other than pissing me off #like in case you forgot i am a real person who this is happening to #in what world did you think i’d care about how an anonymous stranger feels about how i describe it when im the one who has to live it #idk man. some of y’all clearly do not see me as an actual person capable of emotion and it shows #also like. using a friend’s experience is wild bc 1) how do you know it was the same if it didn’t happen to you #and 2) would that friend really want you using their experience against another trans person experiencing something similar?#anon hate #ask answered #examples of transandrophobia #transandrophobia #transandromisia #transmisandry #virilmisia #virilphobia #anti transmasculinity #transmascphobia #trans men

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rhymaes · 3 months

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Mysterious Lotus Casebook (2023) // Anne Carson

#just thinking abt how li lihuan’s life was never his until he remade it into something he knew he was never going to be able to keep #& even then not really when so much of it was formed in the shadow of what had once made him #& as soon as he’d found something. someone. to live for. he couldn’t.#when your myth becomes your god and your future fractures you into a pawn. ruled by the actions of those surrounding you #who get to move you as another piece in their own game. and your personhood is lost. until the one person you meet who loved you first as a #legend begins to know you truly and love you as a person & as yourself. to the point that reconciling you as the same myth becomes a cruel #ty. to see what you have & to know you are going to lose it. to look at your soulmate. the person who knows you #in your bones. your best friend. and to be seen. and to know you cannot keep him. ANYWAY.#mysterious lotus casebook #bet y’all thoguht i was over them I. AM NOT. i will never be. holy fuck. never.#li lianhua #li xiangyi #fang duobing #fang xiaobao #di feisheng #mlc #mlcedit #cdrama #parallels

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autism-alley · 3 months

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y’all headcanoning poseidon as purposefully sending medusa’s head back to sender knowing gabe would open it is like. entirely missing the point of sally jackson’s character and also SO fucked up if it was poseidon?? who used medusa’s head to kill an asshole man?? like!! what the fuck! not to mention sally jackson?? ms. sally jackson? who kills her abusive husband? who on multiple occasions rejected the help of the man who is both a god and her former lover bc she wants to build her life herself—? and who does it? “if my life is to mean anything, i have to live it myself.” those are sally jackson’s words. the abuse itself was already incredibly watered down in the show and that is upsetting. to have gabe accidentally kill himself because he’s a bumbling idiot waters down her agency against her abuse and is even more so upsetting. to have not just a man but a literal god kill her husband for her is so. do you not see how that’s even worse. and then add in that god being poseidon and the method of murder is medusa’s head? i don’t even have words to articulate it, just—

no matter how you cut it, narratively you only disrespect and degrade sally when gabe’s life is taken by any hand that isn’t hers, and having that hand be poseidon’s is just wild.

#WIIIIIILD TAKE #and i don’t even think some of y’all are hearing yourselves #sally jackson herself told percy he cannot kill her abuser for her #that her life only has value if it’s in her own hands #and that was said to her CHILD who Also suffered at the hands of gabe.#can you imagine how it looks disregarding that sentiment so a literal god can save her?#the god partly responsible to blame for medusa’s fate in the first place?#sometimes depicted as her rapist?#doesn’t look good!#as a disabled woman i am all for needing to be saved #wanting to be saved #not feeling shame in needing help #but sally jackson is not only Not one of those people #but someone who shaped so much of her identity around saving herself #how dare the show take it from her.#and for fans to rub salt in the wound?#i know y’all don’t mean it like that that’s why i’m not angry #but i want y’all to rly consider what you’re saying #pjo show crit #pjo show #pjo fandom #percy jackson #sally jackson #poseidon pjo #medusa pjo #ris raves #gabe ugliano

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milkdreamspecialmix · 7 months

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also on the topic of being delusional and delirious. how is everyone tonight?

#i don’t know where i’m going to put these #my friends think i’m weird for liking this so i don’t talk abt it or have any merch up #one day i hope i make friends who like hetalia #y’all are so cool but i am so nervous lol #i wanted to do a cosplay but my friend said that’d be problematique #it would’ve been modern day so idk what they were talking about #aph germany #aph italy #gerita #itager

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starbuck · 2 months

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it’s not every week the government gives you a bunch of money AND you get promoted, so… shout out to this week! 🎉🎉🎉🎉

#:)))))))))#literally the way all of my problems went away so fast…#i am SO relieved - it’s unreal #still getting used to the feeling of it all honestly…#i haven’t even told my mom about getting promoted yet… y’all are literally the second to know #(not counting my boss who told me lol)#and the tax refund… holy SHIT!!!!!!#i’ve been actually eating real food this week because i know i can afford it again!#(which actually - come to think of it - might be another reason that i feel better lmaooooo)#i am so relieved i’m SO happy #thank god thank god

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lunapegasus · 10 months

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This was a terrible idea. Really, it was. With how many times she’d been rejected it was practically ridiculous that she thought this would go over well. And Amy was well aware of how low her chances were. But she just couldn’t help it. Besides, he was far too reserved to ever ask her out. She had to be the one to do it.

Amy sighed and looked at her dress in the mirror again. It was a medium length white dress covered in a leafy pattern in various green hues and even had a ribbon to match. It was brand new. Which she may or may not have bought for this specific occasion. An arguably unnecessary expense but Amy justified it by telling herself she needed something nice to boost her confidence.

But… what if it was too nice? If she got rejected then it would have all been a waste and every time she saw the dress again she’d be filled with disappointment and heartache and loneliness and-

She panicked and darted over to her wardrobe and began to frantically look for a possible alternative. How foolish she was to buy such a dress. What if he didn’t even like green!

Amy startled suddenly at the knock on her bedroom door and a young rabbit poked her head inside.

“Amy, aren’t you supposed to be on your date?”

“It’s not a date, Cream. Well, at least not yet. But hopefully, it will be.”

“I’m sure he’ll say yes! I have a feeling this one's gonna work out. And I don’t need any fancy tarot cards to know that!”

“That’s right! I should do a reading and then I’ll-”

“Amy!” Cream shouted, cheeks slightly puffed up in frustration, “You already said you were gonna ask him. You promised me you wouldn’t back out again.”

“I know, I know. You’re right,” Amy sighed and wandered over to her drawer and pulled out her old deck of cards, “These cards have just really helped me out a lot, you know? I’ve had them nearly my whole life. If I hadn’t listened to them and left home then I never would have even met him, or anyone else, or even you.”

Cream quietly wandered over and sat down on the bed next to her friend and waited for her to continue.

“I’d been alone for a really long time, which was why I was traveling the world. I wanted to find a new home, somewhere I belonged… I’d read about Little Planet before, they used to call it Miracle Planet. It sounded like a beautiful place, “a world that defies time itself”, relics that create miracles, I couldn't ask for a more perfect place to call home… But just like everything else, it was temporary.”

Cream frowned as Amy sat down on the bed beside her. The little girl watched as Amy shuffled through her deck before finally pulling out a single card and handing it to her. The image depicted a brave looking knight valiantly standing upright with a single sword in his hands.

“But then I pulled this card,” Amy said, continuing her story, “The Knight of Swords. It represents action and says that if you propel yourself through ambition you’ll be rewarded. That’s when I knew that if I continued to trust my instincts, the same one that brought me there in the first place, then I would finally get to meet my knight in shining armor!”

Cream giggled, “And you did! Even if it was a little messy at first.”

“Heh, a little, but you gotta admit, he really knew how to sweep a girl off her feet.”

The two giggled some more before Cream suddenly sprung up from her feet, “Amy! You’re gonna be late! You need to hurry!”

“Oh Chaos you’re right!” Amy jumped up from the bed and hurried out the door, but when she reached the doorway she paused and looked back towards her friend again. “So, you really think he’s gonna say yes?”

Cream walked over to her and gave her a big smile, “Of course I do, Amy! Things are changing now and so are you. You’ve been the princess in the tower already, now it’s time for you and your knight, your real knight, to have your happily ever after!”

Amy returned the smile, gave her friend a big hug, and fought off the tears she felt forming behind her eyes, “Thanks Cream, you always know just what to say.”

The two waved each other away and Amy took off, and as she closed the front door behind her she couldn’t help but smile.

This was it. She was finally going to ask out the blue hedgehog of her dreams. It was finally time to ask out Metal Sonic.

[idea by @khalewren]

#sub 800 words #sonamy #uh huh that's what it says #that is what this is about #this is a totally normal sonamy fic I prommy I would never lie to you come closer #JUST FUCKING KIDDING. I’M IN MY MISSIONARY ERA AND I'M CONVERTING YOU ALL TO METAMY #you thought this was about sonic? I don’t even know who that is anymore!#I've a s c e n d e d #(to those in the sonamy tag finding this and are possibly genuinely upset then I will say I am sorry for invading your tag however Im just-#-really silly so I think charges should be dropped)#(no hate to y’all of course I hope you’re having a fun and silly day!)#amy rose #metamy #sth #my fics <3

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piratedog64 · 3 months

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“God knows where he is right now, but I promise you, he's doing whatever the hell he wants and not giving a damn about me! And I'm just fine with that. When you love the Doctor, it's like loving the stars themselves. You don't expect a sunset to admire you back” -River Song, The Husbands of River Song

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sashadealltheknives · 1 year

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#I would include Jonathan sims I feel like he could compete I just worry the popularity would skew it #Sorry Jon I love you very mich #Anyways what do y’all think #I never thought I’d meet someone who could beat David ward on this but I think mike Walters might be up there #(I’m counting all of the mikes combined here)#And sorry Arthur j know you’re dealing with a lot but…#woe.begone #i am in eskew #malevolent #mike walters #arthur lester #david ward #mine #I think the next question is who has the best/worst coping mechanisms

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crucible-memes-4-salem-teens · 1 year

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abby, explaining herself to the court after pulling some shenanigans: your honor it was just a feminine urge

#the crucible #arthur miller #classic lit #classic literature #classic lit memes #mod dio #wednesday incorrect quote :)#GUESS WHO’S BACK (for today)#i’m sorry for abandoning y’all </3 #i’m like a mother shoebill deciding to take care of only her strongest chick :(#but no seriously: the past few weeks have been kind of crazy for me so i’ve been unable to perform my duties as your caretaker (head mod)#know that i love you and cherish you and always think of you but i am currently suffering with ap exams and such #over the summer i’ll definitely try to be more active #anyway mwah i love you i’m sending my love to you from across the internet

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thedeadthree · 2 years

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what is lineage, if not a silver thread of pride and guilt?

PRINCESS ELAENAERA OF HOUSE TARGARYEN

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#oc: elaenaera targaryen #tv: house of the dragon #hotd oc #hotd ocs #asoiaf oc #asoiaf ocs #leg.edit #leg.ocs #hotd spoilers #she and her beloved got the edit treatment this fine day/evening! here’s the baby girlie!#also! if y’all would like to be tagged in things let me know ✨🥺 i forgot who wished to be tagged and y’all are always so sweet 🤍🥺#i am forever grateful to my hotd ocs for bringing me out of my months long creative DRAUGHT ✨🥺❄️#me? making content regular(ish)? unreal! and they have me writing too which like I’m so excited about ✨😖#her dragon is named after the valyrian moon god! and the god of other things as well! and one of those is the moon! my lunar babies! 🌙🤍#and nocticula bc pathfinder still has a VICE grip on me and i thought it was lovely akjzjxjx🖤🖤#what isn’t mentioned in the edit that should also be noted is that she was in winterfell for about? a year to less than? maybe 8 months?#whirlwind romance between her and yoren! and then with her dads health progressing she was asked to return to kings landing!#it was only supposed to be for six months but then things got caught up for her and that turned into six years ✨😵‍💫#so there will be a LOT to unpack and a lot of resentment to work past for her when he comes back into her life!#i am actually thinking that he shows up to dragon stone and she’s caught OFF guard ajzjjxhx #and he has a dragon to boot! the dragon found him fascinating and they were bonded :)#he may have valyrian ancestry though his mom who’s from lys? before the doom from one of the other families likely im thinking?#or it could have been from a ritual like una and iovanna or just from merit i haven’t figured that part out yet skxjhxhx #she wishes things didn’t have to be like this between the other side of the family!#she didn’t particularly care for court? (she did but it was like there was little to hope for that she would ascend the throne u know?)#GOD THIS TURNED LOVELY ✨🥺 the coloring that was already included was so pretty and worked so well for her 🤍🌫🥺#*ocedit #HOTD SOUNDTRACK IS FINALLY OUT BESTIES 🤍🤍😌 it’s so good it’s so good i love it #these got LONG again so if you read that you made my day honestly 🥀❣️🥺 ty ty!

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bookishfeylin · 10 months

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Hey guys so. It turns out. If someone comes on your post and argues that Rhysand wasn’t abusive because he hurt Feyre “for her own good/for the greater good.” And you point out that Tamlin did the same but it is still correct to call him abusive, then rather than leave your post alone or be like “yeah that’s a good point”… They’ll instead argue that Tamlin was ok actually and that he wasn’t that bad because “he only wanted to protect Feyre.”

#Y’all know I am staunchly against a canon Tamlin redemption arc for a variety of reasons #Idk what’s worse the stans who don’t acknowledge Tamlin and Rhysand are the same OR the ones who think neither did anything wrong #Like this is actually the second time I’ve seen this.#anti acomaf

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crossbackpoke-check · 5 months

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56 and any Yamo pairing! 🫶

i just wheezed so hard when i saw what the song was i almost snorted coffee out of my nose i am so sorry for this one

#56 - kyoto phoebe bridgers + yamo

the story of how this song ended up on my wrapped is too long so it’s going in the tags but. let me set the scene for you.

2026 NHL GLOBAL SERIES™️ JAPAN - Presented by YPPI

November 13 & 14, 2026: Dallas Stars, Montreal Canadiens, Seattle Kraken, Vancouver Canucks

Saitama Super Arena, Saitama, Japan

It’s a pitiful excuse of a consolation prize for not being able to go to the Olympics, but Kailer’s not going to look a vacation horse in the mouth. The arena’s cool. It’s huge. The people are cool. There’s so many more of them than he thought there’d be with jerseys that have his name on the back, and a lot more that have the familiar orange and blue. He takes a picture of the fifth Oilers Yamamoto jersey he signs—this one’s the good Reverse Retro—and texts it to Connor, says,

no one here has even heard of mcjesus

and gets a moon face emoji in response. Leon’s influence. Kailer’s still never really deciphered what that one means, and he doesn’t think Connor knows either.

They don’t have a lot of time off between games, but Kailer’s trying to be a good tourist. His dad had been so happy when Kailer had told him about the series that Kailer’d had to stop him from trying to book a flight a year in advance, and his mom’s been just as bad, sending him every article she sees about Best New Spot in Tokyo! Cool Restaurant! Have You Seen This Japanese Cat Café? that she scrolls across on Facebook since June. Suzy’s in the same boat, so they’ve been crossing off their compiled travel-guide list together, looping in as many guys as they can. Everyone’s been pretty game. All the teams are crammed into close quarters at the same hotel, which means everyone wants to spend as much time as possible outside of it, and it helps that Kailer’s gotten pretty close with all the other guys that the NHL picked up as Global Series figureheads. Robo’s memes? Absolutely fire. The groupchat loves them.

For every item he crosses off the list, Kailer takes a picture and keeps it tucked in his phone notes. It’s like speed-running a scavenger hunt—they’re only here for four days—but he’s doing a pretty good job. His favorite so far has been all the gardens. They’re stunning, trees shining bright red and yellow, and every vendor has been selling maple candies, maple cakes, and even fried maple, though the official maple festival doesn’t start until next week. The second garden he visits, he does it on his own after practice, buying two cakes from a cart near the gate and walking until he loses the bustle outside. It’s easy to get lost in the winding pathways, heading deeper into the quiet, and there’s dozens of benches underneath the burnished leaves where young couples are tucked away on dates, or old friends are laughing and catching up. In some of the little clearings, there’s small shrines where people leave offerings, a prayer for good luck or good fortune.

Kailer stops at one without any people and sets the second maple cake on top of it, then sits and scrolls through all the texts that he’s missed. His mom gets replied to with a picture of him outside the garden gate, grinning and surrounded by other travelers. He sends his brother a picture of a trashy graphic I Love Japan t-shirt with the threat that he’ll buy one for him, and Kailer’s dad gets a picture of the meticulously arranged and cut bonsai that are across from the bench where he’s sitting. The Seattle groupchat gets a recycled meme from Robo, and he gets two thumbs up and an “LMAO” before he can even exit the thread. Finally, Kailer takes a picture of the half-eaten maple cake in his hand, holding it next to a fallen maple leaf on the bench, and gets halfway through typing another message before he thinks better of it.

(On the plane over, Drieds was reading them a story about how when they first introduced the high-speed railway, people were afraid to use it because they thought it would be too fast for their souls to keep up.

“Bro, if that were true, you just left your soul in the middle of the Pacific,” Ebs had laughed. “Planes are faster than trains.”

“Are they?” Matty asked. “Isn’t the train in Japan the fastest in the world?”

Drieds couldn’t make it through the rest of the story over the sound of everyone ripping Matty to shreds, so Kailer didn’t get to ask whether or not they found out anything about planes. Kailer’s not worried about his soul, but the logic makes a strange kind of sense; after all, he traveled 429 miles in five and a half hours once, and that was a little too fast for his heart to keep up.)

Fuck it. Kailer’s been trying to write a response for the past ten days, and he’s sick of swiping in and out of the message, staring at the keyboard so long he starts to see swirls in his vision.

Kailer drafts the text again and sends it, no context, no caption. A text travels faster than a high-speed train or a jet. Maybe it’ll pick his heart back up on the way.

#I don’t know how this song ended up on my Spotify wrapped because phoebe bridgers is too emotionally damaging for me to listen to like.#at all unless i am In It HOWEVER. there is this one silly video that brings me so much joy and made me feel semi-reasonable about listening #to kyoto & it’s the one video of the two painter guys painting the room & the lil guy is being a menace & the other guy just looks at him s #fondly & so lovingly & is that not the thesis of kailer yamamoto. be small be a menace be beloved by everyone. ANYWAY #liv in the replies #look this was going to be such a different thing and then. my brain went HEY BUDDY GUESS THE FUCK WHAT kyoto is a city in Japan.#day off in kyoto. guess who’s Japanese. guess what the nhl loves to do as HIFE publicity. also growing the AAPI audience is HUGE and i thin #they should. like originally i had NO idea what this was going to be (i’m so lying. the line ‘i’m gonna kill you’ but incredibly fond a la #the two painters video kept replaying in my head and i was like l m a o. klimmer & kailer. no plot all vibes it’s klimmer & Kailer that’s i #there is no real plot there is no actual idea the amount of googling that i did to write just this is UNREASONABLE i would love to be norma #about anything ever but i ALSO invented so much backstory to this that has no way of appearing in the actual fic and also jokes for ME #for instance. YPPI is the american manufacturer for yamaha motorcycles and. suzuki. yamamoto. (it’s not my brainworms it’s due to a fancam)#respectfully also i cannot write this fic. i have never been to japan and i think it would take me eight years to google enough #to be relatively comfortable like y’all have never seen the extensive research i put in to fucking phiLLY and a whole other COUNTRY???#where the premise of the fic is learning how to be a tourist in your life and sometimes you have to grow out of things?#yeah i AM going to make something with the idea of Momijigari and life is ephemeral. is that a plot? no it’s vibes.#kailer goes to japan in the fall and realizes he’s a liar. who lies. (he misses [redacted]) (the redacted is because i haven’t decided)#also also. the garden reference is because a) i spent WAY TOO MUCH TIME ON GOOGLE and found out things to do in saitama and also that #kailer’s grandpa had a meticulous garden and i just think that’s neat #hiding-from-reality-56 #random ficlet is unbeta’d un-anything’d i don’t know WHERE this came from or the real plot of it at all. ok thanks byeeeee

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irlromanroy · 9 months

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Pick me systems are so annoying like why are you posting on cringe forums saying “this is making systems look bad” for using like plural kit or something when bitch you like a system made up foxy from fnaf and sans undertale they won’t choose your embarrassing ass either lmfao. Your dedication to getting the award of favorite mental patient shows weakness and desperation for validation.

#did #osdd #did system #dissociation #osdd system #plural #I hope people know what I am referring to on here it’s those motherfuckers who screenshot posts on here to make fun of systems 4 validation #y’all are so transparent thinking you’re different you’re not #and when push comes to shove you will be descriminated against in healthcare and immigration and adoption equally to ‘cringe’ systems #stop a logging you dense motherfucker it’s YOU they’re laughing at #thinking you’re the biggest baddest system on Reddit get a fucking grip it’s actually pathetic behavior lol #you are their bitch lol

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kakejiszkas · 11 months

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stealing this from mal @mountain-in-springtime 🫶🏻 hope you don’t mind!!!! 💕

#listen I just. need some interaction rn okay #I’m interested to see what y’all think bc I know what *i* think I am but who knows if it’ll match!!!!!!!

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deityofhearts · 7 months

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unfortunately the only art I can work on lately is small edits to existing art (making things look aged or damaged) or diary entries that I only show to two people (more like. one person, hi xena) I like have no motivation or like inspiration in regards to doing actual art and it sucks sm

#deity dialogue #I also just am in another ‘why am i even bothering when no one cares’ place with art #and everything but it’s like why should I make art that like only one or two friends want to see like #idk notably I’m only sending a couple people shit anymore because I’m tired of thinking people care about anything i do or make #I keep getting ignored or feeling like people don’t care when i send them stuff and I’ve honestly had it #so no more art or cats or clothing or craft pics for y’all #you will see it on my blogs if you care or you’re one of five people who I know are like genuinely interested

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