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Tokyo Revengers Fluff Alphabet Requests
So, Tokyo Revengers has become my new laser focus. Hyperfixation? Yeah, that. I love my boys so much, so I’m making this and a very smooty version.
A ctivities - What do they like to do with their s/o? How do they spend their free time with them?
B eauty - What do they admire about their s/o? What do they think is beautiful about them?
C omfort - How would they help their s/o when they feel down/have a panic attack etc.?
D reams - How do they picture their future with their s/o?
E qual - Are they the dominant one in the relationship, or rather passive?
F ight - Would they be easy to forgive their s/o? How are they fighting?
G ratitude - How grateful are they in general? Are they aware of what their s/o is doing for them?
H onesty - Do they have secrets they hide from their s/o? Or do they share everything?
I nspiration - Did their s/o change them somehow, or the other way around? Like trying out new things or helped them overcome personal problems?
J ealousy - Do they get jealous easily? How do they deal with it?
K iss - Are they a good kisser? What was the first kiss like?
L ove Confession - How would they confess to their s/o?
M arriage - Do they want to get married? How do they propose? What would the marriage be like?
N icknames - What do they call their s/o?
O n Cloud Nine - What are they like when they are in love? Is it obvious for others? How do they express their feelings?
P DA - Are they upfront about their relationship? Do they brag with their s/o in front of others? Or are they rather shy to kiss etc. when others are watching?
Q uirk - Some random ability they have that’s beneficial in a relationship.
R omance - How romantic are they? What would they do to make their s/o happy? Cliché or rather creative?
S upport - Are they helping their s/o achieve their goals? Do they believe in them?
T hrill - Do they need to try out new things to spice out your relationship? Or do they prefer a certain routine?
U nderstanding - How good do they know their partner? Are they empathetic?
V alue - How important is the relationship to them? What is it’s worth in comparison to other things in their life?
W ild Card - A random Fluff Headcanon.
X OXO - Are they very affectionate? Do they love to kiss and cuddle?
Y earning - How will they cope when they’re missing their partner?
Z eal - Are they willing to go to great lenghts for the relationship? If so, what kind of?
Feel free to send me any character. I’ll try to put a short story with every letter so that it’ll make more sense. Promise!
Edit: Please try to limit requests to 4-5 letters per one? Just so that I can maintain writing yalls fluffy fluff
Edit (2): Also could you specify what kind of reader? Personality and gender wise so that you can get the best of your request!
-Signed Aciel~
#taiju x reader#mikey x reader#baji x reader#mitsuya x reader#shinichiro x reader#tokyo rev fluff#tokyo revengers x reader#tokyo revengers headcanons
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I've never seen any agere sparklecare headcanons and I don't know if that's just the community but I hope it's accepted around here qwq!!
As a sparklecare fan who age regresses I'm just really scared to ever like post hcs in fear of hate since I've never seen any
Before I start:
Age regression is a coping mechanism wherein the person (or anthry) regresses to a younger state of mind to cope with stress or life. It is not sexual.
With that out of the way!
Characters who age regress:
Uni, Carrie, Jay, Mood, Doom, Funfetti
✨ The headcanons!! ✨
they all regress to deal w/ trauma and emotions!
🦄 Uni age regresses to get back the childhood she always wanted as a transfem, playing with cooking toys, dress up stuff, diy kits- it makes her so happy! I also think she likes to build huge towers with blocks! (Agere age: 5-10)
⚡ Carrie hates her age regressed self, she used it before to cope but she views it as a weakness so it only comes out when things are very very stressful, she's a quiet kid at first but can be playful if you distract them enough. You can kind of tell if they're slipping if she's just,, staring off into the distance quietly (agere age: 8)
💙🩷 Carrie takes care of lil Uni! And that's how Uni discovers that Carrie age regresses too because her being regressed made Carrie safe to let Uni know
📒 Jay age regresses to quiet the thoughts in their head, their tiny self is very focused on whatever they have on hand. I imagine they really like wooden toys because of how it sounds and feels! Hemera is very confused at first but doesn't judge, after a while she starts to enjoy Lil Jay's company. Tiny Jay doesn't need much care really, they like playing blocks by themselves (Agere age: 5-8)
🦋 Mood is childish outwardly, she's always like a big kid it's kind of hard to tell when she's regressed if you've never seen her regressed at all. When she regresses it always starts off sad, like teary eyed from all the stress she's had- and all she needs is a big hug and to be carried and held for a while. After that though, she's quite energetic and playful almost like big mood but you'll see that there's a difference, Rem knows the difference, she's her caretaker. (Agere age: 2-6)
🐁 Waaaa Doom- His tiny self is such a shy clingy kid, he wants affection and only affection and he can't be left alone. He cares so much about other people that he's more likely to cry if other people get hurt, he wants everyone to be happy and okay! Even if his tiny self can't realise that sometimes people are just a lil sad sometimes (agere age: 3-5)
🎉 Funfetti is like Carrie wherein he hates his age regression coping mechanism. She doesn't hold it back as much though, they want to be taken care of so bad and to run away from being the responsibility holder. In quiet moments, she regresses and cries a lot at any affection or reassurance given to her. They love to play but they're not as energetic as the other age regressors- he likes it more seeing the adults play and make stories with the toys in front of her. Puppy is their main caretaker but it doesn't seem like Puppy fully understands agere yet, but Lo is happy to take care of him. (Agere age: 2-6)
✨ I hope any agere (or non agere too!) sparklecare fan enjoys these!! I need to find yall TwT ✨
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i’m asking about your dragon age characters
molly i would KILL for u im ur personal hitman now
anyway i said my city now because the entire bioware writing team sucks shit xoxo and i’m so much smarter than all of them but also fully incapable of having a normal amount of ocs for anything (see: the time i made 20 rwby ocs in less than two weeks) so i have. five worldstates here r some assorted thoughts
uhhh so the worldstates r as follows
eira mahariel (two-handed berserk/champ spec), rhett hawke (two-handed berserk spec), alas lavellan (mage knight enchanter spec), romanced alistair/fenris/dorian respectively
shiv tabris (dual wield duelist/assassin spec), radella “rads” hawke (mage spirit healer spec), kat adaar (two-handed reaver spec), romanced morrigan/isabela/cassandra respectively because im a pc gamer and i think i should be able to date whatever video game woman i like because im infinitely better than cishet men
this world state said yeah i respect mens rights. mens rights to shut the fuck up
twins bronson (sword/shield reaver spec) & bryant cousland (archer ranger spec), carmine hawke (archer assassin spec), syracuse trevelyan (dual wield tempest spec), romanced zevran/anora/josephine/bull. if ur wondering how that works my city now and the warden, hawke and the inquisitor should all meet and so they do because i Said So
riva amell (mage arcane warrior/battlemage spec), graham “gray” hawke (mage force spec), hellathen “hela” lavellan (archer assassin spec); romanced cullen/anders and later blackwall because hawke only likes men who will break his heart. hela doesn’t have a romance because she’s literally 20. who let her lead the inquisition (me it was me). also it should be noted the version of cullen i have in my head only vaguely resembles actual cullen because i write better than dragon age writers ever could and i gave him an Actual Cohesive Narrative and he gets bullied relentlessly for being scrawnier than his mage boyfriend
malien “mal” surana (mage spirit healer/keeper spec), jules hawke (sword/shield reaver spec), ash adaar (mage rift spec), romanced leliana/merrill/krem because i should have been able to kiss krem and its a Crime that i am not allowed to
knight enchanter is a Very op specialization and by Very op i mean it makes a mage with their built-in low constitution stats able to solo the biggest baddest dragon in the game on nightmare mode in under five minutes so like. alas lavellan fist fights dragons for fun send tweet
i think lavellans should be able to hit ppl with bricks for all the shit they endure. thus solas gets pranked by mahariel and alas by which i mean they just tip buckets of water onto him from the rookery
kat might be my only competent inquisitor but she did also try to knock out the right hand of the divine and attempt to gap even tho there’s fucky magic burning up her hand so does she have a brain cell? you decide
also its fantasy land and i do what i want so kat has blue/gold sectoral heterochromia
gray “mage rights” hawke is best friends with fenris which surprises literally everyone. their friendship started because they got into a fist fight and then they were like okay i respect u now. hawke is like hey fenris give me ur sword i have a fun trick to show u [uses his sword as a foci to zap carver in the ass with lightning]
i am Always thinking abt like how cullen could have been one man anti-chantry propaganda machine if he hadn’t so blatantly been shoehorned into every game past origins so anyway bioware forgot about a wholeass moon i can write what i like. [holds up cullen by the scruff of his stupid armor] not only are you bisexual you are also a bottom
i also Hate the whole uwu mage haters get fixed by romancing a mage
unlocked secret dialogue option where my inquisitors verbally cuss out dorian’s dad instead of whatever sympathetic narrative the writers were going for cuz its bullshit.
riva is a showoff and a Menace about being as good as he is because he unabashedly loves being a mage and hes like oooh look at me im sexy i dont need to use my hands to cast magic because i’m just that good ;)) and you know what. hes right.
gray, on the other hand, does Not want to be mage. he wants to be a druffalo farmer and retire in the hinterlands and be left the fuck alone. unfortunately he is gay and has one brain cell and terrible, terrible taste in men. ribbed relentlessly for this by riva (altho does he have room to talk hes been hung up on cullen since he was like 13)
shiv is trans n kieran is the result of doing the dark ritual with her wife and he looks a Lot like shiv (dark skin pointed ears, shock-white hair) and morrigan always just Assumed she dyed it or did something magic with it so seeing their kid come out like that was a WEIRD time for her
leliana almost Murdered by cassandra in worldstate 5 because the warden is Actually There The Whole Time, but its been 10 years, mal’s cut off all her hair and gotten full facial tattoos and she’s like “no one will know its me its fine” and she’s right. she gets away with it. only cullen like, Knows, because he knew her before the blight but he doesnt have a death wish n he like. will Not piss her off
shes dalish by birth n she was stolen from her clan by templars and thus is vehemently anti-circle and anti-chantry in general
uhhh the vallaslin (elf face tattoos) of my 4 dalish characters are:
eira = ghilan’nain (chose em cuz shes rlly interested in the navigation aspect of the goddess)
alas = falon’din (god of the dead n he picked them because he’s Also the god of fortune and alas is like tee hee fun but also he can and will kill u if u fuck with him so yk its fitting)
hela = june (god of the craft bc she likes to Make things but june is also the god who taught the elves 2 hunt and hela is. a hunter.)
mal = elgar’nan (allfather/god of vengeance bc. she is Vengeful. she is Angry. but yk fucking with shem politics and fucking their divine is like. mal may have little a retribution. as a treat.) yes she has the full half-face solid colour tattoo she does NOT fuck around.
bronson and bryant r not genetically identical but they Look similar enough 2 anyone who doesn’t know them well enough 2 play spot the distance. anora and bronson think this is a super fun game to play, especially when nobles realize they’ve swapped out the king but they’re too nervous to say anything
eira mahariel has two hands. one is for holding hands with alistair and the other is for throttling elven gods, apparently. she’s killed one before so solas she’s coming for your bitch ass next. watch urself.
speaking of eira and alistair are married thru dalish tradition and humans don’t recognize it n alistair loves 2 re-propose to her with random things. he’ll just pick up like. a bit of cheese and be like “marry me ;)” and she’s like GASP but whatever will the chantry say!!!! all of their friends r sick of them
“vhenan if you love me bring me a sword” “you think i could do better than a sword made out of space rock?” “:)”
eira is my youngest hero at 18 at the start of her game and kat is my oldest at 32 at the start of her game.
none of my hawkes are under six foot. rhett is the tallest (6′8″) and rads is the shortest (6′2″).
syracuse trevelyan would have been the Perfect inquisitor if he were not a pretty boy himbo and a gay bastard who does Most Things just to spite his parents.
[corypheus pointing at syracuse’s visage in his crystal orb thingo] i want that twink obliterated
i love the companions from older games return thing i truly do so i make it a point for Every companion to return in inquisition so the gang rlly is all here because i am a Slutte for found family
i lie in my keep worldstates because i dont want to choose between hawke and alistair during here lies the abyss but i never make him king and every time i play inquisition and cole has the wicked grace line it makes me Scream. alistair baby im so sorry i did this to you but i didnt actually do this to you
yes this is my everyone lives au but like. all the time. i have never left hawke in the fade and i do not intend to.
fuck whatever nonsense about wardens not being able 2 have kids. by sheer divine power (me) anora and bryant have three daughters; eleanor, sabina & cecelia n both bronson and zevran make Excellent uncles because i think anora deserves good things because i’m tired of bioware being like women bad, actually,
so like most of the time i have the warden & hawke turning up after the move to skyhold n then staying on, with the exception of bryant, carmine & mal. mal is as mentioned previously just There the whole time with her girlfriend. bryant steps in as king of ferelden w/ interests in closing the big hole in the sky spewing demons in2 his kingdom yk. carmine shows up because she wants to help & she wants protection for bethany but she outright says she’d rather die than be inquisitor so cassandra is shit out of luck.
“CHANGE HER MIND VARRIC” “she once doubled down on insisting amaranth was a shade of blue because she didn’t want to admit to being wrong. no one’s changing her mind seeker”
alas is the middle child of eight and is thus very good with children and also bossing around people older than him. 2 of his older siblings come to the inquisition when stuff in wycome has been settled
i left ash with the basic canon background with Some variation (he grew up under the qun and left of his own free will when his magic was discovered n he realized he couldn’t take living as a saarebas
kat on the other hand was raised tal-vashoth and has bounced around basically all over thedas and leads her own merc company when the conclave blows up. she also speaks multiple languages. is there a language she doesn’t speak? probably not
just realized how long this got so im gonna like. stop my general rambling now but lmao yeah theres some basics. waves hands.
#sol.txt#sol.orig#long post#late night followers im SO sorry for this#but also like.#i love them so yall just have 2 cope w/ it#no thoughts head dragon age#peonydarling
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Winter 2021 Anime Opinions
As always its that time of the year I pretend to be an anime connoisseur and leave my review on this seasons anime so take it with a grain of salt asdfgh from the one I enjoyed the least to the most.
Wave!!: Surfing Yappe!! (TV)
You are seeing currently the only probably best thing about Wave asdfghj Tanaka bby I am SO sorry you got stuck here,,,,, Its bad because I had so many expectations for Wave but it just...... isn’t very good? The characters feel 2 dimensional, animation is veeeery average and the plot is all over the place? Dont even get me started on the Shou situation plot device that they just brushed over and went on with and,,,,,big sigh
Urasekai Picnic
To be honest is not very fair to compare this one to the rest as ive only watched the first 2 eps but ill catch up eventually asdfghj its not bad just that the plot didnt capture me as much as I hoped but the two main characters cutiess the plot just confuses me asdfgh but I don't have much to say about it
Yakusoku no Neverland 2nd Season
So uh anyways Chile I don't wanna talk about it the only reason this is not dead last is because RayEmma cute moments but yeah don't watch this clown show go read the manga for self care ✨
Jaku-Chara Tomozaki-kun
The only reason this is here is because she. The main girl I cant remember the name of sucks and main dude is very normal asdfgh the plot is basically “Want people to like you? change everything about yourself and become a normie robot!!!” ASDFGHJ Like its so over the top and cringe at times it becomes very confusing but hey I am not caught up either so I may change opinions (x doubt tho)
2.43: Seiin Koukou Danshi Volley-bu
From this point onwards I basically like everything. 2.43 Started suuuuper strong for me, definitely thought it would be one of my favs this season but as the eps went by I just.... kinda lost interest asdfgh? Like its not bad, but its a sort of mix between Stars Align and Haikyuu where I would have loved a more character based story with dark subplots like Stars Align but got the parts I always criticize about Haikyuu were there was a point I didn't really knew any of the characters? ASDFGH like the enemy team is super cool and Love their designs but if you ask me to tell you anything about them I already forgot rip. Its still cute and the animation is cool but yeah it kind of disappointed me in the end a bit ;w;
Shingeki no Kyojin: The Final Season
AOT Is so sexci because it keeps on hurting me and I come back every-time for it ASDFGHJ Not much to say that hasn't been said, characters are super interesting, plot is a bit confusing at times for me to follow but amazing and I just :))) could go on about certain characters :))))) but I wont :))))
Wonder Egg Priority
Wonder egg priority is very talked about right now so I wont get too much into it other than definitely give it a watch if you like the more philosophical and “makes you reflect on your life choices” sort of anime ASDFGHJ the visuals are stunning and the characters very well build, although I am very confused at times I am still enjoying it tons ^^ Trigger warning however for some heavy topics I recommend checking the warnings before watching it <3
Kemono Jihen
I LOVE THEM OKaY? asdfghjk Kemono Jihen gives me the found family topes and I eat them all right up, I love the characters , their designs, the plot, everything. To be fair tho, I did enjoy the manga more than the anime but maybe its a pacing thing? idk but I definitely recommend 100% taking on the manga and maybe after watch the anime but I am enjoying it tons!!
Kai Byoui Ramune
This one may come as a surprise lol?? Like I haven't seen a single soul talk about Ramune but like??? I am actually enjoying it a lot?? and look forward every week for the ep? asdfghj Like yes I will be the first to admit the animation isn't really the beeeeest out there but the plot is funny while also being serious, the characters are quirky and interesting to keep the flow going and I am liking the undertone heavy messages? the soundtrack also slaps imo and yeah I would definitely say to watch the first ep and if you like that sort of dynamic take it up on the rest!
I★Chu: Halfway Through the Idol
Okay I will be the first one to admit this is just me being trash for the idol shows but like?? its my list so I get to decide which found family I am screaming about next ASDFGHJ. As an avid A3 stan this gave me serious vibes of my boys (plus they were made form the same company so like not very surprised there loll) and like I think the characters are cute with adorable relationships and cute songs and its just a lighthearted show I sit down every Wednesday and smile through the 25 minutes so yes I Chu deserves a high spot and yes I recommend it even if it has like a 6.3 on myanimelist sksksks
Dr. Stone: Stone Wars
Look at Gen!!!! enough reasons to watch dr stone!!!! ASDFGH but in all seriousness I....... love them okAy? The plot is amazing and the characters are super entertaining (hiiii Ukyo Gen Senku and Chrome muak) and although it may seem a bit slower paced than first season the arc is gonna get better and better and the finale is gonna be great if they stick to the manga. Only sad that I dont get to see my pirate fuckboy but we better be getting a third season
Bungou Stray Dogs Wan!
when I say this is the happiness of all my Tuesdays I ain’t even exaggerating ASDFGHJ Does this have an important plot? no. Is it transcending to animation? not really. Is it BSD content I've been starving for? absolutely!!! Tbh I see my favorite anime characters in chibi version and I go feral, go watch BSD pogg!!
Horimiya
Me?? searching for that one gif of the side ship scene am obsessed over?? more likely than you think ASDFGH Horimiya holds a special place in my heart because it was the first manga I ever read and the nostalgia is stroNG,,,,,, The plot isn't anything really transcending but the way the characters are captured the feelings just,,,,,, stan!! Also Yuki x Tooru supremacy !
Skate-Leading☆Stars
Okaaaaay this is also me being a bitch for sports anime but like, again, are we surprised?? ASDFGHJ It may be my love for Hayato speaking but ive absolutely loves Skate Leading Stars, I love the group, the main characters, the ships, the routines and its so pretty and they are in love and like the competition and asdfgh its gOoD OKaY??? Watch it if anything for Hayato 👉🏻 👈🏻 My bastard bitch I love the gremlin.
Beastars 2nd Season
I think we are all sleeping on Beastars brushing it off as a furry show. I don’t speak enough about it and I am not one to go about poetic cinemaness on main but beastars is a very poetic cinema show and yall sleeping on it. Coming from someone who was uncomfortable at first with the whole animal relationships part at first, just know beastars is so much more than that, it has a complicated plot with critics about the society within the show with amazing characters, great soundtrack and animation plus banger plot. Pina, Jack, Juno and Legoshi best characters and every week I look forward for the next eps so I hope yall go give it some love.
SK8 The Infinity
If it wasnt clear from my spam every Saturday that I am absolutely in love with this show I dont know what to tell you ASDFGHJ. Sk8 has an amazing range of characters I find fascinating, specially Reki, very much so everything Reki asdfgh but yeah!! Its super entertaining with an interesting plot and its definetely becoming one of my favorite animes because the amount of times ive rewatched the episodes to cope is kind of embarrassing lmaooo, definetely give it a try although I understand its not for everyone but like,,,,, do it for Reki? 🤧👉🏻👈🏻
#wow I..... need to get new hobbies apart from being a weeb ASDFGHJ#I enjoy doing this asdfghj goodnight spoilers#long post#spoilers#i am not tagging all of it only the top ones because I dont wanna get shitted on for the lower ones ASDFGHJ#sk8 the infinity#beastars#skate leading stars#i chu halfway through the idol#horimiya#bungo stray dogs wan#Kai Byoui Ramune#dr stone
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thank you @chiptrillino for tagging me in a wip game!
not quite sure what the rules are but based off of your AMAZING POST OF ART WIPS (check it out here yall chip is so talented) ive decided to just share some parts of my writing wips that i rlly like because i cannot draw whatsoever lmao
enjoy some lil snippets hehe
from heart don't stand a chance:
"Zuko couldn’t get over her eyes. She was looking past the camera towards the man who took it. Zuko could see clear as day the love she held for Sokka in her gaze.
It was a perfect moment that Sokka had captured. No wonder held it with him at all times. If someone had looked at Zuko like that, he’d never want to see anything again.
As he took in the photograph, Sokka sat next to him in silence. His hand was clutching the ring around his neck again in his fist, pressing it close to his mouth as he peered over Zuko’s shoulder to look. Zuko turned to him to compliment the picture and saw a sad fondness lingering in his eyes."
this is a scene i wrote a while ago thats gonna appear in a much later chapter. but yeah. more yue angst for you guys im so sorry.
from i love you (and that's all i really know):
"Mister Sokka," a little voice wishpered in his ear as he felt tiny pokes on his cheek, "Wake up Mister Sokka."
"Good morning to you too Izumi," Sokka responded wearily as he rubbed the sleep from his eyes. He looked towards the little girl who was standing on her tippy toes to see over the edge of the bed and poke his face until he rose.
She smiled at him once she realized he was awake.
"Can we have pancakes?" She asked shyly, hiding her mouth just below the edge of the bed as she looked up at him with hopeful eyes.
That look was going to be dangerous for him later on, he could aready tell.
"Sure thing, Izumi, just let me sleep for five more minutes, mkay?" He asked as he shut his eyes again. He was exhausted from last nights events, and the sun had barely risen. How did Zuko do this?"
this is a scene from the next chapter of this fic. so much sokka and izumi bonding you guys are gonna explode hehehe.
from cherry (the mailee fic i wont shut up about that is now a whopping 19 pages):
"Mai never had to guess with Ty Lee. She always knew when Ty Lee was happy about something because she would use an obnoxious amount of exclamation points. She would send gifs of people or cartoons making outlandish expressions whenever she wanted to react to Mai’s text with a specific facial expression. Sometimes Ty Lee would even send voice memos whenever her thoughts became too long, or she got too excited about a story that her fingers couldn’t type as fast as she could speak."
hehe i love mailee.
from yours (the mailee sorority fic that i promise i did not forget about):
"Mai lifted her head off the pillow again and met Zuko’s eyes. She studied his impassive expression, trying to figure out if he was joking or not. He did seem like he missed Mai and Azula, so maybe he did really just want to catch up with them.
But Mai wasn’t going to give up a golden opportunity like this.
“Tell us everything about the boy toy as well and you’ve got yourself a deal,” Mai said.
Zuko rolled his eyes and sighed, “Ugh, fine. And his name is Sokka by the way.”
“Nuance. You also have to wake up Azula.”
“No chance in hell,” Zuko scoffed, “You’re the roommate and her fellow ‘pong princess,’ wake-up duty is all yours.”
“If she murders me, it’s your fault. She’s a bitch when she’s hungover.”
“Whatever you say, Mai,” Zuko grinned before returning back to his phone."
i have decided that zuko is a little shit for this fic and no one can stop me.
from Where'd All the Time Go? (the yuekka fic that i have severe writers block with that i also promis i have not forgotten about):
"“Sokka I really think you need to take a moment and-”
“I am fine Aang, I don’t have time for a feelings talk right now. Right now I need to find the fucking chief of this damn place.” His words came out harsher than he meant, but he didn’t have the time to dwell on that.
Before Sokka could run off again to continue his search, a hand grabbed his arm. One of Arnook’s advisors, Malina, had started dragging him towards the podium.
“Do you not realize how late you are for this Sokka? The ceremony was supposed to begin with your speech nearly an hour ago-” she hissed at him as she pulled him along through the crowd.
“Malina I’m sorry but I really need to speak with Arnook it is urgent-”
“This damn speech of yours is what’s urgent right now Sokka, you can speak with Arnook later but the guests are getting antsy so you need to give your speech right. Now.”
“But-”
“Now.”
Maline shoved Sokka towards the podium and suddenly all eyes were on him. Every guest in attendance had their focus solely on Sokka."
homeboy is stressed in this scene. things are slowly going to shit in this chapter. i promise i will update this before the end of the year. i swear. im so sorry.
from a currently untitled jetko/sukka boiling rock fic:
"“Oh good, you survived after all,” She said in a mocking tone.
Jet didn’t answer. He knew anything he said would be used against him. He didn’t know where he was. He didn’t know what was happening. But he would be damned if he showed that weakness in front of the fire nation.
“I was told you were more talkative than this,” the girl mused. There was something familiar about her, “my informants were very detailed when discussing your little teashop romance.”
I knew it. Jet snarled in his mind, That bastard betrayed me."
i want this fic to be a little darker but idk how good i am at writing darker fics because i love fluff and humor too much. this could be good angst practice for me.
from a toph and sokka fic that i wrote a while back to help me cope w some shit that i dont know if ill ever post:
"“Sokka? Are you still there?” Toph asked, the slightest hint of concern began to slip into their voice
“Tell me a story,” he was trembling. Despite all of his efforts to sound calm, he knew his voice came out trembling and scratchy and pathetic-
“Is everything okay? You don’t sound too hot,” Toph said through the phone.
Breathe, Sokka, breathe. You don’t want them to be worried, you just need to calm down.
“Please, Toph, I just,” he said through shaky breaths that weren’t nearly deep enough for him to be getting enough oxygen, “I just need a distraction. I just need to hear your voice okay?”"
nonbinary toph anyone?
from a 10 things i hate about you kataang and zukka au:
"“What? Something on my face?” the guy asked deadpanned. He rubbed at his scar as if he were wiping off a smudge of mustard, and Aang’s face went pale.
“Stop scaring the sophomores Zuko, this one’s new. He won’t get your… humor… just yet,” Ms. Wu said as she waved Aang off again.
“I’m hurt that you’d imply I’m not funny, Wu. I’m hilarious,” the senior, Zuko, said as he walked past Aang.
Aang let out a sigh of relief knowing that this Zuko guy didn’t seem all that offended by his awkwardness, and darted out of the room."
zuko is a little shit part 2. the amount of sarcasm i have dripping off of heath ledger zuko is glorious. let zuko be a little shit. i havent added to this in months but when i finish some of my other wips i cant wait to get back to this.
i have more wips and drafts saved but none of them have anything juicy or funny or interesting yet because all of them are like less than three pages so far
but yeah, heres a good chunk of sneaky peakys from my wips!
I hope you liked them!
anyone who wants to do this can totally go for it. imma tag @ambykinns @lumities and @flowers-inthepieshop (only if you all want too!!) because this was fun :)
#liv talks about writing#liv talks ab fanfic#liv wips#liv fics#i love sharing my writing#especially when i have a bit of a block going on with well.... every fic#maybe this will give me inspiration!!!#i love sharing my writing im proud of these little snippets and i hope you all likes them as well :)#atla#avatar: the last airbender
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ughh i hate starting niche shit that ik ppl will immediately reject without even considering it but. dude ngl the anti tablet thing with kids is becoming so exhausting. like PLEAASE fucking hear me out for a sec. theyre probably watching fucking cocomelon and elmo. bro. theyre learning numbers and shapes dude. why do you think thats harmful. genuinely ask yourself why on earth that would hurt them. children being entertained by childrens media or games literally designed to enrich their young minds is not fuckin bad. it exists for a reason. it is made for them. kid tablets arent the devil lmao.
im sorry but yall know parents like... ARENT legit superheroes and actually do inherently need to leave their child to their own devices from time to time just so they can complete other necessary tasks so they both survive right. you know demonizing every single instance of witnessing a parent taking care of themselves at what you perceive as even the slightest expense of their kid is not just an unattainable unrealistic standard, but just. downright Cruelty. seeing a kid with a tablet for 2 seconds and being like ‘wow i bet their parents make them do that for like 8 hours a day while they just sit there lifelessly :///’ is just... such a WILD leap. like no forreal why is this idea so ingrained. to be frank its this malicious ‘parents are lazy and terrible until proven hero’ mentality which is so fucking needlessly damaging. why do you literally think its automatically evil to let a kid watch educational yt kids in a stroller !! why is a parent expected to be their childs resource literally 24/7 when its obvious they literally cannot bc they have to be their own resource too !! ik sympathetic reasoning towards parents aint ppls strong suits and no you do not have to have your own kids to judge, but damn man yall could at least try to be Educated on raising kids b4 u spread this shit.
‘uu just handing them a tablet and ignoring them is gonna damage them’ my guys, you can give kids Plenty of attention and 1-on-1 time, but theyre autonomous human beings, after a certain point they actually Need to learn to entertain themselves and this happens sooner in life than you think. most infants learn how to self soothe a little by 6 months. sometimes ur kid might Prefer to watch smth than talk to you or w/e, and its honestly not a sign ur neglecting them. its a sign ur raising them with enough care that theyre starting to want to navigate on their own. independent play is Good. its Good for them to learn their own interests and what makes them happy. sometimes kids dont WANT your attention, or cant have it at the moment. or sometimes ur kid doesnt WANT to be at walmart, and they have the right to feel upset theyre somewhere against their will, but ofc u kinda have to buy them food so they live and shit. so distracting them with smth both educational and fun, long enough to get in, do what you need to do, and get out is... is not just ‘okay’, but a perfectly healthy and responsible thing to do in that situation, instead of letting them scream and be upset just to ‘prove’ you’re the boss while you don’t give them anything to cope with besides yourself, like its a good thing for them to not form any personal soothing skills. most parents are not Forcing a tablet on their kid, they offer it as an enriching solution to unavoidable situations where they cant be directly interacting, just like the purpose of any other toy, except this one has a much more engaging interface. and uh, lbr, you can neglect a kid with any method for this. seriously, nagging them to go play outside for 8 hours every time they annoy you can be just as neglectful for them, and make them feel just as ignored and rejected and under stimulated as it could be to leave them with a tablet for that long. and dont even get me Started on special needs kids who might need devices to cope even from a young age bc i just fuckin......... please fucking listen. im not exaggerating or playing devils advocate for fun here. the assumptions abt this are truly miserable.
tldr;;; there are not demons in the computer screens tryna rot childrens brains, ur ass grew up watching bill nye the science guy in classroom settings, ik its hard as hell to recognize flaws in such widely socially ingrained concepts but can you guys..... please just Try to be more understanding and think abt how u treat parents, and tbh how you view kids. its harmful to be so ignorant abt childrens needs and how their minds work. yall kinda act like when ur a parent it becomes a crime to still be a human person or smth like thats reasonable and not an incredibly cruel set up against them, and you act like kids are a one-size-fits-all love robot where its as simple as putting in the universal codes every day to raise them right. theyre literally just people and its a bit more complex than that
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fanfic rambles ft. chicken scratch
these are just some of my own thoughts about my first completed multi-chap fic!
feel free to read it, feel free to ignore. Not reading will not impact your fic-reading experience, reading it might make you notice more things/make you wonder “yo wtf is op’s mind ON” and I will have to reply “a lotta hamsters being injected with 90% angst concentrate with a side of circus music”
Proceed at your own discretion <3
background tidbits about secrets hidden in the chicken scratch:
originally was supposed to be a one-shot, ~3k (lmao I tried, and then the feral hamsters in my brain went NOPE)
og scenes were everything in chap 1, then gojo’s (sorta) breakdown and yuji’s comment in chap 3. EVERYTHING else was a result of me adding too much sprinkles of headcanons and “what can I do to make this fic hurt more >:D” ideas
whenever i write fluff i am spiritually making an expression of extreme pain; yall that shit is HARD. fluff writers, how do u do it??? I cant even write simple kisses; the extent of my abilities are gushy-mushy descriptions of hand-holding send help OTL (actually there was that one scene in chap 2 that went from fluff to lowkey thirsty and im just like ???? how did i get here confused.gif)
may or may not have accidentally slipped into haibaraxnanami hell... when I was first making additional scenes, I wanted something to show the kouhais realizing Gojo was never quite easy to interact with, that having Geto made communicating easier (lol my hand slipped hard and oOps half of chap 2 was given to them and I am not sorry)
love heavy foreshadowing of death...also nanami being scared of making promises...*chefs kiss*
Geto being the one sent to rescue them was purely headcanon and rather last minute; in the manga we only see him being in the morgue with nanami, but it stood out to me--why wasn’t gojo there?
Shoko is a GIFT so where’s all the platonic friendships fics huh??? (sigh gotta make what I wanna eat TTATT)
she will always be a part of their story--i will die fighting for this lmao
on that note, the pinky promise came out of nowhere. it wasn’t even an aha moment; my hands moved by themselves that day I kid you not
One of my favorite scenes is Nanami telling Gojo he is leaving. They are both so broken by the absence of their partner, and those rough edges would clash in the most tragic way possible without either realizing it. Gojo’s forced admittance that he was the strongest was an absolute delight to unleash >:D (sadkjsaas if we ever get a manga scene i will honestly cry)
tagging is a mess and i changed it like 5 times...i wasn’t too explicit or graphic (I don’t think??) so hopefully whatever I tagged covered everything ^^”
Angsty Easter Eggs that people might cry to me about:
chap titles (lol go take a look at the sentence they form! im really proud of this uwu)
geto’s coping mechanism/side hobby being origami (I swear it’s not me salty about getting papercuts)
it’s cuz i needed some sort of dragonfly motif in this piece (lmao if you know why, you know why) and origami was the best way to do it...plus arts and crafts IS a good therapeutic way to destress, dr.shoko approved! 😤 😤
origami from chap 2>shoko finds it (or did she =w=)>gojo
the test
The cleaner turns back and removes something framed on the wall. It is something strikingly familiar, but Gojo does not have the energy to remember why. (chap 2)
Chap 3 had a flashback about Gojo scoring lower than Geto and then Geto commenting he will frame his test on his ways--he does go through with it!
Geto’s death
Shit, I still need to update Shoko. (chap 3)
Headcanon territory but there’s something in the way vol0 played out that makes me think Gojo sort of knew?? that it was it for Geto?? Sorta like he knew going in that he was going to have to fight to kill, so it makes sense that he would tell Shoko before hand (ahem again, me pushing forward my sss trio friendship agenda)
#jjk#satosugu#gojo satoru#geto suguru#fanfic#fanfic rambles#this is probably not the extent of all the easter eggs but tbh i cant really remember anymore...lmao short term memory oopsies#me writing satosugu is basically dumping all my angst salt into the cooking pot and shimmering for a few months#if i had an easier time writing fluff i wonder if my fics would be more sweet and more happy endings TTvTT#buT at the end of the day it all balances out bc my fics are angst af but my ART is usually pretty crack :>>#or so i say as i consider drawing some angsTY nanabaras lmao#secrets hidden in the chicken scratch#It would be neat if I can come back in a few years and read the thoughts of me-who-just-finished >:3#jjk spoilers#this is very much a self indulgent post but if any of my readers actually read thru all this i hope you have a fantastic weekend ;>
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1, 2, 4, 5, and 23 :)
questions for multimuses / accepting.
1. Which muse(s) is/are your favourite(s)?
aaaaa im very very very fond of atsumu and sousuke honestly... atsumu bc i think he’s incredibly fun to write, nd i love exploring what his dynamics will look like with other muses (esp since hes a menace,,, just a teenage dirtbag baby,,,,, but hes also an incredibly kind nd selfless person at times nd the contrast between the ‘idc what other ppl think of me’ vs ‘i care what ppl who are close 2 me nd what they think abt’ is just very fun 2 explore :0) !! sousuke is my favorite to write bc i definitely connect with a lot of his mindset (like choosing 2 hide his injury for the longest time so he can swim w rin) nd also bc hes unexpectedly funny ??? hes this very straight-laced character nd whenever there’s a moment where i can write him 2 be funny i Will bc i think hes a secret comedian
2. Which muse(s) do you wish had more interactions?
any and all of my ocs JHGSDHJKGS as much as i love love lovee writing canon characters, i do wish i could have the chance to write my ocs as well nd rly explore what i can do with their development JHGSHJKGS
4. Name a muse you have written in the past. What was your favourite thing about this muse?
im trying not 2 fall into recency bias bc of goldstolen JHGSJKS so im thiNKING....... i dont write canons too often (most of my rping history is rooted in original characters bc i used 2 get like ... anxious over ppl who rp’d the same character as me) but i used to write steve rogers !!! my favorite thing abt him was definitely exploring how he healed and coped with being in a completely different era nd how he still was v kind nd stood up for his beliefs :) <3 to this day steve is still a huge comfort character 2 me but i do not see endgame LMAOOAOOA
5. Name a muse you wish to write in the future. What’s your favourite thing about this muse?
the way my mind jus blanKED LAMOAOAJKAJSHE a muse in the future,,,, i mean one day i’d like 2 write thanatos from hades ??? game-wise ive literally just met him once but my absolute favorite thing abt him is just like . the dialogue,,, he’s got quips yall . i would like 2 see it. than,,, if ur reading this,,, pls show up in my playthrough again .... elysium is a fuckin PAINNN
23. Tag a multimuse blog and write some positivity about them (their blog, their muses, etc.)
im gonna do a few bc <3
@isolov - hi layla ofc i was gonna do u first lOLOL anyways i love ur writing and ur characterization like every single time u just blow my mind away with how canon ur muses feel,,,, like u truly have a good grasp on all the characters u choose to write nd i can tell a lot of love nd care goes into them nd i absolutely adore u as a writing partner shipping partner nd enabler LOL
@lovenwar - we only recently became mutuals (but im pretty sure ive followed u on other blogs LMAOOO) but like,,,,,, the fact u can commit 2 so many muses,,,,, i want what u have JKEHHJES i think its v cool how u continuously are updating ur roster nd how ur always like,,,, in the mindset ?? i guess idk how 2 word this,,, of ur muses !!
@cherrywished - love u nd ur ocs nd ur canons i think u have such a good grasp on their characterization nd ur ocs are so rich w lore like u gotta teach me how 2 do it ...... also i think ur very nice nd fun <3
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Top 5 Victoria headcanons (rose-lily-hale)
Yall are just!!!! Feeding me!!!! I am so so here for this like you have no idea
5. Edward has the exact same coloring as her sister before they were both changed - Auburn hair and golden eyes. Her sister's are described as brown, I think, but I hc them as a light golden brown. So in my head, when Victoria sees him, the similarity is jarring. If you replace Edward with Edythe in the original saga, I think Victoria is even sooner to let him kill her (because that is how the fight has read to me since we learned Victoria actively suppressed her power (of survival!) during the fight). I think she'd keep seeing her sister as they fought, and when she killed her, the survivor's guilt might finally be eased by the image of Edythe walking away, because it'd look/feel like Anne was walking away and surviving while Victoria died. :(
4. I see her as having a very isolating childhood. Smeyer makes a point of saying that of the two sisters, Anne was the beauty. Their mother was a single parent and their father is implied to be the master of the house that she served at, so the whole family was probably ostracized. But I imagine Victoria, w/ her witchy features (orange hair and green eyes) and initially wilder personality, getting the worst of it. Sort of like Anne of Green Gables, but with less access to education, and a prettier older sister who was treated better (though not always well).
3. Victoria doesn't really know how to read. She was never taught as a human, and as part of Hilda's coven, they'd all still been adjusting to having a family at all, and hadn't had time to teach or learn anything more from each other yet when they were taken from her. Then, isolating herself for two centuries, she didn't need to. After James hunted and recruited her, he always responded to any expression of interest in the ability with derision, so she dropped it. She's picked up on certain things - it has been four centuries, after all. But only small things, mostly some parts of words common to street and shop signs. After she transforms Riley and the newborns, this becomes a real weakness. She can't understand if they write notes to each other - the real reason Riley is as powerful as he is is because he can make sure the newborns aren't using written messages to defy her.
2. Her ability to feel what she needs to do to survive is the vampiric manifestation of the coping/survival mechanisms resulting from PTSD caused by the abuse she and her sister when through.
1. Victoria's power to survive has more potential than she ever knew - it could've grown to be very powerful - and also had more of a grip on her than we saw. When her life is directly in danger, the pull feels like a yank on her brain and muscles - she hardly has to do anything to evade attacks. When her life is not in direct danger, it's like an unseen force is lightly touching her nerves - less of a pull, more of a gentle nudge. This is the force that disappears when her sister and coven dies, and reappears with James. She joins him because it "feels right". When he dies, it disappears again. The reason the nudge existed with Anne and again with James, is because the power to survive doesn't just move her to protect herself, it also moves her to protect the part of her life that she values, cherishes, loves - whatever makes her survival matter. Because protecting the reason she wants to live, keeps her alive as well.
The nudge that existed with Anne, was one that told her to keep Anne, and then all of Hilda's coven, alive. But there was no way to save her sisters once the Volturi arrived to claim Heidi, so it was either herself or nothing, so her body was yanked into running even as she yelled for her sisters to run. Once the last of her coven was killed, there was no one else she loved, and she had no real love for life, so the "nudge" went away completely.
The "nudge" that James inspired was because the possibility of him being the death of her was Never off the table, so her powers nudged her to keep him happy. She'd get random nudges to run away sometimes, but only for split seconds before he was paying attention again and the urge to stay resumed.
When he dies, the nudge disappears, because nothing has changed since her coven died. She still doesn't care enough about anything to have a purpose. So she cobbles together her own purpose - revenge, because that's what you do when you love someone, isn't it, and she needs something to break the silence. But it doesn't fix the problem, and eventually she doesn't want to go on. So, knowing how to survive and knowing what that means, she goes through the fight defying her power, avoiding its use, cursing Edward for taking away James because that was the only reason she could find to keep going.
Wow! So that was depressing. And revealing! And it took way too much time and is way too long I'm sorry I went feral but oh well! I had so much fun ranting about my wife anyway you have no idea tysm ily for the excuse to cry for her
#victoria sutherland#twilight#twilight saga#victoria#twilight victoria#victoria twilight#bilight's asks#bilight's bs#bilight interacts#bilight talks#bilight's headcanon#bilight's headcanons#bilight writes#bilight's meta
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ppl who call jotaro’s personality boring or bland make me
ugh
like you can have ur opinions. u likely dont mean any harm and thats fine idc im not attacking you for not vibing with jotaro kujo, that would be silly
but it’s really damn obvious that jotaro is severely depressed.
and it always makes me feel weird to see people call his personality boring (i dont mean character development, that’s a different thing entirely) bc as someone w depression it’s so nice to finally see a character that is......... like me. you’d think w how common depression is authors wouldn’t be such misinformed cowards but a lot are. so jotaro is very dear to me. ironically it took almost a year for me to realize i relate to him so hard bc there’s like a 99.99999% chance he’s depressed.
depression is more than just being sad & people can be very high functioning and successful despite depression so let’s get that out of the way while i explain in unnecessary length why i believe this whether it was intentional by araki or not.
1. it makes you angry & moody
depression and anger go hand in hand. irritability is a symptom for a reason, baby! it can make you very aggressive and give you a very short fuse (or the opposite, make you repress it). god knows i am aware of this lol. even the smallest things can set off intense anger. and jotaro’s aggressive responses r a notable feature of his character. not to mention that sometimes when you get really angry, it feels better than feeling nothing; sometimes you end up seeking it out just to feel something.
2. it makes you feel like a problem
jotaro worries excessively, albeit for a reason but it also fits depression’s MO, that people he loves will be hurt bc of him. and a lot of people, myself included, lash out in anger when deeply upset, whether they are truthfully angry.
he is the problem. he is always the problem, in his mind. is that self centered? maybe. but it is a common thought and it often comes from a place of deep self loathing, not exaggerated self importance. he keeps people away bc if he gets involved with them, they get hurt; and this is only proved time and time again & he’s allowed to internalize that. which eventually ruins his family (ahem jokes about bad dad jotaro are not funny, they never have been, thank you and moving on.) and sometimes i wish he had the chance to cope with his shit and [cries]
3. it makes you apathetic and empty
people also think jotaro is emotionless which honestly? maybe that could be the case. depression is very consistent (otherwise it’s usually something else, like a form of bipolar). for some people, myself included, the feeling they feel consistently is apathy or emptiness. instead of ‘neutral’ you just feel... void of anything at all. i would describe it as a cloud hanging over your entire life. sometimes it rains, sometimes it pours. but the cloud is always there. his apathy seems to be the main reason people hate him and it’s one of those things that i just cannot imagine the other side on, you know? it’s such a part of my own life.... i never realized people thought that was ‘unrealistic’.
there are many moments when you can feel happy, joyful, or peaceful; they are just few and far between. even though i am depressed, i have things that make me very happy. sure it’s one thing, but it’s a thing! for jotaro, that seems to be marine biology and family. although araki has some weird obsession with family being super important we will pretend that family is important to jotaro, not araki. anyways. these arent reasons to say he isnt depressed, bc there are some of the few things he seems to love. there are also ups and downs to your mood, as is there is for someone without any mental health issues.
4. it can accompany trauma and psychological issues
jotaro grew up with a dad who was, as far as we can guess, never home. a dad so absent that joseph hated him and you know what joke im about to make there. yes im aware it’s also bc he ‘took his daughter away’ bc joseph was born when women were property and racism was super cool hashtag vintage but it is likely deeper than that for reasons that this post isnt about.
but.
sadao was an absent father and put work first and i can tell you from experience that destroys your self esteem as a child. you feel unimportant. you feel like you don’t come first to your parent. it certainly does not make for a happy childhood and any psychologist will scream at u that childhood is absolutely key in developing ur brain. theres also the fact that jotaro 100% got bullied for ‘not having a dad’ bc it was the 1980s and actually nvm that still happens haha hashtag vintage.
besides being depressed, this is also the example of a father that jotaro had growing up (ppl like to act like joseph lived w them lol no joseph was also a distant father figure, if one at all), so him being away from his family all the time? he probably didnt give it a second thought. beyond the fact that the subconscious exists and we dont consciously decide everything we do (which jojo fans in particular are super bewildered by idk what it is with yall), jotaro is also the type of person to avoid pondering his own personal problems.
so anyways........
i am done raving.
daddy issues aren’t a fucking joke i will fist fight you Right Now.
i love jotaro kujo.
thank u mr araki for making him.
goodnight
#jotaro kujo love post i guess#ramblings of a madman#this become a rant really quickly oh god#heres my thesis about jotaro kujo and his depression
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Life update nobody asked for :)
Hoooo weeee... we're like 3 weeks into 2020 and i know the world is lookin r o u g h rn... but i just wanted to take some time to shout into this wonderful dark blue void we call tumblr for a sec
I put all of it under a readmore, but tl;dr is that i got time off of work this week and next week to write some more fishy articles for yall! Also i filed for divorce last nov, which should be finalized by may, and i am so SO excited for this year :)
2019 was a rly wild year... i think its the most personal growth ive experienced and i dont regret any part of it (even though some parts were genuinely terrifying or rly hard to go through).
I lived somewhat independently for most of it (i rly loved having a place to myself :3 even tho taking care of it and myself and all the kiddos was sometimes hard, it was wonderful to have so much freedom and independence).
I made lots of new friends :D
I filed for divorce! (this ones a big'un and by far the best! Itll be final in may hopefully). I had to say goodbye to the cats and the dog (i couldnt keep them and my ex was the one who brought them home originally. He moved to a place with a backyard and more people to help take care of them. It was definitely in their best interest but I do still miss them♡).
I moved back in with my parents, but got to keep all of my other babies :3 the pumpkin patch sling im raising went thru their first molt (fingers crossed they continue to eat like a tank and grow up big n strong). My hamster is an old man now but the vet said hes lookin great for such an old man :) it makes my heart happy that he'll be around a while longer ♡
I got a raise at work! Ive had this job for over a year now and i like my coworkers. Bossman gives us days off when we ask and cooks everyone home made lunch when he comes in once a week :p
I decided to take time off of school to sort out my life and academic habits. Most of it has to do with anxiety (hence the counseling) and developing healthier coping mechanisms. Also figuring out what I really want to do... because i dont have to consider how my career will affect anyone but me now... so im switching to environmental science :) it doesnt pay as well as computer science, but im more passionate about it and even when i went thru a rly bad depressive episode last year and failed half my classes... i aced the heck out of my ES ones and enjoyed the material :)
I signed back up for counseling! Went to my first appointment last week and my therapist is super dope.
I wrote some freelance pieces. (Which i have been very very slow to finish recently... i hope to have some more turned in soon tho! I’m sending in my tiger barb care article today and I asked for some more days off at work to be able to work on freelance more! Ive only had 1 day off per week for the past few weeks @.@ but I had 3 days off this past week so no excuses!!)
I started new hobbies! I got a sewing machine for xmas (shout out to my mom, who is the dopest woman i know) and am excited to try some more challening projects :p i made some simple stuff, but i really wanna make plushies!
I finally found a dnd group and its SO MUCH FUN :3 ive only been to 2 sessions now but the dm is great and also patient about all my newbie questions :3 reddit has also been v helpful ^-^ I’ve also been having a ton of fun dndiying stuff for my character (like spell cards/stat cards) and making miniatures with sculpey (first time working with polymer clay, so thats been cool too) :3
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Going into 2020 im really excited to travel this year. I’m going to denver next month!!! and possibly a cruise with friends at the end of the summer?? we’ll see :p I’m also excited to get more into my new hobbies (DND, sewing, miniature-making, etc) and getting back into to older hobbies (terrariums, scrapbooking, snail mail, etc). I’m trying to go back to school in the fall as well so fingers crossed my change-of-major gets approved >w<
all in all though, i’m hype for 2020 and i hope everyone has a good year too :)
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Almer headcanons
almer is the Good Shit. here we gO
warnings: mentions of abuse (some are kind of graphic?? maybe?) please please please be careful if these trigger you and you choose to read ahead anyway!
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●so, its canon that albert has 2 older brothers
▪they do their jobs as siblings and tease these boys pre-dating. all the time. try to change my mind, you fucking cANNOT.
▪"i hope youll let me be your best man, al" - matt, the second oldest dasilva brother
▪"in your fucking dreams, MATTHEW. iT's GoNnA bE mE" -drew, the oldest dasilva brother
▪"if you guys argue about this one more time its gonna be race" -albert
●elmer deals with this times 4 bc he has 8 older siblings
▪his sisters especially????? they are ON HIS ASS ALMOST CONSTANTLY ABOUT ALBERT THE MOMENT THEY FIND OUT ABOUT HIS CRUSH
▪hes thankful that 3 of his siblings are either away at college/constantly busy with senior year shit bc thats 3 siblings less to tease him constantly
●so. albert rlly doesnt like talking about his biological parents bc of the way they treated him and his brothers (i wont go into graphic detail, but they were physically, emotionally, and mentally abused - especially albert bc he was the youngest so he didnt have an excuse to be away as often as his brothers did)
▪elmer finds out abt everything when he wakes up bc albert is crying in his sleep and whimpering and trembling even though he has the warmth of about 3 blankets and el's body heat
▪and thats the first time he realises albert has gone through so much shit and hes still coping
▪yall he refuses to go back to sleep until albert feels SAFE and COMFORTED
●al had a toxic relationship w/ this girl named lorie once
▪she would NOT let him talk to el or race or basically anyone else and she would constantly complain abt how he wasnt doing enough for her
▪it all put him in a really bad mental state
▪and hed break down about it and not be able to tell anyone and she would just complain abt how pathetic he was being and it just made him feel worse
▪he doesnt really like talking about that either
▪fun fact,, that was his only relationship before he started dating elmer
●if albert and elmer ever have a pet......... its a chinchilla named blossom and you cant change my mind
▪also at some point they adopt the SWEETEST corgi husky mix pup named gizmo
▪race comes over. constantly. he practically lives there bc of blossom and gizmo
▪it earns them lots of complaints from spot (or davey or jojo or whoever you want honestly go wild)
▪"race go home your boyfriend wants you"
"my boyfriend always wants me ;)))"
"FUCK OFF"
●elmer love love LOVES kissing al's cheek or his jaw
▪he also likes kissing albert's shoulder when theyre in bed and albert has his back to him
▪it makes al melt. every time.
●al loves to kiss the top elmer's head or his neck
▪not even necessarily to get elmer excited (but sometimes it for that)
▪he just finds it easy to bury his face in the crook of his bf's neck and just. smorch. u know??
●they dont get into heated makeout sessions very often imo?? theyre just. soft.
●elmer esp wants to take it slowly and carefully bc of everything albert's gone through
▪4 months into their relationship he realises albert hasnt said "i love you" once
▪decides not to push it tho. he gets it and wants al to take his time!!
▪few weeks later albert brings it up and starts rambling
▪"i know you probably want to break up with me because its so sad and pathetic. i mean its almost been five months and im not saying these words because im too fucking scared to say them even though i shouldnt be because theyre true and i really do love you, i love you so fucking much it scares me sometimes-"
▪elmer cant help but grin, "albert. albert. you said it."
▪"i said it? oh my god i said it."
▪THESE BOYS ARE NEAR TEARS
▪"i love you. i love you so much"
▪"i love you, too, albert."
●ELMER IS A GIGGLY DRUNK
▪uhhhh al rarely ever drinks bc hes just scared he'll get addicted like his parents did
▪he doesnt mind it if others drink tho. he just doesnt want to do it all that often
▪he has to admit, though, that when his boyfriend drinks, things get kind of wild
▪by wild i mean elmer is LITERALLY giggling about everything everyone says
▪"what the fuck??"
▪elmer, through giggles: "dont say that word. thats a baaaad worrrrddddd"
▪albert could literally say "hello" and he'd burst out laughing
▪so nobody lets race near elmer when hes drunk bc one time racer’s jokes made el laugh so hard he passed out
▪albert never stops teasing elmer about it and elmer hates it but at least it gives him a good excuse to kiss his boyfriend
▪that excuse is shutting him the FUCK up
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alrighty thats all i got for tonight bc its 11:58pm and i should be asleep. but its diWALI AND I AINT SLEEPIN UNTIL ITS OFFICIALLY OVER (aka til any point after 2 minutes from right now). sorry this took so long, anon. hope you like!!
-sanj 💕
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hey are y'all doing im noticing how docile and meek i am as a person and when it comes to relationships especially with friendships. i had numerous fall outs in the past that it affected my relationships with all of my peers including the few close friends i have left. its difficult for me to form new friendship or acquaintances due to several traits that i have.(i'm a shy person whos socially awkward that deals w/ social anxiety) normally i can cope w/ it but lately it's becoming harder to(1/2)
-cope when i fall into an anxiety attack. i dont know how to improve this situation. (sorry this is a lil long, wrote this in a whim. love the work yall doing for this blog!! ;;) (2/2)
Hey lovely,
I’m sorry to hear that it’s been getting harder for you to cope with it all. Anxiety attacks can be so horrible so I hope we can be of help!
Noticing that you’re docile doesn’t necessarily have to be a bad thing! For me the word actually has a positive meaning attached to it, but I’m not a native English speaker so that could have something to do with it. But I recognise a lot of myself in you; I’m also shy and socially awkward and it makes forming new friendships hard. What honestly really helped me were the online friends I made, partly through tumblr in general and partly through being an admin here at MHA. There were times where they felt like the only people I could be myself with, to not have to pretend that I was doing better than I was. From their support, I could eventually open up more to other people in my life. Being more honest, being more myself also helped in my friendships.
While you feel right now that your friendships have been affected, it doesn’t mean that it can’t get better. It’s definitely possible for things to take a wrong path for a while but for them to eventually get better again! Do the close friends you have still know about your struggles with social anxiety? If you’re able to, I think it could be helpful if you’d open up to them about this and explain to them how it’s affected you and your relationship with them. If they don’t know about it, then they might wonder why certain things happened or went down, and an explanation can really help then. Of course it’s up to you whether you reach out to them, but I do hope you consider the possibility.
Forming new friendships is hard! Especially when you can’t think of things to say, which always happens to me. There are people though, who are great with holding up conversations. They know just what to say, so that you don’t have to think of it anymore. And this can be a good start to forming a friendship. Once you become more comfortable with them, you can practice with taking the initiative in a conversation more, so that you’re learning from it too. Or maybe you feel more at ease with someone you can just be quiet with. It might feel awkward at first, but if you can get through that, then it’s honestly so valuable. There’s no pressure for anything.
We have an anxiety page series that I think might be helpful for you to look through. There are a lot of tips on how to deal with anxiety, as well as information on it all. Hopefully some of the tips can help you cope a bit better. I do also think you’d benefit a lot from reaching out to a professional though. You don’t have to deal with this all by yourself! You can visit your GP / local doctor and explain to them briefly what’s been going on. They can then arrange a referral for you. For anxiety, treatment usually consists of CBT (Cognitive Behavioural Therapy), sometimes in combination with medication. In CBT, you can learn to challenge your anxious thoughts and provide more rational ones instead. The more you practice with the rational ones, the more you eventually start to believe them.
Right now you might feel a lot of pressure on having to find your closest friends. And while of course it’s great if that happens, it’s okay if it takes you a while. It’s okay if you meet your friends later in life. It’s okay. If right now it isn’t doable for you, then focus on making it doable for the future, by for exampling starting therapy for social anxiety. Your time will come, there’s no rush.
Sometimes what seems impossible, is just hard. Love Pauline
#mental health#advice#advice blog#social anxiety#anxiety#friendships#shy#anxiety attack#mhapauline#anonymous
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about me
so because i haven’t done one of these since i hit like.. 100 followers? and i don’t feel like digging through my shit to reblog it again, and i’ve gotten a few personal asks...
i go by moki. a select few of you know my real name and i don’t mind yall using it when talking to me one on one, but moki has been my moniker for the last 20 years give or take and i highly prefer it.
i’ll be 30 in october (and high-key freaking out about it. rip.)
i really, honestly, truly do not care what pronouns you use for me. the closest thing i identify as is genderfluid. i’m biologically female and present that way most of the time just because i’m 1. lazy 2. live in one of the most conservative states in america and 3. extra lazy and just don’t want to Deal With It. but personally i feel pretty androgynous so whatever you feel comfortable calling me is fine by me.
i’ve never known wtf to say my sexuality is so i just file it under generic queerness. consenting human adult who is not related to me is my sexuality. there you go. i’m also polyamorous with a non-poly s/o and we’ve been together for 9 years. with that in mind please don’t get all weird with me. i’ve yet to have that problem but hey, never know.
i’m super open minded. very few things are off limits for me to talk about. tmi doesn’t exist with me. i’ll talk to you about weird sex stuff, i really don’t care. i’ll talk to you about mental illness. i’ll talk to you about your daily boring life. i don’t judge and i will always try to be supportive in whatever way i can. if you need to vent just hit me up. don’t even need to ask. just rant and bitch at my dms as much as you need to!
i have pretty severe ADD and it was only diagnosed a couple of years ago and it’s been a royal fucking bitch trying to treat it. i was doing pretty well on adderall but i built up a tolerance and can’t go any higher with it. on vyvanse now and i really don’t like it. probably won’t be switching to anything else anytime soon though. going through med changes is just so exhausting. and expensive. so, yanno, sometimes i can be spacey af while other times so fucking hyperfocused on something i can’t shut up about it.
also went from your basic general depression to severe major depression in the span of like 2 years and tbh i’m still very slowly crawling my way out of it. fucking ironically tumblr has really helped with that LOL i spent my entire life around toxic, abusive, and negative environments so those are like the last thing i ever want to be. thus, i try to stay pretty positive. i cope with humor, too. so yeah, despite my cheerfulness and joking i’m usually pretty down.
got that hella bad anxiety on top of it all. most of mine is social anxiety, but in general i’m a pretty fuckin anxious person. coupled with my add my mind can be a terribly loud place sometimes. those two also give me some baaaaad insomnia every once in a while.
and like all that wasn’t bad enough, i’ve also got pcos and all the wonderful imbalances that come with it.
i never get enough sleep. my usual is 5 hours a night. about once a month i’ll sleep for like 20 hours straight. super not healthy but i can’t help it always. tired is my state of existence.
i’ve been in various medical fields for like... 8ish years. jobless currently as of last week but w/e i’ll find something soon i’m sure.
i have 4 cats. i love cats. i’m that person that cries when they talk about how much they love cats. i’m wearing a cat shirt right now. in cat pj pants. with two cats sleeping next to me. i fucking love cats. kittens are my weakness. had 5 cats, but in january we very suddenly lost one of them to either viral meningitis or brain tumor (most likely tumor since the others didn’t get sick. i didn’t want an autopsy done) and tbh i’m still not over it. i honest to fucking god love them like my children, more than i love most other people. it felt like a part of me died with him and i miss him so much every damn day.
i’ve been told i come off as confidant on here?? lmao thats so far from the truth. i have so little confidence. what i do have is an enormous lack of fucks to give about a lot of things - one of the only perks of getting older i’ve found. i’m quiet and weird and super self-conscious and awkward and i legit only have like 2 irl friends bc i don’t make them easily. i don’t like talking - like with my voice. i’d for real be mute if i could.
music is super important to me. theres only a handful of genres i don’t like. i’m basically listening to it constantly.
anyway, there you go. some stuff about me. enjoy i guess?
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lmao hi i want to talk A Lot about music and making music ahhhh
okay so like as most of u know i love music sm??? bc i use it to cope or i use it to get into moods or to make stories. like music is !!! such a powerful medium
and ion like singing (myself) i love listening to ppl singing and stuff. i rlly love all kinds of music idk how people can stick to one genre like i have to go Everywhere. my faves are hip hop and r&b but i adore neo-soul (frank ocean!!), and future funk on a good day.
old school and new school are both so good so like i split them into different playlists bc sometimes old school vibes are so fucking....Necessary you know? they suit everything. and music production back then is something i reallly admire and when i start producing music i’d wanna like, recreate tracks from shit like biggie smalls’ big poppa or dr. dre’s keep their heads ringing.
and TIMBALAND is my fave producer frr his use of vocals in his production is fucking 10/10 YALL like in Cry Me a River by JT. like when you listen to that shit with good headphones it’s such an experience!!
and i love r&b so much because of the like......glossy vibe it has to it. like michael jackson’s heaven can wait. beyonce’s naughty girl. the Glossy vibe. like they have that shit in their music videos too. i Adore the whole black r&b aesthetic.
and like idk why people slam new school so much because....yeah they rappin about Titties but that’s nothing new??? like yeah it’s about drugs now too or some niggas wearin skinny jeans but srsly today’s music isn’t as shit as ppl make it out to be, you just listening to the wrong people!! like the more you delve into artists in genres and stuff and like looking into who featured on this fav song you find sooo many new people. and its just magical seeing what kinda people make what kinda shit. u rlly just hav 2 find what resonates w you. which is why its Dumb as hell to stay in One Single genre imo!
tl;dr just skip to here lmaoo
and like i’ve always wanted 2 create experiences for ppl you know, when they listen to music. like okay yeah, the vocals whether rapping or singing make the song but the music production is what really sets the theme and that’s why im so interested bc i rlly want to be able to create that for ppl you know!!
lol i tried writing song lyrics when i was younger and they weren’t bad but they were just like. Poems or stories. i aint good w that. but i’d love to make sound and like. create that Mood for someone on that day. express my feelings into music production. and shit. YEA okay thats it, basically i rlly want 2 make music lmaoo
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im awfully curious to know why u think zoe is a lesbian! could u tell me pls?
since ive been having to ignore more and more “actually, stupid lesbian, zoe is [other sexuality], and NOT a lesbian” asks i have 2 preface this by saying: this is all Headcanons™ but imma be real w yall. i dont care zoe murphy is a WHOLE ass lesbian
anyways here are my main points:
1: the curious case of zoe & evan
• this isnt a “zoe and evan’s relationship was fucked up and heres why” post but listen: it was. • it’s often used to justify bi zoe (still valid! just not my brand or hc for her) but wht i think a lot of ppl just like. fail to realize is that lesbians? really often date men before realizing theyre lesbians? dating a man once (or even many times!) doesnt automatically cancel any chance of a girl being a lesbian• but more on zoe & evan specifically: their relationship simply wasn’t…genuine. zoe’s just lost her brother, whom she’d been receiving abuse from for who knows how long, and suddenly someone comes in and claims to have all the answers as to why this is happening? that already puts this whole situation into a tailspin• the intentions aren’t malicious, but she’s being fed lies about who her brother was and what he thought of her. ‘if i could tell her’ is Vert instrumental in developing zoe and evan’s relationship, and not in a good way. she’s being shown conflicting views of who her brother was against what she knew him as, and so soon after his death and while she’s coping with the trauma she’s being faced with i wouldn’t put her in the best state of mind• more than that though, evan is lying to her throughout their entire relationship. and this isn’t me trying to demonize evan either, but the fact remains that connor’s death and evan’s chain of actions following it are the sole reason he and zoe end up together. so i’d hardly call it a good relationship• correct me if i’m wrong but it’s right before zoe kisses evan that she says “you gave me my brother back.” the start of their [zoe and evan’s] is marked by the lies evan has been telling about connor and it’s solely because of this that she relates to evan (because previously in the show, she showed absolutely no interest in him outside of concern after he’s pushed).• tldr: zoe is (without malicious intent, but nevertheless) being lied to about her brother by evan, and it’s only because of what evan is telling her about connor and how they relate on that front that they enter a relationship in the first place. i’d call it hero worship over actual attraction
2: her wardrobe
• okay the above section was my serious section now this is more descending into joke-y territory but. the fact remains• seeing the show is…truly eye opening in regards to lesbian zoe. first off, not only does connor (known & accepted gay) have pins on his bag: so does zoe! i was so focused on connor’s pins that i didnt take note of what hers were but. having pins on ur backpack is a gays only event• i just reblogged a post about this djcndidjfid but. just take a look at ANY picture of zoe’s costuming. she’s always wearing plaid, or denim, or both. those belong to lesbians• SHE WEARS OVERALLS AT ONE POINT. listen. im not a religious person, but i could truly feel god looking out for me when zoe walked out on stage wearing overalls• she also vandalizes her clothes (“stars on the cuffs of her jeans”). thats a very lesbian thing
3: jazz band
• she plays the guitar in jazz band. • need i say more. she plays songs on her guitar and when she sings along she changes the pronouns to make them gay
4: my lopinion (lesbian opinion)
• i see…a lot of myself in zoe, and i’ll be the first to admit that a decent chunk of my reasoning behind zoe being a lesbian is projection. • outside of that though, zoe being a lesbian just makes a lot of sense. she shows no interest in evan whatsoever until he starts making her rethink her views on her brother. she seems almost compelled to be interested in him because of what he’s doing for her and her family. she has real difficulty accepting things about herself that fall outside the norm (notably, how she doesn’t mourn connor in the way the world wants her to, or how her experience as an abuse survivor is valid even though her abuser had his own issues).• again, all of this is obviously headcanon but! i haven’t a doubt in my mind that post canon, after she rids herself of the disaster that was her and evan’s relationship and begins the process of healing from the trauma she faced, she learns to accept all sorts of things (like the fact that her brother wasn’t a good person to her, and she doesn’t have to grieve in a traditional way for him. that she has been royally screwed over by the people in her life, but that doesn’t reflect on her as a person. and the fact that she undoubtedly, unceasingly, loves girls and girls exclusively)
thanks for coming to my tedtalk. make 2018 the year lesbian zoe murphy rises
#ask#deh#lesbian zoe#this is okay to reblog. please do we need more lesbian zoe stans#and again this isnt an anti connor/evan post please relax#everything i said in regards to them is objectively true and just because u dont like zoe doesnt mean u can ignore the facts!#connor and evan were at best. BEST toxic presences in her life is all im saying#also dont @ me about bi or straight zoe. look at my url. i could not give less of a shit#zoe murphy#dear evan hansen#zoevan#yes this is going in the main tags fuck u!
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