on loving your sibling, even when you hate them.

@ch-ch-ch-ch-cherrybomb / erica e. goode / ginger snaps / phillipa gregory / emma cameron / succession / belle and sebastian / krystal sutherland / euphoria / kieran culkin / sue zhao / lisa see

Stimming isn't enough I need to be my special intrest

DEH character reference sheets I made :)

Featuring my personal headcanons!!

(I'll probably draw sheets for the other characters soon, but I wanted to start with Evan, Connor, and Zoe cuz they're my favorites)

Hehe

…And you and your brother would look for four leaf clovers.

going back to my roots. murphy sibs not knowing how to look at each other.

i did a thing

Round 1

Propaganda Under Cut

Zoe Murphy

People who ship Evan and Connor want to demonize her SO BAD. Like it is NOT her fault she's upset at her brother and having a hard time mourning the guy who was a dick to her - and this is as a Connor Murphy apologist. All the best Connor/Evan fics are where she and Connor slowly repair their relationship and he puts in the work

hey remember when ppl shipped evan with connor even though the WHOLE POINT of the show is that evan never actually knew connor and their entire "friendship" is an elaborate lie

She's the main love interest but people ship Evan with her dead brother so they make her into a jerk or a wingman and ignore the fact that the brother was abusive towards her

Gwen Cooper

she literally did nothing worse than the rest of the team yet so many people hate her guts and there is a literal gwen bashing tag for her on ao3. just cause she's a complicated character and confident and assertive and oh yeah she had sexual tension with jack harkness who ended up w ianto in the end. god forbid.

fans think she "gets in the way" of the canon m/m pairing of the series just because she has straightbait scenes with one of the two guys. when in reality she literally has a husband and has been nothing but supportive of her friends and their relationship 😭 she tends to be written as like super insensitive and spoiled and its unbearable 

An amazing, badass woman who has a complicated relationship with Jack Harkness, 1/2 of “Janto,” the ship she “gets in the way of.” People use this slight complication to decide they HATE HER and turn her into this vile, evil, vindictive person. She often tries killing Ianto (other half of “Janto”) in many poorly-written fics, simply so that everyone can realise how badly they treat poor, poor Ianto. This makes Jack fall harder in love with Ianto xoxo Mwuah Mwuah and Gwen is hated and killed. This occurrence is so common that it has its own tag on AO3: “Gwen Bashing.” The writing, again, is always very bad, and solely created to make people hate Gwen. She’s chill in the actual show though. Very supportive of the two men and their relationship, and is literally happily married. She is not at all like what people make her out to be.

So many criticisms of Dear Evan Hansen revolve around the show being messy/morally convoluted as if that was an overlooked flaw in the writing and not the whole point of the show.

Everything in Dear Evan Hansen is intentionally messy. Everything has two sides. Social media is a positive place where people can come together to make a difference AND it's a breeding ground for hate and vitriol. Evan is a deeply caring, empathetic person AND he does a horrible thing. Heidi is a dedicated, loving mother AND she works so hard that she never spends any time with her son. Connor is agressive, angry, violent, AND he is a depressed, lonely person, ostracized by his peers and longing for connection. Larry Murphy is a domineering authority figure who treats his son like a criminal AND he's a frustrated parent that wants to help Connor get better the only way he knows how. Evan's lies are harmful and manipulative AND they give a family that was tearing apart at the seams time to come together, reflect, and grieve.

All of these things can be true at the same time, and one doesn't have to overshadow or cancel out the other. In ignoring one to focus on the other, you're wilfully missing the point of the story. Real life is messy and complex, and that's exactly what the show is trying so hard to emulate. That's not bad writing, it's just being realistic.

Pasek and Paul said that in its earliest form, the show was meant to look at why people insert themselves into tragedy through a much more cynical lense, criticizing people like Evan. But somewhere in the writing process they found that it's not that simple, because people don't just do that shit for no reason, and it's naive to believe they would. Evan didn't do what he did to be popular or get a girlfriend or gaslight a grieving family. He did it because he saw a chance to help people who were hurting. In the process, he found connection that he had longed for his whole life, and allowed that to complicate things, making him a lot more reluctant to do the right thing and come clean. But the show makes it explicity clear that his initial intention was rooted in helping someone else, not himself. And as bad as it was, it did force the Murphys to come to terms with their loss instead of running away from it, to come together instead of drifting apart.

Yes, the morality of everything that happens in the show is deeply questionable, complex and muddy and that's the ENTIRE POINT. It doesn't mean the show is endorsing what Evan did. The vast majority of the fan base doesn't endorse what Evan did either. Most of us understand what that final scene in the orchard is getting at. It's not arguing that what Evan did was somehow morally correct, or handing him some magical "get out of jail free card". It's acknowledging ALL the consequences of his actions (good AND bad, the healing he brought about AND the hurt he caused) and letting us come to terms with that along with him and move forward. That scene encompasses one of the most important messages of the show: that doing something bad doesn't make you evil. One mistake doesn't have to define you for the rest of your life, and it doesn't make you less human, or any less deserving of growth and self acceptance.

on being siblings.

evelyn, evelyn / natalie diaz / clive baker / sharp objects / gillian flynn / micah nemerever / ethel cain / ginger snaps / mabel: matryoska / dear evan hansen

THE DEH KOREAN CAST IS HERE!!!

dear evan hansen as a youtube video

MY BEST FRIEND KILLED HIMSELF ?!?!?! project link in description! | edit: apology video up

Here is my drawing of the Dear Evan Hansen kids as trolls from the movie Trolls! They are very different shows in terms of tone, but it was only natural for me to draw this.

In order they are Evan, Connor, Jared, Alana, and Zoe :)

shoutout to “quirky” girls in media who have undiagnosed (or unlabeled) autism/adhd. gotta be one of my favorite genders