Can we just talk about the fact that Buck has always gone above and beyond for everyone in his life?
And how having someone else be there for him is a huge fucking deal?
Buck has such a deep-seated fear of abandonment, and the show has made it so REAL, given his childhood, and i pray the writers put our boy back in therapy to address it. Clearly, the Buckley parents hardly showed affection towards Buck as a child, even to the extreme of cutting off an emotional connection to ultimately help them bury their grief over Daniel. And Buck could feel this. A tiny child who just wants to be loved "anyway" and has lived his entire life in fear that any future physical and emotional relationships he finds will always abandon him because it's literally all he knows.
Buck has always craved a connection to something. Whether it's with his sister, at jobs, with friends, with romantic partners... he approaches everything and everyone in his life like they're this brand new amazing piece of his charred. scattered puzzle.
And, still, everyone has either left him, made him feel like the problem or a burden, or told him he's not good enough.
And we know he values his family (both blood and found) above everything else around him.
But like, who does it for him?
I'm not saying the 118, Maddie, or past LIs haven't been there for him, but, at one point in time, they've all made him feel some type of way during their relationship with him. Whether it was completely accidental or not.
Yes, even Eddie, who called him exhausting and shut Buck out of his life when it came to the underground fighting. Even after Eddie left the 118 and was struggling with his PTSD. And I'm not saying Eddie is a dick for all that. He was having a bad time. I'm just saying he can't really understand Buck in that way.
And that's okay.
Eddie, along with everyone else in Buck's life, is there for him in their own special way that helps make Buck learn from past mistakes and become a better person.
But then he meets Tommy.
Someone who went above and beyond, putting both his job and his life on the line by flying Hen, Chim, Eddie and Buck out to search for a cruise ship in the middle of a hurricane.
And that has to impress the shit out of Buck. Which is why there is an immediate attraction and need to get to know this man. Buck feels drawn to him because maybe, just maybe, the pieces broken inside himself could ultimately match up to those within Tommy.
Buck can't stop thinking about Tommy because no one else he's ever dated has treated Buck with this amount of attention or makes him feel secure in the fact that his feelings matter.
And yeah, Tommy ended their first date early, and I know some people didn't appreciate that, but you also have to understand that Tommy has feelings too. We don't canonically know Tommy's story, but I'm confident he's broken inside by the same insecurities that Buck has.
So, Buck realizing that his actions on the date weren't right and deciding to put everything on the line to Tommy?
We aren't dealing with the same Buck from S6 who thought Natalia saw him because he died.
No.
Buck sees Evan. He sees himself and the life he's ready to live.
And finally, he's making himself a priority.
He's not basing this relationship on Tommy or what anyone else thinks. He's pursuing this relationship for himself and for the first time... it's his time.
And Tommy just keeps showing up for it.
He doesn't ridicule Buck on wanting to throw Chim a bachelor party that wasn't wanted. He stays as long as he can before getting called into work. And I'm willing to bet that the man didn't even eat anything because Buck said they had to wait for Chim.
And those looks!
The kicked puppy look that Buck gives Tommy says so much. There's a sadness that he failed at throwing a successful bachelor party, I mean, Chim didn't even show up. There's a sudden concern that the guy he likes is going to a fire that most likely is highly dangerous and large considering they called him in for it.
Tommy gives him a look that shows he understands all of the feelings that Buck is struggling with in that moment. And then he goes on to promise that he will try his best to make it to the wedding.
And you can tell that Buck doesn't believe that. Why would Tommy even consider coming back for Buck? Hell, maybe there wasn't even a fire. Maybe Tommy just created an easy out for an awkward situation.
But I like to believe that Tommy checked in with Buck periodically, and then when he found out that Chim was missing, his texts came in more frequently as his job would allow.
And im sure at one point, Buck told him that he didn't need to come. That he was off the hook because the wedding was at the hospital. No free food or chance of that dance.
Only, Tommy assures him he'll still be there.
And, holy shit, for the first time in Buck's life, someone has kept their word above all else.
Tommy shows up, dirty, exhausted, still in his uniform, hitching a ride on the firetruck or one of those ambulances parked outside, looking both concerned and apologetic.
But all Buck sees is the guy he's crazy about showing up all because Buck wanted him to.
And I just think that's really fucking huge.
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Thoughts on Abbott women and their relationships to the cameras:
AUSHSHS, OKAY. One of my favorite things to think about how is how the Abbott characters are super aware of the cameras and how they have different relationships to the fact that they’re being filmed all the time. Here are some thoughts/headcanons for women esp.
Janine: Janine is the most honest with the cameras, treating them like friends, and thus shares a lot of her life with them: her triumphs, her plans, her sadnesses, her insecurities. Hell, I think it’d be fair to say that she even overshares, allowing the cameras unfettered access into her home and car and life beyond the workday. I especially thought this during “Sick Day.” This poor girl was literally, like, letting herself be filmed running to her bathroom!!! Like, girl, set some boundaries. You have a right to some privacy!!!!! But, of course, this is the crux of Janine’s central character arc. So lonely, once a clearly neglected child, our protagonist has a hard time with boundaries in general, and that extends to how she interacts with the cameras. They have become her closest companions and her dearest diary, her safe place for unapologetically being herself. We’re always getting Janine unfiltered, and it’s an incredibly humbling experience for an attentive viewer. She’s fully let us into our lives, and we feel for her deeply. My God, we just want her to be happy.
Barbara: Of the cast, Barbara is one of the most vigilant of the fact that she is being constantly surveilled and has to perpetually maintain her perfect facade because of this crucial fact. It’s her almost doll-like smile into the camera when she says that she doesn’t have a weird thing about her. It’s how she’s always emphasizing how proper and moral and Christian she is in her talking heads. One of my favorite recent examples is from the tattoo episode when she initially says her favorite “b” word is Barbara, but then her first correction is to the more upstanding and characteristic answer of “Bible.” But, as some of my favorite Work Wives gifsets have shown, Barbara occasionally forgets that the cameras are there—usually when she’s drawn into the intimacies of a moment, allowing herself to feel her own emotions without disciplining or regulating them. And it has to be with someone she emphatically trusts, such as Melissa. But any slippages, which are few and far-between, are quickly and efficiently amended. She studiously remembers herself. She slips the mask back on and smiles directly at the cameras and dares them to question what they saw in the place. She is Barbara Howard, married woman of God. She’s always perfect, don’t you know?
Ava: OKAY, OKAY, so I genuinely think that out of everyone, Ava is the most aware of the cameras being on her at all times. TikTok queen and social media extraordinaire, how can she not be? Like Barbara, and honestly even more proficiently than our favorite repressed lesbian lady, she touts an expert facade to the cameras, hyping up her natural charisma and her extrovertism and coolness—sometimes to the point of excess. She’s always catering to a targeted audience. She knows her way around an algorithm, a trend, a hashtag, perpetually attuned to what the people like and want to consume. Of course, she, too, has her rare moments of vulnerability, but the cameras have to be super quick and sneaky to find them. Avanine enjoyers, I think one of my favorite shots is when the cameras initially locate Ava and Janine talking about Ava’s grandmother during the step episode. The framing is faraway at first because the cameras are at the distance—clearly intruding and zooming on this quiet moment—and that’s pretty much the only way they ever catch our Ava Coleman slipping. I am sooooo invested in the fact that we can probably count the times that we’ve seen Ava unmasked on one hand!!!!!!
Melissa: Melissa has a fascinatingly contradictory relationship with the cameras, perhaps to match the oxymoron between her own well-chosen facade and her personality. She presents herself as tough and unflappable, likes to maintain an air of “dark mystery” to others as she once famously smirked in a talking head, but simultaneously—behind Janine—she’s probably been the most candid of the cast with the cameras. She actually let them stay in her house! Oh, yes, she absolutely insults the cameras from time to time—clearly distrusts them, stops herself when she thinks she’s saying too much, fears that they’re snitches—but she’s also told them some pretty damn intimate things too, like showing them pictures of Kristen Marie and literally crying. I really love LAW’s headcanon that there’s one camera person that she thinks is cute and so confides in more because I think that tracks with our general conception of Mel as someone who only relaxes around people she trusts. Some cameras are cops to her—they invite suspicion and paranoia, alerting her fight-or-fight response. Others have seen her at more unguarded moments and teased a lovely softness out of her.
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Ride 728: Kaburagi's buddy!!
Pag 1/2
The tickets for the Inter High are only six!! Those fateful regular jerseys.... snatch them with your hands!!
Pag 3
1: Third lap!!
3: And it's just us!!
4: I started the third lap of the Sohoku training camp being at the top, by far the best among the first years!!
5: Me!! I, Murakami Toyoka, will never again show mercy to anyone!!
Pag 4
1: He's not coming....
2: Tch, again? Kaburagi-san
3: That day, Danchiku said “I'll come”....
5: I'll come to the training camp!!
I'll stand on the start line and we'll run together!! That's my intention!!
6: He said that, and yet....
Pag 5
1: I wanted to go to the Inter High together...
Dammit!!
2: It's alright!! It's alright, Kaburagi-san!!
Uhm, I'm sure.... it's just a delay and they're late!!
If thie guy's spirit breaks now I'm in trouble!! I have to stir him up again and make him run forward
3: If he doesn't pull me, I'm in trouble!!
He'll come soon!!
4: Earlier, at the start line, when we crossed the goal, I saw Touji-san's van
5: Huh!?
7: The fact that they're here and he still doesn't come on the course....
Danchiku's bad condition is...
Pag 6
1: It's not like this, is it!?
Pag 7
1: Do you see the course, Danchiku?
You see? They're struggling
…. yes
It's like I told you earlier in the car
2: You can't ride that bike anymore
3: You should stop
5: …. yes
7: Instead of that
Pag 8
1: Ride this!!
Pag 9
1: It took me a while to prepare this before leaving
It's the same manifacturer as the one you rode, but it's an old model
The components are old, and the wheels are an intermediate level, too
2: And the sadlle is cracked too
4: But it serves its purpose well
5: If you want to ride in this training camp with the bike you've always used, you probably
6: Wouldn't be able to run!!
7: …. huh
You're saying that.... the cause for my bad condition.... is my “bike”!?
Pag 10
1; You could say that, but not really
2: Two weeks ago, Onoda came to me
3: to get some advice regarding your situation
Ah... uhm, uh- that's what I wanted to talk about
4: I talked with Imaizumikun and Naruko-kun too, but I still.... uhm... I can't decide
5: Should I let Danchiku-kun run in the training camp? Or should I stop him? I can't decide
7: He himself said he wants to run
8: He still has next year
Pag 11
1: I also think he shouldn't push himself too hard
3: You really look like a captain now, Onoda....
Yeah
4: Miki told me about this too
5: There must be praparations to do, you focus on that
I'll take care of Danchiku
6: I'll reach out to him every day
I'll talk to him, wait and see, and then make a decision
7: Thank you, you must be busy, but thank you so much!
8: He worked very hard on Minegayama
And then
9: When I heard he was having troubles with his bike, I started worrying too
Pag 12
2: I looked after you, your attitude
4: And I found the answer!!
6: It's “moving forward”
Run in the training camp, Danchiku!!
Pag 13
1: …. ah, but I've been feeling like there's something wrong with my joints since after the Minegayama race.... I went to the hospital many times and still, even now...
2: There, it was just a coincidence that it happened right after the Minegayama race...
3: That's why it confused you
4: Confused!?
5: “You have no self-confidence”, that's the main cause of your bad condition
…..“Confidence”!?
6: Stand up and look closely around you
7: And then look at yourself!!
8: If you think about it, it's easy
Even going to the hospital, you wouldn't know
You're....
Pag 14
1: Growing
You've gotten much bigger
Pag 15
1: It's your height!!
2: Huh!?
3: Second year of high school is a growing period and you're becoming much bigger!!
Pag 16
1: Huh, but....
My height!?
2: During growth period, there'll be big growing spurts that makes you feel bad
You tried to hide your bad condition, and you blamed the victory on Minegayama
3: You were so worried you couldn't even see yourself, weren't you?
4: Yes!!
5: Pains and creaking joints are all “growing pains”
The fact that you didn't have time to adapt is your bike's fault
6: You know this too – just like shoes have a size, road bikes also have specific sizes
7: If your body doesn't match the bike's size, you won't have power nor speed
8: That why it's the “bike”!!
9: I prepared it yesterday
The frame is old, but
Pag 17
1: It's just the right size for your body now!!
Pag 18
1: What....
“Just the right size”.....!!
2: What is this
3: It adapts to my body....
It's connected to my body
4: It feels like I can move forward as I want!!
Pag 19
1: This feels so good!
I'm riding a bike and it feels just like back then!!
2: Believe in yourself
Get on the course and run with all your strength
3: It's alright
As much as you've suffered this past half a year
4: Now grow as much as you want!!
Yes!!
Pag 20
2: Sixth..... lap!!
3: Danchiku...
4: Dammit!! Our pace has been going down since earlier!!
What the hell is this guy doing!!
5: Looking at the times on the board, Kinaka and Rokudai are ressing on with all their strengths
This is bad!!
6: Dammit!! Who cares about Danchiku!!
7: At this point we won't go the Inter High this year....
It's impossible, huh....
8: The pace....
9: ….chiku....
Pag 21
1: He's not coming, Danchiku-san is not coming!!
Until when are you gonna whining like this!!
Come one, give up on that delusion and run with me please!!
3: Ah- no no no
Sorry, I didn't mean, uhm....
Dammit, I said what I really think
4: Kaburagi-san looks so dumbfounded!!
Pag 22
1: I.... I said too much, I'm sorry
Can you forgive me? Neh? Senpai
5: Ah- the buddy sticker!? Kaburagi-san!?
6: Pick it up later, Murakami
You threw it away!?
8: The way he's ducking his head, that acceleration, and that dancing
I've seen them so many times....
I can recognize him right away even from a distance....!!
Pag 23
1: You promised me, didn't you?
And now you're crying!?
2: I told you, didn't I?
3: Who....?
It's no use, it has to be you
4: W.... ah
5: Danchiku
Pag 24
1: We're the legends of team SS!!
I made you wait so long!! Issa!!
Pag 25
3: No one but me can be your buddy!!
Hahaha that's right, Danchiku!!
Pag 26
2: A while ago, also Onoda came on the course
3: And Danchiku joines us, too
From now on
4: We're finally starting for real!!
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Plz explain then the travesty that is love and thunder
A trainwreck directed by an egotistical six-year-old in a leech of a man's body who thinks he's a screenwriter and still plays pretend with his uwu self-insert OC.
.... real talk, though, in short:
The real travesty of Love and Thunder is that Thor is already made of love and thunder, and simultaneously Jane is the love to his thunder, and the MCU, through taika wai-feck-off, decided he can be neither of those things, and have no nice things. Thor is the most tragic character in the ENTIRETY of the Marvel Cinematic Universe, and yes, I do think more tragic than Wanda.
He has lost :
his entire home planet
his people
his entire family of four (no hela does not count he was not connected to her and should have been odin's sister)
before which he lost his brother (his platonic soulmate, to boot) a total of 3 times emotionally, two of those physically
he lost his ENTIRE friend group because his half-sister murdered Volstagg, Hogun and Faendral; he never reconnected with Sif
his only good mentor/parental figure (heimdal) was stabbed through the heart in front of him
he lost his dignity, his crown, his birthright (voluntarily and otherwise)
he lost his self-worth, his sense of direction (bc the writers legitimately thought his arc was about stepping down from the crown instead of making it his own and growing into it in his own way, by his own merits, at his own pace and gave it to some literally no-name side character that showed up for one movie and never respected thor in the first place to even earn his title from him smh)
and taika's idea of rectifying any of this .... is to give him some random child he doesn't know, that he doesn't care for, and manipulate him into taking her under his wing not because of the kindness and limitless love of his own heart even after shutting himself down post!endgame, but because jane asked him to as her dying wish — and then say that THAT is his happy ending.
Tell me why Thor, the longest standing of the Big Three, the king of the stars, the hero who is by all respects the embodiment of love, gets no companionship, no friends, no home, no place to belong, when Tony got a hero's send off and Steve got to be with an alt!dimension Peggy.
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Ride 701: Rokudai, caught up!!
Pag 1
1: Huuh!?
2: Three people are coming from behind
4: Kakaka for real!?
5: Hmph
7: I only meant it as a “possibility”, but
Pag 2
1: Rokudai and the two big guys cuaght up!!
Pag 3
2: And they're even
3: wearing the basket uniforms!!
Pag 5
3: Ho.... how did you catch up, damn you!!
Rokudaii!!
Uh....
Three people.... Rokudai is here too
4: It's amazing
5: So he really came?
Your....
Pag 6
1: Feeling was right!! Onoda!!
Yeah!!
3: Rokudai-kun!!
4: Senpai!!
Pag 7
1: You got here well !!
2: Ah
3: Well
Back then, senpai, you said that I'll get another chance, and
4: If you do your best.... uhm... I think.... you'll have a chance....
6: Really
Pag 8
1: My friends arrived at the hardest moment for me, teh!!
2: Those two are the most reliable people!!
Pag 9
1: Ngh!!
2: The one who were chasing us caught up!? And it's three people!? Dammit, and with this timing
Did we lower our pace that much!?
Kinaka.....
3: Why is Rokudai here.....
4: We're already in the mountains.....
7: Those two from the basket club already have high physical abilties, I can understand that.....
8: But, the fact that Rokudai is here....
Could it be that Rokudai's running style..... his specialty....
Pag 10
1: Don't say stupid things, Murakami!!
2: Those two pulled him
They encouraged and pushed him!! That's the only reason he caught up!!
4: I heard that
On the school entrance ceemony day he climbed the back-gate slope together with Onoda-san
And that time, he couldn't keep up!!
5: It was hard and painful
And he finished the climb just before his legs gave out exhausted!!
Pag 11
1: That's the kind of guy that Rokudai is!!
2: On a flat road, as long as you have a windbreak, you can keep up even if you don't have all that much strength
But you can't cheat on a climb
Because you have to drag your own and your bike's weight!!
3: The two guys who were chasing us earlier fell behind when we entered the mountain
5: Rokudai passed those two, too!!
7: He has a light body....
Maybe, if during these past 10 days he developedsome kind of technique....
8: He....
His specialty.....
Pag 12
1: Is climbing!!
Pag 13
1: What- what's that on your chest
Ah! These are the jersey that Kei-chan and Kyou-chan took off, teh
Too-!
Wha-!
2: Right, sorry, Roku-chan!! It's our bad habit!!
Agh, that's true, we undressed....
3: It's okay, teh!! I'll always catch them, teh!!
He still has the spirit of a manager, even now!!
4: I'll put them in the car!
Waaa sorry, Onoda-san
Thanks!
Ahhh, sorry, thank you so much, teh
Pag 14
1: I'm lighter now, teh
4: A “climber”!?
Pag 15
1: You're kidding!!
Ah, Kinaka!
2: He climbed until here with the weight of two more jerseys!?
3: One person alone attacked!!
He jumped ahead!! He wants to challenge
4: It's Kinaka!!
5: Don't underestimate me, you three beginners
I thought I'd jump forward after Furuya and Murakami's wait-and-see, but no more!!
6: Let me show you the difference
Pag 16
1: Between and experienced cyclist and an amateur!!
2: Oi, Roku-chan, can we chase this guy now?
Pag 17
1: Yeah!!
Uh!!
2: Got it!!
Pag 19
1: Waaa, they passed....!?
What's with those two's running!
It's a mess!! It's like they're not even thinking about the pace!!
2: And Rokudai is always keeping up with it!!
Huh!?
3: What's with that guy.....
4: Three people came!!
They passed the two experienced ones, Furuya and Murakami!!
Ah
It's not the moment to be surprised, let's chase them!
Ye.... yeah
Pag 20
1: Now there's only Kinaka
The moment has finally arrived, Roku-chan!!
Amateur.... I'll teach you
How road racing isn't sweet!!
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