well what the fuck am i supposed to do now?

do not understand how people start games on hard mode. it weighs heavily on my soul whether to start on easy or normal half the time

Just Cleared EO3 :"]

Here's my guild card!

(Below is just me reflecting about my experiences with the game. It's going to be long. I AM GOING TO BE SO LOUD ABOUT IT!!)

EO4 was the first game I 100%ed well sort of. I still haven't found all the treasure. So this is technically my first, and it took a really long time!

I got the game when I was a kid in 2014. Took me till I was an adult to actually grow a brain.

I remember my first play thru, I was 11. I actually didn't read a whole lot of the story stuff... and had a bunch of trouble. But I had gotten into the series and thought 3 had the best portraits and labyrinth designs so I pulled through.

I remember sneaking to play this whenever I could, replaying it to get all the endings and redo certain fights.

I started drawing the year before I got the game, and started drawing the characters as well.... I had a chokehold on me for... a while. (Still) here's some old art circa ~2014

It was always nice to come back to the game thru the years and get each of the endings again bc each play thru I noticed something new in the story or found an easier way to kill a boss. Or a new gameplay style.

I still get my ass beat on the daily, but it reminds me to get up and change what I am doing to get results...

The story isn't a magnum opus, I legitimately want to destroy both sides for my own reasons. (They are so dumb!!) I guess... it's my favorite just bc they lay down so many concepts for you to play with?

Depending on how old I was, I would have different members in my guild. But it was always named Ragnarok. I actually revamped Ragnarok entirely about twice. The only constants being the name, Hana, and Alope (kinda I never used her in the first version.)

(Now that I think about it, my farmer party has a few keepers too.)

Since Hana was such a trooper and in every single party I had over the last 9 years, I found it natural to give her the Armoroad shield.

AND the npcs, even the faceless ones were so fun to see.

My favorites tho, the ones who arguably ruined my chances of being normal were definitely Kujura (main culprit), Edie, the Guildmaster... and maybe the Harbormaster. (He's recent tho.) The faceless ones... I wont list them here.

I didn't know the Harbormaster started the end credits, I kinda instinctively go there to save bc I like Inver and he gave me a whole speech...

I used to hate him, but eh, he's grown onto me.

This game means so much to me, and I'm so glad I finally cleared it :]]]

if not playing it would have made me more normal I do NOT CARE!! Thank you Etrian odyssey 3 for ruining my life, it was the best possible way for that to happen.

How is it "over" sharing to explain something like "I have Chronic/Mental Illness and I'm having a bad day." I legitimately don't get it. I want FR, and anyone else I interact with (so long as they're not a bigoted piece of shit) to know that as an AuADHDer, I'm not always great at communication, especially when it comes to timely replies. It's not for sympathy's sake, it's because if I fuck up or ghost someone I want them to know that it is 100% not due to anything they did. They're owed that, it's called common courtesy. How can that be "over" sharing? 

I'm well aware that many people have medical trauma. I'm not talking about discussion of traumatic events or details of symptoms. But how is it okay for people to post "I just had dental surgery and I need some comfort" and not "I have EDS and I need some comfort" or "I have depression and I need some comfort"? Even very rare disorders have thousands of sufferers. It's hardly identifying information.

And as far as mental illnesses go, they are not in any way inherently associated with triggering content. There are plenty of mental illnesses that are demonized, but part of changing that narrative is making sufferers feel like they can share their diagnoses and struggles without being labeled as evil. Claiming that it's inherently triggering for someone with a demonized mental illness like DID or psychosis to state and talk about their diagnosis on any forum is reinforcing that narrative instead of changing it. 

So what if it's a website for kids? Are there not disabled kids? Do disabled kids not struggle sometimes? Sick people Just Exist. Disabled people Just Exist. And the more kids are aware of that fact, the better. If autism and ADHD had been more integrated in the media I was consuming as a kid, especially the games I played, I probably wouldn't be learning about myself at 25 fucking years old. I'd have figured all of that out as a kid like everyone else. 

Medical histories are not "over" sharing and claiming they are plays into all sorts of abelist narratives.

Making your self-insert a messy doof laying around playing Dragon Quest, legend. He is playing #5 by the way, that's the early town of Whealbrook. I've been rewatching HxH for the umpteenth time. Glad people are catching on to Greed Island being actually pretty dope finally. It has Bisky. Bisky is a polished, diamond-tier blorbo. You kick so much ass you leave your Nen ability up to looking cute and that's a mood. I'd either want that or Neon Nostrade's Lovely Ghostwriter. Those are neato abilities. Neon and dear sweet Kacho are my random favs. Alluka is baby, Kurapika is the Kurama of the main cast so he's the best and Shiapouf is like a bishie Boa Hancock so of course I love him. Also Morel for smoking hella weed and weaponizing it through a total pothead ability.

Anyways yeah, Greed Island. It's fun and fun things are fun. The final fight with the Bombers is amazing and really one of the best Togashi's ever written. It's punchy, frenetic, and isn't afraid to get suddenly violent. Bisky's beatdown is a great swerve, Killua gets to look legitimately clever in something more reminiscent of early YuYu Hakusho brawls, and Gon being a little psycho taking a beating before the great trap with gasoline is amazing.

That after having the right amount of fun with the "stuck in a game" premise and a training arc with girly Genkai give you a nice breather between Yorknew & Chimera Ant darkness. In hindsight works better as Ging setting up somewhat of a Dark Continent simulator and some of the hurdles really make sense with Ging's personality. The card collecting aspect hits well for me too. It makes it almost like it's taking two tropes that get tired easily and letting them support each other. Looking at a list it's really hard to pick out which three I'd actually take if I won the game.

Just because I talk about it some too...never really saw much of Dragon Quest specifically in Greed Island which is kinda weird. Maze Castle in YYH and Trick Tower in the Hunter Exam are where I see that the most if anywhere. Obviously they're more mainline RPGs and the MMO tenth installment wouldn't have been out then. 7 would be the most recent. It's very much Togashi's own thing, like how Earthbound is so quirky because a satirist played such a huge role in the design. It honestly feels a little more like N64-era collect-a-thons. Banjo-Kazooie on steroids which I guess was just Banjo-Tooie. BK's soundtrack is nonstop bangers so they get to be the standard bear-er. I would seriously bet money Togashi was one of those crazy souls who 100%ed Donkey Kong 64. I'll stop, I'm rambling again.

These are usually deeper, but that's all I'm feeling tonight. Finally tried out the 99 Greed Island anime for a change and liked certain aspects of it a lot. People have warmed up to it in more recent years and they're right. Though the arc has a reverse Yorknew vibe where the 2011 anime style suits it better. Think I have another Late Night Togashiposting a brewing, a classic style one, but that'll be another time. I do have a new Dragon Quest game to play around with.

love skyrim so much I have 100%ed it twice

part 2 of the ask game @tenderlysizzlingfart sent me he he he thank you im enjoying this so much SO-

alphonse elric the OG perfect boy

favorite thing about them: he is so unfailingly kind despite everything that's happened to him but he can also go from 0-100 REALLY fast. like he is extremely petty and snarky with ed and its actually the funniest thing ever he is SO unbearably funny. also in 2003 he is legitimately unhinged and it's glorious

least favorite thing about them: nothing actually he's genuinely perfect

favorite line: i've said this before but there was this part where ed was beating the shit out of shou tucker and alphonse pulled ed off of him bc nina was there and he didnt want her to see her dad get brutalized. but then tucker was like, taunting ed like "haha we're both scientists that fucked with nature" and alphonse chillingly like turns to him and says something along the lines of "hey if you don't shut the fuck up right now i'll kill you myself" and it was SO raw and so true to al's character. i think it was in 2003 so imagine aaron dismuke's breaky lil voice saying that it's...epic

brotp: of course his brotp with his actual bro edward (holds self back from writing a dissertation about it) but also he and winry are great friends and they bully edward together. also his dynamic with scar in 2003 was really, really good

OTP: i dont ship him that much really i think he and mei could be cute once they're older

notp: idk? idk what are the popular al ships

random headcanon: said this once i'll say it again: he becomes a famous food critic

unpopular opinion: again said this once i'll say it again i think he takes after hohenheim more than ed does and i'll be happy to elaborate

song i associate with them: HMMMMMM. listen idk i dont really associate songs with characters unless its in a shippy way 😭

favorite picture of them: like i said alphonse is the funniest guy in fma

July 2016

Jul 3rd - Taylor's 4th of July festivities kick off at her Rhode Island house. Guests include Tom Hiddleston, Abigail Anderson, Matt Lucier, Claire Winter, Ryan Reynolds, Blake Lively, Karlie Kloss, Josh Kushner, Austin Swift, Ruby Rose, Harley Gusman, Halston Sage, Gigi Hadid, Cara Delevingne, Britany Maack, Ben LaManna, Martha Hunt, Jason McDonald, Uzo Aduba, Chioma Aduba, Jordan Masterson, Kesha, St Vincent, Ed Sheeran, Cherry Seaborn, Rachel Platten, Kennedy Rayé and the Haim sisters. (x) (x) (x) (x)

This is the day Tom wears the infamous 'I <3 TS' tank top while they're all at the beach. (x)

Jul 4th - The online mockery for the 'I <3 TS' shirt is quick to pour in. Daily Mail commenters are yet to shut up about it in 2021.

The party continues with a giant inflatable waterslide, body painting, karaoke, charades and fireworks. (x) And also Kesha and Haim getting tricked by Cara, Uzo and Ruby into thinking they heard scary noises in the night, and trying to call the police but not knowing their own location. (x) (x)

Jul 5th - The day after the party, when all the guests post their photos online.

Britany posts a photo of her & Ben, Blake & Ryan, and Taylor & Tom. (x) The internet has a field day with Ryan's unimpressed facial expression. (x) (Ryan later says that it's just his resting bitch face as he wasn't aware a photo was being taken. (x))

Taylor posts several photos to Instagram of her celebrating the 4th July with friends, but doesn't post any pictures with Tom. (x)

Claire Winter posts a bunch of Polaroids, including one of Taylor and Tom kissing. (x)

Abigail posts a photo to Instagram showing the banners Taylor put up to celebrate her engagement to Matt and the anniversaries of Cara & St Vincent (real name Annie Clark) and Ed & Cherry. (x)

Jul 6th - Taylor and Tom fly out of Rhode Island (x) and arrive at LAX that evening. (x) They then get on a plane to Australia.

Joe attends the Warner Music Group summer party in London. (x)

Rumours are swirling that Tom is no longer in consideration to be the next Bond, due to his relationship with Taylor. (x) (x) (x) (x) (x)

Jul 8th - Taylor and Tom are flying on a commercial Quantas flight so someone is able to take a pic of them on the plane. (x)

According to another passenger on the plane, Taylor plays Scrabble during the flight (presumably on her phone because nobody takes big physical board games on commercial flights and the creepshot of Hiddleswift on the plane suggests she wouldn't have had anywhere to put the board anyway). In hindsight, knowing how Taylor and Joe play lots of Scrabble together including online Scrabble aka Words With Friends, and how they stayed in touch largely via texting that summer, it’s very possible she was playing against Joe.

Taylor and Tom arrive in Sydney, where Tom is about to start filming for Thor: Ragnarok. (x) Aussie media, including daytime TV, goes nuts over Hiddleswift's arrival in the country. (x)

Flying from LA to Australia involves crossing the international dateline, so they would have left the US on the 6th July local time and arrived in Sydney approx 15 hours later on the 8th July local time.

Calvin's new song Olé, written for John Newman, is released. There is speculation that it's a Hiddleswift song, written from Tom's perspective and containing lyrics implying that Taylor cheated on Calvin with Tom. However, sources also told multiple outlets that the song was written and recorded months earlier, and its supposed links to Hiddleswift were just for publicity. (x) (x)

Jul 9th - Tom goes out for a run (x) and avoids answering questions about Taylor. (x)

Jul 10th - Taylor and Tom go out for dinner to Gemelli Italian restaurant in Broadbeach on Australia's Gold Coast. (x)

Jul 11th - Taylor is named as the highest earning celebrity on the 2016 Forbes Celebrity 100 list, with earnings of $170m mostly due to the 1989 World Tour. If she and Calvin had not split up, they would have been the top-earning celebrity couple. (x)

Jul 12th - Taylor visits Lady Cilento Children’s Hospital in South Brisbane. (x)

Jul 13th - Us Weekly makes a wild claim that Tom is planning to propose soon, and Taylor is going to say yes. The magazine cover also claims they're already talking about babies. (x)

TMZ claims that Taylor wrote TIWYCF, and that Calvin disrespecting Taylor following its release was the reason for their breakup. (x)

Taylor Swift really is the creative brains behind Calvin Harris' monster hit "This is What You Came For," and their relationship fell apart because he disrespected her when the song was released ... this according to sources connected with Taylor.

It's a fascinating story. We've learned an early fan rumor about the song is true, but to a deeper extent than anyone suspected. During their relationship, Taylor wrote the song, sat down at a piano and did a demo into her iPhone. She sent it to Calvin, who loved it. They both went into a studio and did a full demo with Taylor on vocals and Calvin doing the beat.

They both knew the song would be a hit, but Taylor wrote it for Calvin and both agreed it was a bad idea to let the world know they collaborated as a couple ... it would overshadow the song.

So Taylor, who kept the publishing rights, used the pseudonym Nils Sjoberg on the credits.

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The problem in the relationship came the day the song was released. Calvin appeared on Ryan Seacrest's radio show and Ryan asked, "Will you do a collaboration with your girlfriend?" Calvin responded, "You know we haven't even spoken about it. I can't see it happening though."

We're told Taylor was hurt and felt Calvin took it too far.

It was a quick downward spiral from that point. One source called it "the breaking point in the relationship." The Met Gala was several days later, when Taylor danced with Tom Hiddleston.

Tree confirms to People magazine that Taylor did write TIWYCF under the pseudonym Nils Sjöberg. (x)

Calvin also confirms that Taylor wrote TIWYCF and goes on a Twitter rant:

Katy Perry tweets a gif of Hillary Clinton with a smug/'told you so' expression. (x) She also retweets an older tweet from May 2015 which reads, 'Time, the ultimate truth teller.' (x)

#TaylorSwiftIsOverParty trends on Twitter (x) (x) and Taylor's Instagram comments are spammed with the snake emoji. (x)

Following Calvin's tweets, TMZ publishes another article claiming he is downplaying Taylor's involvement in the song as she wrote the melody in addition to the lyrics. (x)

Jul 14th - Taylor goes out shopping in Gold Coast. (x)

Tom mentions Taylor in an interview with the Hollywood Reporter: (x)

You're in the middle of a cultural frenzy right now because you're dating Taylor Swift. How would you respond to people who claim that you're involved in some sort of publicity stunt?

(Laughs.) Well, um. How best to put this? That notion is — look, the truth is that Taylor Swift and I are together, and we're very happy. Thanks for asking. That's the truth. It's not a publicity stunt.

Martha says at a Pepsi/World Emoji Day event that Taylor and Tom are 'both happy and free together. It's amazing, I'm all about people being happy in love.' (x)

Kim talks about Taylor and the Famous controversy in a clip from an upcoming episode of Keeping Up With The Kardashians. (x)

“I never talk shit about anyone publicly, especially in interviews. But I was just like I had so had it,” Kim says in the clip to her sister Kourtney. “I wanted to defend him in it. She legitimately quote says, ‘As soon as I get on that Grammy red carpet I’m gonna tell all the press. Like I was in on it.’”

“And then she just didn’t like the reaction?” Kourtney says in response.

“Yeah, and you know just another way to play the victim,” Kim replies. She then brings the infamous VMAs moment from 2009 by saying, “It definitely got her a lot of attention the first time… I just don’t think he should be punished for it still to this day.”

Jul 17th - Kim posts an edited recording of Kanye and Taylor's phone call. In it, they discuss the 'I feel like me and Taylor might still have sex' line and Taylor says, 'Go with whatever line you think is better. It’s obviously very tongue in cheek either way. And I really appreciate you telling me about it. That’s really nice.' However, nowhere in the Snapchat video does Kanye consult her about the line, 'I made that bitch famous,' which is the line Taylor insisted she had never approved. (x) The other Kardashian sisters retweet and support Kim. (x)

(The full recording of the call, leaked in 2020, confirms that Kanye never told Taylor he was going to call her a bitch. It also shows her reminding him that she sold 7 million albums before he had even heard of her, in response to him suggesting the lyric, 'I made her famous.')

Kim takes to Twitter to call Taylor a snake.

Taylor posts a statement on Instagram responding to Kim's Snapchat video. (x)

Selena tweets, 'There are more important things to talk about… Why can’t people use their voice for something that fucking matters? This industry is so disappointing yet the most influential smh' (x)

Katy Perry tweets, '#RISE above it all' and links to her new single. People interpret it as a dig at Taylor. (x)

Martha Hunt tweets, 'It's pathetic how quick our culture is to sensationalize a fabricated story...' (x)

Jul 18th - #KimExposedTaylorParty spends the day trending at number one worldwide on Twitter. (x) To the point where 0.8% of all tweets posted in the entire week from the 18th-24th use the hashtag. (x) (Assuming that 1/7th of the week's total tweets were posted on each day, that means more than 1 in every 20 tweets on the 18th used the hashtag.) #TaylorSwiftIsOverParty also returns.

TMZ claims to have a copy of a letter from Taylor's lawyer, dating back to February, demanding that Kanye destroy the recording of their phone conversation and reminding him that it is a felony to secretly record a phone conversation in California. (x)

Taylor changes the name on her writing credits for TIWYCF on the BMI songwriters database. She is now listed as Taylor Swift instead of Nils Sjöberg. (x)

Camilla Belle, the subject of Taylor's 2010 song Better Than Revenge, posts a quote to Instagram which reads, 'No need for revenge. Just sit back & wait. Those who hurt you will eventually screw up themselves & if you’re lucky, God will let you watch.' (x)

Abigail tweets against Kim and Kanye, saying, 'May God forgive you & your wife for doing to others the very things you pray are NEVER done to your daughter.' She deletes the tweets after receiving death threats but leaves a tweet which reads, 'Guys…I will always stand by my best friend. There's no point in fighting over that.' (x)

Joseph Kahn (director of many of Taylor's music videos) defends Taylor on Twitter. (x)

The aunt of Dinah Jane from Fifth Harmony tweets, 'I always knew @/taylorswift13 was a SNAKE! Trying 2 break up my girls & use @/camilacabello97 as her protégé bitch bye you’ve been exposed!’ (x) The tweet is soon deleted and she claims her account was hacked. (x) (Camila quit the band at the end of 2016 and has since said that Taylor had nothing to do with her decision to leave.) (x)

Paula Erickson, Taylor’s former publicist from 2007 until 2014, likes a two-and-a-half-week-old tweet dragging Hiddleswift for being a badly executed bit of PR by Taylor and Tree. (x)

James Corden spoofs the recorded phone call on the Late Late Show. (x)

Calvin is rumoured to be dating Tinashe. (x)

Jul 20th - Todrick Hall defends Taylor, saying, 'She's one of the most genuine people I've ever met in my entire life.' (x)

Uzo Aduba says Taylor is 'a beautiful person and strong' and that she will overcome the Kimye drama. (x)

Paula likes another tweet shading Taylor and Tree. (x)

A graffiti artist creates a mural in Melbourne 'in loving memory of Taylor Swift' (misspelled as Smith). According to the artist, they are then contacted by Taylor's lawyers and threatened with legal action. (x)

Jul 21st - Taylor's Wikipedia page is vandalised with insults. (x)

Taylor and Tom fly back from Australia into a private airport in LA, and are seen out and about. (x) (x)

Jul 22nd - Fergie, who had Kim appear in her M.I.L.F. $ music video, says she thinks the Kimye-Taylor feud was planned and 'they’ll probably all come together at the MTV Awards or something.' (x)

Taylor goes to the gym in LA. It is the first time she has appeared in public since Kim posted the edited video, and her phone screen is now shattered. (x)

She also returns to Instagram to wish Selena a happy birthday. (x)

Jul 23rd - Taylor goes to the gym in LA. (x)

Tom is at Comic Con in San Diego. (x)

Calvin lip-syncs to Kanye's song That Part in a video posted on his Snapchat. (x) He also attends J-Lo's birthday party and is photographed with Kim. Apparently they have a friendly chat. (x) A source claims to E!, 'When Kim walked in Calvin saw her and stood up. He was clearly excited to see her and said 'hi' to Kim backstage.' (x)

Jul 24th - Taylor blocks the snake emoji from her Instagram comments section using a new Instagram feature. (x)

Tom is seen at the Four Seasons Hotel in Beverly Hills with members of Taylor's security team. (x)

Jul 26th - Tom flies back to LA from NYC, where he has just spent a couple of days. On the same day, Taylor's plane arrives back in LA from Nashville, where she has spent a couple of days. (x)

VMA nominations are announced. Taylor is not nominated in any category, despite Out Of The Woods and Wildest Dreams being eligible, leading some people to think she has been snubbed. Gossip Cop, an outlet widely used by celebrity publicists to quietly squash rumours, says that Taylor did not submit any videos for consideration this year. (x)

Jul 27th - Taylor goes to the gym in LA. (x)

John Newman, singer of Calvin's song Olé, jokes, 'Supposedly we had a holiday where he was movin’ on from his ex-missus,' referring to the trip to Mexico to film the music video, which involved girls and a yacht. He also says he doesn't think it's his place to say what inspired Calvin to write the song. (x)

Taylor and Tom go for dinner at Hillstone restaurant in Santa Monica. One source claims they 'seemed to really be enjoying each others’ company.' (x) It is the last time they are papped together.

Kanye makes a surprise appearance at Drake's concert in Chicago where he responds to Kim's Snapchat video for the first time, saying, 'All I gotta say is, I am so glad my wife has Snapchat. Because now y’all can know the truth. And can’t nobody talk shit about ‘Ye no more.' (x)

Cara appears on James Corden's show and talks about how she, Uzo and Ruby pranked Kesha and Haim at Taylor's 4th of July party. She mentions consulting Taylor and Tom first so that security knew what they were up to. She also says that Taylor and Tom got woken up at one point by all the noise they were making, and came upstairs together to find Cara and Uzo still making ghost noises. (x)

Jul 28th - Taylor goes to the gym in LA. (x)

Jul 29th - Sources close to Calvin deny rumours that he is planning to collaborate on music with Kanye. (x)

Abigail likes E! News' Instagram photo of Tom and Taylor going out for dinner on the 27th, which has a gushing caption about them. (x)

Jul 31st - Taylor is seen entering her gym in LA through the back door. (x)

A fan sees Tom and Taylor at The Church Key restaurant in LA. (x) The outing is not papped.

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Sleepover Sunday!? What a sweet idea! So, storytime: my childhood bestie and I LOVED the old Harvest Moon games. She had taken my Mineral Town game and almost 100%'ed it. The day I was gonna get the cartridge back, her brother overwrote BOTH files with a brand new game...whose farmer...he called "b00bi3". I may or may not have tackled him when I found out. R.I.P. 100+ hours of lost time. Oh, memories! What's your favorite and/or funniest memory from one of your childhood sleepovers?

Ohhhhh no, losing your game file is no joke, that really sucks! I’d be devastated and I would’ve done much more than tackling if that had happened to me!

One of my favorite sleepover memories is murder mystery dinner parties. The mother of one of my best friends is an absolute supermom, and she is so insanely talented. She wrote murder mystery dinner parties for my best friend’s sleepover birthday parties with personalized roles, clues, and a dinner to match. 

Not only that, they lived in a super Victorian house complete with a fireplace, chandelier, a living room that looks like a legitimate Victorian parlor, and one secret passageway. We would set up our sleeping bags in that Victorian parlor living room, and we would all put our heads together, play our roles and try to identify the murderer while hiding our own secrets. One time the theme was medieval fantasy “who killed the king”, one time it was Harry Potter, one time it was the Roaring Twenties, one time it was Phantom of the Opera because that’s what me and my friends were into at the time. 

Those parties were so fun!!

Sleepover Sunday: Come chat with me!

cw for gender dysphoria and brief ED mention:

A long list for myself as I attempt to figure out what’s going on with my gender:

I developed a posture problem and an eating disorder in an attempt to appear to not have boobs/curves/etc. I was barely a size 0 at ages 19-22 and I still thought I was too curvy and cried over my butt sticking out or my boobs being visible at all through my shirt.

I cried every time I tried to wear makeup because I felt like an imposter in a costume that didn’t fit and that everyone would see it. It took me years and years of hours in the bathroom practicing makeup and then immediately washing it off to ever even go outside in simple eyeliner.

I felt like I had acchieved “heist of the year” when I had professionals do my hair and makeup for prom and I looked like a “pretty girl” and laughed about it maniachally all day because it was just so funny to me. I legitimately felt like I was gleefully pranking everyone at my school and getting away with it.

I developed a fixation with this one kind of blurry photo of me where I looked entirely like a boy and literally printed it and taped it to my wall. I wore the same backwards baseball cap and cargo shorts and large t shirt combination every day for about two years because i was convinced I looked like a boy in that specific outfit.

I developed a pastel/hello kitty/cute aesthetic phase in my late teens ironically and then had a sudden jarring realization that it just read as straightforwardly feminine to everyone who wasn’t me, and then I had an absolute crisis because I realized I 100% saw myself as a feminine boy on the inside but everyone else just saw “girl” when they looked at me.

I almost only auditioned for male roles in every theater production I was ever in and got ever increasingly frustrated and depressed when I almost never got them and got feminine roles constantly instead and I didn’t understand why.

I constantly claimed male characters in every imagination game and role play I played with my friends and lost interest in the stories quickly if I tried to play girl characters.

At a certain point in adulthood when I started gaining weight again and I couldn’t hide my curves anymore, I just gave up and become completely disconnected from my body and told myself “well everyone gets old and dies eventually so why does it matter what form my meat-suit is in” as a coping mechanism. I keep telling my therapist that I absolutely would have transitioned given support in my teens or childhood, but that now I feel like I missed out on having a “boyhood” and growing up into being a man and I have no idea how i’d navigate “manhood” at this point without feeling like a ghost of a person without a past. I honestly don’t know if I want to be a man. I do know I constantly long for and mourn a boyhood I didn’t get to have.

I experience gender euphoria so intense it brings me to tears every time I manage to look like a masculine version of myself. I cried, like unexpected tears pouring down my face before i realized i was crying, when I saw myself in my binder for the first time. I love almost every picture of myself in masculine makeup and contouring and faux facial hair when I usually hate almost every picture of myself so much I can’t look at them without feeling overwhelmingly uncomfortable.

It feels obvious but I still even when confronted with all of this like overwhelming tangible evidence, can’t stop feeling conflicted and terrified? Like i’ve spent 30 years avoiding this topic in my mind like it had a barbed electric fence around it. I expended all my energy thinking about and battling to come out as a lesbian that when I finally did and that weight came off my shoulders and i settled comfortably into my sexuality, my gender identity like rolled out of it’s deep dark cave and was like “hey, been a long time huh? you ready to talk?”

Oh my friends — I was looooopy last night

So, invited my sister snd her roommate over (they’re in our pod) for crepes.

But ya know the time of crepe-making comes and I feel like I have absolutely zero energy, NEGATIVE energy if you will

But I promised people crepes, and crepes the people will get

So I go downstairs, throw on some music and make crepes

This post is not about making crepes. Let me fast forward. I’m playing SET with the roomie, sister, and friend. Energy is dwindling. Excuse myself from the game to literally lay on the couch like it’s a fainting bed.

Roommate is concerned because I am a social butterfly in the right context (he is a social butterfly in all contexts, we vibe well)

Friends are good friends and finish up their game and sprawl around the couch/chairs and decide to play a low energy game.

We decide to play ‘going to the grocery store’ a ridiculously easy game that passes the time like NO OTHER.

Concept: I’m going to to the grocery store and I need to buy something that starts with the letter p. Then you 20+ questions it. Honestly hilarious. Highly recommend for car rides.

This is where it gets loopy. I consistently am forgetting the letter we’re talking about, my brain is just fried, throwing out random shit. Yell at my sister that ‘it can’t be spinach because it doesn’t start with S’ kinda thing (my brain really latched on to the p in spinach for some reason).

But the piece de resistance is... and I think I need to like provide some background clarity into my role in the group.

I am either the like — I’ve got a plan friend and this is what we’re going to do OR 10000% the comic relief because I have no filter (generally) between my brain and mouth.

So I say things like... idk, a random story about going to the grocery store where chocolate milk is mentioned like 80 times OR say Chez mix instead of Chex mix because i legitimately can’t remember how the first word ends. Etc etc. My friends enjoy re-hashing these ‘nucci moments’ if you will. And I mean it’s all good fun.

So my roommate is re-hashing one of these moments about Carvel ice cream shops. One of our first kinda memories of hanging out. We’re waking down a main drag pass by a carvel’s, he says something about them, I have no idea what it is. And he’s like, oh man sorry must be a regional thing (I’m not from the east coast but live here now). And I’m like yep that must be it.

He’s retelling this story and my sister is like: wait hold the phone stop. Carvel ice cream is literally grandma’s favorite cake.

And I’m like what?!?!? You know what carvel’s was before we came out here. Also no, grandma DOES NOT eat cake (she 100% had an ED but that’s another whole story).

Long, way too long post short: I text my family on whether they know Carvel’s and my mom (who is me times 1000) ‘oh sweetie’s me’ <- ya know, like oh bless your soul type of thing.

Anyways, apparently carvel’s are nationwide, I’ve never seen my grandmother eat cake, and spinach starts with P

Anime of the Decade 2019

Alright, now we start breaking down this current year. There was a fuck-ton of anime that I watched and to get this done on time and without going crazy I can only highlight some of my favorites, but it was a damn good year. Lets get into it!

Winter:

Dororo - This is a remake of an incomplete anime series from the late 60s. And besides this show having an absolute banger of an OP and ED, it has some gorgeous art and a story full of heart and ambition. Party is over. 

The Promised Neverland - Definitely the suprise show of the season for me. I hadn’t read into the manga and was fortunate to not have been spoiled on anything going into it and that was definitely for the best. For a show based on suspense and mystery, keeping the thriller aspect is of absolute importance. This show was absolutely spectacular. 

Kaguya-Sama: Love is War - Oh man, this show was so much fun. Just so much fun from start to finish. The mind games, the banter, the character interactions are all so entertaining. There’s a surprise ED too that is too adorable to even describe. 

Mob Psycho 100 S2 - Ok, so this is my AOTS and a strong contender for AOTY. This second season takes everything we loved about the first season and cranks that up to 15 and then they have the absolute gall to throw in some super strong character growth as well! And as if that wasn’t enough, there were multiple EPISODES this season that had some absolutely mind-blowing animation. 

Spring:

One Punch Man S2 - Oh man oh man, I so wish this had kept everything the same from a production standpoint as the first season. This story is arguably slightly more interesting than the first season, and this could definitely have benefited from a 2 cour airing. And nothing has been able to top that season 1 ending fight and animation. This was a troubled season, and I hope if there’s another one that the production will be able to keep up with everything. 

Demon Slayer - This was such a great surprise of a show. I hadn’t heard about it or anything about it before starting and I was quite pleasantly surprised. One of the best new shounen shows of the last few years. 

Attack on Titan S3 Part 2 - And here is my AOTS. This second part of season 3 is just everything good about Attack on Titan PLUS... FINALLY! THE basement reveal!!! This is the building culmination of years of waiting and dozens of episodes and it is truly great. 

Isekai Quartet - Talk about the biggest surprise of the season, this show came completely out of left field. It’s an isekai show about 4 isekais. Like, this show is so fucking meta it’s insane. Also everyone is chibi, even Ainz. And there’s going to be a season 2 and they’re adding Shield Hero to the case. Truly insane. 

Carole & Tuesday - I really wish I could give this my AOTS, that’s how much I love this show. Particularly this first half. It’s basically a 90′s show that somehow got missed and is now being made and that still feels like it belongs. This is really an anime that’s a love letter to music and it succeeds wholly. 

Summer:

Dr. Stone - This is my AOTS. I absolutely adore this show. This season there were a LOT of shows that aired on Fridays and this was the first one I watched every single time. Humanity has been petrified for over 2500 years and this story follows Senku a science obsessed high school student who decides to recreate the entirety of scientific evolution in record time. Bill Nye meets prehistoric era shounen series. What an awesome idea, and I absolutely love it. 

Fire Force - Fire Force is like a love letter to fire animation. The only thing that holds this show back is some completely unnecessary, ill-timed, and ill-executed fanservice with a particular character. It really feels like a block that keeps me from wholeheartedly reccommending it to people, but besides this it’s an absolute treat for the eyes. 

DanMachi S2 - Wooooo season 2! AND we’re getting a season 3 and a MOVIE!!

Vinland Saga - Holy shit, this show is beautiful. SO good. 

Fall:

My Hero Academia S4 -  Hell yeah, more HeroAca. This first part of season 4 has been a slow-burner, so we’ll have to see what the rest of the season has in store for us next year. 

Welcome to Demon School, Iruma-kun - This is such a charming show. It’s got all the appeal of the fun shows of the 2000s and reminds me of a less ecchi Rosario Vampire. And it is absolutely worth checking out. 

Vinland Saga (second cour) - I’m going to cheat a bit and include this in my fall selection. It is a 2 cour show, but the second part of the season is almost drastically better than the first part and I thought the first part was a solid 10/10. This takes it up to another level both in the visuals and the story and characters. Definitely my AOTS. 

Alright, so we have Mob Psycho 100 S2, Attack on Titan S3 Part 2, Dr. Stone and Vinland Saga. I am having some legitimate struggles right now. Dr. Stone wins on straight entertainment value, Mob wins on character growth and animation, AoT wins on payoff and action, and Vinland Saga wins on beauty and story and characters. I think it all comes down to Vinland Saga as AOTY, but damn that’s a hard choice. 

Winter 2020 Anime Round-Up

I decided to do a round-up of all the anime I’m watching this season because, turns out, most of the shows I was interested in were bad!

I.D. Invaded.

This is a psychological thriller sci-fi mystery type show. It’s about a police unit who uses this sci-fi technology to detect a killer’s murderous intent and create a sort of virtual reality projection of the killer’s mind.

They then take a special agent and insert him into the projection to hunt down clues and find the killer’s identity and whereabouts.

Enjoying this show is not cheap. It asks a lot of you.

1. Don’t laugh at how ham-fisted the exploration of how a killer’s mind works is.

2. Don’t laugh at the special agent’s official designation being “The Brilliant Detective.”

3. Don’t question the ridiculous premise of the show; they use a killer’s particles to create the projection of their mind to hunt for clues, but are later shown using those same particles to pinpoint the killer’s location.

4. Don’t laugh at one of the police unit’s agents being a teenage girl.

5. And, of course, don’t notice all the expository monologuing for the audience’s sake.  

The show is silly, but there’s some intriguing stuff in it. The conflict between the unit’s field squad and the desk workers can be good, though the locus of that conflict being about what seems to be a bureaucratic oversight is pretty weak.

The teenage girl is the most bald-facedly ridiculous thing about this show, but she is unironically the best character. She does some daring, crazy shit in this show and I was legitimately shocked by it.

Oh, yeah, I forgot.

6. Don’t laugh at the OP using recycled production materials and footage from the first episode.

Signs of a quality production right there.

 Plunderer.

>.<

This. Show.

I feel bad for Sarah Wiedenheft. She voices the main heroine in the dub. The in-over-her-head, naïve, helpless heroine, Hina.

God, help us!

Hina is a woman with a mission. She is bubbly and naïve, but stubborn and she gets in over her head by the end of the first episode. Why?

You know why, fool! So she can be rescued by the hero.

This show puts a creative spin on the typical shonen formula. Many shonen shows are designed to be wish fulfillment for teenage boys, with Mary Sue main characters for them to project onto.

The crazy spin on the formula here is that it’s wish fulfillment for sexual predators.

That’s not a joke.

The show takes place in a magical world where everyone is branded with a “count,” a number that increases whenever they complete a task specific to them.

Hina’s count goes up whenever she walks 100 km. Another’s count goes up whenever her food is complimented.

The count is denoted by a number that’s branded somewhere on their bodies. Hina’s count is located on her inner thigh, just below her crotch.

Meanwhile, this is what the hero does to Hina the first time they meet:

This is them at the end of the episode after he rescues her.

You know how in Dragon Ball, Master Roshi was this old pervert? The hero here is like that, except he’s young, not old, and a predator rather than just a pervert.

Licht is the hero; his count goes up whenever he dates someone, I guess, but the thing about him is that he’s a predator, so his count is actually -999. If your count reaches zero, you’re Kylo Ren-ed off into an abyss never to be seen again, so negative counts shouldn’t even be possible.

The reason the hero isn’t dead is because he’s actually.

Wait for it.

The Legendary Ace!

A badass fighter spoken of only in legends!

Who is this show even for?

It’s clearly supposed to be a wish fulfillment kind of show, but the only people I can see projecting onto the hero are, like, really, really pathetic people who fantasize about sexual assault.

(Another female character’s count is located on her left breast.)

The heroine is looking for this legendary ace, but even though she’s lived in this world her whole life, and has traveled throughout it her whole life, she knows nothing about how the count system works.

That was necessary, you see, for two reasons: so the system can be explained to us in monologue, and so the heroine can be made helpless and in need of rescue.

Those with a higher count have a high social status. This could have been a cool exploration of how luck is underappreciated as a factor in one’s social status, since how counts are determined is completely arbitrary and some are easier to increase than others, but no, we don’t get that.

People with a lower count must obey people with a higher count. But you’re in the military, there is an appeals process: if you have a lower count and are ordered by someone with a higher count to do something, you can challenge the high count to a duel and if you win, you can ignore their order.

You can then take the loser’s count and add it to your own.

These duels are called “star stakes.” >.<

Hina, naturally, is suckered into one of these duels and is about to lose everything when Licht saves her by agreeing to duel Hina’s opponent on her behalf.

And just to emphasize how infantilized Hina is in this show, Licht not only saves her physically, he even provides her with some emotional support, but phrased in a way that totally talks down to her.

 Asteroid in Love.

I’ve already seen the first episode three times, and I have no shame!

Doga Kobo is the Kyoto Animation of the past few years. Just as KyoAni made a name for themselves with a string of shows about cute girls doing cute things, Doga Kobo have sort of taken on that mantle.

Three Leaves, Three Colors; Gabriel Dropout; New Game; Senko-san; and now Asteroid in Love are all shows with good characters with good design work and animation better than they had any right to have.

This show is about a girl named Mira who meets a boy named Ao during a camping trip. He has a thing for astronomy and Mira is completely won over by it. They promise to discover and name an asteroid together.

Tragically, that one camping trip was the last they saw of each other.

Comically, they happen upon each other at the start of high school and wouldn’t you know it? Ao was a girl the whole time!

She was very tomboyish at that time in her life, so Mira mistook her for a boy.

But whatever, Mira’s friend still ships them.

They’re both passionate about astronomy, so they reconnect and become good friends real quick.

The friendship between Mira and Ao is by far the best part about this show; unfortunately, everything else is very generic.

High school club? Check.

Club member who’s boisterous and excitable? Check.

Club member who’s serious and down to earth? Check.

But in spite of all that, I could watch this show all day.

The presentation is excellent. The character designs are lovely and the direction and animation are amazing.

 Magia Record.

A spin-off of Puella Magi Madoka Magica. Magia Record takes place before Rebellion, but in an alternate universe where the events of Madoka Magica haven’t happened yet. There’s a new cast, but the main cast of Madoka Magica will be back as major characters.

InuCurry, who did the artwork for the witches’ labyrinths are back, this time as series co-directors and co-writers.

The Magica Quartet, the brain trust of people who created Madoka Magica, Gen Urobuchi, Akiyuki Shinbo, Ume Aoki, and Atsuhiro Iwakami, are back too. The four are collectively credited with coming up with the story.

Shinbo, who co-directed Madoka Magica, is back as an animation supervisor. Aoki is back in her role as character designer. Iwakami is co-credited with series planning.

Yukihiro Miyamoto, who co-directed the original series alongside Shinbo, is back as assistant director.

This show…it’s just good to see it all back. The character designs are a bit different from the original series, but they nailed the aesthetic otherwise.

Magia Record draws heavily from plot elements first used in Madoka Magica, but it’s not what I would call uninspired. Anyone who’s seen Madoka Magica will notice the callbacks, but they’re fun, not cringeworthy.

It reminds me of how The Force Awakens brought people back in to the Star Wars universe by heavily echoing A New Hope, but Magia Record is much more creative in its echoing than Force Awakens was.

Everyone who likes the OG series should check this out.

There’s already much intrigue in the story. A magical girl whose wish was granted, but also apparently simultaneously erased from existence, rumors of a city where magical girls can be “saved,” and a Kyubey who is a separate entity from the others.

The show is an adaptation of a mobile rpg. This is from a cutscene.

Iroha Tamaki, the main character of Magia Record, and Homura Akemi. 

Get excited.

 Bofuri.

This show is like Asteroid in Love, in that it would be totally boring if it weren’t totally charming.

This is the type of show that takes a silly phenomenon in the real world and makes it the premise of the whole show. Maple is a girl who’s just gotten into video games. Because she’s a newb, she puts all of her points into defense at the expense of even basic stuff like speed and strength.

Thus ensues hilarity.

There’s not much to talk about here. Maple is endearing as a video game noob. The artwork is great. The writing is legitimately funny in a subdued way.

A+

 Darwin’s Game.

I watched this show because the premise reminded me of King’s Game.

For those who don’t know, King’s Game is widely considered to be the worst anime ever made. It sucks.

King’s Game is about a death game administered over the phone and it the point is that everyone dies. It tries hard to do horror and it fails hard. I watch it every Halloween. :D

Darwin’s Game is about a mobile app game that pits players against each other in death matches. You win by killing all the other players.

With some shows it’s clear the writer can’t decide what they want to do. This show can’t decide if it wants to be trash or legit good.

Immediately you can tell this show is going to suck because the artwork is terrible. This is an ugly show to look at.

The show opens with a cold open clearly made to make the audience ask questions. It succeeds too well.

The opening depicts a random person being chased through the streets and then killed by an invisible furry.

Seriously.

By God, the fanservice in this show…

This doesn’t even fully capture the shamelessness of it. If you watch the episode, you’ll notice her dress has frills from the waist down.

Except for when we see her kneeling down, when her dress is suddenly a single piece of cloth. So we can better see her ass outlined through it.

Things temporarily get good when the main character has to fend off the furry from the opening. It really is thrilling, but everything goes back to crap when the mc has to fight the dress woman in the above picture.

He doesn’t kill her though. Oh, no, he doesn’t.

She becomes smitten by how strong he is and the episode ends with her asking him to bed her.

-barf-

why i don’t like game grumps anymore

arin is not a very good person.

Arin is manipulative, and seems to lack any self awareness and as such unwilling to legitimately address the problems plaguing the brand and channel.

When Sr. Pelo made a harmless, lighthearted joke, Mr. Whiny Pants went after him saying “This is mean. I got made fun of like this all the time when i made cartoons and it fucking sucked...” blah blah blah.

He has also “apologized” for getting the audience to literally DOXX a guy who wrote a Sonic Adventure guide, then in a Skyward Sword video he took back the apology saying that “he felt he did nothing wrong”.

He’s also shit all over game developers the past five years & making fun of AVGN style reviewers for an entire episode.

Apparently someone remembers watching a cartoon Arin made about a shark r*ping a young girl. I guess making a parody of someone’s life work and ridiculing it in multiple series is okay but making a parody of poor Arnold’s stuff is a big fat no no and you’re gonna get doxxed by the fan base.

He also berated a chick because she made a “Goddamnit Ross” joke, which is a joke that him and Dan used to make and made BANK off of.

You know what’s mean Arin? Bashing CEOs like they’re super-villains to pander to your audience. lecturing your fans and liking them to sexist douchebags because they think Dan’s funnier than your wife. Telling your fans they’re in the wrong because they found out little Scammer Suzy was buying cheap jewelry from China and Reselling it for $100 to people who loved & looked up to her; Not just telling them but vindictively lecturing them for being upset that they were manipulated and scammed. Allowing your employees to nearly drive poor Ding Dong to suicide for not falling at their feet and worship like a good little boy in the wake of their corrupt pandering to LGBT kids. Gaslighting your fans and friends with the lie that you were always the bitter self-loathing bully you are now.

You know what’s fucking mean, Arin? the “I wish I had the willpower to get an Eating Disorder” & “my working con must haves - a bar of lush soap, powdered pedialyte, vape pen and sooooo many faux smiles to paste over my mouth for the people that stand in front of your booth and tell their life story for 30 minutes and not buy anything.” tweets posted on your amazing and lovely wife Suzy’s private vent account that game grumps associates have interacted with. You used to post videos where you pretended to be special ed.

He’s done a complete 180 and went from bragging about being straight edge to drinking and smoking weed. He’s even stopped wearing your wedding ring in public.

All of those people he has intentionally fucked over repeatedly for money and fame have done nothing wrong and tried keeping it private because they’re professionals, and they’re good people but Arin can’t keep his mouth shut.

Pelo explicitly said at the end of his video that he was just having fun and he meant no harm & he didn’t care whether people liked the genre or not. What Arin did publicly to manipulate his fans to think he’s in the right and assume his friends were all going to have his back and let him be a dishonest manipulative liar. He’s delusional.

Arin has lost the ability to grow as a human being or even acknowledge that it’s even possible for him to grow. It’s like the more self-loathing and hateful and bitter he becomes the more he’s incapable of taking criticism. He thinks he’s this wonderful hero and everyone is so pathetic that they need him to badmouth them by asserting that everyone is just as pathetic as he is.

If Arin didn’t feel completely trapped and bitter and miserable in the existence he’s in he wouldn’t have done the complete nosedive he’s done in the past year, like drinking and drugs and the constant public standing of his wife in the most explicit way possible, not wearing his wedding ring.

Arin is someone who is so bitter and miserable that they’re gonna do everything in their goddamn power to tell people who look up to him that being miserable is the right thing. That being miserable and fragile and having this incredibly wounded ego and taking it out on people who are doing the thing you wanted to do.

If you could make another Ed Edd n Eddy game, what would you want it to be like?

Platformers are cool, but also basic and safe. An Ed, Edd n Eddy video game should be about performing scams. Specifically, doing the right ones at the right location, based on people’s mood, their budget, the weather, and the tools you managed to find.I guess the first part of each level has you choose which Ed should do what, and you can’t change this afterwards: scouting, building, selling.Each character has his pros and cons, but this system will ensure that getting a full 100% success is tricky. Which fits the struggle the Eds go through in the original series.Ed as a scout can pick up countless of items along the way, enabling more building options and additions, but he isn’t good at “eavesdropping”. His simple mind can’t pick up on important details, which a scout needs to remember for the next section in order to have more ideas and selling options unlocked. The Eds won’t know what their scam should be, otherwise. You could choose to make Ed stick around longer when listening in on someone, but this comes with the risk he’ll be sought after or found out, which will ensure those children won’t be showing up for the scam. Cause, like, why are you being so silent and creepy over there.Ed as a builder can work with and combine big and heavy objects, which allows for the creation of large eye-catchers that’re bound to ensnare people who’re farther away (handy when you’ve picked a slightly off location), but he’s clumsy, so the player will need either luck or a steady hand while building. Depends on the controls for this non-existent game. Besides that, the scam will never look or operate its optimal best with Ed as the builder. That doesn’t have to be a bad thing if the scam itself allows for it, people’s moods are great, the parts themselves are decent, and whoever the salesman is is doing a banging job.Ed as a seller is able to consistently win certain characters over with his upbeat energy, but his dialogue options become more distorted the longer you allow him to speak. You’ll have to make him do other things inbetween. Like staying silent or showing examples of whatever he’s selling. Still, silence only works when people aren’t heavily focused on the seller, and Ed is still an oaf, so giving too many presentations can result into embarrassment or total destruction of the scam you just built.Edd as a scout has limited energy and strength, but the few items he’s able to carry are always durable and increase the chance that whatever they plan to build won’t collapse. As quickly. Edd’s biggest talent as a scout is the eavesdropping. He’ll remember every stupid little detail, allowing for tons of scam ideas in the building section. The neighbourhood children feel most at ease with him around as well, so you can basically have Edd walk past everyone and collect their voices before they become suspicious. No need to be hiding or sneaking.Edd as a builder will ensure that consumptions or contraptions are of quality, look good, and will somewhat please the customers that use it, even if the materials and salesman’s pitch were unsuccessful. Builder Edd can spawn “happy costumer” bonuses; where a paying customer might convince skeptics to give it a try, anyway. You’ll need at least one paying customer for this chance, so don’t completely mess up that selling section.Edd as a seller benefits from that trust the neighbourhood has in him and people stick around longer to listen, but he’s a nervous salesman depending on the scam you’ve chosen to go with. It can take a while for dialogue options to show, and sometimes he can screw the player by only giving brutally honest statements or using a vocabulary that people can’t appreciate, unless they’re in a certain mood. But he’s consistently good at showing off the product.Eddy as a scout is speedy and has balanced strength for carrying objects. People don’t like to see him around, though, so he pretty much has to hide every time if he wants to eavesdrop. Eddy has selective hearing and will only pick up the most important details, which’ll make building easier, in the sense you’re always given basic scam suggestions that match people’s wishes. But this won’t allow for much creativity and you’ll never know what else you could’ve done to get a higher score.Eddy as a builder lacks motivation and this section comes with a short time limit. Things built by Eddy will look very cool and flashy, though, it’s bound to attract those who’re close-by. Handy when you have a weak salesman.Eddy as a seller is loud and quick, he’ll never sit still and the dialogue options are plenty. Having him as the seller gets you guaranteed customers, but it’s important to remember he’s the least trusted person in the neighbourhood and you should switch over to a different seller after two levels, and immediately after your last level/scam failed. Otherwise he’ll overstay his welcome and the majority will avoid him. There’s 50% chance the Kanker sisters will be looking for you in the scouting missions. If they catch you, you’ll lose half of the items you were carrying, the section ends right away, and the character caught will have to play until the end of the next level with lipstick smooches on his face. Which’ll make selling difficult if you planned to use him for it.If you find an extremely rare jawbreaker lying around in a scouting mission, you may reorder the Eds. Having Edd as a scout and again as a builder will give huge customer satisfaction, for example.Earning yourself an even rarer 100% in a level immediately spawns the Kankers who take all of your money. You’ll have to win them over as legitimate customers in the next level in order to get the last 100% back, get rekt. Keeping this 100% score will earn you a new area to scam people at, namely the school.Hard mode comes with you having to use the same order of Eds for the entirety of the game and never failing once.Alright, wasted my time enough.

The Boyz Confession (Hyung line)

🥺Okay so in order to thank you all for 2k (still shook) I decided to write something for tbz. Lmk if you want me to continue🥺

😬they aren’t the best... don’t bully me ajsbsjsn😬

Sangyeon:

Of course your time together was limited but that’s how it had always been. You became friends after he debuted, meeting through a mutual friend at the company who knew you’d love each other. You exchanged numbers and both quickly developed feelings for the other, you made each other happy at a time when you thought no one could, that’s really important to you both. After about 3 months of incessant flirting Sangyeon decided he’d had enough, it was time to make you his. He was sat alone in the practice room, texting you to come and watch him practice to give pointers. You arrived wearing his favourite outfit on you, but anything you wore he loved. You sat on the floor expecting him to dance yet he came and joined you on the floor, resting his head on your shoulder as you stretched your legs out. He was sweating a little, but you didn’t mind. It was moments like this that you treasured the most but admittedly he’d never been this intimate with you before. You weren’t complaining though.

“You know” he looked up at you, pouting, while his hand found yours “I think it’s time we became an official couple” he awaited your answer which seemed to take years when in actuality it was seconds.

“I think so too” you confessed looking down at his handsome face and smiling before pecking his lips lightly.

Jacob:

Jacob always loved when you stayed over at the dorms, especially this time since it was just you two alone. Since you were in Korea alone, with no family around, when you got sick the boys took extra special care of you, one boy in particular always ready for whatever you threw at him. You lay awake in Jacob’s bed, they had left you alone to nap while they went to practice, telling Jacob to stay with you to keep you company, but you couldn’t sleep. If it was this easy to get alone time with your crush, you would have faked being sick a long time ago, you thought, staring at the ceiling. Just as you started to daydream about your fantasy relationship, Jacob walked in and took a seat on the edge of the bed, resting his hand on your stomach and turning to face you.

“You even look pretty when your sick” he said with a sweet smile. You thanked him for the compliment yet he continued. “No I mean it! Like you always look pretty, whatever you do. And being alone with you, even if you are poorly, is basically a dream come true.”

You smiled in return. “I’d kiss you right now if I wasn’t sick” you joked as he leaned forward to kiss your forehead instead. He’d really risk it all for you.

Younghoon:

“And is there a special someone you’d like to dedicate this cover to?” The MC asked as Younghoon warmed up to sing thinking out loud by Ed Sheeran.

He clasped his hands together, like he usually does while he’s nervous. “Actually there is, I’d currently consider them my best friend but who knows what will happen” He explained with you in mind. You didn’t really know anyone else who Younghoon was as close to as you, expect his members but come on... like he’d give into fans ideology like that. You knew it was about you, you didn’t want to act oblivious (after analysing everyone it could have been) you felt exactly the same way. As the song finished your whole body sunk back into the sofa in content after being sat at the edge of it for so long while listening to his soft vocals.

“Their name is actually y/n” he confessed out of no where. “Their favourite artist is Ed Sheeran and I know to fans and whatnot this may seem out of character but I had to say it. I really like them and-” he rushed out before the mc quickly interrupted and changed the subject.

He called you after the show, asking if you’d watched and how you felt. He didn’t want to ask you to be his but he already knew you were when you offered to take him out that night. The date went well, well enough to confirm your new relationship status.

Hyunjae:

Typically you, Hyunjae and a few mutual friends went bowling one Friday a month, and you all looked forward to it, but exam season was here and your friends all had to cancel due to studying. You, however, were “dragged” out by Hyunjae who said that you deserved a break. Any time you could spend with him you’d gladly take to be honest, you were madly in love with him, who wouldn’t be.

“Are you ready for our date?” Hyunjae asked that morning over the phone. You couldn’t really tell if he meant it so you just replied with a competitive “I’m totally gonna win!”

He laughed lightly “maybe, because it’s you, I’ll let you have the bumpers up” his flirty tone was evident.

“You want to lose that much, babes?” you joked back, knowing that pet names were his weakness.

After that Hyunjae changed the subject, ending the call when you told him you had to get to your exam. “Good luck! Don’t get distracted by the thought of our date too much!” He ended with before hanging up.

When you arrived that night outside the bowling place, he greeted you with a kiss on the cheek. You pulled back and gave him a puzzled look. “Aw cute you thought I was joking about this being a date” he wrapped his arm around your shoulder while you smiled to yourself, him doing exactly the same.

“How did you know I was into guys like you?” You asked hoping to irritate Hyunjae yet he just responded with “who wouldn’t be?” before planting another peck onto your temple.

Juyeon:

Winter was your favourite season, no doubt about it, however, as silly as it sounds, you hated the cold. Your fingers, you thought, were legitimately going to fall off by the time you reached your house and considering it was basically night time, it was even colder than you had originally anticipated. One thing you were grateful for was Juyeon. The handsome boy who always took care of you, during and after your “extra curricular activities” walking you home and keeping you safe. Even though it was only 5pm, it was pitch black outside and of course rush hour traffic was in full effect. The biggest and busiest roads in your town was approaching and it almost as if Juyeon could sense the anxiety building up inside you. He took hold of your hand, your mitten sliding off slightly.

“It’s okay y/n I’m here” he said while standing next to you at the edge of the road. “Come on” he pulled you to the middle section made for pedestrians in between the two directions of traffic.

“Juyeon” you paused. “You don’t have to told my hand you know” you said, secretly not wanting him to let go.

“What if I want to?” He questioned with a barely visible smirk in the low lighting. “What if this was my plan all along?” He chuckled this time.

“I know what you’re saying Juyeon...” excitement evident in your voice. You weren’t about playing those “oblivious dumb crush” games... not when what you wanted was serious.

“Hm you know I control the weather? No fun” he joked pulling your mitten off and securing his hand in yours. “My hand will be warmer anyway.”

Kevin:

The clock was at 11:50pm and it was New Year’s Eve, you couldn’t believe you were entering yet another year single. You watched the man of your dreams, Kevin, walk in your direction, if only he was coming over to proclaim his love for you, you wished in your head.

“Hey y/n, you ready for the new year?” He asked casually, taking a seat on the couch next to you putting his arm over the back of it after setting his cup of coke on the floor alongside yours. He clearly hadn’t had anything alcohol wise to drink and neither had you, the only two sober ones in the room and the only two that could converse like normal human beings.

“There’s nothing new about being alone” you said grumpily, averting your eyes.

“Heyyy no don’t say that y/n, look at me” you turned back to him with a cloud of shame above you. He tucked your hair behind your ear and smiled, not moving his hand from the side of your face. “Who said you were gonna be alone anyway?” He questioned with a wink. “Oh by the way that’s me asking you to be my bae.” He clarified.

“Wait are you serious?” You still asked, just to be 100% clear. The clock just seconds away from 11:59 when the big countdown would begin.

“I mean I can prove it to you with a kiss in just 1 minute if you’re prepared to wait” he grabbed your drink and picked his own up off the floor before helping you off the couch and wrapping his arm around your waist. Maybe this year wasn’t going to be as awful as you expected.

New:

Your previous position: next to Chanhee on the boys’ shared couch, where you felt the most at home. Your current position: not next to Chanhee. You were actually in the kitchen after being called for by Kevin who was trying to work the pop corn machine you’d brought to the dorm. When you tried to get up, New whined, when you eventually got up, New whined, now you weren’t even in his eye line, New whined even more. “Where’s y/n gone? I miss them” he moaned loudly, the point being that you’d hear him. You finished up trying to sort out kevin as quick as you could before going back to the living room in which Chanhee sat like a toddler, knees up to his chin.

“What’s up buttercup?” You asked and you sat besides him again. Chanhee returned to his usual sitting position, a little closer to you than normal but you didn’t mind.

“Ugh will you two get a room for goodness sake” Hyunjae spoke up. “Chanhee, this is y/n, they are madly in love with you. Y/n, this is Chanhee, he’s madly in love with you. Now leave us to watch our movie in peace.” He pointed between you two as the other members nodded.

“Someone’s a little grumpy” you laughed, facing down to see Chanhee “he’s not wrong though” you both said quickly at the same time. You soon found yourself in your now boyfriend’s room. “So you really like me huh?” He asked continuously for an hour.

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