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This Week in BL - Japan is Winning on Kisses & Other Alternate Realities

Organized, in each category, with ones I'm enjoying most at the top.

March 2024 Wk 4

Ongoing Series - Thai

Two Worlds (Thurs IQIYI) ep 3 of 10 - It would be great if we got the alternative romance with dead Kram from Tai’s perspective (JBL style.) Still I like this show. It’s a little bit like I Feel You Linger in the Air only with a love triangle. And while I'm not a fan of triangles as a general rule, I don’t mind it here because the set up is clever. Wayu and ao are fun sides too. It sure is moving very quickly, which I like. I’m not entirely sure what’s going on. But that’s normal for me with this kind of Thai drama.

Deep Night (Thurs iQiyi) ep 4 of 8 - They are extremely sappy boyfriends. I love that mom has a secret gf. Could we please have more of them? The love triangle sides are ridiculous, but I do like that it’s all out in the open. I also like they are actually addressing the complicated parental dynamics of owning a sex club. Honestly, I think Khem should have to be a host too. Learn him the right way, girl!

City of Stars (Fri iQIYI) ep 9 of 12 - It’s good, I like the fallout and them actually having to deal with crazy fans and past relationships. They’re so good at communicating it’s kind of a pleasure to watch them suffer through external pressures, because I have faith that they can make it through.

To Be Continued (Thai C3 Thailand grey) ep 6 of 8 - They are such cute puppy dads and so clearly meant to be together, the fact that they aren’t is just frustrating. The fight thing was stupid. And not a whole lot happened... plus singing. I’m getting fatigued with this one.

1000 Years Old ep 7 of 12 - Did I miss something happening, or did nothing happen?

Kiseki Chapter 2 (Sun iQIYI) ep 2 of 6 - It’s so boring, there’s so much guitar playing, and it got weirdly voyeuristic (in a very much not sexy way). I’m totally out. DNF

Close Friend Season 3: Soju Bomb! (Weds iQIYI) ep 3 of 6 - I can’t tell if this is trying to be a BL Romancing the Stone, or a BL Hangover, or both. The problem with situational comedy is it must be both situational and comedic, not just option one. The problem with calling something BL, is that it must be BL. This show got 1 of 3 claims correct. 33% is not a passing grade. DNF

Honestly, it's the HANDS with these two. They do beautiful beautiful things with their hands. If you're one of those hands-obsessed BLabies you should be watching LIBTSTA!

Ongoing Series - Not Thai

Unknown (Taiwan Tues Youku YouTube & Viki) ep 6 of 11 - So the worst finally happened. The mountain of pain has fallen down upon us. And now, hopefully in the second half things get better for our boys. But what a rough ride. Normally, this is not my style of BL, but everyone is doing such a gorgeous job with it, I can’t fault it… except that it hurts. The red thread symbolism was elegantly done. I’d like to hope we get a reunion in the next one, but knowing this style of series they’re gonna draw it out. There's gonna be a more pain first.

Love is Better the Second Time Around AKA Koi wo Suru nara Nidome ga Joto (Japan Weds Gaga) ep 4 of 6 - Those fuck me puppy dog eyes were perfectly executed. I would not have been able to resist either. Gosh they are so damn cute. This is a great show.

Jazz for Two (Korea Gaga/grey) eps 1-2 of 8 - This comes from the Shoulder to Cry On team so I'm scared, but this one is all actors* not idols so maybe they'll be braver. Boy howdy does it have a fantastic opening sequence. Also the lead is fucking adorable. Mr Broody McBroodypants is cute too. Korea sure loves “pretty but broken.” On the JBL end of the spectrum, is everyone in love with their siblings? That’s weird. The dining room scene was painful. All in all, it's good, I'm intrigued. Let's see how you go little show.

I stand absolutely corrected the lead is a member of NEWKIDD (in my defense I'd never heard of them until Build Up last month). I did recognize him from To My Star because at the time I thought he was too pretty to be only a side character.

AntiReset (Taiwan Fri Viki/Gaga) ep 10 fin - Again there was overuse of previous footage and maudlin navel-gazing grief over something we knew was going to happen. So I didn’t really feel much emotional connection to the drama. 7 year time gap.? t was a cute reunion but the moral quandary never really got resolved. I don’t know how to rate this, I’m not sure I will ever watch it again, so that is a big mark against it.

There’s nothing objectively wrong with this BL except how upsetting it is because of the foundational pygmalion story - grown man falls in love with an android who is basically both his slave and, by maturity level, a child. Yet that premise is crystal clear from the get go, so we watch it eyes open. The actors are cute, the romance sweet, the physical chemistry on point (of course, it’s Taiwan) and yet I was left ultimately unsettled by the concept, content, and plot. 7/10

My Strawberry Film (Japan Thurs Gaga) ep 7 of 8 - I'm so ready for this to be over, and for Gaga to have something good on. Soon please?

It's done, ready to binge, but I suck

What Did You Eat Yesterday Season 2 AKA Kinou Nani Tabeta? Season 2 (Japan Gaga) 10 eps

It's airing but...

Graduation Countdown (Taiwan YouTube) - It's too much to ask me to keep up with 2 minute verticals, I don't have that kind of TikTok endurance training. Waiting to binge.

A Secretly Love (Thai Sat WeTV grey) 10 eps - I watched the first ep but grey is too much work for this inferior of a show. I may pick up and binge if it gets distribution but for now, it gets a DNF from me. KimCop might have held this crap together but Kim without Cop? No thank you.

Lady Boy Friends (Thai WeTV grey) 16 eps - reminds me a bit too much of Diary of Tootsies only high school. Not my thing. DNF unless it turns a corner and is truly amazing.

Tangential to the genre

There has been the occasional discussion on this topic here in this little corner of tumblr so I thought there might be a few intersted in this podcast: AmericanThaiGuy Ron Weaver on the Complicated Issue of Racism in Thailand (The Bangkok Podcast)

Thailand passed its Marriage Equality bill through the lower house. It's expected to pass the high house and get signed by the King, but that hasn't quite happened yet.

And MaxTul dropped a photo shoot.

Next Week Looks Like This:

Starting Soon

3/31 Only Boo! (Thai GMMTV YouTube) 12 eps - New main couple for GMMTV in an idol romance about a boy who dances good and a food stand vendor. Other side of the tracks grumpy/sunshine pair who fall deeply in love but, of course, baby boy idol can't date. Boyband but from GMMTV? Control your singing and I'm game.

3/31 The Next Prince (Thai ????) 12 eps - trailer. ZeeNew in a fantasy/historical set in a palace where Zee plays a knight and Nu a prince - YES PLEASE. (Apparently this is just the pilot, not the start of the actual show, see comments.)

4/1 Love is like a Cat (Korea ????) 12 eps - This completed filming Aug 2022(!) which means there have been serious problems with post-production. This is another of Silkwood's Korean+Thai colab projects. Mew Suppasit plays a rookie film star, called the Cat Prince (for his cold arrogance) who goes up against a charismatic puppyish animal daycare director (JM of JUST B). There is a side romance (love triangle?) with a veterinarian. Geonu of JUST B is also in the cast. Dual languages.

Hum, trash-watch-a-licious?

4/3 We Are (Thai GMMTV YouTube iQIYI) 12 eps - University ensemble BL featuring PondPhuwin, WinnySatang, AouBoom, MarcPawinPoon - basically the good kind of messy gay friendship group (so more My Engineer and less Only Friends). Looks a bit like the Kiss series but everyone is queer. I'm IN!

4/11 Living With Him AKA Kare no Iru Seikatsu (Japan ????) 10 eps - Kindly Ryota goes off to uni only to find his new roommate is his childhood bestie, Kazuhito. Kazuhito doesn’t have a girlfriend and Ryota tries to help him figure out why, they fall in love along the way. Same director as Old Fashion Cupcake.

4/11 Gray Shelter AKA Gray Currents (Korea ????) 4 eps - SooHyuk is only just surviving and reunites with YoonDae, an old friend. They end up living together. One of the leads is played by Choco of Choco Milk Shake.

4/18 At 25:00, in Alaska AKA 25 Ji, Akasaka de (Japan Gaga - may not be global) 10 eps - Yuki lands his first starring role in a BL drama alongside superstar Asami (previously his senior at uni). Said superstar suggests they form a sham relationship until filming concludes. As they actually begin to fall in love, the spotlight begins to burn.

Seriously? You're killing me with these titles, boys.

4/26 My Stand-In (Thai iQIYI) 12 eps - adaptation of Chinese novel "Professional Body Double" by Shui Qiang Cheng. Stars Up (Lovely Writer) and Poom (Bake Me Please) directed by the same team as KP (not a recommendation IMHO - my biggest criticism of that show was the clashing directing styles). This one looks well complicated, lemme try: Joe is a stuntman for famous actor Tong. Joe falls in love with Ming but Ming sees Joe as nothing more than a Tong-replacement. After learning this horrible truth, Joe dies. Joe then wakes up in the body of another man also named Joe. He manages to rebuild the same life as before—with the same people eventually re-meeting Ming. Ming wants Joe back but Joe doesn't understand why. But Ming seems to know what's going on and wants to give him some kind of explanation.

I'm exhausted just trying to describe the plot.

Knock-Knock Boys (Thai WeTV) - 4 college friends conspire to help their friend lose his virginity. Familiar faces like Seng (yes, Billy's previous partner) and Best, news here.

Upcoming BLs for 2024 are listed here. This list is not kept updated, so please leave a comment if you know something new or RP with additions.

NOTE: It looks like one of my personal favorites of last year Unintentional Love Story is getting a spin off!

THIS WEEK’S BEST MOMENT

Just these two, in my head, rent free. Thanks Japan!

(Last week)

Streaming services are listed by how I (usually) watch, which is with a USA based IP, and often offset by a day because time zones are too much work.

The tag BLigade: @doorajar @solitaryandwandering @my-rose-tinted-glasses @babymbbatinygirl @babymbbatinygirl @isisanna-blog @mmastertheone @pickletrip @aliceisathome @urikawa-miyuki @tokillamonger @rocketturtle4

If ya wanna be tagged each week leave a comment and I will add you to the template. Easy peesy. (With so many tags when does a weekly tumblr post become a newsletter? That is this week's philosophical question...)

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silicon-puppy-pudding · 8 months

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Danny totally kills the Joker

I have a very specific Eldritch!Danny in my head that, even though I've tried drawing before, I can't really get out of my head if you get what I mean

And as a dead on main shipper and a lover of angst I have him do shit that causes problems

Like kill the Joker in a blind rage after an Arkham break out

So it's like this, after a breakout that obviously requires all hands on deck, everyone is eventually re-cuffed and put back in their cells (including the Joker).

Red Hood and Phantom are doing some clean up in the Narrows and it's hard on them. Seeing some kids whose parents died cuz of the clown nearly broke Hood.

Phantom, now well known as Hood's right hand, picks up some of the burden. Helping more then he normally does with some displaced kids and families cuz he can feel Hood breaking down.

It hurts..

After the night/day/whatever is over, they head back home to their appartment and Jason just breaks. Danny's been helping with the pit rage so without all the extra anger crowding him it just sort of crumbles into pain and hurt.

Danny can't stand it

He can't stand to see Jason like this

Jason was his rock, his shoulder to cry on, his partner in crime. He had always been there for Danny when he had panic attacks and couldn't breathe cuz he saw some guy walking down the street in a white suit. Was always telling him it was going to be okay. Had told him things were gonna be alright. And now the roles had switched. Danny comforted Jason for who knows how long. Held him tight till he calmed down and was able to fall asleep. Once Danny was sure Jason would be okay he slipped out of the appartment...

Phantom would not stand for this.

Phantom flew over to Arkham with the intent to "have a little chat" with the Joker. Just ruf him up a bit. Scare him shitless so he'd rethink ever braking out again.

He didn't mean to bash the guys skull in.

He didn't even realize he'd been beating a flattened pound of meat and skull till Batman showed up and pulled him from his mind.

He looked over to where he'd heard his name and saw Batman and Nightwing standing by the door of the cell. Both were wrapped in bandages, some obviously stained in blood from the damage they endured during the breakout.

Dick covered his mouth and stared in horror at the sight of Danny, who he'd been lovingly calling his future brother-in-law for the past 2 months, covered in the Jokers blood. He looked like a staticky, distorted shadow. Three(3) sets of arm all ending with white clawed hands; one pair around the Jokers barely intact neck, another clutching the inmate uniforms chest, the last frozen mid punch. Bruce, having just the slightest ecto-connection from the pit, fought off the screaming in his chest to run and leave the King be.

Bruce slowly approached Phantom. Phantom on the other hand, slowly realized what he'd just done and was starting to panic.

He'd just killed a man

Sure he fucking deserved it but he just....let himself go. Let himself indulge in his rage, be consumed by it. And now the Batman was here to stop him. Would he send him back to the Realms? Would he lock him up, away from anyone he could hurt? Away from Jason?

Phantom flinches when Bruce touches his shoulder. And continues to try and back away when Bruce calls for someone to get a hold of Jason on the coms. What's he doing? Isn't he going to be thrown into a cell? He's dangerous! He could do this again if he wasn't dealt with! Why is Bruce calling for Jason? Does he want to show him the monster he let into his life? Does he want Jason to be the one to do it?

Bruce is talking.

Not Batman, but Bruce, is saying something to him, his name.

Not Phantom

"Danny? Danny!?"

Phantom disappears and isn't seen for two(2) days

Nightwing is the one to find him. In some warehouse, slamming his head into a support beam, yelling at himself that he can't become Dan.

I don't know how to continue this. It was supposed to have a nice hurt/comfort ending but I'm not a fic writer and I don't know how to do that. So feel free to use this as a prompt or something 👻👉🏾👈🏾

Edit: figured I'd add one of the Danny doodles I did a while back cuz it fits. I already posted it a while ago but it feels appropriate here too.

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aro-langblr · 14 days

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I'm gonna vent for a second. I'll try to keep it language related, but this definitely a real life vent. heavy topics, but nothing explicit.

Long story short, life's been rough. I'm currently unemployed for the first time ever and I recently surrendered my cat along with a whole plethora of other Bad Things. I even had to give up on my pharmacy training. but even in the midst of all this... I've started engaging in hobbies for the first time since literally 2021. maybe 2022. and don't get me wrong, if you followed my original langblr (@/blunderinglangblr) before I deleted, I'm nowhere near the level of functional as I was back then. Not by a long shot. But I'm doing things I didn't think were even possible for me anymore. I didn't think I even had hobbies or interests anymore. and I don't mean I've recently had a one off "oh, I did a thing for two days in a row because I tried to push myself for once uwu." I mean I've done creative writing consistely for the past couple weeks. I tried drawing which I haven't done since I was a teenager. I've put together multiple meals for myself when I hadn't had a real meal for the past 3 months at least because I couldn't get myself to cook. I've been reading. all of this since becoming unemployed about 2 weeks ago.

and since becoming unemployed, I realized that I was wrong. I fucking do have interests and hobbies. all the same ones I had before. and I'm so mad. I'm furious. I can't explain how the idea has me almost in tears! I've been living on total burnout since october of 2021. probably even longer since I had an attempt at the end of october that year. my life has been a goddamn shakesperean tragedy, and it took losing everything for me to even feel like a shadow of a person again.

I'm studying linguistics and languages today for the first time. I drew yesterday, and I had a couple decent meals recently. I'm doing okay enough... and it's just so sad... I'm trying to apply for disability, but I'll have to find another job soon. I live alone and don't have family, so I need some source of income. I can't just wait to hear back about my application.

it's just... I have been given a glimpse of the person I used to be. someone I could be. and I feel like all of it has just been stolen away from me because I've been living on the edge for so long. I still am honestly. I'm still really suffering despite the good. but the fact that there's any good at all is something I didn't know was possible anymore.

#I was made to believe this wasn't possible and it's just heartbreaking to have The Realization #personal #vent #might delete later but I'm undecided. I think I want to leave this one here.

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chameliyun · 6 months

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20 Q's for Fic Writers

thanks for the tag @spacejammie-eimmajecaps!

How many works do you have on ao3? Officially 8, but I have one on anon and one currently unrevealed in a fic exchange

What's your total ao3 word count? 61,996

What fandoms do you write for? So far I've written for Death Note, Tangled the Series, Avatar: The Last Airbender, and Haikyuu, plus a couple of crossovers. Haikyuu is definitely my main rn though

What are your top five fics by kudos? #1: Frosting and Freckles: 69 (nice) #2: Draw Me Near: 39 #3: [embarrassing anon fic]: 35 #4: Varian Is Not a Wizard: 25 #5: Midnight Coda: 21

Do you respond to comments? Yeah, I love to! I don't get a lot so they always make me happy :)

What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? probably the anon fic sdfsk but other than that, Midnight Coda is kinda bittersweet because of what happens later

What is the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? hmm idk but the sappiest is definitely Frosting and Freckles

Do you get hate on fics? Not so far, thankfully! I don't think I have a big enough readership for that haha

Do you write smut? If so, what kind? I have not; not sure what kind it would be if I did

Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written? I love writing crossovers! A PJO/HP crossover was actually what got me into fanfic. Unfortunately most of them are merely concepts or abandoned (for now), but as for crazy, I think my Lunar Chronicles/PJO one is the craziest in terms of how the plot grew out of control from a simple "what if these two characters interacted" to "I could rewrite most of this series," which is why I got stuck and put it on hiatus lol but I do want to get back to it someday. Maybe once I finish my other active crossover

Have you ever had a fic stolen? Not to my knowledge

What's the longest you've spent working on one fic? And the shortest? Uhhh well if we count "working on" as "having it in the back of mind to get to but haven't worked on in months," probably Sent from the Heavens lol. If not, then Varian Is Not a Wizard (just over two years since I published the first chapter). Shortest is definitely Midnight Coda, since I wrote that pretty much in a day iirc

Have you ever co-written a fic before? No, but it sounds like it could be fun!

What's your all-time favorite ship? From all fandoms? Dude I have no idea how to narrow that down. Best I can give you is my current fave is Tsukkiyama from Haikyuu

What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will? Probably my "Leo Valdez ends up in the ATLA world" one :sob: It never made it past the word doc and about three pages of story and I haven't looked at it in like two years

What are your writing strengths? I like to think I'm pretty good at dialogue and grammar/spelling

What are your writing weaknesses? Everything else (jk). I am awful at describing scenes/settings; I get bored writing them so I don't put as much effort in as I should haha. I also tend to ramble and use passive voice too much

Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic? I haven't done it, but I think it's fine as long as it fits the context

First fandom you wrote for? Published: Avatar: The Last Airbender. Unpublished: Percy Jackson

Favorite fic you've written? I think it's still Bent Out of Shape. It's so niche, but I had an idea and I executed it, and I'm proud of what I accomplished. Although once I finish Varian Is Not a Wizard, that might take the top slot.

No-pressure tagging: @supermarine-silvally @starrynightarchive @litterateur97 @palant1r @soreiya @lilac-writes @oloreandil @kandybarkreepshow @ellegamgee and anyone else who wants to!

#writing #fanfiction #ao3 #tag game

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thefirstknife · 8 months

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If going by the Destiny 2 content creator reactions and their fans of Lightfall then the greatest enemy to all is the concept of a Cliffhanger.

There people wouldn't be able to handle any non bing able media. If they had to watch Breaking Bad, any mystery story or what have you before Netflix i imagine they'd throw a fit

Yeah, I'm feeling the same. I genuinely don't know what people expected from a penultimate expansion. Talked about it before in regards to how the marketing for Lightfall may have been a little weird and how people ended up feeling misled by it, which is a fair complaint to have. But if we go further than that, I still don't know why people expected "all answers immediately" from an expansion that's clearly not the final one. We knew right away that this is not the ending.

This is a good opportunity to talk a bit more about some extra stuff which will be below, because I'm choosing mercy for people on mobile:

Another thing that gets me as well is that this is simply how Destiny always does the story. Like, it's a live service game and has been for 10 years. Campaigns are on a frequent hit-or-miss scale and aren't really all that expansive on their own anyway; a 3 hour campaign is NOT and never has been the totality of Destiny's story. As a matter of fact, like 90% of Destiny's story is told in written format with lore and side quests and other stories, not in campaigns. Campaigns are generally just the initial setpieces that shift the narrative in a certain direction with a singular event, but the majority of the story happens as consequences of that, over the course of years.

There's been so much stuff that we've been waiting for years to be explained. I always figured this as something that the Destiny community loves and expects. I got here only in D2 and only got into lore properly in Shadowkeep, so everything I knew by reading about Destiny's past story and community reception was that the mystery and the players coming together to figure things out was one of the main draws of the game. That's how I perceived the game, its lore and its community when I joined. As something where we work together to pore through texts to understand where things are and where they are going.

Actually, recently one of the biggest complaints going from Beyond Light and onwards was that Destiny has lost its mystery component. It's been a frequent and overwhelming critique of the story and seasons. How seasons are here to just quickly sum everything up in neat and presentable infodumps given to us by characters and lore tabs that tell us everything directly without any need for deeper engagement. This obviously isn't even fully true (Beyond Light's deepest mystery remained undetected and misunderstood by the majority of the playerbase and still is to this day (that would be Savathun replacing Osiris)), but overall yeah, certain things were absolutely streamlined in comparison with how lore was done before.

Like, no contest: frequent seasonal story drops that give us dozens of lore books, item lore, quest lore, dialogues and so on over the year that are easy to acquire and are readable in the game, as well as stories that happen weekly and are more engaging than just playing a 2 hour campaign every six months or every year have all done A LOT for the lore to be more approachable and less "mysterious." I put that in quotes because people frequently also misinterpret what "mysterious" means or at least aren't talking about the same concept. I've noticed that there's quite a bit of backlash for stories being resolved and character arcs being finished. To a lot of people, that's the removal of "mystery." In a sense, a lot of people want an endless story that never resolves but that gives just enough easily consumable fandom-related details that aren't really progressing the story in a meaningful direction.

But yeah. To end this tangent here, people have been complaining a lot about the lack of mysteries and wonder in Destiny. Which is just weird to me because that's just how stories work. At some point, the story will start resolving the mysteries. And yet, then came Lightfall which brought completely new mysteries and some of the most fascinating ones I've ever experienced in the entire Destiny setting and people just kinda... Didn't care. I attribute a lot of this to people just not recognising that they're no longer into the story all that much. They no longer want to engage with a mystery, they just want to see the conclusion. They don't have the energy or the interest to pore through the texts anymore or engage with the fandom or, indeed, wait for information to be revealed, especially if this isn't the type of stuff they like.

For example, there's a lot of fans of the type of gothic horror mystery about the Hive and Lightfall simply does not fit that aesthetic. And mind you, Destiny is famous for genre switching all the time so this is something that should be expected. But Lightfall's futuristic high concept scifi story that's about virtual realities, mind uploading, human experimentation with nanotechnology, bizarre alien entities that play with the concepts of consciousness and the nature of reality, and so on is something that a lot of people have no interest in. And as much as I want to say "skill issue," it's a matter of taste. It's completely normal to me that there's people who aren't into this. However, a lot of those people just refused to engage and then proceeded to say that the story is objectively bad, "worst expansion ever" and so on. Absolutely insane to me. Like, genuinely baby behaviour in my mind. The "upset because we're not about me" type. Meanwhile I've seen a plethora of people who have quietly, almost ashamed, admitted that they like this stuff more than Witch Queen. No one should be ashamed or afraid to say that.

And most of all, there was disappointment that a "new mystery" was started "too late" when things were "supposed to be explained." And first of all, things ARE being explained. Again, this is a live service game. It's updating over the course of the year. We've received so many explanations and threads to follow and read about and engage with while we wait. That's the whole point; keep the content coming over time. Second, for people who claim that "Lightfall's campaign wasn't complete," yes it was. The Lightfall campaign was to save Neomuna and stop the Witness from destroying the Veil. We did both of those, except the Witness deceived us (as it is known to do) and it never wanted to destroy the Veil in the first place; it wanted us to get there with a Ghost. And it ends with us falling for that deception (out of necessity of course: our hands were kinda forced. Brilliant deception in that regard) and losing to the Witness as it hijacks our Ghost and opens the portal (but we do end up saving Neomuna and have the Veil at our disposal now to start researching it). This is known as a plot twist: a big "oh shit" moment in the climax of the story where we realise we've been duped and we've done exactly what the villain wanted all along.

Which leads me to the third point, perfectly summarised by your ask and by a single word: it's a cliffhanger. Lightfall is the penultimate expansion in a ten years long story. It's a cliffhanger before the end. It's supposed to keep us wondering what the fuck happened and how are we going to solve this until TFS drops. It's supposed to question our place in the universe, our understanding of it, the nature of everything we've learned so far, the extent to which we were right and wrong about the Light and Darkness, as we prepare for the finale of the saga. I genuinely don't know which answers people were expecting to be delivered in a 3 hour campaign that would immediately tell you everything you need to know and then you'd put the game down for a year OR you would keep playing and seasonal stories would just be meaningless side stories that don't progress the plot (yet ANOTHER complaint about seasons that's been going on for a very long time and an unsolvable problem: people want seasons to be meaningful stories that progress the plot but also not meaningful enough so that they can be freely skipped without missing important story bits. These are contradictory statements. Both cannot be true).

And of course, it's completely normal if this just didn't work for people. It's an important distinction to make here; "I understand what it tried to do, but it didn't work well for me" is a completely different statement from "this was a bad story and the worst expansion ever." I've never seen this distinction being made as pretty much everyone only ever spoke about it in the latter terms. How the state of the story is awful and "dangerous," how the writers "dropped the ball," how things are horrifically bad and nonsensical and so on. In worst cases, it was straight up "Bungie should fire these writers." There's also a lot of people who claim wholeheartedly that they've understood the story, but then can't tell you what the theme was or they start going on about how Nimbus was a bad character who "wasn't even sad for Rohan," which immediately tells me they haven't finished the story. So I'm afraid I don't believe those specific types when they say that they understood it, but didn't like it.

Most of all, this was a REALLY long-winded way to say that this ask basically says it as concisely as possible: Lightfall is a cliffhanger before the end. It's SO important to consume more than one media and learn some media literacy. This isn't even remotely a long wait as far as cliffhangers go in general. We need people to stop expecting the media to get churned out mindlessly in quick succession for instant gratification. Hell, some would absolutely classify Destiny as being churned out quickly. And meanwhile we have players here losing their minds and crying and throwing things because they have to wait 3 months for a new season. Absolutely bizarre to me. Try waiting for a book series to continue for longer than ten years.

#destiny 2 #lightfall #ask #long post #if you click read more

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shrekgogurt · 4 months

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This is a sappy creative talking about being creative post. You have been warned. I did not proofread because I am nothing if not consistent in my personality.

I just got done watching Season 2 episodes 3&4 of the FX’s The Bear and I’m constantly inspired by their storytelling. The two episodes I watched really leaned into the creative process in a way that made me very reflective. I am terrible in a kitchen. However, I really saw similar patterns in my own pursuits.

I have a dear friend who studied brains in university and when I was at my lowest a few months ago she was telling me about how life is just skills. Things like IQ are bullshit. Everybody can do anything if they put the time in. It’s about just choosing skills and developing them. I get mad that I can’t draw. I get mad that I can’t play guitar well. Those are skills I’ve never worked on because the process doesn’t bring me joy, even though they are skills I wished I had. Meanwhile things like science or sports are areas I’ve never had much interest in cultivating anyway so the lack of skill doesn’t bother me as much.

I think about my skillset now a lot more. I think about how learning piano—while I’m frustrated by my lack of expertise—doesn’t make me literally cry while I’m learning. I embrace the challenge unlike something like drawing where I get so upset with myself it’s not fun anymore. This past fall while my confidence was totally shot (for a lot of reasons) I looked at my ability to sit at a keyboard and just play the same riffs from Kate Bush’s Wuthering Heights over and over and over and over until I could do them. I learned I could do hard things. That maybe I’m not a total lazy piece of shit who gives up at the first sign of trouble.

And the beautiful thing is? That wasn’t always the case with piano. I’ve dabbled here and there throughout my life but when I first took piano lessons as a kid I HATED them. I didn’t enjoy putting in the work. But I do now because people change. And so maybe one day I will learn to draw but not right now. And that’s okay.

And then I start thinking about singing. There’s this sentiment that people are just naturally gifted, especially at singing. But at least for me that’s not the case. I’m good at singing because as a kid I loved it. I gravitated toward it. I sung all the time to the radio, mimicking the voices I heard. And I listened to SO MUCH music—partially because of my parents but also because I chose to always have the radio or a CD or my trusty mp3 player going. When I was playing with my dolls. When I was riding my bike. When I was in the shower. When I was at dance class. When I was dragged along to my siblings' sports games, I would build worlds while tuned into the nearest iHeartRadio station. (Airplanes feat. Hayley Williams. I loved it. I loved the storytelling. Pt. 1 but oh when the oh so rare Pt. 2 came through over the FM waves it was the best day of my life.)

Eventually, my parents put me into voice lessons. I learned how to sing rather than mimic. (Not that the latter is bad.) But I learned how to use it as an instrument. And I sang and I sang and I sang. In lessons. In choir. In church. That’s why I’m good at singing. It took me forever to learn how to harmonize. I was a soprano—it was always melody. But I’m learning that too as my voice changes. I can’t sing as high as I used to. I haven’t practiced notes off the staff since high school. Life is just skills. I was focusing on different ones. Like film (but we’ll get to that.)

There was something else always there. I don’t know how many people knew it—the extent. You had to live with me to see it…but I loved nothing more than I loved reading.

I always had my nose in a book. Like a lot of kids who consumed books non-stop it was definitely escapism. But I read and I read and I read. The classic question in my family was “where is Mary?” And the answer was always “in her room.” And if I wasn’t reading a story I was creating one. With my dolls yes, but eventually with my tiny little acer computer and with my thumbs in the notes app on my iPod Touch. (I still maintain that the notes app is where the best art happens.)

It was May in my eighth grade pre-Algebra class when my friend told me what FanFiction was and about how she had an account on good ole fanfiction.net. I made one too. I joined a Divergent roleplaying forum that lasted two months. I started writing a long-abandoned backstory for my character—Antoine, named at intermission of the high school production of West Side Story I was watching. It was bad. But I didn’t know it at the time. I thought I was doing something important and I guess I was.

The Divergent forum didn’t last long but a few months later I would create my own. Welcome to Camp Half Blood! Join in! Make an OC! I brought my friends over from the old forum and even as Admin my authority was immediately usurped. We built worlds. And then we rebuilt them. And then our worlds had baby worlds. Generation 1, Gen 1.5 (you suggest a teen pregnancy plot line as a joke one time while on a choir trip in Yorkshire ONE TIME and then you wake up and uh oh two characters are actually teen pregnant), Gen 2, on and on and on. There’s a whole Google Sheets document. It’s deeply comprehensive and filled with all our faceclaims and timelines and playlists.

We rarely wrote action in our roleplay. We mainly talked. Dialogue and dialogue and dialogue for years. I get compliments now on my dialogue in fics. It didn’t come from nowhere. It came from cringe-y exchanges with my friends as we fell in love with each other’s self inserts over and over and over again. I stayed up on school nights until 2am quietly wheezing only to fall asleep in Algebra 1 over my scribbled cursive poetry on the graph paper. Life is skills. I was choosing which ones to build.

It was never math.

It was stories.

In the singing. In the dance (competition team—burned me out. I was never the best athlete. I was always the most expressive. I was telling the story.) In the theatre. And in the little fan videos I would make with my friends for our OCs over on fanfiction.net.

So my dumbass went to film school. And like with singing I learned about stories. How to craft them. And I wrote bad scripts. And we made bad low budget films. And I was so scared of cameras but I learned how to use them. And I directed and I got good at that especially with documentaries. Looking at all the information and chasing down the story. Telling people who were faster editors than me where to cut. Telling people who could make the camera capture what I saw in my eye what to film. God I fucking loved it. And I miss it.

Because my dumbass went to seminary. Why? Because there were these ancient stories that were really important to me that were being used to harm others. And I wanted to learn them. And I wanted to be able to show that there was a different way than the one that spews hatred. And as Phoebe Bridgers sings I “went looking for a creation myth ended up with a pair of cracked lips.” And I’m figuring all that out still. What to do with these stories that mean so much to me. How to tell them. How to Robin Hood theology.

And as my life and my faith were falling apart. I looked at my tiny little shithole apartment. And how I used to hide in my room where I felt safe. And I made that apartment feel safe. It was my room now. And I walked out to my bookshelf and I saw a book I had bought and opened it up. And on the inside of the cover there was a map just like there was in all the best books from my childhood. So I stayed up until 3am reading it. And then the next night. And the next night. And then I bought the sequel and I read about a boy who thought he was going to be something and then he wasn’t that anymore. And he was lost and angry and self-destructive just like me. But then in the last part of the trilogy he decided at the last second to try to figure it all out. And I’m still trying to do that too.

I had been writing all along—non-fiction. Papers. Essays. (Metas—really.) And I learned how to approach a text. How to analyze it in one million different ways. And I think I took those skills I learned from the Bible and I stuck them on some YA trilogy. And I thought and I thought and I had something to say.

And I wrote. And I keep getting better. Because life is just skills.

So I was watching The Bear and Will Poulter as a baker talks about how he used to see some other baker as competition. Until he decided he wasn’t and instead he just tried to keep up. And I want to keep up. And I watch these television shows and I read your fics and I get so fucking inspired.

And I look at this stupid fucking soccer fic I love with my whole chest and I think about how life is just skills and they all have led me to be able to write it. And I know that in ten years when I’m 34 I’ll probably think it’s cringey just like I think that what I wrote when I was 14 is cringey. But GOD I’m so proud of it. And I think I always will be.

Because life is just skills and I’m really glad I chose these ones.

TL;DR I’ve never been the best “athlete” (had the best skills in a particular medium) but goddamn if I’m not a good fucking storyteller.

#personal #writing #kind of ikabikam

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chayscribbles · 1 year

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chayscribbles’ monthly writing update ☆ february 2023

☆ STATISTICS.

words written: 11 606

projects worked on: Andromeda Rogue; The Gemini Heist; and a Third, Secret WIP

proudest accomplishment: i'm about halfway through with AR1 draft 2! and i finished like, a bunch of drawings

books read: Architects of Memory by Karen Osborne; All Systems Red (Murderbot Diaries #1) by Martha Wells;

☆ GENERAL COMMENTS.

why do i feel like i wrote a lot less than i actually did. like i looked at my total and thought "now that can't be right... there's no way i wrote that much."

things are going better for some wips (AR) than they are for others (GH) so maybe my head is cancelling it out lol.

reading comments: Architects of Memory was basically "a corporate war over alien weapons featuring messy sapphics in space" and i liked it but it wasn't quite a coup de coeur, 4/5 stars. All Systems Red was an absolute delight, 5/5 stars, will be reading the rest of the series once my holds on Libby come through.

(also i started reading Hell Bent by Leigh Bardugo this past weekend, and i blame it + it's precursor Ninth House for putting me in the mood to work on Third Secret WIP lately, as Ninth House is partially responsible for the genre shift in Third Secret WIP.)

more specific wip-related comments + featured excerpt below.

☆ COMMENTS: ANDROMEDA ROGUE (draft 2)

i'm about halfway through this draft! i've passed 40k this month!

things are going super well. when i have the magical combo of time and energy and motivation to write i can get through scenes pretty easily, now that i don't have to worry about overall plot as much. plus i get to add little things here and there to beef it up.

i've mostly worked on the second act this month, which is where the team really starts going through things together.

there's one particular Azami chapter right before the midpoint that's a monster of lore-dropping. i had to rework it several times as i had an entire page of editing notes to make sure everything is coherent... and i'm still not entirely sure i've gotten it right 😭

☆ COMMENTS: THE GEMINI HEIST (outlining / draft 0.5)

not much to say about this one. didn't work on it as much. the plot for this wip continues to frustrate me. i'll find myself coming up with little ideas for the characters and the world... but when i try to sit down and come up with actual scenes and plot, my brain turns to soup.

☆ COMMENTS: THIRD, SECRET WIP

this wip is consuming me. devouring me with its teeth. i'm surprised to find i may actually have a plot. turns out letting it hibernate for 3 years and tweaking with the genre has done some good.

i might cave and post an intro in the next month. stay tuned...

☆ FEATURED EXCERPT.

this is from the like, one scene i wrote for gemini heist this month. i just think it's funny. for context, Leo and Gabi are trying to get access to some archives in a university library, and are posing as students.

As [Leo and the archivist] talked, Gabi slipped her hand into the pocket of her ridiculous jacket. Her fingers closed around a small round device. She glanced around. While Leo was doing a great job at keeping the archivist distracted, the commotion had caught the attention of nearly everyone in the room.

Just be normal, she told herself. She inched her hand out of her pocket.

“Which archives exactly do you need access to?” [the archivist] asked.

“Art of the early Viheldan Empiric era,” Leo said. “My paper is on the Gemini statuettes.”

“Ah, that might be why. You need a special authorization form from a professor or another faculty member to access those.”

Leo pouted. “But my professor said he got access for me!”

“Perhaps you can message him—”

“Ugh— can’t you just call him right now and ask? I don’t have time for this.”

“Alright. I’ll give him a call.”

Shit. Gabi wasn’t ready. She fumbled to take out the device, concealing it as best as she could in the palm of her hand. All she needed was to place it on the archivist’s computer terminal without him seeing a thing before he made that call.

The archivist’s fingers hovered over the screen for a second before pressing an icon at the bottom. With a starburst motion of his hand, he expanded a search window and began typing in the name of the professor. Panicking, Gabi slammed the device in her hand onto the side of the terminal.

The already quiet room went completely silent. All eyes turned towards her. The archivist’s were wide and stunned. Leo’s were sharp and furious.

“I, uh,” Gabi sputtered, awkwardly keeping her hand glued to the terminal. The device whirred to life, vibrating softly under her palm. “I-I thought I saw a bug.”

☆ TAGLISTS. let me know if you want to be added/removed to any of them.

general taglist:

@nicola-writes @dgwriteblr @the-orangeauthor @retrogayyde @quilloftheclouds @ashen-crest @writeblrfantasy @celestepens @stardustspiral @pepperdee @extra-magichours @avi-why @lefttigerobservation @chazzawrites @bardolatrycore @innocentlymacabre

andromeda trilogy taglist:

@bebewrites @nicola-writes @dgwriteblr @the-orangeauthor @retrogayyde @akindofmagictoo @quilloftheclouds @nora-theteawriter @ashen-crest @corpsepng @writeblrfantasy @toboldlywrite @celestepens @stardustspiral @pepperdee @cheerfulmelancholies @extra-magichours @writeouswriter @cilly-the-writer @lefttigerobservation @rose-bookblood @drowsy-quill @chazzawrites @cynic-and-chief @enchanted-lightning-aes @aesa

gemini heist taglist:

@florraisons @akindofmagictoo @cream-and-tea @nicola-writes @memento-morri-writes @antique-symbolism @rose-bookblood @afoolandathief @pepperdee @avi-why @zonnemaagd @chazzawrites @analogued @enchanted-lightning-aes @innocentlymacabre @kahvilahuhut @celestepens @cilly-the-writer @extra-magichours @retrogayyde

#chayscribbles writing update #wip andromeda trilogy #wip andromeda rogue #wip gemini heist #and a third secret wip

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dirt-piper · 10 months

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Where’s the next NSSS update?

The last patch to NSSS came out 3 months ago, and the last major update - 1.1.11 - nearly 2 years ago. Where the hell is 1.1.12? Or the new launcher? Or the website, the wiki, the forums, and trailers???

Let’s tackle these one-by-one:

1.1.12

This is the single most ambitious update NSSS has ever had, which is saying a lot since 1.1.11 was also a ‘most ambitious update NSSS has ever had’. But it’s true! The two main features of this update - weather and seasons - have both required a ton a work in both design and implementation to make a reality. Seasons are now pretty much done, but weather is proving to still be an irritant. A large portion of that is due to how I’ve decided to implement it - based directly off of an ancient post to r/Minecraft by AbouBenAdhem suggesting a dynamic cloud system as opposed to Minecraft’s static bitmap. Notch thought the idea was wicked cool - and I do as well - but ended up passing it by.

When he did finally implement weather in Beta 1.5, it was a somewhat rudimentary system where the entire world would experience the same weather at the same time - if it was precipitating in one place, it was precipitating everywhere. The weather itself is also fairly boring - rain doesn’t sound particularly interesting (the sound effect is essentially just white noise), and the most gameplay-effecting phenomenon is thunderstorms, which (just barely) make the surface dark enough for hostile mobs to spawn during the day and can spawn lightning bolts, which can start fires. The challenge of thunderstorms is, of course, made totally moot by the fact that the player can skip them using a bed.

I don’t like the weather system we ended up with, and to my knowledge that’s a fairly common perspective. “Better weather” mods have existed for Minecraft since weather itself, but the design angle I have always thought had the most potential gameplay value was to couple it to a dynamic cloud system much like the one AbouBenAdheim had suggested back in 2010 - where the weather could be just as interesting as the infinite, procedural world itself.

A good portion of the delay in finishing this new weather system is the amount of times I have gone back to the drawing board. An attempt might end up being too slow, or too janky, or not interesting enough, or just flat-out doesn’t work. It’s been a major effort trying to get a system like this to fit neatly into Minecraft’s existing codebase and structure - a fair amount of shimming and shaving has been needed, though thankfully with each failed attempt some more useful shims have been added to make the next attempt a bit smoother. I believe I’m currently on implementation number 5.

But the biggest portion of the delay has been life. I can’t really afford to work on NSSS full-time (though I wish I could!) - the money I’m making off of patreon, while deeply appreciated, isn’t quite enough for me to be able to justify pouring all my time into this. And even if I could, I’ve been consistently interrupted by various health emergencies - in the past year alone I’ve had to deal with bone bruises on both my feet, COVID, Appendicitis, and C. Diff. Aside from the health emergencies, I have other obligations - I work as a museum docent/restorer, a martial arts instructor, and I have tons of other projects that command various quantities of my time. Life is also responsible to a large degree for all of the other following delays:

New Launcher

The last update to the official NSSS launcher came out so long ago that I don’t even care enough to check - 3 years ago? Maybe even 4 by now? It was so long now that the Microsoft account migration was announced, began, and ended during the timespan since the last update. With the end of Mojang accounts, it is no longer even possible to log in with the old launcher. As such, I’ve been hacking away at adding support for Microsoft accounts to the new launcher using Oauth, which has been nothing short of a nightmare.

The actual documentation on interfacing with this API is fairly comprehensive, but the problem lays in the encryption side of things. Pretty much half the point of the NSSS launcher is to be able to run the game on legacy operating systems - operating systems that are so old that no other launcher available today will run on them, despite Minecraft itself having been available on them back in the day. A large part of this is down to Java’s security support - the oldest version of Java that any version of Minecraft (every version up to release 1.8 or so, really) will run on is Java 5, which will run on Windows 9x, OS X 10.4, Solaris, etc. - but Java 5 lacks support for TLSv1.3 encryption, which is what Microsoft’s API absolutely totally 100% requires you to use if you want to interact with it. The oldest version of Java that natively supports TLSv1.3 is Java 8, which, while it still has fairly wide OS support, does not have the same legacy outreach as does Java 5.

So why not cram TLSv1.3 into Java 5?

Well, you can! Tons of companies are still maintaining massive, mission-critical codebases that they can’t easily update to modern versions of Java, so the need emerged for a third-party, pure Java library to handle more modern encryption methods - and thus one was made, called Bouncy Castle. Bouncy Castle does everything I need - the problem is I have no clue how to use it.

This is apparently a common problem - most of my google searches for “how do I do [X] with Bouncy Castle” turn up with results saying “you can, but there’s no documentation on how”. What I’m trying to do is so simple it baffles me how hard it is to get working - from what I have found this fix ought to be literally two lines of code to add the Bouncy Castle security provider to the list Java uses when making https connections, but so far nothing has been anywhere near that easy. I had briefly broken down and started using a proxy endpoint that Vulpovile wrote in PHP to strip all the encryption out of the GET and POST requests I was making, and I did manage to get logging in to work flawlessly with that system, but I scrapped it because it just felt too sketchy. The launcher will be released the instant I can figure this out - and if you do comprehend Bouncy Castle, then dear god please tell me what the hell to do.

The Website

This is mostly done, to be honest. I just need to get around to upgrading my hosting plan so I can set up Apache Tomcat. Once it’s up, you’ll see it here. Be wary that playing the game in-browser will take a while to be ready - applets are not my forte.

The Wiki

This is getting there! I recruited some folks to help get the wiki set up based on archives of Minepedia as it was in September and October of 2010, with NSSS-specific features and fact-checking sprinkled throughout. Most of the block articles are done, and you can check out our progress here.

The Forums

These are a bit of a mess, at the moment. I’ve been wanting to set up a proper dedicated forum for NSSS for a while now - the discord server is not adequate as a centralized place for discussion, and discord honestly kinda sucks at things like distributing mods and world downloads and discussing basically anything more than one topic at a time. The forum will be phpBB, just like the original Minecraft one, though I am having difficulty in getting a theme set up that looks (and works) right. Once the forums are done then the discord server will still remain, albeit with far fewer channels - everything that is currently a ‘discord forum’ will get archived.

Now you’re all caught up! Stay tuned for some more ramblings here about game design and junk.

-DirtPiper

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clevercatchphrase · 2 years

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Ghost Switch’s 4th Birthday~

Ahh... Another year down and we’re about 2/3rds done with the Snowdin arc! GOD I hope I finish within the next year, preferably before the end of 2022, but I can’t accurately guesstimate that far ahead.

I don’t really have a full color comic like I did that last two years, but I DO want to take a minute to appreciate my art improvement this last year, ESPECIALLY with Asgore. Geez, I remember having THE HARDEST time drawing his face 3 years ago in 2019 when he showed up in the first memory, but now??

LOOK👏AT👏THAT👏GLOW UP!

Still no mustache but at this point there ain’t gonna be any on him in the comic. God, he looks so much more huggable now (and younger too!). And comparing the older pages side-by-side the newest ones, I just cannot fathom that I ever made my lineart so thin. Trying to do that now would be impossible for me. I like my lines THICK, if you know what I’m saying (what I am saying is that I just cannot set my brush size to anything less than 14 these days, and that’s only on the SMALL drawings. Big ones are a minimum of 20)

Looking over my art from the past year, have I learned anything new???

No. No, I don’t think so. Comic making is still fun, and I’ve gotten into a good rhythm of it~ Making 11 pages in the span of 3ish weeks was quite the challenge, though. It always feels so nice to have a big buffer, and not have to worry about falling behind on pages. It was rewarding and irritating that the third memory, which normally would have taken 2 MONTHS to tell got finished in 3 weeks. God, I wish I could keep up that pace for the rest of the snowdin arc, but that pace is just unsustainable for me in the long run.

SPEAKING OF THE THIRD MEMORY, I have a funny story to tell. For those unaware, I started scripting Ghost Switch in the middle of 2017 (exactly 1 year before the first page was posted, to be exact) and while I knew all the major story beats well before I started, some of the finer details, like minor characters, were still undecided even after I started making pages. One of those was to be Chara and Asriel’s private tutor.

I was already kinda spit balling ideas on a partner for Gerson, since Gerson himself is recognizable in Undertale and thus the fandom. Though honestly, I didn’t really want to make up OCs to be paired with canon characters. (no shade to those who do, I just don’t feel like I could ever create a OC who has the same... “status”? or “importance”? as a canon character does when it comes to acceptance by the fandom at large, and nor do I even want to try)

A year in, and I still haden’t solved the “Partner for Gerson” problem, so imagine my delight when deltarune came out

and I saw this beautiful man

It was pure serendipity.

Or so I thought.

And so, after learning about this new character named Alvin, I finalized my script and ignorantly went about my life, chewing away at this comic for the next 3 years.

Ignorance really is bliss, but last year, while I was listening along to the 6th Undertale anniversary Deltarune Chapter 1 live stream in which the Dog himself was apart in, Toby dropped this bombshell on me that I had never deduced;

I was a little upset by this.

Okay, maybe more than a little. I was absolutely furious at what this meant for me. And yes, I did see the drawing in the unused classroom that had alvin’s name on it. But honest to god, hand on heart, I thought it was a picture OF Alvin, and that the artist had titled it as such. It totally didn’t click to me that it was a drawing BY Alvin of his DAD. (And can you really blame me?? There weren’t too many identifiable features on that tiny square of pixels!)

But, hey, this is just Toby talking off the record. As long as the game itself didn’t confirm it, I was good, right? They could still be 2 unrelated gay turtle monsters in my comic, right?

Well, when I first played chapter 2, I didn’t really care much about what was happening in the dark world, but once I was back in the overworld, you know I bee-lined it to the church, hoping to find NOTHING honestly. But no. You talk to Alvin in the graveyard and he flat out confirms he’s Gerson’s son. There was canon evidence that they were related. I was devastated.

At a loss of what to do. My script was finalized for this memory, my dialogue typed, my dominoes set up. What was I to do? Should I alter some text? Or just keep it as is? Sure, what I have written down could be read as either platonically or romantically, but I don’t want people to think I’m implying things I’m not!

I JUST WANTED THE TURTLES TO BE GAY, NOT INCESTUOUS, DAMMIT!

In the end, I decided not to change very much. There was never any direct mention of what kind of relationship Gerson and Alvin had in my comic, and for all I care, they are not related in this story. I guess the joke’s on me for trying to take a “minor NPC” from an unfinished game and using him for my own ends. My, my, how god doth laugh at the sight of my suffering.

Thanks for reading my comic and continuing to stick around, guys. It really means a lot to me.

#long post #ghost switch #year 4 #fun fact;#the fact that alvin is gerson's son is the sole reason I dislike chapter 2 and why I'm lukewarm on deltarune overall

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dabislittlemouse · 11 months

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hiii ^^ I just wanted to ask you something but no need to answer this ask if you don’t feel comfy to! I remember that you mentioned being bipolar (please correct me if I’m wrong or ignore the ask if so) and I just wanted to know what do you usually do when you feel the mood swings? lately i’ve been having intense mood swings and i don’t know what to do to prevent them, i really hate it :< bipolar depression sucks

Hii, even though I don’t prefer to talk much over my mental health online I think it won’t hurt to answer this, yes I do have bipolar 2 disorder, I’m not sure which type of bipolar you have, so idk how much of a help I’ll be to you :(

Lately I’ve been stable mentally (after such a long time wow) and the things I’ve done mostly are reading books, watching movies, drawing, cleaning, walking, watching motivational videos sometimes, everything that has to do with being away from social media. And even when I feel myself sinking back into that depressive state, I am somehow able to distract myself with stuff until I start feeling better once again. Whenever i feel overwhelmed i start talking to myself or a friend, or I just take a break from everything. So far it has worked for me lately and I’m glad it did, because these past 3 months have been total hell for me. I’ve been able to study and go to work normally for once in a while without feeling mentally drained, and I didn’t skip school either sooo yeah that’s an achievement for me lmfao.

I totally feel you, mood swings suck 🤧i hope I was able to somehow help you, still I suggest you talk to a therapist, in my case meds weren’t needed for example so I have been able to handle it all by myself

#B’s inbox🦋

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alvallah · 9 months

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I think I need to take someone else’s perspective about something that happened with my bf and I if that’s ok. I’ve been with him for a little over six months and we’ve been living together for a few months. Things have been going great barring a few resolved issues here and there. But recently he’s been getting phone calls from a girl he used to hook up with in the past. None of which he’s answered and it’s obvious that she’s looking to hook up. He says he’s told her he has a girlfriend but she still called again today. I was really upset so I asked him to call her back and on the phone she was extremely flirty so I spoke to her and told her that we’re dating and asked her not to call anymore. She was a little pissed and he seemed uncomfortable. I ask if he was upset with me for doing that to which he said no but I get the feeling that he is. Am I wrong for doing what I did? What would you have done?

Totally respect looking for another perspective. I would definitely feel uncomfortable and upset too if I were in your position. I dislike when people don’t respect boundaries, so I totally don’t blame you for getting impatient and trying to tell this girl off lol. But personally I would’ve let it be Boyfriend’s problem, for a couple reasons.

1. Other Girl isn’t going to respect what you have to say, firstly because she doesn’t know you, and secondly because if Boyfriend already told her about you and she’s still calling she obviously doesn’t care. So you’re more a nuisance to her than anything else.

2. This is Boyfriend’s loose-end to tie. It was a previous companionship of his, not yours. Not your mess to clean, it’s on him.

3. This is Boyfriend’s opportunity to prove his commitment to you, and your opportunity to place your trust in him. In healthy relationships you have to take a leap of faith on your partner and hope that in the end he does the right thing instead of feeling like you have to take the reins, and he has to learn how to set firm and clear boundaries out of respect for the relationship. I would like to see my partner’s reaction and think about how it reflects on his character.

I think my overall suggestion for this situation is your honey might have to block her completely if she’s going to continue being disrespectful of boundaries (and the two of you). I wouldn’t demand this of him, but rather express that you feel uncomfortable that despite him drawing boundaries she has not stopped and you’d probably feel better if she were just blocked. Ultimately the decision should still be left up to him of course. Which I understand it might be hard to trust that he will do the right thing because you guys are still kinda new, but moments like these show what kind of partner you have. Do you have an assertive one who will draw boundaries, and a caring one who will consider your feelings? Or do you have a partner who is afraid of conflict, or does not prioritize your feelings when things get serious? Or worse, a disloyal one? Do not jump the gun of course, but it’s good to learn your partner’s reaction to different kinds of tension, especially early on, y’know what I mean? Let this be a problem for him to solve and for you both to learn from and talk over.

If she’s already gone for good I would still talk about your feelings about the situation and maybe apologize for stepping in instead of trusting him to do it himself. It’s still good to reflect, take responsibility, and also share how it made you feel so issues moving forward can be resolved with a little less stress for both of you.

I hope you two can solve this problem together and enjoy a long and healthy companionship! Best of luck to you both ❤️

#I hope this was helpful #asks

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rascal-shark · 10 months

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not to be egotistical but-

there’s only two writing/art double majors at my whole 30k+ person university including me. i’ve been against (read: we are tentative friends but i’m competitive as fuck so i secretly see them as a rival, it ain’t healthy but live for the fight when it’s all you’ve got etc etc).this other person, and they post every single thing they draw to 10 servers with the same copy paste message attatched - they’re not otherwise active on these servers. it’s clearly for attention, just based on our irl interactions and their chats on our mental health club’s server vent chat (we both have PTSD/depression/ADHD/anxiety, whatever.) and they get like 4-8 reacts per server, so like a hundred interactions overall.

i will never say this to their face, but they have one semester left (super senior) and their art looks like it’s done by a total novice. they say they want to be an animator and focus on humans, they have two animations and it’s just 1. laggy eyes blinking with NO squash and stretch and 2. 3-frame hand drawing - little movement. they don’t know anatomy at all and they just draw themselves in one of three poses. (also no tea but they draw their hair as a level 7 light brown when they’re like. a level 2.)

meanwhile, i’m learning the basics of human anatomy. i’ve spent around 30 hours on the pelvis bone alone in the last month (along with more time on the spine and ribcage from all angles)and i’m working from the skeleton to the muscles to the clothes. i want to be a master. i don’t care about attention, i know i’ll suck as i learn, i don’t want to be focused on a performance instead of diligent studying that will benefit me long-term. i’m playing the long game.

but MAN is it hard to see them soak up the praise once a week on our 5 mutual servers from a sketch with awful awful stiff-procreate-ipad-on-their-lap lineart quality that they tote around like a boytoy in hot girl summer to everyone they can find. my stuff isn’t as impressive; a page of ovaloid cylinders (pevlic bone shape), a page of literal eggs with cross contours (ribcage), a page of long cylinders (spine). it has the mechanical qualities of someone with chronic wrist tendintis (why try to hide my wobbles if it’s just for my own understanding?) it’s repetition, it’s ravenous; even motel art is leagues better.

i impress no one. i would lose artfight. i am lost in my own pages. i am jokes told to no one, “so this is the bone that’s causing me chronic pain,” a captain holt “BONE?” thrown into a speechless night. but it hurts to see them winning. i’ll keep my head down and keep going, i guess.

#rant #ramble #art #anatomy #please while you're here any advice on learning the bucket method of the pelvis is helpful #i modeled proko's bucket in maya and drew it for two hours and im still no closer

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freyayuki · 1 year

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Final Fantasy Record Keeper Final Fantasy Type-0 Cardia Dungeon Fights

I don’t have a lot of relics from the Final Fantasy Type-0 realm in the Final Fantasy Record Keeper (FFRK) mobile game.

I remember getting Nine’s (from Final Fantasy Type-0) Ultra Soul Break (USB) and Cater’s (from Final Fantasy Type-0) Arcane Overstrike Soul Break (AOSB) from somewhere but I never used them.

For the other chars, either I have nothing for them or I only have like their Glint or Legend Materia Relic (LMR), making them basically useless.

I do have Ace’s (from Final Fantasy Type-0) Awakened Arcane Soul Break (AASB), which I remember getting from the Final Fantasy Record Keeper Lucky Relic Draw Phase 3 banner wherein you’re guaranteed to get at least 1 AASB for only 25 mythril.

That draw gave me exactly 1 gold and it turned out to be Ace’s AASB. Back then, I had nothing else for Ace, so I was pretty disappointed with this pull, especially since only 1 AASB showed up when I was hoping for at least 2 or more.

So I never bothered to use Ace. It didn’t help that I didn’t really have anything to support magic users.

From the Final Fantasy Record Keeper Summer Sun Festival Banner 3, I obtained the Synchro Arcane Soul Break (SASB) and Glint+ Soul Break (G+) of Rem Tokimiya from Final Fantasy Type-0 (#ad). These were my first 2 relics for her.

Syncs are currently the best kind of Soul Break in the game so this made her usable enough. Rem’s Sync is actually one of the really good ones.

She was really hyped and said to be very good as a DPS, especially when her Sync’s paired with her Awakening and her Hero Ability (HA).

I leveled Rem up and even made the 6-star ability Holyja for her and used her for a bit, but I wasn’t that impressed with her.

To be fair, I only had the 2 aforementioned relics for her and I didn’t bother to complete her Record Board or get her Hero Ability, Siphon Sphere.

It’s just that I was kinda mad at Rem. Well, I was more mad at the game, really. I talk more about this in this post, but I ended up spending hundreds of mythril on the Final Fantasy Record Keeper Summer Sun Festival Banner 3 in an effort to get the Sync of Sephiroth from Final Fantasy VII.

I wanted Sephi’s Sync to help me with the Final Fantasy VII D450 Torment Dungeon. Guess how many of his Syncs I got.

A grand total of 0. On the other hand, Rem’s Sync dropped twice, increasing its rank from 1 to 3 of 5. Was really freaking annoyed and frustrated about this.

Anyway, so months passed. Soon, Final Fantasy Record Keeper’s 6th Anniversary happened.

As part of the festivities, players get a free present relic (1 AASB, 1 AOSB, and 1 LMR) set from a selected list of chars.

One of the available chars was Rem. I decided to pick her set, thinking I have her so I might as well make use of her instead of having her rot in my inventory.

Final Fantasy Type-0 D450 Torment Dungeon Fight

Anyway, FFRK also currently has an ongoing event with time limited rewards. One of the things you’re supposed to do is master 1 Dreambreaker Dungeon.

Dreambreakers are even harder than Torment fights. They’re quest level 580. After hearing that Rem can basically solo the Final Fantasy Type-0 Dreambreaker Dungeon fight, I thought okay, let’s give this a try.

But before I could do that, I had to get past the Final Fantasy Type-0 D450 Torment fight first. Yeah, apparently I’ve never done any of the Type-0 Cardia Dungeon fights before. Whoops.

So I decided to complete Rem’s Record Board. Also bought her Hero Ability and leveled it to the max.

I leveled Cater and unlocked her 3, 4, and 5-star Spheres. I only have her AOSB but it doesn’t matter because she was only here to use the Wrath and Entrust Support abilities.

Wrath increases her Soul Break gauge by a lot while Entrust gives her bars to other chars. So she was here to Entrust to Rem and Deuce from Final Fantasy Type-0.

Speaking of Deuce, she was my healer. I didn’t have anything for her so I had to buy one of her Ultras from the The Record Lab. I also created the Allegro con Moto and Goddess’s Paean abilities. These buff the magic and mind stats.

Ace acted as my secondary DPS. I was reluctant to create a 6-star ability for him since up to now, I still only have his AASB.

Thankfully, I apparently already have the 6-star Meltdown ability. It was even at max rank. Haven’t used this in what feels like forever.

I think I made this for Ultimecia from Final Fantasy VIII when I got her Sync but I ended up only using her for a bit, which was unsurprising since that was the only relic I had for her and, unlike Rem, she wasn’t that good with just her Sync.

My off-realm char was Cait Sith from Final Fantasy VII since he’s one of the premier supports for magic (like Ace) and mind (like Rem and Deuce) users.

I leveled the Final Fantasy Type-0 Historia Crystal to 80 of 99. This is the second Historia Crystal that I’ve leveled. The first was the one from Final Fantasy VII and I even got that to its max level of 120.

Then I tried the Type-0 Torment fight and actually managed to win on the first try. Had Cater equipped with Mako Might so she could Entrust 2 bars to Rem right away.

I don’t have Deuce’s Glint+ Soul Break. This instantly grants Protect, Shell, and Haste to everyone, so I had Rem equipped with the Hastega ability. That was her first move while Deuce sang the Allegro con Moto and Cait danced the Pasionate Salsa.

Ace activated the realm Chain then I had him spam Valigarmanda until he could use his AASB. After casting his AASB, I spammed Meltdown.

Deuce spammed Allegro con Moto, casting her Ultra every time she had enough bars to do so. Her other ability was Curada but I hardly used it since her healing combined with Cait’s was more than enough for this fight.

I had Rem get up to 4 bars before casting her Glint+ followed by her Sync then her AASB. After that, I just spammed her HA. Or, well, that was the plan. I did do that at first.

Then I was like, wait, her Sync abilities were up too. Let’s use the first one then her HA should automatically be cast as well.

Except I forgot about the broken link due to the fact that I activated the Sync and AASB one right after the other.

Rem’s Sync commands were powerful enough but her HA hits way harder. So, yeah, I ended up wasting a few turns of just using her Sync Command 1 with no HA chase before realizing my mistake. Thankfully, it didn’t matter too much since I still won anyway.

The buffs from Cait Sith’s Awakening were really freaking good. I had him cast his AASB as soon as he could.

Of course, I timed it to when Rem was casting her Soul Breaks. I had him keep on using Passionate Salsa although he was also equipped with Goddess’s Paean.

Surprisingly, Ace actually helped a bit. He managed to break the damage cap once his Awakening and Cait’s buffs were up. He spammed Meltdown until the end.

Super pleased that I was able to win with this team. My clear time was 22.89 seconds. Rem was really freaking good. She’s super special awesome.

Now I’m so glad that I have her Sync and her Awakening. And I don’t regret making her HA or completing her Record Board. I think she can help me with other hard content too and not just the ones that are weak to the holy element.

Final Fantasy Type-0 Dreambreaker Dungeon Fight Take 1

It’s finally time to try the Final Fantasy Type-0 Dreambreaker Dungeon fight. I made use of the same strategy as before. But this time, I just stuck to spamming Rem’s HA, ignoring her Sync commands.

At first, things seemed to be going pretty well. Then Ace stopped being able to break the damage cap even though the effects of his AASB was still up. This was thanks to the boss debuffing my party.

When the effects of Ace’s AASB ran out, he was basically just standing there, being useless. I spammed his moves, but they didn’t make much of a difference since he was now hitting like a wet noodle.

Cait Sith helped a lot. Even got to cast his Ultra for more healing. But then he died when the boss was down to 9.4% HP. Eff!

I kept going since Rem’s Sync + AASB + HA combo was still up. And I still had Deuce to keep everyone else alive with her healing.

The boss’s HP kept going down until he only had 1.7% left. Unfortunately, that was when things took a turn for the worse.

The boss kept on increasing his rage level and he started dealing a lot of damage, so much so that Deuce couldn’t keep up with the healing anymore, not even with Curada since Cait Sith was dead and couldn’t help anymore. Then Deuce and Ace died too. Argh!

As if that wasn’t bad enough, I ran out of the effects of Rem’s Sync and AASB so she stopped dealing lots of damage.

I managed to cast Rem’s and Cater’s Arcane Overstrikes, but they didn’t deal that much damage anymore, likely because Cait’s buffs had run out as well. Then Cater died too, leaving Rem on her own.

This wouldn’t have been so bad if she could have done something. Maybe if the effects of her Sync and AASB were still up, I could have won. But the effects of those 2 Soul Breaks were long over by now.

I just used Rem’s AOSB. I’ve used up all of her Soul Breaks. She may have a lot of gauges, but now I had nothing to use them on.

The only thing I could do was spam Siphon Sphere, but it barely dented the boss’s HP. So it was just a matter of time before Rem died too. By then, the boss was at 1.5% HP. Argh! So freaking close!

Preparation for the Final Fantasy Type-0 Dreambreaker Dungeon Fight

Almost won the Final Fantasy Type-0 Dreambreaker Dungeon quest so it was really rather frustrating to have lost when the boss was already nearly dead.

But at least that showed me that this was possible, that Rem could basically solo this. I just need to do better on my next try.

But before that, I had more preparations to do. I leveled up Allegro con Moto some more. Couldn’t max it though since I lack the materials to do so.

And that was because I ended up buying and making the 6-star ability De’Diaja. This imperils the holy element so Rem can hit even harder. Ended up maxing De’Diaja and Goddess’s Paean.

I bought one of Rem’s Legend Materia Relics from the The Record Lab. This is the one that has the chance to deal an attack against the enemy if certain conditions are fulfilled.

I equipped Deuce with Allegro con Moto and De’Diaja while Cait Sith had Passionate Salsa and Goddess’s Paean. I resolved to have the 2 of them alternate between casting the aforementioned abilities.

Getting so far in the Final Fantasy Type-0 Dreambreaker Dungeon quest gave me a Dragonking’s Armlet (Type-0) armor. I max leveled this armor and equipped it to Rem.

I bought another Type-0 realm Artifact which I max leveled and gave to Cait Sith. I moved and changed everyone’s equipment.

I also decided to level the Type-0 Historia Crystal to 90. I’m running out of the items needed to level these Crystals, which is why I can’t max this one.

Final Fantasy Type-0 Luck of the Realms Relic Draw Banner

I found myself eying the Final Fantasy Type-0 Luck of the Realms Relic Draw banner. Pulling on this banner will cost you 5 mythril. You only get 3 items but one of them is guaranteed to be of 5-star rarity or higher.

I was thinking about trying my luck on this banner although I didn’t think I’d be able to get anything good. I kept debating with myself on whether to go for it or not.

I was like, it’s just gonna be an LMR. Watch you get an LMR or a dupe or something equally useless like a relic for a char that’s not even part of your team.

Ended up doing the draw anyway. I was like, at least it’s only 5 mythril. And if I’m gonna get an LMR anyway, hopefully it belongs to Rem or Ace or Deuce and that it’d be something they can make use of.

So I pulled on the Final Fantasy Type-0 Luck of the Realms banner and, to my surprise and relief, one disco orb showed up. Nice!

Was hoping for Dr. Mog to show up to turn the 6-star item into a 7-star one but he was a no-show.

Thankfully, I still got something good anyway. Ended up with this instrument. My first thought was that this has to belong to Deuce.

It could have been one of her Ultras. I could only hope that it wasn’t the one that I already bought via the The Record Lab.

Thankfully, it wasn’t any of Deuce’s Ultras. Instead what I got was her Awakened Arcane Soul Break, Communal Harmony.

Hell, yes! Now that’s what I call useful. This thing heals and can resurrect dead allies so, yeah, it’s good. Super pleased to get this.

Heck, I might actually consider using Deuce as my healer for other content though I’d need to Lens her Glint+ if I do that. It looks like I can Lens all of her relics except for her Sync and one of her LMR.

Final Fantasy Type-0 Dreambreaker Dungeon Take 2

Unfortunately, I still couldn’t get the win when I tried this fight again. Rem runs out of steam near the end. She runs out of the effects of her AASB and Sync so her Siphon Sphere stops breaking the damage cap.

Her AOSB doesn’t deal that much damage since it seems like the rest of my buffs have also run out by then.

I only have 1 use of each of her equipped Soul Breaks so after casting all of them, Rem’s left with nothing to do but spam her HA which no longer deals that much damage.

Ace does well enough once I cast his AASB. He can deal around 10k or so damage or thereabouts but he��s useless once Nimbus, the Dreambreaker boss, uses his Full Break move which debuffs the entire party.

Rem isn’t affected by this because she makes use of the Mind stat but Ace is affected because he’s using the Magic stat.

So once Full Break hits, Ace can no longer break the damage cap even while being under the effects of his AASB. He’s basically just standing there, useless, once that happens.

Initially, my chars can survive Nimbus’s attacks well enough. The healing from Deuce’s Ultra and Cait’s Awakening and Ultra were more than enough in the beginning.

But towards the end, Nimbus starts dealing a lot of damage, especially since he keeps on increasing his rage level and I no longer have a way to constantly decrease it.

I tried to have Cait alternate between Passionate Salsa and Goddess’s Paean while Deuce alternated between Allegro con Moto and De’Diaja but I don’t know if I managed to do this well enough.

Sometimes I’d end up casting the same move twice since I’m trying to rush and I end up tapping the wrong skill.

Final Fantasy Type-0 Dreambreaker Dungeon Fight Take 3

This time, I went to the The Record Lab and bought Rem’s Ultra Soul Break and Overstrike Soul Break (OSB) so she has something to cast when the effects of her one-use only Soul Breaks run out.

Dropped Ace for Trey from Final Fantasy Type-0. Only have his AOSB, not that it matters since he has the same role as Cater in this team.

Made another copy of Entrust and leveled that up. Already had a second copy of Wrath so I just maxed that out and I equipped both to Trey.

Gave Cater and Trey the Record Materia that lets them start the battle with 2 gauges then had them Entrust those to Rem. Afterwards, they focused on Entrusting to Deuce and Cait Sith.

Got Rem to 6 bars before casting her Glint+, Ultra, Sync, and Awakening. Then I spammed her HA.

Activated Cait Sith’s AASB at around the time that Rem was casting her Sync and AASB. Then had him and Deuce alternate between their equipped abilities, casting their Ultras, especially Deuce so she can heal the party, once they could.

Still ended up running out of steam near the end anyway although at least now Rem could spam her OSB and Ultra.

I mostly had her use her OSB since it only costs 1 bar and it can break the damage cap, which I definitely needed since Nimbus keeps on increasing his rage level.

At one point, everyone ended up dead except for Deuce and Rem. Activated Deuce’s Awakening which revived everyone although it wasn’t long before my chars were once again no longer at full health thanks to Nimbus spamming such hard-hitting attacks.

Trey ended up paralyzed so I couldn’t even use his AOSB. Cater got to use hers but it didn’t deal that much damage.

Tried to keep going for as long as I could but, in the end, I was taking way too much time so I got hit with the auto-eject move, Dreambreaker Memory’s End. Eff!

Got pretty close again. Once again, Nimbus was left with 1.5% HP before the battle ended. It’s so frustrating to be so close to winning but be unable to do so.

After I ended up spending so many resources such as buying lots of Rem’s relics from the The Record Lab, I don’t want to have to give up on this fight. Need to figure out what to do to get the victory.

Final Fantasy Type-0 Dreambreaker Dungeon Quest Latest Try

By now, I’ve lost count of how many times I’ve tried the Final Fantasy Type-0 Dreambreaker Dungeon fight.

Ended up buying Deuce’s Glint+ Soul Break from the The Record Lab. This gives the party Protect, Shell, and Haste, which allowed me to drop Hastega from Rem.

Had Deuce equipped with Allegro con Moto and De’Diaja while Rem had her HA and Holyja.

Dropped Trey and went back to Ace. Bought Ace the fire magic Artifact weapon and max leveled it.

Rushed through the Record Dungeons quests until I could finally unlock Crystal Waters Level 3 for all my chars.

Maxed out Rem’s Crystal Waters and even gave some to Ace, Cater, and Deuce.

More importantly, unlocking the Crystal Waters feature allowed me to complete the Final Fantasy Type-0 Historia Links so I could have full Link Synergy. Also got the Final Fantasy Type-0 Historia Crystal to Level 99.

Kept trying different combinations like casting the Realm Chain on turn 1 then recasting it again later or not bothering to cast it until Rem was ready to use her Soul Breaks.

For my latest try, I cast the Chain first then didn’t recast it until after Rem was ready to spam her HA.

This was because in previous tries, I’ve noticed that the Chain would run out while Rem’s Sync + AASB combo was still up.

Her damage always fell off when that happened. And it takes me a while to get the Chain back up. Sometimes, Rem’s combo would be over by then.

Even if it wasn’t, her damage still tanked because the Chain had just been recast. So in order to maximize Rem’s damage under the Chain, I only cast it around the time she was activating her AASB.

A few tries ago, I started trying to use Deuce’s Awakening around the time Rem, Cait Sith, and Ace used theirs.

It seemed to help so I kept on doing it on subsequent tries, including this latest one. Still tried to have Deuce alternate between Allegro con Moto and De’Diaja.

For Cait Sith, I mostly ended up spamming Goddess’s Paean again with the occasional Passionate Salsa.

Before, I used to have Cater Entrust her gauges to Rem to help her get to 4 bars quicker. Then I tried a slower approach, so I had more time to stack buffs.

I had Rem build gauges on her own by spamming Holyja. Cait started with one Salsa then mostly spammed Paean to buff Rem and build up his own gauge.

Had Ace spam Meltdown to build up his own gauge. Previously, I used Valigarmanda to do that.

But I’ve since learned that it was better to spam Valigarmanda while Ace’s AASB and the Dreambreaker Full Break debuff was up.

Deuce used to be equipped with the Record Materia that lets her start the fight with 2 gauges, but now I gave her the one that lets her build more bars whenever she takes damage.

Cater was still equipped with the 2-bar Record Materia, which she used to Entrust to Rem. Now I had her Entrust her bars to Deuce.

Now that I have Deuce’s Glint+, that was the first thing I had her cast. The second was usually her Ultra unless the party wasn’t in danger of dying, in which case I could squeeze in a cast of either Allegro or De’Dia.

Ace always moved first so I had him cast the Chain. Cater was in charge of the second cast later in the fight when Rem was ready to start dealing massive amounts of damage.

Cater was also the one who activated the Final Fantasy Type-0 Historia Crystal. She continued to Entrust to Deuce and sometimes to Cait. Later in the fight, she Entrusted to Rem.

Then she got paralyzed (moved her to slot 3 since I couldn’t afford to have anyone else be hit with that move except maybe Ace but only after the effects of his AASB runs out), and she remained that way until the end since I didn’t have any way to cure her.

In previous runs, I ended up using Cater’s AOSB, but this time I didn’t bother since it barely dealt damage anyway and just turned out to be a waste of time. She was better off giving those gauges to her allies.

I was really pleased that Ace was still able to break the damage cap while the effects of his AASB was up even under the Full Break debuff just by opting to use Valigarmanda instead of Meltdown.

His damage was nothing compared to Rem’s, but at least he didn’t become completely useless as soon as Nimbus used Full Break.

Unfortunately, Rem still ran out of steam near the end anyway. IIRC, Nimbus was at around 9% or 10% HP when that happened.

Rem had a lot of bars by then so I cast her Ultra first for the buff then spammed her OSB.

At least it only costs 1 bar so I could just keep spamming it, especially with Cater Entrusting to her. Well, until Cater got paralyzed anyway.

Used to cast Rem’s AOSB in previous tries but since it didn’t deal that much damage either and it costs a whopping 3 bars, I didn’t bother to use it this time.

Honestly, I thought that I’d end up failing again. Thankfully, I managed to get the win this time. Somehow.

My clear time was 46.79 seconds. It’s well above 30 seconds, which was too bad because there are some rewards locked behind being able to finish this fight within that timeframe.

I don’t think I can manage a 30 second clear right now though. Might need more Type-0 relics. Or maybe I just need to move faster. Or maybe the game’s speed just needs to be slower. LOL.

Already playing at speed 1, but at times, it still feels like things are moving way too fast anyway.

And sometimes I end up tapping on the wrong thing since I’m trying to rush and get things done before the enemy kills my chars or auto-ejects them from the fight.

Anyway, this is the very first Dreambreaker Dungeon quest that I’ve mastered. Super pleased to have been able to manage this.

Now to see if I can do this for other realms, particularly for Final Fantasy VII. Actually, I’m kinda miffed that I wasn’t able to master the FFVII Dreambreaker Dungeon quest first.

Final Fantasy VII is my favorite realm in this game and that’s the realm where I have the most relics. I can field a full FF7 party.

I have a few chars there that are pretty stacked, including Cait Sith; I don’t have his Sync, but AFAIK, the rest of his relics can be bought with Lenses.

Heck, I have a complete and fully built and maxed out Genesis Rhapsodos from Crisis Core: Final Fantasy VII with all of his currently available relics.

Have lots of Soul Breaks for Final Fantasy VII chars like Sephiroth (really good physical dark DPS), Cloud Strife (really good physical wind DPS), and Aeris or Aerith Gainsborough (really good healer who can also speed up the party’s physical attacks).

I should be able to do this. Well, I’ve already tried, but ended up falling short, a bit similar to my initial clear for the Final Fantasy Type-0 Dreambreaker Dungeon quest. I talk more about that in another post. But, yeah. Gonna have to try that fight again soon.

Had to spend a lot of resources to master the Final Fantasy Type-0 Dreambreaker Dungeon quest. Don’t really regret it though. Rem really is good, and it sounds like she can help me in a lot more difficult content. We’ll see, I guess.

Conclusion

So what about you? Have you tried any of the Final Fantasy Type-0 Cardia Dungeon fights yet? What do you think about the Final Fantasy Type-0 D450 Torment Dungeon quest? What about the Final Fantasy Type-0 Dreambreaker Dungeon fight? Feel free to share your thoughts and opinions by leaving a comment below or by reblogging or replying to this post.

Notes:

screenshots are from my Final Fantasy Record Keeper game account

#final fantasy record keeper #this post stars:#rem tokimiya #cait sith #final fantasy 7 #ace #deuce #cater #and more #final fantasy type-0 #gacha games #ffrk cardia dungeons #ffrk torment dungeons #mobile games #games #ffrk dreambreaker dungeons #ffrk

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dzpenumbra · 1 year

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1/21/23

This month is flying by. I didn't sleep well last night. My cat didn't come to bed for the second consecutive night. I think her hips are flaring up or something, I don't know. I don't want to bug her. I got up early, got my weighted blanket and came down to sleep in the comfy chair with her. She was... very aggressively hungry. And I refused to get up because I was nodding off tired. And it was a bad combo. She ended up going after my arms and legs to like... make me get her food. I was very upset with this. It's bad enough to fight with "friends" and family, but... conflict with her is just... it's a special kind of horrible.

I have no idea how she's so hungry. I haven't changed anything about her diet in like a month, at least. She was extremely pissed that I didn't get her food like 2 hours earlier than normal. I don't know, maybe I should just do it next time. I ended up doing it in the end, but like. Yeah, that moment stuck with me, because she was clearly sending a message and I just... don't know what to do. I can't feed her earlier, I'm supposed to be catching up on sleep, I haven't had a full night's sleep in like... I don't even remember anymore. If I feed her dinner later... she just gets pissed at that time of day. It's just a no-win situation. And I can't do snacks or treats or anything because of the thyroid shit so this is just... how things are. Ugh.

Yoga was good. I immediately started work on my new necklace and that ended up being a whole-day project. It's still not even close to complete. I got my wrapped bloodstone out, arranged the tiger's eye and obsidian beads in a pattern I liked, picked out some wooden beads I want to add in to separate them... and then decided to decorate the raw wood beads. First I was going to draw on them, then I decided it might be easier to dye them and then carve away the ink? Mostly because archival ink was just smearing, it wasn't soaking into the wood. I was afraid I wouldn't be able to seal it in, and it would just smear and come off. I decided to dye the beads with my old Kuro Sumi tattoo ink. It sure ain't getting any other use. -_-

I decided this was as good a time as any to finally whip up that beeswax/oil wood finish mix, which was surprisingly easy to make. Then I dyed the beads, which was also very quick and simple. I started laundry while they dried. When I got back, I decided to try to seal one of the beads and the ink just... mixed with the wax paste and got everywhere. I have no idea how much ink actually absorbed into the wood or if it just caked onto it or something. To reduce the risk of black staining - because this ink is like... super permanent - I ended up deciding to go for more of an eroded look, and tried to strip off as much of the caked-on ink as I could. This took forever, in fact... my wrist is struggling to type right now because of it. Rubbing alcohol, the scouring pad side of a sponge, 130 grit sandpaper, just over and over. For 12 beads, one by one. When that was done, I popped a coat of the wax on and they've been chillin ever since. They came out pretty decent, I'll see tomorrow how they look with the stones.

The only step left after that is the weaving, which I was expecting to do most of the day today, but didn't do at all. I'm planning to do a... 6 strand... but doubled over, so technically 3 strand... and I'm planning to take a paper clip and shape part of it into a ringlet to start my weave on. That will end up being the anchor point for the clasp that will be tied to the other end. Then I'm going to weave about half the length of the side on both sides... so... probably about... 8-9 inches total? Maybe some square knots inbetween the beads to break it up a bit too. I'll play it by ear. I'm excited to see how it turns out.

That consumed the entire day. Not a bad thing, of course. Today was just... art problem solving, music and laundry. Planning to pick up where I left off tomorrow.

No deep thoughts tonight. No psychoanalysis. No dissecting the psyche and pondering existence. Just... I made some things that I'm conflicted on whether they're cool or not. But I made things, and they are uniquely mine. And that. THAT is art. Because I could go buy dyed beads off the shelf. Or order them delivered to my door via the internet. But these beads have the same exact ink in them that I injected manually into my own skin. There was a process. They are the first of their kind. They were handled individually and were crafted with intention by a person. I will always have the memory of the intense smell of rubbing alcohol as I tried to strip off the excess ink without staining my countertops. Devin Townsend's Nightwork in my ears. Those pieces were part of my life, they have a place in my memory. You can't say that about mass produced shit. You can't say that about emulated shit. So even if these beads aren't right for this piece, I'm 100% keeping them and using them for something. They are special!

And with this theory, it really makes me think - there is no bad art but lazy art. Art that intends to cut as many corners as possible to avoid being what it is claiming to be. I mean, I honestly am not sure if bad art is even a thing, but like... if it were? I'd think that's it. Because, typically, when you cut corners... that just means someone (or something) else is filling in the gaps. And the piece ends up being an expression of that person. Not the artist. So... it's still art, you know. But it's not your art. Right? Okay, I can tell I'm very overtired. I literally just said "no deep thoughts tonight" a paragraph and a half ago, I WAS SO CLOSE!!!

Sleep time.

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