#i have crushes but all my crushes are ppl from my dreams 😭
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that venus conjunct neptune habit of falling in love with concepts... it's been driving me nuts! 😵💫
i have so many soft tender dreams about people, i wish i could just live in those dreams forever 🥹 where i get to hold the literal person of my dreams...oof! the yearning is so real 💔
#venus conjunct neptune#recently ive been feeling SO insane 😭 this winter has made me feel so many things#i have crushes but all my crushes are ppl from my dreams 😭#theyre not real#it makes me insane....what do you mean i will never get to touch them? ill never get to hold them?#what do you mean i'll never be able to love them??? thats so unfair 😭#idk maybe one day ill meet someone irl who is real and who will want me#fingers crossed 🤞 manifesting this for me......#txt
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more than just a dream - spark, 004
pairing: college!ellie x reader
synopsis: you transfer to a new school where you only know one person; your childhood best friend. he invited you to a beginning of the year party to meet some new people, but one person, in particular, catches your eye... his other best friend.
a/n: dina bonding time!
genre: social media au, fluff
series masterlist -- previous chapter -- next chapter
bria 🧚
hey!
dina 💋
hi whats up? :)
bria 🧚
im bored and everyone else went out but i dont feel like drinking rn..
can i come over?
i know the two of us arent super close but this could be our chance to bond outside the group 🤞🤞
dina 💋
omg ofc!! i was feeling the same i just wanted to chill and stay in today 😭 but ya come over whenever
bria 🧚 ❤️ a message
we can watch mission impossible if ur into that!
only if u bring snacks...
bria 🧚
U HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH IVE BEEN WANTING TO SEE THATTTT OK im omw now ill put the best i have in a bag 🙏 cya!!
dina 💋 ❤️ a message
bria 🧚
hey dina, sorry i had to leave right away
i have to study for the first unit test later today
wish i didn't, this is so boring
how are u?
dina 💋
im fine
good
im good im great actually
but i really think we should talk about it
what happened last night
bria 🧚
later, ok?
sorry
i need to go right now stepping into class
dina 💋
oh ok, bye :)
dina woodward
hi y/n im literally going insane r u free to talk
y/n
omfg 😭 whats going on
dina woodward
you'll never believe what happened last night
y/n
ughhh i wish i was there! sorry i wanted to stay in to get some sleep, i have a test next period
dina woodward
oh no worries i actually stayed in too so this isnt ab the outing
do u know who bria volentas is?
y/n
yeah i do!
shes really nice ill sit next to her in history in a few minutes actually
dina woodward
oh 😭😭😭 i wanted to talk to u ab this bc i thought u were the only one in the group that didnt really know her
can u keep a secret? just need to get this off my chest
y/n
u can trust me :)
dina woodward
sooo... ive had a crush on her since the dawn of time
y/n !! a message
and we hung out last night alone!!
y/n
!!AWEEE yall will be so cute together i can see it now
dina woodward ❤️ a message
also im so glad u said that bc i wasnt ab to be the one to com eout first 😭😭
dina woodward !! a message
dina woodward
YOUW AHT?!?!?!?!?!?
i didnt wanna assume but i secretly knew.........
y/n haha a message
y/n
🤝🤝🤝
OKOK GET ON W UR STORY
dina woodward
we were watching mission impossible bc ellie ditched me (i wont forget) and she goes 'im cold' so bc shes the actual loml i let her under my blanket
y/n
awwww
dina woodward
then our feet kinda touched then our hands kinda touched and we were getting rlly close... then we fucked
y/n
AHH????
that went from 0 to 100 sO FAST
dina woodward
I KNOW LIKE IMS TILL SO IN SHOCK RN
y/n
SO YGS ARENT TOGETHER YET THO?? HAVE U TALKED AB IT ALL??? FYB? ONE TIME THING?
dina woodward
IDKK I HAVE NO IDEA
this is the average wlw experience i say while dry heaving and crawling onto the roof and howling
y/n ❤️ a message
y/n
LMFAOOO it literally is tho we have it so difficult
dina woodward
HELPPP ME AND BRIA ARE IN CHAT RN BUT WE'RE NOT SAYING ANYTHING
SPEAK UP WOMANNN FOR THE LOVE OF GOD
i said i wanted to talk ab last night and she was so avoidant so she BETTER say something rn
y/n
yall rn
lurking in chat.....
dina woodward
😭😭😭
i need to be distracted rn
eye starts twitching
tell me smth thats going on w u
y/n
ok u trusted me w ur crush so i can trust u w mine right..
dina woodward
ofc ofc
y/n
so u know her actually like really well from what i know
BLEEEH I HATE TELLING PPL I LIKE THEIR FRIENDS
is ellie williams gay..
dina woodward
take a look at her what do u think
yes she is gay! AND U LEIWFAGJEDFANJ YOU LIKE HER??
y/n ❤️ a message
y/n
angels harmonize and descend from heaven
BLESSS 🙏🙏
yes i like her... i think. its been hard to like anyone since my last relationship but im feeling rlly hopeful about us
im heavily delusional tho she was prob just being friendly when we hung out
dina woodward
she recently broke up w her ex too, and shes been kinda staying away from relationships :(
ur amazing tho youd be so good for her
if she acts like a bitch to u ONCE run
y/n
damn jesse warned me ab her too 😭 what happened with her and her ex? if u know or if ur ok with telling me
i know its not really my business
i just wanna know what lines i cant cross
dina woodward ❤️ a message
dina woodward
yeah i totally get it
i actually dont know all the details
i think she only told jesse bc theyre way closer than me and her
if u want to know everything, id ask him or get it from ellie herself
just get closer with her and she'll tell u everything, and u can decide what to do from there
y/n
ok , thats a good idea
ill just use my amazing charm and incredible beauty to captivate her in chemistry
dina woodward ❤️ a message
dina woodward
HEHEHEHE
speaking of,, she sucks at chemistry. u could get closer to her by tutoring her if youd be up for that?? shed appreciate it sooo much
y/n
#1 wingman award is presented toooooo dina woodward!
dina woodward ❤️ a message
ill def talk to her ab that ill be like heyyy u need help 💋
shit gtg now, test time!
dina woodward
good luck!! with the test and ellie🙏
y/n ❤️ a message
a/n: a lot longer than the last chapter!! but i had a lot to say in this one :D love in the future for my girl dina!!! love to see it
hope u enjoyed as always (✿◠‿◠)
taglist: @ximtiredx @gold-dustwomxn @elliesinterlude @fireflyels @trulygnomed @deluluwh-0-re @toesorhoes @elliewilliamsmissingfingerss @emluvselandabs @ariianelle @jokerpokimoon @lonelyfooryouonly @lil-elliesgf @yuaaa05 @ourautumn86
#ellie williams#tlou game#ellie williams x reader#the last of us#tlou 2#wlw#ellie williams fluff#tlou part 2#jesse tlou#dina woodward#the last of us fanfiction#tlou smau#lesbian
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This is an idea that came to me in a dream and please please read it or I might cry bc I couldn’t get to sleep for ages after this
edit: link to the poll: https://www.tumblr.com/literatureisdying/737806048436568064/you-better-vote-yes-yes-no?source=share
edits I am making now after writing the original thing at 1am are in italics
(there is a tl; dr at the bottom under the cut but I highly recommend reading he notesapp word vomit first bc uhh it provides context and it’s a bit funny)(however if you can’t understand the big block of text please dm me/ send me an ask and I’ll explain the whole thing more concisely)
I would like to preface this by saying I am writing this at 1am in my notesapp
Okay guys I had this weird ass dream where basically @literatureisdying (im sorry you’re the main character 😭😭) made this freaky timed poll where you had to click either yes or no and there was propaganda and everything like atlas was very much on the yes team but some ppl (@bassguitarinablackt-shirt maybe??? also uhh hi new mutual im sorry im crazy <33) were VERY much no (im talking fulling pinning a gigantic image of the word no to their blog etc. and I wasn’t sure what the poll was ab so I went to vote and bc I can’t make a decision to save my life I closed my eyes and frantically tapped at the screen until I clicked an option, I clicked yes, and apparently I wanted smth from atlas in this dream (no idea what) and an the website gave me an option after I voted to request this from atlas (??) so I did and then I went back to tumblr to try and figure out what the poll was about and I got the impression it might be whether someone has a crush on someone (I immediately when to yk who but it might not be) and yeah but I FUCKING WOKE UP BEFORE I FIGURED OUT WHAT THE POLL WAS AB so all im saying is atlas you must create this irl it doesnt have to have a point it can just be all of us being weird as fuck and doing propaganda and being dramatic and adamant and just pure chaos for a week as we rally for our side uhhh ty for reading this ALL imma try sleep now I’ll post this in the morning ig
Tagging some ppl + summary under the cut
Tl; dr: So basically I want atlas to make a timed poll where we either vote yes or no and then have chaos for a week as we try to advocate for our side
@gently-decaying-flowers @imslowlydisintegrating( I think you guys and asher and atlas were sorta presence in my dream idk probs bc of innocent sin)
@svnflowermoon @tellme-o-muse (you two are away from tumblr atm so lots of <33333 and if you come back and this is what we’re doing yk what we’re talking ab) @bookscorpion73 @astraeasparrow @zzzzzzzzzee @mandythedino @giveuthemo0n @recklessandyoung(yall have to join you have no choice) abs uhhh idk if I should tag more ppl but I will if this flops bye
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YES YES YES THAT IS A VERY ACCURATE DESCRIPTION OF HIM.
Pretty much after he no longer is a decepticon and is working with the military he becomes obsessed with this show called nurse whitney (it's p much just like Grey's anatomy or smthn ig) and he becomes so inlove with this show he watches it and bases scripts of it and his dream is to become a screenwriter. After the war whenever he comms other decepticons they usually answer with "no I haven't read ur screenplay yet" 😭 which I think thats super cute bc almost everybody he's met he is obsessed with showing his writing and having ppl review them for him (also also, in some panels he's wearing reading glasses which is chefs kiss)) also important to note that even tho both starscream and skywarp betrayed him (fucking shot him after finding out he was no longer a decepticon on multiple occasions)) he was willing to just forgive them and let them all be buddies again. He also talks abt movies alot and when he gets reunited with them he tells them how he's always seen them as the three amigos and asks them if they've seen that movie 😭
Do you know marissa faireborn? She's the leader of the group he works for. Some speculate he has a crush on her (which I also agree with) bc the main character of his story and her lover are lowkey hinted at to be him and her (her name has been scribbled out in his script and replaced with his oc's name, and her bf in the story is apparently as handsome as an f22 jet and can travel at mach 10)) but he's very sweet to her and helpful even tho she's lowkey kinda rude to him ahehwhwv she was the one to gift him his dog tho. She reads his scripts even tho she dreads it and he said he'd only work with that military group if they offered marissa a job. They also go on vacation alot together. I'll think of more things but those are just some of the reasons he's so fuckin sweet.
- from number 1 idw thundercracker fan
AWWWWWWW I LOVE HIM!
I had heard about Marissa before but I didn't know TOO much about her other than the fact that she was a bit abrasive, they were friends and coworkers, and she would read his work even if she wasn't super interested.
He seems so SWEET and like such a lovable DORK I really love that he's an aspiring writer and he's always showing off his work. That's confidence in your art, babey! And I'm glad he's still buddies with Skywarp and Starscream cause I love trine dynamics SO MUCH. Thank you so much for the crash course on this sweet boy! To be honest I have been working on a little pet project starring TC based on what I thought his personality was like and this makes me a lot more confident in my read of him, so that may be something to expect in the future!
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well guys. since i missed epic's birthday (devastating) have some headcanons :)
he is one of those weaboos who learned japanese so he can watch anime "the authentic way" (his words)
so he's fluent in japanese 💀 he literally only learned it for anime but dude was DEDACTED
he's so cringe guys 😭 i can say that. he's my boyfriend i love him
he would adore those cute anime girl v-tubers. like not in a weird way but he'd watch a lot of them
HE PLAYS GENSHIN 💀 he'd probably main beidou or raiden shogun/ei.. maybe run a full electro team with miko and fischl too 😭 (fischl is his fave character he loves her backstory and her bird thing idk i dont use fischl 💀) he loves the electro characters for some reason idk
HE HAS THE WORST LUCK ON THIS GAME THO. bro has c6 diluc (me too ☹️) and all his artifacts SUCK ASS even tho he'll grind every day
he has to spend money on every banner because he always loses his 50/50 and only gets high pity
ok enough genshin headcanons he's cringe we know this
im here ranting about a game i hate because my dumb boyfriend plays it so much
he hangs out with cross a lot ofc BUT
whenever he hears the word cross used in any context he turns to cross like "CROSS????? BRUH THATS YOU!!" (i always make these jokes. im projecting)
cant believe jesus died on his best friend fr... LMAOOO
he speedruns minecraft. he's NOT GOOD AT IT. but he can do it
he's had his speedruns ruined by creepers like 7 times
one time he somehow got into the deep dark and got killed by the warden??? idk what bro was doing down there in a speedrun dawg 😭
sorry he's a gamer in my head but hes really bad at every game he plays (just like me fr)
he sleeps under like 6 different weighted blankets in the hopes that he wont thrash around when he sleeps but he's too strong and ends up tossing them all off his bed 😭
bro needs to be CRUSHED to fall asleep!! he literally cant fall asleep without the weight
not that he likes to sleep anyway because of the nightmares but whatever. hes gotta do it. unfortunately.
he fights in his dreams ofc thats like canon but bro is throwing punches in his sleep fr
if he gets a partner (me fr!!) they gotta sleep in a different ROOM 😭 he is taking NO CHANCES and tbh thats so fair i wouldnt wanna wake up being beaten up by my bf
he is so ipad baby-core <3 he'll just watch youtube on his ipad all day if u let him but he's an old man and needs his spectacles otherwise he's holding it at arm's length 💀
don't forget bro is literally a doctor?? he's SO smart but he uses his goofy persona as a cover up
im convinced like most of the people that know him actually dont know this. they all think hes dumb as bricks 💀
them he'll casually say smth super smart and everyone is like ???????? HELLO??? SINCE WHEN DID UR BRAIN WORK??
i love drawing epic with glasses guys he looks so cute. but he has old man reading glasses
this the typa shit he wears
AND HE FUCKING. anime glasses 😭
like yk how ppl in anime push glasses up
him fr
AUUGH WHY IS HE SO CRINGE I NEED TO CRUSH HIM
he actually needs his glasses all the time but he doesnt like to look like a NERDD so he doesnt wear them
he makes cross read everything for him
they go out to eat and gotta make him read the whole menu otherwise hes holding it 2cm from his face 💔
"whatd that sign say i cant read it"
"dude the letters are huge how cant you read it"
"oh lol i need my glasses my bad bruh"
"YOU ARE DRIVING A CAR RIGHT NOW????"
actually he cant legally drive. because thats funnier than if he could
id still be his passenger princess <3 i refuse to get my license
anyway guys isnt my boyfriend so silly
im so tiredni needto seelp goodnight smooork mimimumumu
its 3am i neednto get up in 5 hours naioiiooooooo
goodbye guys enhjoy my boyfrien mdgrf
#count how many times i project onto epic challenege#headcanon#undertale headcanon#epic#epic sans#epic headcanon#bruh idk how to tag stuff i dont make real posts anymore 😭#jester writes
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1-35your evil:)
First of all *you're
Second of all maybe this was my plan all along
What is your nickname?
Willa IS a nickname - it's derived from my last name. Apart from that I have 7 nicknames.
When is your birthday?
6th of August!! Just had it - and it ended up being a weeklong event :D
What was your longest relationship?
My current one, which is almost a year and a half.
What is your favorite book?
Loveless by Alice Oseman
What is something you're insecure about?
Hmmm, my weight/size. Been bullied for it since I was like 4 😭
5 Male celebrity crushes
I don't get crushes, I tried to answer but everytime I was just listing guys I know
5 Female celebrity crushes
Again I dont get crushes but I will never turn down a movie with Florence Pugh
What is your dream job?
I simply don't dream of labour. I would like to run a queer cafe that doubles with free sex ed info. I also wouldnt mind doing ASMR as a career I just don't have the tools really.
What do you consider your biggest accomplishment?
Uhmm, being happy.
What is a fact about you that nobody would believe?
There was a few years where I was somewhere on the goth/emo spectrum. I don't think it's particularly shocking but I've very quickly gotten a reputation for being a pink princess so...
What were your highs and lows for this last month?
Highs - I got a huge plushie the size of my body, heartstopper s2, shopping spree, the Barbie movie
Lows - a whole heap of medical shit relating to me and ppl im close with, depressive episodes, burying my cat
Where is somewhere you'd like to visit?
I'm honestly not a travel person, I guess I wouldn't mind diving somewhere though.
How do you de-stress?
Yoga, sunbathing, baking, crochet, gay things, making art, and reading.
What are your favorite apps besides tumblr?
Gratitude Journal, PocketLove and MyPossibleSelf. Social media wise I don't mind Pinterest and Insta but there are almost always things I don't wanna see showing up on my dash.
Describe yourself in one sentence.
Hot<3
What do you think makes you attractive?
Stomach, thighs and shoulders. I've also been told my worldview is v attractive.
What is something you're really good at?
Self love babey.
What is something you're really bad at?
Baking red velvet cake.
A time that you told a lie.
I lie when asked if there's anything that could prevent me from doing xyz.
What's a totally random and useless fact that you know?
Nico Di Angelo smells like stone after rain.
Who knows you the best?
My boyfriend.
What is your most prized possession?
My phone - it has hundreds of photos I wouldnt be able to replace, poetry, songwriting, journalling and its how I stay in contact with long-distance friends and old school/work friends.
What is your longest friendship?
Man idk. Friendships often dip, almost all of my friends have had a few years where we weren't friend inbetween things.
When did you first feel like an adult?
I felt like an adult before I was ever allowed to feel like a kid so like. always.
Do you/ Have you played any sports?
So many! Soccer, touch football, dance (various types), figure skating, I tried boxing once, karate. Currently I don't play sports, I'm more of a yoga, pilates and skateboarding kinda guy.
How are you feeling right now?
Kinda in-between. Don't feel completely zoned in-
Are you an early bird or a night owl?
Early bird.
Do you believe in love at first sight?
Yes, because there's about a thousand kinds of love.
Favorite song lyrics right now?
"sexy girl come and lay with meeee, im frustrated and its sexually" from Sexy Drug - Falling in Reverse. It's such a good song to scream the lyrics to
What does self care look like for you?
It entirely depends on the day - it can be watching a film, going on a walk, buying a little treat, dressing up fancy or some form of working out.
Describe yourself with 3 singers.
Taylor Swift, Melanie Martinez, Doja Cat.
What makes you nervous?
Pretty people.
What’s a pet peeve you have?
People that are mean to be funny.
What will always make you cry?
Show Me Going from Brooklyn Nine Nine, also Grimace being sad and never wanting to have a birthday again bc of the grimace shake trend :[ Tearing up rn thinking about it.
What kind of first impression do you think you make on people?
It's literally never the same impression. I feel like shy and quiet is probably the main one but sometimes it'll be loud and chaotic, charmismatic and funny, I've also gotten told I'm confident a lot which is wild.
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hellooo ik its me again spamming inbox again 😁 ykw ykw
i miss u like i legit miss u sm that like i feel like my day is incomplete without talking to u it feels like a hollow yk that emptiness u get after finishing a kdrama thats what im feeling as i write this (becoming too much in love behaviour but its fine cuz i love uu nd being a liz simp is better than living alone without love in ur lifee) that without talking to feels like my day is incomplete but ik u are taking time off to collect ur thoughts achieve mental peace (hoping u get it during ur time off ) nd become calm nd ik how badly negative comments affect a person cuz they never get forgotten they just get buried nd come up whenver u get into a bad headspace but its fine we all get into bad headspaces go thru hard times nd i believe in u can get thru it u can nd take as much time as u need i will waiting for u with open arms to embrace u nd let u rest
nd ykw in a span of 4days sm things happened first i finished all the movies of to all the boys i have loved before but i didnt watvh xo kitty cuz they should made it as a netflix original movie instead of making it as a kdrama + eng series (i rly dont like eng series never watched any 😭😭 cuz i dont feel the connect the way i feel with kdramas ) nd after finishing i was like 😭😭 how do i get such a sweet guy (its an dream which no guy would be able to fulfill ) anw moving on
i tried to talk or more likely comfort a guy he is going thru hard time i can see it on jis fsce no matter how much he tries to mask it it can be seen in his expression nd eyes 😭( i dont like but as a genuine frnd im concerned abt him as i wasnt talking to him for a week ( i get too tired ti socialize in thr evening 😞that i dont text anyone ) so i wrote this a huge block of texting with some advice with some caring words okay nd telling everything will be fine nd all i sent it after 2minutes i was like this is so cringe 😭😭😭😭😭 nd i was like i sound like a girl who has a crush on him ( i dont 😭hes the type of person who has a huge ego nd i dont like egoistic ppl but to me he doesnt shows ego idk why 🥴🥴nd he is kinda dumb )
nd after i deleted i was like think ren thinkkk sm thoughts were going on in my mind like i HAVE NEVER IN MY LIFE COMFROTED A GUY let alone have a guy frnd even tho i had one he confessed to me nd the friendship turned into dust 😭 nd from the start i always had female frinds even tho i have some guy frnds but we arent close to be considered frnds like classmate things ykk nd with the guy i wanted to comfort he considers me his frnd but i dont 😭 i have a very peculiar criteria of considering ppl as frnds 😭 but it is what it is so at last i texted him be well nd take care nd i also said it is overhelming to u atm but it will become better trust me he said see u soon i read nd didnt reply cuz idk.what to say 😭😭 nd ykw i suck at comforting guys cuz with girls its like u can say ily to them nd write a long ass message for them nd yk its a connect 😭 like i want a guy who genuinely is only intrested im friendship not in f2l nd i cant even say a guy i love u randomly if i trying to comfort them they might take it literally nd another trouble 😭😭 well i have never said that i dont plan to 😭 anw take careeee have a good day
#ren u r making me shed Real tears rn#i love u sm like if anyone tries to be the number 1 ren simp I WILL FIGHT THEM#BCS THATS MY SPOT#NO ONE ELSE’S!!!!!!!!#and omg i also watched xo kitty for shits n giggles HELPPP LMAO but i agree with u a 100% bro#no u’re so right bcs no sweet guy exist#like i’ve come to terms w it now :’-)#NO BCS#FRIENDSHIP WITH GUYS ARE SO HARD TO MAINTAIN FOR SOME REASON????? BCS ONE DAY THEY’LL JUST BOOM CONFESS THEIR UNDYING LOVE TO U#ITS SICK#LIKE#I THOUGHT WE’RE HOMIES I THOUGHT WE’RE BUDDIES WHY R U IN LOVE W ME NOW💀#not wanting f2l with guys is so true like…. i just want a FRIEND how hard is it bro 😭😭#okay but u’re good at comforting ppl <3 whoever tht guy is should be HONORED#also#men with big ego <<<<<<<#not it#glad u dodged a bullet kinda 😭😭#I LOVE U AND I LOVE UR STORIES MY SLEEP DISAPPEARED IM SO INVESTED NOW
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Having a really hard time rn so if you'd feel comfortable may I request some of the 2AM rambles I've come to know you for? Dunno if this is inappropriate or not
So sorry it’s been like 20 hours since you sent this ask 😭 I didn’t see it bc I was ✨on a date✨ which I’ll get to in a sec
First of all, and this goes to everyone ever, send me any ask you want to. Just send it. If I think it’s rude or inappropriate I’ll just delete it. Never be scared to send me an ask I’m very open to asks
Second, I’m sorry you’re having a hard time 💞 I hope things get better. It’s not 2am but I have to get up early tomorrow so here is my midnight ramble about the last couple days.
So if anyone is not up to date on my lore I move into college in less than a week, which is WILD btw literally never thought I’d even be accepted to a college and now I’m not only accepted to my dream school but I’m moving in in less than a week? Hot damn.
So like my school has orientation but they broke up all the freshmen into groups? That are called primers? God I hope no one from my school is reading this. Anyway in my primer group is me, this kid who has 20 3DS(es?) that they’re bring to school to just…hand out to people(????), and my crush who I’m gonna refer to as this little blue diamond emoji 💠 bc it makes me think of them.
💠 and I are doing that sort of Lesbian Flirting thing where you’re both obviously interested in each other but worried that the other one is just being nice and you don’t wanna fuck it up so you’re like nooo I can’t just say how I feel bc she might just be a super nice person! We’re both constantly like “you’re so attractive I’d make out with you right now but no homo” (we are both lesbians) and it’s. But then today we agreed to be Harley Quinn and Poison Ivy for Halloween? And there’s like…nothing gayer than that so? Idk.
We went to the mall together on a Date-That-Wasn’t-Actually-a-Date-Because-We’re-Both-Into-Each-Other-But-Don’t-Want-to-Say-it-Because-What-if-She’s-Just-Being-Nice and that was cool bc…idk…I worry a lot about how ppl view me as a wheelchair user. Like…idk! It’s just. Hard! But 💠 is also disabled and it was just cool to hang out with another disabled person. Very cool <3
We have been texting 24/7. Just texting our thoughts to each other, texting about comics we like, texting about the eternal emptiness we feel inside from having to be away from each other until we move in next week (yes we’re very melodramatic). We only live like an hour and a half away from each other so it’s not like it’s long distance by any means but we don’t have time to drive to each other before moving in bc packing and the like. Also…we literally move in in less than a week lmao it makes sense to just wait
My new wheelchair bag came today and she offered to embroider it for me and I’m like 😭 that’s the nicest thing anyone has ever said to me. I might be giving her Mercane, at least to borrow, bc she has arthritis and has been wanting to try a folding cane for a while but they’re kinda pricy
Anywayyy my friend and I made a disabilities club for the school which is wild bc we haven’t even moved in yet lol but it’s taken off a lil bit. Right now it’s only freshmen but after we move in I wanna try to have like…meet ups and stuff. Hopefully then more upperclassmen will join! Love being around disabled ppl.
Also my roommate is super cool. He dyed his hair green so we match ✌️😭 so cool. He’s giving me his old Monster High DS game 💕💞💖💗
Also my bestie and I are finally gonna get to hang out!!!! I wish we were in the same primer 😔 but it’s okay bc we’ll hang out after the orientation anyway.
I made 30 or so kandi bracelets with the name of our school and I’m just gonna…give ‘em out at orientation. Way overkill? Yes. A little weird? Indeed. Am I doing it anyway? Absolutely.
I’m also low key famous now for something kind of embarrassing but that’s a ramble for another time.
#this was way longer than I intended#and this is not even half of what’s happened#it’s been a wild ride#a really enjoyable one tho#I’m really happy right now
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Thank you for answering my ask....if you don't mind me asking (again), who are your favorite romantic relationship's couples in books/ manga/ anime/movies/tv series (can be canon or non-canon)? Sorry if you've answered this question before......Thanks....
Hello again!! Hope you're doing fine^^
Sorry for replying super late. For some reason, my Tumblr notification system is broken & it doesn't notify me about asks (maybe bcz I've not updated it for a long time 😑)
Ok now back to the ask... Tbh, I am usually less interested in the romance aspect of a story, but I do enjoy it when the chemistry between a couple is interesting, understandable & on equal footing (by which I mean they be true to themselves & feel free to express their feelings or opinions to each other rather than keeping those to themselves).
The following ones are some of my fave couples:
Soo-Won X Lili
From Akatsuki no Yona
They're not couple in canon and I doubt they will but idc!Just look at their very first interaction...the atmosphere, the circumstance...doesn't it give off such a romantic vibe?? It's so cute!! And the couple itself is quite fascinating! Soo-Won & Lili are like two opposite poles...Soo-Won having a calm and collected personality while Lili is a bit restive & reckless. Even their preference and taste are so different but they both share a common mentality...to do smth for their ppl, try to do smth to make a difference and that makes this pair pretty interesting & cool! Sure they're not attracted to each other romantically, but they've been so open abt their thoughts, esp for Soo-Won who tends to be quite secretive but we've seen him sharing some of his personal feelings (and dilemmas) openly to her. Lili making fun of his 'love-life', blackmailing him to let her be with him in Ogi's place, Soo-Won supporting & motivating her on her supposed responsibilities and also showing his 'strict mom' mode when she's a bit too much to handle...Man I enjoyed every bit of it!! Yes I love them sm, they fit to each other so well, the best!!
Arima X Kaori
From Your Lie in April
After losing his beloved mother, Arima Kousei stopped playing piano & lost his motivation to move forward. Then Kaori revives his passion & brings color to his life. Despite having a tragic ending, what I find fascinating abt this couple is that while Arima was torn apart after his mother's death & was afraid to play piano again (mostly due to his complicated relationship with his mother), Kaori's death wasn't a barrier for him. I mean indeed it was hard for him to accept her departure, but his wonderful memories with her became an inspiration to keep on going toward his dream. (The last part when he thought Kaori's playing violin alongside with him in the competition and eventually realised that she's no more; hence breaking down with tears after finishing the play was so😭)
Yukito X Touya
From Card Captor Sakura
I've a soft corner for most of the Clamp couples bcz all of them are so wholesome and Yuki-Touya is one of the best! There're so cute together♡ I think I like them a lil bit more than the main couple of the story!
Sakura X Syaoran
From Card Captor Sakura
I like how their relationship started from rivalry to friendship to more than friendship... It's fun to watch both of them having a crush on Yukito at the beginning, trying their best to impress him & competing with each other lol. Then Syaoran starting to like Sakura but didn't want to acknowledge it(I absolutely love that stupid version of Syaoran). Then confession...that part was a bit dramatic but cute. For me, they're one of the best shoujo couples!!
Miyu X Kanata
From UFO Baby
Their story is full of comedies & dramas! On top of that Ru's arrival in their life made it wholesome!! Maybe it's particularly not the romantic aspect but the dramas for which I enjoyed their interactions.
I also like Tohru X Kyo from Fruits Basket, Haruhi X Tamaki from Ouran High School host club, KuroFai from TRC....Ig that's it.
Thanks for the ask!! I don't mind you asking me abt my fave things, I really enjoy talking abt them. So feel free to ask if you want^^ Have a good day~
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Yk the trope i hate the most... "FRIENDS TO LOVERS"
I wasn't always like this..FTL trope used to be my fav, like its literally my biggest dream, like to have my male best friend as my lover..but that went straight downhill when I date my best friend back in 2019...I was so happy at first, like even the little things would make me giggle, act all girly and all (which wasn't really so me). But after a month, everything ended..I've dreamed of everything..graduating our grade 12 tgt, dating in college, cafe dates, getting married EVERYTHING to the point that ppl will think im insane bc I LOVE HIM SM. I was so hurt, like my heart literally broke into pieces..I hurts, so fucking much to the point that I got sick. Ever since then, I have never thought of dating again..like ever.
It's been 5 years already since then, I've moved on and completely healed... but the fear of getting heartbroken and all those things again traumatized me so bad that I still haven't dated anyone again.. I have this fear, of being in pain again..or maybe the fear of being abandoned by someone again, as if im some object that they can just throw away when they got tired of it.
I'm in my 2nd year of college now, studying for my bachelors..I have this friend, a MALE best friend from our senior, we clique off really well since the day we met..we literally hang out everywhere despite the age gap..ppl would suspect us, but we both knew that it was purely platonic(or maybe only for me?) and feel as if we don't need to explain or deny to anyone. We've been friends for almost a year now, I treat him just like my older brother since I don't have one and always envied to have one. I used to have thoughts like "Oh, he must be the one God gave me as my older brother, someone who will stick by my side and defend for me"..I was so grateful to have him, and really admire him as my best friend and as an older brother. I really thought it was all like that way, even for him but NO, it wasn't. It was that I was just too oblivious.
We were talking abt random stuff last night, and idk how we got into that topic but he somehow just started confessing his feelings for me, saying something like "I used to wonder, how do you want me to confess/propose? I've been thinking hard and know its gonna be hard bc you have high expectations, but i want to...", "Whenever I try to get away from you, you somehow always get sick and I can't help but come closer to you yet again". He totally makes me flabbergasted..like I was out of words for a minute, but I still try to act all cool..saying something like "Maybe God wants u to keep staying by my side as a good friend you are" but he keep confessing anyway😭
His words have been on my mind since then. I'm still surprised, like ever.. and i'm furious.. like im literally burning inside. But somehow, my heart broke..having this thought like I lost another best friend again. Oh, another side story- There's this boy from my batch, my old lab partner..he was really kind and sweet, he was a great friend too..he somehow have a crush on me and confess too😭
Maybe its bc of this, i'm afraid and mad at myself..like it makes me think, "What have I done? I thought I've always just look at them just as a friend but maybe i did something wrong?" ... I really don't want to lose another friend and get my heart broken just bc of these stupid feelings..idk what i'm gonna do with him..He is a great man, he's smart, ambitious, caring for ppl around him, like he literally cares for me a lot but yk, maybe bc of my past experience, I just can't do this anymore..especially with my best friend. Either he'll break my heart or I'll break his heart bc of my past experiences
I just hope that he finds someone who loves him truly and that we'll always be best friends regardless🫠
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Diary entry #3: thinking way too hard rn
He hello, I’m being a serial thinker. It is 2 am and I have to get ready for work at 4:45. But my body wanted to be up so I’m up. And boy am I fucking thinking right now.
I promise I didn’t not start this diary to only talk about a boy but I’m a lover girl who is slightly delulu so a crush encompasses every aspect of my life/ thoughts 🤭 oops.
But yes, boi is leaving me on read for so long :( and stopped messaging me every morning. And guys I have rationalized already why I’m like this lol. Let’s do a deep dive.
I saw a TikTok a long ways back about scarcity mindset and “late bloomers”. The unresolved feelings of girlies who have never been desired in their lives.
I was always fat or unattractive to ppl so I never had a bf, boys were never attracted to me, was asked out as a joke. All the things of course. Was always a girl that other girls thought was pretty but not desirable to the male gaze until I lost a bunch of weight in 2018. But also couple that with going to a PWI. Black men didn’t like me growing up so u know white men definitely didn’t (only speaking in man because was repressing feelings 4 women). But finally ppl started liking me at 21/22. Was feeling good and confident, and putting my worth in ppl who thought I was pretty because it was constant affirmations that I was desirable and wanted and that’s all I’ve ever dreamed of since I was a kid.
My brain always put this scarcity mindset Idea and anxious attachment together. A lot of ppl like to blame anxious attachment on parental styles but I’m 90% sure there are us girlies who have that style due to the constant want/need of validation. We finally have someone who likes us? We HAVE to hold on because what if it never happens again? What if this is a one time off thing? No one else may be attracted to me. It’s unfortunate to think that way but it’s real out here 😭 so that’s what’s wrong with me.
All to say, this impacts even communications with potential partners. Having to confront them about things that stress u out is particularly hard because it feels like you’re on constant thin ice/will be rejected at any moment. All u want to do is be accommodating and understanding and as u can imagine this can be super problematic in relationships. Like “oh, I have a super super big issue in our relationship but I will put up with it even if it destroys me because I’m scared you’ll leave me”… that is not normal!
Ahhhh, I’m done!! I be thinking !!!!!!
P.S. I will say the rationalizing is helping with my insecurities surrounding relationships and things. Slowly realizing that all of this is fucked up. Ppl have fucked me up. I feel fucked up and unloveable because I have these issues. But if I look back at the source of it all, I can grasp what the fuck is going on lol. And rationalizing is helping me with recognizing. I’m slowly realizing, I am kinda pretty lol and ppl are physically attracted to me and I’ve just dealt with mean kids, societal beauty standards, ppl just not being that into me and that’s okay, amongst other things. It will take a long while to be convinced ppl like mg personality however… That is probably my deepest deepest insecurity and I can’t imagine getting over that within the next 5 yrs unfortunately. Even though I require the absolute bare minimum from ppl, I have been rejected and made to feel like I am too much :(((
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I hit post limit but I'm watching James and the Giant Peach anyway so what about we do it in the style of my Baki liveblogs?
Oh yeah baby this format is coming back. No pics will be taken which makes me sad! But alas...
I think it's worth mentioning i haven't watched this movie since i was a kid so i don't remember anything other than it having a nice vibe
THIS KID IS MADE OUT OF FLESH AND THESE PPL ARE BRITISH. WHADDAHELL...
I was joking w Blood about the family dying after the boat crashes but um. I guess the rhyno won? Whatever THAT means...
I want these aunts to sandwich me they could make me worse
JWDGWKDVJWDV THE FUCKING WARREN WASTELAND 💀💀💀 that's how england looks to me 😍/j
FUCK YEAH FEET REVEAL THESE WOMEN WERE MADE FOR ME‼️
OH IT WAS A REAL RHYNO? 💀
THEY ARE GONNA COOK HIM
The kid is singing. Anyway, that spider def poisonous 💀
This kiddo is depressing bruh
Sings like shit tho ngl
James doesn't know what a poisonous spider looks like but he sure knows how to make a perfect paper balloon first try 💀
Second degree murder 😁👍
THAT DUDE SCARED THE SHIT OUT OF ME LMAO
SIR YOU ARE A CERTIFIED FREAK
BLINK MOTHERFUCKER
Man is scaring me more than he's scaring James but that's only bc unlike this weird isolated British orphan i was taught about stranger danger
I think James is just having a psychotic breakdown because of all the physical and psychological abuse he has been thru /j
LMAO THIS KID IS A FAILURE
Spiker you are like 180 cm you could get it yourself 😐
The way this peach came to be is both hilarious and cute this tree is winning rn
This movie has extremely funny dialogue i love Spiker sm
THE FAKE ASS TEAR 😭😭😭
Pretty based of them to make the priest pay double NGL
The rhyno threats are fucked up but so goofy bc. It's a fucking rhyno 💀
Maybe they mean the guy from spiderman tho, i mean, they WERE going to New York after all...
Damn i cracked the code
Strong ass kid ate the worm 😨
HEY I REMEMBER THAT MANY HANDED BASTARD I HAD A CRUSH ON HIM OMFG... This feels like seeing an old ex 💀
God i adore these bugs sm they are so shape
This spider is so hot, even hotter than i remembered
KQGWKVDNSGER THIS GUY IS SUCH A JERK I LOVE HIM
Rhinnoceri... I need to fuck this cricket <- guy so horny he forgot the word
THE LADY BUG IS A MILF
Isn't it kinda... Racist, to call another bug a maggot?
This music goes hard
What about da worm........? 🥺
That worm is prob like would u still love me if i was a human?
"now i have two half brothers" 💀💀💀
Didn't realize the bugs were huge. Even MORE culeables!
Omg milves DIED
Nvm girlboss powah
Damn they're actually bleeding tho
THEY ARE IN DA SEA, THAT WORM IS GONNA DIE
Omg he wears glasses cuz he's a worm therefore blind that's so cute
The spider hates this centipede sm 💀
LTDJEHSDJ I'M SURE THEY DO CENTIPEDE
This movie is just a bunch of European immigrants falling for the American dream
EVERYONE HATES THIS CENTIPEDE SM LMAO
This is abuse of the disabled
KSHDJDJZHZKGXG WORM ILY
Sick ass shark ngl
Do you think earthworm and centipede ever explored each other's bodies?
This is animal abuse
Oh he's from Brooklyn that's cute 🥺
AT THE SPENCE OF HIS LIFE, JAMES. STOP TRYING TO DOWNPLAY HIS TRAUMA!!
Maybe they do have a point tho
THE CRICKET IS A GILF⁉️ :Y
Worm deadass said 🥵
I thought they knew but were carnivorous what a bunch of fucking idiots. Bet they are doing this only to make James feel better about himself...
Well Mr centipide that's bc you didn't taste this c-
Sorry.
These idiots are gonna eat da whole peach -_-
OH POODLES AS IN WATER NOT DOGS OK...
...OR MAYBE HE MEANT DOGS? ARE CRICKETS CARNIVOROUS???
These bitches r getting drunk 💀
We got peach'd
WORM IS FAT LMAO 🥺
Girlie they are all nice to you too, maybe tad bit obnoxious but not MEAN.
THIS KID IS THREATENING TO KILL HIMSELF 💀
This is one of the coolest dream scenes I've ever seen
I bet his parents are alive and just abandoned him /j
CRICKET JUST CALLED CENTIPIDE AND ASS
They made a fucking dick joke I'm. Gonna fucking die.
They are gonna fuckin kill my man
JAMES... BABY......
THE CRICKET GOING 😱 LMAO
CRICKET KICKED HIM IN THE FACE HOLY FUCK
Look i know he lied but these people have no fucking mercy... They are literally gonna make him and ME cry..... ...... ..
NO. THATS SO FUCKED UP THIS MOVIE IS SO FUCKED UP THIS MESSAGE IS SO FUCKED UP.
"he's commiting pesticide!" I'm gonna shit myself
LMAO HE ADMITTED IT WAS HIS FAULT good.
WORM BABY PLEASE WJDGJAVECEBF DONT SAY HELPED 💀💀💀💀💀
Ladybug just spanked spider, Kinky
Literally no hurry at all my man is just walking like it's an afternoon in the park
Lmao nice Jack cameo
They are gonna kill my man, again
HOLY FUCK THEY ARE ACTUALLY TRYING TO KILL HIM
"hey that one felt pretty good!" He gets it.
I love him for his American swag
KILLING HIM FR
OH THANK YOU LADY THANK YOU... 😭
MY KINGGFGGG ITXJFgsheaysrsudruddi 💥
Stop being homophobic worm let them kiss too
Aw worm got the hat kdjdthjf 🥺
SPIDER N LADYBUG ARE DOING LESBIANISM TOGETHER...
OMG HE'S A GRASSHOPPER NOT A CRICKET 😭😭
Too long of a name tho sticking to calling him cricket -_-
They are fucking
This grasshopper is fucking racist...
This movie is so lovely they are his family man... ;;
God Ms spider i think i hauve covid
This kid is definitely just dead on his yard hallucinating btw /j
THEY WON'T ALWAYS BE TOGETHER STOP B4 I CRY...
DA RHYNO NOOO......!!!!!!!!
ANYTHING BUT JERSEY WJCSJSFSHSF
I'M GONNA FUCKIN CRY Y'ALL
HIS FRIENDSSSSS 😭😭😭😭
This is so sad Alexa play Despacito
How did he lose the tie? 💀
EL LECHERO LMAO
Hang on, they weren't in England? They were in America? How did the aunts make it here in that beaten old car?
AH NVM THEY WENT THRU THE WATER LMAO
YEAH SAME JAMES NO SHIT
Before photoshop existed lol
THEY ARE GASLIGHTING THIS CHILD
HEY WHAT'S UP FREAKY OLD MAN!
Shut up James 💀
JAMES SNAPS!?
FUCK YEAH LITTLE BOY!!!
MURDER ATTEMPT 💀💀💀
Second degree murder 😁👍
OOOOHHHH?????
GQNWG KEGSJDVQNS YEAAAAHHHHHH LET'S FYCJING GOOOOO
SICK EM BOYS, RIGHT IN FROM OF THE CROWD 💀
PUBLIC EXECUTION LMAO
Wig
Those women are dying dudes ...
"god bless the colonies" glow-worm lady... 💀
"go ahead!" A hero of the people, communist icon
This movie is gonna make me happy cry look at my guys and James...
SICK ASS SEED
Best found family tale ever what a fucking win.
Well freaky little man you are kinda fine when not talking to little boys in the dark of night ngl
AJDVSNDVNDBR CENTIPIDE FOR PRESIDENT WOULD VOTE‼️
Oooojlhhlhndnbggvt WORM GETTING EM LADIES FUCK YEAH 🥴
God this is so pretty everyone is thriving and they are friends and it was all real and shit omfg 😭💞
The ending song is so good too... 🥺
OH POST CREDITS!!
Abuse revenge heaven 💀
WELL WASN'T THAT FUCKING LOVELY? MAYBE THE BRI ISH AINT SO BAD AFTER ALL... Time for some final thoughts! 😁💞
AAAAUAHGNGNMGBGMGNGNGH BROOOTHER WHEN I TELL YOU I LOVED THIS MOVIE... IT WAS SO FUCKING LOVELY.
I did not only love every single fucking character present here, but the designs and the music and the animation god, AND HELL THE HUMOR TOO!! Fucking caught me off guard more than once ngl, but it was great 💀💀
And of course, the thing i loved THE most is having a found family not be separated... :']]
I think this movie does a great job portraying abuse and trauma and PTSD in a very child friendly manner, the lessons it puts there are quite lovely tbh. I wish we could've seen more characters get developed tho!! The two who got the most relevancy and depth were grasshopper and centipide which tbh is ok bc i love them but a little lesson from all of the characters would've been nice too... 🥺
There's, however, a big elephant in the room that i gotta acknowledge, and that is the aunts. As y'all might have realized, my carnal desire for them surpasses my logical brain and makes me overlook the abuse they put James thru which quite honestly parallels my own real one.
I'm speaking w a British accent in my mind alright fucking cringe anyway, aside from the most obvious reason, that being my rampant lust and homosexual tendencies, i wish they hadn't tried to make the characters ugly = evil.
Like idk i think they were kinda bland! I couldn't take their villainous portrayal seriously when most of the time it was like "haha isn't it devious how ugly these old women are??" Like no i need them to ruin me.
I think I'm just a bit disoriented i think blood might not be coming to my head, y'all tell me if I'm making any sense...
Anyway, overall, is this movie good? OF THE BEST I'VE SEEN IN A WHILE if not for a bit of lost potential it would have been absolutely perfect!! And yesss, of course i recommend it!! It's such a fun time w such a rewarding end :'33 truly wonderful 🦗
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⌗ HIGH SCHOOL SWEETHEART!
pairings : cc!dream, cc!georgenotfound, cc!sapnap x reader (separate)
pronouns : you/yours (2nd person pov)
warning(s) : nothing !! (if there are more please tell me)
notes : sososorry for being inactive or shit wtv, having loads of school projects and homeworks. A GIFT FOR ALL OF YOU, MY CHILDREN !!!!!!
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DREAM.
he is more cocky back then…i get the vibes a lot😟
dream would do anything to get your attention 😪
“hey y/n! watch this!” I CAN IMAGINE HIM DOING THIS A LOT JUST TO GET YOUR ATTENTIOn‼️
but he is a soft around you as well
need help with homework? he will help even he doesn’t know anything.
ong he has big big crush on you too much that he will die of love ☹️
the way he asked you out as well..oh boy
it was cute and cliche? i guess.
he asked you out by giving you a letter, i getting vibes as well from him that he asked you out by telling you straightforward that he likes you.
but you liked him too :D
he always saves a sit for you, everytime for class :(
overall, best bf ever 😩
GEORGENOTFOUND.
he is a shy boy
but a cute shy boy 😏(you get it?..no okay then😃)
everytime you would need help with homework or something that relates to studying stuff, he’ll help you :D
he eats lunch with you and sticks with you at break time :,)
honestly like a lost puppy :(
i think it would take like a long to confess his feelings for you..like he confessed to you almost the end of senior year 😟
how he asked you out? it was at graduation day and he told you to meet him at he back of the school and yeah lots of nervous stuff but he confessed to you (finally)
honestly he is a yes!
SAPNAP.
HE IS THE SAME THING (like 80%) AS DREAM 😵💫
everytime someone hits on you like anyone, he would get so petty (thats how i describe it) and would always scoff loudly to get both of the person and your attention. 😭
acts like a big wolf to everyone but a softie to you :(
when he didn’t pay attention to classes you would let him borrow your notes.
you’ve been observing him since day 1, that he doesn’t listen to classes, you would always write notes for him and yourself (it has to be neatly written and well explain so he can understand).
always flirts with you 😪 the pickup lines are so cheesy but sometimes cute :p
i think he asked you out at the random time. like he would confess to you when you both were having P.E 😬 but it was cute…….
but omg i remember ppl say that they got hey mamas boy vibes from sapnap…maybe it’s true haha
he is a 10/10 boyfriend, ‼️‼️‼️
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Something that really annoyed me in season 2 episode of Euphoria is when Jules get jealous of Rue and Elliott because she thinks Rue has a crush on him. I look back a episode 7 (I think it was) and think to myself "Jules, Rue just having a crush on someone is 1000x better than having sex with them like you did with Anna" like literally in the s1 finale while Jules does rue's makeup she talks about her weekend and straight up talks about Anna and says her kissing and biting her felt amazing you can tell Rue is uncomfortable and Jules just continues to talk about her and it's like she doesn't give a shit about Rue (i guess since Rue is really chill and she saw how happy it made Jules and didn't want to say anything) If this had been reversed Jules would probably get all jealous and shit with Rue but it'd be more obvious. I don't feel sympathy for Jules when she cries in bathroom (bitch that's how you made Rue feel and she didn't do anything yet). I'm really hoping they do bring Anna back, especially since Jules think she and Rue would get along well together, if they brought Anna back and Rue wasn't okay around her and Jules realizes that and what she did was shitty I think that would redeem her a little (or if Rue just straight up called her out on it)
Hello I'm asking various Euphoria accounts this cause that scene of Jules meeting Elliott really rubbed me the wrong way this is just my opinion so please feel free to respond on whether or not you agree/disagree
Hey thanks sm for this ask I love asks like this.
Okay there isn’t really a question in here 😭, but I’m guessing you wanted my take ? It’s long! So buckle up. (And like yours my answer is opinion based and heavily based on how I interpreted their actions )
The general consensus seems to be what you just said, “Jules can’t be upset because she suspects rue likes someone else because she liked multiple people last season and even had sex with one.” Jules is not her manic pixie dream girl and ppl hate it bc she was written as one in the first half and refused to do the job.
I disagree, and when I say this I don’t mean Jules is “right” or “wrong”, I just find the whole topic to lack any actual depth. It’s just more “you should’ve been the perfect girl for her despite what you were going through” discourse. (Again, this doesn’t mean I wasn’t also irritated or thought she had the right to do anything, when Jules was doing all this, I was livid pretty sure I have a post abt it i specifically mean ppl acknowledge it and in the same breath treat her reaction as a intentionally malice normal action for her). In short what you said makes perfect sense at surface level, if my friend randomly told me abt this relationship, I'd 100% agree with this take irl. But this is a story and we actually get to know everything and because of that, although I agree with the initial thought I don’t actually find it to be a valid reason to deny her something like jealousy over this situation.
So season one we ALL know Rue is head over heels for Jules, she’s our main character we see everything she does and feels most of the time. We empathize with her more because ultimately this show is made to shed light on rue and the stuff she struggles with, we don’t want to see her as someone capable of being flawed beyond being addicted to drugs. We all want her to make amends, we want her to have the girl she wants, we want her to enjoy her life, and even when she relapses we don’t want anyone shitting on her for it. We’re set up to be on her side no matter what. She’s an unreliable narrator, the way you and a lot of people feel abt Jules doing that in season two stems from us adopting Rues feelings and world view from season one. In season one we see her obsession with Jules, we see how much warmth and love and good intention is behind it , but in my opinion that’s why Jules seemed extra insensitive season one. We think she’s this manipulative person for “ignoring rues feelings” when it was actually shown to us again and again that Jules was always hesitant and not sure about this relationship WITH GOOD REASON but Rue is the one who doesn’t care. She just wanted her and we all thought
“well why can’t she have her they’re close enough.”
Immediately after they meet Jules started talking to Tyler for like a month or two and was at that time very clearly not going to date Rue, still Rue was in love with her. Rue liking Jules in silence while she lives her life shouldn’t count. And I only bring up Tyler to make the point that jules didn’t blatantly shrug her off for half a season, Rue just ignored the relationship Jules was building with someone else and so did we because we knew it was Nate and ultimately not going to happen. Jules had no obligation to Rue’s one sided feelings at that point. Even when Rue kissed her Jules is shocked (and still very much in to Tyler like she had been from the start)
After the festival is where it got confusing , they kiss each other and once again the audience assumes the role of rue and assumes this is now a thing. That’s what I thought as well and I still find it pretty confusing, if I was Rue I would assume the same thing. But like Ali pointed out, they never spoke about it, they were both not communicating feelings to each other after the festival. Rue legit tells her mom they’re a thing while Jules shys away from this with her dad because she had no clue I’d she wants that. Yes at that point they both knew they liked each other and it’s revealed Jules has been considering the possibility for a little bit in her episode but Jules still did not owe Rue a relationship. We all wanted a relationship but that doesn’t mean she’s wrong and horrible for not wanting one with Rue who had been a confusing weight on her chest since they met.
The second Jules meets this girl she gains a best friend and like Jules states she had never even been that close to a girl before. Their relationship was something very new for her, she didn’t take Rue as a love interest at first meanwhile we took everything she did as romantic or flirting because Rue is our lens’s and she liked her. But to Jules Rue was just this person she felt really comfortable and close with, she let her take her nudes for ffs. Then halfway through when rue finally kisses her she realizes oh...I have a crush on a girl. It’s always been a little more than platonic hasn’t it ? . She packs that up for whatever reason and still goes to see Tyler that night.
I like to think she does that because again it’s a very new realization and Tyler is already established, & easy to understand with no complex feelings. she chooses the relationship she built over what could be confused feelings for having the friendship she always dreamed of. (But she knows somewhere in there that yeah she does like rue like that). After the shit Nate pulled the last thing anyone including rue should have thought was “okay let’s hop in a relationship with rue who is in love with you” 💀. That relationship would not have helped or fixed her rue would be the only one benefiting from the romance. And it wouldn’t last long bc Jules was not okay.
Anyways, who gives a fuck about Anna ? 😭 let’s be serious. Jules Actually gets emotionally manipulated (which everyone claims she did to rue) + even more cruel shit and shuts off and leaves town. She meets a girl who feels like a happier and stable Rue(this is opinion based. Her telling rue later anna reminded her of rue is why I think we’re supposed to view her as a version of rue) , goes to a club drugged out and has jumping visions between , Stress free Rue and Nate hooking up with her. She’s clearly not okay about Tyler and is trying to free herself by moving on with someone else, that person just can’t be the real rue because the real rue isn’t okay , she can’t tell the real rue anything and she has to keep the real rue alive and well. She can’t do that as a girlfriend because again Tyler is a fresh wound and she doesn’t want to be that to anyone right now and also rue is a lot to handle just as a friend. but if she makes herself unavailable although she does like rue maybe a better time will Come. So yeah she hooks up with Anna, and yeah she tells Rue, and she also admits for the first time that she loves rue as well. She spends the whole season finale subtly begging for rue to be the rue she saw in Anna. This is a story we’re supposed to read in to shit so I believe Jules behavior in the last episode is her trying to make rue into the version of her she saw in Anna. Jules legit comes home with this new love and gives Rue a makeover to make her a little more like the girl she met over the weekend. The version she can ask to run away with her to the city and party because that Rue isn’t anxiety ridden or severely depressed or struggling to stay clean because whether she does or doesn’t is dependent on Jules being mentally sound enough to I dunno not ask her to do exactly this.
The whole Jules and Anna thing to me at first read as exactly what you’re saying. Then I thought on it some more after the special episodes and realized well it’s not really that is it. It’s not simply “I love you and Anna” it’s more so “I love Anna because I love you and she is what I wished you could be but you’re the real thing. I want you, Rue Bennett, to kiss me”
Does that mean all is forgiven and that wasn’t confusing as fuck emotionally? No it just means all in all Jules telling Rue (who she never expressed interest in being in a relationship with Vice versa) about it doesn’t get to be hung out to dry because Rue wanted to date her while she was clearly interested in other people. Nobody gets to hold It against her that she sought out relationships and one night stands with other people while Rue liked her and she knew bc she was SINGLE and simply did not pick Rue it doesn’t matter that she liked her back she still did not pick her romantically. To be fair Rue is supposed to be unreliable and we see that because Jules was actually very clear abt how she felt in some of her scenes. Specifically when Lexi tells her rue is happy because of her Jules asks her to not repeat that. She doesn’t want that on her plate. When she picks rue up and states she’s not trying to be friends with someone who’s trying to kill themselves. She’s repeatedly setting that boundary even though we know she wants to cross it because she loves her and Everytime she gets too close (the pool, the station, the kiss after the festival) she’s never in her right mind and the next day she steps back for her sanity. And if a simple let’s not cross that line isn’t enough, her reasons for pulling a will they won’t they are. She loves rue, but rue comes with a lot of convoluted emotions she will constantly be sorting through. And they’re not the simple teenage things either.
It’s am I a bad person for fighting with her because she might relapse ?
Can I talk to my partner about shit going on with me ? Because she has a lot going on I can’t add to that.
Can I be someone’s reason for sobriety ? Am I evil for not wanting to ?
What if she dies ?
What if it’s like this forever
Is this like mom?
SHES SEVENTEEN. Shit nobody could even handle this shit at 20. It will always be stressful no matter what. But in high school ? You’ve barely figured your world out yet.
Liking Jules when Jules liked Tyler ≠ Jules ignoring Rues feelings
Kissing Rue while distressed and never talking abt it ≠ relationship
Jules hooking up with Anna ≠ cheating on a significant other
Knowing someone likes you a LOT does not mean you owe them anything. Imagine if rue was a boy this would legit be on the nice guys Reddit.
So to answer the it initial “why is she jealous when she liked other people season one” ...
I know I’m saying it a lot but RUE IS UNRELIABLE, she is the one to say Jules is jealous , but Jules in her own words says the reason she feels weird about Elliot is because of how rue acted when they were introduced( I know she said rue has a crush on him but we hear her say in an episode preview that it’s actually because she thinks Eliot is not telling her something...I rather go with what actually came out of Jules mouth in her own scene with someone rather than what rue remembers bc evidently, Rue remembers things how she wants to). But if we use the crush line, Jules saw him the night they reconnected and rue was clearly using, she doesn’t know if he was someone rue got intimate with and now doesn’t want to tell her. Rue would act the same way if she had met Anna (she actually does feel this way bc of what she said in the car) and BOTH ARE VALID, they can’t be wrong for being jealous of ppl their partner had something with when they weren’t together and that person is still around 😭. You’re gonna feel a way no matter what even if one told you up front about it while you smiled and the other tried to hide it behind their back.
Jules doesn’t need to be redeemed, last time I spoke about her and the things she did season one I said if she acknowledged it and apologized that’s redemption enough, she does apologize for the train station to rue and she sheds a lot of light on her season one actions all in one episode. She’s not a villain , and she did her part to make amends. Rue is never gonna apologize for placing her sobriety on her, placing them in a unspoken relationship Jules isn’t ready to get in to. But that’s because rue is still actively going through the wringer and Every time she’s done and back to her right state of mind, she does apologize and attempt to make amends. She hasn’t been okay since we met her because staying clean is not the only thing weighing her down mentally. This season is her outward spiral and how she will redeem herself Jules’s spiral is over and she’s righted her wrongs.
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AWW TY FOR THE HUGS— AND OKAYY JUST WANTED TO MAKE SURE! i saw some in the event too but i didn't understand if you meant separately or together?? lmao— if that's what you mean by wips,, im excited for all of your works your writing is phenomenal and yeah i already fell in love <33 i am curious to see more :) as for my request,, first of all take your time to write it cause you got a life, have other wips to finish and ur imagination + creativity may lack sometimes. so, tyt!! (note: this is kinda long lmao-)
second, it is based of a dream i had because i cannot stop thinking about it yo 😩 modern au, where reader is the younger sister (im a sucker for these pls- obv reader isnt a minor, just a bit younger) of childe's and thoma's best friend, where she is quite shy + gets flustered easily. u aren't good with talking to others so when u first met em u just hid behind ur bro— sadly breaking his heart cause he thought his 2 best bros would have a different effect on u— but no. ajax and thoma were confused and tried to look behind ur bro— but there was no need since you peeked a bit, looking up at them with big timid eyes, while theirs widened. a small, soft hello left your lips, and it was set.
the 2 deemed you as adorable and precious as hell. and breedable lmfaoo
you often saw them coming to your house so they could game with your brother, or heard him talk to them through phone- sometimes they even asked about you and u blushed really hard cause "they asked for me?-" and since they seemed like nice ppl to u, you asked to your bro if you could join them sometimes, either playin at home or going out. u may have developed a crush on them- he was so happy u asked since ur so shy- his besties were perfect 4 u. so, yes. ok next- after days, months of hanging out and stuff, you got closer to them, felt more comfy, even gave em hugs cause u were rlly affectionate. that didnt stop em from teasin u tho, when ur bro wasnt lookin cause u were so easy to fluster. (childe def being the worst out of the 2-) they just couldn't get enough of your cute reactions, so they... kept doing it. ajax's flirty demeanor + thoma's smooth ways = u ded. and all they did was chuckle at that. meanies
then came the big day where u asked them if you could go hang out with them... without ur bro. u told him tho, but he was ok with it cause he trusted them- so u went out and childe came to pick you up and u both went to thoma's place. (or they come to urs and ur bro is gone somewhere?? lmao idk)
it was ur first time bein alone with em so u were a bit overwhelmed- so they tried to calm you down, and u felt better again :) played games etc... then after one of their comments, u went full flustered mode and everything they did to hold themselves back went out of the window, ur cute innocent dress already testing them. so they,, just started ravishing u. they teased u relentlessly, and u just sat there red af cause u weren't used to this much teasing. u were too shy to do anything urself, too inexperienced, so they took those matters in their own hands and... yeah. ur moans so cute they couldn't stop fucking you roughly. filling you with cum. so much cum was dripping down your thighs, but you had no time to focus on that as one kept pounding ur moist, small cunt, and the other fucked your tight ass, both with no intention to stop anytime soon. tears streamed down ur face cause it was so much... but they said you could take more so, it had to be correct, right?
and at the end u all sleep together after mumbling i love yous. because fluff warm,,
SO YEAH- since i mostly included the sfw part ur free to only do the nsfw one?? i tried giving as much info as possible so you have the idea set in ur mind,, now swarm it with urs cause i cant write </3
but yeah it's ur choice i don't wanna make you feel like it's too much or anything 😭😭 once again, tyt with it and pls take care!! AND TRY TO SLEEP A BIT MORE OKAY?? OKAY TY AND HAVE A NICE DAY
I'M SO SORRY THIS TOOK AGES AND I KIND OF WENT OFF OF WHAT YOU SAID BUT CHECK IT OUT HERE BABY <333
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Ellie what are the nichest bands u listen to?like the most obscure n weird things on your playlist
ok like i said in the lil post i made b4 i posted this, thank u so much 4 this question, this was rly fun 2 think abt!! 😭💕
idk how much of an answer u were expecting, and i probs overthought this Way too much cos like ~obscure~ can mean different things like most ppl off the internet probs haven’t heard of the mountain goats or neutral milk hotel, but they’re p well known on the internet exactly For being obscure/niche 😅 (and tbf the live recordings of gigs i’ve got of both of those bands probs Are some of the most niche stuff i’ve got 😭)
so what i’ve gone for is like, bands i’ve never rly seen many other ppl talk, even on the internet?? 😧 so 2 start..
darwin deez - an indie pop/rock band i got introduced 2 by a friend at school in like 2012, i guess one of their songs was Kinda well known on the internet (radar detector!!) but i haven’t heard many ppl talk abt them since that came out, and their 2nd and 3rd albums are two of my fav albums ever!! 🥰
courtney love - not That courtney love, there’s for some reason a band w/ the same name as her from the early 90s, even b4 she got famous?? 😧 they only had 3 ep’s but they’re Rly good, i found out abt them bcos snail mail did a cover of one of their songs (the 2nd most beautiful girl in the world!!) 😮
emily’s sassy lime - i rly love riot grrrl music and i was looking for more bands and their name stuck out 2 me (it’s a palindrome!!) so i started reading abt them and saw that they were a band of 3 asian american girls which was rly cool bcos unfortunately there weren’t that many women of colour in the riot grrrl scene.. so i was like hell yeah!! they only had one album but it Slaps 😎
the like - an all women indie rock band i found out abt when i used 2 be in b*ndom in like 2012, they’re just Rly good and rly underrated!! 😭
the brobecks - an indie pop/rock band i also discovered from bandom, the guy who was in it was also in panic! at the disco for a while, but everything he did as the brobecks is Way better than anything panic has done in the last decade 😅 violent things is their only album that’s got an ~official~ release but they have a few others out there too, happiest nuclear winter is my fav!!
asobi seksu - a shoegaze/dream pop sorta band, i’ve only listened 2 one of their albums, but i heard “i’m happy but you don’t like me” in an episode of skins and loved it so much i wanted 2 hear more of the band 🥺😭
big audio dynamite - i’m not sure if they’re obscure exactly bcos tbf they had a #1 single in the 90s, but also i only know 1 other person who likes them and i’d never heard of them even tho i’d been a clash fan for years??? but they were mick jones’ band after the clash and they do like dance?? music and it’s rly good!!
the boo radleys - they were kind of a one hit wonder during britpop in the 90s w/ a song (wake up boo!) that most ppl probs know, but b4 they were a britpop band they were more of a shoegaze band, “ichabod and i” is one of my fav albums of all time (i chose my name from the first track “eleanor everything!!” 🤯)
the vaselines - maybe they’re not so obscure bcos i’ve seen a few ppl talk abt them and i think we probs all got into them the same way (hearing nirvana’s covers of their songs 😅) but they’re a rly good scottish rock band i think deserve more love!! 😭
altered images - probably one of the most obscure 80s band i’m like an actual fan of, they’re p well known for “happy birthday” but their other stuff is Rly good too, especially “don’t talk to me about love” and “i could be happy!!” 🥰 (also i’ve always had a massive crush on clare grogan ever since seeing her in red dwarf, so it was cool 2 find out she had a band too 😅)
+ a special shoutout 2 sebastian svahn, i only kno one song by him (blue corrugated cardboard!!) that i heard in a david firth video, it’s probably the most niche/weird thing in my library, but it’s rly soothing, i listen 2 it b4 i go 2 bed sometimes 😌
so there u go!! sorry if this is more than u were expecting sndsfjsd, and thank u 2 anyone who reads this if u do!! 🥰✨
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