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forestryfae · 6 months

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one really fun thing about having a mom and a dad like mine is that i literally cant enjoy anything if it isnt neccessary and i have to keep reminding myself that it doesnt have to be useful or a neccessity to be ok to have and that just because i CAN go without something for a while doesnt mean i should have to

like. okay maybe i CAN go the whole day without eating, or i CAN go the whole day with only one meal. but i dont HAVE to and im not lazy and fat for getting dinner even if i "havent done" anything that day. i dont have to do a million chores that day just to be justified in eating. i dont need to be completely out of pants or tshirts or socks or underwear or whatever to justify wanting a couple extra pairs of socks so i dont run out so quick, or simply not enjoying some of my clothes cus theyre uncomfortable to wear. i shouldnt have to justify that, it is what it is and i shouldnt have to feel like i NEED someone to tell me its ok for me to buy extra socks or more tshirts or whatever. and they dont HAVE to be uncomfortable or pretty. they can just be comfortable and i can just enjoy wearing them.

similarly i shouldnt have to justify having fucking needs and emotions. i simply hate living in my house, thats just somethign that is, and it makes sense, i shouldnt need to literally beg people to justify it for me cus i dont feel that what im saying is good enough. i shouldnt have to feel embarrassed and like i have to overexplain why i hate the house and why its miserable living in there. yes it "technically" has a kitchen that works and a bathroom that works and ive got a bedroom and livingroom and washingmachine, so it "should tcehnically" be fine but it isnt. its fucking old, theres a piece of the wall where the insides are missing, cold air is leaking in in more than one place, the bathroom fucking sucks and the kitchen is gross, its lonely, the backyard is a mess, the garage is literally too dangerous to be inside due to shit engineering and a big fucking cement block in the roof, and its gonna cost me more to fic all of it than i can ever afford, plus its in the middle of fucking nowhere and i have to take the train to get to the nearest city just to buy groceries and i cant go in the summer at all. i shouldnt have to indirectly beg people to validate me when i try to justify why i dont like living there. just because mom and dad doesnt fucking care when i say i hate it there

i shouldnt have to justify or explain why something upsets me eitehr, it upsets me and that should be it. i should be allowed to be upset. i should be allowed to say i dont want to be treated a certain way and immediately being yelled at and told im not that special and i should get off my high horse and have literally every tiny thing ive ever done be thrown in my face to justify why i dont deserve to be treated nicely.

also similarly, i should be allowed to just. like things. just because i like them. instead of trying to force myself to like stuff i feel like i "should" like or i want to want to like. instead of thinking "i dont need that" because thats what my shit mom keeps telling me any time i even look at something nice. i cant even point at a nice dress and say "i like the pattern" without hearing my little sister or brother parrot it back to me cus they learned it from mom. also, just because i CAN go a whole day without eating and be fine, just like i did involuntarily due to shitty parenting, doesnt mean i should have to. i can just eat when im hungry instead of continuously telling myself at 10 am that dinners at 3 and i can wait. generally after 4 hours i can eat a second meal of the day, its fine, i dont need to be literally starving to be able to eat something. i dont need to justify not showering with "ill shower tomorrow morning cus work or whatever" no shut up i want a shower now and i need a shower now and its the only thing i can think of so lets shower now. its fine. literally doesnt hurt to shower just because i want to. doesnt hurt to eat just cus im hungry or i want to. its fine if i wanna do laundry even if its late in the day and its fine if i wanna skip an activity cus im tired or sad. idk why exactly im like this but i feel like my mom and dad constantly belittling me or brushing me off or just straight up ignoring me and not bothering to do their job as a parent cus "i should just do it myself" and "well why didnt you just eat a sandwich for dinner" and "well why didnt you just do this differently" for every little thing plus me not being allowed to want attention or need anything cus i "already have" something else or im "nagging" them might have something to do with it

"why didnt you just do this" well for starters i was scared to cut my own nails until i was like 11 or 12 or something cus i thought mom or dad was gonna scream at me at the top of their lungs and curse me out for doing something wrong. i wasnt allowed to do SHIT and i was never told when those limitations and rules didnt count anymore. there was no "youre old enough to cut your own nails just be careful" for literally anything. there was just screaming because i wasnt allowed to do something OR there was "you have to do this now" literally overnight with NO prior warning or explanation. i had to start going to school and waking up on my own overnight cus dad just told me the day before school after summer vacation that i had to. like. my brother way 6, i was 9 and id never done any of it alone, i wasnt even allowed to cut bread on my own, and if we didnt manage to do it on our own we had to call him and get screamed and cursed at for the whole ride to school cus he was "going to get fired" and "going to jail" and we were "helpless" and shit. like okay thanks for that, YOU raised me to be scared of doing literally anything on my own and never taught me anything, he literally treated me like i just knew everything he knew. wtf was i supposed to do.

anyways shoutout to my parents for making me scared of fuckign liking or wanting stuff. or even trying stuff. i see people who willingly buy shit just because they wanted it and not because they needed it just for fun and it drives me up the fucking wall. other people can just. buy stuff. and they dont need to justify it, they can just want it. meanwhile i have the most deranged way or approaching how to decide if i want to buy something or not and its so fucking unhealthy and i dont know why i do it, i just do and its part of why i hate shopping with other people, i like the peace of just quietly shopping on my own and working on it, instead of trying to get second opinions from people or feeling like i Have To Buy Something cus thats how quality time w my grandparents and cousin was like when i was a kid aunt uncle and cousin visit grandparents for the weekend, dad and us come along to visit and hang out, we spend a large amount of the time either shopping for new clothes or toys or candy, quality time w family then quickly becomes Shopping Is Love, dad doesnt give a shit about me but will buy me a soda after ive been talking to my therapist at 13, now giving people stuff and money is how youre supposed to show people you care. fucking deranged

in other words, i am not a bad person for struggling, im also not a shitty awful person for not being good at money, and im not a bad person for wanting to sell the majority of my furniture and other shit so ill have less to worry about and ill have less shit i dont use or want or need. im not a bad person for wanting to have some order in my life.

but yeah im also not a bad person for wanting stuff or wanting to actually enjoy my sorroundings and how life works for me and so on

#talkies

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kimmkitsuragi · 1 year

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this is so stupid and embarrassing so im putting a read more to it lol

i think ive been actively avoiding things that used to bring me joy and happiness in order not to taint their image in my head. because i really cant feel happy or excited about anything nowadays 👍 because for example if i keep up with shinee or listen to them, and still feel terrible, it will just make me sad bc they’re supposed to be special to me. i literally act like yuzuru doesnt exist rn like i DO see content here but i pretend like i dont see it and scroll past before i actually look at it. because if i watch him and feel absolutely nothing it will just be terrible lol. what else. ive been avoiding loona too but it’s easy given the current circumstances anyway lol. ive been avoiding watching movies even :p i just dont feel any excitement over anything and even if i do it’s like very short and i honestly even forget the thing that made me excited a Little Bit happened. like for example ive been joking taemin will fix me for MONTHS and i wasnt feeling like This back then. so it’s funny and all but as that day came closer i realized fuck well,,, no i dont think EVEN this will make me feel anything. and u know what yes it’s great to have him back but the happiness i felt from it lasted a whole half an hour or something. which feels terrible to admit because he’s supposed to be special damn it!!!! why cant i feel anything good abt this even like.... when tf i will feel anything good then. like im thinking back to 2020 and at that time i was literally suicidal all the time lmao and EVEN THEN when minho returned it had such an effect on me i cant even explain. i was just smiling all the time and happy and excited all the time for weeks. now it doesnt even last a full hour. gr. i literally dont even want to see content of them because it makes me sad that i dont feel anything. i was supposed to feel all the good emotions a burst of emotions etc. this is such a weird thing to say i know but i cant stand it

#like my friend is texting me all excited and we're talking and she's so happy and excited abt it and im like. trying to match that energy.#failing. lol #i literally do want to avoid all this content because my brain decided to make things unfun #and that's NOT how i want to perceive and remember these things. they are supposed to be really special.#they deserve better than this unenthusiastic and soulless approach lmao #this really is embarrassing to admit but #i wanted to write this out :/#neg #🗒#also been thinking is it like a punishment. like should i stop doing this. idk idk idk

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winking · 4 years

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#rant time #ive been thinking about so many things lately first of all how in year from now im gonna be getting ready to graduate... some advisor said #im graduating early and like it makes me so excited.. more excited than happy cause i dont feel proud? i #my entire college experience has been super mediocre especially my grades.. i have 2 more semesters to raise my gpa but idk as long as its #above 3.0 maybe it will go highter this semester who knows #im always rlly worried abt my presentation on tues #i wish i was a good public speaker but im awful my anxiety gets the best of me u would think the more i do it the more i approve but theres #no improvement at all.. im the same nervous wreck ive been since middle school #my hands sweat my legs shake my voice shakesbut the worst thing is that my mind goes completely blank ... i can deal with looking embarrasse #but i cant do anythung abt my mind just blanking .. standing there while my brain spits out words that makes no sense stuttering nothing is #coherent its the most humilating thing in the world .. preparing for something and knowing the naterial but coming off as stupid .. i base #my intelligence on being able to explain something bht i cant even do that its awful and im so sad ik everyone struggles w this to an extent #but to me it feels like the end of the workd every day #crying after everytime after my history class cause i was too scared to speak up so now he thinks i didnt do any work when i did .. i read #the entire weekend for no reason ... i cant even hse the bathroom my anxiety is ruining my life #just sobbed while writint all that lets go to the next topic. im rlly struggling to eat healthy i did successfully for a month and then it #went to shit but idk why its so hard now ... but im obsessed with eating #i feel so alone i contemplated talking abt this but i just have to say it and i hope no one judges me for it i guess #i have no emotional support right now or sny support? i talked to a school advisor for 3 mins and i felt so unwelcomed it was rushed #80% sure she told me the wrong information too i hated it so much ... i tried going to therapy and i called to make an appointment nd they #told me i had to go to a walkin and i cant do it so mamy times while i wait ohtside the door and i cant walk in .. not that it matters since #i read somewhere theyre conpletely booked i cant even see a therapist #i feel so uncomfortable at my parents house cause of something that happened to them it feels so weird and i dont wanna be here #i hve no friends online or irl #i dont even think i have the energy to reach out to anyone rn im just trying to survive each day #it just makes me think like ... ya no one in my life has asked me how i am ... and i try to get help to but it didnt work out #this is the most ... valid depressive time of my life #like i used to be depressed when i was a teen but i had friends and teachers who cared abt me but now its like ya im completely alone #im rlly better off dead #im just so tired

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jiilys · 3 years

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would u help me out for a second. im in the mood to write for the first time, and i think your style is beautiful. sitting down n actually trying though, im stuck as fuck! i’m realizing that in your dialogue/scenes you’ve got a lot of Little Things. little tiny elements that are subtle & just enough. how are you deciding that lily is building a house of cards at the moment or sirius is sitting in a tree or whatever during a given scene? how do you come up with those ideas for dialogue that are so silly & real & sneakily tender? do you know where it’s going when you begin? any advice for just… starting something?

ps: i appreciate you. you make it look easy & that’s very very cool

This is a lovely question!! Sorry it took me so long to get to it, I didn’t want to get it wrong. Also I’ve included some examples to try and explain what I mean in practise, but it also comes off rather like plugging. tragically this is unavoidable. Anyway, all that being said I have no idea how to advise you about dialogue and coming up with it, I think just listening to people talk helps. Don’t forget contractions, and when in doubt always trust the reader to keep up, real people don’t say perfect or even grammatically correct sentences a lot of the time. We also cut each other off all the time, especially when we’re trying to be funny. Like, here’s an example from warm front:

“He’s not even two. He probably would have thought it was, like, having a lie down or something.”

Harry was laughing now, “A lie down?”

“Yeah, a spontaneous, truck-induced–“

“–Permanent–“ “

–Permanent, lie-down. I’m almost jealous now actually.”

Another thing, but people say um and like or can't speak or cut themselves off, especially when they’re nervous. James when Lily says she loves him for the first time: ‘“Wow,” He breathed, “I’m– wow.” He put both hands on her cheeks and kissed her crazy, abruptly, dumbly. Her head spun.’ He can’t even speak! Dumb boy.

I think natural dialogue sometimes just requires you to read it aloud, which is very embarrassing but ultimately quite useful in trying to figure out whether something sounds normal or not. Use casual words, and try not to go dictionary hunting: if you cant think of the word chances are your character can’t either

In terms of concepts I have no idea, but I do have a few tips. I write all my short one-shots in one document (its called ‘just bad’ lmao) so its easy to start something, write a few lines, and then if it doesnt work just start a new concept, but still have all the old stuff handy. if you feel like you’ve written yourself into a corner its probably because you took a wrong turn earlier, so its just a matter of going back up and figuring out where you turned onto the dead end, or where a line could be funnier and/or sadder and/or more meaningful. Sometimes the bare bones of a decent line is there but you have to work it a little.

In this harry/ginny thing where harry is apologising for all the attention and ginny brushes him off she says:

“It’s nothing,” her voice, all force, “Anyway, it’s more funny than annoying.”

The response went through a few drafts, all variations on the same thing:

(1) “You’re funnier.” [too short, doesn’t make sense, and not really that funny. unholy trinity]

(2) “You make it funny.” Harry said, looking at her for real, “It’s not– you make it like that.” [this could work! I have no idea why I cut this, I think I forgot abt it lmao]

(3) “You’re the funniest person I know, Harry said, sincerely, and Ginny felt her heartbeat all through her, “You make it funny.” [jumping from ‘its more funny than annoying’ to getting this sincere out of nowhere is a little much, even for harry who is famously whipped]

I ended up going with this:

“It’s nothing,” her voice, all force, “Anyway, it’s more funny than annoying.”

“You’re funny.” Harry said, looking at her for real, flustered, “I mean– you make it funny. That’s all you.”

It follows the flow of the conversation and I think the way he says it, ‘you’re funny’ like its obvious, and then being like oh fuck and over-explaining it stumbling a little “I mean– you make it funny. That’s all you.”. You know when you like someone and you say something that gives you away before you can stop yourself? I wanted it to sound like that. Just gotta keep in mind how people behave, we are so stupid a lot of the time, we give ourselves away.

The thing about short stuff i find is implying a lot of history without actually describing a lot of it. I normally do this by having memories come up as almost shards, one second of feeling. You know when you’re in a conversation with someone and they mention someone or a past event, and it rises to the top of your brain, but only for a second? i find sometimes when you’re reading stuff people will try and replay entire memories or events mid-conversation, which is not something you do when you think. You don’t need to replay it beat by beat, you were there! This sounds vague as hell so I’ll try and show you what I mean:

From good crimes: “Petunia is engaged.” Lily’s voice, raw and wrong, “To Vernon. Eliza Hunt told me at the supermarket.” Sudden flashes of Petunia, the only time he’d ever met her, sat in the back of Lily’s twenty-first, pinched and whispering. “Whose Eliza Hunt?” This seems as good a thing to say as any.

pretty on the nose (the phrase ‘sudden flashes’ is pretty so i'll allow it from past me). But see how you don’t need to know how Petunia didnt talk to anyone, how she left early, how she was the odd one out: you don’t need to read all that, you already know because she was sat in the back and because pinched is such a mean verb, spiteful and sharp, you can already imagine how the evening went without me saying so

From my proposal take, after Sirius finds out they’re engaged: Sirius’ grip on his shoulder tightened for one second, still grinning, and James knew what he meant. “I know.” He said, because only Sirius had been there for all of it, when they were fifteen, drunk on Firewhiskey for the first time and James had said I think I’ve fucked it, I think I’ve fucked it but I like her for real.

you don’t need a description of the whole night, what party they were at, who they were with, what they were talking about: the important bit is that Sirius was the first person he told, and that they’re both remembering that at the same moment because they’re soulmates lmao. You know when something big happens for a friend and you feel so full of pride & love that you feel like you’ll burst into confetti?? this needed to feel like that, and you only need a flash for it

I feel like I’ve sort of strayed off from what you asked me, which is really advice on how to start something. I normally start with a line, usually of dialogue, and then try and build from there because dialogue is my thing. You might have a different thing! Some people write from concepts or locations, or an image. i might start with one or a few lines of dialogue, write them down, and then try to build from there. For example for the proposal thing I started from james just saying “Marry me”, which I find more romantic than ‘will you marry me’, purely because it sounds like he simply couldn’t stop himself from saying it, like it rushed out. Another example, this thing started from just “don’t be mad at me” “okay” James agreed instantly, because he is such a sucker for her.

When I write I don’t normally know where I’m going! I normally set out to write something I think is vaguely funny and evokes An Emotion, and then I just play around with stuff until I get there. when I write certain stuff and I have scenes in mind, stuff I want to happen, but I find that if I try to plot it to tightly its not exciting to work on, because sometimes you write a good line by accident, that you hadn’t thought of when you sat down, and you surprise yourself. That is a really nice feeling! i want to maximise that feeling.

'What I mostly try to remember is that writing something down, anything down, is useful. Sometimes you write for a whole night and dont get anything useable, but its like clearing pipes. Sometimes you have to flush through shit to get to the good bits. All the rough stuff, the things you don’t like or didn’t work, you wrote to get you to the stuff that did work. All of the bad shit got you here! It wasn’t a waste, you were working to find the good thing

If I had any tips its just the usual stuff, read! It is annoying how much that helps. Also, and I know this may make you shudder, but reading poetry is useful just because in no other literary or media form is language so important. In comics you have pictures, in novels you have plot and character, in film you all that and cinematography, but in poetry you live and die by how good the words are. If you want recs here’s my poem roundup tag, that I do sometimes, or if you want something just now read this by Anne Carson, which uses words like ‘smashing’, ‘boatwash’, and ‘green’ in the best way possible. Also it has these lines: “Recently having learned to recognize the type of tree called sycamore, / I see them in any forest— / the ones that look harrowed, / in shreds, but / go also / straight up into life,”

I mean, think of a sharper image than that?? It’s not possible. Just try remember to stay true to your characters and that in real life, the little stuff is the big stuff. Little things the people around you do normally show they care more than big speeches, and if you want to show love that’s how to make it feel lived in. You want to build a world! the little stuff is usually the world. Take some from your own or dream the ones you wish you had.

This truly was a very kind message and I’m so grateful you like my stuff, I hope any of this was even half-useful, although now reading it back it is borderline nonsensical. I’m going to bed now, good luck with the writing, and don’t forget to send it to me!!

caro xoxo

#writing bitching #said it already but loved this message it was so thoughtful. seemed pretty articulate to me i think ur writing is gunna be just fine!!!#rooting for you & anyone trying to write something rn. words suck and are difficult! they are also better than drugs & sex. regretable #kindnesses

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actualbird · 3 years

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0/////0 do u have any spicy marius thoughts? the more luke or luke AND mc involved the better.... the thought of this threesome grabbed me by the balls and simply will not let go. do u see marius actually being interested in luke, or just bitter and in denial abt him being so likeable?

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hello anon!!! ive actually been thinking about marius/mc/luke ever since i wrote “instructions unclear...” but i have a...very convoluted and long winded vision of how it would actually happen

if u want the gist: marius in love with mc -> marius/luke FWB -> luke/mc -> marius heartbroken over BOTH OF THEM -> communication happens -> marius/mc/luke happy ending

if u want the Full Story and are willing to bear with me for a bit, i imagine it like this:

despite being the youngest of the NXX gang, marius has fucked before. he's fucked a bunch, actually. it's fun and he's good at it so for a while he treats sex like the rest of his hobbies, but the thing is that That's All Sex Is To Him. by the time he's 21, he's got a good number of casual one night stands in his pocket, but deep down, he....kinda wants more than a quick roll around in the sheets. he wants to not have to slip out of their bed before they wake up, he wants to make breakfast for them when they wake up, he wants something more than the song Temporary Bliss by The Cab.

and then he meets mc and for the first time in his life, he's in love.

he's never been in love before so he kinda sucks at expressing sincerity, resorting to making himself look like a massive tool most of the time, but mc, god bless her, still likes him in spite of that. in marius' heart, a deep and fragile yearning he has no idea how to show and, well. marius isnt used to not being good at things. marius doesnt like not being good at things.

enter luke pearce.

to answer your question, anon, i do think marius in this scenario would be interested in him, but for a period of time, that interest is muddled by bitter jealousy. because come on, luke pearce, who is made of fucking sunshine and rainbows and is a super spy and is mc's childhood best friend, like, how the hell is marius supposed to go against that? marius hates luke! he hates him! //insert entirety of "instructions unclear..." to express the point im getting here but moving on from that like

marius does eventually, begrudgingly, come to terms with the fact that he's attracted to luke, but that actually makes his feelings situation worse because he can (at least on a superficial level) see that luke has got even MORE GOING IN HIS FAVOR.

//distressed marius noises

but here comes the kicker. one day, luke approaches marius, and huh, he's nervous, he's fidgeting with his key, he's---

luke: can you have sex me?

marius: WHAT

---HE'S PROPOSITIONING HIM????

luke then goes to explain, quite embarrassed, that he has no sexual experience whatsoever---which comes as a shock to marius, what with how luke looks like how he Looks Like---and that he wants to learn how to do things. luke doesnt have many friends (vyn scares him, artem is a virgin too, and aaron, just, no, oh god, no) and marius asks "okayyyy, why not mc?" and luke blushes and goes "she's...kind of who i want to be good for..."

marius, at this point, is feeling a lot of emotions. on one hand, theres a very very hot man asking for a fuck. on the other, this man wants the said fuck to be better when he gets with the woman marius is in love with. the logical thing to do would be to reject luke, because duh, but marius...marius doesnt like not being good at things. for a while now, he's had to deal with being bad at love, but now, there's an opportunity to show his competition that he's got advantage in this arena?

needless to say, marius says yes. and thus begins marius/luke Friends With Benefits funtime.

marius is very smug, every time he and luke have sex. he cant help that rush of power he feels when he one ups luke, when he takes luke's cock down his throat, when he hears luke's punched out moans. he loves seeing luke out of his element, whining and flushed and destroyed. they have a LOT of sex, in this point of the story, all under the flimsy guise of "teaching luke". marius talks luke through how to kiss, how to touch, how to fuck.

"you need to up your stamina," marius says, getting down on his knees. "lesson for today is don't come for as long as you can, got it, super spy?"

"got i----oh my fucking god, Marius!"

the tables turn eventually though because luke pearce is a fast learner, and soon enough, marius isnt in control all of the time anymore. luke pushes back, luke uses his knowledge of marius' body against him, luke makes marius see fucking stars.

this would have been all well and good, marius is used to casual sex afterall, but luke pearce, as we've established earlier, is nice. he's nice. he doesn't let marius leave his bed in the middle of the night because he's cuddling marius like a squid the entire time. he always makes breakfast for marius before he leaves in the morning because over the course of the FWB thing luke learned marius' tendency to skip meals out of corporate induced stress. luke always holds marius, holds him as if he's something worth more than his dick and what it can do, and marius realizes, day by day, that he has made a terrible mistake.

marius is bad at love. and he just had to go and fall in love with luke pearce too.

//makes vague hand gestures because im starting to run out of steam so i'll speed this bit up. plot happens here where luke and marius stop doing the FWB thing because marius feels the need to distance himself. luke is hurt, but accepts, and then somehow luke gets with mc which causes an Angst Bonanza for marius because he's heartbroken as hell over the BOTH OF THEM. somehow somebody realizes theyve all been idiots and the three of them have a conversation where they actually communicate, and then they all get together and live happily ever after.

and have awesome threesomes, yes, but i didnt realize this answer got this long and now im too tired to describe the threesome kJBKSJBKFGSD

anon, i would like to apologize to you, because you asked some very simple questions and i gave you this trainwreck of an answer that's....holy fuck, 1000+ WORDS LONG?? IM SO SORRY

but also, anon, how dare you for this. now that ive written all of this out, i am possessed by a need to make it a full fic. how could you do this to me.

#asks #tears of themis #marius von hagen #luke pearce #hc

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nowujustlooklikeanyone · 2 years

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a very off topic Song of Achilles review/literally a rant that not a soul asked for and is literally one big fat fucking spoiler

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i’m not even finished yet but i know what happens because it’s based on the greek myth but omfg i keep crying because the happy moments are sad and the sad moments make me hate real life ugh gods sake i can’t deal with it

also my context with reading pjo since third year means im so familiar with the mythology so i even know the side characters and it’s making me even sadder and sadder its like ah i just want to go back to reading magnus chase for a forth time and chill and laugh but then i get sad like oh shit those guys have had so much loss too, my poor babies, i’m miserable, i’m going to go cry, but THEN i read a solangelo fic and i’m like THANK FUCK and there’s a new book coming and rick probably hopefully can’t kill them off (ask me for an explaination why i think this if you are interested) bc i would kill HIM. literally so excited for the book i love Mark Oshiro(the person the solangelo book is in collaboration with) ahhh okay i think i’m fine now WAIT NO BECAUSE NICO DI ANGELO HAD THE SADDEST BACKSTORY OF THEM ALL I LOVE HIM SO MUCH IM SO SAD I MISS BIANCA at least he got some good things in the end thank fuck for will solace they are my otp solangelo is the best ship AND best ship name besides fierrochase. like ever. i don’t think i will ever love any other characters more than them they’re the best characters in all of literature. okay i think i’m fine now BUT NO BECAUSE THEN JASON GRACE DIES LIKE WHAT? FUCK MY LIFE POOR NICO OH AND PIPER DONT GET ME STARTED HER RELATIONSHIP WAS BASED ON A LIE PLACED IN HER HEAD BY A GODDESS AND HE DIDNT HAVE THE MEMORIES BUT SHE DID FOR THE REST OF HER LIFE IT FELT REAL FOR HER SHE CANT JUST GET RID OF THEM SO THEY BREAK UP BECAUSE ITS TOO HARD WHICH IS A GOOD DECISION BUT OH AND THEN JASON DIES? THAT IS THE MOST AWFUL DISGUSTING THING I AM SOBBING AND BARFING ALL OVER THE PLACE ugh and leo is the most precious thing i kin him and i did before i even knew what kinning was when i first read about him in year 5 (i think it was year 5) or maybe i’m just in love with him it’s one of the two, when i was younger he was my favourite character but now it’s like all of them. calypso is perfect for him kinda? like i don’t know when you read it it makes so much sense and you can practically feel his happiness radiating of the page and it made sense like story wise it fit in very very well so i love that… however when i think about caleo vs solangelo and fierrochase… eh. it’s just #lame i can’t explain! even frazel is cuter than caleo because omg they are just COMPLETELY PERFECT i never realised but i have a crush on hazel AND frank… not that that means that much because i have a crush on every single character but i think i love them most? theyre sort of the most memorable because i loved them as soon as i got to know them in the second heroes of olympus book idk i feel a different way about them hm🤨 okay i’m done. i think i’m done. this wasn’t even about song of achilles really HOLY FUCK NO NOW IM THINKING ABOUT PATROCLUS AGAIN NOPE IM SAD I CANT DO THIS. i was actually crying before more than i have in weeks like it was a build up of things in my life,!but mainly when achilles said “i have traded love for glory, and it cost his life. to any god who is listening, end my suffering.”

god. this is fucking embarrassing and unreadable

NEWSFLASH i’m still too scared to finish it and i am finishing every happy book i can find before this jesus christ this book it going to wreck me and today as already been emotional😫

ok a few weeks later and am i insane? girl? i wrote so much anyway i’m still reading other things and i don’t in any way want to finish song of achilles atm so we’ll see i guess!

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curious-menace · 3 years

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Hey can I get a headcanon of any riddler of your fancy finding his partners hidden treasure trove of sex toy goodies after stooping around their home, probably while they're out and how they'd react?

oh ho! any riddler?! this is a blank check for mayhem!

i have naughty hands and no self control so ima do all my riddlers hahahah

this is only a lil ns fw so no below the cut this time

Arkham riddler

oh.

OH.

First response is he goes BRIGHT RED. H-He was looking for something else, like an allen key or a pack of batteries or something! He didn't mean to snoop! He’ll throw all the toys back in the drawer or box and hurry away like nothing happened. he did find batteries but was to embarrassed to use them.

his face is going to be bright red for hours, you’ll easily be able to tell something is up but he wont tell you what.

but that being said, hes not going to be able to stop thinking about them. he feels a little naughty for doing it but hes imagining you using them, on him, on yourself. the idea is filthy to him but very intriguing.

Don't expect him to EVER mention it again but if YOU brought up the idea or told him you had some toys to play with, he’d have a hard time hiding his excitement. He hasn't stopped thinking about them since and he has some IDEAS.

Blacklight Riddler

oh ho! rubbing his little fingerless gloved hands in glee. treasure trove is the right word to use, all his christmases have come at once when he finds this gold mine.

He knew you were kinky but he had no idea you were THIS kinky, why would you keep this from him???

hes like a child in a candy store. what does this one do??? ohh this one vibrates! ooh a purple and green one, did you get this specially for him?

Don't be surprised if you come home and find him elbow deep in your drawer or box still rummaging and exploring, possibly with condoms scattered around him like confetti and bondage rope around his neck like a scarf.

He’s going to ask right away to play with some of these. he might even sneak off to use them by himself but he will GLADLY let you do the hard work.

He’s going to want to go to the sex toy shop with you. can you get some couples toys? will you peg him?? OH! what about some of those cool remote control toys??? he can make some custom ones for you both to use if you want! Man is going to be bouncing off the walls, you're going to need to get him to calm down before you can do anything. he’s enthusiastic to say the least.

BTAS Riddler

oh? what on earth is th-AGH! *flings a wobbly pink dick across the room in a panic*. Que overdramatics . lots of “my eyes are SOILED! MY HANDS WILL NEVER BE CLEAN AGAIN!”

Will probably screech “WHY DO YOU EVEN HAVE THIS?!” into an empty house.

i think its the shock more than anything. he’s a germaphobe and he wasn't wearing his gloves while he was rummaging and he wasn't expecting to touch something so...intimate with his bare hands. this has ABSOLUTELY been inside you and it feels...off for him to touch it. He hopes to god you are as particular about cleaning these as you are about the rest of your cleaning.

once the initial fright wears off, he probably feels a bit guilty for nosing about. He wasn't looking for your intimates specifically, he was just being inquisitive, maybe looking for birthday or christmas presents. I think like arkham riddler, he’d probably be unable to get the image out of his head. he'd probably have to go back for another look.

he has to work up the courage to talk about it. he’s probably expecting to get yelled at, he shouldn't have been rummaging through your things in the first place.he doesn't REALLY need to confront you about this. but he’s insecure as all hell and he needs to know, is he not good enough? is he not satisfying you? why do you need these toys if you have him? please be gentle in explaining, whatever your answer is.

Original riddler

so freaking blase about the whole thing. you could leave them in the fridge or something and he’d be like “hmm, cheese, ham, dildo....hey y/n we’re nearly out of milk!”

he doesn't exactly want dicks or fleshlights left out around his apartment but he’s not so insecure about you having them. he knows he cant be there for you 24/7. maybe your schedules are conflicting, maybe you just want some quite alone time, he’s not judging, he does it too.

might tease you a little about your taste in toys. like if you have massive dicks he’s going to call you a size queen, regardless of your gender. or if you like weird ones like that windmill oral thing he’s going to call you a kinky lil freak .

i don't think he has any of his own but he’d be quite happy to use yours on you if you wanted.

unlike the others, he probably respects your privacy enough to not go looking for them or even rummaging through your things. but he is childish as all hell. if you left them out in a shared space he’s going to mess around with them, like pretending to give you a neck massage only to bust out a hitachi wand or something.

despite his bravado and not really minding that you have them, his mouth will go a little dry if you bring up the idea of domming him by using them on him . that's....an intriguing idea.

Telltale riddler

well. hes not THRILLED about this discovery. But given how often he’s gone, either for work or running from the law, he cant exactly blame you. you have needs he’s clearly not meeting.

he’s pretty tempted to take your batteries away from you for badness.

he gets a devious idea looking at your toys. He’s offended! how could you replace him with plastic and silicone?! he’s much better than any toy. guess he’ll just have to prove it to you.

he’ll probably confront you as soon as you get home. something like “been keeping secrets from me?” but like. in a sexy voice, not an angry one.

He’s obviously a little ticked off but tries to keep it playful. you can definitely expect him to spend the day making it up to you. he’s going to tease you, hes going to ask if you think of him while you use them , maybe even use some of them on you himself but pulling away at the last moment as punishment . if you want relief you’ll have to ask him nicely.

he’d be absolutely speechless if you flipped the script on him. listen he might be 60 but suddenly he’s a teenager again, embarrassed and unable to form coherent sentences in the face of your exuberant confidence. once he gets his footing back however you two are going to be playing hella games. he’s going to want to sext while he’s gone, send you naughty photos and get some back. maybe the toys aren't such a bad thing after all?

Zero year riddler

you’ll for sure know if this riddler has found your stash. you’ll come home and he’ll be drinking out of a dick shaped straw, wearing those dumb penis glasses you see at bachelorette parties. he’ll have decorated with rope or feather boas , taken polaroid photos of him posing with your toys and stuck them to the walls. he’ll have a smug look on his face but play totally innocent like “something you wanna tell me, y/n?” Shame is not an emotion this riddler is capable of.

he was looking through your things on purpose because he’s a nosy shit. He likes knowing your secrets to mess with you later. He wished he had a camera to record his reaction upon finding THIS secret.sheer unfiltered joy .He’s for sure recording your reaction to him putting you on blast so you two can laugh about it later.

he might feel a LITTLE guilty depending on your reaction. if you react badly or really embarrassed he might feel bad for crossing a line and apologise . He’s still a little shit about it but he’s an apologetic little shit.

all of these riddlers pretend they're the most confident person in the room but , like the others, if you turn your charm and confidence on him, he’ll crumble like a dry sandcastle.

He doesn't want to admit he has NO clue what any of these toys do. like why is this one shaped like an egg?...it goes WHERE?!

rare moment of nervousness from him if you ask him to use them on you/ on him. again, he doesn't know what the heck he’s doing with toys but he’ll be damned if he admits that. feel free to mess with him as payback. this is what he gets for running his mouth and poking his nose into other peoples business

there you go nonnie! i actually got this one out pretty quickly, i wasnt expecting to do it that fast hah. i like doing asks like this, that are a little nsfw but not so much i have to hide them under a read more.

that being said, full nsfw asks are my jam XD

Got something you wana ask me? feel free to send me an ask or a dm! im always game to talk about our favorite curious menace 💚💜

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davethot · 3 years

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Aysha is homophobic but more so in the realm of being lesbophobic. Remember that she completely removed all Rosemary interactions from Pesterquest for more Davekat, decided to push for Yiffy the cuckhold child to be forced into the narrative during Lesbian Visibility Day and has made sure to demean any positive Rosemary interactions in lieu of Davekat which she is solely invested in. Her being transphobic more relates to her poor handling of Jade (dog dicked sex fiend isn't good transfem rep)

You do realize you sound fucking insane right???? This is literally what I’m fucking talking about when I mentioned people in my og post about hs2 pointing fingers and giving someone a really harsh label such as LESBOPHOBIC because they didnt quite handle a lesbian couple EXACTLY how you would have.

First of all i want to mention that Aysha is non-binary poc and is married to a woman. This doesnt exempt her from possibly writing some shitty things, but its good to have perspective here. Shes not some cishet white person writing these characters.

So are you going to ignore the literal thousands of pages of the original comic where we had a PLETHORA of Rosemary interactions??? And absolutely no davekat? And if you remember Kanaya was still having hang ups with Vriska, so it only made sense that that was explored a bit in Pesterquest rather than jumping straight to Rose and Kanaya cuddling on a couch and spewing gay poetics at each other. Like I genuinely dont know what you fucking want.

Also i would like to point out that romance wasnt even the fucking focus of Pesterquest. Dave and Karkat’s interactions were barely anything more than characters mentioning them and them being in the same place together for one single ending and mspar implying that they had a feeling they were supposed to be good friends. Tbh it sounds like you and the people who often have this complaint are way more fucking obsessed with what’s going on with Davekat than Aysha or the rest of the team will ever be. Maybe you should redirect your efforts into creating more wlw content for Homestuck since you think the new team is so lesbophobic for portraying two grown ass women having some marital problems (and acting like that cant happen in the real world with real people literally every day).

You and tons of other people fucking love to point to Kanaya and Rose’s issues in hs2 and preach that it’s suddenly lesbophobic that theyre not happy go lucky 24/7. Again, Davekat didnt even fucking happen in the og comic. We had one flash where Dave rests his head on Karkat’s lap and they’re playing hopscotch on a poorly drawn dick on the ground, meanwhile Rose and Kanaya had comfortably been together for Awhile at that point. I just don’t understand how Dave and Karkat finally having a semi-functional and happy relationship in hs2 is promoting lesbophobia. Also we didnt even get to see the comic FINISH!! We dont KNOW what exactly was going to happen with Rose and Kanaya, and we arent going to for a long fucking time because it’s people like you who are perpetuating this narrative of the team and that theyre horrible awful people because they did two fucking things you dont agree with. It’s honestly fucking exhausting. And you know I can throw this right back at you right? Like, pretty homophobic of you to only be focusing on wlw ships and invalidating Davekat, one of the only healthy relationships PERIOD in Homestuck, not just a healthy mlm relationship. Like, pretty shitty of you anon :/ kind of homophobic of you fr.

And this isnt even mentioning the genuinely nice interactions we have seen with Kanaya and Rose in Homestuck 2. Everyone’s really fucking eager to forget that in meat Kanaya was wistfully looking out at the stars missing her wife and told Dave she’d do anything to get her back, esp since it’s implied that Rose was being manipulated pretty heavily by Dirk. But no, according to yall that never happened and Aysha + the rest of the team are just spitting on all wlw folks.

Also again I feel like youre coming to insane conclusions. You think it was a purposeful move that Aysha and the team introduced Yiffy on lesbian visibility day??? Like???? Also pretty lesbophobic of you to invalidate a child born from two women. Like hm pretty shitty of you anon. Rose and Jade explained why they did what they did, and tbh, again, we could have had more information if people like you didnt indirectly harass the creators and cause it to go on indefinite hiatus.

As for the Jade dog dick thing, I have multiple friends who are trans women who have issues with people blowing it out of proportion. Its important to remember that every trans woman is going to have a different opinion on this, and we shouldnt invalidate any of them, but at the same time what one trans woman says about it isnt the end all be all of the situation. Some trans women think this portrayal is transphobic, while plenty others think it isnt, and that people are making way too big of a deal out of it. Therefore I’m going to leave it at that. Personally I dont know if how Aysha and the team wrote Jade is transphobic and its not for me to decide. However, my trans friend would like to be quoted saying this:

“People claiming that the writers intended for Jade’s dick to be the driving force in her emotional and sexul appetite shows someone’s willingness to ignore Jade’s actual reasons for doing these things that she STATES in the actual text. All in favor of projecting their own transmisogynist reading onto the writers.”

This probably ended up being longer than my og post lmfao but fr anon im sick of people like you. Even if you didnt directly contact the creators of hs2, you’re literally the problem here. I wish you and others would stop throwing around these terms like lesbophobic, homophobic, transphobic, etc, because it literally makes those words lose meaning. Someone writing a lesbian couple having marital problems, especially in the context of Homestuck, is not fucking lesbophobic. And i hope i helped you understand that by throwing the terms back at you because tbh, im sure youre a good person with good intentions, and I would never seriously call you homophobic for this. But i hope you can have some fucking perspective and stop targeting marginalized authors and creators moving forward. Its embarrassing fr.

#homestuck #homestuck 2 #hs2 #i am literally so tired #please fucking stop this shit

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asriel-dreemurr-instead-of-brain · 2 years

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the obligatory asriel headcanon post

this is long lmao

- his nickname "azzy" is sometimes shortened to just "az"

- if you asked him his favorite color hed be like "uhh umm well i um i like yellow and red is a good color too and brown is also good and blue is very pretty and purple is nice and pink is also nice and green is cool and orange is-"

- he's the kid to take the piece of candy nobody else wants and not complain about it so that nobody else has to get the bad one

- hes an avid artist. he loves drawing so much. his favorite thing to draw is faces and hes really good at getting expression and demeanor. he has pages just full of random expressions. he also cant do anatomy for shit

- he sorts everything that he can by color. it's not like a strict color-coded system his stuff is just all lined up in a rainbow

- hes very excited for having horns and when they grow in hes really happy and excited

- he observes a lot about other people (and isnt fully aware that he does this). he acts quite lighthearted and silly but notices a lot about other people's behavior and internalizes it without really thinking about it

- he's really affectionate around people he cares about, he loves hugs and cuddles a lot

- he tries to very involved with as many things as he can to exhaust himself and prevent insomnia

- he really REALLY hates being unable to sleep and will have a meltdown over staying up an hour late. when he cant sleep he gets really restless and there's nothing distracting him from his thoughts, so he usually ends up either pacing around or desperately trying to find something to do

- he has pretty terrible nightmares consistently

- he never really gets angry, at most irritated, but if so, it's usually because he's overwhelmed and ends up apologizing immediately. "you could pour soup in my lap and i'd apologize to you" type, he doesn't see feeling anger at others as even an option in any situation

- he does a lot of writing, often poetry, to vent his compressed feelings and they usually end up being extremely dark and upsetting. he's often ashamed that he even wrote them so he usually tucks them away somewhere/throws them away and never reads them again

- when hes a bit older he LOVES horror games. he doesnt like talking about it because hes kinda embarrassed of having dark interests.

- more specifically he likes ddlc and is a sayori kinnie in denial ("i just think shes neat!!!") and also likes hello charlotte because. im highly fixated on hello charlotte and im projecting it onto him <3<3<3

- he also just likes rpgm games in general

- he's also into a lot of cartoons like atla

- he has so many OCs and hundreds of AUs for his own story

- he's very good at recognizing/distinguishing colors

- he's the kid who has those glow-up stars all over his side of the room. actually i think this is canon in deltarune but I'm pointing it out anyways because I can

- he's left handed. i think this is also canon bc in deltarune he uses a left handed mouse but shhh

- he experiences extremely intense emotions and the only way he can cope is to distract himself from them. he often gets emotional over small things but it's always in a "im so sorry i dunno why im crying-" way. he gets really sentimentally attached to things very quickly.

- when it comes to actually explaining or talking about his feelings he's genuinely unaware that there's a deeper problem because of how much he's internalized it

- he's trands gener because I Said So <3

- hes very sensitive. with friends he usually knows when he's being teased and will tease back but depending on how he's feeling/the context he might take it really hard

- he stims/fidgets a lot, he'll rub his fur back and forth, or he'll start bouncing, or he'll tug at his sweater or click pens, i have a LONG list of this stuff.

- he also can't really sit still, but it's not "noticeable" as it usually comes out as awkward movements and adjusting himself

- he likes to sing. hes a soprano (his voice is very high pitched)

- he can imitate other people's voices pretty well. not to the point where you can't tell the difference between his imitation and the real thing, but enough to make really funny impressions. he's also great at capturing people's overall demeanor

- when he's younger he really wants to play instruments but always gets frustrated and gives up, but as he gets older he learns to play ukulele and later on maybe guitar

- his wardrobe is full of sweaters, overalls, and t-shirts with star patterns on them

- he's........ok at naming things. the names are either extremely on the nose (*cough* flowey the flower) or very long and overdramatic (ABSOLUTE GOD OF HYPERDEATH!!!). he sorta takes after asgore

- he suffers from intrusive thoughts and feels terrible about them and doesnt know how to separate himself from the thoughts he has

- even though his parents are both really tall, he starts off as a lil shortie- he does end up getting taller than most humans but is still smal by goat fam standards <3

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ravenaveira · 2 years

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Will borusara ever become a thing? (I hope not) but with the way the creators are going if fear it may come to pass.

Is it possible? of course, anything is possible, but given how the creators have framed their relationship, and how its been stagnant since the movie [close friends/teammates who support eachothers dreams] its highly unlikely for several reasons I’ll list off.

Warning this is pretty long but I really wanted to get my point across as accurately and clearly as possible. Hope you still manage to get through all of it lol. It should go without saying that Borusara fans should NOT read this, just keep scrolling because this posts not for you.

1 Anytime the situation or topic is romantic between her and Boruto, Sarada rejects it, not in a Tsundere way, but in a literal Im just not interested way.

They recreated the accidental kiss between Naruto and Sasuke, reincarnated brothers and long time rivals who were disgusted by the kiss. Boruto and Sarada were the same but slightly different but had the overall same reaction, Sarada stopped the kiss from happening and Boruto was disgusted by her blocking him with her foot, meanwhile she was annoyed at him and said it was his fault. Even after he explained to her that it WASNT his fault and that he was pushed, Sarada said she doesnt care. This doesnt sound tsundere or embarrassed at all, but her genuinely being disgusted at him almost kissing her whether it was an accident or not.

Prior to that, showing further disinterest, she pushes him out of her face saying he’s too close, she isnt blushing, stuttering, flustered, embarrassed, showing any indication that she has interest in him and that him being close makes her heart pound etc. In fact, she both looks and sounds annoyed and disgusted with him with her line “Your too close, your spits flying” it really doesnt get much clearer than that.

Sarada has never had an issue being close or in Boruto’s face before, so her pushing him away wasnt her being embarrassed being close to him, she is more than comfortable being in his face and vice versa. Compare that to characters being close to characters they ACTUALLY like and you’ll see the stark difference.

Compared to Boruto and Sarada

When asked by Sumire if she likes Boruto she flat out said of course not,

ppl use her sweatdrop after the fact as evidence she was bothered and realized she liked Boruto there but tbh that isnt valid evidence for several reasons. For starters Ikemoto isnt the best at depicting emotion, and he also adds sweatdrops to character often for little to no reason, he just adds it for some reason.

Why is Katasuke sweating here? all hes doing is examining Kawaki’s body, theres really no tension, fear, awkwardness, or embarrassment here, hes just sweating just because.

Kawaki is greatly enjoying his Taiyaki here, so why is he sweating so much when hes eating something he enjoys?

If we really gonna use a sweatdrop as evidence, then its canon here that both Boruto and Sarada have feelings for Akita and just realized them here. Its just not valid evidence.

In the databook it even clarifies what Sarada felt there and it wasnt jealousy, she was just shocked by her bold statement since it literally came outta the blue and she wasnt expecting it. That one panel doesnt prove anything other than her wanting to ask Sumire more about it but cant because of the mission.

Here Sarad once again has a sweatdrop when seeing Sumire likes Boruto, but again she does not show any hint of jealousy or feelings for Boruto, just shock and confusion.

Whenever someone just implies they get along well, they get annoyed and deny it, in Mitsuki’s case his line about them being a good couple was a mistranslation and he actually just said they make a good duo, basically they compliment eachother well. Theres no way anyone should have taken Mitsuki’s words here as romantic because at this point in time he was fresh out the tube and still learning about basic human interaction and emotions, yet people thought he understood romance and what a good couple looks like? come on now.

Sumire’s line has also been misconstrued, all she said was that the two of them get along well and they once again got annoyed at the comment. This is because despite being close they deny it because they dont wanna seem like their parents even though they are, they’ve literally said the line “Just because our parents were friends doesnt mean we have to be” which despite their denial thats exactly what they became. InoShikaCho had the same issue with repeating the bonds their parents had and was annoyed when they were forced to continue the Inoshikacho formation like their parents. This is nothing romantic, this is just them trying to have their own identities outside their parents.

In the novels Sumire comments on their friendship there aswell and reveals she is envious of Boruto and Sarada’s childhood friendship since thats something she never got to experience herself, nothing romantic.

2 They are paralleled to Naruto and Sasuke ALOT, the reincarnated brothers and rivals from the previous series, if they were trying to make Boruto and Sarada romantic, Naruto and Sasuke should NOT be who they parallel.

Not just Naruto and Sasuke, but they parallel SEVERAL platonic relationships from the OG series.

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If they are truly intended to be a romantic pair, then paralleling them to multiple platonic relationships is a bad way to do it, you didnt see SasuSaku or NaruHina paralleled to platonic relationships, hell even NaruSaku which was one sided was paralleled to MULTIPLE one sided ships just like it with the exception of MinaKushi, but NaruHina is inverted MinaKushi which was a married couple and NaruHina are also a married couple with kids.

SasuSaku was paralleled to KakaRin and FugaMiko, you could argue KakaRin wasnt reciprocated but its hard to tell since Rin died so young and Kakashi was still coping through all his trauma, unlike Sasuke who had the chance to cope and heal to where he was mentally ready to be with Sakura, Kakashi didnt have that chance because Rin died, but I think we can all assume that had she of lived then Kakashi would have eventually reciprocated because same as Sakura, Rin would’ve never given up. You can also argue DanTsuna slightly paralleled SasuSaku as well, again the only difference being one of them died, but atleast their feelings were reciprocated beforehand. I dont really need to explain how they parallel FugaMiko.

So if BoruSara were intended to be romantic, why parallel them to multiple platonic ships? I’ve seen ppl compare them to SS and NH but thats all for surface or superficial reasons, watch this series and you will see that Boruto and Sarada are paralleled far more to platonic ships than they are romantic ones which should be a huge red flag to people.

3 Their marketed with Sasuke and Naruto ALOT which at first glance you could assume its because their their kids and because they admire eachothers dads. But when you think about it Sarada and Boruto dont actually fill the role of Naruto and Sasuke, but Boruto and Kawaki, thats been made abundantly clear. So the question now is “How can Boruto and Sarada and Boruto and Kawaki both be Naruto and Sasuke?” it sounds complicated but its actually simple really.

Boruto and Kawaki fill the role of Naruto and Sasuke

Boruto and Sarada fill the role of Naruto and Sasuke if their relationship actually remained healthy and they stayed friends.

In short their both Naruto and Sasuke, just one minus all the toxicity, Boruto and Sarada are exactly like Naruto and Sasuke before he chose to turn his back on everyone and cut all ties. To put it simply, Boruto and Sarada are a what if scenario, Boruto and Kawaki are the canon scenario.

Getting back to the marketing it basically feels like their saying Boruto and Sarada are the new Naruto and Sasuke, not just their admirers, but the torch has been passed to them to fill their shoes for the new generation, which again, if intended to be romantic should NOT be the implications here.

I know you may argue ‘Well Team 7 filled the Sanins shoes and SS still ended up together’ true but they were never marketed constantly with them as if they were literally THEM, and what makes that different is Team 7 actually WERE their deciples, Sarada however is NOT Naruto’s student, she just admires him and wants to become Hokage like him, so its not the EXACT same situation. You may think that difference doesnt matter but it does, Team 7 was supposed to be the new generation Sanin, Boruto and Sarada are supposed to be the new generation Naruto and Sasuke, not a legendary trio, but legendary duo, aka the former rivals and reincarnated brothers.

THATS what makes this different. You did not see Sakura marketed with Tsunade a ton of times, Naruto with Jiraiya, or Sasuke with Orochimaru, yes they all passed the torch to them, but you can see the way Boruto and Sarada are depicted with Naruto and Sasuke is very different.

4 Boruto doesnt understand nor is he interested in romance

When taken to see a romance movie Boruto was visibly bored and uninterested, afterwards he said it wasnt fun or entertaining at all and doesnt even understand the relationship between the characters and how they were inlove. Later when trying to understand the Konohamaru and Remon situation Sarada tells him he didnt even understand the romance movie so its no surprise he doesnt understand whats going on with Konohamaru and Remon either. Chocho herself says Boruto is still immature when it comes to romance.

This isnt exactly a bad thing, he’s a 12 year old boy who’s still learning about these types of things, he also embodies the Chaste hero trope that majority of shounen protagonists do so thats also a key factor. However we see Sarada and Chocho DO understand romance and rather enjoys it, so if anyone would recognize their feelings it would be Sarada, and even if she herself is oblivious, theres no way in hell her best friend, who we know sees right through Sarada, wouldnt have noticed her crush on Boruto by now.

She was able to spot Saradas care for Boruto as a friend despite her denying it, why wouldnt she notice her crush on Boruto if she indeed had one? this point isnt spoken about enough but its a huge detail that really shouldnt be overlooked. If you honestly think Chocho wouldnt be able to tell if Sarada had a crush on someone then I dunno what character your watching because Sarada cant hide anything from her, ESPECIALLY romance.

5 Both Sarada and Boruto have not shown romantic interest in ANYONE in the franchise thus far, however they have shown attraction to one person and one person only.

Chocho, and yes this was in a romantic context, they both found Chocho beautiful in these instances which yes, they found her attractive, that doesnt necessarily mean they have a crush on her but it does mean they were attracted to her. They have not shown this attraction to anyone else thus far.

6 Their dreams are conflicting and would lead to an unhappy relationship, unlike popular belief Boruto and Saradas dream would NOT bring them together infact it’ll pull them apart. Look at Naruto and Sasuke, do you see them hanging out? shootin the breeze? talking? spending time together? you dont right? thats because their JOBS wont allow them.

Naruto can barely make time for his own family, but because he has a housewife shes atleast always home waiting for him when he DOES have time to come home. Sasuke also barely can make time for his family, even less time than Naruto, but thankfully his wife is often home despite her work waiting for him to come back as well.

Now if Naruto and Sasuke can barely spend time with their current wives who arent as busy as they are, can you imagine Naruto and Sasuke being with eachother? with Naruto barely able to come home and Sasuke being absent for months and years at a time? their only contact being through letters and primarily about work? half the time Naruto comes home and no ones there or Sasuke comes home and no ones there. Even if he goes to the Hokage office Naruto might me busy or they’ll mostly discuss work and maybe catch up a bit before Naruto has to go tend to some more of his Hokage duties.

That is one miserable relationship, you see the distance between Naruto and Sasuke right now as just friends their largely away from eachother and primarily talk business and occassionally their familes, so what the hell makes people think Boruto and Sarada would be any better? you think they’ll somehow be different?

WRONG, they wont be different, not because they dont want to be, but because they CANT be.

Sarada cant control what Hokage duties she has to fulfil no more than Boruto can control what he needs to do as the Shadow Hokage, its not up to them, they dont dictate what their jobs require of them, their JOBS dictate THEM.

So this idea that somehow their gonna be different than Naruto and Sasuke is beyond false, and this is just talking about THEIR relationships but what about their kids? they’d be the most miserable kids of their generation with literally neither parent around 99% of the time and primarily raised by their grandparents or possibly Shino or Konohamaru, but it danm sure wont be Boruto or Sarada. Look at Boruto’s childhood, Naruto is in all their pictures during his childhood but then soons he became Hokage? ghost, nowehre to be found, thats why Boruto resented him and the Hokage title so much, because after Naruto became Hokage he completely lost all time he originally had with his family. Konohamaru harbored a similar resentment towards Hiruzen for also prioritizing his Hokage duties over being his grandfather.

It will be no different with Sarada, its not a choice she’ll make, but an obligation.

Sasuke doesnt have a choice either, for the longest time he was the only one capable of investigating these types of threats so like it or not he was OBLIGATED to investigate or otherwise let his family be in danger. His job was to protect the village from the outside so he was obligated to devote all his time to that no matter how hard it was on him being away from home for such long periods of time.

It will be no different with Boruto, he doesnt have a choice, hes obligated to do it.

Their dreams are conflicting and will put a huge strain on their relationship if you can even call it that, they will have the most broken family in the franchise.

7 They may accept their fathers position and support them now, but they still dont like it and are very unhappy with it but just grin and bare it.

They love their dads, they understand their positions and support them, but they are not happy with it, they just grin and bare it for their sake but deep down their still very sad and wish they had time for them.

They cant choose their parents, but they CAN choose who they date and marry, do you honestly believe as miserable as they were and still are because of their fathers positions that they would wanna put themselves through the same misery a SECOND time? do you think they would actually CHOOSE that misery for themselves?

And you think they’d want that for their married life? come on now. Their jobs work perfectly fine as friends like Naruto and Sasuke, but as lovers? its a recipe for misery and unhappiness, just two ppl grinning and baring it acting like everythings fine when its NOT, that is NOT a healthy relationship and even more unhealthy for the children involved, they might as well be orphans.

Boruto sums it all up exactly right here, he tells Sarada if she really wants to be Hokage then she better not have any family or friends because the only thing a person close to the Hokage gets is a handful of nothing.

Its true Boruto said that out of anger and he understands his position now but he MEANT what he said and even more so what he said was TRUE.

Just because Boruto understands Naruto mind does not mean he didnt mean what he said, thats how he genuinely feels and its 100% true, the friends and family of the Hokage does get a handful of nothing.

Theres no way Boruto and Sarada would set themselves up for the same misery all over again, Boruto especially.

8 They dont understand eachothers feelings, Im not saying they dont sympathize, but they cant empathize.

When Sarada was trying to comfort him, instead of empathizing with him and understanding how he was feeling, she made excuses for Naruto and pretty much took his side while basically telling Boruto he should understand him even though Naruto literally missed his birthday after promising he’d be there. Boruto didnt need to hear excuses, he needed to be understood, his mother always makes excuses for Naruto and its never comforted him, so Sarada doing the same just makes him feel that much worse.

Yes Sarada sympathized with him, but its clear that she sympathized with Naruto far more and basically made Boruto feel like he’s the one being unreasonable, rather than Naruto being neglectful and hurting his son. Instead of saying to Boruto that his feelings are valid and that Naruto’s absence is understandably hurtful, she just makes excuses for him and expects Boruto to just understand him since ‘He is Hokage after all”.

She sympathizes with him, but she doesnt empathize.

Boruto finds Sasuke cool and even better than Naruto, Boruto and Sarada are supposedly childhood friends so the fact that he’s so oblivious as to WHY shes so rebelious towards her dad and determined to walk a different path is mind boggling.

In fact we have yet to see Boruto ever even attempt to comfort her or understand her situation with her dad, to be frank hes never actually acknowledged it at all whereas Sarada has shown her awareness and envy of his situation several times and has sympathetically supported him and understood his feelings. We have never seen the same thing done from Boruto to Sarada.

Even if you argue him sending Sasuke to Sarada on parent child day, he did the same thing for Himawari with their dad so it wasnt exactly Sarada exclusive but just him being selfless so the ppl he cares about would be happy. But this is just one instance out of their entire childhoods that was for a special occassion specifically for parent and child, so it would’ve been rude if Boruto DIDNT tell Sasuke to go to Sarada.

However, when its NOT a special occasion Boruto has a totally different attitude and is very selfish, of course not with the intent to be malicious, but as I said, they only sympathize with eachothers situations, but they dont empathize at all.

He knew where Sasuke was and initially was gonna tell Sarada but changed his mind simply because she made a snarky remark. In short, he refrained from telling Sarada where her dad was and that he was going to see him just because he didnt like what Sarada said to him, then proceeded to justify it by saying being with Team 7 all the time is boring. This was not only selfish, but also petty and inconsiderate, Sarada RARELY sees her father, so witholding this information knowing that was not a good look for Boruto at all, and whats even worse is his justification for it, that being with Team 7 all the time can get boring. So he essentially kept Sarada from seeing her father because 1 he was petty about her comment, and 2 because hes bored being around Team 7 all the time.

In the recent episode Boruto displayed his pettiness AGAIN, yes its understandable that he wants to train with his master, but calling a father spending time with his daughter before her big exam unfair just because thats his sensei is just downright petty.

This doesnt in any way make Boruto a bad person, but it shows just how inconsiderate he is of Sarada’s circumstance and how he doesnt understand or empathize with her at all.

Compare that to characters like Kawaki and Chocho, Sarada knows and understand Chocho so well and vice versa, they empathize with eachother greatly and are considerate of eachothers circumstances.

Its the same for Kawaki, Sarada and Kawaki understand eachother alot through their connection to Naruto, she understands Kawaki’s admiration and love for Naruto, his confusion of why Naruto is so kind to him, envying Boruto for taking Naruto for granted when they WISH they could have Naruto for a dad, they both want to protect Naruto, and they both want to be like him, they EMPATHIZE with eachother.

Boruto unfortunately does not and can not do that, because unlike Sarada he had what she didnt, a father he knew, a father he could see, a father who was in the village, a father who atleast was a part of his life at one point, a father who atleast TRIED to be there for him. Its impossible for Boruto to even remotely understand what Sarada went through and how she feels because of it, proven by her envy and bitterness she felt towards him for complaining when she wished she had what he did.

Sarada cant understand how Boruto feels either because he had what she didnt, in her eyes hes complaining for no reason, he’s ignorant of just how blessed he is compared to her, she resented him for that and was jealous of him, she could not empathize.

Chapter 700 is where we get to see the first glance of her jealousy and resentment of Boruto. When she hears Boruto talking about pulling a prank on Naruto, she follows him with a noticably irritated expression, and as she watched their father son moment after Naruto confronts him about the prank, you see Sarada looking envious and sad. She then goes home and insults Boruto for being stupid, but then says with a somewhat bitter smirk that he resembles her a little, referring to their absent fathers.

This is what I mean by sympathize, she can relate to the surface issue of their fathers just being absent but thats it, she cant empathize with Boruto’s circumstances nor can he empathize with hers, neither do they try to, cuz in their eyes the other one is blessed and have no reason to complain.

9 History repeats itself very often in Naruto, its a common theme in Naruto that has not changed in Boruto. Heres the several historys that have repeated all throughout Naruto to prove my point.

Naruto, Jiraiya, Obito, Kushina, Ashura, Hashirama

Sasuke, Orochimaru, Kakashi, Fugaku, Indra, Madara

Sakura, Tsunade, Rin, Mikoto

Hinata, Minato

Now for pairings

NaruSaku, JiraTsuna, Obirin = Unrequited loves from the male side, girls liked someone else, guy goes above and beyond for girl.

SasuSaku, DanTsuna, KakaRin, FugaMiko = Requited loves, all loved the cool guy instead of the nice guy who liked them [FugaMiko is unknown] loved and supported their lovers unconditionally and never moved on.

NaruHina, MinaKushi = both consists of a reserved quiet and submissive partner and a loud extroverted and radical partner, girl fell inlove with guy after he saved her, they both had the same dream [In NH case they had the same nindo]

Now that we’ve established that, it should be obvious how this applies to Boruto.

Boruto = Naruto

Sarada = Sakura

Kawaki = Sasuke

Sumire = Hinata

With this in mind its obvious what the pairings are

KawaSara = SasuSaku

BoruSumi = NaruHina

BoruSara = NaruSaku/NaruSasu

KawaSumi = SasuHina

Boruto is the new Naruto, Sarada the new Sakura, Kawaki the new Sasuke, and Sumire the new Hinata.

This is not to say that their clones, but history repeats itself constantly in Naruto, its a common theme in both romantic, platonic, and rival relationships.

So Boruto repeating the same theme shouldnt be unexpected, infact it should be obvious and ppl shouldnt be angry about something thats been happening in Naruto for years with multiple characters that nobody complained about then but are suddenly complaining now.

To make a long story short, If Boruto follows the same theme OG Naruto did which its already done pretty danm closely, its obvious what the endgame is gonna be.

KawaSara & BoruSumi

People can say they dont want SasuSaku and NaruHina 2.0 all they want but none of them had that energy when OG Naruto pairings repeated several previous ones and just accepted it as one of Naruto’s themes, Boruto is doing the exact same thing yet only now people have an issue, but it doesnt change the fact that this is infact a very apparent theme in OG Naruto and Boruto now, so it should come as no surprise to anyone when and if the endgame are KawaSara and BoruSumi since all the signs were there from the very beginning.

10 Another theme in Naruto that has never changed is how a girls feelings for a guy never changes no matter what, even if their dead, a criminal, or marries someone else, if a girl genuinely and wholeheartedly loves a guy she will NEVER move on to anyone else.

Sakura says this in reference to both her and Hinatas feelings, but this statement applies to every girl in Naruto.

Tsunade never moved on from Dan

Rin never moved on from Kakashi

Konan never moved on from Yahiko

Karin never moved on from Sasuke

Kurenai never moved on from Asuma

Going by this pattern it should be obvious atleast how one characters romance is never gonna change.

Sumire

BoruSumi right now is the only Semi canon ship thus far thats been confirmed officially, this makes every Sumire ship other than BoruSumi dead on arrival.

Sumire is genuinely inlove with Boruto, the kanji used to describe her love is explicitly romantic and passionate, not a minor childish crush, but genuine love and longing.

Because of this there is no debate, the only potential relationship for Sumire is Boruto and if she doesnt end up with him then she’ll remain alone like every other girl who lost their loves.

Every other ship is up in the air right now because theres no explicitly confirmed romantic feelings from any other characters so far, ppl can argue Sarada has because of a blush and her closeness to Boruto etc but thats not official confirmation, thats just fandom interpretation of what her relationship with Boruto and expression means, but nothing officially confirmed or stated to back it up.

Bonus: This is the final point I’ll make but it is an important red flag for the ship

BoruSara is the most incestuous ship in the entire Naruto franchise

Needless to say the Hyuuga, Uchiha, and Uzumaki/Senju clans had to engage in some level of incest to keep their clans kekkei genkai and bloodline going for literal centuries. Tsunade is a prime example of what diluting the bloodlines does and Naruto as well.

Tsunade didnt inherit Hashirama’s wood style nor the Uzumaki adamantine chains despite being their descendant and only a third generation at that.

Naruto was half Uzumaki which cut the life force and chakra reserves Uzumakis are known for having in half, and he also didnt inherit the Adamantine chains despite being half Uzumaki.

In short the clans had to engage in some lvl of incest and it couldnt be too distant either, yall do the math from there.

So Sarada and Boruto would basically be mating with a distant relative which is awkward as hell. You may argue well the same applies to NaruHina and their a couple and to that I say yea, your not wrong, but thanks to Minato the Uzumaki genes had been significantly diluted so its not as awkward so it can atleast somewhat get a pass.

Anyway besides that, theres also the issue of their fathers being reincarnated brothers, and their relationship being modled after Kishimoto and his own brother, so to have characters based on him and his brothers relationship, to have his and his brothers kids end up together would just be weird af.

And before you mention SasuSaku happening despite it being his brother with his wife, Kishimoto actually said his relationship with his wife is like neither SasuSaku or NaruHina, just that his wife has similarities to Sakura because his wife is also a strong willed character.

In short, his wife is just strong willed like Sakura, but he flat out said his relationship is like neither NH or SS, so this argument is invalid. Kishimoto explicitly said Naruto and Sasuke’s bond is based on his and his brother, but he never explictly said his wife was based on Sakura, just that their similar.

Lastly, despite the obvious incest of the past, Kishimoto has never made any modern day incestuous ships with the only exception being NaruHina which is atleast somewhat diluted making it somewhat passable. Plus the Hyuuga genes are dominant, so the Hyuuga genes largely outweighed the Uzumaki ones.

Boruto and Sarada however would be a mix of 3 different incestuous clans, Uzumaki, Uchiha, and Hyuuga, which is a little excessive compared NH, and as I said Kishimoto has never made any modern day incest pairing with the exception of one which was greatly diluted making it largely one clan.

BoruSara however even though the Uzumaki would be extremely diluted, the Hyuuga and Uchiha genes would be equal, making them way more closely related than NH are. After all, Naruto is a descendant of Ashura, and Sasuke of Indra, and Hinata of Hamura, so to have them be in a relationship when

1 their the children of reincarnated brothers based on real life twin brothers

2 their clans are full of centuries of inbreeding

3 Kishimoto has left the Uchiha, Uzumaki and Hyuuga clans separate for a reason.

The only mixture has been the Uzumaki with the Senju and Hyuuga, but the Uchiha? they’ve never mixed with any other clans, especially not of the big name ones and I doubt its gonna happen now.

Anyway this is long enough so I’ll leave it here, sorry this is so long but I was just trying to make sure I clarified my points at best a possible.

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